#was i even behind you in the first place

[cobaltfluff]

so i started playing persona 4

where are the QoL features

#persona series #art tag #ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm #i have no idea how to tag this!! #i fear what original p3 might have been like #i feel like a fake gamer man #like how did you guys do that #i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played #i am too stupid!! #im glad i have played through 5 and 3re #i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names #otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you #like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world #BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE #also these protags are basically my OCs at this point #i borrow their canon personalities #and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe #edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com #i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!! #I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!! #i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!! #you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!! #im cryin the boys ate just bantering #you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha #now i really am fighting for my life and mental

[yesokayiknow]

frequent questions i keep getting on the bigeneration au(s):

-why don't ten (point five) and eleven tear each other apart/beat each other to death with hammers/eat each other

eleventh hour starts like normal, since they can't exactly leave while the tardis is redecorating, and then rory's like but how can they be here?? how can the raggedy doctors be real?? they were a game?? you made me dress up like the funny one all the time?? and ten's like sorry what. the funny one? and rory's like yeah uh [points at eleven] the funny one and the uh. um. [looks at ten] the uh. hot one. and That's How It Starts. every single interaction is an opportunity to show eleven up. does he want to beat eleven to death after they've spent longer than an hour together yes of course but good god the spite of it all. the DRAMA. the whole of leadworth knows him as The Hot Doctor. the ponds and clara ADORE ten. they love him so much. like sure he's a massive dick but compared to eleven he's the nicest guy in the world. he's incredibly suave and incredibly smooth and is capable of dressing like a normal person and literally everyone keeps commenting on it. sometimes he goes off on his own just bc the ponds throw him a party when he comes back. eleven keeps trying to get him killed and he just keeps slipping out of danger and it drives eleven up the fucking wall

-why does twelve allow eleven to travel with them

he simply does not notice him. just constant white noise. he's not clara and therefore he's insignificant. the three of them keep going on trips and then clara and twelve leave before he gets back to the tardis and it's not even on purpose they just literally forgot he was there. one time they accidentally leave him in victorian london while visiting the paternoster gang and he gets a boat to new york and ends up spending ~50 years with the ponds and when he finally gets to modern day london a century later clara's like huh you look different did you change your coat. and then hell bent happens and twelve finally throws eleven out (eleven didn't get wiped and twelve isn't gonna live with that reminder) and eleven retaliates by showing up to every single one of his lectures. the only reason he isn't dead is because missy would definitely find out about it and twelve can't deal with how incredibly smug she'd be

#doctor who #also imagine two tens in the 50th #10.5: please stop telling them i'm a zygon you're gonna get me shot #11: no ❤️ #i really love the thought of the s9 three parter happening and 11 turning up with an iced latte like what did i miss #also he definitely gets left behind on skaro too. whoops aykdhsjshjs #missy's like you owe me for helping your younger self get off that planet bc fucking hell #and 12's like what are you talking abt he wasn't even there in the first place #bigeneration au(s) #they're all different timelines obviously #which is incredibly fun. a dozen aus for the price of one #doctor who spoilers

[shima-draws]

Writes a full blown essay about why Mary On A Cross is THE Sanlu song to me ever,

#Listen. I know the song is actually about weed. But that’s BESIDES the point #I can change the meaning. For MY ship ;) #Anyway there is actually a story behind this #I see reels on IG a LOT and I think one of the first times I saw an OP reel that took place during WCI #That song played. And I was like oh wait a second 👀 #Now whenever I think about WCI I think about Mary On A Cross and then I think about Sanlu #THE LYRICS REALLY DO FIT THEM THO #’I had to let you go’ Sanji VS ‘I’ll never let you go’ Luffy #’If you choose to run away with me’ literally. Luffy. Trying to rescue Sanji from his fate and get him to run away from his family with him #’Your beauty never ever scared me’ AGAIN LUFFY ABOUT SANJI EVEN WITH HIS PAST AND HIS MODIFICATIONS #Also the whole thing about Mary on a cross. Makes me think of self sacrifice. Which is Sanji’s ENTIRE deal #Anyway this song sparks the Emotions in me. #It’s probably been way overused but not for me!!! IT IS THE SANLU SONG PERIODT #One Piece #Sanlu #Lusan #Shima speaks

[nostalgia-tblr]

Hey do yous want to see my favourite bit from the first Thor film? It's this bit:

What's going on here? Why would anyone be standing behind that big gold pillar for any reason other than to slink out from behind it? There's nothing there! Not even the sinister shadows that I suspect were supposed to be on that part of the set.

