#velvet goldmine fanfiction

[v-e-l-v-e-t-g-o-l-d-m-i-n-e]

For the Velvet Goldmine fans out there who may like to read old fanfiction, do you guys know that there is an old Velvet Goldmine fanfiction archive that still works?

It's the archive Satellite of Love!

The last update was on 2005 and some fics are to external websites that no longer exist, but a lot of it can still be accessed.

#Velvet Goldmine #velvet goldmine fanfiction #remembered this one the other day and i had to check if still worked #glad to know it still does #some of it is ofc not very good but there is also hidden gems

[holy-loki]

so… seeing as it’s coming up, who wants to help me organize a fan event to celebrate 25 years of velvet goldmine this fall? (tags for more info!)

#velvet goldmine fans i’m summoning you #i just want us to get together and like #release a bunch of fan art (new and/or old) #and fanfiction #or even stories and experiences you have of the movie #playlists/moodboards/literally anything #and then a massive watch party for anyone who’s interested #i wanna do this so so bad #velvet goldmine

[appallingblu]

How have I been spending my nights you may ask? Doing school work? Learning lines? No. I have spent them writing my Curt Wild/Arthur Stuart fic…

#more important than homework #priorities #velvet goldmine #curt wild #ewan mcgregor #brian slade #arthur stuart #christian bale #jonathan rhys meyers #todd haynes #glam #glam rock #fanfic #fanfiction

[best-fictional-band-poll]

The top FOUR bands from this poll will go through! Good luck!

#preliminary round #interstella 5555 #just roll with it #show by rock #velvet goldmine #Splatoon #the Multiplayers #Ruby gloom #daria #letterkenny

[miseries-mistress]

i have an issue with some of yall ewan mcgregor girlies who write fanfiction. like I'll watch the most jaw dropping, toe curling, back arching ewan mcgregor character in a movie and then move immediately to tumblr to find some fics of this delicious character and there's NOTHING.

like where are yall for Perry MacKendrick (Our Kind of Traitor)??? his hair? magnificent. his personality? jaw dropping. but there is absolutely nothing about him. i mean he is a fucking professor for gods sake.

and don't get me started on curt wild (velvet goldmine). there are only a couple of fics, which is better then nothing, but i am a slut for him. his entire being? panty dropper. his hair? ethereal. his personality? i would eat him up like its my last meal. like you guys are slacking on ewan mcgregors characters

every time i finish another movie i go to @kneamet to see if they have anything on ewans character from the movie i just watched, (it's sad ik)

this is shameful and i demand more fics of ewan mcgregors less popular characters

#ewan mcgregor #ewan mcgregor x reader #ewan mcgregor avatars #ewan mcgregors characters #curt wild #patrick mckenna #mark renton #christopher robin #ewan mcgregor x you #velvet goldmine #jonathan mcquaryy #reader insert #Oliver #beginnings (movie) #i beg pls #more fanfics #i beg of yall #i beg of thee #more ewan fics #curt wild x Reader #our kind of traitor #obi wan kenobi #fanfic writing #writers on tumblr #writing community #writer things

[whatifiexploded]

hey guys

just thought i would make a bit of a introduction post cuz why not

my interests include but are not limited to: saltburn, scott pilgrim, top gun, it's always sunny in philadelphia, fight club, the wild west, the sims, arrested development, weird gay movies, commentary youtubers, garfield, pictures of monkeys doing silly things, fanfiction, 2010's pop music, and finding homoerotic subtext in literally everything i watch

my favorite movies are: scott pilgrim vs the world, ferris buellers day off, brokeback mountain, top gun (both of them), back to the future, velvet goldmine, the living end, donnie darko, alien, little shop of horrors, bill and teds excellent adventure, my cousin vinny, scream, 10 things i hate about you, asteroid city, rocketman, and the original alice in wonderland

my favorite musicians are: black country new road, wham, XTC, jeffery lewis, mom jeans, jpegmafia, soft cell, new order, the microphones, lil uzi vert, alex g, beastie boys, bjork, CZARFACE, david bowie, duran duran, ecco2k, fiona apple, marty robbins, nicki minaj, plumtree, sublime, the front bottoms, the smiths, the cure, and ween (if you can't already tell, i love music)

my pinterest is @jakegyllenhaalfanboy42 (don't make fun of my username i think it's very funny), my letterboxd is under the name greebleneeble, and heres the link to my spotify

