#visitor keeps telling me how good hes being and asking if ive put him on something to have him so calm and Im like đ food solves all issues
Thirty Nine.
Side eyeing the nurse as she put my covers back on me âwhy?â I asked her âoh why the injection?â she asked, nodding my head âwell we put that injection in you to prevent blood clotting, I know itâs only day two but youâre not walking around, I mean of course the antibiotics are working and tomorrow we hopefully will set out a plan to give you tablets instead of IV line which then you can go homeâ she explained âokâ I hate this shit, she just walked off. I really hate it, I sent Robyn home because she is tired, she hasnât slept and she needs her rest, I canât hold her hostage here, the kids need her, and I donât want to see them really either. I hate everything, and myself included. The nurse walked off and I just sighed out, this is the most bored I have been. I donât want visitors either, even though my mom came, I just donât want to see anyone. Placing my oxygen mask back on, I feel better within myself, I can breathe better I know that for sure. It is working but it was a little scary with the breathing but whatever, Robyn just keeps on telling me how stupid I am, I mean I get it but she needs to give me a break. I didnât think I would end up in hospital, that is the least I wanted, I guess I will spend the night looking at the wall, turning my head to the side. I was mean to Robyn; I think she is upset with me. I just didnât want her here, I made that mistake let me lie in my own shit, I did it âuncleâ I frowned looking to the door, staring at this guy well, kid. He closed the door âitâs Cameronâ my eyes widened, nearly falling out of bed âI heard from the news outlets that you were here, I came because I donât think I will really get a chance to see youâ moving my oxygen mask from my face âyou shouldnât be hereâ I said âI know, I asked, and I know nobody is here tooâ I swallowed hard âjust hear me out, I am not here for anything I just want to speak to youâ he said âyou donât need to speak just listen please, Rylee said to stop messaging her and that Rihanna said that she donât like me to do that so I get it, but please hear me outâ nodding my head.
I canât believe how much he has grown; I think he is seventeen now. I donât know what he wants, I am shocked he even came âI just want to say I really want to thank you for putting me in the mindset of what I want, for showing me so much that my dad couldnât. I get itâs all awkward, but you made me who I am today. Even though we stopped seeing each other, speaking and everything. I watched your interviews and everything and what you did for me when I was a kid lasted with me uncle, it did and now I am being sought out by the NBA, something I know you was supposed to do, I just want to thank you for that because parents like mine I would be, I donât know doing some dumb shit. You showed me love, fun and hard work and you put me on. At one point I did think you was my dadâ he laughed âbut I had to have him but whatever, I just want to thank youâ I swallowed hard âI really wish things were different for me with you, and I get itâ I really didnât expect him here âyou made the biggest impact in my life more then my own did because I want to be just like youâ he pointed at me âI really didnât come here with a plan, I just didnât want to miss the opportunity to see you while I am here. Before I go back to VA, Essex high hold you high and the people there love you. I just wanted to apologise if I did anything even if I was a kid, I know it could be annoyingâ how can I be angry at that âyou didnât do anything Cameron, it wasnât you but I had to cut that connection off, I did try and keep it open but I couldnâtâ he put his head down âit was hard, I had everything and then I had nothing, and I didnât know where I was living and the worst thing that happened to me was being away from my mom, we was homelessâ that is sad âhow is your mom?â I asked âbetter, she is married now, the guy is nice. Good dude, my real dad is in jail, so yeahâ he laughed âbut I really wanted to see you, I am out here with my grandma, I always see your mom around, but I donât say a thingâ I donât know how to feel.
The silence between us both, I treated him like a son to me, he was a son to me. Rylee came along and I adored her, but I wanted a boy, and this was the boy I wanted, and he became that âit wasnât all me, you knowâ I said âit was, you tell me if my dad would have done what you did, the time you spent. Basketball practice when I barely even started to walk, you sent me to private school, nobody does that for anyone. I was about eight and I remember it all and I always said to myself that I would see you again, and I did. I went to your concert in Richmond, and I didnât have in me to even come to you, you walked by me actually but like, you have your own life and kids, but I really saw you as my dadâ his voice broke âyou know I only wanted to be with my dad because of you, my mom fought for me for years, it was just wack you know. Everything was taken from me, and it happened overnight, but I prayed I would see you again and I have, you know. I just want to thank you because I am who I am now, because of youâ wiping my nose with my hand âI know I may have got Rylee in trouble that is why I stopped but yeah, sorry that youâre here tooâ he pointed âoh I am just unwell, I am good thoughâ I said âitâs late, you shouldnât be out at night. You still a kid looking to be a man, you need to not feel like that. Your mom has got a man to take care of her, take care of you. You got a chance, the NBA looking at you, you got that chanceâ he wiped his tears âmake it for you, the worst thing you can do is do it for anyone but you, youâre going to lose yourself. Donât be a man, the protector. You donât need to do thatâ he looked at me âI wasnât there for her, you know. The guy, he is good, but I never was there for her, my dad lied on her badly. She is good now, but I need to get them out of the hoodâ nodding my head âdonât let history repeat, remain humble, and hungry for this donât let anyone in that place ruin that for youâ he placed his hands over his face and cried out, I didnât want him to cry.
âYou know I erm, I had to let you go because your dad was too much. And I honestly really saw you as my own, that was it. It was hard to let you go but I had too, it was too toxic, but I am happy you are here, you are ok and that you are prospering to the NBAâ he smiled âthat is dope, really is. I am proud of youâ he is so emotional âyou donât need to cry, I get it. Itâs fineâ he looked up, raising his head up high âI never knew what I would say to you and how I would say it to you whenever I saw you. I thought you would tell me to go or leave, I messages Rylee and I apologise if that caused shit. But I really wanted you to be my dadâ I clenched my jaw âlook, itâs late. I want you to go back to your hotel, or wherever and just be safe. Itâs late, when I am better I would ask Rylee for your numberâ I said âI am sorry if I did anything too, I know my dad. god, I just hated him. I didnât hate him then because I had you, I had my friends, I just have so much to talk to you about. I ave analysed every interview and I just, I am not crazy but that was us, I just really want to know you will hear me out when you are better? I will be out of LA though, so I donât knowâ he said âI will sort something out, just get my phone. I will get you a cab homeâ he shook his head âno, I got it. I can do that. Thank you, for hearing me outâ nodding my head âjust be safe and donât do anything for anyone but yourself or you will end up how I did and losing years of your lifeâ he nodded his head âI wonât, thank youâ he said again before rushing out.
I didnât expect Cameron to come, I didnât expect him to cry the way he did, it actually hit my heart that did. The fact he felt that love from me, he was so unwanted by them two and he knows it but for him to come here and say what he said, I am shocked. Iâve woken up in shock, Iâm just feeling a little off. I want to leave this place; I am desperate to leave this place. The thought of being here any longer but here we are, just watching the nurses fix me up. I am so funny about them taking me to the bathroom, I donât need it but like they keep asking. And they asked if I want to be bathed; I declined. I think I just need to go âwe are going to give you a scan today, see where you are at and if we can let you goâ smiling at her, the door opened. I turned to the door and seeing Robyn, she came after I told her to fuck off, I just said it and I was t thinking âI will leave you both to it thenâ the nurse smiled and walked off, she has bought Raihan with her but with a pacifier in his mouth âheâs four right?â I asked Robyn âhe isâ she put him down, but he had other plans, he wanted to dive right up Robynâ coochie, he is fussing to be picked up again âthenâ the door closed finally âthen why the hell does he have a pacifier? Are you stupid?â I asked âI didnât need to come but I did, donât talk to me like that. Pleaseâ she said, she sat down âtake it out, I donât like it. Heâs four, heâs grown. That ainât it, you spoilt Junior and now him, so that leaves his mouth. I donât want it, heâs clinging to the person that spoils him, do you breastfeed him still?â Robyn rolled her eyes âno I do notâ you never know âright, he needs to get off your nipple. Yeah, this shit isnât itâ Robyn sighed out âyou swore at me yesterday, call me stupid today. Iâm trying to be here for you Chris, please stop itâ shaking my head âokâ Iâll just not speak then âwhat is annoying you? Me? Because Iâll go thenâ she asked, she asks such a simple question, but everything is annoying me âlifeâ I said âIâm going, Iâm over this. Iâm ok nowâ I shuffled up on the bed âeh! You leave that bed we will have issues!â Robyn barked, staring at her âdonât poke me, I will take whatever, but you donât leave that bed!â Oh she meant that âfine but I want Raihan to act his age, itâs stupid. And stop picking him upâ Robyn just rolled her eyes, she doesnât want to hear me, but she will.
Robyn is quiet with me, and I donât blame her because I have been mean to her âI am sorryâ I apologised âthis place is annoying and I donât want you to be here and see me in this state and I also know I did dumb shit, and I made you upset, just a lot. Then I have to be here in my own thoughts, Maxwell will think something bad happened to meâ Robyn looked at me âwell I get why, I do understand but I just donât like being spoken too like that but thank you for apologising. If you want to speak to Maxwell I can get your phone for you, but I am here for you alsoâ which she is right, she is here for me âI appreciate youâ I mumbled âI appreciate you too, but I really want you to speak to me, I am here for youâ watching Raihan walking around the room âaye!â I spat and he jumped, he ran straight back to his mother âhe is being a weird child, he was ok with me and now he isnât. Well anyways Cameron came to see me, randomlyâ Robyn didnât flinch, she didnât even react like she didnât know âI know anyone that comes here, the hospital told me. What happened?â how sneaky of her âok Rich, look at you being a bodyguardâ Robyn sniggered âI care ok, I was really upset when you made me go, well when you said fuck off, or fuck you. Whatever you said it did upset me, I donât appreciate it either Chris. You donât get to be mad with me when I am mad with you for what you did, ok? So you will stay here until the doctor says soâ putting my head down âI am sorry Robynâ I do feel bad âbut anyways, what did Cameron say?â she asked âhe got me choked up, like he really told me that he saw me as his dad. That he was upset, his life changed for the worse. My heart warmed up; I donât know Robyn. We need to see him again to get a full judge of himâ I need to be wary of him still âwow, really?â I nodded my head, I need to see him again.
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The Best Medicine
Summary: You are in the hospital, but you can never sleep in hospitals. Good thing you have a very attractive night shift nurse who is willing to help out.
Word Count: 4.5K
Warnings: hospitals, light med talk, bad medical writing, fluff
A/N: Please ignore the plot holes or the fact that this isnât the most realistic and also I know this isnât how discharge works at the hospital.. Itâs called fiction for a reason, darling. Also, I left the reason the reader is in the hospital open ended bc some of us may have medical conditions/reasons that we can attach to this, but if not I tried to keep it vague enough on purpose so that you can imagine whatever. Also if you like Nurse!Tom and have requests for him lmk bc iâm happy to write for him.
Toss and turn. Toss and turn. The routine was getting old. This was your third night in the hospital and sleep just wasnât coming to you.
Maybe it was the medicine they had you on. Maybe it was the constant symphony of sounds and people passing in the hallway. Maybe it was because you werenât at home in your own bed.
Maybe it was just because you were in the hospital.
You couldnât be sure. What you were sure of is that you werenât falling asleep anytime soon.
Feeling another presence in the room, you looked from the ceiling to the doorway where you saw Tom, one of the night shift nurses, standing cautiously.
âI didnât wake you did I?â He asked as he eased his way inside.
âNope.â
âSo no sleep again, huh?â
âNope.â
âSorry darling. Letâs go ahead and get these vitals over with.â He took your blood pressure, oxygen levels, temperature and wrote it down in your chart. Putting the clipboard back on its hook at the end of the bed, he looked up at your tired face. âOkay. So now about that sleep. What do you think will help?â
âNot being in the hospital.â
He chuckled lightly while walking back towards your bedside.
âI know. You hate it here. Youâve made that very clear and I try not to take too much offense to it.â You let out a slight laugh and held back the fact that he was the best part of this whole experience. He almost made it worth it. âIâm sorry we canât give you any sleeping medication. Do you think itâll help if I talk to you?â
âYou mean tell me bedtime stories?â You couldnât help but tease him at the adorable suggestion, though it sent a swarm of butterflies off in your stomach.
âI was thinking more like bore you âtill you fell asleep. But whatever works.â
âYouâre the nurse. If you think itâll help.â You both sat there smirking at each other for a moment. Something unspoken floating in the air between you two.
âWell, I need to finish my round of vitals first. Iâll come check on you when Iâm done and if youâre still up weâll see about those stories.â
âIâll be here.â
About fifteen or twenty minutes later you heard a light tap on your door followed by âStill awake?â
âAlways.â
âYou up for a chat?â Tom asked as he made his way to the stool then rolled slightly closer to your bed.
âGot nothing better to do.â You teased again.
âOkay. Well you should probably lay down.â
âOh. Itâs going to be that kind of story, huh?â His laugh was so beautiful and you were happy you were the cause of it.
âNo.â He corrected in between laughs âThe goal is to get you to sleep. So sitting up wonât help.â
âRight. Right.â
âWell.. anything in particular youâd like to talk about?â
âWhy did you choose to become a nurse?â
âAhhh. Good question. So I actually went to an art school.â You couldnât help the brief expression of surprise that crossed your face. âI know. Shocking. I did training specifically in dance and gymnastics and I loved it.â
âWait, so what happened?â You asked, turning on your side to face him more comfortably.
âWell one day we were rehearsing for a show and I fell. Ruined my knee. Had to do physical therapy for months. I tried to get back into it, but it just wasnât the same. However, through that process I learned a lot about medicine and the health side of things. It really turned me on to it. And when my Plan A got a bit messed up I thought âhey, this could workâ. So far itâs treated me pretty well.â
You smiled at Tom, admiring his passion for his career and the determination he had to keep pushing after his accident. You enjoyed hearing him talk about it too. If you didnât know any better you would say it was helping you relax.
âMy story that boring?â
âObviously.â
âYour sarcasm has no end.â
âOh⊠goodness.. you thought that was sarcasm?â
Tom only laughed and shook his head the way he often did with you.
You may just have been his patient and he may have just been your nurse, but you both bonded. He kept you company and gave you comfort. In return, you kept him entertained during the quiet night shifts.
âIâm not going to sleep. I'm just resting my eyes. But still listening.â You told him as you nestled further into the hospital bed, trying to find a position that would make it comfortable.
âOkay, darling.â He grinned at you.
âTell me more. What kind of-â You had to stop to yawn, âWhat kind of art stuff did you do?â
âOh. Well, I was in a few musicals. I really enjoyed dancing. I did ballet ever since I was young and I love the control I have over my body. The tricks I can do with gymnastics or the turns and leaps. I mean I canât do them to that level anymore, but I try to stay active.â He glanced up and noticed you hadnât moved, âAre you still with me?â
âMhm.â You barely respond.
âOkay. Well it was a performing arts school so we really were trained in many areas. We had classes in acting, singing, dancing, all of it. It was a lot of fun and I met my best friends there.â
Tom began telling stories about his time at school. Before he knew it, he lost himself and track of time. He looked back at you, quiet and still.
âY/N?â You were finally asleep. âGoodnight, darling.â He whispered as he gently made his exit.
Because Tom worked the night shift, you never saw him when you woke in the morning. Instead, Tanya, a sweet nurse that felt like a big sister, or Linda, Nurse Ratched in the flesh, came in for morning vitals and meds.
You counted down the days until your release. Life in the hospital was pretty uneventful with the limit on visitors and limited activity. Thereâs only so many sitcoms one can take in a given timespan. The only thing that you really looked forward to each night was when Tom clocked in.
âHi Y/N.â
âHi Tom.â You would smile at each other.
âHow are we feeling today?â
âBetter. Ready to get out of here.â
âWell, Iâm glad to hear you are feeling better and still ready to jailbreak.â He smiled while writing something down on your chart. âThey should be bringing up your dinner tray soon and then Iâll bring by your evening meds after that.â
âOkay.â
âIf you need me you know what to do.â He called to you before walking out the door.
You were disappointed when Shelley brought your evening meds by later. She was a nice enough nurse. She just wasnât Tom.
Youâd grown accustomed to mainly having him as your nurse during the evening shift. At first you werenât sure if it was coincidence or on purpose, but after a few nights of staying up and talking, you grew closer to him. You saw less of the other nursing staff and more of Tom.
You tried not to build anything up in your head. You were sure everything he was doing was in his job description and a part of being a good nurse.
He would sneak you extra pudding cups from the cafeteria and bring you an extra heated blanket because you could never stay warm. If you needed a new IV, he held your hand to ease the anxiety. He kept you company and made you feel less alone in such a sterile and intimidating place. And when he noticed you had trouble sleeping he chose to sit with you to help you fall asleep. You couldnât help the butterflies that built in your stomach.
It became a sort of routine. He checked on you during evening vitals, even if someone else was doing them, and you were always still awake. He would then come and sit with you and chat for a bit, telling you different stories until you eventually fell asleep.
Some nights when you were extra restless he would help you walk the halls.
âThe doctors have to see youâre stable enough before you can be discharged. Plus, maybe itâll tire you out.â He suggested.
He would help get your IV pole ready so you could walk with it. He helped you into your slippers and eased you out of bed after passing you your robe.
Walking the hall slowly, Tom knew he had to remain professional, yet he found a few excuses to graze his hand across your back to âsteady youâ when you turned corners or he thought you were looking tired.
âIt might take me a while to get back to my usual jogs in the park, huh?â You laughed in spite of yourself.
âYouâll get there. Baby steps.â He encouraged, as you turned around the Nurseâs Station. You missed the faces the other night shift nurses were giving you both, but Tom was sure to subtly flick them off. âSo, do you like running?â He asked as you headed back towards your room.
Throughout your late nights together, he told you of his three younger brothers and his dog named Tessa. You spoke about what you would do when you were out of hospital. He talked about his friends and flatmates and the adventures they had. He told you many stories, but each morning when you woke up he was clocked out and the day shift nurses were there.
Tonight was your last night. Youâre set to be discharged tomorrow and while you are ecstatic to go home, youâre going to miss one thing about this place.
âI bet youâre too excited to sleep tonight. I donât know if my stories will even help.â Tom said as he sat down next to you.
You smiled up to him sweetly.
âWhat are you looking forward to the most once you get out of here?â
âSleeping in my own bed.â
âWell thatâs no surprise.â Tom laughed, a contagious sound making you giggle as well. âIsnât there anything youâll miss about this place?â
âYeah.â He smiled âThereâs one thing.â
âWhatâs that?â He asks.
âThe pudding cups.â
âAhh the pudding cups of course.â You giggled while fiddling with the IV line.
âThey just donât taste the same in the outside world.â
His smile grew wider as you giggled.
âNo, but really. As much as I give this place grief and say Iâm ready to get out of here - which I am,â You gave him a pointed look to which he held his hands up in mock surrender, fully believing you, âit hasnât been too terribly awful I guess.â
âOh, well, Iâm glad we could make your stay not too terribly awful.. I guess.â He teased. âDo you have anything exciting to look forward to once youâre a free woman?â
âNothing huge planned, really. The doctors did say to take it easy.â
âThatâd be wise.â
âYeah. Iâll just lay low for a while. My sister said she may try to come visit me though so that would be nice.â
âOh that would be nice. Sheâs your older sister right?â
âRight. She moved away last year to be closer to her boyfriend.â
âAh. Do you like him?â
âSorry?â
âThis boyfriend. Do you like him?â
âHeâs alright, I suppose. He makes her happy.â Tom nodded along.
âAnd do you have a boyfriend that makes you happy?â
âN-No. No I donât. Not at the moment.â You began fiddling with the IV cord again.
âNo boyfriend or not a boyfriend that makes you happy?â He asked.
âNeither.â
âWell thatâs a shame.â If the heart monitor was connected you wouldâve been screwed. âI just mean someone needs to look after you once you get home. I hope this sister comes through for a visit. Youâve got to take it easy.â
âOh Iâll be fine.â
âIâm sure you will be.â He smiled.
âHow has your shift been tonight? Busy?â You asked, fighting back a yawn.
âA bit busier than usual. There was a slight emergency earlier which is why Shelley handed out meds tonight. Sorry I didnât come around.â
âItâs alright. I know you have other patients.â
âYeah, but none like you.â You were sure he said that to all of his patients. After all, youâve heard similar lines ever since you went to the pediatrician as a child. But it still gave you butterflies.
âAre you getting sleepy?â
âA little. But itâs okay.â He gave you a pointed look but continued to talk anyway. âItâs the last night. One final request for storytime. Make it a good one.â
You thought for a moment before asking your question.
âDo you ever wish that life turned out differently? That you never had your accident and you couldâve followed your dreams to be a dancer?â You asked while turning on your side and getting more comfortable.
âSometimes. At least, I used to. But I think Iâve accepted it now. And I really canât see myself doing anything but this.â You nodded taking in his answer âI look at it this way. If it wasnât for my injury then I never wouldâve changed my career path and found my love for medicine. I never would have made so many of the friends Iâve made or the memories Iâve made. I never would have met you.â He finishes with a sweet smile.
âThatâs a very positive way of looking at it.â You told him. âBe honest, are you a therapist during the day?â He laughed out loud.
âNo. Iâm not. I guess Iâm a big believer in âeverything happens for a reasonâ.â You nodded while covering a yawn.
âSo Iâve been curious to ask you,â He began, âDo you usually have this much trouble sleeping? Because you can get help for that you know?â You smiled at him.
âWhat? I thought a night nurse talking to you was the cure?â Tom smirked and shook his head. âIâm kidding. No, I normally donât. Itâs just the stiff sheets and hospital sounds I think.â
âDarn hospital.â He rolled his eyes and joked. âSo this time tomorrow youâll be sound asleep in your own bed then?â
You knew it was meant to be a happy statement, but you were a little sad at the thought of not having any more late night chats with Tom.
âYes. Thank God.â You forced a smile.
You felt another yawn coming and tried to hold it back. It was already past the usual time that you fell asleep.
Tom could tell you were exhausted so he launched into a story from nursing school, hoping to lull you to sleep.
You yawned your way through listening, trying to soak up every last moment with Tom. In the morning he wouldnât be here. Youâd leave and likely never see him again.
When he finished, your eyes were half open and he wondered how you were still awake. Or maybe why.
âWhy are you fighting it? The point is to sleep. Give in.â He told you gently after another yawn.
You looked up at him, half asleep and rubbing your eyes, not finding the confidence to tell him the true reason you were trying to stay awake.
âIâm happy right now.â
He smiled down at you.
âI am too. But you need your sleep, darling.â You werenât sure what to say and you didnât have much energy left in you anyway. âHow about this. Iâve probably been in here too long as it is. Let me go check in at the Nurseâs Station and then Iâll come back and check on you soon and see if youâre still awake okay?â
The thought that he was leaving gave you a sad feeling in your stomach. You tried to remind yourself that he was just your nurse. Nothing more.
âOkay.â You smiled at him, sleepily, while settling further into the bed.
He stood up and instead of walking towards the door he walked closer to you. He grabbed the thin, white hospital blanket and pulled it closer around your shoulders.
âGoodnight, Y/N.â He whispered before he walked to the door.
âTom?â You called out just before he opened it. He turned around with an expectant look, âThanks for everything.â
Even though the room was dim you could see his smile.
âYouâre welcome, Y/N. Get some sleep.â
You donât remember much after that. You donât know if Tom came back to check on you. You just remember falling asleep with a smile on your face.
When you woke up the following morning it felt like any other morning in the hospital.
The hallways were much louder. Beeps, chatter, and phones were constant. The lights were brighter.
But you were quickly reminded that it wasnât any other morning. You were going home today.
The door creaked open and Tanya, one of your regular daytime nurses, poked her head in.
âOh good youâre up.â She made her way inside and over to the gloves. âHowâd you sleep?â
âPretty good. Thanks.â She gave you a smile, something hidden behind it.
âIâm sure.â She said quietly to herself. You gave her a questioning look. âOh I just mean Iâm sure youâre excited to get out of here.â
You nodded as she took your vitals one last time.
âEverything looks good. What do you say about getting this IV out?â
âI say that sounds amazing.â
She took it out and bandaged up your arm while informing you of how the morning would go.
âDr. McCoy is making rounds now then heâll be by soon to go over your discharge. You can get dressed whenever youâre ready. If you need help, buzz me. Youâll still have a breakfast tray come, but you donât have to eat it.â She gave you a wink while taking off her gloves.
âThanks Tanya.â
âOf course, sweetie. And in case I donât see you before you go, youâve been a wonderful patient. Take care of yourself.â You smiled at her as she left you to change into some leggings and a sweatshirt.
You were packing your remaining things into your bag when your doctor walked in.
âY/N! How are we doing today?â
âWeâre doing great because weâre going home.â You smiled while taking a seat to rest for a few minutes.
âI know youâre excited.â He laughed before explaining the conditions of your discharge. You had medicines to take, a follow up appointment, and strict instructions to rest for the next few weeks. After signing some forms he left you with a stack of papers. âIs someone coming to pick you up?â
âYeah my neighbor should be here within an hour.â
âSounds good. Donât hesitate to call us or come back in if you have any trouble or questions.â
âWill do. Thanks.â
A few minutes after he left a nurse brought in your breakfast tray. There wasnât much of a point for it but since your discharge wasnât technically until 10:30 am you were still a patient during breakfast.
You took the pudding cup that you requested with every meal off the tray before sliding it away. Smiling to yourself, you tucked it away in your bag. All you had left to do was wait for 10:30.
Tanya came in to check on you again and told you to buzz the Nurseâs Station when you knew your ride was here. At 10:27 you had a text from your neighbor that they were out front in the pickup zone. So you hit the call button.
âYes?â Linda, the scariest dayshift nurse, answered.
âUm hi. Tanya told me to buzz in when my ride was here so I could go down.â
âOkay weâll be right in.â
Not even a minute later you heard your door open. Expecting to see Tanya or maybe even Linda you looked up.
An audible gasp left your lips when Tom stood in your doorway with a wheelchair.
âI hear someone needs a ride?â He smiled as he made his way closer to the bed.
âTom. What are you still doing here?â
âI pulled a double.â You wanted to ask why, but decided against it. You were still in a little bit of shock from seeing him again. âIf youâd rather I can go get Linda to walk you down?â He pointed back towards your door.
âNo! No.. Iâm just surprised sâall.â
âWell come on. I thought youâd be running out of this place once the clock hit 10:30.â Glancing up you saw it was now 10:34. Your neighbor is probably tired of waiting already.
You grabbed your discharge papers and reached for your bag when you heard, âI got it.â Smiling at him, you sat down in the wheelchair. Tom placed the bag around his shoulder and kicked the brakes off the chair. âReady?â You nodded up at him.
He rolled you out of the room that felt so small for a final time. You passed the Nurseâs Station and waved bye to the staff. He turned by the elevators and when you looked up at him in question, he read your mind. Looked down at you he said, âWeâre taking the staff elevators.â
When you made it there he hit the button, turning you around and backing you in once the doors opened. He hit the button for the Lobby and leaned up against the wall of the elevator, briefly glancing at you, as you rode down together.
âWell you made it. Youâre a free woman.â He smiled shyly.
âYippee.â He met your eyes for a moment before looking back to the floor. The dynamics felt different. It wasnât like your late night talks together.
âListen, Y/N.â Tom began as he stood up from the wall and faced you. He was about to continue when the elevator ding cut him off, signaling you had reached your destination.
Maybe that was what was different. You had reached your destination.
You had a fun time talking with Tom and entertaining each other when you were both up late at night. He was fun to get to know and you enjoyed having someone care for you. He was easy to banter with and certainly easy on the eyes. But your time at the hospital was up. You knew it would be eventually. You wanted it to be.
Tom was a nurse. He was just doing his job. He was helping take care of you. He was being nice. He was trying to make your stay more comfortable. There was nothing to read into.
Your time being his patient was up and your time with him was up.
You tried to remain realistic, but the sadness still crept up as he rolled you closer to the door.
Once outside, you saw your neighbor exit the car and wave you over. Tom steered in the direction and slowed before rolling to a stop and hitting the brake locks on the wheels.
âHi, Iâm Taylor.â
âTom.â They shook hands as Tom passed off your bag for Taylor to put in the backseat.
âIâm sorry for the circumstances, but it really has been a pleasure having you as a patient and getting to know you, Y/N.â Tom admitted as he walked around to face you. He grabbed the papers from your lap. âTake care of yourself, okay?â You had shared many smiles with Tom, but this one felt sadder.
âI will. Thank you for everything, Tom. I mean it.â You reached up and squeezed his hand. He gave you a light squeeze back while smiling down at you. Taylor returned from the backseat of the car and Tom turned to them.
âThese are her important papers about follow up appointments, medications, what to do at home, all of that so please make sure she doesnât lose any of them.â He emphasized the point.
âGot it. Thanks.â Taylor held onto the stack while Tom turned back to you.
âIf I canât handle a few papers on my own, then maybe I shouldnât be going home yet, Tom.â You laughed.
âI know, I just wanted to make sure they made it home with you.â He walked closer. âYou ready to get in?â
âYeah.â You nodded. He helped you up, supporting you just as a precaution. Once seated, you took a moment to catch your breath as you pulled the seatbelt down. He met your hand, taking it from you to buckle you in.
âYou good?â
You nodded with a smile, âJust a little tired. No biggie.â
He looked you over before returning your smile, though his didnât quite reach his eyes, âIf you need us, call us. Otherwise go home and rest.â
This was it. This was goodbye.
âThanks, Tom.â
âGoodbye, Y/N.â
He shut the door. He walked back to the wheelchair, released the brake locks and headed inside. He looked back only when your car was driving away.
âHereâs those papers that are so important.â Taylor handed you the stack after they got in.
âThanks.â
âSo how are you feeling?â
âBetter. Thanks.â You felt them looking at you as they joined traffic.
âYou sure? You sound like you feel awful.â
You try to remind yourself to forget the sweet and attractive nurse and start moving forward.
âYeah. Yeah Iâm okay.â You decide to distract yourself by reading through your discharge paperwork, when something caught your eye. On top was a sticky note with the hospitalâs letterhead. You were sure it wasnât there before. Looking closer it read,
Y/N,
In case you need someone to talk to when you canât sleep.
555-5555
P. S. I have a connection to some pretty good pudding cups too.
Tom
The smile that grew on your face was undeniable. All the feelings you suppressed came flooding in. He wasnât just being nice. He actually liked you.
One thing you knew for sure was that even though you would be in your own bed tonight, you still would be up, talking to a very special nurse.
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Amoreena | Chapter Eighteen
Amoreena Chapter Eighteen
main summary: Heaven is a real place and it's located exactly 14.6 miles away from the FBI, Quantico Headquarters. Off behind a small park, under a fantastical willow tree surrounded by wildflowers, in every colour young minds can imagine.
Don't forget, heaven also comes with angels.
Chapter Warnings: hospital visits, fainting, IV's and ultrasounds!
word count: 5k
from the beginning <3
Y/N heads off to work at 8 on Wednesday, sick and miserable but it's her job. Leaving Spencer with the girls. âSo, what are our plans for today?â
âWe need to pick up some paint samples so we can pick for my room,â Jo replies, shovelling waffles into her mouth right after with syrup dripping down her chin.
Spencer passes her a napkin with a smile, âdo you guys want to go visit my friend Penelope? Sheâs really good with aesthetics, as she calls them, sheâll be able to help the best.â
âSheâs the one you told me about?â
Spencer nods, âyeah, Iâm just going to call and see if sheâs free today. Put your dishes in the dishwasher after, your mom doesnât need to come home from work to do the sticky dishes okay?â
âYes sir,â they both groan, jokingly, smiling at each other as they do so.
He runs up to his bedroom then, sitting on his side of the bed and taking his phone out of his pocket. He dials Lukeâs number instead, knowing sheâd kill him if sheâs still asleep while heâs calling her.