Oh ho ho, here we go, here we goooooo!!!

Oh yeah, I absolutely 100% trust whatever this lad's about to say. That's the least shifty approach I've ever seen in my life. He barely even skulked.

Listen to him, Thor! I don't care what he's saying to you, it's definitely good advice whatever it is. See how he's leaning towards you in a completely un-conspiratorial manner, speaking quietly because he knows you're a sensitive type who gets nervous around loud noises. This is really good advice. You can tell because he looks so earnest.

Oh and here come some witnesses! I mean your friends!

You can safely ignore whatever he's saying now though, Thor. He's obviously got a bit intimidated by the success that lies ahead when you carry out this amazing plan that you've just come up with all by yourself after he suggested it.

Oof, he's very against you doing that thing that you're about to do! He's sooooo disappointed with the way this is going. He's just said it's madness! In a loud, clear voice that should have carried across the room quite well.

I wonder if any of the witnesses overheard that part of the conversation?

Aye. Aye, they did :)

#no really i love this bit #this is true cinema. this is art. this is making me want to check if my purse is still where i left it. #that's why i get a bit sad when people tell me loki was just lurking behind that pillar because it has such a nice view of the sunset #if i'm supposed to conclude from this scene that loki was entirely innocent at this point then someone's fucked up quite badly here. #i mean aside from thor. thor's definitely fucked up quite badly here. he's fucked up by listening to slinky mcslinkface. #all that later drama could have been avoided if only this room hadn't had huge pillars along one side that a person could lurk behind :'( #why were you even standing there in the first place you shifty wee bastard (affectionate)?! #thor (2011) #mcu tag i guess

[mettywiththenotes]

It's weird how Hawks went straight from "Dabi" to "Touya", like they are on a first name basis or something. Like I know the whole analysis of it is probably that using his real name is to show that he sees him as more than a villain now because of Dabi's ties with Endeavor

But I'm just thinking, specifically, what does this mean for if Dabi and Hawks ever interact again? Is Hawks just going to call him Touya now?

#im so excited to see if these two interact again #the dynamic of it all? #'we pretended we were friends but actually we were betraying each other and we never believed each other in the first place anyway #and you're the reason my wings aren't as powerful as they were and you left scars behind #and for some reason you revealed your real name to me and you knew mine?? #and now that my hero wants to atone for his past sins i want to help him #which unfortunately means helping you too' #like?? wtf i need to know what is going to happen if they even step into the same room again #bnha #bnha manga spoilers #bnha spoilers #dabi todoroki #hawks #mettys posts #metty posts

[carefulfears]

mulder not owning a bed is such a minor character detail that’s encompassing of practically the entirety of who he is, which is so crazy honestly

#chris carter’s faustian deal etc etc #he does not ever stop he does not ever rest he does not ever sleep #he does not allow himself a moment’s comfort or affection or softness #and the thing is that you don’t even know he doesn’t have a bed at first #you just kind of notice that you never see him sleep #unless it’s on the couch in his clothes with the tv on #but then they kind of poke fun at it #like van blundt’s ‘where do i SLEEP?’ in his apartment #and the first ever peek into his bedroom in s6 #that he does have one #it’s just stacked floor to ceiling with boxes #and it's so strange and unusual that it stands out in a way that makes you HAVE to clock these things about him #that he usually can try to hide in a well placed joke or reassuring smile #behind a shut door when there are lamps and blankets and framed artwork in the main room #he’s so outwardly kind and gentle that you don’t see it at first #the extent of how self-punishing and driven mad with guilt he is #until the show opens a door and almost points and laughs

[knifearo]

reblog a post about aromanticism and it'll feed you for a day. make a post about aromanticism and you'll get mind-numbingly amatonormative comments for a lifetime