#about me #i'm just putting this out there cuz i like finding people who like the same stuff as me #so like if you think i sound even a little bit cool hmu🙏

[raytorosaurus]

maybe this is a 'hot take' for which i apologize but. i feel like fanart is a big aspect of this too- how different even is it to make 'rpf' of gerards stage characters as opposed to fanart of it. it's essentially only a different medium. keeping it separate from gerard (Person In Reality Who Has A Life) outside of (character he made up to have fun with) can also easily be an invitation for fans to have fun with it too. which is why a healthy relationship with it can and does bring good things. in theory i mean. ive never seen an mcr fanfic i really liked but :p

yeah i see what you mean, it's one of the reasons that the step from tumblr (or twitter) fandom to the ao3 tag feels like. quite an arbitrary place to draw the line? as if the same thoughts and behaviours are fine right up into they're intentionally put to prose - but images or even comics are okay, textposts discussing their emotions and states of mind as extrapolated from live shows or song lyrics, putting research into constructing timelines of their lives or compiling facts about them as people - even writing (sometimes quite detailed) sexually explicit posts/tags about them is common around here. i do a lot of these things too - i'm not saying they're inherently wrong or bad - but i genuinely don't see how they're any less prone to being disrespectful or invasive or comically removed from reality than a writer putting them in a situation lol. they all involve some level of assumption, scrutiny, and interpretation.

there are definitely valid arguments to make against engaging with rpf in a fandom sense! i totally respect that, and it's something i felt kind of ashamed/guilty about when i first got into mcr, so i understand the reservations. it's just that...the way i see it, i truly think those arguments just as reasonably apply to so much of what happens in any fandom involving real people. behaviours that are extremely common and far from unique to the online fan spaces of today, to the point where avoiding them is a more conscious decision than engaging in them. i respect if people do make that choice, but...that isn't any of us who are running mcr fanblogs yk? haha.

anyway yeah. i agree with you anon, i reckon most people's definition of what does and doesn't entail rpf is just a lot narrower than the reality. there's a lot of extremely beautiful, highly-skilled emotive fanart out there, for which i'm so appreciative! i 100% don't mean it as an insult when i say those often a different kind of rpf. so are the emotive posts about how much this tour means to all the guys, how happy they are, how much they love each other and how they're all friends. i'm not saying these things are untrue, i'm just saying they absolutely don't paint an unbiased holistic picture of real human beings and their genuine emotional states hahaha. neither does fanfiction. and i just think it's impossible to not realise that if you're engaging with fanfic in any kind of thoughtful way, as opposed to reblogging textposts about them on tumblr that also project a lot onto them, yk?

and okay. i also think "the bible/succession/velvet goldmine etc etc is rpf too! shakespeare wrote rpf!" is equally as reductive as "rpf is when fangirls write about band members boning each other." as always, there's just so much more nuance there. what does and doesn't make rpf is a lot more about intent, and if you're parasocially attached to these people as deeply as we all are, most of us just share that same intent. and from what i've seen (though in fairness this is the first real person fandom i've been in, and i only really talk to other adults) it tends to be the people actively engaging with fanfic who are a better at accepting how much of fandom is pure projection and assumption based on very limited information. and that acceptance is a huge part of having a healthier relationship with celebrities/bands/bandom (along with the conscious acknowledgement that these people don't owe us anything at all besides the shows we bought tickets for - least of all insight into their personal lives or private thoughts.)

like genuinely? free your minds. we're all making shit up based on the little parts we see, i think it's healthier and more fun to openly accept that. who cares what's real when we can talk about things in terms of narratives and arcs and metaphors - none of which truly exist in real life, which is infinitely complex and individual and messy. or, more precisely, who cares what's real as long as you know what isn't! and keep that stuff far far away from the real human people involved in the band.

