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toastsnaffler · 4 months
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I have to be up for work in 3 hours and I'm gonna be real I think ive hit the point where I might not be getting any sleep at all. for fucks sake.
#ive survived all nighters before ill scrape through the day itll just be Rough. at least i dont have much in my schedule#im not gonna take the dose this morning bc i think thats a really bad idea to do on zero hours sleep#and i can't risk two consecutive all nighters. like I have done that before but not while working full time 💀 its not worth it#drafting an email to my doctor to let her know im skipping day 2 + ask advice re. whether its worth resuming again on day 3#bc she did list 'trouble sleeping' as a common symptom that often passes but i need to know a) how long it usually takes to pass and-#b) if this is unusually bad + would she rec supplementing with a sleep aid or just switching tack entirely and trialling a non stimulant#by this stage of the night i dont think its actually acting anymore bc i took it at 7am and its now 3am. it shouldnt last that long#i think its more just triggered my preexisting insomnia. my ability to sleep is very very sensitive sometimes + hates routine changes#just so fucking frustrating bc ive spent the past 2 months nailing my sleep routine + ive had a couple weeks of being able to-#go to bed like 9:30-10 and it only takes an hour to get to sleep and i get usually a good 7 hours sometimes 8 only waking once halfway#and i dont feel like utter shit like yeah im tired but from work not so much lack of sleep.... and now thats all fucked lmao#whatever. maybe i should just take the next dose anyway#ill see. gonna try to sleep for another 2 hours but once it hits 5 im not doing this anymore ive been trying for six hours already man#i cant even remember when i last pulled a full all nighter. it might be longer than 6 months ago... i was doing so well :-(#im so mad i was so hopeful it would have SOME good effect like ik its not a miracle worker + these things take time but so many people-#seem to have an immediate positive response even if its probably a placebo. and i got fuck all except This.#i was searching on the reddit for sleep issues and other ppl only seem to report bad ones on higher doses or years in..#like damn. do i even have adhd then. ik thats a stupid thing to think bc obvs everyones body metabolises meds differently etc but still#it is ALMOST HALF 3 and i am FUCKING TIRED#UGH. alright bedtime round 189447383#.diaries#.vent
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lemonisntreal · 1 year
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Do you have a Tone Deaf version of Clay Calloway?
(Perfectly fine if you don't. I was just curious, plus I love all your redesigns) 🦁🎸
SORRY THIS TOOK FUCKING FOREVER LMAO [been sitting in my inbox since FEBRUARY THIRTEENTH, HOLY SHIT :D]. YEAH, here he is :pppp a solid draft for you
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Lowkey [highkey] gave up on the clothing wrinkles on the arms, but I still like how it turned out I think. I don't have much on him in terms of rewrite, but I do have some, so I'll dump it all here under the cut.
I swear I love asks, please feel free to say/ask whatever, I'm just horrible at answering in a reasonable time-frame because I always want to make it this beautiful masterpiece and end up turning all of them into full-on posts- or, at least I want to ~_~
Headcanonssss-
Ash gave him that button off her jacket [probably needs to be resized I'm realizing lol] [also I totally adopted this headcanon from someone elses post- might've been yours. Whoever came up with it I love it <3]
Born during the reformation that happened after the war- basically, nobody was really fighting anymore during this time, but some big people in power were still being stupid [aka: not letting their prisoners go]
So that would be somewhere around 1947? Which would put his age at 61 in my universe [which is in 2008- the times are pretty much random, nothing really lines up irl. Ignore how they use tech and other things that shouldn't have been invented yet lol]
He grew up when the Skunk Dolls were new and popular and stuff. And he loved them- so much that the band actually kinda inspired his music career
[Skunk Dolls also made loads of protest songs btw. War stuff]
Takes a ridiculous amount of care with his mane, and if he lets you touch it, that's a true sign of trust
So the Piglets always like to play with it, and Ash has given him braids a few times
He's had that scruffy red jacket since his early days
I should draw patches on it-
Ash probably'll give him a quill or two to put in it too with all the patches and repair stitches
He wears a lot of plaid, I just didn't wanna draw it <3
Rough and torn up clothes too
Everything he owns has some sort of smudge or tear in it from motorbiking and/or just being himself <3
His ears are pierced in almost every way imaginable, and when Ash found out, she went CRAZY
Cue her getting him to try on a bunch of stuff
He likes wrought iron jewelry and has never been a fan of anything with gemstones in it
Buster is terrified of him, but Clay is just kinda a blunt person and it doesn't mix well with Buster sometimes. They get along eventually tho. There was also some really bad timing with the circumstances of how they even met in the first place too lol-
Johnny is also. Super terrified.
Buster and him are like "Ahhh.... that guy scares the living daylights out of me." "Ohh, thank god it's not just me-"
He has a strange out-of-pocket interest in astrology.
And in herbology and plants in general, but he picked that up from Ruby. Astrology was all his, and it is the one thing he will "nerd out" over
Also the kind of guy to make fun of you for nerding out too
Making fun of people is his love language
So is giving people food
He's not great with his words and can find it hard to express love by just telling someone. Back to the bluntness thing, you can often find him accidentally offending someone and he doesn't even realize it
The troupe very quickly learned this and it's more of an endearing trait of his to them [and to most people who know him]
REALLY good cook. Fantastic, in fact. Probably one of the best chefs out of any of the characters.
Learned the hard way that enlisting Buster's help in the kitchen is a bad idea. Also Ash isn't great either, but he actually tries to teach her some of his recipes. And she's quickly improving
Buster was just being an idiot and forgot you shouldn't microwave tinfoil
Clay travels a lot, but spends most of his time in Calatonia [he technically still lives at his and Ruby's house, but he's super scared of accidentally closing himself off again, so he only visits to check up on the flowers and maintain the property pretty much]
He's like Ash's second [and very cool] dad. Which- also intimidates Buster quite a bit :D
I feel like their dynamic could be a sitcom. Clay is Ash's awesome dad and Buster is Ash's lame [endearing] and oddly unhinged and anxious dad who feels like he has to be as cool as Clay [and always fails heehee]
Clay is more entertained by Buster's ridiculous criminal record than horrified and I don't know if that's worrying or just a classic Calloway W
He's a very nonchalant person
Ruby's death is the only time I can really think he had a legitimate emotional break that wasn't just him being snappy [which is also pretty rare]
Clay's also like an uncle to the Piglets
He's kinda just taken up the role of "super awesome miscellaneous family member" for everyone at this point
He's back performing again after Sing 2- just not frequently or putting out any new songs [on his own at least- he might do a collaboration or two with Ash]
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two-red-lungs · 1 year
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Could you write reader finding out food tlb liked from when they were human/their childhood and making it for them as a gift?