#not even like. people being stupid about aromanticism in general. #just like... #post about 'hey platonic and romantic love are not significantly different' getting a response that's like #'yeah stories about family relationships are important too!!!' #ma'am you are seventeen steps behind where i needed you to be to comprehend this post in the first place. #like you're Right but we're past that we're talking about deconstructing that binary entirely not reinforcing it #while ALSO simplifying it down to platonic as equivalent to familial... #like i'm sure at the point in everybody's life where they are responding to me #the concepts that they're pulling out are revolutionary. everyone's gotta start somewhere. #but being at 'romantic love is not more important than familial' when i'm at 'the different 'types' of love is an outdated construct'... #i need to make that series of aro theory posts Immediately i'm going to go insane #aromantic #aromanticism #aspec #talking

[thebirdandhersong]

layers of school and family and health issues and future planning and final exam stress aside, do you ever feel like there is a long ongoing scream inside of you that seems to have no end ha haaaa

#the ironic thing i think is that i'm sitting closest to the window rn #and i can see the boy i agonized over for seven months sitting with his girlfriend #very clearly in the reflection because they're sitting behind me :) #and no matter how loudly i play my music i can still hear them laughing together every once in a while! #he told me today that the thing he asked me to edit for him just won him a scholarship and i was like congrats!! #this IS what i've become to you! editor friend who cooks and brings snacks! #and it's like. well you don't NEED me anymore. which is a silly thought because he never did need me in the first place #(and the need to be needed is a bit... hmm.... there's a lot there i do need to examine carefully) #it's not even worth talking about boy no.2 who is kind enough to break anyone's heart lollll and who is definitely definitely #and clearly in every way definitely not interested or available or anything close to it #anyway im not in tears tonight lolll thank God i am mostly okay #but i think i need to take an early night :') clearly i am starting to be emotionally overwrought #it is not AGONY........ it is something quieter i think.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Janeway in 'Nothing Human' vs Tuvok in 'Resolutions' There's something here I know there is I can almost wrap my teeth around it.

#I can't watch Nothing Human bc the puppet really disconcerts me #but I cannot believe Janeway really came into B'Elanna's room after all that and the FIRST thing she says...her OPENER is #'Wow it smells awful in here~!' #DUDE....................TIME AND PLACE #HEHEHHE #C'MON MAN #B'Elanna: Is [putting it behind us] an order? / Janeway [normal!]: Yes. #'And what emotion is that?' C'MON MAN!!!!!! #Janeway & Tuvok #Kathryn Janeway #Tuvok #I can see why she and Tuvok are friends #'I understand you're upset but fall in line' #You can be upset but not if effects your work #<- Something which would be fine on a regular ship but is very difficult on Voyager #I think Janeway's certain coldness or ruthlessness which can be aimed at either friend or foe is an interesting #aspect of her personality #Ex: She and B'Elanna COULD have feasibly had a more touching scene together to close out the episode but they don't #I don't know if I'm explaining myself well right now I'm a bit ill and more than a bit tired #Something about uhh maybe....people under their command vehemently and emotionally disagreeing with them/their decisions?? #you can disagree with me but not if you don't follow me anyway #Voyager a ship full of contradictions #they have to all work together and they are all closer emotionally than any other starship due to their situation #but they are also still 'at work' and are expected to follow orders. It's like a 'casual' hierarchy but it's still a hierarchy #and you can't fall too far out of line bc you're someone dear to me #but you're also a valued cog in the machine #and even though you ARE valued you ARE still a cog in the machine #but you're also my dear friend. and all of these things are true at once. #all of that of course but also Janeway & Tuvok are displaying a very particular kind of shared leadership style in these moments #Janeway is obviously on the whole MUUUCH more charismatic and understanding than Tuvok but still - when push comes to shove...

[ohtendril]

two of you. always in sync

#you know what i wasnt gonna do this but i rewatched prodigal son and uh. some of the frames made me crazyyyy this time around #and i love imagery it has to be said #its like. this time around i actually Perceived them. and not watched them like. every time liv looks at el its like. she cant believe it #like she's looking at a ghost. like he's gonna disappear any second #and at the same time. she can barely look him in the eye. she looks at him when he isnt watching. lest he sees. lest he recognizes her #and what shes feeling. lest she recognizes that he still knows her and *sees* her even after all this time. and she cant have it. she wont #so she watches him and observes him like shes both memorizing him and recognizing him.especially in that interrogation room... fuck me bro #that metaphor. of her standing right between el and the suspect. up against that mirror. and we're seeing her reflection. #the present liv the captain watching like a hawk and the past liv. right behind her back in the room with el sensing him and seeing #him getting ready to pounce. like the shot of her with el's fists in the background. oh mama. she just knows “do you need a break detective #and then them being literally divided in some of those shots. by the window binds by kathy and space and actual doors #(and her sliding those doors in the first place and then watching from the other side and the cut to her again watching through the door an #OPENING IT???) #and i havent even talked about el lmao. but it's svu it's supposed to be liv centric (well) but anyway #i havent essayed in the tags in so long i forgot to tag this in the beginning oopsie daisy #svuedit #bensleredit #eo #lawandorderedit #svu #benson x stabler #*mine #*svu

