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#wanted for me and you. and i feel rlly guilty and sorry about that especially considering i have never really been a great daughter
oreoov · 11 months
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☆ - 𝐗𝐈𝐀𝐎 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐂 '𝐒 . .ᐟ
xiao x gn!reader ♡
wc ; 824 / fluff & angst (kazuha ver)
honestly he would be pretty shocked when you confessed to him , i mean you???? love him???
(yes you had to confess first cuz hes too much of a pussy to say it himself)
very shy when you guys started dating , he doesn't know how to act at all !!
i mean how could he not stutter when your pretty self keeps saying he's all cute and dat
hes super thankful if you make him almond tofu , and would probably share some with you ( he would never share with anyone else , only you)
when you're around he always follows you around like a lost puppy !
very jealous :(
when you're around some guy or laughing with him he definitely gets jealous (especially if the dude is rlly tall or something)
its not like you're not allowed to talk with him its just that he gets so insecure and starts doubting his skills as a lover :((((
the way he communicates and makes you laugh so easily just destroyed his self confidence
he literally has a notebook filled with ideas of different topics to talk you with , and he doesn't know what to do when he runs out of ideas lol
and when he gets jealous he probably avoided you , and when you confronted him about it he felt even more guilty cuz u didn't even do anything wrong :(
ofc he trusts you but his insecurities just get the better of him
often thinks that maybe you're just better off with someone else rather than someone like him :/
he often thinks he doesn't deserve you
reassuring him that you only want and love him definitely calms him down , but probably starts doing the same thing again after a while
so make sure you reassure him a lot once in a while !!
he wants to hug you , but hes scared hes gonna make you feel uncomfortable or anything
so when you hug him first he definitely got rlly flustered but now he wants to do it again and again
and when you kissed him for the first time , he literally just stared at you when you pulled away. like what is he supposed to say now ??? all this is just so new to him
but he definitely enjoyed it and wouldn't mind if you did it again hehe
when he feels like you aren't talking to him as much as you usually do , he definitely overthinks about it and thought he did something wrong to upset you :(
after some thinking he finally decided to text you "r u mad at me?" or "did i do something wrong?"
in reality you were just busy and had to explain to him that you're not mad at him and he never did anything wrong
likes to say sorry to you even if he didn't do anything (hes just rlly scared you'll get mad and leave him at one point)
literally stares at you at random times and looks away when you finally look back at him
i feel like he would be that one emo hot nerd (cuz of this fanart) , so he would gladly teach you any subject you're struggling with !!
he finds you so cute when you start whining to him that you understand nothing lol
always so proud of you when you get good grades on your test
he likes to scold you whenever your being so reckless about your health , i mean how could he not?
buys you your favorite snacks whenever hes at the market , he also memorizes your favorite menu whenever he comes to your favorite restaurant
he isn't a great talker , but hes a good listener so he always listens to all your rants and gossips , he loves hearing your voice
has an photo album on his phone specifically for you
always listens to the playlist that you made for him !
likes all your post ; instagram , tiktok , twitter , anywhere rlly
he also keeps all your gifts that you made for him , he mostly displays them on his room cuz they remind him of you
he loves your attention so much but hes too shy to ask for it so you'll have to notice the little hints he gives you
"you're the best so you deserve the best" is what xiao thinks all the timeee
tells you that you can always call him whenever you need him
idk man hes just a simp 4 u and his friends probably tease him about it cuz of how different he acts whenever your around (hes such a tsundere)
would probably beat up someone ass if they ever say something offensive to you , how dare they do such a thing??
he loves you with all his heart , and you're his number one priority !!
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Hello! :D
I see that ur requests are open, if they're not, then uh, ignore thsi ( ;∀;)
anyway
may i request gun and samuel (if u write for him ^^) with a gn s/o who's rlly cheerful but has seperation anxiety?
ty and have a nice day/night! :D
Thank you for your request!
[ Park Jong Gun, Samuel Seo x Gn! Reader ] - Gn! s/o who's cheerful but has separation anxiety.
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Park Jong Gun:
This man didn't notice anything at first, you were so cheerful and there wasn't anything that alerts him or can make alarm bells ring inside of his head, well, save for the supposed clinging. But Gun sucks it up to be your love language of some sort, he loves it when you cling to him.
He loves it when you depend on him, your arm intertwining with his while your head lays on his shoulder. Heaven.
But somewhat after he does notice some of your clinging tendencies worsen, for example, like, being in distress when he's about to leave for work, excessive worry about him dying or getting injured, and worried about unexpected events that may cause Gun to be gone for weeks or even worse months. He thought of it as you being too overly worried for him and he likes it, no one has ever cared for him this personally before.
Of course, with love comes with dislike. Gun's a man whose very purpose is to be an enigma, a mystery that is supposed to be solved by other people. He has a lot of secrets and his line of work is dangerous. He is worried about you coming with him when he's at work. Also, all of his colleagues are weirdos and he doesn't want their germs infecting you.
The man is blunt and would ask you to back off, he's tired from work and he wants some space for himself too. Of course, he feels guilty for saying that to you but there's little to bear with, when you explain to him that you have separation anxiety, his guilt will double.
"Don't be sorry [y/n], text me, or even call me if you ever feel distressed. I don't guarantee that I can pick up or answer you immediately and if I am free I would text you back or answer your call. I assure you, I will always come back home to you. You will never be left alone ever again with me by your side, got that?"
He became much more lenient than before, he will also buy you a lot of things that remind you of him.
Samuel Seo:
He knows that you have separation anxiety and kind of uses it against you sometimes (sorry for all the Samuel Seo fans out there.) With how this man has been hell-bent on making Gapryong Kim notice him and be proud of his accomplishments when he was a middle schooler, he would have some issues too.
Especially when he found out that his father wasn't the one he had been expecting, and when Samuel strangled the life out of the man, and as Samuel watched the light in those orbs get sucked out of those eyes that looked characteristically similar to his, he gets jealous.
And now he's stuck with a never-ending inferiority complex that can never be healed, of course, when he started to date you, his inferiority complex has slightly gotten better, especially with how cheerful you are, your cheerfulness makes his day a whole lot better.
He's lowkey boasting about his relationship with you with Jake, "see that, you might be Gapryong Kim's son, but have you ever experienced an s/o's touch before? No. You're just a virgin." Okay, I don't exactly see him saying that but it kind of does look like that when he gloats to Jake.
And when he finds out that you get anxious or distressed when he's separated from you? His love meter for you went to the roofs, he hasn't experienced anything when it comes to love and he was neglected ever since his childhood days, and now someone can't sleep when he's not beside them? Gets anxious when he's not there? He loves it.
Assures you that he will never leave your side, when Samuel falls in love he falls in hard, he's entirely dedicated to this relationship, he will answer all of your calls and text, a meeting about a new business opportunity? Wait a damn second, [y/n]'s calling.
Eugene's tired of his bullshit but he's good with what he does that's why he just pays no mind to it.
"How are the third and fourth affiliates doing? Samuel Seo." Eugene's voice echoes throughout the meeting room, the other occupants now staring at the man whose suit looks like it's about to pop near his chest area, as Samuel was about to open his mouth to report his duties, a low ding was heard inside of his pockets, the notification sound familiar to his ears with how it is his designated ringtone if you ever called or text him, or in this case, a text.
Samuel slams down a folder that holds hundreds of paperwork that involves the third and fourth affiliates and explains the summary with quick speed to Eugene causing everyone to almost have nosebleeds with how fast he is talking, though everyone can still perfectly and clearly understand him, his reports were always sincere and with perfect clarity after all.
After the full-on fucking rap from Samuel, he sits himself down calmly before taking out his phone with a smile on his face, Eli just looks at him weirdly while Warren is full-on gawking and Nomen is just there needing a fucking translation on what the shitstorm Samuel just said.
"Oh hey, [y/n], what's up? Something wrong? No, I'm not busy. I just finished doing my report, yeah, I'm about to come home. Do you want me to buy food? Okay, what do you need? I'll buy all of it." 
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vyntilador · 1 year
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Hi It's me from the Tiktok,I Have this Headcanon On Tot Boys Being a Dad Like I'm Sure Artem is gonna Spoil His Children ESPECIALLY Marius Like The moment he hears His Child Mumbling About "Wow This Kitty plushie looks cute" and He be Like "Then Get em" he might Also Buy the Whole Store(I wish a had a marius in my life) AND for Luke,Like i think he's gonna be A Chill Dad yk Like Setting a prank together with his child and do cute Stuff y'all Mostly go out to Have a Family Bonding Since Luke is Busy being a Detective (a hot One) and lastly Vyn i think He's the Type of that Who Enjoy Reading his Children a Story When it's Bedtime and he's the type to also Gossip with his Children like "Dad there's this Kid-" and he go like "C'mere Tell me all about Ur school and stuff" LIKE ISN'T CUTEEE and While Us Just Watching Them Interact and Smiling like an Idiot, anyways This is just What i had in mind ofc ur free to Say no to my Idea But Yeah That's All,Hope you have a good Rest!🖤
Father, May I?