I know you wanted a fic but I have so so many thoughts about each of the boys that I'm gonna collect them all in this post!
The Lost Boys: Their Favorite Old-World Foods
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Marko:
The little Italian stallion <3333
I HC him as growing up in inner Florence, Italy, during the artistic revolution. He was fairly elite/in high demand as a model
Basically, a brat with an ego
Still despite rubbing shoulders with the greats, he loved to come home to his family’s little city house and eat his mamma’s cooking
I think Marko’s favorite ‘old world’ dish is Garmugia: a simple springtime soup with cured pancetta, lima beans, scallions, and all sorts of other green veggies
It’s not fancy or especially delicious at all. But I think the smell, the taste, would make him freeze up, flooded with memories
and maybe for a second he’d stop being a feral, combative, snapping undead animal, and you’d catch a glimpse of the athletic young human from centuries ago
Dwayne: 
My personal HC for Dwayne is he got put in a residential school for native Americans at a young age, basically ripped away from his family
He probably escaped, hightailing it out at around 16, and then survived alone on the streets of early 1800s colonizer cities with the rest of the dredges of society 
(Which to me gives him a very strong “I fucking hate capitalism I truly hate this country and deep down I do genuinely want to see this broken system burnt to the ground, also FUCK cops” mentality)
I think Dwayne’s most memorable old-world food would be Gingerbread. Not the gingerbread we know: a soft, cake-like bread flavored with molasses, ground ginger, and cinnamon. Very dark and not very sweet
He worked odd (and illegal) jobs to stay alive and when winter rolled around street vendors would sell big hot slices of the stuff
Bringing him some real, legit circa-1810-gingerbread would probably make him remember the far-distant, little moments of actual joy he had in his human life
AND you’d probably be able to convince him to actually talk about his past for once
Paul:
Country boyyyy, I love youuuu
In my mind Paul is rural midwest, late 1800s when the industrial revolution was really kickin’ off and the cities were poppin (with drugs and alcohol lmao)
He was probably raised on a farm & did farmwork most of the time. Picture him in a low ponytail and work duds, pitching hay. That was probably for the best because that dude 100% has dyslexia and a math learning disability
But oooooh he was prettyyyyy and he knew it: I think Paul eventually ran away from his family’s farm and basically became a partyboy in a big city, like New York, and was changed there
I think Paul’s favorite old-world food is (brace for the cliche) Apple Pie!
Probably a rare treat his momma and sisters would cook up in the autumn and winter: smelling a good, home-style pie now makes him think of barefoot evening sitting on the farmyard porch, listening to cicadas
Unrelated, but I think Paul- that’s right, partyboy druggie bonerboy Paulie- still remembers how to tie a hog
David:
I have conflicting thoughts abt this motherfucker
His backstory HC for me is still a little elusive, but I have some basic details for him
He comes from a pretty fucked-up biological family (probably a crazy-abusive dad and absent mother), was 100% drafted in a war at some point (I suspect the civil war), and 100% deserted his station in that war. Out of cowardice, fear, or distain, I don’t know. 
I don’t think David really has a favorite food?? He’ll eat plain rice. Plain, oily noodles. Hard-tack biscuits. Literally anything like whatever it’s not his personal thing
David like drinking and smoking. I think David’s favorite old-world vice is Irish Whiskey. Again, not the drink we think of. A lot less refined, very rough and coarse: it was the most popular and easily-accessible spirit in the 1860s 
I think it reminds him of ‘simpler times’: just him, alone, human, in a dingy old bar, getting the cheapest drink he can get, ducking his head to avoid being seen by military officials and wondering where he can run away to next
Give him a straight shot of Irish whiskey in an old-style enameled bar glass and it’s one of the only times he won’t be full-on Mansplain Manipulate Manwh0re: he’ll probably sit on a beachside bench with you, drinking in silence, watching the waves crashing far away. Lost in thought. Looking as old as he really is.
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neeneeeeeee · 4 months
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The Power of the Doctor was all over the place (finally finished Chibnall's era), and I'm glad to say Thirteen grew on me. The episode itself felt choppy, with a lot of unnecessary explosions, but I guess the last two episodes of Flux felt so desperately rushed that PoD doesn't seem too bad... Still, I felt like Thirteen's final episode at least could be split into 4 episodes, because wtf was that. It felt like a rough draft ??
Now onto characters:
Despite 13s avoidant personality, I think I feel closer to Thirteen MORE than any of the other New Who Doctors, apart from Twelve whom I felt deeply for - on an emotional level. Can't explain it properly as I've just finished Thirteen's era, but her character progression felt like a catharsis if that makes sense. And I thought it was an excellent coincidence that Ncuti didn't have the time to do the specials at the time, so Ten instead replaced him temporarily... which absolutely fits with Thirteen's cathartic regeneration at the end of PoD-- which results in bigeneration, etc etc.
Yasmin Khan....
I'm trying to understand the "subtlety" (I'm being nice here) and/or the hollowness of her character. Maybe she's just meant to be like Tegan, a passerby??? I don't get it 🤷‍♀️
Vinder: guessing they needed audience at this point and this dude was in GoT and he's pretty popular with the ladies lol, so they got him on the episode for NO purpose. The "freelance" line cracked me up.
PoD's strong points:
Ace. I feel like Sophie Alfred really understands her character's relationship with the Doctor that when you see her interact with Thirteen AND Seven, you see the entire history between them!!!!?
The Master becoming the Doctor is totally in character so I'm into it.