#my god im sorry this is so long and probably very repetitive. djdmfjdj. #but yeah im with you anon #answered #mcr talk

[dughole]

how do major bowie fans feel abt velvet goldmine? like it’s both so divorced from any (bowie) reality & yet sooooo clearly commenting on aspects of his career even if it is mostly wardrobe and vibe… like do y’all consider it to b reverent pastiche of his career or like.. offensive fanfiction.. or something in the middle xx

[veloursdor]

🧃 ☁️ 🥝 🧩 🍬 that should keep you occupied

winter, you're a real one 🫡😭💕

for this ask

🧃 ⇢ share some personal lore you never posted about before

mmmm... when i was a kid there was a TV show called "what we women keep silent" (lo que callamos las mujeres) and i remember the episode that impacted me the most was the one where a young kid gets lost and their parents never found them ever again. queue to me everytime i was at a department store with my parents hiding from them in between the clothing racks.

☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username?

my love for velvet goldmine and my very limited knowledge of the french language 💀😅💀

🥝 ⇢ do you lie a lot? what's the most recent lie you told?

if i lied a lot i would say i don't lie a lot which would be a lie but then, i would also say that if i didn't lie a lot which then would be the truth... bit of a conundrum i'd say 💀. no, but seriously, i don't like lying because then i get anxiety thinking of the lie i just told, trying to keep track of it while thinking people are going to figure it out and hate me for lying

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

untagged non-con and untagged hardcore sexual violence.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

i wish padmé was as complex and interesting in canon as everyone makes her out to be in fanon.

#ask games #winter thank you for helping me procastinate those wips #these questions really had me thinking

[holdoncallfailed]

things people have said upon meeting me for the first time that my own roommates have mentioned i'm known for

liking blur

liking pavement

liking 90s music in general

being a tumblr user in 2023

liking the movie velvet goldmine

writing blur fanfiction.

i can literally never show my face in public again at this point. i can't let any of this be my reputation among my peers

#are any of these inaccurate? no. #but do you know what it's like to have someone you've never met call you over from the other side of a room during a party by saying #'oh yeah you're still really into tumblr right? [roommate] told me!!!' #it's very embarrassing!!!!!!!!! #text

[holy-loki]

guys. it’s my 21st birthday 🎉

in honor of my birthday, i would love it if y’all shared with me your favorite Velvet Goldmine fanfiction and/or fanart !!!! or honestly just talk to me about the movie lol

much love ❤️

#velvet goldmine #velvetgoldmine25th #25yearsofvelvetgoldmine

[hxhhasmysoul]

Hi....If you don't mind, can I ask, what are your top 10 (or top 7) favorite media (can be books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series)? Why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....

These questions always have me like... do I know 10 of anything?

The order doesn't indicate anything, I will number them to keep track.

Gunnerkrigg Court by Tom Siddell- I could write that I love it because it has Coyote and end there because that'd be enough. But I also like so many of the characters Annie, Kat, Shadow and Robot, and Parley and Smit and like so so many of the characters. And most of all I love the world building and the story. God how amazingly it is set up.

Digger by Ursula Vernon- The black and white art style is stunning. The story and world building are just so so amazing. My inner anthropology enthusiast connects very deeply with this anthropology coded comic. And also it has Grim Eyes, and Ed and Shadow Child.

Blame! by Nihei Tsutomu - This is still the most beautiful comic I've seen. Idk what about it resonates with me so much but I regularly just like to open volumes at random and look at it. The concept is good too, don't get me wrong. And it's like a 10 vol manga that kinda has like 2 characters that matter and most pages don't have any dialogue or writing at all...

Every single piece of Kon Satoshi's - literally everything that man made is amazing. It's beautiful for one. But also everything he made was about perception of reality. About how reality is formed from the subjective human mind. How it is formed from imperfect memory and lack of full knowledge because it's impossible to have all the information. etc. He hasn't made much, his life was cut far too short. You can watch everything in a week and you should.