âHey man!â Luke answers, cheerful and very awake. âHowâs the new kid?â
âJoâs great, sheâs settling in really well,â He smiles, news travelled fast in the BAU, âI actually want to introduce her to Penelope, is she awake and willing to take visitors this early?â
âUm,â he can hear Lukeâs panic through the phone, âyou know, here sheâs beside me, she can tell you.â
âHello, Spencer,â Penelopeâs voice carries down the line and invoking a smile on Spencerâs face. âWhatâs up?â
âI wanted to introduce you to Josephine today, are you busy?â
âWe have a doctor's appointment to go to in 10 minutes, but weâll be home around 10:30?â
His brain stalls, malfunctioning a small amount at why Luke would be going to the doctors with Penelope. âYou canât be pregnant too, me you and Derek canât all have kids the same age.â
âSavannahâs pregnant too?!â Penelope screams down the line, âholy shit.â
âPenelope!â Spencer shouts, âare you kidding me?â
âNo, we were going to tell you soon, when you made that wine comment a few weeks ago I knew she was pregnant because I am too,â Penelopeâs voice is so soft he knows sheâs smiling on the other side.
She always wanted kids, thatâs why she spoiled Henry and Hank so much, they were like her honorary babies until she was in the right place to have kids of her own. She has told Spencer time and time again how much she wants a family, how badly she wanted one but couldnât find the perfect partner⊠then she met Luke.
âPut Luke back on,â Spencer sounds sterner than he means to, Penelope puts him on speaker instead.
âAre we going to have the father-to-son chat?â Luke teases him through the phone.
âI just wanted to thank you, this is going to be a really cool experience,â Spencer feels incredibly emotional at the thought of all 3 of their kid's meeting and being best friends.
âYou just bumped Spencer to the top of my suggestions list,â Luke jokes in response, not able to handle the sappiness this early in the morning. âThanks, man, So Derekâs going to be a dad again too?â
âI wasnât supposed to tell you,â Spencer feels a bit like an idiot, âI donât know how far along they are so just keep it a secret for now.â
âSheâll probably tell me when I tell her,â Penelope rationalized it, âitâs fine, Spence, all of us are having babies itâs a good secret to spill.â
âWhen are you due?â
âJanuary 29th,â Penelope smiles, âyou?â
âY/N doesnât know for sure, but sheâs thinking itâs February 20th, if she got her math right,â Spencer confirms with a smile, âwe have a doctor's appointment to see the little one in 2 weeks.â
âWe find out if itâs a boy or girl today,â Luke added, and he can hear Penelope smack him.
âWeâre not finding out! I want it to be a surprise!â
âIâm going to find out, Iâm going to stare that sonogram down till I see a pee-pee or not,â Luke bickered back. Making her furious on purpose, like always.
âGood luck with that, itâs a blob and youâre a dork,â she fought right back, probably even more feisty now that she was pregnant.
That made Spencer just shake his head, he couldnât even picture it. It was insane when Haley got pregnant and Hotch became a dad, he was so shocked when JJ got pregnant and her small body was able to do it. Heâll never forget seeing Derek become a father, it was way too eventful not to. But this, he never thought heâd see it.
She probably felt the same with him.
âWeâve got to go in now Spence, but we can pick up some brunch and meet you at ours around 11?â Penelope cut into his awkward silence, âyou can see the ultrasound and be the first to know.â
âSounds good, Iâm really happy for you, Penny,â Spencer added with a smile. âBye.â
âBye!â
After he hangs up he shoots a text over to Y/N, âtaking the girls to Penelopeâs house, is there an extra booster seat for Amoreena anywhere?â And slides his phone back into his pocket.
Down the stairs, Jo and Amoreena are doing the dishes instead of just placing them in the dishwasher. Amoreena is on a stool, washing the plates as Jo dries and is able to reach the cabinets better to put them away. They donât even know heâs there watching as they pass plates back and forth.
Then Amoreena jumps off the stool as the water drains, finally turning around to see her dad, âall clean! Mom shouldnât have to do anything while sheâs making a baby.â
Spencer couldnât stop smiling, his girls were so perfectly kind and caring. It was like he won the genetic lottery being blessed with them.
âSheâd really appreciate us keeping the house clean for the next few months,â Spencer agreed. âAre you guys excited or nervous about the baby?â
They both shrugged and moved in closer to the counter, resting against it as they thought it over. He pressed his lips together awkwardly as he waited, âIâm really nervous.â He announced, watching their faces turn to worry.
âWhy?â Jo asked, âYouâre really good at being a dad.â
âI havenât done it from the beginning yet,â heâs open and honest with them, letting them know he doesnât always have every answer but heâs brave enough to try.
âIf anything,â Amoreenaâs smart little mind gets to work, âbecause youâve been so amazing without really knowing us, I can imagine Elly will love you the most because sheâll know you the longest.â
âElly?â Spencer smiles, remembering how serious they all are about the next kid is a girl too.
Amoreena nodded, âshe has the choice of 3 nicknames, Elly, Leo or NoraâŠâ Sheâs clearly thought it all through.
âYou know, I was thinking we should get something for Y/N and the baby, do you guys want to go to the store before we go see aunty Penny?â
They both nod enthusiastically, âcan we go get changed first?â Amoreena asks, âI want to wear something nice.â
It makes him laugh, âof course, hey, before you go do you know where any more booster seats are for you?â
She bites her lip to think, âhmm, I think thereâs one in poppyâs truck?â
âOkay, you go get ready, Iâll go talk to poppy,â Spencer replies, and before he can even turn around both of them are running up the creaky, loud, wooden steps and into their rooms.
Heâs already in jeans and a plaid shirt from feeding the chickens that morning, adding just his running shoes and Grandpaâs hat, it was basically his now. He loved it, it felt right, it made Y/N and Amoreena smile when he wore it, and it completed the look of stay-at-home Farm Dad.
He walked right into Y/Nâs parent's house, pulling back the screen door before walking, âknock, knock,â he says, smiling as he sees Linda rounding the corner from the kitchen.
âSpencer!â She cheers, wiping her hands off on her apron before pulling him into a hug. âHow are your girls?â
âGood,â he smiles again, holding her close quickly before letting her go again. âIâm taking them to a friend's house, does Amoreena have a booster seat here?â He asks for the 3rd time that morning, not wanting to drive her anywhere unless sheâs perfectly secured.
âBobâs got one in the truck, leave your keys here in case he has to go anywhere and just take the truck, itâs easier than taking the seat out and putting it back in,â Linda problem-solved like it was her job.
âOkay,â he places his keys in her hand.
âBobâs are on the wall by the door, have fun today!â Linda waved him off, âoh, and tell Y/N congratulations.â
âOh, thanks,â he smiled, âthe wedding was really fun.â
Heâs just taking the keys off the wall and opening the door again when he hears her small laughter, âI meant on the baby.â
He turns quickly, âhow did you know?â
Linda shakes her head, âthere are 3 cases of ginger ale in the fridge and 8 empty boxes of saltine crackers in the recycling.â
He turns pink, embarrassed for some reason as if Linda didnât know he was sleeping with her daughter. He nods with a press-lipped smile. âShe didnât want to tell anyone till the ultrasound.â
âI understand,â Linda smiled. âIâm ready to talk to her when she is, let her know that.â
âI will,â he smiled one last time, âsee you later!â
And they were off.
â
Heâs in a big red farm truck, wearing a farm hat and plaid while listening to Taylor Swift with his daughters.
He canât help but shake his head at the insanity, agreeing with Taylorâs current lyric thatâs being burned into his head, âfever dream high in the quiet of the night you know that I caught it!â
Amoreena and Jo are in the back, singing together as they share what songs are their favourites. Itâs surreal, every single moment is, if it wasnât for how badly it made his heartache to see them so happy heâd think it was all a dream.
The girls are very adamant about going to TJMaxx for a present for Y/N, saying itâs the best place to find nice things for a good price. Spencer would spend a million dollars on her if he could, but this was a group decision, and there were 2 of them now, so he never won anymore.
They get a decent parking space, getting out together they look insane. Spencer is a walking talking Woody from Toy Story at this point, Joâs in all black and combat boots and Amoreena is a princess⊠it was an interesting group, to say the least.
They get a cart, pushing it up and down the aisles as they find a million and 1 cute things for Y/N. Everything from paintings to towels, maternity clothes and baby toys, makeup brushes and scarves⊠they were having the hardest time finding the best thing to get for them.
Spencer turned down the final aisle in the back corner, seeing a bunch of headboards and chairs, and a small little bassinet. Itâs whicker and woven beautifully, light wood and a fluffy white inside. Itâs soft, well made, and incredibly cute.
âMom gave my crib to Aunt Ashely, she might like this!â Amoreena cheered, leaning over it to show that she was the perfect height to see inside of it too.
âIâm going to get it,â Spencer announces, âitâll look nice in our room, and itâs good for the first few months while sheâs really dependent on your mom.â
They were all on team girl now, Spencer and his little women just made the most sense. He couldnât see anyone other than all his girls in his mind when he thought of the future, and heâs had enough time with boys anyway. Hank and Henry would always hold a special place in his heart.
The girls each wanted t pick something out for the baby, heading right for the girl section of the baby aisle. âNow, you have to remember that theyâll be very tiny in the winter, and around 6 months in the summer.â
Everything was actually decently priced like the girls said it would be, so Spencer went a bit overboard. It was his first baby too, he was allowed to spoil it. He stocked up on bib rags, swaddle blankets, pacifiers and cute little hats. Jo and Amoreena on the other handpicked out the cutest little winter coat. It would be perfect for the Virginia winter, a big brown bear coat that zipped up like a sleeping bag. Sheâs going to be so cozy.
Bringing everything to the cashier was fun, she could see they were all related and smiled, âanother brother or sister on the way?â
Jo and Amoreena smiled, âin February,â Jo was the one to answer with a wide smile.
âCongrats!â She smiles as she rings everything through, bagging it all while Spencer pays and the girls take it all to the truck.
âWait, so will I ever meet my other brother and sister?â Amoreena asks as theyâre filling the bed of the truck with what they bought, completely out of the blue.
âNot for a while, Jo kinda broke the rules to find me and figured out who they are, but they canât know till theyâre 18,â Spencer explained.
She turns to Jo with a look of worry, âwas my name on there?â
Jo nods enthusiastically, âoh yeah! Youâre baby number 3! It goes me, Alice, you and then Dylan is the youngest.â
Amoreena starts to cry, it's soft at first as she goes silent and then sheâs heaving as she thinks about it more. She throws herself into Spencerâs arms and heâs so confused. Shushing her as he rubs her back gently, âwhatâs wrong, sweetheart?â
âI knew it,â is all she can say. Holding him closer than before. âYou were too great to just be my dad.â
Jo places her hand on Spencerâs shoulder, âsheâs right.â
âYou guys are the amazing ones,â he says softly. âCome on, letâs get in the truck and go see Aunt Penny, she has a surprise.â
Amoreena sighed as she pulled back, âI donât think I can handle anything more.â
It makes him laugh, âitâs a simple one, I promise.â
â
Jo loves Penelope. They instantly click, discussing exactly how she hacked the Sperm bank in all the technical terms which ended up sounding like gibberish to Spencer. She was incredibly smart and very interested in the computer programming field. Penelope offered to take her under her wing.
Amoreena, however, fell head over heels in love with Luke. He was nice to her at the barbecue because heâs Luke and he doesnât know how to be anything but nice, and she thought he looked like Prince Naveen from the princess and the frog⊠which just so happened to be her favourite and suddenly Spencer understood why she was in a green princess dress today.
It was adorable, she looked up at him like he was an actual prince with big brown doe eyes as she listened to him talk about all the knightly battles heâs been on recently. She was enamoured, having her first little kid crush on her Auntâs boyfriend.
Spencer was holding Penelopeâs sonogram in his hands, alone on the couch as his kids were deep in conversation with his friends. It was really cool, thatâs all he could think. Himself, Derek and Penelope were going to have 3 kids all around the same age.
3 little people who got to grow up with a bond and friendship just as strong as theirs. Each of them having 2 best friends, 2 protectors, it was going to be amazing. He can see it now, a confident little Garcia, a feisty little Morgan and a shy yet chatty little Reid baby all together on the playground. What a nightmare for their poor teacher.
Y/N still hasnât texted him back from this morning, yet sheâs calling him now at 1 pm as theyâre getting ready to leave, âhello, princess.â
âCan you leave the girls with Penelope and meet me in the ER?â
âOf what hospital? Are you okay?â He asks, and all eyes are on his horrified face.
Luke stands then, âIâll take you, letâs go.â
âBethesda, itâs not bad I just came in to check something and I want you here,â her voice is soft and she knows heâs going to panic. âI need you to breathe and stay calm or the kids will freak out.â
He takes a deep breath, âsorry I forgot we had an appointment today.â He lies pretty well.
âIâll see you soon okay, text me while Luke drives me?â Heâs quiet as he and Luke slip out the door.
âIâll just stay on the line, I donât mind, cutie,â he could see her smile in his mind as he listened to her. Able to actually calm down and think straight as he climbed into the passenger seat and handed Luke the keys.
âWhat happened?â
âI didnât feel good, I was extra dizzy and sick a few times at work, so Allison made me come in. Savannah has me hooked up to an IV now, Iâve been so sick Iâm dehydrated, and they wanted to do an ultrasound but I canât see her without you here.â
His heartbeat settles a bit, the same thing happened to JJ. It was fairly normal, the first-trimester sickness was so horrific she wasnât really eating, she had maybe 1 full meal a day even though he tried to get her to eat more. And she was drinking a lot of water, but she was also throwing up hourly. It wasnât healthy.
âOkay,â heâs able to smile softly. âThank you for wanting to wait for me.â
She hears his smile too, knowing heâs calm and okay. âSheâs your first baby, baby, I want you to have all the firsts with her. Or him. Iâm so settled on it being another girl I feel so bad sometimesâŠâ
He can hear the paper of her hospital gown rustling as she rubs her small stomach. âI love you forever even if you are a boy, or you come out a quote-unquote boy and want to be a girl or the other way or neither or even both!â Sheâs clearly not talking to him anymore as she assures the baby sheâs not going to be upset about its gender.
Luke drives like a maniac, Spencer knows from experience but heâs extra insane today. He has dad panic now too, he knows what Spencerâs thinking and so he guns it and heâs in the ER parking lot within 10 minutes. âOkay, Iâm here where are you?â
âSavannahâs going to collect you at the door and bring you to me,â her voice is soft and calm still, âIâll see you in a few minutes, love you.â
âLove you too,â he replies before hanging up. âThank you, Luke.â
Luke places his hand on Spencerâs shoulder, âyou know by now Iâd kill for you, right?â
Spencerâs heart has been at a capacity for love for a while now and yet it keeps getting piled on, âthank you. If you want to go back to Pennyâs thatâs okay. Iâll drive Y/Nâs car back to your place.â
âSure,â Luke smiles again. âGo see that baby, I want to see pictures after!â
With that, Spencerâs getting out of the truck and running into the hospital, holding his hat so it doesnât fly off. Savannah laughs when she sees him, heâs so anxious and sweet and sheâs always admired him for making Derek feel loved before her.
She places a hand on his back as she leads him down the hall, âsheâs fine I promise, I wouldnât be this chill if she wasnât.â
âThank you,â Spencer stops, âI really love her Savannah. Like if anything happens to her or my kids I will kill myself kind of love her and itâs terrifying.â His words are a whisper as he shakes, tears welling in his eyes. âIâm trying to be cool and collected for her but I need a minute.â
Savannah looks down the corridor past him, smiling softly as Derek walks out of Y/Nâs room. âDerek was here for lunch when she called me.â
He wraps Spencer up in the hug he needs and Spencer just holds him. âYouâre the best,â he says softly as he rests his lips against Derek's shoulder like he always does. And Derek messes up his hair, without fail.
Derek places his hands on his cheeks, âsheâs really cool, but tomorrow is called off until theyâre both past the first trimester and everything is chill, okay?â
âI forgot all about that,â Spencerâs eyes widen.
Derek laughs, âgo see your girl, she invited us over for dinner after.â
âPenelope and Luke have to come too, they have big news to share today too,â Spencer spills the beans, âsheâs going to be so mad at me for telling you but I have been wanting to scream about it for a few hours now.â
Derekâs face lights up, âIâll be back!â
Savannah laughs as he runs down the hall, surely going to congratulate his best friend and tell her all about how cool itâll be to all have kids together. With all the enthusiasm that Spencer kept inside, Derek was about to scream on his behalf.
Y/Nâs a vision in the blue paper gown, laying on the table with her hand over her belly as Spencer walks in, âHey, cutie.â
He peppers kisses to her whole face while she laughs, reaching up with her free hand, the other is all taped up with wires for her fluids. She looks much better already, her skin is glowing and the life is back in her eyes, sheâs smiling again and he notices the 2 empty jello cups beside an unopened one.
âDerek made me save you one,â She adds as he notices it, âin case you passed out or something.â
Within minutes, heâs done his jello and thereâs a new woman heâs never seen before coming in for Y/Nâs ultrasound. She introduces herself as Aria and Y/N canât help but mention she kind of looks like Arizona on Greyâs Anatomy.
Sheâs not far along enough for the regular ultrasound wand to pick anything up, wiping her belly clean of the jelly before prepping the other one and Y/N grips Spencerâs hand tighter. She looks like she hates it, and Spencer probably would too if some strange lady shoved a metal stick up his parts.
Sheâs clicking around on her own, Spencer knows sheâs just a tech and she canât really tell them anything until she does the first sweep for all the answers. She turns the screen after a few minutes, âhereâs your little baby, we have a healthy heartbeat and a placenta up here in the top left.â
Seeing his baby is the most magical moment of his life. She was so tiny, the size of a sweet pea inside the love of his life. She looked like a little alien, tiny in her little sac as she floated around in there. Happy, and healthy and growing day by day.â
âJust the one?â Y/N confirms.
Aria laughs, âyes, nothing else is going on in here, but they are measuring more at 7 weeks, almost 8, instead of 6 weeks and 5 days, even with your period math, they might just be a big baby.â
âOur first kid was a chunky baby,â Y/N smiles, looking at the screen and oblivious to how Spencer smiles at the words our first kidâŠ
âSo this little one is good, in the fetal position and the tail is at the right length for development, they should look like a person the next time you see them. Everything looks like itâs on track and your HCG is doubling perfectly,â Aria was very cheerful. âYouâre just sick because theyâre super healthy.â
âIâm fine with that,â Y/N smiles again, âcan I have a bunch of copies? Everyone is going to want one.â
âSure,â Aria hits a few buttons, printing 11 photos off and handing them over to her in a long strand. âHave you looked into any OBâs for this one?â
âNot yet, I was going to bring it up tonight,â Y/Nâs the only one talking, Spencer has no idea if heâs allowed an opinion on her body and heâs never going to give one unless she asks.
âWell, Iâll leave you to it! Here are some facilities we like if you need recommendations,â she smiles as she hands them a booklet. âCongratulations!â
âThank you,â Y/N swoons, sitting up to look at her little baby photos and read the booklet.
Once the woman is gone, she smiles at Spencer, âI want to do a water birth, how are you feeling about that?â
âLike Iâll be there no matter what you pick?â He answers, âI just want you to be safe and in good hands, preferably in a birthing centre where theyâre all trained to care for you. Iâve been a little stressed at the idea of us living so far away from the hospital, so itâs better to not do a home birth in case something goes wrong last minute.â
Itâs a Reid rant of epic proportions, âokay, water birth in a birthing centre it is. Plus, itâll be winter so I wouldnât want to drive in that while giving birth.â
âHow long do you have to stay here?â
âOnce my IV fluid bag is empty, I can go.â She smiles wide, holding his hand gently as she looks at him. âTheyâre going to send a nurse to the library on Tuesdays and Thursdays to ensure I get more fluids in me, and Iâm also going to take some nausea meds now.â
âThank you for calling me,â Spencer whispers, âIâm so happy you feel safe with Derek, and that he could have been here for you, but can you call me first next time?â
She nods, âI was scared, I needed to know if she was okay before I told you because I love you a lot and seeing you upset made me more scared.â
âI donât want you to feel like that,â Spencer shook his head softly, leaning in and pressing their foreheads together. âI may be a worry wort and an anxious crier, but I will hold your hand and I will be here, you mean more to me than anything else.â
She cupped his face with her free hand, âthe girls better be on the same level as me.â She brings a smile to his face, âif anything happens to me you have to be strong for them, I know nothing bad will. But I need you to know I do have faith in you to keep going after me, for them. They need a parent, be it me or you, at 100% all the time.â
âI promise,â he smiles so she knows heâs true.
â
Penelope Spencer and Derek laid all 3 of their ultrasounds on Y/Nâs kitchen table, a sticky note on each one. Baby Garvez, Baby Morgan and Baby ReidâŠ
The Big Three 2.0 coming this winter.
Penelope took a photo of it, opening the BAU text thread that has all members past and present included. Sending the photo to everyone while they patiently waited for a response.
Jordan Todd: way to go!!! Canât wait to see all that cuteness!
Anderson: !!! Bring them by the office sometime, please!
Hotch: Jack said heâs excited to meet his new cousins. Congrats guys.
Elle: is Penelope having 2 babies or did Spencer get a wife I donât know about?
Emily: Congrats!! (And yes Spencer has a wife and 3 kids now apparentlyâŠ)
Elle: pics or it didnât happen
Spencer:
Elle: no fuckin way... congrats Reid!
Alex Blake: so proud of you Spencer, I always knew you could do it. Love is full of endless possibilities. Your kids will be so loved, I miss you all.
Matt Cruz: congrats!
Kate Callahan: we need to get you a triple stroller
Penelope: Please!! Zoo trips are going to be a riot with that!
Tara: so happy for you all!
Matt: Welcome to the club Spencer and Luke!
Kristy: and Y/N! We need to throw a big baby shower on the farm before the cold weather!
Will: JJâŠ
JJ: no.
Will: Spencer, tell nini Iâm really happy sheâs finally going to be a big sis, sheâs always been so good with the kids. You made some great kids!
Spencer: thanks everyone â„ïž
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Breakable Heaven
Chapter 11 of In Breakable Heaven! Weâre getting to the part that inspired the whole idea for this series, so Iâm pretty excited!
Summary: Reader deals with the repercussions of being abducted.
Warnings: hospital recovery (I donât know if that needed a warning but just in case), nothing else I can think of
Word Count: ~2100
You were wheeled out of the classroom on a stretcher, not fully conscious but not completely out of it either. Spencer stood frozen in the corner, watching as the medics loaded you onto the stretcher and wheeled you out of the room. You wanted nothing more than to be able to tell him you were okay, but you couldnât form the words.
Waking up in the hospital was confusing. It took a lot of effort to open your eyes, but once you did you were instantly alert. The overhead lights put you on edge. The whole experience reminded you of how it felt when the trunk opened in the parking lot.
 Your heartrate spiked, alerting the nurses to your anxious state. They rushed in the room, taking your vitals and administering medicine through your IV to calm you down, effectively putting you back to sleep.
 Unsurprisingly, Penelope was first in the room the second visitors were allowed. You could tell it was her from the sound of her shoes clicking against the tile floor of the hospital.
 âHey Pen.â You smiled at her, glad to see someone you recognize after waking up this time around.
 âYouâre up! Thatâs good! Are you okay? How are you feeling? Do you need anything? I can go get the doctor! Or a nurse!â She turned around, ready to get anything you might need.
 âPen! Itâs fine. Just sit with me, please?â You shifted slightly, grimacing.
 âOf course. Of course! Anything.â She moves farther into the room, settling down into the chair next to your bed.
 âHowâs umâŠâ You want to ask about Spencer, but you donât know how without outing your relationship, something youâre not sure Spencer wants at the moment. âHowâs everyone doing?â
 âOh, sweetie, theyâre great! We didnât have any new cases, so theyâre all stuck doing paperwork.â Sheâs all smiles, unknowingly confusing you. If he isnât on a case, why isnât Spencer visiting you?
 âOh, good. Iâm glad theyâre getting a break. They deserve it.â Your smile is weak, but thankfully Penelope assumes itâs from the pain.
 The two of you keep talking, Penelope showing you videos of cute animals to help cheer you up, for a few hours before she has to leave. Just as sheâs standing up to go, JJ walks into the room.
 âHi, Y/N.â You laugh at the timing.
 âHi JJ. Fancy seeing you here as soon as Pen is leaving.â Your first genuine smile of the day graces your lips.
 âWhy, you didnât think Iâd leave you all alone did you? Weâre taking turns. Iâll be back!â With a wave and a smile, sheâs out the door. JJ takes her spot in the chair, leading you through the same conversation as earlier.
 The next few days repeat like that until youâve healed enough to leave the hospital. Every member of the team took a turn visiting you except for one. The one you wanted to see more than anyone else.
 Penelope drove you back to your apartment, offering to walk you all the way up.
 âItâs okay, Pen. I can handle it. I just want to get back to normal.â You leant over the middle console to hug her before getting out of the car.
 âY/N?â
 âYeah?â
 âI never asked before, but Iâve been wondering...â Penelope trailed off, not knowing how to word her question.
 âWhat is it?â Her show of nerves was putting you on edge.
 âWhat was the phone call about? The one right before you were taken. You just looked so happy in the footage, I thought maybe if you remembered it you might have something to smile about.â She sounded so genuine, you didnât know how to tell her it would only hurt more.
 âOh, ya know⊠I- uh, I donât remember.â You stuttered through your response.  âThank you though. I know youâre worried about me, but you donât need to be. Iâll be okay.â You smiled, turning around before she could see the tears welling up in your eyes.
 The walk up to your apartment was the first time you had a moment to yourself since everything happened. It gave you a chance to really think about why Spencer wouldnât have come to visit you. Unfortunately, you could only think of one reason that actually sounded plausible.
 You shake your head in an attempt to clear your thoughts as you pull out your keys. You walk into your apartment, the darkness forcing you to realize how alone you felt.
 --
 You donât remember falling asleep, but an insistent knocking on your front door wakes you up. Â
You shuffle towards the door from your place on the couch, sparing a second to glance through the peephole. You open the door without a greeting, simply leaving it open and returning to the couch.
 Spencer walks in, closing the door behind him. He stares at you in silence, unsure how to begin this conversation.
 âY/NâŠâ He expected you to turn towards him when he spoke, but you remained face down on the couch. You knew what was coming and you couldnât deal with it. âHow are you?â
 That surprised you. You mostly expected him to break up with you and run, not check up on you first. Maybe you were wrong to expect the worst. Maybe he just didnât want to out your relationship, but him not visiting you left a sour taste in your mouth. Especially because you know he was in Quantico with the rest of the team.
 âFunny, you would know if you bothered to visit. What? You didnât want the team to figure it out that bad? Hell, Hotch visited me and I barely know the man!â You started mumbling into the couch, but your emotion intensified as you spoke. You rolled over, sitting up to look at him.
 âNo, thatâs not why⊠I didnât want to visit you because I⊠I didnât want to...â He looked physically pained by the words he was trying to say. âI didnât want to break up with you in the hospital.â He finished the sentence, not even looking at you.
 âYou what?â Your voice broke on the two word sentence. His words were like a slap in the face, surprising you after his gentle opening of the conversation.
 âI think we should break up.â He said it with more resolve this time, as if he had practiced saying it with no emotion.
 You could feel your breathing speeding up, trying to push back the tears you knew were coming. âBut why? What happened? We were going to get dinner? I thought you were happy? I thought we were happy?â Your words were rushed in an attempt to make sense of the situation unfolding in front of you.
 âWe canât be happy together. It just wonât work.â Spencerâs words felt so cold. He stood in front of you emotionless while you felt as though the world was crumbling around you.
 âThat doesnât make any sense. Spence, where is this coming from? This is so different from the last time we talked, a complete 180- No. 540 because weâve gone all the way around and then kept spinning!â You were more confused than anything, unable to understand why he was saying these things.
 âItâs just how it has to be. Goodbye.â He turned and left without another word, leaving you to piece together where it all went wrong.
 You sat on the couch, staring at the door as if he would walk back in and say it was all a dream, that he was happy with you, and everything would be fine as long as you were together.
 You stared, unmoving, until the beginnings of daylight began to filter into your apartment through the curtains. The sounds of people getting ready for their days began to filter through your apartment building as you drifted off to sleep.
 --
 When you woke up later that night, everything felt like a dream, the only reminder being the dried tears on your face. You spent the next few days trying to figure out what went wrong, but every single time you came up empty.
 Penelope came by to visit you every chance she got, but you never told her about you and Spencer. Even when she told you how he has been acting off.
 âHowâs the rest of the team doing?â You asked in an attempt to learn about Spencer.
 âOh, theyâre fine. Wrapped up another case yesterday. Apparently Spencer was acting a bit off though, nobody can get him to talk about it. I think Hotch and Rossi have an idea about it, but they wouldnât budge when I asked.â She supplied you with the information you were craving.
 âOff? What do you mean?â You tried your best to sound nonchalant as you prodded for more information.
 âHe just seems a little sad, but whenever anybody asks him whatâs wrong he gets defensive. Itâs typical Spencer behavior. Someone will get through to him eventually, and heâll open up. Derek and I were theorizing, and he thinks it has to do with his secret girlfriend. Speaking of opening up though, have you considered therapy? I know you said you donât want to talk about what happened, but I think it could be good for you to get it off your chest! I mean, youâre not even listening to music anymore! I just want you to be happy again, and I know itâll take some time because you went through a trauma, but talking about it helped me when I was shot, and I know everybody deals with things differently, so donât feel like you have to go talk to someone, I just want to help in any way I can, even if that means-â
 âPen, I actually scheduled an appointment for tomorrow.â You smiled at your friend, cutting off her rambling. Dealing with the breakup on your own has actually been more difficult than dealing with the kidnapping. At least you could talk to Penelope about your feelings regarding being kidnapped and tortured, but bottling everything else up inside was not healthy.
 âThatâs good. Iâm really glad youâre taking the necessary steps to move on and heal.â She replied, smiling again.
 âThanks Pen.â You couldnât help but wonder what she would say if she knew the whole truth.
 --
 After a week off, you went back to work at the bookstore. You just wanted things to be as normal as possible. That was kind of hard with the media circus surrounding your kidnapping, but you did your best.
 You were actually unprepared for the media involvement. From your perspective, the case was over before it really began. You were only âmissingâ for about 5 hours, but itâs difficult to keep a case quiet when the suspect was shot and killed in a public high school. Itâs one of the things you worked through in your therapy appointments.
 After your first appointment, you scheduled another for later in the week. You decided to go twice a week for a month while things were still so fresh, and then you decreased it to once a week.
 After about a month of therapy, you decided to do another cover show. Your therapist helped you work through the emotions enough that you could once again turn to music to heal. After scheduling the show, you called Penelope to invite her and the rest of the team.
 âHey Pen! Are you busy this Saturday?â You surprised yourself with how happy you sounded.
 âNot unless a case pops up, but right now everything looks clear. What did you have in mind?â
Penelope wasnât oblivious to your happy attitude, but ultimately she decided not to mention it for fear of putting a damper on things.
 âIâm actually going to do a mini-show, just three songs, but I wanted to invite you and the team! I think it will be really cathartic for me to get all of this out in the open.â You planned the three songs with your therapist. It would be a way for you to tell Spencer everything you were feeling. He wouldnât answer your calls or texts, and he might not even come to the show, but you decided you needed to get your feelings out there even if he wasnât there to hear them.
 âThatâs wonderful! Iâll make sure everyone is there!â Penelope couldnât hold in her joy as she squealed in delight.
 âThanks Pen, but donât force anyone. Only if they want to come!â Your words were playful, but you didnât want Spencer to feel like you were forcing him to come through Penelope.
 âOkay, fine. But Iâm still going to pester!â
 The two of you hung up the phone, eagerly awaiting Saturday.
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Sugar and Spice [Maxwell Lord x Reader] - Chapter 8
Summary: When you are evicted from your apartment by your toxic ex boyfriend and have no place to go, who do you turn to? Alone in the city as the countdown to Christmas begins, you find yourself applying for a job as the assistant of the worldâs biggest entrepreneur; Maxwell Lord. Little do you know, he has other intentions for you. No doubt about it, this Christmas will truly be like no other.
