#venty post

[zebulontheplanet]

When you have a good day and start questioning all your struggles because one good day makes you feel like all the other days where you need support are fake. Love it

#autism #tw vent #venty post #zebrambles

[kaesaaurelia]

Ah, my old work nemesis, Forgetting The Nice Lunch I Made Myself In The Fridge. :c

#kaesa op #venty post #it also had breakfast in it but that's an easier fix since I'll be in half an hour early

[not-sure-what-im-feeling]

Sobbing crying screaming throwing up (/neg but also /nsrs) I keep trying to write so I used one of those websites that entices you to write! And everything was going great I wrote a bunch of Patton whump! And then I took a minute to think about how to continue and it DELETED IT ALL I AM GOING TO BLOW UP THE INTERNET THIS IS SO SPONGLE IT DONGLES I MIGHT CRY

#writing #venty post

[darkxwolf17]

THE FUCK you mean i paid over 100 dollars for this shit im going to kms

#“clip studio paint is so good for artist blah blah bla” #NO ONE FUCKING TOLD ?? ME???? IT WOULD RANDOMLY CORRUPT SHIT AT THE DROP OF A HAT #LIKE YEAH IT WOULD BE A GOOD ART SOFTWARE IF IT DIDNT TRASH HOURS OF WORK #venty post

[lvigilantes]

Guys, sorry that there have been no updates for a long time, I discovered Genshin impact 😭 (guess who I already want in my collection 😁)

#made in ibis paint #finger drawing #artists on tumblr #art #genshin impact #genshin barbatos #venty #venty post #genshin fanart

[gracien-system]

We will wrench our way into the heart of the world and rip asunder every evil until there is nothing but a hollow machine left in its place. We will do the job God refuses. We will burn ourselves to nothing to let the world live.

Is that what you want?

Is that what we want?

I would martyr myself if it meant a second chance.

We would sacrifice everything. Should we? Should we?

Is that not what we've done our entire life?

Is that not what everyone wants us to do?

LET ME PULL THE TRIGGER DAMMIT.

#before we get asks #we're okay. #We aren't suicidal. #We're just frustrated and tired. #venty post #poetry

[t4t-thirstposting]

I asked a guy for his contact info and he just responded “Why would I give it to you? You are just a stranger” and I got so embarrassed that I went, oh oke, sorry, and just walked away while he was trying to say something and honestly like, you could have been nicer, my rsd is triggered

#venty post

[zebulontheplanet]

Was looking through the packet for autism and ID services and I don’t think I’m going to qualify for anything really. They had a self assessment for things that you do, and I can do about 90% of them. But they didn’t get into the big stuff I can’t do like go out alone, go grocery shopping, be alone for long periods of time, etc.

All of it was things that I can do. (These are actual things from the report) Like, operate a microwave oven, use a can opener, dress myself, etc.

I just feel like they’re gonna say “well you did fine on this so good luck” but like no. I’m not fine. I just feel like it should have gone in more detail and gotten more information.

#zebrambles #autism #medium support needs #actually autism #actually autistic #intellectual disability #tw vent #kinda venty #venty post

[kaesaaurelia]

So I got a temp assignment for Thursday and Friday and it's going to suck but I've been looking for a job for a YEAR and feeling like shit about it. So I'm hoping to feel like shit in a different way, at least. But, also, I'm realizing at Bad O'Clock AM that I never got a text back from my therapist re: rescheduling tomorrow. Which. Ugh.

#kaesa op #venty post

[not-rude-ginger]

I am very sick of people taking headlines and shrieking about "say their name".

Guys.

Gals.

People.

Their name is in the article. Read the article.

The headline is to grab attention.

Y'know how Matt Groening coloured the Simpsons yellow so people would notice it in the fuzz of changing channels?

(once upon a time the only way to change channels was by going in order so you'd flick as fast as you could so all you saw was fuzz and the yellow stood out because it was unusual --- I am old!!)

The headline is the yellow skin. It's to get your attention, and you're much more likely to read something that says "16 year old does thing" or "This woman changed her country" because the thing that's catching your eye is their actions. Not their name because they aren't famous (yet).

Easiest example of this is when the first Thor movie was announced the headline said "Marvel takes chance on unknowns" for Hemsworth and Hiddleston. Because no one knew who they were.

The fact that they were unknown, unlike RDJ or Ed Norton or Samuel Jackson, was the interesting thing about the information!!

Now, their names would be in the headline, because they would grab your attention, but not when you didn't know them!

Screaming "say their name" at headlines is not activism.

Demanding "Say Their Name" when the police/government try to dehumanise a victim of their brutality is activism. Refusing to let someone be a statistic is activism.

Refusing to read more than a headline is not activism. Having their name in a headline would actually detract from it, because you'd be so busy going "who?" That you wouldn't necessarily register the rest of the line.

This isn't about people sharing the contents of articles to explain why it's good, that's fine. It's this strange, almost angry thing of starting that enthusiasm with "Their Name Is [name]!!" like the article doesn't contain it, that's exasperating.

#venty post #headlines #just read the article!

[darkxwolf17]

twitter actually sucks why are people so rude

#venty post

[alighted-willow]

It's interesting how cultural norms, even subcultural norms, can effect how even the most benign and simultaneously fundamental aspects of the self.