[sysig]

You don’t get to pick your own nickname, Spamton, that’s like the whole point (Patreon)

#Doodles #Deltarune #Spamton #Pink Addison #Nice going on your flirting lol #You know he brought up a pet name for Pink just because he wanted to drop this great idea on him haha #Playing with some prompts for these - outside of my usual wheelhouse so it feels weird! #I get all flustered when something isn't Wholly Mine lol #But I mean - when the prompt works who am I to fight it! It ended up fitting him very well lol #Pink is so moved! And then- lol #Gotta hide behind a million layers of joke and irony and self-aggrandizement to even approach any level of honesty #It's fitting #I do love how he's so excited about it tho lol - any opportunity! He even reaches for Pink more than asking to endear him #He does move back a bit - out of close hugging range hehe #Shows where his priorities are pfft #Pink is so not amused haha #He gets the plain name! How unfair! #Privately thinks about it later like ''♥ .... >:^('' lol #Will they ever see eye to eye again?? (Did they ever really in the first place? :) #Oh go on and humour him for a bit ♪ Hasn't he earned it? Even just once #He actually does and Spam just :^0000 at him lol

[tricksterlatte]

Anyone else think short form social media based on algorithms designed to promote topics that create more engagement instead of more joy, the idea of fast fashion but conveyed through social media, and the fact you can monetize suffering and outrage better than ever has largely resulted in the death spiral of media literacy and the mass emergence of bad faith readings?

#I may be venting a lil but god it blows my mind #fyp is a blessing and a curse because i don't think ppl were ever meant to be subjected to this many ppl at once #god i took a bird site hiatus for weeks and now BARELY check it and it already feels like a hit #oughhhhh #even fandom spaces have hugely incorporated marketing and networking into them bc of cmms and sponsorship and building portfolio #which would be fine tbh if it weren't for the way socmed is designed #now it's like you can't support too many ppl or else you're shadow banned or you have to make yourself palatable and marketable #and websites with threads in which people will only read the first post before qrting because ratios are seen as five minutes of fame #features that permit beating an algorithm are locked behind a paywall that promises you money if you go viral #and what goes viral is usually incendiary content meant for those ratios or trends. whether for or against OP #even in hobbyist spaces the climate has changed so much due to the monetization and marketing and just. ugh #not to mention side accounts dedicated to gossip in this new priv account culture like...idk #if you have to make another account so you can make fun of a friend on main with selected priv friends it just doesn't sit well with me #and not every priv account does this but enough do and it makes me tired #unsolicited hate comments are still as bad as they used to be on ff dot net except now people openly are proud of it more #why do most socmed feel like passive aggressive sticky notes on high school lockers #there is so much more I could say about everything that has left me weary about the internet but I don't know the time or place #and I don't want anyone to think this is about them because it's a general statement. though if you are doing the more inflammatory things. #maybe rethink that. it's not good for anyone else and it's not good for you either #I keep coming back online to check on ppl and see art and I *know* it's draining for my health every time #but I feel a lot better now that i use socmed less overall. and that I try to focus on what makes me happy #it just sucks seeing so many people i care about endure absolutely wild struggles bc people online do not care. #I like rambling in my tags because this is the only place I ramble except my personal journal and to my wife

[slasherscream]

really wish people would read blog rules more, it makes running blogs like this very low reward and you feel like a machine if people aren't commenting and aren't even abiding by one of the, honestly, very few and politely phrased rules i even have