Word count: 2.4k
Warnings: Smut, mentions of a previous verbally abusive relationship, typical 80s misogyny (but very little of it), mentions of food and drink, alcohol consumption. This is a sugardaddy x sugarbaby fic soooo⊠a daddy k!nk too oops.
But in this chapter - reader confronts her abusive ex boyfriend.
Authorâs note: ANGST! Mention of an abusive relationship although I've tried to gloss over it as much as I can. Sorry this chapter was a long time coming. I'm so happy that people are enjoying Sugar and Spice.
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"I think," Maxwell swallowed. "No. I know. I know that I've fallen deeply in love with you."
You swore your heart stopped at his revelation. Hand still cupping his cheek, you looked deep into his glazed, honey brown eyes and saw nothing but the truth. The man who had rounded his career on lies and greed loved you. You felt your throat dry up, searching for words but not knowing what to say. Maxwell looked at you too, his soft eyes beginning to cross in bewilderment when you didn't say a word. He wished so desperately that you'd say something, anything. The last person Maxwell Lord said 'I love you' to, was his father. You couldn't leave him hanging.
You wanted to say it back, you wanted to so desperately tell him the truthâ that you loved him too, because, you did. You hadn't confronted your feelings, you hadn't realized it fully until faced with your current situation. But now everything made sense. The jealousy, the lust, the need for affection and the want to be cared for.
Fate brought you both together. Running from an abusive relationship, getting almost kicked out of your apartment, and finding yourself in the expansive office of Maxwell Lord the IV. You thought you were going for an assistant position but instead you found yourself as his sugar baby and now⊠now this only complicated everything.
"Max," you whispered and he closed his eyes slowly, one final year falling down his cheek. Your gaze flicked between him and the almost finished bottle of whiskey on his desk. He'd been drinking at the gala and he'd been drinking when he got home therefore it was for certain that Maxwell was not in the right state of mind at all. "Do you want to go to bed?"
"You don't love me," Maxwell tried to ask but it came out as an embarrassing croak. "Of course you don't." He regretted the words immediately after they fell from his lips. He was so sure that he had ruined everything and things would never be the same again.
What was wrong with you? No matter how much you wanted to tell him you just couldn't. "Max," he admired the way his name fell from your soft lips. You continued to smooth his hair out of his face and he hummed in contentment, his eyes still closed. "You're so sleepy. Please, let me take you to bed." you whispered and Max barely moved. You called his name one more time and he opened his eyes the slightest. You pulled him up and wrapped an arm around his body. Despite him being much bigger than you, you somehow managed to navigate the drunk and hurting man the corridor and into his master bedroom. He slumped onto his king sized bed and you gently tucked him under the blankets. He mumbled something incoherent, reaching out and making grabby fists. He wanted you.
"Lay with me," he mumbled, trying to pull you down on top of him. You wanted to but you weren't even sure if you could stay at the penthouse after his revelation. You hadn't even shared a bed with Maxwell, and now suddenly he was requesting that you lay with him?
"I have to go." you whispered, running your fingers through his hair and pushing his bangs out of his face.
"No." he mumbled, but he was already half sleep. You planted a gentle kiss on his forehead before stepping back.
You had genuine trouble trying to process what just happened and why it happened. Maxwell trusted you. He shared with you a family secret that nobody else knew, and all because he was in love with you. You were perplexed.
Before you could leave his bedroom, you were greeted with your reflection in the mirror. Your hair was a mess, your ballgown was ruined and your makeup was tear stained. You padded into Maxwell's closet and took out one of his shirts and tailored suit pants. That man desperately needed to get a pair of normal casual clothes and fast. You tried them on, not minding the way they fit your body. You could've gone all out, finding a belt or a pair of suspenders to clip onto the light grey pants, but you decided against it. You pushed your hair out of your face and padded into the en-suite to wash your face. You didn't look much better, and you figured you probably just need a good night sleep. At least this way, no one would recognise you. You were almost certain the press would still be walking the streets looking for you and Maxwell. You actually kinda liked wearing Max's clothes, although there was no doubt in your mind that they looked better on him than you.
The streets were freezing and filled with thick snow. You regretted not taking one of Maxwell's suit jackets or warm winter coats but nevertheless you shivered all the way home. Your feet were like bricks of ice by the time you got back to your apartment. As you walked up the flights of stairs, digging into your purse for your keys, you were greeted with an unwelcome visitor. Tristan.
"Maxwell Lord," he deadpanned, standing in front of your door. You paused, looking at him hesitantly. "What the fuck do you think you're playing at?" Tristan snarled.
"What do you mean?" you asked innocently.
"You were on national television!" Tristan accused. "You and him, and a bunch of other snobby business pricks. Bruce fucking Wayne too⊠and the president!"
You rolled your eyes. "Tristan, it's late. Please move so I can enter my apartment and go to bed." You reached out to press your key into the lock when Tristan's large hand grabbed your wrist, his fingernails digging into your skin. You winced, trying to flinch back but he wouldn't let go, and suddenly the memories came flooding back. "Tristan," you gritted out. "Fucking let me go."
"I sold your apartment." Tristan spat.
"What?" you gasped, tears filling your eyes. "But I paid rent!"
"You're fucking around with Maxwell Lord, aren't you?" He growled.
"Who I fuck around with is none of your business! Now. Let. Me. Go." you tried pulling yourself away from Tristan but his grip around you only tightened. You squealed when he slammed you into the door. "You're going to wake the neighbours." You hissed trying desperately to keep your cool. You didn't want to seem weak. You weren't weak. You had this under control.
"Let's go somewhere more private then." Tristan smirked, dragging you unwillingly to his own apartment and locking the door behind him. "Now you tell me right now what the fuck is going on between you two."
"Or what?" You snapped back. "What the hell are you gonna do?"
"Is he your boyfriend?" Tristan quizzed.
"He's a friend." you glared at him, backing away everytime he took a step bearing you.
"A friend," Tristan repeated with a scoff of disbelief. "Just like you said on television."
You wondered how much of the gala and the interview outside had been televised but now wasn't the time to ask questions. You knew Maxwell had the power to rid you of Tristan. If he knew about the awful things Tristan had done to you and the way he had hurt you⊠well, Tristan may as well have had a death wish.
"Jesus Christ Tristan can you just let me go home?" you sighed, rubbing your eyes tiredly.
"I knew you were struggling with rent. I knew you had been laid off from work and it's Christmas coming up⊠if you had just told me you were struggling I would've made a negotiation." Tristan shook his head shamefully. "But no."
"Negotiate?" you questioned in disbelief. "You're a fucking manipulator!"
"And you're a fucking whore!" Tristan screamed, towering over you, his cheeks turning bright red with rage. "You know, I really didn't think you had it in you. Fucking around with some big CEO who thinks he's a hotshot."
"And what are you supposed to be?" you exhaled shakily, tears threatening to spill from your eyes. His words stung. "Maxwell⊠he cares about me. You never gave a shit about me."
"You think he cares about you? You seriously think Maxwell Lord cares about anyone other than himself?" Tristan barked. "He has you wrapped around your finger. I thought you were smarter than this."
"You don't know him the way I do." you smiled bravely. Fuck, you really did love him. And you needed him now more than ever. You knew that he was just a phone call away and if you told him you were in danger he would come running to rescue you with his whole team of security. If only you had just stayed with him. If only you had just decided to lay next to him, curled up in his arms in his warm bed.
"So you are fucking him?" Tristan scrunched his nose up and looked at you with disgust. He double checked the door was locked and put his key in his pocket before walking over to his bedroom. "You can sleep on the floor like the whore you are." Tristan laughed before going into his bedroom and shutting the door.
Once he was gone, you were left standing in the middle of your ex boyfriend's apartment feeling small and helpless. You didn't know what to do or where to go. You didn't even have Maxwell's number memorised so you couldn't call him. You let the tears free fall as you glanced between the locked door and the windows that you knew you couldn't squeeze out of even if you tried. You were trapped in a place that has brought back so much fear, and you didn't know what to do. You didn't know what tomorrow would hold.
You could barely sleep, the December cold hanging over your body like an icicle. You would give anything to be in the warmth of Maxwell's penthouse. God, you'd give anything just to be with Maxwell. You needed him.
The next morning, Maxwell woke up groggy, and his butler, Kenneth, was already waiting by his bed holding a platter of French toast, cup of black coffee and a glass of water. "Good morning sir," he greeted. "Your hangover breakfast, as requested."
Maxwell rubbed his eyes and shuffled upwards in bed as Kenneth placed the silver tray on his lap. It smelled delicious but he couldn't help but wish you were there to share it with him. He imagined you laying next to him in bed, giving him sleepy kisses while Kenneth presented you with your favourite breakfast meal; waffles and berries. The perfect life.
That's when Maxwell remembered. He practically three the breakfast on the floor and dived out of bed, still in his clothes from the night before. He caught a glimpse of your gala gown in the entryway of his closet and his heart sank in his chest. The memories came flooding back. He told you he loved you, but he didn't remember you saying it back.
"Have you seen Y/N?" Maxwell asked hurriedly, trying to weigh up what time you must have left. He quickly tore open his shirt and grabbed a clean one out of the closet.
Kenneth stood there awkwardly watching his boss work up a frenzy. "Uh no sir," he replied. "So I gather you won't be eating breakfast?" Kenneth's gaze flicked from Maxwell to the mess of French toast and spilled coffee that was sure to stain the cream coloured carpet.
"Shit no, sorry Kenneth. Could you call Jeeves and have him drive me to her apartment? I have to see her." Maxwell asked as he buttoned up the top of his dress shirt.
"Right away sir, but there's something I think you must see first." Kenneth swapped out the usual business newspaper that Maxwell would read for a glossy red-top tabloid magazine.
"You know I don't read that bullshit." Maxwell sighed, quickly combing his hair and trying his best to style it into place given the stressful circumstances. He wasn't going to forget to spritz his cologne either.
"SirâŠ." Kenneth drew out again, flashing the cover in Maxwell's direction. Maxwell caught a glimpse of it and his heart stopped. Front page was an image of you trending through the thick snow in the dead of night wearing Maxwell's clothes. The headline was explicitly disgusting, shaming you in every way possible. Maxwell's lips parted as he drunk in your appearance and he was horrified as he read the mean words the journalists had wrote about you.
"She cannot see this. I want you to buy every copy of this god forsaken tabloid and have them all destroyed. You understand?" Maxwell ordered, slamming his black business credit card into the chest of Kenneth. "Get the rest of the house staff to help you and do it fast."
"No worries sir," Kenneth smiled. "Jeeves is waiting for you outside."
Maxwell nodded appreciatevely as he tied his shoelaces. "Thanks."
"Sir?" Kenneth asked timidly.
"Yeah?" Maxwell asked, semi breathless.
"When you're with her, I see your face light up. I see the same happiness in you that I once saw in your father." Kenneth admitted and Maxwell's heart blossomed at the comparison. "When you get her, please don't ever let her go."
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FIC: Syverson the Protector Pt 4
* Â Syverson The Protector - Part I (pairing Syverson x YOU)
* Â Syverson the Protector - Part II (pairing Syverson x YOU)
*Â Â Syverson the Protector - Part III Â (pairing Syverson x YOU)
Summary: You are an embedded journalist and on a mission, everything goes wrong. The two of you have made it to safety and now itâs time for the healing to begin.Â
Rating for this part: Budding romance, Fluff, medical related content, Iâve picked âHenryâ as Syversonâs first name and heâs grown his hair out :D
Must be read in order, no part can stand alone. I expect to have at most, two more parts, 5 and concluding in 6.Â
Word count: 2293
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Lying flat on his back, Syverson stared morosely at the ceiling and listened to the gentle thwapping sounds of the bedside machine that was currently and eagerly siphoning fluids out of his intestines. He let his mind tick over what the machine was actually doing to him and blearily considered why he wasnât in constant pain from the electronic manipulation of his own vulnerable flesh.
Surely those plastic tubes driven into his guts should hurt, right?
Sure, youâre right, his mind chattered, a little giddy to be imparting an unknown bit of information, but consider this: morphine â a wounded manâs best friend.
My best friend, he thought and then as if the devil knew it was being called, another machine beeped and a flood of soft luscious haziness rushed into his bloodstream and he immediately relaxed. This tired mind drifted and it didnât take long for him to slip back into sleep.
Hours later, Syverson startled out of a clinging and sticky dream with a desperate gasp. He felt hot all over, stiff and aching and the very thought of trying to move elicited a terrible pain response. Hot, oily bile crept up in his throat and his mouth watered in that awful familiar process of preparing him to violently empty his stomach.
I have to sit up, his brain screamed. I have to sit up. I donât want to puke still lying on my back!
A broad cool hand pressed down on his chest and another closed about his shoulder. Someone was speaking but he couldnât make out the words through the heavy veiling fog that enveloped him. He tried to speak to the person, and tried to tell them that he was going to be sick.
âItâs ok, Henry,â a voice was telling him. âYouâre ok. Iâll help you roll onto your side if you need to vomit.â
Swallowing jerkily, throat working hard to force the urge back down, Syverson clamped his teeth and shook his head.
âAll right. How about we move you a bit. Are you ok with that?â
Move? God no. I canât bear that. Moving meant pain.
He shook his head again, but the warm voice came back to him, sounding much more insistent this time.
âI can help you, Henry, or Iâll put the positioner in bed with you and it will make you move. We want to prevent pressure sores, remember?â
Syverson took in a breath and after a moment nodded to show that he understood. When the man leaned in close, Syverson could smell his cologne. It was a pleasant and fresh woodsy scent that reminded him of his cabin back home. A sudden homesick ache tightened his chest and tears wet his dry eyes. He didnât like feeling that way, but everything seemed to be out of his control now. He hated it.
Nevertheless, he put his arms around the manâs shoulders and gritted his teeth when his body was repositioned and stretched out again on the stiff mattress.
He gasped and couldnât believe how out of breath such a small exertion had left him. But, he noted, he did feel better and the nausea had subsided.
The urge to eat suddenly struck him and he blinked up at the nurse.
âWhat time is it?â he rasped, voice rusty from disuse.
âYou hungry?â asked the nurse with a grin.
âYeah, I could eat,â he answered, wriggling a little to get more comfortable in the pillows under his head.
âI can get you something, but itâs after breakfast and not quite lunch.â
Syverson nodded. He didnât care. He just wanted to eat.
âFries and a coke, then,â he said closing his eyes and grinning a little.
The nurse laughed and gently patted his shoulder condescendingly. With the state of Syversonâs gut, there was no way he was going to survive ingesting any amount of carbonation. That little fact didnât stop the cravings though.
âIâll see if thereâs some soup still left. I think itâs chicken.â
When he was alone again, the memories came back. After the jeep explosion, he was sure that he was going to die out in that sandy wasteland. Had it not been for you, he was sure that he would have died. Had it not been for the beautiful, plucky reporter, some stony faced military man would be paying his parents a visit to inform them of their youngest sonâs passing and that his body would be flown home for burial.
Instead, he had been saved. And when he found that youâd been housed in the civilian wing of the hospital, he wanted to see you. He wanted to thank you for saving his life. When visiting you was denied, considering the fragile state of the both of you, Syverson had instructed that the well stocked gift shop be bought out and carted to your room, all with his heartfelt thanks.
He owed you his life. A few flowers and a couple of teddy bears was the least he could do.
The plastic and faux wood table rattled next to him and snapped Syverson out of his muse. He opened his eyes and watched as the nurse positioned the table over his bed and put down a ceramic bowl of steaming soup. He groaned and strained a little to help himself up into a sitting position.
The nurse was distracted and looking down into his other hand.
âI ran into your girlfriendâs nurse in the hallway and she gave me this to give to you.â
God, he sounded so smug and Syverson wanted to punch him square in the face.
Girlfriend?
His brain searched for a face to put to the name but came up empty. Heâd broken up with his ex more than five years ago, right before his latest deployment. And then it clicked.
The reporter. You.
The nurse handed the card to Syverson and upon seeing it, his heart sank. It was the same envelope that heâd sent along with the gifts. Had you refused his outpouring of affection? He slowly opened the envelope and breathed out with relief when he saw the new message that had been written for him.
He didnât want to smile at the note in front of the gossipy nurse, as he didnât want to encourage any nonsense rumours, so he kept his elated reaction to himself. But inside his heart soared and the soup tasted better than anything heâd ever eaten before.
**
The day that you both championed and dreaded finally arrived. The day you could get out of bed on your own and walk down to the menâs wing to pay your captain a visit. He had come a long way, youâd heard from the nurse, but would still have trouble doing any taxing travelling. However you were well enough to make the trip.
âThat is, if you still want to,â said your nurse with a glint in her eye.
Oh, she thinks sheâs funny, does she?
You sighed luxuriously and stretched back on your pillows. Youâd managed to wrangle an extra set so that you could prop yourself up like a royal lady taking in visitors for the afternoon. You ran the edge of your thumbnail across the thick scar skirting the side of your left palm, scratching it lightly but thoroughly. You had recently had your bandages removed and the sight of your hands was shocking. The backs of your hands had taken the brunt of the burns and they were wrinkled with scar tissue which butted up against new skin growth. A daily cream was a must to keep the tissue from tightening up and preventing normal usage of your hand. You scooped up a handful of the waxy smelling stuff and massaged it into your hands as your nurse watched you expectantly.
Her expression fell a bit when you didnât answer right away.
Serves her right, you thought, casually kneading fingertips into the palm of your opposite hand.
âI mean, you donât have to, if youâve changed your mind.â
She picked at a bright yellow rose bud that had fallen off of one of the new crops of flower bouquets. Henry had made sure to keep you flush with fresh beautiful flowers. You had to draw the line at the character balloons, and had to tell him that he should stop sending them because the hollow sounds of them knocking together at night was creepy and it kept you awake.
âI havenât changed my mind, Barb,â you said and gave her a smile.
I feel like Iâve been waiting my whole life to see him again.
âWell, good. Heâs been asking after you⊠like⊠constantly now.â
You said nothing, but a tiny grin stretched your lips.
Constantly?
âWe can whip out the chair and wheel you over there after lunch.â
Your heart leaped with sudden and visceral terror.
Itâs soon. So soon. Too soon! Today?
You swallowed hard and felt your face heat with uncertain embarrassment.
âS-sure.â
âOk, Iâll reserve one and be back in a few hours.â
Barb turned around and left the room. You could hear her chuckling as if this matchmaking was the best thing that had happened to her all year.
You sat up in bed, greasy hands limp in your lap and you made a face when you sniffed at yourself under your hospital gown. No way were you going to present yourself to Henry, or anyone else who would be in the day room, looking like youâd been in an accident.
Heaven forfend.
So, you washed carefully and put on the pale peach coloured long-sleeved pyjama set youâd received from the Ladiesâ Supply. The Ladiesâ Supply was an organisation of volunteer women who ensured the dignity and comfort of women at the military hospital through social visits, clothing donations and other feminine needs.
You did your hair the best you could and whiled away the hours until you heard the squeaky wheelchair being rolled into your room. With heart crashing excitedly against your ribs, you perched delicately on it and Barb rolled you away.
**
The day room was spacious and welcoming and abuzz with activity. Some of the men were still hooked to IVs and sitting by the wide windows and others who were more capable were dispersed amongst the tables either reading or playing cards or just talking with each other. There were also some women in there, so you didnât feel like you were entering the lionâs den. You spotted Henry by one of the card tables and you wanted to put your feet down on the floor to stop Barb from rolling you right up to his side. Unfortunately, you didnât do it in time and when you squeaked to an unceremonious halt at the edge of the table, he glanced up from his cards.
The look on his face when he recognised you was one that you would store in your memory for an eternity. He put the cards face down on the table and made to stand up. You immediately put up your hands to stop him.
âNo, no, donât get up, you donâtââ
But, he had already struggled to push himself up and out of the chair and you didnât want to take that victory from him. You stood up as well, ready to give a firm friendly handshake, or a paltry pat on the shoulder but he had other intentions. He dragged you into his arms, and crushed you to his meaty chest, before you could manage to say, hello.
When he finally let you go, you both went back to your respective seats, feeling overwhelmed by the perfect greeting.
Grinning at him, you made a gesture to your own head.
âYour hair⊠itâs all curly!â
The last time youâd seen him, his hair was shorn right to the head, and there was really no hint as to the texture or really even the true colour. So it surprised you to see a neatly clipped mop of glossy brown curls. Henry put a self conscious hand into his hair and ruffled his fingers through it.
âI like it,â you assured him, hoping to put him at ease. âI like it a lot.â
Grabby hair, your brain chittered. Perfect length for grabbing.
With that the two men who had been playing cards with him at the table, picked up and left, taking the not so subtle hint that they should leave the two of you alone.
âIâm glad to see you. Finally,â he said, wincing a little when he shifted in the chair.
âDoes it still hurt?â you asked, reaching out to put your hands over his on the table.
âIâm getting over it,â he said, dodging the question effortlessly.
He turned his hands up to hold onto yours and you felt as shy as a virgin on a first date. So, what could you do but make a joke the break the tension.
âI mean⊠if I had to get blown up to get a date with you in a hospital day room, donât know if I would do it again. Ehh, I probably would.â
Your eyes swept up to his and he stared at you a moment, puzzled and when you gave him a little hesitant smile, Henry started to laugh. The sound it lit you up with happiness and then the awkwardness was broken.
You spent about an hour chatting and if you were honest, most of it was spent flirting, until you started to feel tired.
You didnât want to overstay your welcome and he seemed disappointed (much to your juvenile delight) when you said that you were leaving.
âTomorrow then?â he asked, big blue eyes bright and eager, his hands unwilling to let you go again.
âYes, tomorrow.â
-End part 4
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âż: feeling so out of it, they need constant attention
Youâve got it! đ Thanks for the ask!
Someone asked me to write asthmatic Matthew in the ER a while ago, and I didnât do it, but here it is now. đ I hope it's not total trash.
Sweet Normalcy
Word Count: 1555
Chest pain, the dull aching kind that flares up every time he inhales, thatâs all he feels. Keeping his eyes open takes a great deal of effort, but the constant hissing flow of nebulized albuterol being delivered through the mask on his face makes it hard to get any sleep. Maintaining a train of thought for longer than fifteen seconds is also a sudden challenge. When he rolls his head to the right and looks up at the monitor behind him, he sees his heart rate is in the 140s and his oxygen saturation is at ninety-five percent on albuterol and oxygen. Thatâs not normal for him. None of this is normal. He canât remember the last time things got this out of control.
âMatthew? Any better, love?â Dad asks him from the chair to his left. Heâs been sitting there for hours now, continuously keeping vigilant watch.
Itâs a busy night in the emergency department, and it feels a bit like heâs in a bad fever dream. The doctor checking in on him introduced herself earlier, but he canât recall her name. An alarm goes off every few minutes from someoneâs monitor, and it takes him longer than it should to recognize that itâs his monitor making that noise and alerting his nurse to keep coming over to assess him due to his seesawing oxygen saturation and heart rate.
Matthewâs not even sure what time it is anymore. He barely remembers anything. Every hour or so, he will doze off into a fitful half-sleep for twenty minutes or so before waking again and feeling disoriented. A nurse could tell him heâs been here for a week, and heâd believe them.
âMatthew? I asked if youâre feeling any better?â Dad asks again, leaning forward in his seat to grab his clammy left hand and squeeze it gently.
âA little,â Matthew lies, for his fatherâs sake. He wonders where Alfred and Papa are. They were here earlier, heâs pretty sure.
âI can tell when youâre not being truthful,â Dad sighs, squeezing his hand harder. âYouâre not improving. You need to be admitted. This is ridiculous. You should have been admitted hours ago.â
Matthew hates seeing him stressed like this, but he also knows thereâs nothing he can do about it at the moment. He feels himself slipping into momentary sleep again, and his eyes flutter shut. He wants to go home. Wants to be in his bedâŠIs it morning yet?
âSixteen-year-old with a history of asthmaâŠPatient accompanied by his father. Patient began oral corticosteroid treatment two days ago at home after experiencing wheezing, chest tightness, and coughing that was not fully improving with usual rescue medicationsâŠâ
Theyâre talking about himâMatthew realizes that much, at least. He opens his glazed eyes and sees a new doctor approaching him. His ID badge says heâs a critical care doctor. Matthewâs not sure what the difference is between him and the other doctor he saw earlier, but he honestly canât be bothered to care. He wants to sleep. Desperately. And he wants the chest pain to stop.
âMatthew, buddy?â the doctor says, putting a hand on his shoulder.
He doesnât want to breathe anymore. His chest hurts too much, and speaking would require taking another agonizing breath.
"Mmmrgh" is all he can manage.
âHeâs been less and less responsive,â Dad supplies from the other side of the room, and Matthew can hear the nervousness in his voice, which is unsettling. Dad rarely ever shows how anxious he is when someoneâs sick. âI canât get him to talk to me in full sentences anymoreâjust phrases.â
The doctor carefully sits him up, and Matthew feels his whole body shake. He rests his elbows against the stretcher to brace himself. A cold stethoscope touches his back, and he shivers.
âHeâs still not moving air. He needs to be brought upstairs to intensive care to be monitored. Weâll continue IV steroid treatment and continuous albuterol. If heâs still like this, we can consider non-invasive ventilation and take it from there. Our main priority is to protect his airway.âÂ
Dad says something, but Matthew doesnât hear it over the noise of the nebulizer. He just knows heâs going to be moved soon and the treatment is going to become more serious now. If he werenât so tired, he might be scared.
The doctor leaves, and Dad goes back to holding Matthewâs hand. âItâs going to be all right, love. Youâll receive better care soon and hopefully, youâll start to feel better,â Dad tells him before using his other hand to pet his head. âTry to rest. Iâll be right here, and I wonât let anything happen to you, understand?âÂ
Matthew nods. His eyes do close again, and he does get some brief rest. The next time heâs aware of his surroundings and wakes up, heâs already in the ICU, which means he slept through his transport. The respiratory therapist is setting him up on a BiPAP machine, and once itâs on, it makes his chest hurt even more, which he didnât think was possible. He grits his teeth against the pain and tries not to make a fuss about itâit would just make Dad worry even more. The air being forced into his lungs is welcome yet excruciating at the same time.
But he doesnât have to say anything for Dad to know heâs suffering. Itâs written all over his face. âI know, poppet. Itâs just temporary. It should help.âÂ
Itâs so exhausting that he falls asleep again without even needing to think about it. Again, he has no idea how much time passes until he sees the sun shining through the windows of the hospital, indicating that itâs finally morning. The BiPAP mask squeezing his face gets replaced with a regular oxygen mask again, and it occurs to him that his chest feels much lighter and his head is clearer. The worst is over. The air in his lungs feels crisp and refreshing...Almost sweet, even.Â
âHow are you feeling?â Dad asks for the millionth time, still perched next to him.Â
âBetterâŠFor real this time.âÂ
Dad hasnât slept, of course. He never sleeps in such situations. He was likely watching him all night and conversing with his care team. âGood. You gave us all quite a scare.âÂ
âSorry.â
âOh, no, itâs not your fault, love. Not at allâŠDo you think youâre feeling well enough to have some breakfast?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
Dad gives him a relieved smile and then goes off to request a breakfast tray for him. It gets brought up within half an hour, and even though Matthew feels a bit nauseous from the steroids in his system, he knows he needs to eat to gain some energy back.
Heâs given some pancakes, a fruit cup, and orange juice. He decides to make a move for the orange juice first because his mouth feels incredibly dry and gross. He picks up the carton and thatâs when he notices just how shaky he still is. His hands are trembling violently from all of the bronchodilators in his system.
Dad quickly takes the carton from him, sticks a straw into it, and then brings it back up to Matthewâs lips. âHere, poppet, Iâll hold it for you.âÂ
ââŠI can do it.âÂ
âYouâll spill it. Donât be stubborn.â
It doesnât feel great to have poorer motor skills than a toddler, but Matthew sips some juice through the straw anyway, allowing himself to be fed because he doesnât have a choice. He finishes the entire carton, one pancake, and half of the fruit cup before his stomach protests. Dad doesnât seem too happy about him not finishing the meal, but he doesnât push it either.Â
And just as heâs finishing up, he finds out Alfred and Papa are outside of the unit, waiting to be allowed in. Heâs only permitted to have two visitors at a time, so Dad leaves to take a quick trip home to eat and shower while Alfred and Papa take watch next.Â
âDude, youâre alive! Thank God, man. No offense, but you were looking really rough and out-of-it yesterday,â Alfred exclaims upon arrival, bright-eyed and full of pep as always. âItâs good to see youâre looking more like yourself now.â
âWeâre so relieved, mon chou. Your father said you may be able to come home as soon as the day after tomorrow.âÂ
âI hope soâŠSorry for making everyone worry.âÂ
Alfred throws his hands up in the air and shakes his head dramatically. âI have to teach you everything, donât I, Mattie? Youâre not supposed to apologize for being sick. Youâre supposed to milk it for all its worth and make everyone feel bad for you and buy you get well soon gifts. Tell Dad when he comes back that you wanna play the new Pokemon Snap on the Switch.âÂ
âThatâs what you want to play, Alfred.âÂ
âYeah, but we can share it, right?âÂ
âAlfred, your brother is seriously ill, and all youâre thinking about are video games again! Where did your father and I go wrong? You could show some sympathy!â Papa scolds, pinching the bridge of his nose in aggravation.
âIt was a joke! KindaâŠObviously, I love ya, Matt! I was really worried, too!âÂ
And he has never craved normalcy as much as he does now.Â
Yup. Things are already going back to normal.
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The Art of Inversion
Neil x Reader
Chapter 18 - Holy Ghost
Masterlist; Chapter 17
Summary: First few days in Tallinn are like a calm before the storm, while you and Neil are getting used your new dynamic. It proves to be rather surprising...
Warnings: 18+ (yep, she did it again because these two wanted to); swearing.
Authorâs Notes: So ummm... Iâm not sure what happened here and youâll be the judges of that. All I can say is that Iâve been inspired by the skewed tie and that Tallinn will take at least two more chapters because they keep getting distracted. Hope youâll enjoy! Feedback is always welcome as Iâm not sure what Iâm doing...đ
The lovely edit has been provided by my amazing and talented friend @sh3taniâ (thanks for putting up with my bs đ)
Despite technically being a Tenet agent for a while, the dramatic changes of pace in your life never failed to amaze you. After that careless morning in London, mere hours later you got the text from TP, sending you and the Cavalry to Tallinn. Minutes afterwards, Neil burst into your room saying that the younger TP called, giving him directions to run a few lab tests and then to meet him in the capital of Estonia, as well. Neither of you had any clues as to why but then that was rather expected.Â
That is how you found yourself in a safe house in the suburbs of Tallinn. For security and convenience, you have joined Ivesâs squad there while Neil booked a hotel room nearby to keep up the appearances before TP. For the first few days, the boss has not yet arrived in the city, and therefore, as Neil put it, there was much more room to maneuver. Whatever that meant.
Estonian safe house was a relatively vast apartment on the ground floor of an old brick house. It had six bedrooms furnished with simple Ikea beds, bedside tables, and a small wardrobe. There was also one bathroom (hell of an inconvenience for nine people occupying the place) and a kitchen opening into a living room with sofas and tv. The space was nearly barren save for the objects needed to survive for however long you were bound to stay there. On the day of your arrival, Ives sent you and Wheeler to the shop for the supplies, reasoning being that apparently you two had most brain cells in the whole team. You enjoyed the possibility to charge your introvert batteries before days spent with eight people, of which only two you actually knew. With close to no information concerning the point of the mission, the days have been spent idly chatting, playing games, and watching television. In Estonian, naturally. For you, a crucial part of the survival became continuous reception and the ability to reach out to Neil when needed. Which was often and soon became a passing joke among the rest of the company. Once Henrik tried to steal your phone and ended up with a bread knife pressed against his neck, the innocent fun ended. That was on day two.