PoD's weak points;
The Master - what was the point of bringing him back man, it's EMBARASSING
The CLone Cyberman (get it? get it?) - again, useless to bring back, whatever 😂
Why would the Master believe Yas would come back for him? They really don't get his character 🫨😒
Lmao what a messy ass all over the place episode that tried very hard to make Yas stand out only for it to fall flat again 😭
Vinder - does this mean Vinder and Bel are from a parallel universe through a wormhole? Just like the timeless child? Just like Rose/TenToo? Someone answer!!! vinder and Bel ARE MOST DEF THE DOCTOR'S PARENTS
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cranberrymoons · 6 months
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Sending an ask about "PIRATES 😈"
PIRATES 🗣️🗣️🗣️ (and yes the devil emoji is included in the file name lmao)
this fic is so!!!! it started out as what was supposed to be a fill for the @eddiemonth pirate prompt but fully ballooned out of my control in a way that I really should have seen coming but?? still surprised me tbh. it's currently sitting at about 15k with the first 3 chapters done and Ch 4 started, but I really really want to have a whole rough draft of it finished before I start posting so there's no risk of wip abandonment
for now, I have a hellcheer prequel posted (the long fic is steddie, but chrissy is definitely there too, I love her) and here's a snippet from Ch 2 that I really like! it's loosely ofmd-inspired even though it doesn't really mirror the plot of the show but more like – the tone? if that makes sense? anyway! here's a snippet 😊🏴‍☠️
It takes most of the day, but he finally manages to corner Eddie at some point when the sun is high in the sky overhead and the crew are busy doing whatever it is that they do. He finds him in his quarters, papers spread out in front of him when Steve barges through the door with his arms folded over his chest, and– “Where are we going?” Eddie looks up from his desk, which is covered in more maps and a pile of books and an array of brass instruments. He squints at Steve where he’s leaning against the doorframe. Steve very generously does not point out that Eddie wouldn’t have to squint at all if he’d just open the fucking drapes. “None of your business,” he says after a moment, going back to his papers. Then he sucks in a breath and looks back up at Steve. “Why do you care, anyway?” “It is my business,” Steve argues. “It totally is.” He pushes off the doorframe and takes a few steps into the room to collapse in the chair across from Eddie. Eddie raises his eyebrows in mild surprise. “Would love to hear how,” he says. He folds his hands in front of him. “Or why you think you’re allowed in here without an invitation.”
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bonefall · 1 year
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Creation Myth; Afterlives
I wonder how humans fit in with your rewrite's mythology with the four gods and stuff, like there is this whole other sapient species running around, how much does someone like Midnight have to do with them? Do they have a known afterlife?
@halogenwarrior
I have a rough draft, but I haven't committed to it yet because I go back and forth on how powerful the Gods of the Seasons (Sharptooth, Sol, Midnight, and Rock for the newcomers) should be.
But here's my thoughts,
The Origin Story
Midnight scoured the island from the sea and crafted the mountains, the hills, the forests, and for each predator, she created a partner. The fox and the badger hunt the rabbits above and below the ground. The wolf chases the sheep and the twoleg is there to catch it. The owl flies by night and the hawk flies by day.
But when she came to the cat, it was too perfect to pair. She could create no equal-- it was her finest work.
So she gave them a special task; to appreciate the world for what it is, to rest and to sample all the pleasures of creation. It's why cats are so hedonistic and think they're so perfect.
But Sol was BORED. There was harmony and nothing ever went wrong, it was too easy. So he gathered up the twolegs and the dogs and taught them about games, and the silly, arbitrary rules that come with them.
They had so much fun they made more and more rules, more and more games, until they couldn't tell their rules from their reality. It's why twolegs seem so crazy, and why dogs don't know how to stop playing.
Midnight was MORTIFIED. He RUINED her hard work with silly lies like money, and politics, and not-England! But worse... there was joy in these new concepts. Cats did the task they were assigned to do and they sampled the pleasures of creation. Midnight has never forgiven her brother Sol for what he's done.
Cats are on the same level as humans-but-not-quite. They have the capacity they need to enjoy the world to its fullest, whatever happens to be IN the world at the time.
So... other answers;
Do humans have an afterlife?
I think all the animals do, but I'm not sure how it works for them since Warriors is about the cats. At the very least, dogs and humans are able to become ghosts.
I go back and forth on how powerful I want the gods to be and how their shifting power works. @troutfur gave me a suggestion a while back about the idea that there is a 'veil' that shifts, and whichever god is in control during that shift has more power than its siblings.
But I do also know that I want gods to be able to easily conjure up "pocket dimensions". Like the Dark Forest, which Sharptooth created while he was One-eye.
Additionally, the human afterlife isn't nearly as powerful as the cat one. That's a given I'm working with. StarClan can make trees grow fast, chase clouds, and make new spirits... but wherever they go, humans don't get to do that.
How much do the four gods interact with humans?
As a result of the story being focused on cats, there has to be some reason why they don't care much about them, right?
The simplest and funniest reason I can imagine is that they just don't like them. They just like cats more. Or, in One-eye's case, he got roped into a bloodfeud with this specific group of cats and he won't just give up because his pride is wounded.
Sol probably plays with humans a lot, but when he met Harry it was just. Magic.
I also go back and forth on how powerful these four really are, if they're truly CREATION GODS or just demigods, like Hercules. If it's just these four, or if there's more beyond this particular landmass.
In any case it's beyond the scope of my rewrite, lmao.
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mwahkazu · 10 days
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hi mae! i used to write quite a bit, but i stopped after a while due to burnout but here i am again lmao
anyways, if you're okay with it, could you give some writing tips/how you do your writing process? dw if you don't want to or just can't explain it! :D
hi anon! oof…you’re experience actually brought back some flashbacks for me LMAO i went through the exact same thing a couple years back! ended up losing motivation/burnout, left and then came back for a second attempt 😅
i’ll do my best to offer you what i can and things that i found helpful to get back into the groove of writing <3
( long post ahead )
writing tips:
the first thing i heavily suggest is to just write. don’t focus too much on things like grammar, whether the story flows well, dialogue, or anything just write whatever comes to mind. you can worry about those things afterwards once you’re editing and revising!