#then i'm left trying not to respond like a bitch when the rules are there in the first place so i don't have to have negative interactions #with the people who come to this blog #like keeping it 100 you write for yourself but you write for ENGAGEMENT and COMMUNITY #and these days in fandom there really is no community #for any fandom across the board #people see something and move on #that's bad enough at killing fandoms #but the fact that a creator can have really only one super hard rule and it gets disregarded every day #day in and day out! and i really mean it this rule gets broken in my inbox DAILY man! #i write for a lot of small fandoms or smaller characters i love the characters i'm happy to do it #but i have an adult job. college. friends. family. my own original creative projects #and even if i don't respond to the asks where people are blatantly violating /again/ #one of my FEW rules #it's exhausting to even see it !!! #it makes me not feel like a person #who cares what the girl behind the screen asked me not to do? right?? but i'm about done #i'm only at my breaking point because i've had this blog now for what three or four years?? #and no matter how i phrase the rule people break it #no matter how many reminder posts #it's exhausting because it's an every day daily thing #idk maybe i'll feel better abt it in the morning but i'm getting exhausted tbh #exhausted as in this blog might be going BYE BYE i wont delete i think you'd have it up until tumblr goes away but i am getting pissed off #TRULY pissed off bc it's been years of me asking cmon now

[elizabethrobertajones]

I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.

Mobility aids <3

#mad at myself for not even noticing it was weird even though I've known I have the stretchy joints for years now #honestly I need a full like. Scientific observation from behind glass hooked up to machines and doing silly little tasks for science week #please find out what is happening in here #I also got 1 ankle support and out of curiosity slept in it last night #and omg one foot resting upright made me realise how much the other was flat on the bed #when I lay on my back #the same thing that got me diagnosed in the first place #the rheumatologist who'd just told me I don't have cancer because of the bloodwork had me lie down to examine #he took one look at my flat fuck friday feet and like actually yelled in alarm and recoiled #which took some explaining #anyway he poked and prodded me but he already had said 'oh you have hypermobility and it's given you fibro' #this is why specialists also have to keep up with all the other medicines too :P #(i spent a weekend with my medic friend recently and she has Stories oh my god) #(was too busy talking to look at my feet even as I told her I'd dislocated my ankle and knee as we talked XD) #POINT IS I'm very slow to notice things about my condition #I quit chocolate for a year because I worried it was giving me migraines #and was too busy having migraines to notice the chocolate wasn't what gave me migraines

[scorpiosapphic]

#im losing my fucking mind over this u guys. like. time is cyclical its circular its a loop and its infinitely repeating #and youre trapped in it. and your fate is sealed from the beginning. always destined to repeat. and theres nothing you can do about it #like... dylan in av. got exonerated for the dicks but then committed vandalism anyway. his fate was set. u root for him but he was doomed #from the beginning. AND AND adam from saw. lawrence was always going to walk out of that bathroom. he left behind adam and he left behind #his corpse six years later. its inevitable. its fate. its tragedy #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON KENDALL ROY! literally tries again and again and again to overthrow his dad and fails every time #he keeps trying and trying and u just have to keep watching him and fail and its pathetic and heartbreaking bc he is just a victim of the #cycle!!!! #ok and finally nadia from russian doll. she thought she could change things! she thought she could go back in time and fix her fate. but she #couldnt. she was doomed to repeat it. doomed to 'choose' her mother again when she never even made that choice in the first place!! #which goes to show about cyclical time and intergenerational trauma like.... that cycle of abuse is repeated over and over and over #its tragic its heartbreaking and theres nothing you can do #this is a very old story there is no other version of this story etc etc #god i am about to go insane fr #saw #american vandal #russian doll #mine

[violinist-rachel]

I notice you said you go to church on Sundays. Are you a Christian?

"That's one way to put it! You could go further and say I'm Catholic, but that can be a little controversial, depending on who you ask."

"If I'm honest, though, I'm not entirely sure what I am."

"I've never consistently believed in just one thing my entire life. For example, at one point, I was actually an atheist! And at another point, I was starting to lean towards Buddhism. And now, I'm currently Catholic... and I want to show everyone that I'm really trying... but..."

"......."

#anon #rachel #castle of nations #thanks for the follow up question anon! #this question is one that I've been expecting #and yet one that was still difficult to answer :'0 #sorry to bring up religion! #I won't go into it too deeply and I promise it has some relevance! #a very interesting note about rachel though #is that just like karl #there's meaning behind her name #to those of you who're curious #try giving both names a quick search #it's the entire reason why I even thought about churches in the first place #thank you for the question!