Luckily you got your own room, while the others were forced to share. This you owed to the fact that you were not part of the squad and hence had the right to privacy. It proved rather useful the day when unexpected company came. You were busy trying not to burn the scrambled eggs on a scratched-up pan, half humming a song you heard on the radio. Despite the early hour, everyone was up and either moving about or outside on a run. If there was anything you have learned from the experience so far, it was that Tenet soldiers started the day early and were shit at cooking. Eggs, instant noodles, and oven pizzas were the menu staples. Sighing, you picked up the only clean plate left when you heard a commotion in the hallway. Not long after, a voice called out:
âY/N? Youâve got a visitorâ you did not like the amused undertone in that information.
âYeahâŠ?â hesitantly, you stepped into the hallway.
The cheeky grin was quite the sight at 9 am.
âGood morning, sunshineâ you resisted the urge to break the plate on Neilâs head.
At least he brought coffee.
âHey,â warily you looked at Michael, who was loitering next to you, interested in the situation âShould weâŠ?â looking at the door to your room, you met Neilâs gaze.
âNaturallyâ he smiled and followed you in.
Only once you closed the door behind you both, blocking out the curious stares, you breathed out the air you did not know you were holding. You set the plate on the bedside table and grinned as Neil carelessly threw himself onto your bed.
âThought Iâll get a kiss or something for all that awkwardness out thereâ you commented, eyeing the man sprawled on your mattress.
Briefly, you marvelled at how you have managed to become this comfortable with each other. But then almost having sex was bound to count for something. Supposedly.
âYou will if you come hereâ Neil raised his head and extended a hand in an invitation.
Mournfully you glanced at your abandoned breakfast and crossed the space, intertwining your fingers with his. You were not surprised when Neil pulled you down onto the bed, only just managing not to lie on him. Feigning disappointment, he huffed and leaned in, kissing you slowly. Deepening the kiss, you tangled your fingers in his hair, bringing him closer. With legs interlocked, half-lying on the narrow bed, it was all too real. In moments like this, it was easy to believe that maybe it was meant to be. Breaking up the kiss, you opened your eyes to stare at Neil. In the soft light coming through the opened shutters, you could clearly see the darker rims around his blue irises. In the morning, his eyes resembled the colour of an ocean. The long eyelashes framing the eyes and the eyebrows, furrowed in concentration, gazing back at you. Your eyes then landed on his parted mouth, the corners turned down slightly, and the shape of his lips. You wondered how someone this beautiful could choose you among all the people in the universe.
âYour breakfast and the coffee are getting coldâ he murmured, breaking the comfortable silence.
âDo you want me to get up?â running your fingertips over his temple, you reveled in the intimacy of the moment.
Neil smiled and raised your joined hands to kiss your knuckles.
âNot really. I like having you this close so I can stareâ he admitted with a sheepish grin.
âSame, actually,â you mirrored his expression, dragging fingers through the golden hair.
It seemed like your London evening full of important conversations gave you more confidence. Suddenly it was not that scary to share your thoughts and feelings with him because there was a chance he will understand. Or at least not ridicule you. As though Neil was reading your mind, he asked:
âWhat are you thinking about?â you could tell he was genuinely interested.
That was enough to make you feel a surge of feelings towards him. Maybe it wonât hurt to say something⊠Taking a deep breath, you warned:
âJust donât laugh,â
âIâll do my bestâ Neil bopped your nose quickly, making your brain short-circuit for a second.
What even. Focusing all your attention on him, your eyes wandered over his face. Resting on all the features that made him the man you loved.
âSometimes I just canât get over how beautiful you are⊠like a bloody masterpieceâ you cupped his cheek âAnd Iâve no clue why youâre so fixed on meâ sighing dejectedly, you awaited a response.
If the slightly widened eyes were any clue, he was surprised by your admission.
âThat was probably the best compliment Iâve ever gottenâ Neil stumbled over the sentence.
So, it was worth saying. For another time, you left the discussion on how that could even be true.
âHave you seen yourself though? How could I not be fixed on you?â it was Neilâs turn to cup your cheek, making you blush.
The pure confidence in his eyes was too much to bear at the moment. Sitting up, you kicked him lightly, enjoying the affronted look.
âNow youâre being ridiculousâ you moved to stand up, but Neil took hold of your waist, sitting up as well.
You were too close again, noses brushing. It was easy to lean in and kiss him. Only when you did, a knock resounded in the room. Fucking hell.
âCan I come in?â the cockney accent was a giveaway âI bloody hope you two arenât getting up to stuffâ
Despite yourself, you giggled with your lips still brushing over Neilâs, making him sigh. For a millisecond, he tightened his grip over your waist and then let go and moved an inch away. You looked at him for permission before calling out:
âBe our guestâ
In an attempt to look as casual as it was possible, you grabbed the plate with your cold eggs and passed Neil his coffee. Sitting back down on the bed, you pasted a neutral smile onto your face. As if that would divert anyoneâs attention from your tangled hair and Neilâs flushed cheeks. Ives opened the door and scrutinized you both quickly, not missing how you frowned upon the first bite of your breakfast. Then he gave Neil a quick pat on the back:
âGood to see you, mateâ he perched on the windowsill for the lack of any other furniture âI was hoping youâd at least come to say hiâ he gave you both a knowing glance.
Cursing your own inability to say no to Neil, you grudgingly finished the eggs and took another sip of the lukewarm coffee. Next time, food first, then kissing. No matter how irresistible the bastard might be.
âI was planning to, onlyâŠâ the bastard in question shrugged before glancing at you shortly.
âOh, I know. Priorities and all thatâ Ives smirked upon your deepening blush âI get it, believe me. Plus, seeing how often Y/N is glued to her phone, I reckon you two are doing goodâ he winked.
Sensing Neilâs growing discomfort, you shot back:
âDonât talk about me as though I wasnât hereâ it was hard to look threatening when staring at someone like Ives, but you did your best.
âOr?â he arched his eyebrow amusedly.
âIâll shoot youâ
The sudden tense silence got interrupted by Neil breaking into a laugh, collapsing against you. So much for pretending you could keep away from each other. Once he calmed down, he rested his head on your shoulder and said:
âAnd thatâs why I like youâ
You did not know it was possible to blush even more. And yet. Even though what he said was hardly a surprise, he never mentioned anything like that with others present. Before you could come up with any response, Ives commented:
âArenât you two cute, eh?â
Lord give me strength⊠Â
âIvesâ you warned, reaching for the gun you always kept in the drawer by the bed.
He laughed and raised his hands in defence.
âOkay, Iâll stop nowâ he glanced at Neil, who was comfortable enough, still leaning on you âHas he given you any more clues?â
You relaxed once the conversation steered onto more professional tracks.
âNot really. I ran the analysis on the gold bar he sent, and well, thereâs literally nothing concrete thereâ Neil shrugged, âBut I think it has something to do with the plutonium piece that went missing back in Kievâ he added.
âIs that part of the Algorithm?â you asked.
The topic has not really come up since your first conversation with TP in Boston, but from the information you got from Neil and others in the organisation, it seemed like the pieces were set in motion. In the Kiev Opera, another part of the compound has been lost. Maybe its purpose was to resurface in Tallinn so that you could take over.
âYeahâ Neil confirmed your suspicions with a curt nod.
âHow⊠how do you know about this?â it was Ivesâ turn to be confused, looking at you with palpable shock in his eyes.
Right⊠Sometimes it was hard to keep track of who knew what and why. And that was one of such moments. Straightening your back, you explained:
âTP told me. Apparently, Iâll have a role to play hence why Iâm being dragged into thisâ glancing at Neil, who all of sudden looked rather sombre, you added, âNot only because of this idiotâ giving in to the temptation, you ruffled his hair.
ââŠthanksâ pouting, Neil moved away.
âWelcomeâÂ
***
You have left the apartment and quickly checked the maps again. Neil set your meeting for a rather obscure park square in the downtown area of the city since that was where he was supposed to meet TP later. At first, you wanted to refuse, to tell him that it was risky to go for a walk with the boss nearby. But then, you knew there was not much point in saying no to something that tempting. It was enough that you might not be able to spend time together at all the next few days.
Just when you were sure you have gotten lost in the greyness of the apartment blocks and identical streets, you spotted him waiting on the bench. The icy wind was ruffling his hair as Neil stared at the pavement, unaware of your attention. You smiled at the sight of his brown and green outfit and those strange shoes; you have seen the brogues before in Oslo. Now that was something worth a call out later. Ending the scrutiny, you approached him and, as a means of greeting, brushed the hair away from his forehead. That worked, as it always did. The blue eyes snapped up to meet yours:
âHelloâ you offered him a small smile.
âTere, kallisâ the grin combined with the strange words he uttered made you frown.
âI hope that was something appropriateâ
He took your hand in his and pulled you down onto his lap. The happy sparks in his eyes were almost enough to make you ignore the cold and the embarrassment of the situation.
âI thought you said weâre going for a walkâ forcing a stern tone was difficult with how Neil gently cupped your flushed cheek.
âThat we are. But first, I wanted to get you up close and personalâ he brushed his nose against yours tenderly.
âI seeâŠâ with the corner of your eye you could see an older woman observing you from the nearby bench.
With a start, you realised how very much alike a couple you must look to any passerby. Sitting on Neilâs lap, with his arm securing you around the waist and your faces inches away, there were no questions about the nature of your relationship. But, somehow, that was okay. A stronger gust of wind made you shiver, which he noticed straight away and pulled you even closer, your lips nearly touching. The blue of his irises and the depth of focus in them made you gasp. It was always like this with him, as though you were the only person in the universe that mattered.
âWeâll get going now, onlyâŠâ Neil met your gaze with a silent question.
You nodded. He could do anything he wanted anyway. He met your lips in a slow kiss, relishing in the feeling for at least half a minute. You placed your hand on the back of his neck to bring him a little closer, suddenly grateful for the position he put you in. Then, just as the kiss threatened to get more heated, Neil broke the contact and leaned back, taking in your dazed expression. He always knew how to get to you.
âNow we can goâ he smirked, and you had no choice but to slide off his lap.
As soon as you were both standing, Neil grabbed your hand again and intertwined your fingers. As usual. It did seem like neither of you wanted to pretend today, and instead letting yourselves explore the ânot-quite relationshipâ you got into. For once, the voices in your head were silent, seemingly agreeing to the new developments. You did wonder how long that was bound to last.
âIves says hi, by the way,â you broke the silence, looking around the cityscape.
This part of Tallinn certainly was not as picturesque as the city centre, but it had to do. After all, your sole focus was Neil. Not much else mattered when you were together. If that did not confirm your feelings, then god knows what did. Sighing, you turned to look at the man in question.
âYou told him weâre meeting up?â he asked with a slight crease between his eyebrows.
Confusion, then.
âNo. I just said that Iâm going out for a walk, and he told me to say hi to youâ laughing at the idiocy of the moment you brushed your thumb over his knuckles.
In response, you got the signature Neil grin that was the beginning of your downfall all those months previously. Despite the absolute horror you felt during the initial conversation with Ives, now it was somehow less terrifying.
âAh, I seeâ his tongue clicked thoughtfully, only making you laugh harder.
It was difficult to get the next sentence out.
âHe also added that heâs surprised heâs not yet caught you sneaking out of my room at nightâ
The small snorting sound Neil let out made you want to kiss him right there, in the middle of the busy street.
âWhy do I feel like he wants it to happenâ he glanced at you quickly with an amused expression.
âMaybe itâs his thingâ you retorted, savoring the laugh it prompted from your companion.
After that first morning in the safehouse, you have both decided to try and keep away from any rash actions or decisions while in Estonia. You certainly had enough of interruptions, and with the team sharing the space, it was all too precarious. Hence you have been meeting up outside, for strolls or lunch, talking about everything and nothing. Only now, that TP was around, it was bound to change, and you expected that this might be the last of those stolen moments.
âIâm sorry that we had to meet around here todayâ Neil interrupted your slightly melancholic thoughts âI wanted to take you out somewhere again, but he called, and I think it will be on soonâ he lowered his voice to a slightly conspicuous tone, making you smile.
âItâs okay, at least that means Iâll know why the fuck am I even hereâ shrugging, you looked around at the shops you have passed by.
âFor me?â Neil batted his eyelashes innocently while tightening his hold over your hand.
âApart from thatâ this time you allowed him honesty âDonât you ever get tired though? Of me?â the self-sabotaging voice contributed a question.
It was too late to take it back. But the way Neil looked at you then, with disbelief and fondness, was enough to excuse the moment on insecurity.
He stopped walking, making you freeze despite the streams of people going in both directions. You were like an island amidst a fast-flowing river. Neil forced you to meet his gaze by tilting your chin upwards. There was nothing playful in his eyes, just sincerity and love. And determination.
âDo you need me to remind you why thatâs impossible?â you did not know when did his voice become so husky.
âMaybeâ biting your lip, you searched his face, fascinated and curious.
Neil glanced at the teeth nibbling on your lower lip, and his tongue darted out, seemingly on reflex. Oh. When his eyes met yours again, you could see a hint of a new emotion there. He was hesitating for approximately 10 seconds before he started leading you again with purpose. Before you could ask a single question, he turned sharply into a non-descript alley between two crumbling buildings. It was empty save for a few pieces of trash lying around and a rusted door at the other end, with a metal padlock and a heavy chain. But your quick scan of the environment got interrupted by Neil wrapping his arm around your waist and pushing you at one of the walls. Just before your head could hit the bricks, he cradled the back of it, providing a safeguard. Ever so thoughtful. Wide-eyed, you glanced up at him to gauge the intention. The darkness and resolve you found were enough of an indicator.
âThe walk will have to waitâ he spoke before crashing his lips against yours.
The instinct kicked in instantaneously, making you respond by bringing him closer with your hand taking hold of his tie. Kissing Neil was like a fix for an addiction you did not want to fight against. No matter how urgent it was, you could always find a tempo that suited you both, neither fighting for dominance. It was like a dance where both were willing to lead and follow. Neil bit into your lower lip, drawing blood, tinting the kiss with that coppery taste. Fuck. You gasped into his mouth, shivering when his tongue ran along the split, licking off the droplets. It was enough to make you want more. As a payback, you caught his upper lip with your teeth, tugging at it lightly to remind him of the potential. But only when you pulled on his tie sharply, making Neil almost collapse against you, he broke the kiss with a groan. His eyes were hazed with lust, making you lightheaded the more you kept on gazing. The bloody shade of red on his lips made your pulse quicken. You still kept the hold on his patterned tie, making sure he was within your reach. His tongue darted out and licked off the remains of blood. That was a good cue to sober up. You released his tie and placed your hand over his heart, relishing in the way he was looking at you, as though you were a sight he could never have enough of.
âHuhâŠâ you broke the silence and glanced at the entryway to the alley.
Thankfully no spectators.
âIs this all youâre going to say?â Neilâs perplexed facial expression made you laugh.
Sometimes it was fascinating to see him that disoriented after a kiss. Because it was a clear sign that not only you were affected by everything that transpired. Another reason to believe that maybe the feeling was mutual. Calming down, you started toying with his shirt collar. Even though heated kisses in dirty alleys were never your kind of thing, with Neil that too was exciting. And something you wanted to repeat.
âI mean⊠this is rather niceâ you met his confused gaze and added, âBeing with you like thisâ
Coherence for more complex sentences was nowhere to be found.
âIâm glad because I wanted that last hour of normalcy before we go back to the usualâ Neil staggered over the sentence as well, making your heart stumble with fondness.
Pouring the feeling into your gaze, you grinned at him, running your hands over his shirt and lapels. You knew exactly what he meant. But still, with tongue poking out, you noticed:
âThat sentence didnât make sense, and yet I agreeâ the way his eyes darted onto your lips was enough to cause a resurgence amidst the butterflies.
Neil leaned in again, eager for another kiss. But you had other ideas, struck with the courage to tease him a little. You dropped your head and kicked him in the foot lightly. Just enough to bring his attention onto the subject of your scrutiny.
âThe hell are those shoes thoughâ you smirked upon his utterly lost gaze.
âWhat? You donât like them?â the slight pout only made your grin wider.
With the hair in disarray, reddened cheeks, and pink lips, he was more than a sight to behold. And all that because of you. Wow.
âThey look a little like you wanted to channel Pennywise or somethingâ you laughed at his blank stare âRemind me to go through your wardrobe one day because youâre selling yourself short with those fashion choicesâ to emphasize the point you tugged on his tie again and frowned.
But it seemed like Neil managed to recover enough. He placed both of his hands on the wall, blocking your way out. The well-known smirk came back too. You had a feeling that you were about to lose this one battle.
âAnd yet here you areâ he practically purred with a hungry look in his eyes.
You swallowed. Whenever he got like this, showing how much he wanted you, it was hard to think. Raking your head for a response, you settled on honesty again.
âThatâs because I admire your soulâ eyeing him intently, you added âAnd hairâ
You tugged on the golden strands, making him whine in frustration. Good.
âAnd eyesâ he met your gaze purposefully, a hint of a knowing smile on his face.
Of course, heâd know.
âYeahâ you raised your head.
A challenge he took without hesitation. Neil reached for the scarf wrapped around your neck and loosened it just enough to have access. Before you could do as much as exhale, his lips were on your neck and throat, attacking all the spots that were bound to make you gasp and search for something to hold on to. Cursing, you closed your eyes, letting yourself block everything that was not Neil and his touch. Soon his hands joined in with the exploration, brushing over your body, slipping inside the opened coat and underneath your blouse. Any resistance you might have had was slowly breaking. Blindly, you found his tie again and started to work on undoing the knot with shaking hands. Once you loosened it and undid the first three buttons, you slipped your hand underneath his shirt. You did not even know what you wanted to do. He was there, yours and in reach. That was enough to cause urgency. But any intent you might have had disappeared when Neil finished his study with a harsh bite over your collarbone.
âJesus ChristâŠâ you huffed and pulled him closer with a finger around his belt loop.
As his hips met yours, he raised his head and met your gaze shamelessly. Nothing but want and adoration. A sudden commotion on the street helped you remember the surroundings. Sighing, you pieced together a sentence:
âThis is rather risky, donât you think?â if anything, the unconscious way in which you bumped your hips against his again was a contradiction to the statement.
Your head was a mess. On one hand, wanting nothing but Neil, right here and now. On the other, doing anything like this in an alley spoke against the last bits of the reason you tried to preserve.
âYes, but I quite enjoy the thrillâ Neil brushed his hand over your stomach and smiled devilishly.
If your experience was anything to go by, and the way it felt when his crotch brushed over your hip, he too was rather invested. That thought gave you some needed courage to respond.
âYou like being caught? Then Iâm surprised you were so unsatisfied in Osloâ the cheeky smile and a quick touch of your hand over the front of his pants did it.
Neil swallowed hard and took additional few seconds to find words.
âMore than being caught I like you. And everything we do... or could doâ experimentally, he traced his finger along the line of your belt.
The goosebumps and rising tension within your core were good enough clues towards your feelings on the matter.
âLike what?â the breathlessness of your voice made you frown.
âLike thisâ in one swift motion, Neil undid the buckle.
Shit. That was enough to raise concern. You wanted him, urgently, butâŠ
âNeil... do you seriously think fucking in an alley is a good idea?â you did know where that word came from, but it was pretty spot on.
âFirst of all, weâre not fucking. This isnât that primalâ for some reason the way he pronounced it only made matters worse, as did that smirk âUnless one day you feel like it and-â oh hell.
You placed one hand over his mouth, shutting him up, the other ventured into the pocket of your coat, where you always had the small hunting knife hidden.
âIâm going to stab you. Here they wonât find you for daysâ aiming for a threatening tone, you raised the hand from his mouth.
But not before he somehow managed to kiss your fingers. His eyes were dark, determined to make you break any internal rules you could have.
âWow, you really have it bad for meâ Neil whispered, getting ever closer, ignoring your threats.
Too lost in the strange conversation you have not even realised when he managed to unzip your jeans. Only once you felt his hand slipping between your thighs, you huffed with frustration. Thinking on reasons against letting him do it was getting increasingly harder.
âNeilâ was the only warning you could manage.
All thoughts disappeared when he palmed you through the underwear. Searching for support, you put your hands on his shoulders.
âI just want to check if youâre still interested... still so eager,â the satisfied grin told you that it felt just as bad as you expected.
Like this, with him having direct access to check what was working for you, there was nowhere to hide. Once again, he managed to bring you to such a state with worrying ease. His whole body was pressing against yours, with one hand teasing you through the thin layer of clothing. The other has somehow managed to wrap around your throat. Not strong enough to apply pressure, but at the same time making you face him. And increasing the need you felt.
âYouâre a bastardâ the insult got muddled by the longing you could not hide from your gaze.
Neil caught it, grinning mischievously. The game was on.
âWell... it takes two and all thatâ he feigned nonchalance, arching an eyebrow.
You knew full well what he was implying. You could practically feel how drenched with arousal you were. Your underwear was wet to touch, thighs clenching around Neilâs hand. That was his cue to keep your legs parted by inserting his knee between them. Here we go again. You wanted him to do something. Anything. But he was resolved to keep you waiting, thinking about all the different ways to make the situation even more unbearable for you. To make you beg for whatever he was willing to give. Your futile attempt to grind on his thigh got stopped with a stronger grip around your throat and a glimpse of something darker in his eyes. You had enough.
âWhy are you doing this?â the hoarse tone of your voice was rather shameful.
âBecause I know that you actually enjoy itâ Neil shrugged and met your gaze with playful sparks in the blue eyes.
You did not want to know how obvious it must have been for him. Then, he slowly stroked you there, earning a muffled curse.
âI would if you finished it for onceâ you breathed, letting the frustration take over.
The ache between your legs was nearly driving you over the edge now. It was too much. Neil was too close, and yet not close enough.
âIâm giving you food for thought, so to speakâ he murmured.
His hand moved; thumb tentatively hooked around the hem of your panties. An offer to take it a step further any second now.
âThat you areâ you met his gaze defiantly.
If he was so determined to make you suffer, you might as well give him what he wanted.
âHave you been... dreaming about this?â Neil glanced down at where his fingers were getting closer to where you needed him most.
As though he needed to ask. Of course, you have thought about this scenario before. And many others too. After all, you had to somehow deal with those countless times when his pure existence frustrated you in every meaning of the word.
âMhmmâ you hummed, hoping that will be enough of a response.
The smirk was a reward.
âGoodâ
Unable to withstand the tension any longer, you kissed him hungrily, taking everything you could have. Soon enough, you were both gasping for breath, yet you did not want to let go. Biting, sucking, and nibbling on every part of his mouth available, he was your drug. With his hand still in a loose chokehold and the other so close to your pulsating core, Neil became the sole reason for your existence. Your knees buckled when he sharply tugged at your panties and touched you without the barrier of the undergarment. You broke the kiss and met his wild gaze, both shocked by the sheer pull between you. Only once he drew a finger between your folds, collecting some of the wetness, the moment got interrupted by Neilâs raspy chuckle.
âItâs quite flattering to see you like this and all because of meâ you were not sure if you wanted to slap him or kiss him.
But then that was a usual thing with Neil.
âJust donât get cockyâŠâ it was hard to put together a string of words.
âOr?â his thumb touched your clit, and you hissed sharply âI already know how Iâm making you feelâ
To prove a point, he drew another gasp from you by starting a circular stimulation of the sensitive nub. You whimpered, suddenly aware of what a sight you must be for him. Utterly ruined because of kisses, touches, and words. You hated being at anyoneâs mercy like this.
âNeilâŠâ a weak plea made him meet your gaze âPlease justâŠâ helplessly, you tried to convey everything through the expression in your eyes.
He searched your face before letting go of your throat and instead cupping your cheek tenderly. The juxtaposition was enough to make your head spin.
âWhat do you want?â it was that question again.
Simple and yet not at all. Awaiting the response, Neil stopped all the movement, increasing your frustration and need. You knew that there was no way you could ever walk away from this as though nothing happened. You might as well have some relief.
âHelp me before I lose my fucking mindâ you breathed out, expecting the smug smile.
Instead, you got the most sickening grin you have ever seen on his face. But combined with the adoration in his eyes, you knew it was exactly what he wanted to hear from you.
âWith pleasureâ the words rolled off his tongue, and before you could prepare, he went back to stimulating your clit.
Your head almost slammed onto the wall behind when he picked up the pace. Even though you both knew that you hardly needed any additional preparation, Neil took his time, never taking his gaze off you. At the edges of your consciousness, you could feel the rising shame that was bound to consume you later. After all, this was the second time that you have asked him to help you like this. Surely, he would soon get tired of having to deal with your issues and never getting anything in return. But before you could follow that train of thought, Neil inserted a finger, and an unwanted cry rose in your throat.
âJesusâŠâ to stop yourself from being too vocal, you bit down harshly on your lip, bursting the barely sealed cut.
But Neil tilted your chin, meeting your gaze again.
âNo need for thatâ he caught your lips in a short kiss âDonât hold backâ
Readjusting your hold on one of his shoulders, with the other hand you tugged on the tie you have messed up earlier. He took that as a cue to insert another digit. Too much.
âChrist, Neilâ the breathless tone was a revelation even to you âYouâreâŠâ unable to finish the sentence, you moaned quietly.
Neil had no issues finding the perfect spot again, making you squirm and roll your hips, grinding down on that conveniently placed thigh. He thought of everything, it seemed. You did wonder how many times before he brought people to their downfall with those hands alone. But then, you would be lying if you would not admit that he had rather nice hands. And that you have not thought about this before Oslo.
âGlad itâs working, loveâ he commented upon a louder gasp from you.
For some reason, the nickname acted like a trigger. Feeling a surge of frustration, you bucked your hips against his, needing more.
âDonât call me thatâ you spit the words out, relishing in the look of surprise in his eyes.
But he only needed a moment to shake it off before picking up the pace and curling his fingers inside you. Now it was close.
âWhat then?â Neil searched your eyes intently as though he was doing anything else but taking you apart with his two fingers and a thumb.
In response, you could only shudder, feeling your muscles tense in the anticipation of the near end.
âMy love?â the proposition broke through the haze overwhelming your mind.
My god. Only with him, those two simple words could cause such an onslaught of feelings. There was something so achingly tender in his gaze that no matter the situation, your heart was set ablaze. He looked as though he was relieved to finally use those words. Suddenly, it was not just Neil lending you a helping hand in an hour of need. It was an act of love, further cementing your status as lovers. You were not sure whether it was that realization or what Neil has been doing to you that made the world explode before your eyes. Perhaps it was both. You only managed to breathe out a warning in the form of his name, but he understood.
âLook at me. I want to see what I did to youâ he angled your chin again so you were forced to meet his gaze âSo that I can remember this laterâ the husky whisper was the ultimate push over the edge.
Oh christ. You gripped his shoulder tightly and undid the tie, making it fall to the ground. Neil did not even notice, staring at you mesmerized. With the last bits of sanity, you took hold of his neck, bringing him close. The wave of pleasure made you tense up like a bowstring before you came with a shudder and a cry.
âNeilâŠâ you got struck by the hope you saw in his eyes.
This time nothing was stopping you. No lips on yours to take over the words that were slowly choking you. The high he gave you took away all the inhibitions and worries. Neil was there, with you, a solid presence beneath your fingertips and an anchor to keep you from getting lost in your head. And that was enough.
âI love youâ the three words were easy to utter for something you struggled to keep inside that long.
In response, Neil smiled and pressed his forehead against yours tenderly. The darkness in his eyes made way for pure happiness and conviction. Maybe this time it wasnât a mistake.
âI knowâ he whispered and covered your lips in a sweet kiss.
Now that you were not holding back anything kissing Neil felt like absolution. You were never particularly religious, but he could be your eternal salvation, for the body and the soul. The only person you ever needed that much.Â
Breaking the kiss with a sigh, Neil took a step back and retracted the hand that was still stroking your navel. You watched with a slight surprise as he glanced at a watch.
âAre you in a rush?â with cheeks burning, you took out a tissue and passed it to him.
He took it with a curt nod and cleaned his hand. As you observed him like that, with messed up hair, unbuttoned collar, and slightly flushed cheeks, the reality of the situation started dawning on you. Not only have you allowed Neil to finger you in a dirty alley, but also you have confessed your feelings in the heat of the moment. And yet, he was still thereâŠ
âUnfortunately, yes, the meeting is in ten, and I still have to get thereâ Neil picked up the tie from the ground and brushed off the dirt âTrust me, Iâd love to continue with thisâŠâ carelessly he tied the knot and took a step closer again âBut we should leave something for the future tooâ with playful sparks in his eyes he brushed the hair away from your eyes.
Oh my god.
âCanât you for once⊠not do thisâ sighing heavily, you focused on readjusting the underwear and zipping up your pants.
Everything was better than looking into those blue eyes.
âWhere would be the fun in thatâ Neil buckled your belt, just as quickly as he undid it previously âI must admit that after this, Iâm curious to see how youâll react once I do it properly one day⊠with my mouth and thenâŠâ he trailed off, fingers brushing over your stomach once again.
âNeil⊠donâtâ using your own power, you brushed your hips over his âOr you wonât make it to that meetingâ you glanced at his crotch knowingly.
âAs tempting as that is⊠Iâd rather not disappoint TPâ with a final caress of your side, he took a step back again âDonât worry about me though. Iâll deal with this laterâ he adjusted the trousers slightly âIâm used to itâ the hint of a smile was enough to help you understand.
You gaped. It was hard to think straight again. SurelyâŠnot? Right?
âYou- what? Because of me?â you stuttered, bewildered and perplexed.
âYes, absolutelyâ Neil shrugged and attempted to smooth his hair âPretty often, but then youâre quite the inspiration, my loveâ he winked, enjoying your sudden paralysis.
Now that sort of image was bound to keep you up at night. For some reason, you never thought that he would think about you like that, always assuming there were better fantasies to use in need. But maybe⊠maybe he had it just as bad as you did.
âI have to runâ Neil kissed you on the cheek, bringing your mind back to the present moment.
âDoes this⊠change anything?â you met his gaze, hoping he will catch on to the meaning.
âNo, not at allâ the soft smile contrasted the recent conversation tone âIâll text you laterâ
âYou betterâ you mirrored his smile, watching him disappear in the crowd.
Wow⊠Now that was an interesting walk. Sighing, you rested your head against the brick wall for a few minutes longer, trying to level your breathing.
***
You were not given much break from Neil that day. To clear your head, you went for a walk around the city centre, visiting curious shops, and spending time in a cosy café. Just anything that did not have to do with the blonde bastard was good enough to shut up your rebelling brain. After all, now he knew everything, and that was a dangerous situation. You did your best to ignore your phone for most of the day however when it buzzed on your way back to the apartment it was hard to resist checking. He did text just as promised:
âDid you miss me?â and then âIâll have some news for you all laterâ
Maybe things, in fact, have not changedâŠ
âMaybe a littleâ smiling, you keyed in the code to the door.
Inside, you quickly settled on the sofa with some indulgent crisps, about to tune into the teamâs favourite Estonian soap âĂnne 13â, which you all watched every evening. It was terribly boring (especially when one did not understand a single word), and yet after a few days, you wanted nothing but to know what Alma will have for dinner that night. Oh, how the mighty have fallen.
The latest dose of drama from the shithole called Morna got interrupted by your phone ringing. Neil, of course. Ignoring the offended stares from the other eight people in the room, you picked up the phone:
âHeyâ
âEvening, my loveâ you could hear how happy he was to use those words.
Your heart summersaulted, making you exhale.
âI like the sound of thatâ grinning you walked out into the corridor to hide from the curious looks.
âMe too. Is everyone there with you?â jumping straight into the business was probably good for you both.
âYeah. Youâve interrupted our shitty soapâ at your adjective, a choir of outraged voices rose in the living room.
âMy bad. Can you put me on the speaker? I could give you a run over the planâ
âOf course,â you motioned for everyone to gather around the table and put your phone in the middle âYouâre onâ
âOkay, so basically TP wants to take over the plutonium piece that is being transported through Tallinn in three days on its way to a nuclear depot in Italy. The point is not to let it get into Satorâs hands who thinks weâre cooperating with himâ
âHow will it be transported?â Ives propped his chin on his hand, listening intently.