The Pillow Book by Sei Shounagon - This book is such a vibe. Shounagon can be subtle yet savage. It's a very easy read too, it's very relaxing. And you can just open it at random and read a bit and just enjoy its beauty.

Hunter x Hunter by Togashi Yoshihiro - It traumatised me, I haven't recovered since. It has permanently merged with my consciousness. It includes Gon and Killua and many other characters I love and very neat writing and a bs power system that's absolutely amazing.

Jujutsu Kaisen by Akutami Gege - It traumatised me, I haven't recovered since. It has permanently merged with my consciousness. It includes Yuuji and Kenjaku and some very neat writing and some frustrating writing and a bs power system that's absolutely amazing.

Parenthesis by Élodie Durand - It's one of the best uses of comic as a medium I've ever seen. The theme in itself is very much up my alley because it's about memory, and perception and the mind. But the way it uses comic... I don't think this story could've been told in any other medium, or if it was it just wouldn't be so much...

Mononoke (2007) by Toei Animation - Fuck me it's beautiful. I'm very not normal when it comes to textile art and it's like textile art but anime... And the stories are fucking amazing. It has a whole story about koudou the traditional art of incense ... There's nothing better than this.

The Duchess (2008) - It's a very entertaining fanfiction about the fascinating woman that was Georgiana Cavendish. Her biography is also a very good read but heavier, but also more nuanced. And Keira Knightley and Hayley Atwell are amazing in it. Plus the visuals...

___

I think I reached 10, yay. Honorable mentions to Berserk by Miura Kentaro - it's just beautiful; Avatar the Last Airbender - it still holds up after all this time; The Witcher aka what my teenage self loved (2 short stories books and the 4 volumes of the saga, the 5th book is so bad you should never read it); Scanner Darkly by Philip K. Dick - another fav of my teen self; Paradise Kiss by Ai Yazawa - it's about fashion and has fun characters just not George XD; Velvet Goldmine - the queerness and the fashion.

I'm 100% sure I'm forgetting a lot.

#i like comic books #and animation #mostly #about me #answering asks

[best-fictional-band-poll]

THIS IS THE OLD SUBMISSIONS POST. UP TO DATE SUBMISSIONS CAN BE FOUND HERE

Sorted alphabetically by band. Please click through to original post to see full list. IF IT'S NOT ON THE LIST, PLEASE SUBMIT IT. NO BAND IS TOO NICHE. Multiple bands from the same media are permitted.

Putting this under the cut because it's getting too long!