NXX boys as dads</333
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Genre: fluff ofc but I'm adding angst parts after every story bcs it's my specialty duhh(I WAS BORED SORRYYY)
A/N: BESTIE UR A GENIUS THIS IS RLLY CUTE TOO😭😭😭 IMMA HAVE A FIELD DAY WITH THIS ONE TYVM SRY IF I REPLY TOO LATE SCHEDULES PRETTY TIGHT</333 also i might make this into 2 parts bcs it might take long idk depends if I finish this quickly!! Sorry for the wait<3
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Vyn Richter
This man is literally A DUKE of a kingdom LITERALLY LOOK INTO MY EYES AND TELL ME HE WONT GO ALL OUT FOR HIS PRINCESS</333
He doesn't rlly flex it often in the stories (except when he literally showed to their faces that only he had an invitation to that one Pluto cruise ship lmao
Speaking of cruise ships, he'd definitely be renting/buying a whole cruise ship for your daughter's birthday or if she's not into those, he'll arrange for her birthday party in the ballroom in their castle/family mansion in Svart
Honestly, he never wanted to ever come back to Svart if it wasn't for his little princess</33
You told her a bedtime story saying that her dad is a king and you're actually a queen which makes your daughter a princess
The story was supposed to make her sleepy but she ended up getting too excited and literally begging her father(Vyn) if they can come to their castle (he didn't agree at first, hesitant onto how the people of Svart and most importantly, his father woulf react but who cares his child wanted to go there so why not🙄)
Yeah with that said, after that, he just went on a spoiling spree on his daughter but he won't overdo it ofc🤷‍♀️ He doesn't want her to turn into someone condescending and just a bad person as a whole and with that kind of raising technique of his, she grows up into such a sweet girl and he sometimes can't help but smile stupidly with how his daughter resembles her mom so much 😭
Angst part
Ok so me and a friend of mine had this hc where like I forgot most of it but it was just how if Vyn decides to leave you and come back to Svart (he doesn't know that you have a child together so u ended up raising your daughter alone)
Can you imagine the shock on his face when he passes by the house he used to live with you in Stellis, only to see you playing in the rose filled garden with a little girl
You turn around to the sound of your name being called, hesitant but you still did it as you recognized his voice. He stood in front of you in formal attire, looking down on you with a soft glimmer in his eyes, seemingly shocked and feeling guilty
He asks you why you didn't tell him about your daughter but you immediately interrupted him saying that he never gave you a chance to speak
If you let him in your lives again, he'll make sure that his daughter lives the best life, guilty with how he almost made her live the same childhood as him</3
But even after the second chance you gave him, you desperately picked up the broken pieces of your heart from the ground as you tear up at the sight of the father of your children and the King of Svart, Vyn, being wedded to a woman on equal footing as him.
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Artem Wing
Mkay so first of all, uhm TWINS?? Lets say it's a boy and a girl. Well the girl resembles you in EVERY way possible. She's stubborn asf but determined with whatever she puts her mind into. She sometimes pushes his brother into doing stuff he loves like inspiring him yk??
Her brother tho, she's like Artem lmao💀 He's usually calm and silent in a corner somewhere doing arts and crafts while his sister is in the middle of the room singing twinkle twinkle little stars from the bottom of her heart
You'd think that the sister would be the protector between the two of em but it's actually your son. He's kinda timid and shy but he won't tolerate any unjust actions towards his dear sister</3 (You nudge Artem and chuckle at how much your son resembled your husband</33)
When it comes to what your children want, like toys, clothes etc, I wouldn't say that he'll buy anything they want (that's a lie he actually buys them whatever they want when you're not within the vicinity lmao)
It usually goes like this, your daughter is asking Artem to buy both of em something because their friends have it and he'll usually refuse when you're there but the moment you go out to buy groceries, you'd just end up dropping the bags of grocery you had with you the moment you come home as you lay your eyes on the newly bought bikes that looks expensive asf in front of your home LMAOOOO
Yall remember that one personal story where he spent millions for us during the investigation?? He'd def do that to you and your children
They aren't even born yet and he's already having your house renovated for their rooms, already buying shit ton of toys, going to the mall ONLY for food and suddenly, hes calling you over to ask if this little baby onesie would look cute on your children</3
There is no Angst part. I mean, ITS LITERALLY ARTEM WING. HES THE GREENEST OF THE GREEN FLAGS MY BOY HAS NO FLAWS.
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Luke Pearce
Also twins ngl. Energetic ones at that
Twin girls?? Absolutely (do yall know the fanarts of Lukerosa with this daughter named xiaxia😭😭😭)
Well lets just pretend theres two xiaxia's here
Anyway, he's like those uncle/grandmas that give you chocolate or money in secret when your parents aren't looking
Like maybe before you all eat dinner, daughter 1 is already hungry and is sulking bcs you didnt let her have a bite of the ice cream and here comes papa Luke to the rescue, passing her a piece of chocolate discreetly 😭
Gives your daughters piggy back rides especially when going out to family night outs or when just going to the park to have a little picnic. Or at weekend nights when you're both not working, you're all in the living room laughing softly at the 3 of em seeing them dance in the middle of the room to some children's music
OH AND ARRON IS DEFINITELY SUCH A CUTE UNCLE TO THEM OMGGG hes giving them plushies, money...toy guns..(as soon as Luke found out about it, he's immediately banned from coming over lmao/j)
Hes vv soft to his princesses but he isn't too soft that he gives them everything. I'm not rlly sure but I think he'd like practice disciple with wanting stuff like, 'Do you want the chocolate or the animal plushie? If you get the chocolate, it wouldn't last very long but if you get the plushie, you'll have it forever!'
Goes to your childhood home sometimes to hang out in the attic where you and Luke used to play in and introduces your girls to Sherlock Holmes</3
(DRESSES THEM UP AS JOHN WATSON N SHERLOCK HOLMES😭😭😭😭)
Just the best dad overall tbh
Angst part<333
He was very hesitant with having children with you with the thing abt his life and his line of work but the moment that he sees the smile on your face slowly dissipate and turn into a look of gloom, he feels guilty for even hesitating for a moment and immediately hugs you
He knows he won't be around for a while so even if he really wants to give your children proper discipline, there are moments where he just spoils them to their hearts content
Sometimes at night, he sits alone in the balcony of your own home and he smiles softly knowing that you now have little angels to look after you once the time comes.
The burden of all of these dawns on him tho. Like, what would your daughters feel like when they realize their dad's gone? What if his work as a spy results in his family getting hurt? Or worse, what if one of them gets pulled into the NXX stuff?
There are times where guilt and despair overwhelms him so pls go easy on him amd always give him cuddles<33
Your touch used to bring him comfort but why is it that when you brushed your hand against his face to wipe his tears away as you laid half conscious in his arms, it brought an overwhelming sense of fear and guilt?
He hugs your body closer to him as tears fell continously from his face, hurting at how his princesses will probably have to grow up without parents.
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Marius von Hagen
He spoils them. No negotiations, no questions asked.
He has a son too btw!! (his son hates him lmao)
Your son hates it when his dad hogs or steals all your attention which then ends up having a mini Marius sulking and hugging your legs asking you with a pout if you love Marius more than him LMAOOOO
I forgot where I read this but I think its the personal story???? idk i forgot Where the cat sneaks in to his home and just hates him overall
Your son would def wanna keep the cat and claim that the cat is now his "accomplice"
Yea but with all that aside, Marius is definitely soft for his son</333 He inherited everything of his dad but he has your eyes which makes him more vulnerable to puppy dog eyes of your son when he asks his dad to get him something
He's well aware of his footing in society so he knows how to stand up to himself well. Or if paparazzi surrounds you, poor baby would scream at them and tell them how he hates them for making his mom(you) have a hard time
Surprisingly, the reporters feel bad and start making way for the three of you to go home
Marius is definitely proud of him for standing up for himself and his mom. Speaking of that, he's another sucker for his kid when you're away. You could literally blink and the moment you open your eyes again, there's suddenly a mountain of toys around u lmao
Angst part
Marius is also very aware of how dangerous it is to live in front of the camera and being exposed to the judging eyes of the public so he tries his absolute best to keep you both safe. Including with scandals, where it's said that PAX CEO Marius von Hagen is having an affair with someone else while having a family of his own. His heart breaks into a million pieces as he looks down on his son thats literally crying and hitting his leg with little to no force because of how hard he was crying.
Hes cursing his own dad on why he has the guts to make u cry like that. His last straw snaps as tears swell into his own eyes as he bends down to pick up your crying son and he hugs him tightly.