âReinforced truck with police escort front and back. Tracked via GPSâ leaning back in the chair, you listened to Neilâs voice âAny unplanned stop or different turn and in come the reinforcementsâ
âWhatâs his plan then?â
âI believe he wants to take it out on the move with the use of a fire truck. Among othersâ
The hint of a smile in that sentence made you comment:
âSo, youâre not the only crazy one aroundâ earning a few amused grins from the people around, you briefly felt victorious.
Briefly.
âSomething tells me youâre into that. Judging by what you let me do to you in that alleyâ
Fuck. A sharp gasp you let out made everyone turn to look at you. Gripping the edge of the table, you wanted nothing but to disappear. Or die. All the blood drained from your face as you stammered.
âNeil- you-â there was not enough air in the room âI-â
Wheeler shot you a worried look after you let out a small choking sound and spoke:
âAnyway⊠ why are we needed?â the professional tone made everyone turn their attention back to the mission.
You had to thank her later for saving your dignity. And life.
âTo be on hand if things get dirty. Iâll send you the brief now it lists the details of his planâ Neil resumed the topic as though nothing happened âTomorrow, Iâll call to let you know what exactly I need. Thatâs it for tonight, enjoy your eveningâ
Before anyone could make a move, you snatched your phone from the table and muttered:
âYouâre deadâ
You ended the call and stormed off to your room, slamming the doors. You could not believe his audacity to say something like that with everyone on the receiving end. The bastard ought to pay for that. Unable to calm down, with hands shaking violently and your head in absolute disarray, you grabbed the coat and made beeline for the exit out of the flat. It was pretty late for a solitary walk, but you hardly had anything to lose. Before you could make a swift exit, Ivesâ stopped you with a hand on the arm. You met his gaze with impatience:
âSo⊠how was the alley?â while he kept his face straight, the amused tone was there.
Bloody men.
âFuck offâ you shook off his hand and opened the door âIâm going out, and hopefully Iâll get killed. Donât wait upâ
Before you slammed the door in his face, you heard the parting words:
âHave funâ
The cold Estonian breeze was a welcomed sensation for your tired and thoroughly pissed off mind. You put up the hood of your coat and wandered off into the night.
***
Unfortunately, no one was willing to kill you. Around 1 am, you grudgingly made your way back to the apartment, relieved when no one was around to corner you. Once you were safe in your locked bedroom, you took out the phone for the first time in three hours. Unsurprisingly there were two missed calls and three texts from Neil, plus one message from Wheeler. She was checking whether you were still alive, which was a rather touching gesture, and so you replied to her first. Then, sighing heavily, you went through the texts from Neil:
âIâm sorryâ then âBut I wasnât entirely wrong, was I?â and finally, âAre you alright?â
That son of a bitchâŠ
âYouâre so going to pay for thisâ you typed back and lied down on the bed.
He was quick to reply, which meant he stayed up. Potentially waiting for you to reach out. Talking about confusing signalsâŠ
âI was hoping youâd say thatâ you groaned.
âAfter that disaster of a meeting, I went for a walk. Found a perfect spot for murder in cold-blood. You wonât even know what hit youâ
Maybe that will do the job.
âYou did. Only a lot earlier than you thinkâ
It didnât. Sighing, you cursed your inability to leave him on read.
âIâve had enough of you today, gânightâ
âI seriously doubt that, but good night, darlingâ and then âI hope your dreams will be as good as our little momentâ
That surge of frustration was only made worse when you found a stray short blonde hair on your blouse while changing for bed. The idiot not only had your heart, but everything else too, it seemed.
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Off-Limits: Part 7
Characters: Tom Holland X Reader Osterfield (eventually), Harrison Osterfield
Word Count: 3270
Warnings: Language, Angst, Fluff,Â
A/n: This is Part 7 of the Off-Limits series. I am going to start off by saying I am not a dancer, in any way, shape or from. That being said if the dance part of this fic doesnât make sense Iâm sorry, I did try my best to make it make sense. What I can say is that I love music, I am very passionate about it as well. Hopefully that will make up for the âdanceâ writing. (probably not though)
I used choreography from this video (not all of it but small bits)
Song: Inner Demons By Julia BrennanÂ
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Also Sorry for the super late upload. I hopefully will have part 8 uploaded on time.
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âTomâŠâ
You looked around for him, but all you saw was your mother sleeping in a chair next to your bed. You could have sworn you heard his voice.
Great Iâm hearing things. You let out a sigh as you thought to yourself.
You closed your eyes, throwing your head back onto your pillow. You brought your hand up to your face, as you tried to rub it across your face you realized that it was harder than it should be. You opened your eyes to see your hand was wrapped in gauze. You couldnât remember what had happened. You started freaking out a little bit. The machine that was next to you started beeping loudly, which wasnât helping you at all. You covered your ears as best as you could.
Your mother woke up to the noise, she looked over to see you grabbing your head. She came over to you, she put her hands on the sides of your face.
âY/n, honey you need to calm down.â
The door opened, nurses and a doctor came rushing in. They were moving around checking everything. One of the nurses put something into your IV. You opened your eyes to see your mother looking at you, you focused on her and slowly your heart slows back to a normal rate.
âMomâŠâ You felt like a child again, tears welling up in your eyes. You grabbed her arm to pull her closer, she just held onto you.
Harrison and Tom came running through the door. They had seen the nurses and doctor run into your room. They were prepared for the worst. Once they saw that you were awake a sigh of relief washed over them. Harrison came up next to your mother and hugged the both of you. After a few moments you all let go, tears were threatening to fall from all of your eyes.
You looked up to see Tom standing close to the door. You made eye contact with him, only to realize he was on the verge of crying as well. Then you started thinking about what you had heard. Did he actually say those things or was it all in your head? What about Nadia? You quickly looked away from him once your doctor started speaking.
âWell, not exactly how I thought you would wake up, but I think I can speak for everyone when I say we are glad your awake.â Everyone agreed.
âYou just about gave me a heart attack Y/n.â Harrison gently pushed your shoulder.
âIâm sorry. I woke up toâŠâ You stopped yourself, you looked towards the door at Tom and back down again. âI canât remember what happened. I saw my hand all wrapped up and I just freaked.â
Tom couldnât help but think that you had heard everything that he had said. He really hopes that you did because he meant every single word. Now he just needed to figure out whether or not you would even allow him to come back into your life.
 âY/n, there are somethings I would like to discuss with you.â Your doctor looked around at your family and Tom. âIs it okay to speak with everyone in this room?â
You looked over to Tom. He was about to leave when you spoke up.
âYe⊠Yes.â You had a feeling you knew what this was about. It was time for it to come out. Itâs time for the truth to come out.
âOkay.â
The doctor had Tom move over to where Harrison was, so that it was easier. He went over to his computer. Pulling up your file, before turning back to the four of you.
âYou came in about a month ago for a checkup, all of your levels were where they should be. Yesterday we did some blood tests when you first came in, now they are way below where that should be. You are severely malnourished. I am also positive if I were to have you stand on a scale you would have lost quite a bit of weight. Not to mention the damage to your liver, from the alcohol.â
You had put your head down when he was talking to you. You could feel everyone was staring at you. You let out a shaky breath and you brought your legs up to you. You were trying to make yourself as small as possible. You could feel yourself starting to retreat. Trying to get away from this, but now it was time to talk.
âI lost myself.â You looked over to your mother, Harrison, Tom before looking back at your hands. âI havenât been eating very much, some days not at all. I sleep too little or too much, not finding joy in the things I used too. I definitely not talking about my feelings when I should have.â
âY/n.â Harrison put his hand on your shoulder. You didnât look up, you just kept talking.
âI let my mental health deteriorate and it took a massive toll on me physically as well. I was starting to slowly pick myself the fuck up. That was until yesterday. I saw Luke and it all just started coming back.â
âWhy didnât you talk to someone?â
âI couldnât. Not with how things were. I was trying to do it by myself. Iâm sorry.â
Your doctor started talking to you about treatments and he strongly suggested that therapy would be helpful. He wanted to keep you for a couple of days, to make sure that you stay on the right path. He left you with your family and Tom for a while. He had other patients to go see but he would be coming back to check on you.
You called your boss to let her know that you couldnât come into work for a few days. You let her know what had happened. She was more than understanding, she was happy that you were okay. She told you to take as much time as you need.
After you got off the phone with her, everyone sat there in silence. They were in shock and didnât know what to say. Your mother had to go to work, she hugged you for a little while then kissed you on the top of the head. Tom got up to take her home, but Harrison stopped him once again. He whispered something to him before leaving with your mother.
âY/n...â
You looked up to see him getting up to move closer to you. He stopped just before getting to your bed. He was looking down at his hands.
âTomâŠâ He looked to you. âI need to ask you something.â
âOkay.â
âWere you talking to me when I was out? I heard your voice, but I donât know if it was really you or just my brain trying to mess with me.â
âYour brain wasnât messing with you darling.â He moved a chair to sit right next to your bed. Once he was sitting down, he grabbed ahold of your hand. âI was talking to you. I donât know how much you heard of what I had said, but I can tell you that everything I said was completely true.â
âDamn It Tom!â You took your hand back. âYou canât say things like that, you have a girlfriend.â
âNo, I donât.â He leaned back in his chair.
âWhat? What happened to Nadia?â
âWe broke up the day after I helped you home from the pub. I was just so focused on you all the time. Like I said earlier I fell in Love with you a long time ago. That wasnât fair to her, and I couldnât do that to her. We talked about it for a while, and we decided to break-up.â
âTom⊠I canât do this.â You could see tears welling up in his eyes, and you could feel them in your eyes too. âI love you, but I need to figure things out. I need to get back to myself before I bring someone into this. It wouldnât be fair to you at all.â
âDarling I understand.â He grabbed your hand again. âIâm not going anywhere. I donât want to lose you again. Not in my life orâŠâ You squeezed his hand.
âIâm not going anywhere. I promise.â
You pulled on his arm to get him to stand up, you pulled him into a hug. You just held onto him. Eventually you let go, but just to move over. Tom laid down, pulling him into you. The two of you just stayed there long enough to fall asleep.
With the amount of damage, you had done to your body, you had to stay in the hospital for a week. You had a fair amount of visitors while you were there. Your boss came to visit you a few times, some of your coworkers came to see you as well. Your favorite visitors were the Holland boys. They were there the most. You hated that they had to see you like this, but you were happy to see them.
There were times that you were alone. Those were the worst moments; you hated the quiet. You could only watch so much television. You were going stir crazy by day three, but you knew that there was no way they were going to let you go home. You were able to talk your doctor into letting you go home at the week mark. He only allowed it if you had someone at home to help you and make sure you are staying on track. Harrison was more than happy to stay with you.
Harrison and Tom came to get you from the hospital. When you got to your flat, you were hesitant to even walk in. From what Harrison told you about that night, you didnât know what to expect. The boys saw your hesitation.
âY/n, Its okay. We are here for whatever happens.â Harrison put his arm over your shoulders before pushing open your door.
âokayâŠâ
You slowly walked into your flat. Making your way through, there was an uneasy feeling coming over you. especially when you got closer to your bedroom. You stopped in front of the door, taking a deep breath before turning the knob and pushing it open. When you flipped the light on you were expecting the worst, but to your surprise it looked like nothing was out of place.
You looked at the dresser and you saw a different lamp, a new jewelry stand and a new bottle of your favorite perfume. You also saw scratch marks in the wood, you slowly traced along them with your finger. Your memory of that night started coming back, it looked like someone had cleaned everything up as well. The glass and the blood were gone. You started feeling the bubble slowly coming back. You stopped and just started breathing. It calmed you down enough to keep going,
You looked over to your bed where you had left the photos, but they werenât where you left them. Instead, they were made into a collage. When you got closer, you saw some other photos, and notes in there too. Photos you remember throwing away when you were upset. You climbed onto your bed, taking it off the wall. You sat down and just stared at it, there were some photos in the collage that werenât even in your box.
You saw the notes were from friends and family. Your heart was so full of happiness that once again you started crying. You canât believe that someone would do this for you. you pulled the frame close to you, you just hugged it.
You didnât notice was the boys standing in the doorway watching you. They were both smiling. Tom wanted to make you feel more comfortable when you were able to come back home. He talked to Harrison about it, then they put his plan in motion. Harrison was the one who cleaned up the blood and replaced the things on your dresser. Tom reached out to some of your friends and asked them to write notes to you. He also searched through a bunch of photos to find the right ones. He made sure to leave space around the edge for you to add more in if you would like. He was just so happy that you liked it.
You look up to see the boys, then set the frame down on to your bed. You got up and walked over to them, pulling them into a hug.
âThank you.â
You guys spent the rest of the night talking and watching movies. It was like old times; you were glad to have them in your life again. You didnât want this to go away. You were fighting to stay awake, instinctively you curled into Tomâs side.
âI think itâs time for someone to go to bed.â You felt a small chuckle go through him.
âNo, Iâm awake. Iâm just resting my eyes for a second.â You could hear Harrison laughing too.
âOh, is that what itâs called. What about the snoring?â
âWarming up my vocal cords?â
âAlright. Letâs go.â Tom stood up, grabbed your hands to pull you up. You let out a groan in protest.
âTom, I want to stay out here.â You looked up at him trying to give him puppy dog eyes and you pursed out your lower lip ever so slightly.
âThatâs not fair darling.â He looked over to Harrison. âA little help here mate.â
âNope, I am staying out of this one.â Harrison put his hands up. He just smiled at the two of you.
âFine, you win.â He let go of your hands, but he moved to a different seat. He just gave you a smirk.
âRude.â You keep eye contact with as you moved over to Harrison and placed your head on his shoulder. âI guess us Osterfieldâs need to stick together.â
âY/n, you really should go to bed.â Harrison looked down at you.
âI guess I am a little tired.â You stood up sending Tom a smirk before walking to a closet and pulled pillows and blankets out for the boys. You placed a set on the couch next to Harrison and placed the second on Tomâs lap.
âGoodnight boys.â You walked to your room, closing the door behind you. Tom was right you needed to sleep. You were exhausted, it seemed like as soon as your head hit the pillow you were out.
Tom and Harrison just watched as you went to your room.
âUgh. Your sister is going to be the death of me.â He just threw his head back.
Harrison just laughed at him. âCome on mate, just get some sleep.
After a couple of days, you decided to go to the studio. You needed to clear your head. Your boss had given you a key, so you could work on your solo piece. You donât know how much you would accomplish tonight but you still needed to try.
Harrison and Tom tagged along. They wanted to make sure you got there safe. They also just wanted to hang out with you. After getting inside the building, you lock the door behind you guys. You didnât need to turn on the lights, there were emergency lights along the hall. They were spaced out enough that it lit the whole thing up.
You went to the changing room, quickly changing into the clothes you had in your locker. You walked to the main studio and flipped on a few lights, before heading to the control booth. The guys just sat along the wall; they didnât want to disturb you too much. Turning on the system and plugging in your phone. You still havenât picked a song, which is the worst. That should have been the first thing, but nothing was sticking out to you. You decided to just let your music play, hopefully something would just come to you.
You walked out to the center of the studio and just laid down, laying your arms out to the side. Half of your body was in the light and the other half was in the shadows. You closed your eyes, breathing in and out, just listening to the music. You were trying to feel every beat. You wanted the music to do all the moving for you. You wanted to let go of all the control you had and just be in the moment.
The boys started recording you. This was the first time in a while that they saw you dance. They watched you closely to see what you were going to do next.
Slowly you began to move, you kept your eyes closed the whole time. As you sat up you kept your head back and slowly rolled it around till it was faced down. Your hair fell down off your head and surrounded your face. Letting your arms drag behind you, while pulling your legs in, making yourself sit Criss-cross. Your hands moved to cradle your head; you moved your head from side to side. Taking your right hand, moving it across your body to your left knee, pulling it up. Quickly letting go, you move your right hand behind you to prop yourself up. Then swinging your right leg around, causing you to pull yourself up slightly. Your body ended up in the dark part of the studio. Your right foot was now flat on the floor, causing your leg to be in a 90-degree angle, while your left knee was on the ground.
You put your elbow onto your knee and your chin into your hand, before throwing your head back. You bring your arms around to brace yourself, as you move your body to the ground. Once you hit the ground your left hand is extended out above your head, while the right is keeping you propped slightly off the floor. You move your legs up slowly so that you are almost in the fetal position, but before your legs could even hit your stomach you threw them out.
Moving onto your back. You planted your feet on the ground, lifting up your pelvis, while your hand grabbed at your shirt like multiple people were trying to pick you up by your shirt. Then you dropped your pelvis back down and lifted up your torso up and down, almost like you were doing half sit-ups.
You worked through the rest of the song. Just letting your body do everything.
You could hear the music coming to an end, quickly you ran over to the booth. You grabbed your phone and paused it, it had two seconds left in the song. You were just staring down at your phone out of breath. Your hand came up to cover your mouth, you could feel yourself getting emotional again. You backed up to the wall and sank down. You pulled your knees to your chest and buried your face in them, your arms just wrapped around your legs to hold them in place.
The boys came running after you. when they say you on the ground, they were worried that you were going to have another anxiety attack. Harrison kneeled down in front of you, he placed a hand on your shoulder. You looked up to see his concerned face. You smiled at him and placed one of your hands on top of his.
You sat there for a little while, eventually you just felt emotionally drained. You got up and took your phone, turned everything off. You went and changed again, then you left.
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TV SHOW THE QUEENS GAMBIT
COUPLE: BENNY WATTS X READER
RATING: DARK + SWEET AF
I couldn't rip my eyes away from her, trying desperately not to cry.
and I snapped.
I grabbed his leg and tripped him up forcing him to the floor, I sat over his stomach and punched him over and over he tried to stop me and fight back but nothing could stop me he could have broken my arm but I didn't care I just kept hitting him over and over bloodying his face, by the time I stopped for a breath he was knocked out. I moved away and went to the bed kneeling beside her "Ohh my sweet y/n, My sweet little lady, what has he done to you" I cried holding her hand, her Paulse was fading, she didn't even open her eyes. "Its' okay, It's okay y/n." I told her grabbing the phone and typing in the numbers as quickly and quietly as I could I rang for the police and an ambulance explaining the situation, and not even five minuets later I could hear the sirens on the road, they quickly knocked on the door so I kissed y/n's hand and headed to the door opening it for them, the paramedics rushed to y/n and seemed shocked the police came to me and I began to explain everything much better to them but as we did, Mikey stood.
I quickly stood in the bedroom door way so he couldn't get to y/n, I didn't want him to touch her, or possibly hurt her. he saw me there and looked angry the police tried to calm him down but Mikey picked me up by my neck holding me off the floor I choked and struggled as he held me tightly almost crushing my windpipe,
"Put him down Or I'll be forced to shoot!" The officer ordered
"No little bastards taking my wife anywhere" Mikey growled grabbing his knife and I felt the harsh pain though my stomach, and he dropped me on the floor, I heard a gunshot, and people rushing around, I blacked out from the pain unsure what was happening.
When I came too, I was in the hospital in a little bed in my own room, every part of me stung and ached, I was clean, and well bandaged I had an IV in my arm, I moved the blankets a little seeing my stomach wrapped up tightly and there was a nurse at the end of my bed making notes on some paperwork.
"Good afternoon Mr Watts" she smiled
"Where's y/n?" I asked her
she playfully giggled, and smiled "she's fine, been wrapped up and all"
"Where is she?"
"she was in the visitors lounge, would you like me to check if she's still there?"
"She's been let out the hospital?" I asked
"Yes sir" she nods before going out of the room,
I smiled a little thankful she was okay, she was out before me even, then again she is much stronger then I am, much more used to having these sorts of injuries.
When the little door opened again it was the nurse she pushed the door full open and Y/n stepped in. even though it hurt I smiled wider then I ever had, so happy to see her, so happy to see she was okay, In her little black heels, her black stockings, her black petticoats peaking out the bottom of her skirt, her white and black dress tight to her body, I could see she had bandages here and there, her black handbag tightly in her hands as usual, her black cardigan over her shoulders, her red lipstick perfect on her lips a little more make up then usual clearly using it to hide scars and bruises, Â her hair done so perfect like she had just brushed it from her curlers moments ago. she smiled at me in that adorable little way she always does
"Hello Benny" she smiled
"Hello y/n" I blushed
"How are you feeling?"
"Much better now I see you"
"Benny, don't make fun of me"
"I'd never make fun of you, never ever my sweet little lady" I smiled "Come here"
"Ummm I missed you" she smiled coming to my bed kissing my head and gently taking my hand
"I missed you more" I told her gently pulling her to give me a hug even if we could both barely hug each other I wanted to cry so happy to see her and so happy she was okay, the nurse left and y/n took a seat on the little chair beside the bed
"I brought you presents" she smiled
"Presents?"
"Umm" she nods digging in her handbag "Apple juice so you don't have to drink gross hospital tap water, your travel chess board so you can play while your in bed, a few books, and some cookies" she smiled laying the items out on the table over my bed I couldn't help but smile at her "What?"
"You are, the sweetest, most beautiful, smartest, loveliest woman In the world. I am extremely lucky to have you around" I smiled giving her hand a kiss
"you are too sweet to me benny" she giggled "How are you? properly"
"My stomach hurts,"
"It will you got a kitchen knife in it"
"which kitchen knife was it?"
"The bread knife, with the bumps, I took it home earlier" she smiled
"They gave you the knife?"
"It was lodged in your stomach."
".... Mikey stabbed me with it and your going to sanitise it and put it back in our draw?"
"It's a good knife"
"I know, I got stabbed with it."
"are you going to go out and buy a new bread knife?"
"Yes my darling, I will go out and buy as a new bread knife you don't have to keep it" I laughed
"If you say so" she giggled
"How are you? I'm very surprised they let you out before me."
"There wasn't that much wrong with me, well nothing too bad, no broken bones and such. I had just lots a lot of blood,"
"I know, when I saw you.... I thought you were dead."
"I was just weak benny, I lost a lot of blood but they fixed me up and I was out within a couple of days" she smiled "the apartments been cleaned and sorted, all ready for when your better" she smiled
".... and Mikey?"
"Arrested for attempted murder, among other things. In recovery from being shot in the standoff. He's been issued with the divorce paperwork, and a legal restraining order of sixty two meters" she smiled
"Of what now?" I glared at her
"two hundred and three feet" she giggled
"That's better, I understand that"
"Ummm, silly American" she giggled
"Complicated brit" I laughed at her "Are you okay? with that?"
"Perfectly okay" she smiled gently resting her head on my shoulder being careful not to hurt either of us,
"Y/n. Why didn't you tell me... about it."
"About what?"
"You know what."
"I was going to, then Mikey showed up" she says "That's why I send you shopping so I could make a nice dinner and I was going to put a note in a cake"
"... how?"
"I don't know I was working on it"
"How long had you known?"
"A month or so"
"You could have told me."
"I wanted to be sure"
"I'm sorry I didn't protect you better."
"You did your best. you didn't know."
"I should have, I should never have let him be that close to you"
"Benny, not even I thought he would do something like that?"
"what did he do, exactly."
"Benny..."
"Please y/n. you don't have to tell me, but I'd like to know"
"I won't explain, but I was pregnant. Now I'm not."
"How did he do it?"
"duct tape, tools, he's done it before."
"Before?"
"Before the operation, before we where married"
"He did that to you?"
"Ummm" she nods
"How did he know? if I didn't how the hell did he know?"
"He forced me to tell him," she said quietly
"How?"
".... I don't wanna talk about it benny"
"Okay, we won't talk about it. I'm just happy your safe, and your okay" I told her hugging her as close as I could peppering her with kisses "Are you sure you wanna go back to the apartment?"
"why wouldn't I?"
"Given, everything that happened there?"
"I'm sure benny, the last few days might have been horrible but so long as I'm with you I'm happy there" she smiled
"Okay, as soon as they say I can go home" I told her "I love you y/n, so very much my little lady. I'm sorry about everything that happened, and I swear on my life nothing like this will ever happen to you again"
"I love you too" she smiled nuzzling with me "Benjamin"
".... How do you-"
"It is your name, so its on your hospital stuff" she giggled
"god damn it" I sighed
"Benjamin" she giggled
"yes its very funny, can we forget about it now?"
"Nope" she giggled "I'm a little mad you didn't tell me?"
"What that I didn't tell you my terrible name that makes me sound like a nerd?"
"Benny we both play professional chess? we are nerds."
"Still, Its not exactly as attractive"
"You think benny is?"
"Hey!" I complained "awww what little lady you don't like my name? don't you find my name attractive?"
"I do but that's because its yours" she giggled "Y/n makes me sound like a child"
"I like it" I smiled playing with her hair "well enough"
"Enough?"
"your names fine, but I think it would sound better as y/n watts." I told her
"would it now?"
"I think so, you don't think so?"
"I think so, soon once were settled" she smiled giving my lips a little kiss
"Okay, as soon as we get settled" I smiled giving her head a kiss .
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Allmight: Symbol of peace
Yn POV
^quirk: Agility, Super human agility and senses.
  *beep* beep* beep*
  I rolled out of bed and stood up stretching as much as possible before dropping to the floor in a sitting position. I spent a while meditating before I got up to make my coffee. I turned the radio and coffee maker on as I began to go about getting ready for my day.
  I teach pre-K students and they are the little joys of my life. My entire life revolves around teaching them, they mean everything to me. I've been teaching pre-K for almost 6 years now and it's truly what makes me happy. I packed up everything I needed for class today and scanned myself over. I wore my black leggings with my knitted brown sweater and low tops. I grabbed my bags and headed toward the door. I locked up and made my way to work.
  The crisp fall air hit my face as I opened the door to leave out. "Woahânope." I closed the door and ran back inside to grab my coat. I put it on along with my scarf before actually starting my journey. I began my walk as I listed to the crunchy fall leaves as I stepped on them. The Autumn season always made me happy even as a child. There has always been something about she cool crisp atmosphere that caught my interest.
  As I reached the school I walked into class and began to set up for my class. I cleaned the desk and plugged in my water heater. The classroom was already toasty as I began to place the kids mugs on their desk. I took out my laptop and began to play music at a low volume. I checked my watch as I began to make my specialty hot chocolate for my class. I finished just in time as my children began to filter into the classroom.
  "Good morning Ms. YN!" I turned my head to the door to see the smiling beautiful faces of my class begin to rush in. A huge smile spread across my face as they lined up one by one in front of me. "Good morning my lovely students!" I hugged the man each one by one before they headed to assigned seats. They sat smiling wide, staring at their cups. We made them as an arts and crafts project and they absolutely love them.
  With my entire class in attendance the morning bell rang. I took another sip of my hot chocolate before standing up and addressing my class. "Okay kids, today we are going to have a very special visitor." They began to whisper among themselves. "Okay, okay, quiet down. Would anyone like to take a gueâ." I knock on the door cut me short. All headed turned to the closed door as the children were literally sitting on the edge of their seat. I couldn't make them wait any longer, they would just be cruel. "Come in." I said as I eyeballed the expressions on the kids faces. The door creaked opened slowly as a tall figures ducked into the door way.
  Almight pov
 "Come in." I heard a delicate voice through the door. I slowly pushed the door open and crouched down through the door way stepping into the classroom. Immediately I saw the entire class full of children jump from their seats as little feet scurried toward me. I closed my eyes and braced for impact. When I noticed I wasn't covered in pre schoolers I opened my eyes to see the students all back in their seats perfectly and the teacher now in the back of the classroom. "Now class, how do we greet our guest?" Her soft voice rang through the classroom before the students responded.
"Good morning Almight! Welcome to our classroom!" Their small voice spoke in unison as they were barely able to stay in their seats. I was at a loss for words. I have never seen children so young and so well behaved. "Good morning children! And good morning to you Ms...?" I trailed off as I looked over to the teacher awaiting her name. "Ms. Yn" A smile played upon her lips as she responded. Her smile was bright and welcoming. "Good morning Ms.Yn." I said completing my sentence.
  "It smells amazing in here, may I ask what you all are drinking?"
"Ooh! Ooh!" A student raised his hand drawing my attention toward him. "Yes young man?" I asked as I called on him.
 "Well Ms. makes us specialty hot chocolate sometimes to keep us nice and toasty."
  "It smells delicious."
  " Actually Almight ive made you some as well. No one in the class is left out ever. Here you go." She said as she handed me a hand painted mug with my head on it as a cartoon drawing. I felt my face flush pink as I thanked her. I took the tiny mug from her hands as we made brief eye contact. "How about we all take our first morning sip together?" She asked.
"That sounds like a great idea." I held the cup to my lips as the class did the same. I took a sip and felt a sense of comfort. This was the best hot chocolate I've ever had. It was sweet and the perfect temperature but there was something about this hot chocolate that didn't taste like normal hot chocolate. Some more. It taste amazing. My eyes dropped down into the mug trying to figure out what was giving off this amazing flavor.
"T-this hot chocolate...... IS PLUS ULTRA!"
Yn POV
  I felt my face heat up as I took another sip of my hot chocolate. I love when people enjoy my
hot chocolate. The class giggled as did I seeing the hot coco mustache on Almight's face. "Almight, you've got a hot coco mustache." He let out a loud hearty laugh before speaking. "Well it just shows how delicious your hot chocolate is." I sat my mug down and handed the symbol of peace a napkin. He wiped his face as I leaned against my desk, addressing my class.
  "Today the symbol of peace will be helping us our with class so let's be on our best behavior. Who knows, maybe if we behave he'll come back another time." The class went crazy with excitement at the thought of almight being in their class not once but twice.
We started the day out with some songs and and math before moving into reading. Next it was time for gym. Without me having to ask Almight got the students to line up single file and follow him to the gym. He strutted down the hall heroically as the class copied his walk. It was amazing I just had to take a picture. When we got to the gym the kids did their warm up stretches before they had free play. Almight played with the kids as I planned out the lesson plan for the rest of the week. The children stacked were in a cheerleading pyramid as Almight pretended to be their coach. Something felt off as I looked up over toward the children. I jumped up as I saw all the children about to topple over. I quickly dashed over to the children and began to catch them placing them down one by one in a safe spot. I wiped the sweat off my my forehead as I was now back in my original spot. I looked up to see Almight looking over at my with his mouth slightly gaped open. I gave him a soft smile as I went back to lesson planning.
After gym it was time for lunch. I took the children to the cafeteria and returned back to the classroom to see Almight sitting at my desk with two wrapped boxes. He placed his phone down before speaking.
"Ms. Yn, have lunch with me? It's the least I can do since you made me some of your delicious hot chocolate this morning." I tried to dial back my smile as I blushed. "I'd love to but I'm not sure that's such a good idea." I looked away for a moment trying to avoid his gaze.
  "Oh?" He asked as his tone dropped slightly."Well how about you tell me about it. It'll just be two people having a conversation." I hesitated before nodding my head in agreement and walking over. He stood and pulled out my desk chair. "No it's fine, I'll sit here." I sat atop my desk with my legs crossed. Almight began to unwrap one of the boxes as he spoke.
  "I'm listening."
  "Well what would the kids think? Ya know? I usually get my lunch and go eat with them."
 "I'm sure they wouldn't mind you having lunch without them today." He said as he unwrapped the box completely as opened it up. Amazing smells radiated from the bento box as I saw the marvelous food.
"So I saw in the gym earlier. Can you tell me a bit about your quirk?" He asked as he leaned on the desk slightly, giving me his full attention.
"Sure, so my quirks name is agility. I'm basically very agile with increased senses. So what you saw earlier in the gym was just me doing normal people things at an accelerated speed. But it wasn't an easy quirk to improve upon. It took countless hours of gymnastics and speed training and LOTS of combat trainingâ." I felt something press against my leg slightly. As I looked down I saw Almight pushing the unwrapped box off food toward me. He flashed his heroic smile at me.
