#wanted to get one more out for october

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[royalarchivist]

Pac: Fit. Where are you, Fit? Where are you, Fit? Where is my official gossip???

It's always very funny hearing Pac and Fit complaining when the other person hasn't logged onto the server yet, lmao.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #Not tagging Hideduo because these are the CCs so the tag isn't applicable #but it's still very funny #Not a full transcript or translation because I don't want to get it wrong but TLDR: #Pac's talking about how he might close the live after 4 hours (?) and says ''but let's hope not it depends on how things progress'' #then complains about where Fit is #lmao #I love their friendship so much dude I WISH THEYD HANG OUT MORE OUTSIDE OF THE SERVER #GAH!!!!!! #THEYRE SO SWEET AND I LOVE THEM BOTH #please tailor your content to me specifically /hj #This was one of those times when I had Pac's stream on in the background just for background noise #and hearing him suddenly swap to English and say that startled me LMAO #October 10 2023 #I'm pretty sure #Q

[asheoninactive]

Sorry for more AU posting but here’s more quick strega ken sketches I did at work. Featuring Chidori cuz I love her dearly and I think their relationship in the AU would be neat

#strega!ken AU #kenposting #Ken amada #chidori yoshino #they both make me want to eat glass /pos #so it’s only natural this AU would have a focus on them #Chidori looking out for him #she goes out of her way to get him the featherman pins on his jacket (as seen in the comic I tried to doodle) #(Ken insisted she keeps one too. which is why she also has a featherman pin on her jacket. she doesn’t get it but oh well #they both don’t fear death but despite it all Chidori feeling some sort of protection towards him #Ken doesn’t fear death because :motions towards October 4th: #so once he gets his revenge he’s planning on going just like canon #but while Shinji is like . still getting his suppressants Ken is still oblivious that his mom’s killer is in front of him #Shinji is also watching out for him but it’s so much less indirect #he wants Ken to get out of there because strega aren’t very good influences #as would one assume of a hit man service #his sense of justice is much more murky in this AU. like yeah a hit man service is very clearly evil #but is it really #many of their clients are getting revenge. just like he is #like he interrogates this idea in his head a lot #in this AU #often questioning clients’ purposes for their hits #often questioning clients purpose forgor their hit #unlike the other three who don’t necessarily ask questions #sorry I’m just rambling about ideas and how Ken would interact in this hypothetical AU #i love being extremely self indulgent #putting my favs in situations together

[deathbypufferfish]

Love when someone you respected and trusted turns around and lets ignorance and blind trust erase their humanity.

#puffer talks #this is about the Rabbi and my former temple #she went to Israel and reading her blog just makes me want to rip my hair out #i had a long correspondence with her in October in the beginning #trying to get her to join JVP and look past blind trust of Israel #and its a reform temple and she says things that speak solidarity to Palestinians but she won't GET there all the wau #she's in Israel for community building between Jews and Arabs but its so one sided and a farce #it is all about hostages and barely mentions Palestinians #i donated again to quiet my rage but i still want to scream in her email inbox #i already spoke to her with patience and she didn't connect with it #yelling will do more to divide than to come together i fear #i need to chop wood

[dollar-store-sparklez]

i miss dominion smp :(

#also i wanna be in one of legs videos i couldnt be in the undercover one bc when i try and log in on my wifi i jsut insta crash #this used to not happen when i joined legundos server but now it does bc verizon wants me dead ig #like that GOT one looked SO FUN fr #like im a silly goofy guy! im good at the game! i could be an asset! #this isnt relevant to the post at all i just got instantly distracted #except like. only patrons and like. really active members are prolly ever gonna get to be in those #and i had to cancel my patreon membership for a little while so i could save money #so im only a patron until october rn after having been a patron for. many months #im kinda sad about it fr #legs you follow me if you see this. hi. sorry i had to stop being a patron im also not happy about it but i had 20 dollars to my name #ill rejoin later i prommy #also viking if you see this. start a patreon nerd i wanna be a member when i have more money #what was i talking about? OH YEAH videos players can be in #they look so fun i was in the ryan one recently and im super excited for it to come out #even tho i wasnt a big part of the story besides getting my ass kicked that one time #it was still fun. wish my group hadnt continually had everything we owned burned down. that sucked really hard #very excited for that video tho i wait w bated breath #i should go rewatch the got video

