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m-ieleeh · 2 years

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I had a dream... no, more like a nightmare about V (Mystic Messenger)

BEWARE SPOILERS & TRIGGER WARNING.

Self-harm and abuse are the main point of this post.

It's going to be quite long lol (like a one shot story.)

Btw, in case I say something that is not accurate to the after ending, I didn't buy the after ending yet so I don't know what happens later on.

I was on day 10th of Ray's Route and I got that moment when V sacrifices himself for/to Rika and vanishes with her. We could see in the story mode that Rika tells him to die for her and then she would send us a message saying "I found perfection" and something like "I am stronger than ever"

I remember very well my dream because it left a very strong impression on me... You know it's the kind of dream when you wake up that makes you think about it thoroughly while staring blankly at your coffee. Everything will be written as I remember it, nothing added or excluded.

So my dream apparently takes place in an omniscient POV (I'll notify every POV changes). I could see a mansion isolated in the woods from above. The weather is soft and the trees are all adorned with brown, orange and yellow colors. It seems we're in autumn. Somehow the woods give a warm feeling but the atmosphere surrounding the mansion is just sinister and very dark. The contrast was interesting as the dark and cold looking mansion was engulfed into the warm woods but still stood out more because of that...

Since the darkness looks darker surrounded by light.

It looks like it's been abandoned as the outside is really neglected but it definitely has a resident as I could hear the sound of wood-chopping. The closer I got to the mansion, the more the sounds grew distinct. Looking around the mansion for the source of the sound, I could see, at the back of the property, the silhouette of a thin man. I could see him struggling(/in pain) to raise the axe to hit the wood for some reason. I couldn't see his face but the sight of his back definitely showed me sadness, loneliness, misery and a very heavy burden that seemed to weight on his shoulders. I couldn’t have known who it was if I didn't notice his tarnished mint hair reflecting the sun.

The feeling of pain and longing for a very close friend overwhelmed me and I reached out my hand to touch him... but as I raised my arm I could see a hand that wasn't mine and I blurted out "Hyung—". (plz don't cringe... he calls him like that so he did in my dream too T_T)

3rd person POV:

Zen, on his bed, woke up from this very strange dream, his hand raised towards the ceiling. He never went to those woods and never ever saw that mansion even in picture. Was it again one of his prophetic dreams? He sits up and reminisces his dream, thinking about how, if it was indeed a prophetic dream, it would mean his long disappeared friend is alive somewhere, miserable in that big mansion.

His apartment is now filled with his own whisper, trying to engrave all the details of his dream into his memory.

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Thanks to his dream, he somehow found the mansion and got there. Without hesitation he knocks at the door.

"Hyung! It's Zen! are you...here?"

I remember Zen starting to doubt, he came all this way because of a dream, even if his premonitory dreams all happened, nothing told him that this time he may just be knocking at the door of some killer's secret mansion. Basically, he was alone in a deserted place in front of a very dangerous looking building. His face clearly had "In 3 seconds, if nobody answers I'll leave." written all over it.

Nobody answered.

He was about to leave but a hunch made him stop from his track and he said something. I don't remember what he said sorry but it was something like "we miss you, why did you leave us?" I think.

Anyway, after saying that, the door opened.

Zen turned around only to see a maid. A very tall and thin maid with a humble appearance, she didn't looked like someone he knew but his hunch told him to be attentive because she's important.

I don't remember the content of the dialogue between Zen and the maid, but I remember the maid talked with a very tiny but clearly husky voice. She was very secretive yet she would try answering Zen's trivial questions and would even ask question about anything as if she wanted to know more about Zen and wanted to stay with him as long as she could.

Zen at some point thought she was maybe interested in him because the questions she asked were redundant and also because it looked like she wanted to tell him something.

After Zen left, the maid watched him go before closing the door. He got on his motorbike and went. On his track, he thought that she had the same warmth of someone he knows very well... but who? And also... Wait a minute, she's a maid... So how come the house was so dirty?

3rd POV on the maid:

Everything was very dark in the mansion. The maid went down the hall's stairs and got into a room in which a golden haired, very thin woman was lying on a bed. The maid who was already very thin (she looked like she was deprived of food) looked muscular next to that blond woman.

"Did you enjoy looking at someone else than me, V?"

The golden haired turned over her interlocutor who was none other than the maid. V took away his wig and went to sit next to Rika.