"You're not going to give up, are you?" He didn't respond, he only continued to smile at me. I hopped up from the desk and walked behind it. I went into my bag that was next to Almight and pulled out the bento box I had packed for the day. I held in front of me before speaking. "I'll eat, but only if you eat what I brought. But this is NOT lunch, this is just two people talking and eating."
"Okay, let's trade." I handed him the bento box in my hands and sat back down. I watched as he opened the bento box and immediately took a bite. The atmosphere around seemed to have shifted as he placed his hand over his heart.
"This is......the best cooking I've ever had." My entire face turned a bright red as I immediately looked everywhere else in the room.
"Please, you're too kind. It's just something I threw together."
"Oh please Ms.Yn, you're being too modest. How do you do it? Family recipes?"
My face went flush even more as I looked down at the floor. "Actually I just put a little love into everything I make."
"Well it's absolutely amazing." I looked back up at him and he was blushing just as hard as I was with the same cheesy smile. We continued to talk as we enjoyed each others food. His food tasted just as amazing as it smelled. I felt like I was in heaven. Before long it was time to start class again and the students began to return.
Almight POV
My phone began to ring as the students filed into the the classroom.
"One moment, I have to take this." I stepped out of the classroom and answered the call, it was Nezu calling.
"Hello?"
"Ah! Almight! So nice to hear from you. Midnight has gathered all the faculty in my office and she told us that there has been someone to peak your interest. You must come back and tell us all about it over tea."
"Well actually sir Iâ."
"See you soon." I let out a deep sight as he hung up the phone before I had time to respond. Note to self: don't call Midnightâeven when no one else answers the phone.
I walked back into the classroom and walked over to Ms.Yn. She looked up at me and I almost wasn't able to tell her soft beautiful face.
"Duty calls." She nodded as she understood what I meant.
"Well can I get a picture of you with my class?"
"Of course."
"Duty calls young heros! How about we all get a photo before I leave."
The class all ran over to the back of the classroom as Ms.Yn pulled out her phone. The children crowded around me as she raised the phone.
  "Now what kind of picture would this be if you're not in it?" I placed my arm around her torso and pulled her into my side.
  "Okay let me set up the camera." She said as she bolted to her desk and propped up her phone. She put the timer on and ran back over. I pulled her back into my side as I balanced children on my shoulders and one atop my head.
  "Everyone say PLUS ULTRA!" She wrapped her hands around me the best she could, I looked down to her blushing and smiling face as she posed for the picture. I couldn't help but think to my self how beautiful this woman is.
"PLUS ULTRA!!!"
*click*
  She jumped over the children and over to her desk. I grabbed the bento box she had given me and walked over to her. I looked down at the picture she was smiling so widely at and noticed the pink shade that dusted me face. Hopefully no one else will notice.
  "Here you are Ms. Yn" she turned on the heels of her feet to face me. "Keep it, you can return it to me when we have lunch again."
  My face was now beet red as I tried to contain my excitement. "I-I'll uhh, I'll come see you after school. Does tomorrow work?"
  "Works for me. Now go be a hero."
  "Don't worry about a thing, I'll take care of everything. Farewell class!" I said as I began my way out of the classroom.
  "GOODBYE ALMIGHT!!"
*BUMP*
I turned my attention back to where I was walking noticing I hit my head on the low door frame. Giggles came from behind me as I nervously chuckled and crouched out of the door. I was so excited I could barely contain myself. I dashed out of the school building and leaped through the air.
"PLUS ULTRA!"
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Happy Father's Day Part 3
Summary: 3/3 Well, its the last part.
Warning: Sad, Mentions Death.
Word Count: 2269
"Harry? " I answer the phone.
"It's not Harry but glad you know your numbers." that high pitch annoying ass voice squeals. Rubbing my stomach, the baby's in go position and any day now my oven will be done baking. And of course, this bitch is answering his phone.
"Well bye-bye just thought you should know where he was at. " In the background, I hear Harry's voice going on about something so it must be true. Hanging up I sigh letting the hot tears roll down my cheeks. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I blame myself really, I let him back into my life and this doesn't surprise me. I gotta pee.
Waddling over to the bathroom door a gasp leaves my mouth feeling the surge of liquids fall between my legs. Holy shit. My water broke! Fuck gotta go. Thankful my bag was already in the car. Harry had insisted once I hit the 36-week mark claiming Styles's are either early or fashionably late.
Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. My knuckles turning white as I grasp the wheel. Nope, I'm not pushing anything out of my vagina. Can't do it. I refuse.
The contraction going away after a few brief moments of completely unreasonable pain. Dialing the numbers, I know by second nature, thankfully she picks up on the fourth ring.
"I don't think you should drive y/n"
" Just call 911. I'm almost there! " Gemma ecstatically shouts. She's just like her brother, "Where's Harrold? "
I put the seatbelt on and wince. It's just 28 minutes I can do this. "He's with his whore."
I can hear an audible gasp, "he wouldn't he's so excited for Athena"
"Well I just called him and she answered. " I grunt keeping my eyes on the two lanes ahead of me. Fuck I hate merging lanes people don't know how to drive.
"I'll be at the hospital as soon as possible but my phones gonna-" the line went dead. She did say she was on like 10% oh well.
I can do this just focus y/n. "Hear that baby girl we're almost there, hang on okay Hunny. " I say as a reminder to myself that soon I'll be leaving with another human with me.
6 miles to go that's what I'm talking about, another sharp pain spreads throughout my abdomen while waiting for the light to turn green. "OH COME ON. FOR FUCKS SAKE!" they're getting closer by the minute. Shit. Arriving at a four-way intersection. I'm relieved to be at a red light, the contractions are longer and much more frequent. "Almost there Athena, this is the last light and a straight shot from there."
Abruptly my car is jerked forward with a sharp impact pushing to the oncoming lights. All I see are lights from both directions colliding with my 3,000-pound piece of metal. Sounds of shattering glass and sirens are the last thing I hear before it all fades to black.
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Harry's POV
"Has anyone seen Mr. Style's phone?" The helpful aid asked around the dressing room. I could've sworn I put it down for a moment. Y/n could go into labor any minute now and how I am supposed to know. Fuck. I'm stupid.
I was supposed to be here to perform and list nominees and then go back home to y/n. I can't wait to propose to her, she's all I could ever want and she's giving me the most wonderful gift I could ever ask for. Running a hand through my damp hair, the lights really build a sweat, I hear a familiar voice. "Looking for this lover? " she asks slipping my phone into my pocket.
"Good luck at home. " she smiles and winks. Before I could question it she walks away.
Looking down at the device my heart skips a beat, I have 146 missed calls. And I've been gone for 5 hours. Seeing Gemma's name on the screen again I swipe to answer.
"Hell-"
"Harry," she says sniffling.
"Gemma what's wrong? did I miss it? Oh my god I hope not"
"I think it would be best if you came now Harry." she breaks her voice cracking.
"Gem what?"
"Listen Harry, she needs you right now so please." she cries. Not needing another word, I tell Jackson the address and that I need to be there as fast as possible, 45 minutes later we're pulling into the Labor and Delivery section of the hospital.
"Congrats Harry!" Jackson says letting me out at the door. "Thank you!" I beam back at him.
Seeing Gemma, her eyes are puffy with tears still flowing. "Gem what's wro-," a sharp pain to my right cheek stings. Never has Gemma hit me like that, well not since I cut her prom dress. "How could you Harry? Cheat on her again WITH TAYLOR for Christ sakes!" She yells.
"I didn't cheat," I explain to my sister as calm as I can.
She looks at me with wild eyes pulling me into a hallway with fewer people, "Then what happened Harrold?" I clench my jaw instead of speaking, how dare she accuse me of cheating on my pregnant soon-to-be fiancé. Y/n Styles has a great catch don't you think?
"Is she here yet? Gem where are they?" I ask ready to see my new family.
She begins crying again "Harry there was an accident." Those five words make my breathing come to a halt. My heart shatters in a million pieces "Is Y/n okay? What happened?" She begins walking me to a door. "This one," she points. Looking through the glass I see y/n with bruises and cuts to her beautiful face, her stomach nearly deflated from when I last saw her this morning, a cast on a swollen leg of hers, and a sling holding a very damaged arm. Tears brim at my eyes looking at my love on that hospital bed. "She's awake." Gemma walks past me running to the outside.
I gently knock on the door, waiting for a response which I don't get. "Y/n?" I approach her almost as If I were going to help an injured puppy. "Hey love" I smile at her which she glares at me and then turns wincing in pain. "You wanted this didn't you Harry?" I look at her confused. "This is probably great for you, a way out. Well leave." She states using whatever energy she can find.
"Baby I didn't want- I want you and Athena" She breaks down in uncontrollable tears.
"You were with that her and couldn't even bother to pick up your phone!" she screams. "Y/n I wasn-" a knock at the door interrupts my sentence, "Come in" She says glaring at me as a nurse opens the door.
"Hey there Mama, we have a visitor." the nurse wheel in a tiny cart that has a bunch of equipment coming from it. She looks at me and asks Y/n, "Is this dad?" she nods and rolls her eyes. "About time you made it!" She smiles my way. Placing the beautiful baby in front of us. She's so small and fragile. "The doctor will be in shortly to talk to you." She states picking up the tiny child and putting her in Y/n's arm.
"Hi pumpkin," Y/n coos into her ear. "Guess who decided to show?" She smiles, a tear falling from the corner of her eye. She nods her head towards me as I go to hold her. She's so soft and precious. Her small eyes have a gorgeous mix of both mine and Y/n's. She has such a cute round face, I couldn't imagine her looking any different.
"Hi there angel, I'm so sorry I was late." I see a spot dampen on her blanket that surrounds her, knowing that I'm crying. Her small eyes shining like twinkling stars. So small I can feel her fragile body between my large hands.
Another knock before the door opens when several doctors walk in. "Mrs. Y/ln, unfortunately, we have some bad news,"
"Oh, hello there Mr. Styles." They state acknowledging my existence. One of the female doctors places a black and white image on the lighted board illuminating the small figure.
"Unfortunately, due to the accident, Athena has suffered from what we call a fetomaternal hemorrhage."
"What exactly are you saying?" Y/n ask looking at the child still in my arms.
The slightly shorter male doctor points to the image. "This is an abscess of blood in the brain. Unfortunately, the risk is too large to operate. I'd give her another day at most."
"You m-mean," Tears start pouring down her face" I was so scared she was hurt. I-I promise I saw the light it was red, and I-I stopped but," She began heaving losing more air with each word. I gently rub her back as I cradle Athena with one arm.
"She's still being monitored but I'm afraid she won't have much longer." The first doctor breaks the silence. "According to the police report the car that struck you from behind happened to be a drunk driver, Gage Joyce." I can feel the anger surging through me. "I remember the clashing of metal, glass breaking, the sirens but it all went b-black." She mumbles, seemingly remembering the awful experience. I grab her hand in hopes of comforting her but it doesn't seem to work.
"After striking your car at 72 mph it had ample force to push your vehicle into the opposite traffic. Your vehicle took the most impact and was hit by four other cars. On scene, EMT's said you were in and out of consciousness mumbling about a baby. Taken and brought to the L&D." he finishes.
"Fetomaternal hemorrhages are often caused by trauma and sometimes can be revered but in this case, we've done all we can do." They all frown looking at the small girl still in my arms.
"No, there's got to be more you can bloody do! We're in a hospital for Christ sakes!" I exclaim, passing my daughter to the love of my life. She gently caresses her soft skin. She's literally a perfect combination of us. I cannot lose my family.
"You can leave, thank you all for your help." y/n says quietly, they oblige by her wishes and leave us with our daughter.
"Harry," she wipes a tear from her face cautious of the IV placed on her hand, "If what they say is true, I just want to spend time with her." She sniffles. I nod understanding. She looks back at the small being in her arms, "Hi pretty girl, Mommy's so happy to meet you," she unfolds the blanket from her. I sit next to her on the small bed in the room that smells of sterilization. Placing my finger near hers' she wraps her small hand around my thumb, her grip so tight for someone so small. Y/n kisses her forehead, "Harry," she runs her finger along her small legs.
"Can you sing the song?" nodding and softly singing Isn't she Lovely by Stevie Wonder, in the small hospital bed as our new life falls asleep. All night I watch her little chest rise and fall allowing y/n to get some rest soon following my two loves.
By the early morning, nurses are rushing in because of the loud beeping from the monitor, waking y/n and I. It feels like everything is happening so fast but in slow motion right in front of me. Those three words are the ones I didn't want to hear. "No! no. I have to take her home. She's gotta go home..." Y/n screams, not being able to see her face due to the tears in my eyes falling and rebuilding themselves faster than the speed of light. "Call it." One of the nurses shouts.
"Time of Death 6:18 am March 7th, 2019"
As they cleared out the room, I see her small lifeless body curled into a blanket, almost as if she were sleeping, but no longer do breaths fall from her small heart-shaped lips.
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Y/n hasn't said a word since we got in the car. It's been four days since we lost Athena. She slowly climbs into the car, still sore from the accident and birth. I go to the backseat holding back my emotions and putting the empty car-seat in the trunk of the car that should have been holding three of us.
Starting the silent journey back home she continues to look out of the window, a frown etched on her mouth, tears rolling down her cheeks as she instinctively touches her somewhat deflated stomach. What kind of sick joke is this?
"Harry why were you with her?" she asks me looking down at what used to be her baby bump.
"I wasn't love, she took my phone while I was on stage." She just nods and remains silent until we pull up to the flat. She begins walking up the stairs as best she can. "Y/n wait, let me help."
"No Harry!" She yells. Pain evident in her voice, ignoring her I open the door and help her inside. "Harry I can't do this." I stare at her confused, "What can't you do y/n?"
"Us Harry. I can't look at you and not think of her." She sobs.
"Y/n we can-" I try to reason with her.
"No Harry, please just go." She whispers.
"I'm not losing both of you," I state holding back my own sobs. I feel like everything feels like it's getting smaller around me, suffocating in grief.
"You already have."
A/N: What can I say I have a thing for dark endings. Anyways I really appreciate the support loves. I hope you enjoy these! Right now I've been working on a Loki piece, I'm so excited for it. I changed the writing style tho, so it's not 1st person per usual. I think it's going pretty well so far.
xoxo Janelle
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Comfort
Each member of the team comforting Hotch while heâs sick/hurt
1.
âSpencer.â
Reid jerks at the sudden intrusion, his brain struggling to pull itself from the novel in his lap. âHaley,â his eyebrows pinch in confusion before he looks down at his wristwatch and red letters flashback at him the time; 7:15. Heâs been here for five hours. âI-IâŠâ
She smiles softly, he recognizes the look from earlier. Hotch had given him the same sad-eyed smile as Reid failed to keep the pressure on his wound. Reid had never seen an example of couples adopting one another characteristics before. He finds it to be both unnerving and amazing.
âLost in your head,â she asks, coming further into the room. She glances at him once more before going to Hotchâs side. She slides her hand under her husbandâs, whispering something too soft for Reid to hear and presses a kiss to the corner of his mouth. âHe says you have a-a tendency to get lost in your head.â
Reid is silent. Heâs been to their house a few times. Only after Gideon dumps whatever plans they made, it seemed heâd get off the phone with the older man and within the hour Hotch would call. Heâd some odd knickknack for Reid to see or a StarTrek marathon to offer.
Haley runs her fingers through Hotchâs hair, unsettling it from the hold the gel Hotch had put it in that morning. âItâs good youâre here,â she says, looking up at him instead of Hotch. Haleyâs an intelligent woman, keeps Hotch on his toes. Reid holds a soft spot for her, she makes him feel warm and safe. The same way Hotch does.
A soft grunt sounds from the bed between them, Hotch shaking his head loose of the oxygen canal. His head is turned, his eyes open and all he sees is Haley. â... tried-â he shifts on the bed, pain shooting up his middle as the movement pulls sore muscles. âSean?â He croaks the name out, lost in times that passed long ago.
Haley glances up at Reid once before centering her focus on her husband. She soothes him softly, shushing him when he tries to pull away from the IV in his arm and the sheets over his hips. âAaron-Aaron,â she brushes a hand through his hair, smiling when his attention shifts back to her owlish blink. âHey,â she brushes her thumb across his cheek. âSean is safe. Heâs in New York, remember? Gonna be a chef.â
Hotch swallows thickly, brain turning this information over slowly. âNot-Not a lawyer,â he recalls.
Haley smiles with a shake of her head, âno. Not a lawyer.â She moves over him and positions the oxygen canal back under his nose. âYouâre safe too, Aaron.â Her smile fades back into that sad-eyed, soft smile from earlier. âAgent Reid is with you,â she says motioning her head to Reid.
Reid can see the confusion in Hotchâs brow but he turns his head and settles his eyes on Reid. Thereâs no scrutiny. If Reid didnât know better he might say fondness is the crinkle in his supervisorâs eyes.
âYour team is okay,â Haley adds squeezing his hand. âEveryoneâs okay.â
Concussion. Reidâs mind helpfully deduces. They hadnât done a brain scan when Hotch was admitted. There was no real reason to suspect brain trauma with a bullet to the abdomen. Not when Reid hadnât told them about the crack that sounded through the room when Hotch hit the floor.
The concussion is to blame for Hotchâs sluggish thoughts and obvious confusion. âDad?â Reidâs never heard Hotchâs voice raise to an octave like that, an inflection of fear. Haleyâs eyebrows tighten, clearly aggravated but not at Hotch or his confusion.
âNo,â Haley says forcing herself to relax. âHeâs dead, Aaron.â
Reidâs never seen so many emotions cross his bossâs face at once. Relief immediately followed by sadness and the clench of his fist that Reid loses the meaning to because he canât tell if heâs reacting to physical or emotional pain or maybe heâs angry.
âDead,â he echoes. His brow scrunches in confusion and Reid can see the realization cross his eyes. The âdeadâ sinking in. âOh.â
Haley tries to direct his attention back to Reid. âDonât worry with him, Aaron. Spencerâs here,â she nods her head again but itâs becoming very clear that Hotch is fighting a losing battle against the narcotics streaming in his veins.
âMm,â Hotch turns his head to Reid. He smiles and lifts his hand from the bed, a tired wave.
Haley brushes a hand through his hair again, catching his attention. âGet some sleep,â she doesnât move away. Instead, her hand continues to work through his hair, slowly easing him lower and lower into sleep. âShh.â
Reid canât see Hotchâs eyes flutter shut but he can see the last deep breath he takes before they even out.
âIâm glad youâre here,â Haley says, settling into the visitorâs chair on Hotchâs left. âHe worries about the team when heâs away from you.â She says this without looking at him. Her attention is on Hotchâs face, half-turned to look at her. âHe worries about you the most.â Her eyes rise to his and she shakes her head with a sigh. âHeâs always worried about something or someone.â
Heâs a protector. Theyâre not supposed to profile one another, itâs a rule between them all, but it doesnât take a profile to note that Hotch is a protector. Itâs what he does. âItâs what makes him so good at his job,â Reid looks up, forcing a smile on his lips. âHeâs a good boss.â
Haley chuckles, a soft sound and a puff of air from her nose. She sighs, thumb rubbing against the back of Hotchâs palm. She doesnât say anything. Exhausted, her shoulders are hanging low and for the first time, Reid sees just how tired she is.
2.
âHeyâŠâ Emily puts her novel down. Hotchâs vision is foggy but he catches the horrendous orange and blue blur as she forces the book shut. His mouth feels thick, heavy and his head like tiny dancers balanced on thumbtacks are tap-dancing across his brain. âI didnât expect you to be up.â Her eyebrows pinch, âdoctors said they have you on some powerful stuff.â
He rolls this information over in his head, her voice drowning in and out with his heartbeats. He can feel it, his heart, beating through with the pain in his side. âVonnegut.â Heâs a favorite of Emilyâs, he can faintly recall a conversation sheâs had with Morgan about him. âItâs-ItâsâŠâ heâs read a few of Kurt Vonnegutâs works.
Emily takes a moment to understand his slurred speech. She holds the book up with a smile, âyeah. Kurt Vonnegut.â She thumbs through the pages, confused. âHow-How did you know that?â
The title is revealed as she leafs through it. He places it then, a burden lifted from his chest. Breakfast of Champions. Kilgore Trout and his journey through the midwest as his fiction becomes another manâs facts. Thatâs not her favorite though and that copy, itâs new. Itâs the same copy that sits on his bookshelf. âVonnegut,â Hotch mumbles like she should have put this all together herself. âHeâs your favorite,â his voice cracks through the sentence, hoarse rasp cutting off what remains of the sentence.
Emily understands well enough. âHow-â she shakes her head at him. âI donât want to know how you have managed to remember that.â Sheâs not that surprised. They live by the rule of not profiling one another but itâs hard to turn it off.
â Sometimes, I get tired of being profiled through my office window.â
âNew,â he croaks, he points to the book now on her lap. He swallows thickly, brain forming the words but mouth unable to form the right ones. âYou had an older copy.â
Before. Emily taps the cover, heâs right. She carried one of his books everywhere, a comfort to curl up on the jet on the way home with some tea and a blanket. She knows the most of the books by heart, her old copy was dog eared and the cover faded. A small part of her felt comforted, now, just sitting here reading.
Like old times on the jet.
âI lost it,â she answers truthfully. No real point in lying when he might be able to see it. If thereâs one thing she knows about Hotch, itâs that you can never underestimate him. âI-I didnât think to ask JJ to grab them from my apartment.â She shakes her head, âeverything was so⊠It was all so crazy, it would almost be silly to worry about a couple of books in the face of everything going on.â
It takes a moment for him to place what she means but blood loss hasnât made him stupid. He knows exactly what she means. She must see the clarity in his eyes, the moment he realizes what she means. She starts talking, nervous. Her hands come together and heâs listening to her nervous words but heâs focused on the way her thumb digs into her nails.
âI-I donât blame you and JJ, you know?â She draws blood but she whips it away. She doesnât raise her eyes to his. âThatâs not important, though, the books or Doyle. You did what you had to do to protect me, I know that.â She moves to the next hand, digging. âItâs funny- well, I mean itâs not funny but you know humor overrides trauma- but the last time you and I were in the hospital-â
She looks up, eyes moving straight past him to the heart monitor. She glances back at him, eyebrows frowning. âShit,â she stands up but before she can say anything thereâs a nurse grabbing her shoulder. Sheâs pushed out, the heart monitor still sounding in the background. Sheâs forced to watch from the doorway as a doctor swarms in with the rest of the nurses.
Sheâd been talking with Rossi earlier in the week, so he knew that sheâd been sent back to the states. With her own case solved, she came to Virginia to meet them. To see them. She just hadnât been expecting Rossi to text her the address of a hospital.
âAgent.â
She turns to the doctor, tearing her eyes away from Hotch. Heâs glaring at a nurse, watching her dispense a clear cocktail of drugs into his port. âY-Yeah?â She crosses her arms over her chest.
âHe canât be put under any strain,â the doctorâs voice is tight, making it very clear to Emily how important it is she listens. âDo you understand, Agent?â They stand, locked until Emily nods her head. Itâs like Foyett, that fear and his vulnerability. That same warning, all over again. âOkay.â The doctor leaves her, small frown but no more words.
âSorry.â His voice rasp behind an oxygen mask now. The straps pushing his peppered hair up in odd directions. His eyes are slits, his battle with sleep a losing one.
Emily settles back into the chair, pulling her book into her lap. âYou know, Hotch, next time you want me to shut up you can just ask.â She can see him smile under the mask, a rare sight. âNo need to-to stop breathing or have a heart attack on me.â She thumbs the pages, the words feeling wrong. She didnât come to taunt him. She misses being on the team. Hell, she even misses him profiling her profile him. Mind games. Heâs the best.
âRead.â
Sheâs so lost in her mind that she hadnât realized sheâd opened the book. She looks up, confused, âread? I thought you want me to stop talking?â
He turns, paler than even his normal vampire tan, and shakes his head. âNo,â he motions his head at the book, again. âJust read.â
Itâs all the âIâve missed youâ sheâll ever get so she cracks the book open. It doesnât matter where she left off because it doesnât matter to him. âSo, in the interests of survival, they trained themselves to be agreeing machines instead of thinking machines. All their minds had to do was to discover what other people were thinking, and then they thought that, too.â She looks up and his eyes have fallen shut, his breathing even and steady. She turns the page. Heâs asleep but she continues anyway.
3.
âWoah-Woah!â Morganâs ears are ringing, his head empty. He gags, falling over himself as he loses half the sandwich he had at lunch. He canât move, frozen as his stomach cramps painfully. A hand, warm and solid lands on his back. After a moment, his eyes lock onto black dress pants and a blue dress shirt. âHotch?â
The other man doesnât react to the sound of his name. Instead, he pulls Morgan up. Hotchâs arm is looped under Morganâs and they both groan as they stand back to their feet. Morgan, now eye level with Hotch, frowns, âHotch, youâre bleeding.â He points to the wound but itâs like Hotch canât hear him.
âWe have to get out of here!â Heâs speaking too loud, body trembling. Morgan moves as much as he can in Hotchâs grip and sees the side of his head. Two small streaks down to his collar, both starting in Hotchâs ear. Morgan doesnât mention it but he suspects Hotch knows heâs caught it. âCome on.â Morgan frowns, Hotchâs eardrums really canât handle being burst again.
They stumble.
Hotch keeps Morgan up, his face unnaturally pale⊠even for him. âWe canât stop,â Hotch grunts, his own feet shuffling. He tries to take another step but he canât. He falls to his left knee, releasing Morgan. âGo,â Hotch grunts, body curling in on his right side. âGo, Derek!â
Morgan isnât a child and no matter how low Hotch drops his voice it doesnât scare him. He drops to his own knees, exhaustion seeping into his bones. He moves, throwing his right hand out and leaning against the wall as he settles his back on it. âCome on, Hotch.â He waves the older man closer, patting the hard cement beside him.
Hotch doesnât move, now settled on his side. His eyes dropping, slowing losing consciousness.
Morgan moves and bites down a whimper as it lights up his side. He pushes himself a little more. He grabs Hotchâs shoulder hooking his arms under Hotchâs and pulls them both against the wall. Sighing as he positions Hotch beside him, the other manâs head on his left thigh.
âA fucking bomb,â Morgan mumbles. Thatâs how itâll end. Some punk kid and a bomb with their names literally written on it. âThis isnât how I thought it would end.â
Hotch blinks, eyes slowly finding his. Morgan shakes his head, so the bastard isnât as deaf as he thought. âNot surprised,â Hotch grunts, his left hand pulling away from his side sticky with blood. âKind of figures,â he lets his hand fall back over the wound, fresh blood pouring over his knuckles. âGet stabbed nine times and some pipe bomb does me in.â
Morgan laughs, his head rolling back to the wall behind him. The mood turns bitter and Morgan canât help but feel cheated. âDid the otherâs get out?â
Hotch grunts, itâs as much of a yes as he can manage at the moment. âDragged Reid and JJ out myself.â Heâs trembling, shivering despite the sweat pouring down his brow. âEmily was going to come back in for you but I-I told her Iâd get you.â He smiles, âtwo kids grabbed her when I turned to come back in. Morons. Garcia looked like she was going to pummel them both.â
They share a laugh at that. The poor kids are probably sporting bruised ribs by now. Almost everything she knows about self-defense Morgan taught her. Heâs a dirty fighter and Hotch knows Morgan teaches dirty fighting. Garcia, though neither had ever personally been hit by the tech analyst, theyâd seen a person or two get swatted with her purse. Sheâs got an arm on her.
âRossi?â
Hotchâs smile falls off his face. Morgan looks away, afraid of the emotions he sees creeping over his bossâ face. His voice isnât as steady. Itâs heavy with fear,â I donât know.â Silence fills the clouded air between them. Both considering the fate of their friend. âDerek?â
Morgan looks down, Hotchâs head bent away from him. Heâs blinking slowly, face ashy. âYeah, man?â A pang of fear rolls through his stomach, coiling tight in his chest. His heart hurts. Theyâre running out of time, Hotch is running out of time.
âI never thanked youâŠâ his voice trails off, eyes fluttering as he fails to keep them open.
Morgan swats at his face, keeping it up until Hotch blinks his eyes back open. âNever thanked me for what?â
Hotch swallows thickly around the dryness in his mouth. âAfter Foyett,â he rasps, âthe hole in my wall. I know you fixed it.â He turns his head, blinking owlishly up at Morgan with half-open bloodshot eyes.
Morgan nods. It was the hardest repair job heâs ever done and he wonders what it was like for Hotch to clean Elleâs blood off her wall. Morgan reaches down between them, grabbing Hotchâs hand with a tight squeeze. âThatâs what families for.â He doesnât let go, just lets his hand fall on Hotchâs chest as the other man fights consciousness. âTheyâll find us. They always do.â
Hotch hums and Morgan doesnât know if itâs in agreeance or in pain. It doesnât matter. Morgan knows theyâll come. They have to.
4.
âYou really shouldnât fall asleep, sir.â
She watches him blink his eyes back open, a dark iris settling on her. She knows heâs not mad at her but his face is still twisted in aggravation. âGarcia,â he says, in a voice much lower than even his normal baritone. âNow is no time for formalities.â
His eyes slide back shut. She glances back at him and kicks his knee, grimacing when he startles. âI asked you not to fall asleep,â she reminds him when he looks less than pleased. He doesnât shut his eyes though, he stays awake. âHow are you, Hotch?â Sheâs genuinely interested. He doesnât get to talk to her that much anymore, she feels like she hardly knows him these days.
He leans his head back against the wall, eyes open but unfocused. Heâs not sure how he is. His heart hurts. âIâm fine, Penelope.â His dark eyes find hers, half-hidden as his eyes blink drowsily. He catches the hint when she frowns tightly and sheâs surprised by the little smile on his lips. âI really am fine. Beside this headache, of course.â
She tries not to dwell on how bad the headache must be if heâs admitting to it. Instead, she soaks in the warmth of his little grin. âWell,â sheâs much gentler when she knocks her foot against his knee this time. âTell me how âfineâ is treating you. I feel like you never talk to me anymore.â
Sheâs keeping him talking. She can see the gash across his temple and sheâd been forced to watch as their UNSUB brought his gun across Hotchâs head. Leaving only her to witness the way her bossâ legs crumbled beneath him, limply his body hitting the ground beneath him. Heâd been so limp as the UNSUB picked him up under his arms, dragging him to a side room.
His grin falters just a little at her wording and he supposes that maybe he hasnât been talking to her as much as he thought he was. Then again, how does short phone calls about serial killers count as talking? âJackâs growing up so fast,â he tells her, his grin a soft mix of sadness and pride. âHeâs almost as tall as me, isnât that crazy?â
She smiles, âit feels like yesterday you were pushing through the bullpen in his little stroller.â
Hotch shakes his head, âstarts high school this year and⊠Iâm terrified.â He leans his head to the side, against the wall. âHeâs so grown up. I feel like he doesnât need me anymore and then-â heâs full-blown smiling and Garcia finds is contagious. âThen he comes into my room or he strikes up a pointless conversation and I know all he wants is for me to be there. To ask about his classes and listen to him gush about the girl in his English class. He still wants me around afterâŠâ
Garcia can sense the switch and she reaches over, taking his hand. âHotchâŠâ
He shakes his head, wincing at the movement. He puts a hand up, touching at the edges of the wound. âI killed his mother, Garcia.â His voice is devoid of all the joy it just held and she blames it on the concussion. She wants this to be the concussion and not how he actually thinks. âI would understand ifâŠâ he winces again, this time fingers probing a little too hard and he draws blood.
He swallows thickly, face paling considerably. âPenelope, youâll have to excuse-â heâs half up-right, leaning with his side on the wall as he vomits. He brings almost nothing up, just gagging miserably.
Garcia turns her head, rolling her eyes. JJ always taunts Hotch, behind his back of course, for his âsouthern mannersâ. Sheâd seen it for herself a few times but this certainly takes the cake. However, sheâll never betray his confidence to tell the others about Hotch trying to excuse himself with a bad concussion to puke in privacy while being held captive by a killer.