along with that do some rough drafts! i know we all hated that stuff so much when we wrote essays and stuff for school but believe me having drafts truly does help when writing a story
if you dont like how one story turned out DONT DELETE IT. save it and come back to it another time! maybe you didn’t like how it flowed but you really liked that one dialogue or description you wrote and perhaps want to build a story based off of that or add it to a current wip
decide on what it is you want to write! maybe you just want to have a blog strictly centered around one character or person, write smau’s, oneshots, hcs, etc. or maybe even a culmination of everything! all of these are considered writing and will always have an audience wanting to read them on here
one of the main reasons my burnout happened was because i gave myself too much work and a schedule. i know some authors like to have a schedules for their work but i honestly found it very pressuring which resulted in my uploading works i wasn’t proud of or that were rushed :((
write whenever you feel like it! remember that you’re your own boss on here! there’s no problem with updating once every month or every other day. writing takes time. i assure you your blog isn’t going anywhere if you leave it or take a break from writing for a couple of days
at the same time you also need to know your limits as a writer. don’t feel the need to constantly be uploading fics every single day! that’s one of the main reasons writers on here sometimes abandon their blogs or series. ofc if you’re able to handle doing so then by all means go for it. but i know for most it’s taxing and leads to a lot of burnouts and lack of motiviation
so take your time. if you have an idea for a series or story plan it out first and then once you’ve got a good idea of how you want everything to play out then you can upload it!
don’t feel ashamed about looking up things online! i for one am constantly looking up ways to describe certain things like emotion, expressions, scenes, etc. ( insert me typing “synonyms for (word)” 😭 ). it just goes to show you want to improve your writing and make it more interesting!
writing is all about trial and error. there is no wrong or right way of doing it. i know when it comes to tumblr, getting your fics recognized and read by others can be very hard with the algorithm and such relying heavily on reblogs which most fics struggle to gain a lot of as people just opt for just liking.
but please don’t be discouraged by how many notes your works receive! as long as you stay consistent and true to your writing it’s bound to reach others and receive the recognition it deserves <3
writing process:
as for my writing process it’s a bit all over the place lol
a lot of my stories/smaus i come up with due to being inspired by something! whether it’s from a song, a prompt/dialogue starter i found on pinterest, a movie/anime show, aus/tropes, or sometimes having a random thought like “what if character a and character b were this and that”
but once i have an idea i start planning it out! i recently made the transition of planning out my writing from google docs to notion and omg… it’s become a life saver i highly recommend using notion as a way to plan out your fics snd such
everything is just so organized, there are templates online to use that you can add personal touches/adjustments to to really make it your own!
usually when i come up with a fic idea i already have a character in mind that i would like to do it for but if you dont have one or are struggling to decide, pick at random my friend LMAO ik a lot of my moots sometimes use a character wheel or random pick generator online to decide on characters and from what i’ve seen it helps them a lot😭
when planning out my fics i dont focus too heavily on every little detail. it’s called the planning stage for a reason. i just focus on the major points i want to make sure i hit, write out certain ideas i have in mind for a specific scene or dialogue sequence, character/world building and all that good stuff
creating a playlist for the story also helps me a lot too! really establishes the mood of the story and even gives me some additional inspo/support! one thing i recently started doing is finding a playlist on youtube that fits the mood of my story and then opening another yt tab and searching for ambience sound and playing them both at the same time lol ( trust the process )
once i feel satisfied with my planning i move on to the writing ( the most dreadful part of all /lh ). as i mentioned in the writing tips section, i just write whatever comes to mind and keep going until i get stumped or run out of ideas
if i hit that point i take a break and focus on doing other things like working on another piece or doing something outside of writing ( cough playing stardew valley ) or talking to my lovely moots <3
this is also considered a writing tip but take breaks! i cannot stress this enough. don’t spend hours just writing! take breaks in between, distract yourself with something else. sometimes your mind just needs a break from writing for a bit.
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puperv · 1 year
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⪧   ⻩   📼 anything u can do, i can do better. ☆᠀ Tartaglia X Reader — (ɔ ˘⌣˘)˘⌣˘ c)
╰╮ ❗﹑ cw: smut (duh)꒱; gn!reader; switch reader, switch Tartaglia, masturbation, sweat ++ sweat licking, competitive sex LMAO, implied rough sex ig, kinda temperature play.
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⠀⠀⠀         ⪩      ㅤㅤ⸺ㅤㅤ۫ㅤㅤㅤ❦︎  
ฅ゛(📞﹏⁰)。 smut below, cuties.
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The sticky sounds of your mouth clinging to Tartaglia's sweaty body was heavenly, to you. The ginger normally doesn't find anything you would do gross, but this was a completely different topic. But how could you hold yourself!? The way the layer of his sweat glimmered against the heated sun drived you insane, his body being clingy was just a sign that you needed to make your hands filthy with him. To have his cum make your hands more and more sweaty and the opportunity to get off all the clothes that made it difficult to survive with the unpityfull sun.
As unpityfull as the slamming of his hips against yours suddenly stopping for him to turn the tables around and now lick all the fucked out sweat in your body, an action that could make you cum on the spot, but not being able to. Ajax doesn't like calling this a punishment, it's just a way to proove to his busted ego that: whatever you can do, he can do better.
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( ✂ ² ) ﹗A very silly Tartaglia thing that haz been in my drafts 4 a loong month ... (((;´ω`) ⅄ 💤 My reqs are always open babes (*'-⌒*)v ♡
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taintedcigs · 2 months
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all of your wips sound incredible, and considering you've authored them, i just know that whatever you already have written is nothing short of sheer brilliance—
but but but i would sell my left arm to hear more about fool for you because (a) titled after one of my fav djo songs yes pls and (b) enemies to lovers???? but cozy cabin vibes??? i would very much like to know more pretty pretty please with cherries and syrup on top
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aly you absolute ANGEL. i actually came up with that title trying to make a mashup of fool by djo AND linger by cranberries LMAO. im so glad U GOT IT HEHEHEEEE.
IM SO FREAKING EXCITED TO SHARE THAT ONE I ACTUALLY AM DESPERATELY WORKING TO PERFECT IT. I HAVE SOME WORDS IN BUT ITS A V ROUGH DRAFT SO IDK IF EXCERPTS WOULD MAKE ANY SENSE BUT ITS BASICALY THIS;
a (or two) year after the events of the upside down the gang all decides to go on a little trip to steve's fancy family cabin <3 reader and steve used to be friends but after some unfortunate events during hs they became enemies... and now hopefully they'll turn into lovers hehe!!!! and uh-oh... turns out everyone is coupled up and steve and r have to share a room... even worse... a BED!!!!
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cinnamonest · 1 year
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Hey! I just wanted to know if you plan on doing another failed escape attempt fic somewhen. They‘re just so good and i eat them up even if i don‘t really really the character😭
Ahh thank you!