0-9

4*town - Turning Red

A

About Gardens - ROGUEMAKER

The Ark - I Was Born For This

ABXY - Splatoon

Arno van Eyck - Disco Elysium

B

The Band With Rocks In It - Discworld

The Beets - Doug

The Best Ever Death Metal Band in Denton - The Mountain Goats

The Bettys - Phineas and Ferb

Black Stones (BLAST) - NANA

The Blues Brothers - The Blues Brothers

Bottom Feeders - Splatoon

Boys In The Sink - Veggietales

Boys Who Cry - Spongebob Squarepants

Boyz4Now - Bob's Burgers

Boyz 12 - American Dad

Bunk Bed Junction - No Straight Roads

C

Cheetah Girls - Cheetah Girls

The Clash At Demonhead - Scott Pilgrim 

The Covey - Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes

Crash & The Boys - Scott Pilgrim

D

Daisy Jones & The Six - Daisy Jones & The Six

Damp Socks - Splatoon

De Bois Band - & Juliet

Deep cut - Splatoon

DETHKLOK - Metalocalypse

Dedf1sh - Splatoon

Decibel Jones and the Absolute Zeros - Space Opera 

Dingoes Ate My Baby - Buffy The Vampire Slayer

DJ Octavio - Splatoon

DJ Stylbator - Samurai Jack

Dr Teeth and The Electric Mayhem - The Muppets 

Drive Shaft - LOST

E

Evar Orbus & The Galactic Jizz-Wailers/The Max Rebo Band - Star Wars

F

Fig and the Cig Figs - Dimension 20 Fantasy High

The Flaming Creatures - Velvet Goldmine

Fran-Shou-Shou - Zombie Land Saga

G

Gallifrey Academy Hot Five - Doctor Who 

Gem & The Scotts - Secret Life SMP

Gillion & The Tidestriders - Just Roll With It

Girls Dead Monster - Angel Beats

Gorillaz - Gorillaz

Grifters Bone - Magnus Archives 

H

Hatsune Miku - Vocaloid

Heaven Seventeen - A Clockwork Orange

The Hectic Glow - The Fault In Our Stars

Hex Girls - Scooby Doo

I

Ink Theory - Splatoon

J

Jem & The Holograms - Jem & The Holograms

Johnny Casino and The Gamblers - Grease

Josie & The Pussycats - Archie (Comic)

The Juicy Fruits - Phantom of the Paradise

Julie and the Phantoms - Julie and the Phantoms

K

Kessoku Band - Bocchi the Rock

Killer Boy Rats - Horrid Henry

The Killjoys - My Chemical Romance

L

Lacus Clyne - Mobile Suit Gundam Seed

Lady Parts - We Are Lady Parts

The Last Days - The Last Days

Lemonade Mouth - Lemonade Mouth

Leningrad Cowboys - Leningrad Cowboys

Lincoln Hawk - Gossip Girl

Little White Lie - Little White Lie

Loded Diper - Diary of a Wimpy Kid

Love Burger - Can't Hardly Wait

Love Händel - Phineas and Ferb

LumberZacks - Milo Murphy's Law 

M

Mad Gear & The Missile Kid - Danger Days, My Chemical Romance

Maxwell Demon & The Venus In Furs - Velvet Goldmine

The Mechanisms - The Mechanisms 

Milkcan - Um Jammer Lammy

The Misfits - Jem & The Holograms

Muppet Orchestra - The Muppets 

N 

Needy Beast - Hatchetfield

O

Octoplush - Splatoon

Old Gods of Asgard - Alan Wake

ok, kids - Andre and Karl

Off The Hook - Splatoon

P

Pink Slip - Freaky Friday

Plasmagica - Show By Rock

Proto Zoa - Zenon Sweep 

R

The Rainbooms - Equestria Girls

The Rats - Velvet Goldmine

RIP - Ruby Gloom

The Risky Fix-Ins - Buzzfeed Unsolved Franchise

The Rutles - All You Need Is Cash

S

Sadie-Killer & The Suspects - Steven Universe

Sadgasm - The Simpsons

SCÄB - Home Movies

Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band - The Beatles

Sev'ral Timez - Gravity Falls

Sex Bob-omb - Scott Pilgrim vs The World

Sing Street - Sing Street 

Soundcheck - Odd Squad

Spinal Tap - This Is Spinal Tap

Squid Sisters - Splatoon

Squid Squad - Splatoon

The Stiff Dylans - Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging 

Sunset Curve - Julie and the Phantoms

The Superconducting Supercolliders - Designations Congruent With Things (Pacific Rim fanfiction)

T

The Three Lights - Sailor Moon

Trapnest - NANA

Turquoise October - Splatoon

V

The Vampire Lestat - The Vampire Chronicles

W

Wonderlands x Showtime - Hatsune Miku Colourful Stage/Vocaloid

The Wonders - That Thing You Do

Wyld Stallyns - Bill & Ted franchise

Wet Floor - Splatoon

w-3 (omega-3) - Splatoon

Y

Yoko & the Gold Bazookas - Splatoon

Z

Ziggy Stardust & The Spiders From Mars - David Bowie

#submissions

[tenderandalsotired]

me watching velvet goldmine for the first time: well, it’s a good film. I love its aesthetic and non-linear storytelling. haha throw some jokes that it’s david bowie/iggy pop fanfiction film.

me watching velvet goldmine for the second time after I’m deep in curt/arthur ship: fuck you to anyone who said rooftop scene is just arthur imagins stuff. why would they bother shooting another rooftop scene in home video aesthetic to imply that it’s a memory if the whole thing was going to exist only in arthur’s head??

also they walk past each other in the begining of the film!!

also that ewan’s tweet. 😭

#aom.txt #film #velvet goldmine

[morrigan-disapproves]

I've been reading a lot of gay obi wan fanfiction lately (don't judge me, I'm going through it) and i love the way you can INSTANTLY clock whether a sw fanfiction author has seen velvet goldmine or not

#to be clear i think the obi wan girls and gays who havent seen it should do so

[stardancerluv]

One Night, Ten Years Ago

Part 5a

Summary: what will happen to reader and Curt??