He considered leaving PAX and having someone else run it seeing how bad of an effect it left to his family but you begged him to stay there seeing how important the company is but what you didnt expect was that he'll someday put his company first before his family.
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A/N:I think i kept turning away from the og plot im so sorry😭😭😭 i made this at 12 last night bcs i couldnt sleep so m sorry if it does look too good💀💀
I also just went with it and did all of em lmao I WAS ALSO HUNGRY WHILE MAKING THIS SO THATS PROLLY WHY I WAS STRAYIMG FROM THE PLOT LMAOOOOO
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lalacliffthorne · 3 months
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For the “not enough Az” anon, like that other anon said, if you go to the azriel x reader tag, you’ll find a shit ton of fics for him and go down a little rabbit hole lol
Now, I definitely believe that the other 2 idiotic Illyrian babies (saying that lovingly 😭) could use more love with fics. Now I also believe the reason is because they are canonically in relationships. And even though I absolutely ADORE Feysand and Nessian, let a girl dream alright 😭
I love all 3 bat boys and I don’t mean to come at anyone with this, but Azriel is definitely the most loved and most written out of the 3 because he is not in a canon relationship yet. So it’s easier for writers to create these “x reader” stories with him.
If you want more fics of a certain character, you can kindly request and wait for the writer to work their magic or simply go down the rabbit holes that we call “tags” and if you’re really desperate (like me for Rhys 😅) you can start to write little drabbles to slowly build up your confidence in writing. But never go after writers who take time out of their day to give us these works of art because you’re not “getting enough,” it’s rude and inconsiderate.
Thank you for writing for us sweetheart and I’m sorry about my little rant there I kinda started to word vomit at the end🙃
Hope you have a good night and hope you’re taking care of yourself💜💜
aw thank u love 😭💞
I absolutely agree with you when it comes to a certain difference in amount of fics for Azriel and Rhys and Cass!! I have definitely noticed that as well and been trying to figure out what the reason might be, tho I definitely think that, like you said, the Rhys and Cass being in a relationship does seem like quite a big one - as well as that we don't know as much about Azriel yet? as a writer, that of course offers you a lil bit more freedom, which might be partially why there's more fics written about Az? along with a certain hesitancy occurring on both writer and reader side (that's probably not even something that happens consciously) to write and read about characters with established relationships (regarding which, like you said, let a girl dream 😉). so maybe for those reasons, there's a certain imbalance of content between the batboys?
I don't wanna step on anyone's toes with this either, I'm definitely guilty of having a majority of Azriel fics myself right now (🥴)!! but I do also feel like it is a safe starting point bc Azriel fics generally do a lot better in engagement (which is a whole other thing rn) than maybe Cass or Rhys or other characters sometimes? so I guess that could be another reason
but writing is a rlly personal thing, and we writers do usually write based on inspiration (!!), so - I really don't wanna put this on the writers, bc what you write is absolutely your thing!! and you shouldn't feel pressured to write for anyone just bc there's a lack of fics when maybe you don't feel like writing for them at this moment!! 💞
all that aside, of course I am absolutely with you, lovely anon, especially when it comes to all of our sensitive Illyrians (and other characters!!) and that some could do with a lil more love, bc they deserve it!!! 😤😌 so like you said; if anyone wants to see more of someone, maybe start smth yourself or send in requests to those writers that take them!! and maybe it just takes some writers a lil more time to get comfortable here and 'branch out' lol so be patient!! 😘
omg you are always welcome to rant!! I do it all the time, ask @leafsandstarlight 🥴😂
thank you, so much!! 🥹🙈💕 mwah
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nohoney · 9 months
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rlly want to know how the break up talk in your us series drabble (which i occasionally reread honestly ur such a great writer!!) would’ve turned out if touya and keigo hadn’t alr known about the reader’s plan to breakup!!
this ask was one of the first questions i received about us series! this one i had to sit down and think over for a bit and i’m so flattered that you guys want to delve into these different possibilities with the series!
It’s scary how quiet they are.
It’s frightening how loud the silence is.
It’s terrifying that you reached the point of having to tell them, “I want to break up.”
Your heart is pounding in your chest and you try to remain calm as you wait for a horrible reaction to come. There’s going to be some yelling involved, you know that there is, and you’ve been bracing yourself for weeks to have this confrontation. All the kisses, hugs, and sex you’ve had with them the past month made you feel guilty. It’s not that love wasn’t there anymore; it’s that the type of love you’re being given wasn’t good for you.
“Why?” Touya asks you, eerily calm as his gaze makes you even more nervous. “Why do you want to break up?”
Because of all the fighting, the arguments, that everything you ask for is being made as an impossible task for them to do for you. Because you’re tired of being upset and pretending like you were fine once a poor attempt of a make up is done. It’s all valid reasons you list to them.
“You know that’s all things we can work on,” Keigo does exactly what you expect him to do, to act as damage control to make sure things stay the same, “it’s not that we don’t see it. We feel bad when you get upset.”
That’s very much true, you know that, but they don’t feel bad enough to want to be better.
Keigo talks but your attention is more on Touya. His silence was not expected when you asked to meet them at this pond in a residential neighborhood. You planned to meet them separately and not be in any personal space to have this conversation, especially since you couldn’t afford for your neighbors to complains about your arguments again. Yelling is what you expected to happen. You thought there would be some pushback or some aggression but this stoic silence was not something you were prepared for.
“See, why do you do this? It feels like I try to get through to you but you don’t care what I have to say.” Keigo sighs out with an edge of frustration. “It’s like you don’t care that I’m here sometimes.”
Keigo’s words surprise you and you set your eyes on him instead. “What do you mean? I’m with the both of you! Of course I care!”
“Then why were you looking at Touya when I was talking? Did you hear anything I had to say? It has to be all about what we’re doing wrong but when I’m talking about myself, you don’t pay attention.”
You know what he’s doing, you know what Keigo is doing, he’s turning it around that you feel bad. As charming as he was with his words, he was equally cruel in using them too. But how can you argue against him when he was also speaking his truth too? What justification do you have to tune him out to look at Touya instead?
Trying to remember to be strong in your conviction, you try to muster up the words to get this conversation over with. You decided that this is over and being with them is no longer healthy for you. “I’m sorry Keigo, you’re right that I should have been listening to you. I just don’t think that we’re all good together anymore. I always feel like I’m being ganged up on and that you guys are-“
“So you don’t do anything wrong? Ever? You’ve never hurt our feelings or done something to make us upset?” Touya jumps in and you feel less sure about yourself now that he’s spoken up. “You know that we dote on you equally but you’re always switching up on when you play favorites? And we’ve never said anything about it?”
You know what’s happening, you know what they’re doing, but you’re starting to lose footing in your conviction. “I-I do not! Look, this is about me and how I want-“
“It’s always about you! Everything we do is for you and you’re ungrateful!” Touya snaps at you, “How many times have you had a tantrum over something small and we let it go? How many times have you driven off in one of our cars when you’re pissed off and we never revoked your access to using them still? Why is it that you’re all over Keigo when we’re fighting but then you’re so keen on me once everything is fine between us?”
Fuck, it’s all truth he’s telling you and he’s derailing you from the main point! But Touya is overwhelming you with guilt over things that you also don’t apologize for either or even things you didn’t know you had to apologize for. And he pushes you to tears and the conviction you built for slowly crumbles so easily. It falls apart like a kicked over sand castle and the routine of a fight settles in like it usually does. Maybe you could never win against the both of them together.
“Touya, lower your voice. This isn’t the place to be upset. Now c’mere dove,” Keigo comes to the rescue like usual and without even thinking, you seek him out as he pulls you into that comforting hug that you’ve grown to be so familiar with, “if you’re upset with us, it’d be nice if we got a heads up. Breaking up without giving us a chance to fix anything isn’t fair, right?”
His hands are warm as they rub your back to soothe you and then another hand pets the top of your head, knowing that it belongs to Touya. Your eyes peek up at him briefly only to look back down. You feel weak all over again, hurting because of them, but also wanting to be comforted by them all the same. “Look, you have every right to be mad at us. We’re not saying you’re allowed,” Touya speaks to you with a gentle caress of his hand, his fingers threading through your hair and carefully massaging the headache he knows you’re having, “but at least try to see it from our end what you put us through too.”
You wear the blame again for another fight happening. That apparently you ignore Keigo more than you thought and they’re so generous to let you get away with so much.
“Oh doll, look at you. You’re all upset now, how are you supposed to drive yourself back to our home now?” Touya sighs out, leaning down to kiss at your temple before he assigns Keigo to care for you. “Drive her car back for her, you know how she gets when she’s upset. She can’t really get behind the wheel. Who do you want to go with, doll?”