âYou okay, boss man?â She only looks back at him when the gagging stops and she can hear him position himself back against the wall. Heâs still pale, shaking from the strain of holding himself above his vomit.
His eyes are closed but she can see heâs not sleeping. Just trying to calm back down. âProbably should have eaten lunch,â he replies softly, right arm protectively draped over his stomach. She would be mad if she expected anything different from him. Itâs just like Hotch to bring the others sandwiches or coffee and to send them home to sleep but to starve and deprive himself of sleep at the same time.
She hums in agreeance. âYou should start eating more period.â That catches his attention. He peels an eye open, frowning at her. âOh, donât give me that look. I see it all. I know everything.â She points to his chest, âIâve noticed your shirts donât fit you like they used to and when they did fit you, you didnât have weight to afford losing more.â She raises an eyebrow, daring him to challenge her. âYouâre going to put the weight back on, sir. Even if I have to start hand-delivering you breakfast and lunch.â
He opens his mouth but she raises her hand. âNothing you say can change my mind. In fact, I think I will.â She bites her lip, âletâs see⊠JJ and Reid. Yeah, theyâre your soft spots. The chinks in your unchinkable armor. You wonât be able to tell them youâre starving yourself.â
He sighs, head still tilted back but resigned to his fate. âPenelope?â His voice is soft, devoid of fight and, dare she say, tinged with fatigue. âThank you.â
She smiles at him and stands, moving over until sheâs sitting beside him. She pulls his hand into her lap, squeezing it. âAnything for you, my liege.â Because someone has to protect the man who protects everyone else. Heâs hurting and someone needs to be there.
And when his head falls on her shoulder she doesnât say anything.
5.
âFor once in your life-â Rossi is so close to just decking his former protĂ©gĂ© in the face and letting Derek haul his body up on the couch. âGoddamn it, Aaron!â Then, at least, Hotch canât sneak away and refuse to sleep or take care of himself.
Hotch flinches, fever-ridden bloodshot eyes looking at Rossi in confusion. Carefully masked fear trembles down his hands and Rossi doesnât dare try to act like he doesnât see it. Right, heâs not being helpful if heâs being an ass. He takes a deep breath, forcing himself to calm back down.
Rossi knows Hotch doesn't respond to over-controlling authority. He was abused by his father, Rossi knows that. Hell, Hotch has never once admitted to it, but they all know it.
Rossi runs a hand down his goatee, tired of fighting the stubborn unit chief. âHere,â he hands Hotch a palmful of pills. Thereâs a vitamin C from Emily, a Tylenol from JJ, and some colored flu medicine from Derek. It wasnât hard to convince them to fork over their supplies. Hotch had emerged once from his office all day and the man looked like a walking corpse.
With JJ fielding Hotchâs calls, Rossi forging his signature on a few things, and Garcia clearing his meeting with Strauss in an hour they can afford to let him take a well-deserved rest.
âI have paperwork,â he rasps but knocks the handful of medication back into his mouth. Heâs smart, he can argue his way out of the nap heâs cornered into but itâs pointless to push Rossi on taking medicine.
Rossi rolls his eyes, âlay down, Aaron.â
He hesitates. Rossi watches Hotchâs inner debate with himself. He frowns, looking away to the couch before nodding. Giving in. Rossi sighs in relief, he thought that was going to be much harder but maybe Hotch going down without a fight is more a bad thing than good.
âIs something-â for once in his life, Rossi isnât sure what to say. He swallows thickly and shakes the thought away. âHere,â Rossi takes a step back, moving to grab the blanket sent up by Garcia. It looks well-loved and itâs soft in his hands, heavily scented with fabric softener. He lays it over his protĂ©gĂ© with a small sigh. What he wouldnât give to go back in time. He should have never left the BAU.
He shouldnât have left Aaron.
âGet some sleep, kid.â He cuts the lights off to the office, standing in the doorway a moment too long.
âDave?â Rossi hums, eyes still on Hotch. The other manâs on his side, blanket pulled to his chin. His voice is nasally, finally giving in to his symptoms instead of trying to pull off his stoic baritone grumble. âWhatever youâre thinking,â he pauses, gathering the right words. âThereâs no need to punish yourself.â
Rossi rolls his eyes and opens the door, stepping out. âThatâs very thoughtful, Aaron, but weâre not supposed to profile one another.â He pats the doorway, fondly rolling his eyes. âGet some sleep mio figlio.â
Hotch chuckles, âI know what that means, Dave.â
Rather than let himself dwell in being caught, he laughs himself. âYeah,â he shrugs. âI would certainly hope, Aaron. I told Jason you were a smart boy, quick. I would hope age hadnât stolen that from you.â He lingers again.
âDave, Iâm fine. Really.â His voice softens, âgo.â
Rossi puts a hand up in submission, âalright. Alright.â
As soon as Rossi shuts the door he knows all their eyes are on him. Garciaâs the first to gather the courage to ask, âhow is he?â
Rossiâs smile is soft but happy. He shakes his head, rolling his eyes for the pure drama that is dealing with Aaron Hotchner. âHeâs getting some much needed rest. He should be fine.â He chuckles to himself, âheâs just a bit stupid. Too hard headed for his own good.â Rossi steps towards his own office, glancing through the window. Aaronâs already asleep. One hand dangles off the couch, a foot on the floor as the other stretches over the edge of the couch.
Heâll be fine.
6.
âHold still.â Stupid. For such a smart woman, well rounded, and agile she could be so stupid. She knew what she wanted to do. Liaison. She loves talking with people, offering comfort, and engaging the public. Sure, she didnât give that job up but sheâd give anything to go back to the station. âHotch, please!â
Heâs bleeding all over the two of them. His exhales wet as blood trails out of the side of his mouth. A muffled cough that he attempts to spare her as he rolls onto his side but heâs out of his mind in pain and canât muffle both the cough and strangled cry on his lips that the movement causes.
If JJ had stayed a liaison, she wouldnât be looking her friend in the eyes as his blood pools wider around them. âAaron,â her voice is the only soft thing to happen to the room. From the moment Hotchâs knuckles rapped on the door to her screaming, mixing in the living with the sound of guns firing. âAaron, please donât do this to me.â
He blinks up at her, cheeks ashy and lips paling. He gasps, voice trembling, âitâs okay- Iâm fine.â His left hand moves atop hers, larger than both of the ones sheâs pressing into his side. âIf you justâŠâ he blinks sluggishly, too much blood around them and not in him. âJust keep applying pressure even if I- even if I pass out.â
JJ shakes her head, âyouâre not passing out!â She pats his cheek, blood smearing on his ashy face. There are two days worth of hair on his cheeks and the bags under his eyes so much more prominent. âTalk to me, please?â Dark eyes blink back slowly, his adam's apple bobbing as his mouth opens but no words leave his mouth. âTell me something. Keep talking because I canât lose you.â Her voice thickens with unshed tears, âyouâre my friend, Aaron.â
His eyes sink back shut but he opens with the first tap of her hand against his cheek. He draws his knee up, body wanting to writhe away from the pressure on his abdomen. He canât keep his knee drawn up and it limpley slides back down. âDo you-â his voice is thick, sluggish as it leaves his mouth. âHow do you not hate me?â He swallows, mouth impossibly dry, âyou didnât need to know about Emily.â
Heâs right. Alone he could have faked Emilyâs death. He could have bore that cross and she would have been spared the guilt of being amongst the knowing. She wouldnât have had to work to be friends with Spencer again.
She shakes her head, âyou do make me mad, you know that right?â She wipes a hot tear away from her eye, âbut Iâm glad you told me. It would have destroyed you, it almost destroyed the two of us with each other to lean on.â She looks up, certain she can hear faint sirens coming. She smiles down at him, âweâre like⊠Sonny and Cher. Batman and Robin. Weâre a team and I would hope there is never a time when you spare me, Aaron.â
He smiles but whatever he opens his mouth to say is lost in his weak coughing.
She looks up, this time certain she hears sirens and doors being shut.
âHold on, Hotch. Helps here.â
He grins, pale and sweaty. He squeezes her hand, âhey, JJ?â
She squeezes his hand back, âyeah?â
âAm I Batman or Robin?â
She sees an unbelievable amount of mirth in his half-open brown eyes. Heâs exhausted, tired of fighting and weak from bloodless but heâs smiling up at her. Holding on, for her. She smiles back, gently she leans over him and kisses his cheek. âIâll let you be Batman.â
The room is flooded in loud noise. Heavy boots stomping right up to them. In the commission she nearly doesnât hear his whispered remark. As a paramedic hangs a bag of saline above his head and another takes JJâs place he calls her name.
âIâd be Robin for you.â He blinks much slower, eyes hardly coming back open. â âthink youâd look better with a cowl. I could pull off a domino mask.â His eyes fall shut, a lopsided grin on his face. She brushes his bangs from his sweaty forehead, watching the medics do their job. Sheâll remind him of this later and sheâll bring up his guilt over Emily.
But for now she just holds his hand.
(I really enjoyed writing this so if you have any idea similar I would be very interested to hear them... also originally posted on A03)
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Prelude IV: Relight
Post-Surgery: DAY ONE
[Sean sits in the hospital bed, legs crossed, staring into space when he hears a familiar voice.]
Joey: Sean, Sean Diaz? Well damn. I never thought Iâd see your sorry ass again!
Sean: Geez Joey. Is that how you talk to all your patients?
Joey: Just the ones I like.
[Sean chuckles]
Joey: Câmere big man.
[Joey gives Sean a big bear hug]
Sean: Howâve you been Joey?
Joey: Canât complain. These days, they got me up in hospice care. Youâre probably the first person Iâve seen today that didnât need their bedpans changed.
Sean: Sounds terrible.
Joey: Itâs all not all bad. Lot of these folks have stories that you wouldnât believe. One of my patients has lived through five wars and two depressions, tells me Iâm a credit to my race.
Sean: Yeesh.
Joey: (shrugs) She means well. Itâs almost flattering compared to some of the stuff Iâve heard. Been on this job almost ten years now, some people still treat me like I have no idea what Iâm doing. Â
Sean: That sucks Joey.
Joey: Yeah... Anyway, you seem to be doing pretty well for yourself. From what I heard, this procedure cost a small fortune. You must have friends in high places.
Sean: Yeah, something like that.
Joey: And no guard at the door this time. I assume everything got cleared up with the police? Not planning to make a break for it again are ya?
Sean: Nah, no daring escapes this time.
Joey: Good. I donât think Iâd survive another blow to the head.
Sean: Listen Joey Iâm really sorry-
Joey: (laughs) Relax Sean! Iâm just messing with you! Itâs ancient history as far as Iâm concerned. Say, did you ever end up finding that brother of yours?
Sean: Yeah. Heâs actually coming to visit me tomorrow.
Joey: Canât wait to meet him!
Sean: Famous last words.
Joey: So⊠what you been up to these days?
Sean: Mostly just cramming for the SATs, drawing, listening to music. Normal teenage shit.
Joey: Thatâs good to hear. I was worried about you man. You went AWOL after the hospital. I got police and Feds breathing down my neck for weeks. Then a month later, I hear about a couple of kids trying the border to Mexico on the news.
Sean: Sorry I never reached out. I just didnât want to get you more involved than you already were-
Joey: You made the right call. They questioned me for hours. My apartment was filled with G-men, my girlfriend was freaked. I honestly thought she was going to dump my ass.
Sean: Iâm really sorry Joey.
Joey: Donât sweat it Sean, it was for a good cause. Besides, everything worked out in the end.
Sean:Â Yeah I noticed, how long have you been-
Joey: Almost a year now. Weâre expecting our first baby in the summer.
Sean: Congratulations dude!
Joey: Thanks, but honestly, Iâm kinda nervous, donât think Iâm ready to be a father.
Sean: Youâll be a great dad, Joey. Youâre awesome at taking care of people.
Joey: Youâre damn right. Speaking of which, we should probably take a look at that eye of yours.
[Joey takes off the bandage and gives Seanâs eye a thorough examination]
Joey: Well it looks a helluva lot better than the last time I saw it.
Sean: Thatâs good to hear. I wasnât sure it would work.
Joey: Well itâs too early to say if your vision will fully recover. But at the very least you wonât have to walk around with a patch anymore.
Sean: Good. Itâs hard enough finding a prom date let alone one thatâs willing to go with a pirate.
Joey: Still with the pirate jokes huh? Hopefully, youâll have to write some new material after this.
[Joey applies a new bandage on Seanâs eye]
Joey: And youâre all set. Now as much as I love our talks, I gotta make my rounds. Buzz me if you need me.
Sean: Later Joey.
Joey: See ya tomorrow Sean.
 [Joey leaves the room. Sean turns to look out the window. The door shoots open, and a small figure comes bursting in.]
Daniel: Sean!Â
[He jumps onto the bed and into Seanâs arms]
Stephen: (out-of-breath) Sorry, I tried to stop him, but he outran me.
Sean: You okay Stephen?
Stephen: I am⊠just need a minute to catch my breath. The old ticker ainât what it used to be- I need to sit down.
Daniel: Take it easy grandpa.
Sean: What are you doing here, enano? I wasnât expecting you guys until tomorrow.
Daniel: I made grandpa book an earlier flight. I just couldnât wait!Â
[he hugs Sean again]
Sean: Haha easy. I just had surgery, remember?
Daniel: Oh right, s-sorry.
[Thereâs a brief flash, followed by a shutter click]
Sean: Whatâre you doing, gramps?
Stephen: Oh nothing, just commemorating the moment. Thanks to your brother, I finally got the hang of this newfangled smartphone camera.
Daniel (whispering): He had it stuck on selfie mode for days. Anyway, did it go? Is your eyeâŠ
Sean: I mean⊠itâs not 100% yet but I can sort of see again.
Daniel: T-thatâs awesome! Can I see it?
Sean: Dude last time I showed you my eye, you almost cried. Besides, the doctors say I still need to keep the bandage on for a bit, while it heals.
Daniel: Right. That makes sense. Oooh this room looks cool. Do they have Netflix or a Playbox?
Sean: Itâs a hospital, dude.
Daniel: Lame.
Sean:Â So catch me up. Did I miss anything interesting at home?
Daniel: Nah⊠Chris is still on that fishing trip with his dad so thereâs no one to hang out with. Oh I almost forgot. He made you this card. Isnât it awesome?
[Daniel gives Sean a hand-drawn âget-well-soonâ card from Chris]
Sean: Yeah. Itâs pretty cool. We can have Claire put it up when we get back.
Daniel: Grandmaâs still in that feud with the lady from church.
Sean: Which one was that again?
Daniel: Agnes, the one who gives off major Lisbeth-vibes. She says grandma stole her casserole recipe for the church bake-sale. Lying bitch.
Stephen: Language!
Sean: Maybe one of us should try to smooth things over before it gets nasty.
Stephen: Hell hath no fury⊠lemme tell ya. Iâve been married to your grandmother long enough to know once that woman sets her mind on something⊠thereâs no stopping her. Best to just let things run their course.
Sean: Claire can get a little⊠passionate sometimes. But I donât think Iâve ever seen her lose her temper for real.
Stephen: Thereâs a fire in that woman. Itâs part of the reason I married her. Just pray she never turns it on you. I hope Iâll never live to see that day, god willing.
[Sean notices Daniel circling the hospital bed, pressing his hand on various parts of the mattress]
Sean: (laughs) What are you doing, enano?
Daniel: Just trying to figure which side of the bed I want to sleep on tonight.
Sean: Dude. Thereâs no way this bedâs gonna fit both of us.
Daniel: The one in Momâs trailer was way smaller!
Sean: Yeah well⊠you were a lot smaller back then.
Stephen: They have a nice area for visitors down the hall.
Daniel: But I want to stay with Sean!
Sean: I guess I could ask Joey to bring in a couch or something.
Daniel: Whoâs Joey?
Sean: The nurse who took care of me after the accident. I told you about him, remember?
Daniel: Oh right! I canât wait to meet him!
 DAY TWO
Joey: How are we doing today? Any headaches, dizziness, socket pain?
Sean: Nah itâs all good. Still getting used to having depth perception again. Itâs kinda weird.
Joey: Youâll get used to it. Anything else to report?
Sean: Nothing major. Iâve just been having some really weird dreams.
Joey: We have a psychiatrist on-site if you need a professional to talk to.
Sean: Nah itâs alright, probably just the drugs messing with my brain.
Joey: Well your vitals look good. Weâll go over some basic tests. You know the drill.
(Sean covers his right eye and tries to read the chart. Joey then shines a light and asks him to follow along. Finally, he asks Sean to put the cap back on the pen.)
Joey: You passed with flying colors. The doctor will be in for a final exam tomorrow and then we can discharge you.
Sean: (sarcastically) Too bad, I was ready to become the first Mexican pirate to attend college. So much for being a trailblazer.
Joey: Good to see you havenât lost that snarky-ass sense of humor.
Joey: Anyway, Iâm taking my lunch now. Want me to get you anything from the cafeteria? Wait⊠donât tell me. Chocolate pecan?
Sean: You know it.
Joey: I met your brother in the hall. Cute kid.
Sean: (deadpans) Give it a few days. Then see if you get a âsecond opinion.â
Joey: He does seem a little⊠âenergeticâ. But thatâs normal for kids his age.
Sean: Yeah one minute Iâm his favorite person in the world. The next, heâs off doing God knows what, and doesnât want me âbossing him aroundâ. You know how it is.
Joey: Canât say I do. Grew up in a house with three older sisters. Guess I must have been the annoying one. Danielâs lucky to have you looking out for him. Must be tough sometimes.
Sean: Oh you have no idea.
[Joey claps Seanâs shoulder, he feels a jolt shooting up his spine, everything goes white]Â
(Sean sees a door marked: âMiranda A. Connolly, Hospital Directorâ)
Connolly: Youâve been a valuable asset to this hospital. Stellar feedback from all of your patients and attendings.
Joey: I sense a âbutâ coming.
Connolly: But, given the dubious circumstances surrounding your transfer and your past involvement with the law. The Board thinks it might be better for one of the other nurses to take this spot.
Joey: Please. Iâve got a kid on the way. We just bought our first house. Can you at least consider bumping up my pay? I havenât gotten a real raise since I started here. There are kids coming out of nursing school that make what I make!
Connolly: The hospital has limited resources as it is, and the State just slashed our funding again. I just canât justify raising anyoneâs salary right now.
Joey: I break my back for this hospital, work extra shifts, get to know the patients. You promised me at the annual review that Iâd-
Connolly: That was before this new information came to light. Iâm sorry Joseph, maybe next year.
[Sean snaps out of his trance]
Joey: Sean? Sean are you okay?
Sean: Sorry, Guess I spaced out. Must just be the medication.
Joey: I can have the doctor come by and adjust your dosage.
Sean: Iâm fine Joey. I swear. Werenât you about to take lunch?
Joey: Oh right. Weâll pick this up later.
[Joey leaves the room, looking slightly puzzled.]
Sean: (thinking) W-what what was that? A dream? But It felt so⊠real.
[Sean takes out his phone and enters the name of the hospital, He finds their website. Under the âAboutâ section he scrolls to the Executive team bio. There is a photo of the woman he saw in the vision followed by a small blurb]
âMiranda A. Connolly is the President and Chief Director of Mt. Cedar General Hospital. She was appointed back in 2016 as Associate Director and has since made ground-breaking changes to the field of medicine and medical care. Under her leadership, this hospital was able to expand greatly, hiring new diverse staff members and vastly improving quality of care for all its patients.â
Sean: (thinking) Holy shit⊠itâs real. Does that mean IâŠ?
Daniel: Hey Sean! What you looking at?
Sean: Dude! Donât sneak up on me like that!
Daniel: I wasnât sneaking. I was practicing my stealth!
Sean: Yeah sure.
Daniel: Are you looking at the new Playbox Pro? My birthday is right around the corner you know.
Sean:Â Birthday? Itâs still January!
Daniel: Never too early to start preparing.
Sean: (rolling eyes) Yeah cuz everythingâs always about you.
Daniel: Oooh I bet you were watching those dirty videos again. Iâm tellinâ grandpa!
Sean: Hey hands off my phone you little-
[Daniel tries to grab Seanâs phone. Sean wrests his hand away. There is another a jolt]
[Daniel stands in front of the vending machine, staring at the jumbo chock-o-crisp. He looks around to check that the coast is clear. Then he waves his hand causing the chock-o-crisp to fall off the rack and into the dispenser slot.He gleefully retrieves it and devours the candy bar in a matter of seconds]
Sean: Dude, I told you not to eat any more chock-o-crisps! Do you want another trip to the dentist?
Daniel: What are you talking about? I havenât had one in weeks!
Sean: Yeah sure. So you didnât pig out at the vending machine before coming in here?
Daniel: How did you-
Sean: Maybe I have magic powers or maybe⊠youâve still got crumbs on your collar.
Daniel: Aw, damn it. Promise you wonât tell grandpa.
Sean: Oh so you can tell on me but I canât tell on you?
Daniel: (smugly) Exactly.
Sean: Câmere ya little shit!
Daniel: Sean stop! Ha that tickles. Quit it!
(After their little bout, Daniel curls up next to Sean, resting his head on Seanâs lap. Sean ruffles Danielâs hair absentmindedly)
Sean: You ever wish you were⊠you know ânormalâ again?
Daniel: You mean not have my powers? Nah. Theyâre a part of me now. Besides, being normal is overrated.
Sean:Â (chuckles) I guess it is. But do you ever get that feeling like you thought you wanted something for a really long time but when you finally get it, it nothing like you thought itâd be?
Daniel: Uhhh⊠you mean like how I begged grandma to get me a PlayBox Live Subscription, but then the exclusives turned out to be shit? And now I have to act like I love it?
Sean: Yeah something like that.
Daniel: (yawns) Meh Iâll just ask for a gaming PC for my birthday.
Sean: Dude youâre like the greediest ten year-old I know.
Daniel: How many ten year-olds do you know?
Sean: Uh⊠just you and Chris.
Daniel: So, you want me to be more like Chris?
Sean: Wouldnât hurt.
Daniel: (imitating Chris) âOnly the purest of hearts may wield the power of Captain Spirit!â
Sean: Guess that rules you out.
Daniel: (playfully) Shut up.
DAY THREE
Doctor: Okay Mr.Diaz. I want you to follow the light. Look to your right, up and to the right. Good, good, excellent pupil response. Â Now look at the chart, cover your right eye and read this line.
Sean: Uh⊠A, O, E, P⊠T? Sorry I canât really make out the last one.
Doctor: Thatâs okay, it takes time.
Doctor: Now this is probably the last thing you want to hear, but I recommend that you wear a patch over your right eye. Itâll be temporary of course, just until you learn to see with your left eye again.
Sean: (laughs dryly) And here I thought my seafaring days were behind me.
Doctor: You know⊠pirate actually wore patches so their eyes could easily adjust to the darkness and see below deck- Sorry my sonâs going through a pirate phase.
Sean: I know the feeling. My little brotherâs been through every phase imaginable.
Doctor: Kids, you gotta treasure every moment. Because before you know it, theyâll be all grown up, ready to go off on their own. Look at me, rambling on. Anyway, I signed your discharged papers. Theyâll schedule you for some outpatient care in the coming months.Youâre almost ready to go.Â
Sean: Sounds good.
Doctor: And youâre sure you donât want to get do something about that nasty scar? A good-looking kid like you, it would be a shame to-
Sean: Thatâs okay, I think Iâll keep it⊠as a reminder.
Doctor: Alright but if you ever change your mind, I could refer you to a great plastic surgeon.
Sean: Thanks Doc, for everything.
Doctor: The pleasureâs all mine, Mr.Diaz. The groundwork we laid here could help hundreds of other patients in the future. We are making history. Your nurse should be along in a moment to help you get discharged.
[Sean sits in quiet contemplation. Reflecting on his dreams and new âvisionâ]
Sean (thinking): Be careful what you wish for...Â
Joey: Looks like everythingâs good to go. Remember to use your eye-drops-
Sean: Twice a day. Yeah Joey, I know.
Joey: Guess itâs goodbye again. Donât be a stranger this time okay?
Sean: I wonât.
Joey: Hereâs my number. Call me if ever need professional advice or just want to shoot the shit.
Sean: Thanks Joey. Let me know how everything goes with the baby.
Joey: Oh donât you worry about that. Soon Iâll be blowing up your phone with pictures.
Sean: Haha canât wait.
Joey: Now hospital policy says I gotta wheel your ass outta here. For liability reasons.
Sean: At least itâll be a smoother exit than last time.
Joey: (laughs) Get in the chair smart-ass.
Beaver Creek, One Week Later
Sean: Okay, you ready?
Daniel: (takes deep breath) Alright. Show it to me.
Sean: So⊠how does it look?
Daniel: Looks⊠normal.
Sean: You almost sound disappointed. Were you expecting a bionic eye or something?
Daniel: No. I just⊠it looks good. I like the scar; makes you look extra tough.
Sean: You think so?
Daniel: Yeah⊠totally badass!
Sean: Thanks, enano.
Daniel: You need a new codename, like Scarred Wolf or Deadshot Diaz!
Sean: Letâs leave the nicknames up to Chris.
Daniel: Hey! I make up awesome names too!
Sean: Whatever you say,âSuperwolfâ
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Chapter 10 (The Innocent)
It's officially the day of Olivia's quince and Monse, Ruby, and Elizabeth were handing out programs to people in the church.
"Bless you," Ruby said to a person entering, "can you believe we were here only a few hours ago?"
"When there was hope," Monse said.
"Oh, my God!" Ruby said, but saw the pastor next to him, "I mean goodness. Seriously?"
"What?" Elizabeth asked as she handed a couple a program.
"There is a typo in the program. 'Their' is spelled with an e-r-e instead of e-i-r. Only e-i-r shows possession,"
"Really?" Monse glared at Ruby, "you think this is a time to grammar troll?"
"Jamal was supposed to double check before they were printed," Ruby stressed.
"Add it to the list. He's a loser," Monse rolled her eyes.
"Hey! I know you're mad, but try to temper the 'tude today," Ruby advised Monse, "be cool when Jamal gets here,"
"He's not coming. We're better for it," Monse spat.
"What about Olivia?" Ruby asked, "Cesar probably won't show either,"
"We don't know that," Monse insisted.
"He just killed someone," Ruby hissed at their friend.
"We don't know that for sure," Monse still insisted.
"Monse..." Elizabeth trailed off, "we know,"
Olivia and Jasmine emerged from the back with Jasmine looking very sickly and pale while Olivia looked like she just wanted to get away from Jasmine. However, Jasmine started coughing and got closer to Ruby and started almost leaning on him.
"Lover, can I borrow your pocket square?" Jasmine held out her hand.
"Use your hand!" Ruby freaked out, moving to stand next to Monse.
"I think you need to go back inside, Jas," Elizabeth said.
"But away from me," Olivia quickly said.
"Then where should I go?" Jasmine asked.
"Daycare center," Ruby said, but everyone just looked at him, "what? Babies are always sick,"
Olivia sighed, "have you seen Cesar?"
"Not yet. But you know Cesar, dude takes forever to primp. I bet he's on his way," Monse smiled at the newly 15 year old girl.
"Olivia, let's go back inside and get ready," Elizabeth walked away with Olivia in attempt to distract her, "you look beautiful,"
"Thank you," Olivia smiled, "you too,"
"Gracias. Now I gotta go ask someone something. Be back soon," Elizabeth walked back out to see Cesar with his head shaved, "hey, baldy. Nice of you to finally show up,"
After a long ceremony, it was finally time for people to talk to the princess and get pictures in. Ruby, Monse, Cesar, and Elizabeth went up to Olivia as Cesar kissed her cheek.
"Hey, you looked incredible out there," Cesar smiled at his girlfriend.
"That's good because my knees are wrecked. Kneeling for an hour is not a blessing," Olivia joked.
"But you are blessed," Elizabeth walked back to Ruby and Monse to give the couple their space. Olivia walked away after a while to talk to a few more guests while Cesar went back to their friends.
"It was a nice ceremony," Ruby said, trying to fill in the awkward silence.
"Yeah," Cesar nodded.
"You didn't kill him," Monse stared at her crush.
"Monse!" Elizabeth looked at her friend incredulously.
"He's not dead, but...he's gone," Cesar nodded.
"What does that mean?" Monse asked.
"He ran, Mon," Elizabeth filled in the blank.
"C'mon, Ruby. Help your dad pack the car. Come on!" Geny walked by with the twins.
Ruby's dad just looked at Ruby, "I do need help," Geny left the church, "with your mother. Not the car,"
"Give me a minute," Ruby said as his dad left.
"If Latrelle's dead, doesn't that make you vulnerable?" Monse asked.
"It's handled and we never talk about it again," Cesar said, "now this is Olivia's day, and if I were you, I'd be more worried about those dance steps,"
"Ruby!" Geny poked her head inside, "por favor!"
"I'll see you guys back at the house," Ruby rushed outside.
Everyone was now at Ruby's house getting the party started in the backyard as Ruby got the damas and chambelanes ready. Abuelita came inside with a few of her friends with food and went to Ruby.
"Mijo, where are we gonna set up the buffet?"
"On the tables in the back," Ruby smiled.
"But they're not there," Abuelita informed.
"What? Well who moved them?" Ruby became irritated.
"A guy told me he needed them," Cesar stood up.
"It was the fireworks guy," Monse interjected.
Olivia gasped, "we're having fireworks?"
"Thank you. Thank you everyone for spoiling the surprise," Ruby sarcastically smiled, "yes. Fireworks at 9:30,"
"Someone get his panties out of a bunch," Abuelita looked at the group.
"Nothing is spoiled," Olivia walked to Ruby.
"Oh, no, we're just down two dames and a chambelan. Thank you, Eli," Ruby rolled his eyes, "and one of your surprises is ruined,"
"One of my surprises?"
Elizabeth couldn't take the stress Ruby was creating for himself so she went out to the porch in her yellow dress, sitting on the steps. She had her legs together and looked up at the night sky, hearing a little of her friends' conversation, "D to C numbers? Is that dick to coochie..." Monse started.
"Get your head out of the gutter!" Ruby exclaimed, "dames to chambelanes,"
"Princesa," a familiar voice called.
Elizabeth stood up and saw Oscar at the gate, "you came,"
"Of course, Eli," Oscar smiled.
"And you dressed up?" Elizabeth smiled at the dickies pants and button up he had on, "you look as handsome as ever,"
The two went to the backyard as the dance started and watched, clapping at the end. Elizabeth left Oscar's side to congratulate the group at not failing the dance to see Olivia's hair falling so she nudged Monse to help her. The two girls walked away and during the time they were away, Ruby was looking at a phone. Suddenly, he walked to the girls and pulled Olivia away to go inside so Elizabeth left Monse and Cesar alone to go back to Oscar, standing in front of him.
"Everything is falling into place," Elizabeth smiled at the sight before her.
"I'm glad," Oscar kissed Elizabeth's cheek, "as long as you're happy,"
Soon the group pulled Elizabeth to dance with them, she tried to pull Oscar, but he denied and stood back to watch her. Her beauty still struck him as he stared, dazed at the sight of her laughing and smiling with her friends. Minutes went by when Elizabeth had seen a hooded figure walk through the crowd and she got a bad feeling so she played it off by moving to the side closer to the figure. She had seen the glare of the gun the same time that Ruby had seen it so Ruby yelled Cesar's name to warn him, but Elizabeth pushed Olivia and Ruby down on the ground when the bullet pierced into her back.
Screams were heard as the bullet went through Elizabeth and grazed Ruby on the arm. Oscar's worst nightmares had come to life when he saw Elizabeth fall down with the blood spreading through her yellow dress.
"Princesa! Princesa!" Oscar yelled as he pushed people and sank to his knees to hold onto his girlfriend, "call 911! Ay, Dios mio. Baby, come on keep your eyes open. Let me see your beautiful eyes,"
"Eli!" Ruby yelled as blood ran down his arm and his mother was yelling.