Case and point: a classmate of mine back in an art course two years ago conversed with me briefly while naturalistically observing me (as in, you know, existing in the same area as myself for a short time) and asked me before the end of class if I was Italian (I am).

Everyone else asks me when I'll go to counseling or start taking meds to ‘fix’ my fidgeting.

Now, to make an obvious point, those things can be very helpful! I'm actually starting Adderal tomorrow morning to help with my unspecified sleep disorder, memory issues, and proprioception! But it's such an insult to be told or have it implied to you, constantly, that the way I express myself is a problem because it is “counter to societal norms”.

If they were intrusive or disruptive I would get it, but we're talking about drawing while watching movies with the family or cooking while entertaining guests (the food being for the guests)— I'm talking about swaying when standing, talking with one's hands, or pacing a room when laughing. I love these things! People are always saying that we need to move more and that living a too sedimentary life style is damaging, but then they see someone who does that and suddenly the problem is ‘moving too much’???

Unnervingly often of late, folks have been pointing it out to me. Oh no, I sat forward in my chair again. Oh no, I stopped sitting cross legged because it started hurting my hips. Oh no, I made a "clack" noise instead of saying “eyup”. Whatever will your fragile, insecure self doooooo?

I'm talking about this mostly because I've brought up that I'm seeking treatment for my memory issues (ADHD), proprioception (ASD) and sleep troubles (hiiigh, Long-Covid) to a few friends, family, and medical professionals— and the responses have been staggeringly consistent. My online friends have been absolutely lovely in their support and actively helpful, giving me advice where I needed it and helping me maintain my spirits as time dragged on. In person folks… did not.

The first friend I talked to, while meaning well, could only respond with how much less I'll squirm once I get the proper medication. I love her, but I really wish she phrased things differently. My bio-Mom (long story) has been pretty firm in being against me getting treatment (but I'm an adult so she can go pound sand) and has routinely pointed out little quirks or oddities in my movements (such as the sitting forward thing). The nurse practitioner I saw tried to convince me that my issues were all stemming from anxiety and that all I needed was counseling to help me conceal my hyperactivity and so that I could “learn to live” with all of the issues I had gone to her for. My doctor, thank the stars, vetoed her when I wasn’t around and so I received a call a few hours later telling me to go to the pharmacy in a day or two.

Is there a point? Did I have a reason for writing this all out other than to vent out my frustrations? Not really. I've been waiting for my lentils to boil and then cool so this was just me waiting out the clock. The closest thing to a moral is this: if someone reading this has a problem with one of their friends jittering their leg, ask yourself why.

Why are you so offended by someone standing when your sitting? Why do you find it annoying when someone's drawing instead of watching? Why are you so incensed and offended when someone does something as innocuous and benign as walk from one end of the room to the other and back? Ask yourself that and go fix your problem so that you stop nitpicking and brow beating the people around you.

#venty #venty post #venting #ADHD #hyperactivity #hyperactive #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #ADHD-C #I am so sick of hyperactivity being medicalized #And so done with people infantilizing hyperactive people #We cannot #I repeat- CANNOT #talk about the ACTUAL PROBLEMS with hyperactivity #because every time we- the people who actually have it #who have it as part of our hardware- #get told by those stuck with the indignence of our existence how annoying our bodylanguage fundamentally is. #This. Is not. About *you*. #Your minor inconvenience need not be shoved into our faces every time we breathe.

[heavywizardsguy]

Idk if this is Only me whos notices it but something that sucks about being fat or chubby n afab in gen or generally fem presenting is that it really feels like ur not allowed to make jokes about it. Like idk man fat guys n masc presenting ppl seem 2 be allowed to make a lot more lighthearted jokes about it then fat ladies or feminine presentin ppl n its like ur Just supposed to sit there n hate the way ur body looks with nothing to break it up like ur not allowed to cope with humor or anything cuz it just seems weird for us in specific to do it. No shame to fat dudes/masc ppl here cuz like they all deserve the world too n have a Unique set of challenges with this but like. Idk this specific one it just feels like its More shameful for us in specific to cope thru humor/poke fun at a general part of ourselves

#gill thinks(?) #this isnt to say that coping thru humor with body issues/body shit in gen is always healthy #obv i dont think its good if ur poking fun at things to an unhealthy extend #but like. idk. it feels like. weird 2 even describe myself as chubby or w/e because of the ppl around me #n with humor 2 cope specifically like. i think about my weight n my lungs in the same way ig and i feel like im less allowed to make jokes #about the first #w/e #weight #weight talk #venty post #vent post #vent #rant #not sure if i need the vent post tags but jic someone doesnt wanna see those i tagged em 👍^^

[gracien-system]

Here's to the bitter loneliness of being unable to trust those physically closest to you, and being too exhausted to reach out to those you genuinely trust.

Here's to everyone who gets more joy out of watching a conversation than being part of it, for one reason or another.

...I wish we could stop being afraid like this, I wish we had more energy to spare.

Maybe someday. Hopefully someday.

#venty post #we make ourselves out to be low maintenance #really though #we just don't show what we need #on some level I don't think we really *know* what we need #we just know that we need something #not what it is or how to get it #or even how to find either of those things out #hah.

[anotherfuckingventblog]

Why am I? who am I? Why do I exist please help my mental state is breaking at the seams

#tw vent #venty post

[sawtrappedbathroom]

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#adams posts #venty post #repetitive words tw