Note: this original post got flagged🤦🏻‍♀️ so I am reposting it. Here is where it all began! One Night, Ten Years Ago! (Idea..girl sneaks out of the house in the 80’s to see Curt Wild in concert...this is what happened!)

“Y/N, are you ok? Is there anything I can do to help?”

You startled awake and screamed. “What the fuck are you doing here?” You immediately held your head. Extreme pain exploded over your head, as a headache slammed you.

James, backed up holding his hands in front of him. “Y/N, I don’t mean to scare you. I was on patrol when I watched you stumbled down the road then up here to your well flat. You looked so sad, so desperate that I decided to follow you.”

“You’re a cop?”

He nodded. “Well, to be honest i had to finish my shift and that’s why I’m here and not earlier. Anyways, that doesn’t matter. I came to check on you.”

You looked at him from the stringy strands of your hair. “Why do you care?”

“I told you two weeks ago, I don’t know.” He shrugged. “There’s something about you. You’re beautiful, funny.”

“Yeah, I’m sure.”

“You are. So well, I came to check on you. You door was ajar, so I grew even more concerned so I came in and well found you like this.”

“Well get out.” You spat out.

Instead, he drew closer. “Look something happened, someone hurt you. Just talk to me.”

You fought everything you were feeling especially your head that continued to throb.

“I’m fine, really? Get out.”

“No, you don’t just have random one-night stands or well, stumble into your flat like you did unless you were hurt.”

“James, please.”

He smiled. “That’s a start, you’re using my name.”

“Fuck....” You crumpled. Tears and whimpers consumed you. You told him everything, everything over the last ten years. And he just held you, and ran his fingers through your greasy hair.

*****

Five months later, James and you announced your engagement to his friends and yours. That dawn where he found you, was a distant memory. He never judged you for your romance with Curt. He had just been a comforting and warm heart. All that you needed. The months had been wonderful, he was silly and romantic. He put you first, he loved you the way you always thought you would be.

The night, your party was held the newspapers announced the controversial divorce of Curt Wild. Weeks later, you had no knowledge of those articles but a letter arrived at your flat. When you saw the sender you almost threw it away.

You were looking at it when two strong arms wrapped around you, a kiss was pressed to your temple. “What’s that love?”

“Nothing, you wrapped it in a flyer filled with ads and tossed it into the bin.” You turned in his arms. You ran your fingers through his inky hair, “Want to get a bite at the pub tonight?” He nodded, “I was also thinking that tonight, I will finally beat you at a round of pool. And then maybe I can have a victory shag back here?”

He threw his head back chuckled. “I’m all for it baby, but as for victory shag, I will be the one celebrating since I will win, yet again.”

“You smug arse,” you smiled.

“You love it.” He smirked.

“I do.”

“Ok, then I will see you later.”

*****

The moment, the door closed you fished the flyer with the letter out. You hands shook, and your heart was racing. Your life was finally the way it should be. What could he possibly want? After that dark night you had never seen or talk to each other again till he sent this letter.

You grabbed a glass, and poured yourself some wine, you did not care that it was the morning. You opened the letter then.

Hello Y/N,

I fucked up by sleeping with her when I had you in my life. She lied, and fell for those lies.

Please tell me I didn’t destroy us forever. I don’t deserve a chance. Yet here I am, begging for one.

Her and I, are over.

My latest hit is the song is our song, I wrote it thinking of you. It’s far from perfect.