Elizabeth couldn't do anything except try to catch her breath and stare at Oscar, but she had so much to say to him, "I-I love y-y-you,"
"Por qué? Why did you have to put yourself in front?! te quiero también," Oscar had tears going down his face as her eyes started closing, "No. Mi amor, open your eyes!"
Everyone started crying at the sight of the usually emotionless leader leaning over the body of his girlfriend as paramedics went to take her to the hospital. Once they took her, Oscar stood up with his clothes stained in his girlfriend's blood and started making his way towards Cesar.
"Oscar, I'm sor-," Cesar got cut off by the fist of his older brother.
"Latrelle was supposed to be dead!" Oscar yelled, "you were supposed to shoot! Now look! Elizabeth is going to the hospital for a gunshot that was supposed to be for Latrelle,"
"I'm sorry!" Cesar yelled.
"Sorry ain't gonna cut it, Cesar," Oscar's voice changed to Spooky, "don't come home,"
"What?" Cesar asked, "Oscar, please don't do this,"
His words fell on deaf ears as Oscar ran to his car and sped to the hospital, running inside after throwing his car in park. He ran inside, but when he got to the waiting room he saw Leticia sobbing so he slowly went up to her. Leticia felt a presence so she looked up to see Oscar with tear stained cheeks, she did the only thing that came to her mind. She wrapped her arms around him as the two cried for the tragedy that hit their loved on.
As time ticked, Ruby got patched up as Monse, Cesar, Ruby, Olivia, and Jamal waited with Oscar and Leticia to update. Hours went by as anxiety levels grew and the doors opened with a doctor coming though.
"Elizabeth Hernandes?" the doctor called as everyone stood, "she is stable, but put in an induced coma so her body can heal,"
"How long?" Oscar crossed his arms.
"Week until she's up," the doctor cleared his throat, "she can have visitors, but two at a time,"
"Mrs. Hernandes, is it possible if I can go in with you?" Oscar asked.
"Of course, mijo. Call me ma," Leticia gave a sad smile to the man, "I have a feeling you guys are gonna last,"
Oscar smiled softly at the future that could happen with the girl that lay on a hospital bed. The way her nose crinkles when he kisses it and scrunches up when she sees something nasty to the way she instinctively curls up to him when she falls asleep. All of her good and bad things still keeps him absolutely entranced whenever she walks into a room. His thoughts came to a pause when he caught sight of her usually tan skin being pale, her torso bandaged up, and all the IVs that are hooked up to her. All he could really think is how he didn't tell her he loved her before and now they're in a hospital.
Moments passed and Oscar couldn't stand the sight of his princesa looking so helpless as he ran out of the room and into the waiting room, tears encased in his eyes. His hands went behind his head, trying to get as much air in until Sad Eyes came in with Rico and Lorca. When he set his eyes on them, tears started coming out on all four cholos.
"What's going on?" Rico sniffled.
"She's stable, but had to be in an induced coma," Oscar sat down, "fuck, what if she doesn't make it? Ella es mi nĂșmero uno, manos,"
"Yo sé, Spooky. She's gonna pull through, homie," Lorca cleared his throat.
Leticia went up to the cholos, "Oscar, can you introduce me? Assuming they know my daughter,"
"SĂ," Oscar wiped his tears, "this is Julian Guzman, Ricardo Cardenas, and Vincent Gomez,"
"Hola, would you guys like to have dinner with me tonight? I want to gather all of her friends together," Leticia smiled at the four men.
"SĂ, señora Hernandes," all 4 men chorused, "gracĂas,"
"Meet in two hours and, Oscar, go to tu casa y take a shower and clean up, mijo," Leticia instructed.
"SĂ, ma, pero you don't have to make dinner," Oscar said, "get carry out at any restaurant," Oscar handed her two hundred, "get food and then rest,"
"GracĂas, Oscar," Leticia put a hand on his cheek, "I'm glad Eli found you. You and your friends can stay the night too, I don't want you guys out this late,"
A week passed and Elizabeth can wake up any day now so after every run, every shift, and every school day, everyone was there, waiting. It was Sunday and the start of December, everyone was there talking until Oscar, who sat by her side, saw her hand twitch. He stared a little longer at her hand to make sure so when he saw it twitch again so he stood up fast, making the chair fall.
"Bebe!" Oscar grabbed Elizabeth's hand, "c'mon, open your eyes,"
Everyone stopped talking and looked at the girl with anticipation.
"'S-sup, fool?" Elizabeth croaked, "agua,"
Ruby grabbed the cup with his good hand and went to her side to put the straw in her mouth, letting her drink and rehydrate.
"How are you, Ruby? Olivia?" Elizabeth looked at them worried.
"Eli, we are fine! You need to worry about you," Olivia chuckled.
Oscar cleared his throat, "get out. I need to talk to her," Elizabeth hit Oscar as he rolled his eyes, Ăș"por favor," everyone filed out as Oscar picked up the chair and sat down next to the girl that made him feel normal, "hey, hermosa. I didn't get to tell you this while you were conscious, but I l-love you,"
"Big bad leader loves lil ol' me?" Elizabeth teased, "I love you too, bebe,"
The two smiled big as the door opened again, revealing a doctor and Eliabeth's mother and father.
"Papa?" Elizabeth teared up.
"Mi amor, how are you feeling?" Armando Hernandes asked.
"Good," Elizabeth cleared her throat, "how are you? Are you feeling better?"
"Muy buen not that you're ok. I hear you got a novio," Armando saw Oscar, "es tĂș novio, Eli?"
"SĂ, papa," Elizabeth grinned.
"Hola, señor," Oscar shook Armando's hand, "me llamo Oscar,"
"Hola, Oscar. Me llamo Armando. I hear you love my daughter, yes? You would do anything for her?"
"SĂ. Even if it means dying for her," Oscar grasped Elizabeth's hand.
"Good. there is something about you that I trust pero if you make her shed one tear, I am gonna shoot you,"
"Papa," Elizabeth groaned.
"Qué?" Armando asked, "it's true,"
"Alright," the doctor stepped in, "Elizabeth, looks like you can go, but you have to have light exercises and check up is next month,"
"Ok. See you next month," Elizabeth grinned.
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Flatbush & Atlantic: part x
part i part ii part iii part iv part v part vi part vii part viii part ix
And weâve finally come to the end of Cass and Matâs story! I want to thank every person whoâs read this over the past few months, especially those of you who have reblogged, commented, and shared this with your friends. Your feedback means the world to me, and please tell me what you think of this final part! Iâve also got some ideas floating around for an epilogue, so donât be surprised if that pops up in the next few weeks.
part x
May 21 (fri)
For once, it wasnât Cassâ alarm that woke her up. Her internal clock didnât let her sleep in past 6, but as she lay in her bed, comforter pulled up to her chin and curls up in a haphazard messy bun, a realization struck her. She didnât have anything to do, and that was just about as far from normal for her as possible. Normally, sheâd be hopping in the shower at this time, getting out and shoveling some cereal down her throat before running to catch the train, or desperately trying to finish some last-minute reading before an early lecture. Her grandparentsâ flight didnât land at JFK until 1, and she wouldnât need to leave until an hour before that to get Mat and drive to the airport.ïżœïżœ
Padding out to the kitchen, she just caught Ryanne, who was about to leave for a clinical rotation. âWhat department are you in this month?â Cass asked.
âOB/GYN,â Ryanne responded. âI got to observe a birth the other day, and it was one of my favorite things Iâve gotten to do so far. Obviously I donât know for sure yet, but I think I might want to match into it. You get to do a little bit of everything â thereâs some surgery, some routine care, some deliveries. And with the Black maternal health crisis, I figure we need all the Black OBs we can get as a country.âÂ
Cass smiled. âThatâs wonderful, Iâm glad to hear.â She knew that Ryanne had been a little stressed out with the prospect of trying to pick a residency; she hadnât felt drawn to any of the other rotations sheâd gone through quite like this one.Â
âWhat about you? Whatâs your schedule like today?â Ryanne asked as she poured coffee into her travel mug.Â
Cass flopped down on the couch, looking over at her. âItâs just...I have nothing to do. Nothing needs to get done. No cases to read, no essays to finish, no paperwork to file or anything. Chris gave me this week off for finals anyways, so I couldnât even go into the office if I wanted to because thereâs just nothing for me to do. Do you know how rare that is for me?â
Ryanne laughed. âCass, Iâm in med school. The last time I had a true âoff dayâ was two weeks ago, and even then I spent most of it studying.â She slung her backpack over one shoulder. âSee you tonight, have a good day, babe!â
After some toast and a smoothie, Cass was back on the couch, trying desperately to think of something to do. She thrived on being busy, thrived on feeling like she was needed and contributing to something worthwhile. Pushing herself up, she walked back to her room, deciding to change and go out for a run. Cass liked to keep in shape and exercise as often as she could, even though it had been a few years since she had been on an organized sports team. She was usually able to make yoga classes at the school gym twice a week, but typically didnât have the spare time in the mornings for a run. And by the time she got back it was almost always dark, way too late to even think about going out alone.Â
Lacing up her tennis shoes and grabbing her AirPods and keys, she set out, down the stairs and past the door. As she jogged down the streets, making familiar turn after familiar turn, Cass realized something remarkably profound. Every place she passed had played a part in the last three years. St. Lucyâs, where she had stumbled in with inconsolable tears after her abueloâs stroke, lighting a candle and praying with some old Italian woman for his recovery. The bodega on the corner run by Carlos Gonzalez, one of the first people she met when she moved to the city and the only one who knew how to smoosh her sandwiches down how she likes. The Edible Arrangements where she, Stella, and Ryanne had bought Alicia a congratulatory fruit bouquet for finally asking out her coworker Juliette. They had been dating for six months. The high school she passed every morning on her way to the subway station. These were the people and places that had made her life what it was, and she owed them her thanks.Â
An hour and five miles later, Cass decided to call it quits, walking the last few blocks back to the apartment as a sort of cool-down. She jumped in the shower, throwing her hair up in a towel once she got out and resigning herself to watching whatever was on TV. Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives it was, apparently. Four episodes and one snack break later, it was time to get in the car to head over and pick up Mat. Cass drove down Manhattan Island, tapping her fingers in boredom as she hit yet more traffic. It was noon, why was there even traffic in the first place? She pulled into the visitorâs spot in the underground lot of Matâs apartment complex, taking out her phone. Just got here! Mat popped out of the elevator a few minutes later, holding a bouquet of tulips. âSorry Iâm late, I was going back and forth between tulips and sunflowers for awhile, but I figured the pink was maybe a better choice? What do you think?â Cass started to laugh, and Mat looked offended. âWhat?â
âBabe, itâs so sweet that you want to impress my grandma, but have you thought about how the poor flowers will fare?â
His brow furrowed. âWhat do you mean?â
Cass adjusted her seatbelt, leaning over. âWeâre going to be out for awhile. Weâre not going straight back to their hotel. SoâŠâ she prompted.
âTheyâll wilt.â Mat finished, his face falling.Â
She covered his hand with her own. âDonât worry. Itâs a sweet gesture and Iâm sure sheâll appreciate them. Weâre all going out for dinner after the ceremony tomorrow, why donât you bring them then?âÂ
He perked up. âIâll run up and put them back in a vase, be back in a few!â Mat gave Cass a quick peck on her cheek, leaving her with just one question. Mat owned vases? He slid back into the passengerâs seat shortly after, clicking his seatbelt in and connecting his phone to the speakers.Â
Cass rolled her eyes. âI donât know a single guy your age whoâs not obsessed with John Mayer. Itâs kind of weird, honestly.â
âYou donât like him?â Mat asked curiously. Cass was usually into more guitar-based, acoustic stuff, so he figured sheâd be into at least some of his stuff.Â
âSome of it,â Cass responded, pulling out of the lot and onto the street. âGo ahead and play it, I donât mind at all. Not what Iâd usually put on if Iâm alone, thatâs all.â
Mat nodded, looking absentmindedly out the window. âSo, what should I know about your grandparents?â
Cassâ face immediately burst into a smile at their mention. It was always so clear how much she loved her family, and that was one of Matâs favorite things about her. How hard she loved. âAlright, so itâs Dolores and Roberto Cabrera. Theyâre wonderful people, I genuinely think youâre going to like them a lot. Theyâre both super fluent in English, so donât worry about communication. They originally immigrated to Texas when they were in their teens, abuela was a housekeeper at a few hotels in San Antonio and abuelo worked in the fields for awhile before getting a job at a little hardware store in town, where he worked until they retired. My momâs the middle of four, two older sisters and a younger brother.âMat listened intently. âMy abueloâs a little more rough around the edges, so donât be surprised if he gives you a little bit of a hard time, but itâs not out of malice or anything. Heâs always been very protective over us, my mom and her siblings, and now us three. He might do the whole ânobodyâs good enough for my Cassidyâ thing, but heâll get over it. He means well.âÂ
She glanced over at Mat, who was looking decidedly nervous. âSeriously, chou, itâs going to be fine. Abuelaâs totally different, theyâre like polar opposites. I can almost guarantee that sheâll say something to the effect of âif my granddaughter loves you, I love you.â Very much go with the flow, sheâll probably want to come over to your apartment and cook for you.â Her expression softened. âAs long as youâre kind and respectful, they wonât have an issue with you, Mat. Theyâll see that you treat me how I deserve to be treated and love me like I deserve to be loved.â
Cass pulled into the garage by the international arrivals terminal, cutting the gas and checking the time. âThe flight was supposed to land at one, so they should be getting out of passport control by the time we get inside.â It was a little after one thirty, but if there was anything Cass knew, it was just how long customs could take at an airport as big as JFK. Even in the middle of the afternoon on a weekday, and even though her grandparents were travelling on their American passports and could use the citizenâs line, she had heard that it could take upwards of an hour or two to get through.Â
The concourse was pretty bare apart from a few kiosks selling âI â€ïž NYâ shirts and a surprisingly busy Noahâs Bagels, so Mat and Cass made themselves comfortable on one of the rows of plastic chairs lining the room. The arrivals screen had marked their flight from Mexico City as having landed nearly an hour prior, so it was little surprise when Cass popped up from the chair, straightening her shirt and walking over to a couple that he could only assume were her grandparents. Mat quickly followed, catching up to her just as she threw her arms around her grandma. âAbuela, te extrañé,â she said, the sound muffled by Doloresâ scarf. She pulled back, kissing her grandpa on the cheek before stepping over to Mat, one hand placed reassuringly on his back. âAbuela, abuelo, this is Mat, my boyfriend.â
Mat stuck his hand out, shaking theirs. âMr. and Mrs. Cabrera, itâs so amazing to finally meet you. Cass speaks so highly of you, and she always talks about her summers in Hermosillo.âÂ
Dolores pulled Mat in, embracing him from the start just as Cass had expected. âMat, itâs wonderful to finally meet you. Cassidy has told us so much about you, itâs clear she loves you a great deal.â
Mat ducked his head and blushed. âIâm not sure if she can love me more than I love her, but Iâm happy to be in such good company.âÂ
He took both of their suitcases as Cass gestured to the sliding doors. âI want to get back to the car before they charge me for another half hour,â she said.Â
Mat slid the bags in the trunk of the car as Dolores got in the passengerâs seat. With a gulp, Mat realized that meant he had to sit next to Roberto. He had been perfectly nice on the walk over, but as Cass had warned him, it was clear that he was a little guarded. Whether that was just his personality or whether Mat had yet to earn his trust hadnât been determined.Â
Her grandparents had been to New York once or twice before, but it had almost always been just to fly in before driving up to visit Cassâ family in Connecticut; they had never really been able to see the city. Cass felt strongly that that had to change, so she had arranged for a mini-tour of Manhattan before they got dropped off at their hotel for the night. âSo, Mat,â Dolores said, turning around in her chair, âCassidy tells us youâre a hockey player? That must be so exciting, how long have you been playing?â
Mat nodded. âYes maâam. I play for the Islanders, so weâre right here in Brooklyn, but I live over in Manhattan. Iâve been playing the sport since I was four or so? Really little. But I just finished my fourth season on the Islanders. And it is exciting, I love being with my team and being on the ice, itâs one of the best feelings in the world.âÂ
âThat must keep you busy, though?â Roberto asked gruffly.Â
Mat froze. He couldnât lie and say that he was home all the time, able to be there for Cass as often as heâd like to, because he wasnât. But if he let on just how often he was gone, would that make him even more wary? âOftentimes, yes,â Mat began slowly. âThe teamâs usually on two or so road trips a month, theyâre usually about a week long. But theyâre balanced out with plenty of home games, and thereâs lots of guys who balance the job with a family and other responsibilities. Iâm always excited to be able to be back in New York, I love it here. And to be with Cass.â Roberto nodded, not seemingly totally satisfied but content enough to not push the issue further.Â
âHeâs really good about spending time with me, abuelo, even though weâve both got busy schedules,â Cass added, catching Robertoâs eye in the rearview mirror. âWe meet in the morning before a class to get coffee, or lunch in between studying if Iâve got time. I go to every game Iâm able to when heâs playing here in the city, or over in Jersey. We spend plenty of time together, he doesnât blow me off. You donât have to worry.â He seemed much more at ease with his granddaughterâs response.Â
It was a whirlwind three hours around New York, Cass playing chauffeur as they went to the top of the Empire State Building â her pick â in St. Patrickâs Cathedral â her grandpaâs pick â and around Central Park, stopping at one of the many pretzel carts for a snack. They dropped them off at the hotel, Cassâ eyes getting misty as her grandma pulled out the serape stole from her purse. Her fingers danced over the colors, the stripes of red and blue and pink and green, and knowing that it was made by the hands of someone so important to her made it all the more beautiful. The rest of her family was driving in later that night, after Nick got out of school, so everyone wouldnât be together until the graduation ceremony the next day.Â
The couple decided to get takeout on the way back to Matâs apartment, Mat jumping out of the car to run in and pick up the order while Cass circled the block until he was out. As they sat on the couch, cuddled into each other as they broke into the boxes of Chinese food, Cass thought absentmindedly that Mat handled his chopsticks way better than she ever would have given him credit for. Her grandparents had been on her mind. More specifically, her grandparents and Mat had been on her mind. It wasnât that she thought he had messed up in any way â she was positive heâd absolutely won over her grandma and her grandpa was slowly but surely coming around â but some lingering concerns about what they might think about their relationship. âIâm not sure that theyâd actually care, but when you talk to them tomorrow maybe donât mention how often I sleep over here? Theyâre wonderful people, but theyâre a little old school about this stuff.âÂ
âThis stuff?â Mat asked curiously.Â
âLiving together, sex before marriage, that kind of stuff.âÂ
âAnd how do you feel about it?âÂ
Cass raised an eyebrow at him. âDo you think you could ever get me to do something I didnât want to do? Iâm way too stubborn for that.â Mat threw his head back, laughing. âBut seriously. I donât make the decision lightly, because commitment and intimacy in that way is something really big and important to me. You already knew that I donât do hookups, itâs just not my thing. But I can see this, us, going places. I want us to go places. And Iâve never been very good at listening to people when I donât want to. So Iâve made my peace that my choices might not be ones everyone would be thrilled with, but it doesnât really matter to me as long as I have you.âÂ
Mat nodded, putting down his food to card one hand through her curls. âI get that, I do. Obviously thatâs not so much the attitude with a lot of the boys, but your principles are part of what makes you who you are, and I love who you are. Every part of you.â Cass smiled against his neck, leaning down and kissing him on the shoulder. âI want us to go places too, I hope you know that.â
âGlad to hear.â
They ate without speaking for a few more minutes until Mat broke the silence. âWhere do you see yourself in five years?âÂ
âWith you,â Cass answered honestly. âHere, or we could get a nice brownstone over in Brooklyn.âÂ
âSomewhere with a yard,â Mat mused.Â
âYeah, a yard would be nice,â Cass agreed. âIâd like to get a dog, Iâve always grown up with dogs and it would be nice to have someone to keep me company when youâre gone.â Her familyâs two dogs, Patches and Scout, were back at the house in Connecticut, and on more than one occasion, Cass had made the two-hour drive up just to see them. She paused, glancing down at her hands. âIn five years? Youâd better have put a ring on my finger by then, Mat. Iâll be almost thirty. Approaching old maid statusâÂ
Mat laughed, an easy, breathy sort of laugh that somehow erased all of the tension in the room. âI think you should double-hyphen.âÂ
Cass looked at him doubtfully. âCabrera-Shaw-Barzal? Yeah, Iâm going to have to pass on that one.âÂ
He shrugged, the corner of his lip pulled up in a half-smile. âJust saying. Itâs got a ring to it.â
âHave you given much thought to what youâd want to do with your name when you get married?â Mat asked curiously. It really didnât matter much to him, since it would ultimately be Cassâ decision, but he didnât want to assume anything regardless. And it didnât escape Cass that he said when, as if it was certain, as if it was a given. The surety made her heart flutter.Â
Cass shook her head. âNot particularly. On one hand, I do like the idea of the whole family having the same name. It seems nice. Unified. But I donât want to feel like Iâm erasing my culture and who I am just because Iâm getting married. And all due respect, chou,â Cass poked Matâs cheek, âbut Cabrera Shawâs the name on my degrees. Cassidy Barzal didnât go to law school.â
âVery fair,â Mat said with a chuckle.Â
Cass took a deep breath. If it seemed like they were having the âfuture talk,â she figured it was best to go all in. âDo you want kids?â she asked, tentatively, hesitantly. It was obvious that Mat was good with kids, sheâd seen as much, but being good with kids and wanting children of your own were two very different things. Cass had wanted to be a mom since she knew what a mom was, and even though they probably should have brought up the topic earlier, she wasnât sure what sheâd do if he said no. Thank God, she never had to find out.Â
âDefinitely,â Mat said, nodding. âNot now, obviously, weâre young and havenât really settled down yet. If you got pregnant weâd make it work, but I donât think either of us is looking to be parents right away. But in a couple years, once weâre married and have a proper house with space...Yeah, Iâd like to have kids.â He looked over at Cass. âWhat about you?â
âAlways wanted kids,â Cass responded fondly. âI loved growing up with siblings, and I know my parents were the same way. Two or three, I think. Iâve thought about adoption too, but obviously thatâs way in the future.â
Mat kissed the top of her head. âWeâve got time.â
 May 22 (sat)
 The graduation ceremony itself wasnât until noon, so Cass had more than enough time to get ready after waking up at 7. Alicia barrelled into her room at exactly 7:22, throwing a shirt at her and telling her to get dressed. Cass stumbled out of the room ten minutes later, pulling on socks and grabbing her phone from the charger by her door. âWhat are you guys trying to pull?â she asked, yawning and trying to wipe the sleep out of her eyes.Â
âUh, weâre going to the diner, duh,â Stella said with a smile, tossing Cass her purse. âCome on! You know it fills up early on weekends.â Glenâs Diner had become an apartment staple over the past few years, the restaurant having been the first place the four of them had eaten in the city when they moved, not having bought groceries yet and not wanting to pay the premium for delivery. It was cheap, open 24/7, and Cass would swear up and down that their blueberry pancakes were the best sheâd ever had.Â
They were seated just after 8, happily slurping coffee and stealing bites of each otherâs breakfast twenty minutes later. It was a nice day and hadnât gotten too hot yet, so they decided to walk back after finishing the meal. In reality, âgoing backâ meant Alicia stopping to buy a new necklace, listening to a busker for a few minutes, and petting no fewer than five dogs on the one-mile walk. There was still plenty of time before they had to leave for the ceremony, but after Cass did her makeup and tamed her curls, there was just enough time to watch an episode of Parks & Rec before having to actually get her stuff together. Not as flexible as she once had been, Ryanne helped zip up the back of her dress, a white lace bodycon from her sorority days that she had definitely worn to at least two semiformals. Hey, Cass thought as she straightened her hemline, if it ainât broke, donât fix it.Â
She had ironed her robe and put it into a dress bag the night before, and gently folded her school stole and the serape from her abuela into her purse. Matâs necklace hadnât left its place since Valentineâs. Her dadâs parents had given her a beautiful pair of pearl studs for her undergraduate graduation, and it felt only right to wear them for her next step. She fastened the ankle straps on her heels, and popped her head out to the living room. âEveryone ready?â She was met with a chorus of âyeses,â and grabbed her keys from their dish by the front door.Â
âLetâs go get our girl graduated!â Alicia hollered into the street.Â
The girls had originally objected to Cass driving herself to her own graduation, but relented as soon as Cass reminded them that she was the only one who knew where to find the free parking, and the rest of them only drove sedans. âCheryl has way more room. Yâall want to be cramped on purpose?âÂ
âFair point,â Stella had said begrudgingly.Â
Exactly twenty-six minutes later, Cass pulled into a spot about two blocks away from the arena where she would be graduating in an hourâs time, hugging each of her friends as Ryanne handed her the dress bag. âYouâre going to kill it in there,â she said, rubbing her back.Â
Cass laughed. âRy, all Iâve got to do is walk across a stage without tripping.â
She shrugged. âItâs a fine art that few have mastered.âÂ
Cass entered through the side, flashing her ID to the security guard standing by the door. Half an hour later, everyone had been ushered into their seats, carefully arranged in alphabetical order. For the most part, Cass was friendly with everyone in her class; if they werenât outwardly hostile to her, she saw no reason why they deserved anything other than kindness, but was relieved to see Robin sitting next to her. âYou excited?â Robin asked, brushing a piece of her auburn hair behind her ear. The lobby doors must have opened, because as she asked, crowds started to mill into the seats, waving at anyone who would catch their eye.Â
Cass bounced her head. âI am, but itâs kind of surreal, you know? I knew weâd get to this point, obviously. Itâs what weâve been working towards for seven years, really. But the idea that it all essentially comes down to thisâŠâ
âAn hour, a few handshakes, and a piece of paper,â Robin helpfully supplied.Â
She nodded. âYeah. Itâs almost anticlimactic in a way? Like sure, weâve got our JDs after this, but knowing weâve still got to pass the bar. Weâre not over the finish line yet.â
âColumbia has a 97% pass rate, and youâre one of the smartest people Iâve ever met, Cass. And Iâve spent three years surrounded by the smartest people Iâve ever met.â
âFair,â Cass said, âitâs just kind of a weird feeling, you know?â Robin nodded. âAnd plus, for most of us, weâve pretty much spent our whole lives in school. Aside from positions as summer associates, or part-time jobs and internships, we donât really know how to do anything other than school. Itâs just a little bit of a daunting thought to suddenly feel like weâre being thrown out to the wolves without really knowing what to expect.â Cassâ phone, which she wasnât technically supposed to have but had snuck in anyways, chose that moment to buzz with a text notification. It was from Mat.
Met up with the crew! Canât wait to see you walk across that stage, Cass. I love you and weâre all so proud of you. Mat had attached a photo of everyone she had brought with her â both sets of grandparents, her parents and siblings, and roommates.Â
âYour boyfriend is nauseatingly cute,â Robin observed, looking over her shoulder at the message.Â
Cass laughed. âThatâs true, but I knew what I was getting myself into.â The music started ten minutes later, and the ceremony began. If Cass was being honest, she didnât really remember much of anything from the first half of the ceremony, before the conferral of diplomas. She was so excited and nervous and unbelievably ready all at the same time that all she recalled from the deanâs speech and the student speeches were vague comments about their âawesome responsibilityâ and âduty to pursue truth and justiceâ and âcommitment to fight for what is right over what is easy.âÂ
As soon as she realized it, her row was being ushered into line to receive their diplomas. âCassidy MarĂa Cabrera Shaw.â She heard her name, but really had no clue who had spoken it. The dean? One of her professors? As Cass walked up the steps and across the stage, the only thing she could think was donât trip donât trip donât trip. Then she was handed a diploma, flashed a brilliant smile for the photographer, and shook hand after hand after hand before walking off the other side of the stage. She was pretty sure she could hear Mat and Noah yelling their congratulations from her seat on the floor.Â
Having a name towards the front of the alphabet meant that Cass was almost always called on quickly in class, or on roll call, or at graduation, as the case was. But that meant that she had to sit, quietly and politely, for the other four hundred names to be called. And it took awhile. After Robin Cahill came Wesley Coleman, then Samuel Cogswell, then Fiona Chan. Cass didnât mind having to sit through the whole thing, especially when Fiona, Les, Samaira, and her other friends crossed the stage â she cheered as much as anybody â but it was a long time to be sitting in a folding chair and the thousands of people packed into a small space didnât help her temperature regulation.Â
There was the benediction and congratulations, and then the recessional of the graduates. Graduates, Cass thought. She was a graduate. She had finished, she was done, she had accomplished the one thing she wanted most to do since she was a little girl watching Legally Blonde for the first time, looking at Elle Woods and thinking I can do that. And she had. Her feet carried her to the back room of their own accord, where she picked up her bag and was engulfed in a flurry of hugs, congratulations, and kisses on the cheek from her friends, the people who she had spent countless late nights in the library with, bar hopping to celebrate the end of finals, and afternoons on each otherâs apartment couches, yelling fact patterns at each other and trying to come up with an analysis before the timer went off. Â
Following the stream of sky blue graduation gowns, Cass walked outside, waving at her family when she spotted Eliana hanging off of a lamppost in the courtyard to get a better view. Her sister nearly tackled her as she made her way to the group. âCass. I already knew you were brilliant, and I still think youâre the smartest out of any of us,â she gestured between the two of them and Noah, âbut now youâve got the degree to prove it. Iâm so proud of you.âÂ
Noah was next. âYou worked hard, and I know how badly you wanted this. Youâre a really good sister.â He wasnât usually a big talker, and Cassâ eyes definitely got a little misty as he spoke. He had verbally committed to Minnesota State the week before, and Mat might have been more excited than even Cass when he heard the news. It was an incredible program that had a serious track record of sending players to the NHL, and she was so proud to see her little brother doing what he loved. Her mom and both grandmas were crying, as expected, and Grandpa Joe wrapped her up in a hug as soon as he got the chance.Â
Mat had been hanging towards the back of the crowd, not wanting to feel like he was intruding on family time, until her dad nudged him forward. âGo say hi to your girl, Mat,â Patrick said.
âWill do,â Mat said, squeezing Cassâ hand and pressing a quick kiss to the top of her head. âSometimes it blows my mind how incredible you are,â he said. âEveryoneâs already said how smart you are, and every bit of that is true. But youâre so much more than that, you know?â His thumb rubbed over her hand. âYouâre beautiful, and curious, and you always keep me on my toes. Youâre so passionate about your work, and youâve got the biggest heart out of anyone I know. Youâve never met a person you didnât want to help. And I promise Iâm not biased just because Iâm in love with you.âÂ
Cass gave a watery laugh, blinking and thanking God she had the foresight to wear waterproof mascara. âGod, I love you, Mat.â
Her dad had always been the picture type, insisting on documenting every waking moment. He was the living embodiment of âpics or it didnât happen,â for better or worse. He took a few of her with her law school friends, then Alicia snapped one with just her immediate family, then there was one with everyone. Cass also got a picture with Mat, where he was bending down to kiss her, the tassel on her mortarboard just barely brushing his nose. Then she was in one with all of the seniors on the law review, and a friend pulled her away for a few with the Latinx Student Association. By the time they finally managed to tear Patrick away from his camera, it was time to head back to the hotel and get ready for dinner.Â
Mat got Patrick to send him the photo of him and Cass, and was about to post it on Instagram when he hesitated. âHey, is it cool if I post this?â Mat said, showing Cass his phone. Most people knew who she was, and he had posted pictures of her before, but they had never been this obvious, this clear, this real.Â
âGo for it.â
Mat pressed post. So, so proud of my incredible girlfriend @casscshaw for graduating law school. Youâre one of the smartest, most empathetic people I know, and youâre going to make an amazing lawyer.Â
Cass grinned, a big, genuine smile as she was surrounded by her family, the people who meant the most to her â whether they were related or not. She looked up at Mat, who was smiling softly down at her as he reached one hand up to fix her tassel. âWhatâs next?â
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