[temeraire]

i need something niceys im having such a bummer time rn

#bummer tags incoming -> sorry for getting my gross sad all over you if you read them #my mums pretty sick with two things rn and my dad is.. my dad. my grandmas in hospital again and her memory is getting confused #im lonely and i have like one friend irl and i just want a hug and im so conscious of how naive and childish all my problems are #and then some people in online games are mean to me and its just the little thing that tips me over the edge and makes me cry a bit #so i feel really stupid even More now bc thats such a . babyish thing to do :( im so embarrassed by how easy it is to hurt my feelings #or make me upset or angry or sad when i should get over it. i should have thicker skin but i dont im just Really Bummed Out Right Now Pals #monologues #i always seem to nosedive my mental health around this time which. (a) sucks bc october is when my birthday is so thats a BAD present #and (b) seasonal depression is meant to happen when youre going into WINTER not when when you go into SUMMER. why this happen 2 me :( #im just a little guy :(

[tanktopgallavich]

🎵📚🚗

#man i am really going through it today #yesterday almost everyone i know got tickets to a festival with so many of the bands i grew up #and they'll be playing their entire albums from that era #i wanted to go so badly but couldn't justify ~$400 for one day #and flying to vegas next october esp i'm not sure where i'll be living at that time #then my book club of 3 years announced it is ending after next month bc the leader doesn't have time for meetings #also the author of a cozy mystery series i enjoy said her publisher wants her to branch out so there won't be any more books #moreover my amazon package got lost so now i might not get what i need by thansgiving #right now i'm stuck in bumper to bumper traffic trying to get home for thanksgiving #my drive is already 50% longer than it should have been #currently eating chips at a highway rest stop to cope with the horrors before i force myself back into the car #wwwy #personal

[spielzeugkaiser]

Flowers for you, I hope you’re feeling better these days!

Thank you, ahhhh, this is sooo sweet that you thought of me 🥺🥺 It means a lot! Also I love those flowers, they are so nice, and I'm just a sucker for everything pastel pink 💖 I had this in my askbox for quite a while, just looking at it and being-

THANK YOU STINA. That's so lovely!!

#spielzeugkaiser talks #to be completely honest - there is not much difference #my body is deteriorating #migraine is baddd #but so far I'm handling it! #I'm a bit worried because I'll be working full time again from next week on and that means drastically less time to rest #as long as I'm always one step ahead (organization wise) I'm still capable of acting and don't go into simple reaction mode #like doing prep now writing papers now getting stuff now done so I can pull them out of my desk in autum and winter when I need them #but I also need good grades and think about if I want to do a doctorate and study and publish and start to design a study #and decide on a topic and finish the things that are already running and go on congresses and juggle all three jobs without dropping one #and why is it all so expensiveee I'm a fool #but also do the MAIN job right #uff uff #also I really should do more sport to help with the migraines and the overall pain level #oh well #so far I'm doing good! stressed but I'm currently managing it #I would enjoy a break - I fought for it on all fronts and got one in October but maybe I can take three days off in August to go hiking #or something like that! that would be nice #sorry for the rant 😅 #I used this to organize my thoughts for a moment; now that it's written down it's better and out of the head! #my body is bad overall but my mood not - I do believe that I can do it :) It just won't be nice at times 😂😅🙈

[stillcominback]

✨

#happy monday my friends! #another work-week begins *cries* but i just wanted to pop my head in and say hello and i hope you all have a great one! #for the 2309484934324829th time: thank you all so much for your understanding / patience while i'm kinda 'off' tumblr for the time being #( probably until we move / get more settled hopefully by mid-ish october??? ) #just know that i miss you and love you all lots my friends! #and pls feel free to 'bug me' ( you never actually bug me! ) on discord or in my IMs here ANY time! #❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #let's get through this we can do it! #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[parsleymusic]

waiting for someone to deliver a critique they promised to deliver in september is agony