You want to choose Keigo to be with because he’ll baby you exactly the way you want to be when you’re upset. But then again, now it’s only going to be seen as you only needing Keigo for comfort and eventually choosing Touya once all the tension is leveled out. You sniffle and only shrug your shoulders, deciding that if you make your own decision that it’s going to backfire or be used as ammunition in a later fight. So you might as well let them choose for you.
“Alright, I’ll have you come with me.” Touya decides for you, asking for your car keys to hand to Keigo. “Drive safe, alright?”
You’re sitting in the passenger side of Touya’s car, still sniffling from crying and worn out all over again. His hand goes from the gear shift to resting on your thigh, his fingers squeezing comfortably and you lay your hand on top of his. Fingers weave together through the spaces and the car ride is quiet at first.
“I’m sorry.” You say softly with your eyes looking out the window.
“It’s okay. I forgive you.”
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pansy-picnics · 1 year
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*Steeples my hands like I'm about to ask you a question at a job interview* Thoughts on a Siluka and Kasumi friendship/ship-ship?
AUFIJDJGG SORRY IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO ANSWER THIS BUT I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS ONE!!!! THEY WOULD GET ALONG SO WELL!!!!
kasumi is VERY strict to her schedule and incredibly straight forward. she knows what she wants to do and how shes going to do it and she doesn’t take shit from anyone. but she also tends to expect too much of herself and has really bad imposter syndrome so she often tends to bite off more than she can chew.
siluka is super laid back and free spirited and mostly goes about her life on a day to day basis, she has a very straightforward view on herself and her needs and doesnt often overwork herself (much of this i feel is because she physically CANT do very much due to executive functioning issues and she often feels guilty because of it but thats umm mostly just me projecting). but siluka can also be very naive and spacey/is easily manipulated because she always has her head in the clouds.
siluka most of the time has iluka looking out for her, but as much as they would like to they cant be there for each other all the time. i feel like in some cases siluka wouldn’t really click well with people unless theyre doing the talking or iluka is there to talk for her (ex. yuzuki is so quiet that i dont think the two of them would bond much unless hinata or iluka was there to lead the conversation, but NOT both bc then theyd just get distracted and end up talking to each other while yuzuki and siluka sit there in silence).
but i think with kasumi siluka would be able to get along with her pretty well even without iluka there with her. maybe komari introduces the two but id like to imagine kasumi sticks up for siluka at some point while visiting the cafe, because iluka talks a LOT about men trying to hit on siluka while their advances go straight over her head. after the fact kasumi would go on this long rant about her hatred for men and siluka is jsut like “lmao What are u talking about /affectionate”
siluka would be a bit of an anomaly to kasumi at first. like Why are u like that. but as confused as she may be she finds silukas up-in-the-air personality to be somewhat endearing. its kind of a nice change of pace. and siluka tends to be drawn to that firm takes-no-bullshit demeanor because iluka is a lot like that and iluka is her Person she feels really safe around her. OH and silukas aura reading and interests in medicinal herbs would be really interesting to kasumi as well!!! kasumi is always craving knowledge and would be eager to listen to silukas long rambles about local plants and how they can be used + what kind of auras things have.
kasumi would teach siluka self defense skills shell Never remember to use but siluka enjoys learning anyways. she would be really interested, however in kasumis poetry and calligraphy skills. i can see them both becoming really good buddies kasumi would help siluka manage her time and assist her with certain tasks like iluka and ludus often do and siluka would remind kasumi to rest and help her relax/find more peace within herself rather than just burying herself in her work.
i can see a friendship between them devolving really easily into a romantic relationship too. siluka would bring kasumi lots of little flowers and cool shells and stuff like shes a little crow. kasumi would lose her Mind whenever siluka falls asleep on her shoulder. kasumi is really clueless when it comes to romance ESPECIALLY with another girl while siluka doesn’t care about Anything and is super blunt about her emotions (how she perceives them at least) and i think that dynamic would be HYSTERICAL. silukas just staring at kas while shes talking and shes randomly like “…..ur rlly pretty” and kasumis like “WHAJDJVKGKKJDSNANF?!??”
siluka would also find this HILARIOUS bc unlike ppl like hinata or lisette who are consistently morons kasumi seems smart most of the time. its only when siluka compliments her or leans on her in a particular way ect that kasumis brain goes haywire and the funniest part is siluka doesn’t even KNOW shes flirting and neither does kasumi. bc kasumi thinks siluka just Does That and like she does but also its different in this case yk!!! kasumi would confide in komari about this whos like “. Girl. shes into u” and kasumis like “NO SHES NOT i know shes not bc she would tell me if she was.” which in her defense IS TRUE but also siluka literally hasn’t figured out her own feelings yet.
iluka would go to siluka like “hey. yk if you want any help confessing to kasumi lmk like i know shes kinda dense /lh” and silukas just “??? Wdym lol” “…are you not flirting with her” “no” “.What”
anyways eventually siluka figures it out and confesses and kasumi has to have a mini arc figuring out her internalized homophobia but once thats over they start dating and they are both so stupid and so soft. another win for the lesbians
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okthatsgreat · 9 months
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earlier then usual but. chapter has been read and tumblr has been set up so i figure ill talk before my flight. sorry if terribleness has been unleashed upon you twitter-tumblr immigration is a process.
we have finally achieved communication. kind of. words are being said and sentiments are being understood but there is so much insecurity and holding back at the heart of it all...... dreamt about mikan crashing a plane when i went to sleep after reading if that gives you any idea of my impression of the way she is going.
ok. Ok. question speedrun round. is kirumi's work a question of her believing it to be her only remaining piece of worth, or is it something she believes she needs to do as a result of her guilt and her actions that led to the Situation. is there a part of her subconsciously believing that maybe if she works hard enough she can make up for it, or is it more of a distraction, or both? i have my own thoughts but im curious abt ur notes on her mentality. i also think it's interesting how much focus there is on mikane's histories of taking care of ppl!!!!! anything u think abt that would interest me but i do not rlly have any specific questions yk
OH GOD YOUR DREAM LMFAO???????????????
talking about this fic!!! :]
it's definitely a mix of both!!!!! guilt motivates a lot of kirumis actions, which feeds deeply into her desire to be of use in this situation. BECAUSE she is guilty, she has developed a mindset where she subconsciously believes she needs to be constantly working/helping out around the house in order to repent for her previous actions. her mentality regarding what is "useful" of her to do revolves entirely around her ultimate talent, which she believes is the heaviest indicator of her worth. a part of it is also a distraction, as well-- she would much rather be doing something rather than stay still and sit in her thoughts lol. being a maid is second nature to her, probably even first nature lmfao, even if she herself has admitted that she KNOWS this aspect of her is not real she is still going to revert to her maidly duties as a method of "coping". huge air quotes around the word coping obviously as it is turning into more of a punishment for herself rather than assistance for others, if that makes any sense. i love writing kirumi she is so fucked up peace and love on planet earth . youre absolutely right in saying that there is still a lot of insecurity from both sides, especially mikan who has yet to disclose anything about HER past, but it's a step forward! unfortunate that it took kirumi passing out on the floor to reach this point lmfao.
YEPP theres a focus on caretaking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is primarily so the v3 kids can mirror the sdra2 people :] mikan and kirumi's talents both revolved around taking care of other people, and both of them feel a desire to help at varying levels. similarly, both of them have the need to take care of angie, who has frequently insisted she does not need any assistance, which is essentially the crux of postgame angie's problem: denial.
akane's story has a particular focus on family and personal connections (which is definitely going to be explored a lot more later on when she actually wants to talk about it LMFAOO) and what that means to her as a danganronpa participant. both rantaro and ryoma were chosen to mirror elements of her story-- rantaro and his siblings echo her own fake family, and ryoma's seclusion from others/the loss of his family ties into a lot of what has influenced postgame akane.
HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE FLIGHT LOL :]] <333 THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTIONS!!!!!
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sexydreamgirl · 2 years
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hera I'm sorry for trauma dumping but I feel rlly shitty rn and dont have anyone to rant to, u don't have to answer if u don't want. and I also hope u understand what I'm trying to say :).
I have gotten so much more insecure lately and comparing myself to others, like I see the best version in everyone else especially look wise but not myself, and Im even scared ti have a bf bc I think he is going to leave me for my friend etc. ik that I just have to work on my sc but I feel weird abt it, bc I have this very dumb mindset and jealousy issues that others are literally born beautiful with perfect bodies and I have to MANIFEST for me to have it, it just seems unfair yk?
but the thing is growing up I was considered very pretty and that I had a nice body, like even strangers sometimes would compliment me. but rn that doesn't happen anymore like literally it's the opposite no one thinks I'm pretty anymore and no one has any romantically interest in me and it makes me kind of upset. I feel really guilty but I always compare myself and get jealous of a friend of mine bc she seems to be smart and have the body that guys want and in general she always gets things easier while I feel that I have to work for it. so idk why I'm not considered pretty anymore is it like did I rlly had an glow down or did the beauty standards changed? .. anyway ik that I also can just manifest having it back but I feel that me manifesting it back it like cancels it out kind of ? like I would rather not be in a position that I have to manifest beauty yk?and it's not just with the beauty wise like I feel everything I would get complimented on it kind kind disappeared and I got worse. like I was known for having very clear skin and very white pearly teeth but now I don't and can't say that oh yeah I always had clear skin and it kind of annoys me If u understand what i mean? same goes with talents like I used to be a dancer and good one and would be very athletic but now nothing, and I would speak fluently some languages, especially the ones I speak in my house and now I'm not able to.