Tbh I have like 40% done for Diluc's that I started like... last year lmao I just need to force myself to focus on it and finish it. Other than his, I have very rough drafts for Tighnari, Ayato, and Heizou. So it would likely be one of those. Also if hyv remembers to drag Baizhu out of whatever part of the backrooms they abandoned him in, I'll be all over that immediately bc I am obsessed with him yet suffer bc there's so little screentime of him that I can't really write much bc I have nothing to go on 🥲
I have a bad "start but not finish" habit... like if y'all could see my notepad drafts omg, it's so bad bc I'll get like 10k words into something and my brain will be like hmmm We Are Not Feeling This Anymore let us start a New One and then repeats that 15 times, then I have to cycle back through and finish them by having 4 tabs open at once cycling back and forth sporadically. Sigh
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ritens · 1 year
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hmm drifter Lane probably had his own personal hellscape that isn't Duviri. I mean Duviri is a storybook. But Lane doesn't seem the type to find escape in fairytales.
He went on the Zariman as an orphan together with his cousin Ria who was the only family he had left. Then the void jump happened and shit hit the fan, they scrambled to the vents of the ship for relative safety. His 'escape' would be more like trials he had to go through. A neat list of things, a bucket list of wishes he wanted to fulfill, twisted by the void.
Anyway he got stuck in a timeloop on the first trial. Never progressed further. This timeloop involved defeating monstrous doppelgangers (or so he thought). Really it was the Cycle of Self-Loathing he was supposed to break. Visually it could be something like a gladiator arena but make it more architectural gothic. The doppelgangers would be similar to liminus but they're donning his own face and chanting Lanes flaws and insecurities at him. They start with verbal assault then gradually move to physical attacks.
They swarmed him and no matter how many he cut down they just kept coming and coming even when he realized he was never going to make it, even when he threw down his weapons and let himself be consumed, he'd still wake up there again with the same twisted mirror images of himself attacking him.
Then one time among the doppelgangers there was a pitch black kavat (Goere). She beckoned him, showed him a way out. Lane said he can't leave without his cousin (despite barely remembering her voice at this point). The kavat then broke the news that Ria had been torn apart by her own parents shortly after he drifted away into the arena. Lane took it hard.
He was tossed into another timeline entirely lost, confused, wracked with grief. And with nobody to confide in.
And if Lane is to accompany another drifter to Duviri dreamscape at some point, I think he'd be rather devastated by some of the emotions he'd have to engage with.
This is a very rough draft. I really dislike Duviri when it comes to creating OCs it's so frustrating still lmao. makes my own world with my own rules and somehow sticks it to warframe because whatever.
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IT'S THE BOYYYY, MY [deceased ;-;] BOY-
My heart hurts whenever I write about him I'm gonna cry but he's so perfect to me you have no idea
Ok, so, I have written so much on this man because of how overly complicated I made Buster's entire family situation. But I can't. Share. A single. Crumb. Of. It. And it's killing me. Guys, I'm dying. I'm simply gonna perish if I don't write about him. So. I'm gonna headcanon dump, heehee :> [gonna do this with a bunch of other characters once I get art for them going ~_~] [I look at my drafts and weep-]
TD!Charley:
Age: 47 [deceased] Height: 3' 02" [96cm] Male - He/Him Sexuality: Aroace Build: H A T
The name is a headcanon in itself. Charley. He was never given a real canon name for whatever reason.
It just felt like it fit
Oh boy,
Ok, heavy lore time-
TW: Mentions of religious trauma and [briefly] kidnapping
[there's a fluff tab if you're wanting to skip all that]
So for a quick lore-dump, there was a HUGE war between the different animals [mammals, reptiles, and birds being the most prominent groups] that lasted from 1903-1955, before finally cutting off because a bunch of animals had practically gone extinct
Koalas being one of them
And Charley was born in late 1956, right after the war had ended, so yeah. Generational trauma's real rough-
Plus his hometown [all Koalas btw] was extremely religious and controlling over him, and he wasn't even allowed to buy his own clothes until he started to carve out his own life in Calatonia
The only thing they let him do was play music, usually with the idea that he'd be playing for the church band
[which he never did]
He was set up on arranged dates, made to feel like he was wrong for not wanting a relationship, and ridiculed for his desire to have a different life in the city- along with a lot of other things I probably couldn't fit into this post
He has a sister, Holly Moon, who is 4 years younger than him, who was seen as a golden child because she always listened and did everything their parents asked
[Parents being Darrick and Kara, for more TD lore]
He had a horrible family life before sprinting away at age 18 to Calatonia to hopefully make it big
This is where he met animals who weren't Koalas for the first time
Let me reiterate that- first time
[he'd read about other animals and seen what a few of them looked like in pictures, but never the real thing]
He learned the true meaning behind the words his family always spoke
"Make a family, there aren't many of us left"
Yeah, he was the only Koala in Calatonia for a good minute
Which kinda sent him spiraling-
Imaging you growing up in a small gated community, where you're a human around other humans, and then you leave and find out that there aren't any humans left and the rest of the world has been populated by aliens or something
He was very curious at first, which got him into some trouble
He met Harry after almost getting poached/getting ganged up on and almost kidnapped. Harry saved him, took him to calm down at his restaurant for the night, and the two quickly became friends
Ok, fluff time
Meeting Harry for the first time, the thing he offered Charley was a sandwich, which would start Charley's "give sandwich = I care about you" thing
Like his go-to way of making friends after this encounter would be to meet somewhere for sandwiches
It became a comfort food, and an introduction into other flavors besides the basic food groups + eucalyptus
This little quirk got passed down to Buster
Amazing cook
Like, he invented a couple of the recipes on the menu at Harry's Bar [despite having a diet of mostly eucalyptus, which is poisonous]
Even back in his hometown with his limited ingredients, he was fantastic, but after learning that there were other foods, he got a little obsessed
He has a cookbook he put together [which got passed down to Buster, who cannot cook for the life of him lmao]
Harry tried to get him to go to culinary school or something, but Charley always insisted on loving his little bundle of odd jobs in Calatonia [including the carwash, which was his baby]
After coming to Calatonia, making his home in a shady little apartment complex [which he ABSOLUTELY ADORED], getting a job, and finally getting his first-ever paycheck, he immediately went thrifting
Which is where he got his raggedy hat and patchy coat
And learned what a turtleneck was
He taught Buster the art of thrifting too :D
He dresses like he's homeless by choice [mostly]
[money's always tight]