#lady is busy and i get that but she said she would prioritize it in the coming weeks in october #and part of me is wondering if it's just Bad lmao #like I've really been struggling to get people to actually read this book #i think that's probably just due to my stage in life etc #but the last “critique partner” I sent my book to asked me halfway if she could stop reading it lmao #and her critique was ultimately useless because she wanted something completely different out of my premise than the book i wrote #which is just a mismatch of expectations ig but #:P #(her book was not good btw) #annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyywwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #one of my friends wouldn't read it because she doesn't like the third person present tense #which is imo an awful reason not to read a book but like whatever #I would like to edit my book one more time with this critique in mind before i start querying again #but maybe i'm just telling myself that to get out of the absolute agony i feel when querying #querying feels like being skinned alive #anyway #i think that'll be my new personal post tag lmao

[martsonmars]

desperately trying not to have a panic attack about university hehehe

#literally the only thing i'm supposed to do is study #am i doing it? nope of course. i have less than a month left to take exams and i should take at least 2 but i haven't opened a book in more #than a month and the thought fills me with dread and i literally physically cannot do it #it's possible that going back to my uni flat would help (it would be a change in scenery for sure) but on wednesday it will be a year since #my father died and there's this fucking church thing and my mother won't force me to stay but i really should. shouldn't i? #after all it's already saturday and i've already wasted 40 days. what's half a week more? #i keep staring at the list of exams and i know that if i spent every waking second studying i could get back on track and graduate when i'm #supposed to graduate but 1. it's not healthy and 2. my brain refuses to study for ONE exam let alone 14 so it's unrealistic #and at this point i should just accept that i'm going to graduate one year late and one year after all my friends because last year i did #absolutely nothing. and last autumn started out great. i moved. i was organised. and then the first week of october my mother was at the #hospital and i had to go home for a week and somehow i let that week screw up my entire semester #and now i'm panicking because i have only 18 days before the exam i'm supposed to take and it doesn't feel enough for everything i have to #study but it's not going to get better if i just let all the days pass without doing anything but i can't i can't i can't #so yeah i should be kind to myself and accept i'll need one additional year for all the exams and take it slowly which is the only way to #actually get things done. but i don't want to. i don't want to tell my mother that i failed at the one thing i'm supposed to be doing #but i really really can't it's hard and i'm failing and my head is screaming that i don't deserve hobbies and yet i keep wasting my days #it's one am and i should either sleep or relax because it's not like i can do anything now and yet i feel like i need to fix my entire life #right this second or i'll explode. i'm so tired of my thoughts. #please ignore all this ^ because i know most of it is irrational or whatever and i DON'T WANT to hear rational things #if you've read until here and really want to say something just tell me that right now i'm allowed to relax #any other comment would make me feel worse #💖💖💖 #**one month left to take exams this semester not forever hahaha but then i'd be supposed to take all the remaining exams in the summer #and i can't possibly take 14 exams between now and july which is why i'm panicking (there are other logistically confusing things in what i #said but i wanted to clear this one up at least lmao) (i'm already feeling vaguely better can't you see?)

[cahootings]

anyway to continue my brand of being an annoying person generally im blasting Christmas music on November 1 but I truly feel like I missed all of October this year. Where did it go. I was inside. The trees outside my window just started turning but yesterday they had an inch of snow on them. The seasons went and changed without me ☹️

#if I didn’t start physical therapy (hell) I would barely be getting out #or if madi didn’t kidnap me! #admittedly I had a big week last week and got out several days #but man. that was my one week of October #ANYWAYYY we’re working on it we’re working on it #right now im constantly wrestling between I Want To Get Out More #and Going Out Hurts Me And I Will Need A Full Day To Recover Every Time so #NEED THESE ANKLES… TO HEAL… RIGHT NOW