I rlly don't know what's wrong with me and why i have become like this, its like I have lost all my personality and have gotten depressed and ppl view me much differently that how i rlly am and used to be like an example I used to be athletic but now they think I'm lazy bc I don't participate in gym class but I find it reasonable but it still annoys me. and i would have guys that have crush on me and now nothing, and I have lost all of my friends and no one likes me and they treat me like shit and i always feel that I'm responsible for it and in just so lost and ikd what to do with my life .
so my question is, except that I would like some advice or anything would be nice , is there a chance that I have accidently manifested all this or did that happen by its own??.. I hope this wasn't too much, thank u for ur time :)
According to the law you manifest the good, the bad and the indifferent. However, there's a difference between conscious manifestation and unconscious manifestation. So even if it wasn't your intention to manifest such unfavorable matters, that doesn't discredit how you can or should feel about the situation.
That said, you're not obligated to continue being a person you don't want to be. You don't have to be trapped in this conception of self if it has you in a terrible headspace, but the change must begin with you. You need to realize that the only person standing in your way of becoming the best version of yourself is you, there is no one to change but self. You are bringing forward excuses about guilt because you have to manifest xyz okay AND? You're no better nor worse than somebody who didn't have to manifest it. There's a reality where you're the total opposite of everything you've just described, there's a reality where it's even better than anything you could've ever imagined. No reality is better than another, so why not start working with the law to your favor? You're manifesting 24/7 anyway. You know you can do something about it, so just go for it. Don't let yourself get consumed by feelings of guilt over what is essentially YOUR birthright. Just go for it and don't give up for anything or anyone, you deserve to live out the life of your dreams.
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(tw ed/sh mention) hey its attention seeking anon again and im sorry if i came off as saying self harm/disordered eating in general is attention seeking. its absolutely not for most ppl but in my case specifically it is attention seeking behavior. i overshare and occasionally exaggerate my issues on purpose, i complain to anyone any chance i get, i trigger myself on purpose to recieve comfort and support, etc. i feel guilty but i crave the validation painfully bad and i cant seem to stop. im afraid of seeking help because i know i am attention seeking so maybe me wanting help isnt actually me wanting to get better, its just more wanting attention. (not a baseless fear either, has happened in the past) i dont rlly know what the point of sending this is but i feel like i came off wrong in the first ask so i wanted to clarify. also thank you for your response, most of the time ppl tend to think the ""treatment"" for attention seeking is "ignore the person even tho they are very clearly in need of attention and you are causing them pain but its ok bc theyre just attention seeking so it doesnt matter". it was very validating to hear that im not alone and like,, even if my behaviors are maladaptive i still like,, deserve help and support and attention. thank you so much. /gen
Hi anon,
You're totally fine. I also relate to oversharing and exaggerating issues on purpose, and I know you said you experienced emotional neglect which I have on some level as well, so it's possible there's a correlation there. I think craving validation is completely understandable. Again, us being social creatures, we flourish from not just attention, but love.
While I know you say you're attention seeking, I still feel like there is a piece there that genuinely wants help and is trying to be mindful of attention seeking behavior, which is great. The way you've framed your issues sounds to me like the concerns you have about yourself are authentic and your desire to seek help also comes from an authentic place.
I also just want to say that I hate the idea that the treatment for attention seeking is to ignore them. It's a cry for help. While I also want to acknowledge situations where attention seeking behavior is harmful to the point that ignoring them is probably safest, I feel like most times someone exhibits attention seeking behavior, especially as a child, it's indicative that something's going on.
Hope you're doing alright. Please let us know if you need anything.
-Bun
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lhskokoro · 2 years
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tysm for understanding from where i'm coming but i'll try my best to not get caught by my mom. and tysm for loving me and your so caring i love it so much. i knew you would be sad but i think at least you ahve amde some memories but i was scared and sad too, to send you that ask in but we should leave that right now.
i read your ask and i'm fine, don't worry! though i feel a little guilty but not that much, it'll heal within a few days koro. btw it rlly take a few days for it to ask for gmail id so i'll be using it, isk how manys will it take but yup i want to create it as fast as i can.
and that evil smile, well i thought about the plot twist and you should just wait and read koro evil emile pt.2 hahaha idk what to write, nothing is coming to my mind, ty for being my number 1 supporter koro!! even i'm your #1 supporter and love provider <3
i wasn't offended when you said you'd keep kokoro, i knew you have been used to that alias in the past, so i understood :) no worries btw. call me lune koro. i like my new name, hehe.
i want to watch bridgerton on netflix but it's 18+ so i'm still 15, but i'll watch it anyway lmao. i'd want to understand that era's english, clothing and etc. i think it's very nice to write that era for jake but the fact that jake is australian and i made him english out of no where?? proved?? fuck! man :)
yup the same thinking, i was shocked to be honest. and as for discord, of course. if i ever create discord first and give you the id, please add me as friend and i'll accept you right away!! hoping to talk to you soon koro.
thank you for those words and i'm sorry once again for making you sad. i'll tell this once again, let's make happy memories and fight together with the obstacles which near and let's keep hope till eternity. ily <3
— jaywon anon with everything for koro (≧︶≦))( ̄▽ ̄ )ゞ
pls always be careful jaywon anon!! and yes i was sad 'cause you're really precious to me <3 but let's leave it aside and make more special memories together ^_^!! let me add a 'read more' again
and yes you'll definitely heal quickly i believe in you!! i really can't wait for you to come back(*’∀’人)
help there's more?? a plot twist?? not the evil smile pt. 2 im curious but at the same time scared ( ;ᯅ; ) im excited to read it i know it's going to be so good!! and tysm im also going to be your #1 love provider and comforter as well <3
lune is your alias now?? omg it's so pretty it really suits you AAAA. wait do i call you jaywon anon or lune now?? im def gonna miss calling you my jaywon anon but i also cant wait to get closer to you more lune ヾ(๑╹ヮ╹๑)ノ”
pls i watched bridgerton when i was 15 but it's because i saw the trailer and was interested i thought it was gonna be like those high school romcom movies about teenagers who fall in love but no it was completely different aha. but it's still good you just have to skip some scenes ヽ( ̄д ̄;)ノ
but other than that, it would def help you in writing. after i finished watching bridgerton i felt like a royal HAHAHA. it could be a great influence especially in your writing style. and yes jake being english?? oh em gee i could already imagine his english voice im screaming (((o(*゚▽゚*)o)))!!!
and sure i'll wait for you!! i already made a discord acc but idk how it works (like wtf is a server lmao) so i'll wait ٩( ᐛ )و hope to talk to you soon as well!!
don't be sorry as you have nothing to be sorry for!! let's just leave it in the past and start anew as we make more precious memories and always together 'till the end of time. so much love ヾ( ̄ー ̄(≧ω≦*)ゝ♡
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namodawrites · 2 years
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hey namoda!! i’ve mostly been lurker on ur profile for a while now, just opting to like ur posts and stuff, but after i saw the reblog about interactions it really put things in perspective for me. i just wanted to say that i rlly appreciate ur blog!! i first discovered u thru ur kny fics (favs are assumption and compete!) but rn im currently obsessed w ur shikamaru posts. ill be honest i barely knew anything about naruto and its characters, so ur shikamaru fics got me giggling and kicking for a character i knew next to nothing about💀💀 my favorites tho are sprig and stealing ur gravity. i ofc have done my research now, and im actually currently trying to get thru the show
overall i just rlly love ur writing style and how u characterize the people ur writing for! idk. the way they act in ur fics is just so natural?? its very comforting to read and i get so excited when i see u post ! know that u and ur works are very much appreciated 🙏🙏 ill be interacting more from now on, so try to look for asks with the walking guy🚶‍♂️
ANONNN 😭💖 hello it is so good to talk to u!! first of all THANK YOU so much for ur kind message!! it always makes me happy to hear that people like what i write, especially when they say that they reacted to it outwardly !! it is so funny that u know almost nothing about naruto bc that is literally all i've been thinking of for the past like months...?? (PLEASE let me know what u think about the show dlkhfdsf i have Many Thoughts and would love to talk about them with you!!) but i digress dskfhds this may get rambly so ill add a read more if it does! (spoiler: it does but theres a tldr lmao)
thank you for your message anon!! i know a lot of ppl are nervous commenting on fics and such bc there's a username attached, even though the username is already a way to keep yourself somewhat anonymous online. i am very lucky in that i do get some people commenting on my fics, and i always recognize the same people who do and it makes me so happy! this is not to chastise anyone who doesn't comment (i myself get nervous talking to mutuals so i usually go on anon dskhfds sorry moots :( <3) and something i really liked about that post i reblogged (which u can read HERE if u haven't/want to) is that OP acknowledges that what might work for 1 writer might not work for another!