Back to the odd jobs that he got instead of getting a real job- Charley always hated "luxurious" things if that makes sense. Not only did it remind him of home, but he's just a minimalist in general
If he doesn't need it, he won't take it
Modest guy [opposite to his entire family ~_~]
The hat is kinda a symbol of his independence and freedom in a way, so that's a little sweet
He never takes his hat or coat off really, even in the hot summer days in Calatonia
Harry always has to remind him to drink water [woah, Koala moment]
Oh yeah, Koala stuff-
Harry ends up helping out Charley with the complete lack of Eucalyptus products in Calatonia by ordering it in with his usual imported restaurant food, and then just giving it to him
Harry insists on paying for it all, despite Charley's objections
Charley always gives monstrous tips when eating at Harry's to balance things out
He's actually pretty tall for a Koala
He made good friends with all of the waiters and staff and musicians at Harry's, and was always there for the music nights where Harry'd get someone to play atmospheric stuff on stage
You see this in the first movie
Charley's actually really great on the guitar, and has a very nice voice [I don't have a voice claim yet ;-;;;;;] so he was eventually given the offer to try playing in front of a crowd at Harry's. Which he took
[And Harry made him take money for it, of course]
Had no intention to have kids, but ended up taking in Buster due to family drama and strange circumstances [later explained in Tone Deaf] [also why they have different funky patterns btw! :DDD]
Please, it's so complicated-
He quickly fell in love with the idea of show business after seeing some street performers, and eventually got over his discomfort with doing illegal things [the idea of it being a sin really had him in a chokehold for a while-] and grew into his true personality of "very chill and very shady charlatan" after a few years away from his hometown
Actually, it was his urge to steal a ticket to see a show at the theater that drove him to get over it all
Learned how to pick locks and pockets to scrounge around enough money to get by
Charley and Harry were best friends. Practically brothers
To the point of Harry being called "uncle Harry" by young Buster
Charley was the best man at Harry's wedding to his Panda wife, Claire. Buster was given the honor of being both the flower boy and ring bearer lmao [he pulled it off]
Claire definitely mothered both Charley and Buster quite a bit
Back to Charley living in the apartment complex, he made good friends with an old Lizard who lived next door-
Yeah, Miss Crawley [Irene Crawley]
After Harry realized that Buster was an absolute demon child, Charley tried asking her to babysit instead
She must've had the magic touch or something, because he was perfectly behaved with her
Harry was speechless
Buster was absolutely a problem child, and Charley would frequently get calls from school about him [especially in elementary]
[half of the trouble he got into was due to bullies, but this ain't about him 🤭]
Charley taught Buster how to commit crime, and play guitar
And when he got older, the two would duet together at Harry's
[I'm crying it's so sweet]
Crawley would always bring homemade candies around to give to Buster when she came over to visit with Charley, specifically Turkish Delight
She eventually taught him [with lots of hand-holding] how to make the candy himself. If left alone, he'd just set things on fire and eat the chocolate chips plain though :D
She lost her lover in the war, and even before that, struggled with infertility problems [they were different species- working with the idea of a Gila Monster] so she never had any of the children she had wanted before the war basically ruined her life
She adored that child and never accepted pay
[she was paid by the government anyway since she was a war vet]
All of the money that Charley would slip into her pocket, she'd either secretly give right back, or spend it all on Buster
She was like a mother to him
Still is
She offered to help with the theater after Charley realized that the place didn't just come with staff
Charley and Buster's bond was basically unbreakable
Charley would always stand up to the school system whenever they treated Buster unjustly
[Trust me, there was a lot of prejudice against Koalas and other endangered species, no matter how small or harmless they seemed. People fear what they don't know, and to say Koalas are an oddity would be an understatement-]
[Like even irl, they're Marsupials, sure- but they're so different that they've been given a classification all to themselves called Phascolarctidae. They're so alone in the animal kingdom, it's not even funny. Their closest "relative" is the Wombat, and even then barely]
[Give me another animal that's even remotely similar to Koalas appearance-wise. Their facial structure, the double-thumbs, massive ears, the fact that they can only eat one thing, and it's poisonous [catch me writing Buster poisoning someone with eucalyptus >:D]- yeah, they're super interesting to work with. And of course, I give them hardships for it ~_~]
[Everyone that saw Buster and Charley just immediately knew they were endangered just because of how alien they looked]
["freaks"]
[They just rolled with it]
[Well, Buster was always bothered by it, but Charley was always there to tell him that it should be something to be proud of. Didn't always work all the way]
[I'll talk about Buster later, don't you worry]
[Ok enough with the gushing about Koala facts in brackets-]
Buster would also stand up for Charley during family gatherings [which they eventually just stopped going to entirely] because Charley would just freeze up and not say anything whenever people started fighting with him
✨trauma✨
The two protected each other is my point pretty much
Ok, for a rough timeline:
[1903 - 1955] - Great War [1956] - Charley was born [1960] - Holly was born [1974] - Charley ran away to Calatonia [1980] - Buster was born [1988] - Charley took Buster in [1990] - Harry meets Claire [1994] - Harry and Claire get married [1997] - Theater was sold to Charley and quickly opened [2003] - Charley is killed
It's fucking tragic how he dies
Like, him and Buster were literally in the middle of planning the show when Buster got the call
Late too
He couldn't get to the landline at first because he was busy with set design, and actually saw it a LOT later, which- yeah. Cue horrific amounts of stress as he bikes as fast as he can to the ER
"Where's dad!??" he's in the hospital bucko
Why must I kill all the characters I love-
Charley'd just gone out to get some supplies from like, home depot or something, and then yeah. Dead
Buster could never finish the show, so it sits collecting dust in the attic now
Grief made him unable to write much, which is how he eventually went into debt too
The whole thing with them is absolutely tragic, oh boy-
Can't wait to draw the funeral scene
Ok, so I keep forgetting what's been posted and what's still a draft, so sorry if something just- absolutely jumps out of nowhere here. I think I've mentioned the war before? And Poachers- I hope I at least mentioned Poachers-
Well, if you didn't know before, you do now ''':D
Thanks for reading
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komatsunana · 2 years
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Uhhhh, so I gotta admit defeat and admit I won’t be able to finish any of the projects I wanted to for NANA Week 2022 Day 7............ Sorry 😔😭
Instead I bring you a super sneak-peak of my long awaited (for me, anyway lmao) Nana Osaki mega meta analysis, in which I will be going through chapter by chapter discussing Nana Osaki as a character.  This analysis will... very likely be very long and potentially my magnum opus contribution to the NANA community.
