I can’t remember their faces.
I try so hard to remember them, but they all jumble together into this senseless pattern. I gaze into their eyes till my head aches, but all I see, are fractured orbital sockets, broken nasal bones, facial lacerations, antemortem wounds - and their skulls are crushed, and their collar bones are shattered.
They shouldn't be able to speak, but they do.
They can’t stop talking to me - and I can’t stop listening.
OC: Asva
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𝕍𝕒𝕝𝕖𝕟, 𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕌𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕝 ℕ𝕠𝕨
When I made Valen, I never knew that he'd become such an integral part of me. I made him with all of the best parts of people I love, but also the worst. I began building Valen back in June 2021 and I've been developing him ever since.
He's one of the loves of my life, he's my baby, he's the steady, beautiful moon that's all full and bright and glowing in the night sky.
Valen is the best thing I've ever made.
This was him back in August 2021 when I first made him
This is him now as of July 2023. Nearly two years later
My sweet, handsome, angry boy. I love you so, so much.
He's flawed and dark and gritty and that is essential to him. I was very careful to give him realistic and human qualities, like his fatal flaw of devotion, his temper problems, his love for carb-heavy food. Valen is not a good person, no. He's a headhunter, a professional private contractor that fixes other people's problems for exorbitant amounts of money. He's hurt people and sleeps well at night. Valen was raised in violence, it's what he's best at, he will forever be violence and aggression and combat. He's the hunt and he's the predator.
But he's also loving. He's incredibly affectionate and sweet with his love. He is gentle and kind with him. If there will be any salvation for Valen, it will be the heaven he finds in bed with the love of his life. He wants so badly to be good for him. He learns patience for him. And while that violent, aggressive part of Valen that makes up his core being will never leave, he can still be loved. He loves being in conflict and combat, he loves the adrenaline of the fight. But he loves his soulmate even more.
He's human - Valen sucks at boardgames. Valen has plants that he takes care of. He draws and sketches and paints. He loves going to a coffee shop and getting a fancy little sugary drink. He worries about his outfit he put on this morning and if he looks good. He carefully fixes his hair in the morning with pomade only for it to be shaken out when his love winds his fingers in it.
Valen is everything that I've ever wanted to create and he always will be the greatest thing I've ever made. He isn't a self insert, but he still has pieces of my heart and soul within him, woven through him. He's all of the best things I could ever create in one body. I spent hours upon hours on his tattoos, making sure they fit him and they were wholly and entirely his, meaningful to him and his life.
He's saved me more times than I can count. Valen and his siblings and his soulmate, his story and his personality, his plot lines and his past. Is what kept me alive when things were too rough. It's because of Valen, my best boy, that I found my life partner. That I found my best friend. That I found all these people I can call friends. It's all because of him. My life would not have been the way it is right now without him - I would've never found this sort of happiness if I hadn't created him and got the courage to enter the fandom with him.
I love you. I love you so much. I'll never make something so beautiful as Valen and his tattoos and his story ever again.
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