i have definitely had that struggle of "should i post this even though i think it won't get much attention??" and "i'm going to post it because i like it and it doesn't matter if it doesn't get much attention" and those two sides exist on the same coin and it's tough! bc of course i want my writing to reach people and resonate with them as it has with you! i LOVE reading/responding to comments on my work, especially if what i wrote made someone happy. sometimes i feel guilty about wanting attention for what i write but... i think it’s part of human nature to want to be praised and acknowledged, and i don’t think that’s a bad thing! 
the increased talks of people coming from tiktok (which is a vastly diff platform from tumblr) is smth i have defs been keeping in mind. it's not that easy for content creators/writers/etc. on tumblr to get recognized (imo) bc of a) the tagging system and b) the lack of reblogs. some people might not like reblogging things and that's okay!! i never want to tell someone what they should/shouldn't do with their blog because... it's THEIR blog. that being said, not wanting to reblog stuff shouldn't stop you from sending messages to the author!! (which is extremely easy with tumblr's anon system, for better and for worse).
THANK YOU so much anon!!! for your lovely words and your thoughtfulness with this ask!! in the future when there are blog events i hope you'll consider participating!! 💕🥺
unrelated to the ramble but stealing ur gravity is one of my favorite naruto fics i've written (aside from jock sasuke and my soulmate neji fic (which is almost done!!!!) djkshfds) 
TLDR: THANK YOU ANON for your message!!! i never want people to feel like they have to reblog/comment on my work, but i LOVE reading messages and responding as it tells me that people really do enjoy my work! here is a forehead kiss for u if u want 😘 and i hope u have a fantastic rest of your weekend!!
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heesbaby · 2 months
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hi cinna this may or may not be a long one but i’m sending this to you because i guess i felt really seen by what you wrote in your newest chapter of AH.
can totally understand why y/n would never ever want to see eunseok ever again because my ex had desires i didn’t want to give into and uh yah let’s just say it didn’t end very well. on my part i’ve struggled with it for a very long time now and especially with opening up to other people again and also feeling a bit guilty about it. but and though this is just portrayed in a character of yours, it helps me comes to term with the fact that i’m not really at fault and that he just fucked up in that regard.
i don’t normally send asks because i’m too busy in a day to do so but i just wanted to thank you for writing such stories that make people relate and feel better about themselves no matter how big or small the plot point may be. i’ve always read your stories for enjoyment all the way back from doctor’s orders till now and i just wanna say i appreciate you a lot as a writer 🫶🫶
honestly if i never started reading your smaus i probably wouldn’t be this deep into enhablr and posting stories of my own and making friends left right and centre. so thank u
hi anonnie <3 I’m so sorry u resonate with yn in this :( it’s such a horrible thing to have to go through n I’m sorry u had to deal with that, no one deserves that sort of treatment at all ☹️🫶
I hope u know it was never and never will be ur fault at all <3
reading this makes my heart warm that my fics actually touch people this much :( ilysm anonnie honestly thanku for this, it’s been hard recently and my motivation has been at rock bottom but knowing there’s people out there who think like this rlly helps me keep going <3 ilysm 🤍
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haemosexuality · 3 years
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every year i add something to the list of appearance and or life decisions that will make my mom so dissapointed when im an adult
#ah to be a gnc lesbian and know you are not and will never be the child your mom dreamed you would be#and she will probably live and die quietly sad and dissapointed#and that you will forever carry the guilt#sorry mom but im not having a husband or kids or shaving. im sorry ur not gonna get to see me in a wedding dress and im sorry ur not gonna#grow old with grandkids#and i know that you probably thing this is a rebellious teenager phase and im gonna grow out of it when im an adult#but im probably not gonna do that and idk how to let you know that. idk how to make you destroy this idea of the life you#wanted for me and you. and i feel rlly guilty and sorry about that especially considering i have never really been a great daughter#mentall illness and all#and youre not award of the year mom either but i still wanted to be good for you but idk how to do that rn#and in the future i would have to choose between being myself and happy or being who you want me to be and unhappy#anyways. i rlly want to shave my head but i dont have the machine thingie and also she laughed and said no#when did this become a whole ass thing i was supposed to be taking a shower#actually edit i have more to say. i feel kinda bad but also its so funny how like#from the end of 2018-idk the middle to end of 2019 my self esteem was like rlly rlly low so i was regularly shaving my legs#and i let my hair get rlly long that year#and was wearing more girly/idk pretty clothes#so my mom was probably like 'ah finally shes growing into a real woman :) and leaving all that behind 😌' and then 2020 came and i#1-gained self esteem and am fine with my body and done w shaving mt legs fr forever#2-Realized I Might Be More Gnc Than Originally Planned (tho i dont have clothes for it bc of quarantine 😤)#3-gained the need of having 8372937 piercings and 8372937293 tattoos#4-cut mt hair rlly short#like Bro You Thought
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Bruh I’ve been thinking about toxic tomgreg for season 4. So like at first it’s not even toxic they work well together as a team and they’re being rlly cute, acting like a couple without even realising it, the Roy sibs have approached Greg to get dirt on Tom or something but he’s like “Thanks but no thanks”
Then Greg gets a girlfriend but he’s says to Tom that he thinks that “This one is the one” and Tom’s like “You said that about the last one” referring to either the countessa or comfrey or a fling he has eariler in season 4, but Greg actually wants to make Tom jealous because that’s the only way he knows how to deal with his feelings for him so he’s like “But no I mean it this time, I might even propose” and Tom’s like “Greg! You’ve only known her two weeks” and Greg’s like “Yeah but when you know you know” even though he has really no intention of proposing, but Tom doesn’t know that and he makes the a similar face to the one he makes when he tells Greg “you’ve ruined it” in too much birthday, but he somehow looks even more heartbroken.
At this point I’m thinking Tom and Shiv are either getting a divorce or things are going so badly for them that Tom is now prepared to actually open up his side of their open marriage. And his heartbroken closeted mind, is like I know who the best person to sleep with is, Greg’s girlfriend! So anyways Tom seduces Greg’s gf, god knows how, she’s into Greg so maybe she’d be into Tom too, maybe pathetic capitalists are her type, we suck session tumblr hoes can’t judge to be fair, and they’re both prolly a bit drunk so they sleep together, anyways during the act Tom mumbles “Greg” and the gf is like 😳 but Tom just says he said it because he feels guilty and she’s like ok...
Even though the real reason he mumbled Greg was because he was thinking about him during sex and the only reason he was sleeping with Greg’s gf is cause she’s Greg adjacent, and saying he felt guilty was just an excuse for mumbling Greg’s name. But afterwards he does feel really guilty obviously, and starts withdrawing from Greg, probably starts drinking more heavily. Greg is missing getting attention from Tom and in his fucked up head he’s like, maybe I should propose to my gf, maybe that’ll make Tom pay attention to me again, maybe he’ll even do something really dramatic like crash the wedding.
He is spending a lot more time with his gf as Tom is giving him the cold shoulder and one night he prepares a really nice romanitic dinner for the both of them. Then she just breaks down in tears “Greg, you’re so nice, I don’t deserve you, I’ve felt so guilty ever since it’s happened” and she tells him she slept with someone, someone in his family, Greg’s like “Was it Roman that peice of shit. Kendall??, not Shiv? but it couldn’t be Connor surely? Oh my god, did you sleep with uncle Logan!?!” and then just before Greg starts to list people in his family that don’t live in the city she bursts out with “It was Tom!!!” And Greg is shocked, he looks like he’s about to be sick “Tom Wambsgans, my Tom?” The gf is like “I’m really sorry, are you ok? Is there anyway, I can make this up to you, we were both drunk” Greg shouts at her to get out, and Greg hardly ever shouts, especially at people he’s in a relationship with because he doesn’t want to appear intimidating because of his height, so he says “Sorry for shouting but can you please go, it’s over between us” and then his jealous ass adds “Just do me the curtesy of staying away from Tom” and that’s how we know it’s his gf he’s jealous of, and mad at Tom for sleeping with her and not with him.