"You took quite a long time... Did Zen's beauty make you realize how ugly I am?"

V understood Rika was mad. He took the hairbrush that was on the nightstand and gently brushed her lifeless golden threads and pulled a chunk of hair despite being gentle. She was losing them. (In my dream she lost a chunk like when you go through chemotherapy. That hair brushing scene was a wink to Saeran lol my brain outdid itself)

" COULDN'T YOU BE MORE GENTLE?!"

She sits up, she looks like she's putting all her strength into her arm to sit up.

"Undress."

V undresses.

(From then on, it will get extremely hard... Actually it's the part that left the biggest impression on me, I had that bitter taste in my mouth when I got up because of that)

And btw: It was really short but I somehow made a link during that dream between V dressing as a maid and Saeyoung's maid disguise for a mission. (like the thought " just like Saeyoung" crossed my mind during the dream)

The humiliation didn’t bothered him anymore, V was used to obey to this kind of order.

As he undressed himself, we could slowly see unhealed scars on his arms, mostly made by sharp tools, that seems to reopen frequently because of repetitive strong exercice (wood chopping) and other traces of abuse. He looked vulnerable and defeated. Rika looked at him.

"... what have I done to you, V?" She says, apparently the good was taking over her mind at this moment. Tears streaming, she adds " How could I make you so miserable?!"

V took her into his thin arms to console her.

"DON'T YOU DARE PITYING ME!" she pushes him hard. "...Oh no, I'm so sorry V...! I didn't meant to..."

Not even fazed by what seems to be his daily routine, he pulls a hair strand behind her ear. Her face revealed: she looked like a skeleton. Her cheeks grew hollow, her eyes were dull and her lips were dry. Was it even Rika...?

Rika knew what she looked like.

"Do you not love me anymore? Is it because I am too thin? is it because I look miserable? or... is it because I am losing my hair?"

Her dull eyes that looked dark grew even darker.

"I'll make you as thin as me. I'll make you as miserable as me." she grabs his arm firmly, not minding the various scars that still bleed a bit. He winces. "You will take my pain... Since you are the one who made me like this. This is all your fault. You are the worst."

He looks down. He knows. He knows it all. It's his fault.

"Shave your head."

He looks at her, surprised.

"Please, Rika..."

"Shave it."

His eyes are wet. He grits his teeth and a tear comes out. He was never shaken but to be ordered to shave his hair was too much. (I think it's because it reminds him of his mother... That dream is really elaborated lmao)

"Are you crying...? That's right. Hah... haha... That's how it should be."

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V is taking a walk in the woods during afternoon. He has a lot of negative thoughts going on in his mind and it drives him crazy. The sea of trees is suffocating him and makes him feel overwhelmed, so he runs. He runs and runs and sees before his eyes a very warm and bright light in front of him. His eyes lights up and he sprints but he falls only a few step from that light. Maybe was it because he was desperate? but it felt like the darkness of the woods were trying to take him back.

But then a gentle hand from the light finds its way to him and lands on his hand.

"Sir, are you alright?"

He looks up but the light is too bright. He can't see her face but he could see her brown hair.

"Oh my—" She saw his arm and all its scars and jerks away her hand as if she thought she would add him a scar with her touch. "...Can you get up?"

V nods and gets up uneasily.

She helps him walk to the light and the sight of what awaited him made V choke.

A flower field. Bright, colorful, lively and sunbathed. They sat down on a spot in the field of flowers. He thought maybe he died during his fall? did he hit his head on a rock? Then that woman was surely an angel.

V took a deep breath, his lungs felt like they got cleansed. It's been a while since he felt alive. He took another one, and another one but he inspired too much so he coughed. This moment felt too good, his tears slowly started to pour. What a pitiful sight to show to a stranger. At this moment there was silence, bird's songs and a man's silent cries. The stranger put her hand on his head and stroke him gently.

"...You're safe here."

I don't remember the details of what happen next but I know V goes frequently to this little paradise to see MC who prepares food for him. They would slowly fall in love like V would probably blush at MC's sincere smiles and MC would stroke his hair every now and then. (you know when you just want to touch your crush for no reason?)

Rika finds out of course but I don't remember what happened next (or maybe I just didn't dreamt about what happened after that/woke up.)

That's it. It was really sad... I'm quite shocked I had a dream like that with so much allusions to the game's details and story. I'm quite amazed lol, why can't my brain use more of his functionality when I'm studying?

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