Today, I can only offer you the rough draft of my introduction and I can only hope anyone else wants to see more one day... lol
Nana Osaki, the deconstruction of the girl we wanted to be
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By no means is my first experience reading and watching NANA a universal one.  We’re in the midst of the NANA Renaissance at the time of writing this is in early 2022.  Times are different now than they are then.  Then being the year 2006.   I was 14 or maybe even 13, just about to graduate from middle school into high school.  
The thing to understand was I was raised in the era of “not like other girls.”  Not like other girls were different from other girls, or at least they thought they were.  Other girls were feminine, popular, and liked make up, fashion, dating boys and the color pink.  They were sluts.  And you were not, you were chaste and read books or were into some odd hobby that made you feel both ostracized from everyone else and better then them too.  You were independent, that’s why you didn’t have any friends… it wasn’t because you couldn’t make any ok!!  You weren’t like other girls, you were better.
Enter Nana Osaki.
She was cool and rebellious, she wasn’t like other girls.  She was punk and edgy.  Nana didn’t move to Tokyo for her boyfriend, she was independent.  She didn’t need a man, even if she had one she let him go.
Nana was who we wanted to be, us young not-like-other-girls who first read NANA.
Fast forward many years.  Ai Yazawa gets ill and puts NANA on hiatus.  Attitudes change, not like other girls unlearn the internalized misogyny (or don’t… or do but change their sense of superiority to some other target).  #MeToo, #YesAllWomen, #LoveWins, #BlackLivesMatter, #BringBackOurGirls, #IceBucketChallenge, #TakeAKnee, #FreeBritney [re-order later].  More people care about social justice but it’s been packaged and commodified in a capitalist hellscape.  A virus, a pandemic, lockdown and quarantines…  The world is forever different and NANA is still on hiatus.
But we can still reread NANA as many times over as we want in that span of time.  And you read it enough times to realize…  Nana Osaki the girl 13 year old you wanted to be?  You were her, you were always her.  You may not have dressed in vintage Vivienne Westwood, sing, or have a tattoo and piercings but you were her in all the ways that mattered.
Because just like you, Nana was just a scared little girl who wanted to be loved and was scared of rejection.
Unlike you time was frozen still for her, stuck between the pages of the manga.  You grew up and she did not… And maybe… she never did even between the pages of the manga.
My ultimate thesis statement for this analysis is this:  Nana Osaki character arc and journey through the series is not one of the usual character growth that we have come to expect in our narratives.  Instead what we have witnessed in NANA is the deconstruction of one Nana Osaki.  Like unraveling the wraps of a mummy, an unending nesting doll, or layers of an onion ala Shrek… Whatever metaphor you like best, Nana Osaki is deconstructed throughout the series* until what we find at the center of her character is the little girl her mom abandoned in the snow.
*this is not including the glimpses of Nana Osaki we see in the future.  Without the key events that lead to that moment, it’s hard to really say for sure one way or the other.
And the Nana Osaki we met in the prologue as well as the Nana Osaki we left on that final page of chapter 84…  She is fundamentally unchanged as a person, even if Nana’s life and loved ones expanded in all the chapters between.  Every action, decision, and belief that Nana holds from prologue to chapter 84, Nana always had the capacity to do and hold.
Other aspects of Nana to be discussed include:  her alcoholism, jealousy, possessiveness, and internalized conservative values within a punk sphere. [more to be added]
to be continued.................. Happy NANA Week, I cannot wait to bring you the rest one day.
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It's a long list of writer asks so I asked a bunch: 4, 6, 15, 16, 29, 30, 50, 73, and 77!
AHH! Teej you spoil me <3
4: How do you choose which fics to write?
i dont. my heart wants to write one thing but my brain takes a hard left and never cooperates with me :')
6: What’s the last line you wrote?
for BitB:
“Hey man, I just work in the shadows. Same as you.” He looks sideways at the sound of someone calling his name. “I’ll see ya in a bit.”
15: What’s your favorite time to write?
morning. my brain is fresh and ready to go.
16: Do you write by hand, on your phone, or on your laptop?
laptop 100%. notes get written on my phone but i absolutely can't be serious on my phone.
29: What’s something about your writing that you’re proud of?
uh. i guess dialogue. my favorite thing to read is character stories and i think that is reflected a lot in my writing. i often read aloud dialogue that i've written so it makes sense and i obsess over the little details. i know that's not everyone's cup of tea, and i do feel like it gets overly fluffy at times, but yeah. dialogue and descriptions.
30: How much do you edit your fics?  Do you edit as you write or wait until you finish the first draft?
i perform the cardinal sin of editing as i go. i physically can't write a rough draft. ive tried. im in my 30s now. it will never change lmao. and the editing never stops. if i choose to sit on a fic or chapter, i can look over it for days and find things wrong with it/add on, whatever. i also love stressing myself out and re-reading it after it's posted and editing after the fact pfft.
50: How would you describe your writing style?
inconsistent haha. especially my tumblr fics vs. my ao3 stuff. someone else would havta tell me if i have a certain style. like, could you pick me out in a crowd of 5 other authors? not sure.
73: What do you tend to get complimented on the most about your writing?
the attention to detail. the specifics. which i appreciate because, as mentioned above, i tend to draw things out and get fixated on the details. thank you everyone for encouraging this behavior lol
77: Why do you enjoy writing fanfiction?
i just love writing my OTPs getting into shenanigans. but also the community it builds. i love interacting with authors/readers, i love sharing ideas, and it's just a part of fandom culture that's always been very near and dear to my heart.
fanfic asks!
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oersteds · 1 year
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twiz lore summary (With Shitposts) (Part Four) (vine boom)
But wait! There's more! Call today and get a free Time Crash with your Corpse Flood, FREE!
Long post under cut.
Content warnings for: General horror themes, fourth wall breaking(?), obsessive character
note: this is all a rough draft / shitposty summary. even the first three parts. i'll probably never actually write the whole fic, i just need to get the ideas blasted out of my brain before it collapses into a black hole
It's the next afternoon, Twiz and the others are awake. They went to bed at 5 AM, what did you expect? They scramble on down to the beach. There's more people there. Fuck.