Greg goes to the Roy sibs and fucks Tom over, perhaps telling them damning things about Tom or agreeing to spy on him in exchange for a higher position then he already has, when they have there little coo and all the cocaine Kendall can get hold of for him, Greg gets a lot more into cocaine after finding out that Tom slept with is gf. Kendall uses premium coke on Greg like the Scooby snacks for everytime he gets more dirt on Tom. Shiv probably asks him why he suddenly turned on Tom when he had been so loyal to him when they first asked for Greg’s help, Greg tells her about Tom sleeping with his gf, Shiv scoffs “You should be doing this for a better position for yourself in the company, not for personal vendettas against Tom, emotions can cloud judgement” and Greg shoots back “Oh yeah and I suppose you trying to completely destroy your husband’s career has nothing to do with you having a personal vendetta against him, despite the fact that you and your brothers were inches away from having control over the whole company but then Tom betrayed you faster then you could say supermajority” Shiv laughs “You’ve turned out to be quite a bitch, Greg” Greg replies “I guess your brothers, your husband and yourself have rubbed off on me. You still owe me $20 by the way”
The siblings scheming pays off somehow and Tom loses his job. Shiv is the one that tells Tom that Greg betrayed him, Tom is gobsmacked and looks like he’s about to cry, he knew he and Greg had been drifting apart recently, but why would he do something like this, after everything they’ve been through, after everything Tom’s done for him. Shiv who by now has caught on that Tom has feelings for Greg and can see how upset he is sticks the knife in “Hurts, doesn’t it? Being betrayed by the one you love” a single tear drops down his eye “Yeah” is all he can manage to say.
Greg has blocked Tom’s number at this point but Tom tracks him down and confronts him about the betrayal “How could you? everything I did, I did for us, you’d still be stuck as some saddo down in cruises assistant if it wasn’t for me” Greg gives him the silent treatment for a while and then he tells him he knows Tom slept with his girlfriend. At first Tom apologies and says how he has felt bad about it since it happened, but then he backtracks and insists that what Greg did is worse “You barely knew her, what we have is stronger then that, you should’ve confronted me about it, you should’ve fucking hit me or something not run to my conniving wife and her piece of shit brothers to help them ruin my career! Not to mention your precious girlfriend was willing to jump into bed with your best friend after just a few drinks, I was doing you a favour, she didn’t deserve you” Greg shouts “What? And you do?” Tom blinks “What do you mean” Greg sneers “You’re fucking obsessed with me, you always have been, seeing me happy with anyone else drives you insane, fucking my girlfriend, it’s the closest you can get to me, going where I’ve gone, it’s fucking pathetic” Tom manages to stutter out “What are you talking about, I’m not into you in that way, I’m not fucking gay” Greg steps closer “Oh please, If you were any further back in the closet you’d be humping Mr Tumnus” Greg then does a impression of Tom “Would you kiss me Greg??I’ll look after you Greg, are you attempting to break up with me Greg? I would marry you Greg, come on Greg, see if you can wrestle me to the ground, let me kiss your forehead Greg, you want to come with me sporus?” Tom manages to spit out “Shut up” Then suddenly Greg kisses Tom, it’s so quick it looks like a head bump, but Tom kisses back passionately, Greg is the one break off the kiss he says “See you fucking enjoyed it, you sick fuck” as if the whole reason Greg kissed Tom was to prove a point so Tom pushes Greg to the wall “How can you do this to me! Take everything from me! Encourage my affections then throw them back in my face and sneer at my feelings for you” and Greg who is probably slightly coked up and who has a very low opinion of himself at the moment replies “Because I’m exactly what you deserve” Tom pushes Greg harder against the wall “I’ll kill you” Greg apparently unfazed says “Maybe you could, but we both know that’s not what you really want to do” then Tom kisses Greg and they very angrily and intensely make out and then it fades to the next scene, and that was Tom and Greg’s last scene of the season.
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Can i request for emotionally constipated diluc finding out your a fatui member
Words: 1.6k (not as long as the others, sorry about that! - auri)
kurai a/n: guys shes crazier than my mom
Genre: Angst Character: Diluc A/N: Hello there! It’s Auri taking this ask, I’m sorry it took so long! I rlly like this idea, and I might make a part 2 hehe. Pls enjoy, sorry it isnt the best-(art by @sajoili on twitter.)
Hide and Seek.
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“Loving is easy when no one’s leaving.”
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Falling in love with Diluc Ragvindr was not part of the job. But here you were, telling him you loved him more than words, and comforting him during the nights where he remembered. You would be accused of treason, betrayal and many more. But if he ever knew about this, that would be even worse than any punishment they could give.
It’s 1 am, Diluc pulls you close to his chest. You’re awake. The Fatui had been sending you letters about how your mission was going, they didn’t know about you yet. Diluc had also kept your relationship a secret, not wanting anyone to know yet. This helped you a lot, but felt guilty altogether. Diluc looked so peaceful when asleep, he’d been through a lot, he deserves a little moment of peace. And someone better. You know he hates the Fatui with burning rage. You know he’d learn about it, one way or another. But you can’t just break it to him. Leaving before the Fatui start an assault on Mondstadt was the best course of action. You just needed a little more time. With him, and for yourself. You take another look at his face. Beautiful. You kiss him, savoring one of the last things you’ll be able to enjoy. You close your eyes, snuggling closer to him for warmth. Warmth. The one thing you long for.
“Morning, Y/N.” Diluc greets. You walk over to his desk and give him a quick kiss before you leave for “work”. You usually had to initiate the affection, but it always made him a little happier. He did have a hard time showing what he truly felt, but you always felt loved, just basking in his presence would do. Every smile you see, always leaves you guilty. You had to go.
“Y/N. You are late once more.” Another fatui member, Aleksandra, chastised you. It was quite a miracle no one knew about your relationship, especially since the Fatui had eyes everywhere. You were supposed to arrive earlier, since you were about to investigate another ruin. Aleksandra found some tracks, and tells you to follow her. You end up in an underground ruin, filled with traps and enemies you had to avoid. Aleksandra tells you to split up, so you can scour the area faster. You nod, taking the other way. Using your vision to shut down the traps, and to wipe out the enemies, you meet up with Aleksandra, seeing a small relic near a stone stele. Aleksandra slowly picks it up, and both of you run to the exit. She gives you permission to rest. The day was over. “I’m back.” You whispered, not seeing Diluc anywhere. He always arrived later than you, because of his Darknight Hero duties. You go to the bathroom, wanting to clean up, the dirt and grime sticking to your clothes. You quickly move out of them and take a shower. After you’ve finished, you put on your clothes, opening the door only to see Diluc with a puzzled face. “Is there something wrong, dear?” You immediately worried, going over to see him. “I- What is a Fatui mask doing here, in your bag? I don’t mean to accuse you but…” Diluc trails off, he seemed a bit reluctant. “I was exploring some ruins and whatnot, and I just encountered some fatui masks on the ground, I thought you might want to look at them.” You had excused, but lying had never made you feel better. Diluc looked a little troubled but one look at your face and all of them melted away. “Alright, thank you. But please don’t put yourself in danger for me, I’d never want to see you hurt. For now, I’ll finish some paperwork, just wait for me in bed. I’ll be there soon” He kissed your forehead, pulling away at first, but he continued on. He retreats to his office, but no matter how long he’d take, you’ll be there, waiting.
It’s been 3 hours, but Diluc hasn’t come to bed yet. You decided you had to slowly persuade him to come to bed, or he wouldn’t at all. You slowly open the door to his office. Oh. He was already asleep. You slowly walked near him, not wanting to wake him up. You could carry him to bed…but that’ll make him startled. You didn’t want to leave him here either though….You decide the lesser evil, taking a blanket and draping it over him. You plant a small kiss on his temple, whispering a small good night.
But you couldn’t sleep. You had to go, tonight was your best chance. But could you really let all of this go? No, it wasn’t about you letting go. It was Mondstadt’s safety and his. You couldn’t bear to let him know the truth. You decide it’s finally time.
You look at Diluc’s sleeping form, strands of hair falling on his face. You slowly brush them off. It's goodbye. “May fate bring us together once more, my love.” You give him a small kiss, and look through the window. The moon shone bright along the winery. “Goodbye.” You slowly went out of the window.
The day Diluc woke up without you, his entire world fell. He opened his eyes, and saw a blanket on top of him. You must’ve put it on him when he wouldn’t come back. It was pretty early, and you were still probably sleeping. He rubbed his eyes, walking towards the bedroom. He took a small peek to see if you were there, something he usually did in order to make sure of it. But you were gone. No sign of you. He immediately goes to ask Adelinde if you left. “Sorry, but Miss Y/N hasn’t left. I was here earlier, but I hadn’t seen Miss Y/N leave.” Diluc got even more antsy, he couldn’t find you in any part of the winery. He starts asking around, but no one saw you. He thinks you’ve been kidnapped, but a lingering thought says that you left because of your own judgement. Was he that bad? Did you leave him because you didn’t want him anymore? Diluc ventures out, at least wanting you to talk.