[starbuck]

it’s just me and my five year plan against the world

#in five years i will be doing. Something. #there are two versions of the plan #over the past couple of days i was able to craft a version that stays the same up to October 2026 #that’s the Divergence Point #and then i have two options #either get paid to Go Places OR make $50k a year #(2nd option also involves getting a Master’s Degree) #have not figured out which is best yet #it’s gonna massively depend on what i end up wanting to do #i feel like doing a job i have to travel for will make me less restless so that’s a point for Door Number One #BUT maybe i’ll want more stability in my life after traveling so much #BUT - will i be ready and able to fully relocate by that point???? #truly so many questions #all i can say is that i want to be in a relationship again at some point #like. i ABSOLUTELY do not have time for it rn which is why i’m not seeking it out #but it’s sooooooooo nice - i miss it #it’s all whatever now bc i’m 23 - but i’m not getting out of this Situation until i’m 26 - so i’m gonna be READY then #fuck dating - where’s my wife? #luckily i know a lot of people in both professions who are happily married #so it’s POSSIBLE #i can make it work

[lecliss]

I love how much of Kadaj's screen time in OO is just him popping up wherever Seph is and trying to fight. Like, babey boy. You are not being productive to the plot at all, but I appreciate you trying anyway.

#i was so shocked to see him fjfnckf he came outta nowhere. he keeps doing this. #he showed up completely randomly in vayne's IW. imprinted on vayne like a baby duckling. saved vayne's ass and then fucked off #he showed up randomly to save the turks from seph and to later fight seph in one winged angel form and fail #and now this. babey boy please just stick around in one place for once PLEASE #GO HANG OUT WITH ZACK AGAIN AND DO YOUR LITTLE DUCKLING THING WITH HIM AGAIN I BET YOU. ITS CUTER LIKE THAT. #he wants a real big brother SO BAD it makes him look stupid #and he desperately DOES NOT want it to be seph #hes imprinted on cloud. zack. aerith (as a mom). vayne. and is probably going to with weiss too later #i bet he would make a good goldfish replacement for nero for about five minutes until weiss gets bored of him #im so excited for weiss's chapter in 4 days btw. and daj's IW in october. so much more duckling imprinting upcoming #please just put his real brothers in the game already so he can stop being lonely!!!! HE NEEDS ENRICHMENT IN HIS ENCLOSURE #FIGHTING SEPH AND FINDING REPLACEMENT BROTHERS ISNT ENOUGH FOR HIM #HES JUST A LONELY BABEY!!!! ONLY TWO WEEKS OLD WITH THE BRAIN OF A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD GIVE HIM A BREAK #personal

[skrunksthatwunk]

im finally going to replay y0...

#it's been a little over 2 years #and ive never replayed any of the games before so im very interested in what this is gonna be like #i just played them slowly and in order + lad ishin at the end #i kinda wanted to do the judgments first but uh. they're never on sale <3 #someday though #ugh im nervous though #not about this but like. ok real ones will remember that a couple of months ago i mentioned i finally asked my mom for like. mental health #assistance that wasnt her telling me to stop spiralling. the two appointments we could do were like. next week or october #i technically have enough time to get my shit together but ive also like. never talked to an actual doctor about this stuff before #and she kept asking me if i could be more specific than 'general longterm mental health issues' (and anxiety which she added) #but like. i dont wanna tell her Shit about that yknow #especially not like. just woken up at 2pm no preparation #also she added anxiety on her own. so you KNEW it was an issue and you didn't fucking do anything about it? at all?? #truthfully i don't think it's nearly as big of an issue as before. i get stressed about stuff sure but it's pretty circumstantial #like these days i dont have anxiety about much of anything because im not trying to decide my entire future between 8 hour days in the #bright lights and eye contact factory #girl you don't have any idea what we're getting into by doing this #anyway if i get an ocd diagnosis that'll be the most awkward because that's the only one they actively joke about and that i've butted head #with them on. (i mean theyre also shit to npd/aspd ppl i just haven't chewed them out for it yet bc every time i do that i end up useless #for the rest of the day at least and i gotta pick my battles) #and idek what i wanna do about the Probably Autism going on man. i've been thinking about doing foster care/adoption for years now #when im older/if im ever financially stable. a diagnosis could basically nuke my options for that #but they'd NEVER believe a self diagnosis #whatever FUCK JT ITS YAKUZING TIME!!!!!!!!! #OH AND IT'S THE FIRST TIME DOING ONE ON LEGEND #which im nervous about bc i never really play stuff on anything but normal #so uh. 😬😬