A few passionate townsfolk decided to stay up a little longer, trying to determine where all the corpses are coming from, or how most of them are still alive. (And why I keep calling them corpses despite almost all of them being Not Dead.)
They've all come from a single location, far off on the east. Math wizardry has determined that it's coming from a specific building. It's been identified as [whatever the fuck Twiz's homeland is called] Castle. Yes that's a placeholder name, what're you gonna do, call the cops?
"Hey, wait a sec. I lived there!" oh she has no idea does she
"I could probably sneak in and find out what's up!" ohhh twiz you sweet summer child. you have no idea, do you?
SHE'S FUCKED SIX WAYS FROM SUNDAY!!!!!
Also, this is Viltas, Twiz's childhood friend. He comes into play now. Same artist as before, same link [here]
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Viltas is an ice mage, and Twiz's childhood friend. He was there to witness Twiz unsealing the ressurrection magic, and got some rez magic of his own from the explosion. He's also very good at being evil
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(i am so sorry to the artist for making viltas so evil here, lmao. they've no idea)
(Image captions, in order from top to bottom:)
"You offer to investigate the corpse flood, because it's your homeland, so you'll be familiar with it!"
"Your new friend is very insistent on you not going, but you promise you'll be okay! (Why's he worried...?)"
"You get there, everything's gone sideways, you can't find your cat either, why did you sign up for this...?"
"The mages guild has seemingly forgiven you, at least! This might not be too bad...?"
"You get to the castle, the staff seem very friendly to you! (A little... *too* friendly...)"
"You find a time to sneak out, and investigate further. You find a girl who looks vaguely similar to you, and is wearing your style of clothes. She begs you to hide her, because she'll be killed when they find you both. (Oh god)"
"You found your cat. He's lounged on the lap of your childhood friend, who's managed to take over your homeland in a matter of months. He's looking at you with an intimidatingly affectionate stare. (You *really* should've listened.)"
"Your childhood friend lost his mind because he thought you were dead after you unsealed the ressurrection magic too violently. He's behind the corpse flood, and countless other atrocities, all to bring you back."
"He's going to kill someone he'd kept around as a ""replacement"" because you're here to stay now. Better get comfy, pal! Have fun!!! (Hopefully you hid that stranger well enough, or that she can run fast!)"
Yep. Twiz just found a captive. She fucked around and has now found Alicia, who's being kept as a ""Twiz replacement"" for Viltas. Worse yet, she seems fully aware of this, and of what'll happen to her when Twiz is found. Twiz agrees to hide her, because neither of them asked for this shit.
With a deep sense of unease, Twiz regroups with the guards who keep insisting on following her. She's led to the throne room, where Viltas sits on a throne (duh) like the bastard he is. He explains "everything", but not before clearing the room of everyone besides Twiz and himself. Incoming verbal stunlock!!!
He'd taken over the entire kingdom in the span of a month or two, "replaced" the entirety of the mage's guild Twiz had been a part of, and is keeping everyone rather complacent with everything through a lot of bread and circuses. And, despite the atrocities, he's still kind to "his" people. They're almost like a buncha cats... Speaking of which!
The bastard has Twiz's cat, too. Granted, any good friend would take care of an assumed dead friend's cat, but STILL. (Probably a testament to the cat's blind faith. They don't care who you are, or what you've done. If you feed them and properly give them affection, they'll love you.) And the cat seems pretty affectionate with him, lounging on his lap.
He's behind the corpse flood. All of the people who'd washed ashore? He ressurrected them. Or... he tried to, at least. He didn't think any of them would survive, but all he really cared about was getting Twiz back. Not to mention, his plan doesn't really need him to pull living people from different time periods... He just has to pull anything from other times! To wear down the integrity of time and space itself. After all, he's to summon a God. A God that he'll use as a weapon. He won't stop at just one country. He needs more. Being the Demon King that he is, he's insatiable, can never do enough...! (Wait, two demon kings...?)
As to how he's able to do this... You already know, don't you, Twiz? You've the same ability, after all... You were there. Surely, you'd heard that same God...? Ah, but that doesn't matter. You'll see it for yourself soon. Perhaps you can use Nihilo, too! Perhaps... Well, regardless of how he's done this, he's done it. (don't look in the basement, twiz)
He's been doing this all for Twiz. Because he """loves""" her. He just wants her to be """happy""" and """safe""" with him. (Fucking BULLSHIT, by the way! Twiz was doing a perfectly fine job staying safe on her own!!! Not to mention she hasn't been able to get in a single sentence during this fucking monologue.)
Oh, but... He feels so awful, for having tried to replace Twiz with this random princess he'd ressurrected... So, to make up for it, he'll kill her. For Twiz~! (Despite her not fucking asking for ANY OF THIS.)
Twiz is screwed. Better think of a plan, and fast...! Anyways I'm holding Part 5 hostage until Tumblr gives me my fucking polls feature. (joking. it'll come out when it's ready. though i really want my polls... tumblr pls.)
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selkiefinalist · 11 months
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weekly freakout, 5.31 edition
word count: 7020, babey. i know i told myself that i wouldn’t use word count alone as a measurement of success or whatever, but it’s my oldest habit when it comes to measuring progress and it does in fact die hard. anyway, i would be so ridiculously happy to hit 10k in the next week. for whatever reason - and this is not born out by the evidence of my abandoned fics - when a fic hits 10k i feel like i’m in “real fic” territory and not “just fucking around” territory and am therefore less likely to abandon (still pouring one out for lake house fic, fader, and gifted fic) but i don’t trust myself anymore. gotta earn it back!
otherwise, the story itself is starting to take shape, or form itself, or whatever you call it when you don’t know exactly what the work wants to be until it gets a chance to get away from you a bit. and i find that process delightful, and i find what’s emerging to be exactly the kind of thing i would write lmao (small intimacies my beloved), and i am very nervous that i won’t pull it off in a way that resonates with the recipient but that being said!! there’s still so much to do, no single scene is finished and while that’s intentional it’s also a VERY difficult way for me to write. it’s working for now.
anyway next up is to finish roughing out the first arc and then maybe lightly bullet out the second and third arcs (mentally i have a much better idea of what’s going to happen in those) AND THEN circle back to the start and get it in actual rough draft shape, and then see how cripplingly insecure i am feeling about all of it!!!! lol
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