It’s been weeks since you left. The Fatui marked your mission as complete, even with a little delay. You knew Diluc was somewhere out there, trying to find you. “Miss Y/N. The Tsaritsa requests your presence.” No, it wasn’t a request. It was an order. “I’ll be there in a bit.” You were still thinking about him. You knew you should let go, but you always find yourself drifting to him. You stand up, walking through the halls to meet the Tsaritsa, hoping it would clear your mind.
“Y/N. I have another task for you.” The Tsaritsa starts off. “Go to Mondstadt. Diluc Ragvindr has been infiltrating our camps more often than before, and he’s been doing this at a very fast pace. Though we do not know why, I want you to stop him.” She looks down at you, waiting for an answer. Your heart drops. You couldn’t possibly hurt him. “I will start this mission right away. Let me prepare the necessary equipment needed first.” You say to excuse yourself, and go to your room.
How are you supposed to face him again? The next time you meet, you’ll be enemies. Instead of in each other's arms you’ll be at each other’s necks. You can’t bear to see Diluc like that. But the best you could do is hide your identity. He can’t know. You bring your bag, the boat already waiting for you.
You’ve arrived. It still looks the same as when you left. Find Diluc. That was the only thing on your mind. The Fatui said he would target one of the camps near you. Their plan was simple. You ambush him, stall around until they get there. That wasn’t simple to you. And yet here you were, hiding behind one of the stone walls. Diluc was supposed to enter the camp, but instead of fatui men, it would be empty. You tried calming yourself down, you won’t really hurt him, no? You hear footsteps in the distance. It’s him. It’s alright, breathe. “...No fatui…?” You hear him murmur. You take this opportunity to run towards him, and throw one of the potions they gave you. “I’m sorry.” He gets stunned for a second, in which you take the opportunity to knock him out, only to be stopped by his claymore. You almost forgot how strong he was. “You-” He gets cut off, with you throwing another one of the potions, even if they only stun a bit. The others were about to come, you just needed to stall a little longer. You tried once more to knock him out, but it was no use. He just gets up once more. Your legs are getting tired, and your actions are getting sloppier. Diluc takes note of this, using it to make you fall. He was about to deal the final blow, until your mask fell. “It can’t be you…” He won’t believe it. But here you were, on the floor, without your mask. “Why would you…” He feels betrayed. He was a fool. All the signs were there, and yet he chose to ignore them. He doesn’t want to hurt you, and yet he starts raising his claymore while you lie there, defenseless. He was going to finish it. Another one of his loved ones dying at his hands. He raised it up and- “Y/N!” The back ups. He turns around to look. He’s surrounded. One of them dashes to you, helping you get up while Diluc gets occupied with the others. “I’m sorry…” You could only mutter these words, as they drag you outside. You see him fighting your comrades as your last image of him. And at the count of three, you were gone. Nearing the end, you had already hurt each other. ______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ -end-
A/N: Hey, hey! I love this idea so much haha, i might end up continuing it, but i do hope you liked it. Maybe playing hide and seek with Diluc’s feelings wasn’t the best choice :).
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fockinastro · 3 years
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astro observations pt. 3
a/n: if u believe i took your comment/observation without credit, please reach out and let me know! i have no problem including you in my post (or taking it down if u ask :))
these observations are a lil wordy so sorry about that
i’ve got a nice theory/question/discussion for anyone open to talking about it :)
i’ve noticed that cancer placements tend to rlly like anime and i honestly think it’s because anime girls typically have this soft girl vibe and they may be rlly into that
gemini & scorpio placements together tend to be very curious and good at solving that curiosity
for example: they could wonder (gemini) why someone does something and be able to use their detective skills (scorpio) to find out what they want to know
moon in 4th overlays tend to create a long-lasting crush or that may create feelings of always having a soft spot for that person
similar to my last post, i think cardinal signs in angular houses are very good at achieving or going after what they want in those major life aspects meanwhile fixed signs in angular houses may be a little more fixated and expect certain life stages to go as planned and may not budge or give up when something doesn’t go as planned
these imo are interesting to see play out when different signs fall into different house types (angular, succedent & cadent)
for example: having cardinal signs in succedent houses can manifest as a person always trying to obtain or taking the initiative to go after themes of the houses
example example: capricorn in 2nd can show someone always working to achieve or taking the initiative to obtain monetary, material or inner needs, etc.
water signs in the 2nd house has a tendency to hoard things because it has ‘sentimental value’
having virgo, libra & scorpio influence in your personal planets is so powerful because historically, virgo & scorpio used to be one sign and represented the duality of humanity: feminine & masculine energy meshed together. libra then was placed between the two when they became separated as a bridge to marry to the two energies--if you look at the glyphs of virgo & scorpio, they are very similar but virgo is supposed to represent the feminine genitalia and scorpio represents the masculine genitalia
credits go to novembr-11th on tumblr because i read a post about this and thought it was super interesting! especially since it’s been circulating (not sure if it’s confirmed?) that virgo/scorpio used to be one sign that split into two
lmao bUT anyways, my point is that having these three energies in your personal planets (especially) makes one that’s very ‘whole’ if that makes sense lmao
personally, 7th & 8th house synastry isn’t always all that
i have these placements with someone and we do not mesh well 😐 but 8th house can also represent enemies so idk
sun in the fifth individuals tend to be very creative and have a powerful & sure way of expressing themselves
you tend to be attracted to those that have your moon sign as their sun sign and i honestly think this goes to the perspective of the moon person having this soft spot for the sun person because they express themselves in the way the moon person wishes they do or they’re inspired by the sun person because they admire the way the sun person express themselves (that the moon person may not be able to)
although it’s important to look at very aspect of astrology to understand it, i think beginners have a tendency to look at the signs rather than houses because it’s easier to understand but i implore those learning to study houses first before planets--idk it just seems easier because you’re learning houses & the signs in one go (kinda anyways lmao)--this isn’t even an observation lmao oop
the rising is honestly way more important than people think--i used to be guilty of this and disregard my rising until i rlly looked into it
mars in fire signs tend to be rlly selfish in bed and can be pretty similar to each other
sag mars rlly like to have their pleasure before their partners
leo mars like to have the attention on them
aries mars tend to do things fast--to get themselves off
scorpio & virgo mercuries tend to have this monotone (not rlly--it’s just dry if that makes sense lmao) way of speaking--like there may be a lack of emotions because they can be logical (virgo) and sarcastic (scorpio) that people may not pick up on that if they’re joking or whatnot
tbh capricorn (degrees especially) & aquarius influence can do this too 
interceptions can show what you lack (obviously)/misunderstand or what you may attract imo
pretty sure i literally said this in one of my previous posts but 🤷‍♀️
i remember an astrologer said that a theory of theirs is that your sun sign’s degree can show something important that has happened/will happen to you when you become that age
for example: an ex friend of mine has a taurus sun in 4 degrees and he was involved in a car accident where his father and brother died when he was 4 years old
an astrologer mentioned that the planet with the highest degree is the planet that is considered something you need to learn to do in your life
example: my best friend has trouble with communication and her mercury has the highest degree of all her other planets--she’s been doing really well though and learning to communicate better :)
i see a lot of astrologers frequently cover 0 & 29 degrees but usually not a lot of critical degrees such as 0,13 & 26 for cardinal signs, 8-9 & 21-22 for fixed signs and 4 & 17 for mutable signs
it’s assumed that it has a potent effect on that planet (or whatever i’m not quite sure because i don’t see it being spoken about in detail) but my assumption is that it maybe a focus in your life or more power is added to that
example: i have 4 degrees sag venus so i’m going to assume that there’s something going on there with my love life but tbh idrk 🤷‍♀️ pls educate me--i’d love to hear more about it and how it manifests
tbh major asteroids are so important to understand imo
i know some astrologers don’t gaf about them but i think they can be rlly important & definitely play a major role in someone’s personality & chart like pls don’t underestimate asteroids and their energies
i remember an astrologer stated that having a leo part of fortune is an indicator that it’s fated for you to become famous (or something along those lines)
dominant houses are important to your identity meanwhile stelliums may also be important to your identity but i personally think they carry lessons to be learned but idk this topic is very different per astrologer (this is just my personal take on it)
*just a theory and definitely open to discussion and idk if anyone else has spoken about this but do any astrologers here think that 3rd & 11th house can represent crushes as well--more like fast crushes vs longer crushes? since 3rd & 11th house can equate to your community while 4th is childhood--do you kinda see where i’m getting this from? lmao
i think it won’t manifest like 5th or 7th or 8th romance--it would be more likely to manifest as a person you had a crush on for like two weeks if that makes sense? i’d love to hear your thoughts :)
that’s everything i have for now :)
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