I am coming to London in a month to preform it. It was such a huge hit, your country wants me back. I wish you wanted me back.

Enclosed are tickets. Please come. Bring a friend. You don’t have to come see me, I’d like to apologize. I’ll leave that up to you.

I offer you my heart always,

Curt

Your tears, splashed and smeared the black in. It was a mess and not even a coherent later when you finished crying.

You honestly, didn’t know how you felt.

*****

The next three weeks flew by. James, had heard of Curt’s upcoming concert before you could harness your strength to tell him.

“Are you going?”

You shrugged. “Come with me.”

“Why, because you are my future. But how will I close that chapter without you.”

“Look,” he pulled you onto his lap. “I love you, if you want me there I will come but are you sure you even want to go?”

You nodded. “Thank you.”

*****

The night of the concert was dark and stormy. Before you going, you took James’s hand. “Thank you for being here.”

He grazed your jaw with a finger. “I love you, I’ll always support you.”

You grimaced. “Thank you.”

******

As the lights went down, in fear you immediately took James’s hand. A pang, of fear coursed though.

He came out, his hair was long his chest was bare and you saw as he searched the crowd. You were not close like you had been over the years but you were certain he saw you. It was like a jolt went through you. He played several old songs.

The intermission finally arrived you were not swept away but your heart had not stopped racing.

“I am going get us some beers. Yes?”

“Yes, please.”

You couldn’t move, you were struggling to find your core, your foundation. It all felt suddenly ripped out from under you. James, had been that. You loved him, you knew you did. And he loved you. This was just old memories, nothing more.

You clinked bottles with James, you easily inhaled your beer but it did little to help you feel better.

The lights went down and the light shone on Curt. He went through some more older songs. Then he stopped, you watched him inhale, you couldn’t stop yourself from inhaling too. You knew the expression that was splashed across his face. He was about to sing the song.

There's nothing in my dreams

Just some ugly memories

Kiss me like the ocean breeze

Now, if you will be my lover

I will shiver and sing

James, let go of your hand. You barely noticed as he walked away. But when you did you managed to catch up with him outside. A storm was now raging outside. You both were immediately soaked through.

“James.” Was all you could say, he turned and gave you a sad smile.

“Go back in there. Go to him.”

“But...I love you.”

He came over and cupped your cheeks. “Not like you love him. And he loves you, I can see it.”

“What about you?”

“I’ll be ok.”

You fretted and began to take the ring off. He stopped you. “You are gonna need, to help pay for your move to the states.”

Your brow wrinkled. “Really?”

“I know so. Now go in there and grab onto the kind of love that lasts a lifetime.”

“Ok, thank you.”

He nodded.

You ran then, no one could stop you.

Your heart was wrenched as heard him song, heard him scream...”Can you feel it? I gotta feel it! Can you feel it? I gotta feel it, I gotta fuckin’ feel it!” He screamed the last part. The lights went down and the crowd went crazy!

You ran over to where you could get back stage. You saw Chloe, “You made it.”

You nodded. “Where do I go?” Tears prickled your eyes.

“Just go straight ahead, straight to the back this time.”

“Ok, thank you.”

As went you back stage your heart was racing. You looked everywhere. “Y/N.” Behind you, the you heard the hoarse, scratchy American accent speak your name. That voice had been one of dreams and also nightmares being realize over the last ten years.

Your heart felt like it was bursting. You ran to each other and just held on for dear life. Tears finally fell. Nothing was ever going to separate the two of you again.

******

Flash bulbs went off like lightning. Questions flew through the air, many of the words blurred. As the two of you walked out of the gate you both saw a sea of reporters.

You took first solid step in the grand city of New York. Up to this point it had only been a city you saw in movies and postcards. Curt, kept your fingers interlaced and he squeezed. Turning, your face towards him, a pang of shyness sliced through you. You smiled over at him and tucked some hair behind your ear. He held up his other hand. Everyone silenced.

He looked at you and mouthed and softly whispered, I love you, here we go.

“Hi everyone. I would like to introduce you to the girl, the only one I ever loved. It all started one night and ten years ago!”

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