#was i just too overwhelmed by the story

[skeletoninthemelonland]

"The Exocannis Ressurection"

#been experiencing (seasonal) difficulties to feel satisfied with my art. especially if it's digital #i can't make fanart of other things i enjoy besides fnaf or listen to new music without feeling 'unknown' to it #everything is too much. new stuff becomes overwhelming and discouraging. people might not like it. (IT KEEPS HAPPENING RAGHHH)) #so im breaking the cycle by trying something that i came up with months ago (AGAIN) #as some people might know. the character i drew here is Hunter. and he's my OC #he's from a story i created during the pandemic. it was originally called 'The Other Side' #i got obsessed and started making art. it truly felt like i was part of a huge community. when it was just me in my room #i feel like i said this before. but after Behind The Codes. this story is probably going to be the next thing i'll be working with #starbsart #original character

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head #around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working #as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of #how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol #i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were #pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family #i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by #ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me #or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made #you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm #im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help #wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career #i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades #but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard #yapping

[swordmaid]

some outfits for my girlies 💗 👠💃

from top to bottom: shepard (claire) / street kid v (val) / corpo v (venus)

#mine. #see i was going to put this side by side but that'll eat all the details soo ... no <3 sorry for the #long post #oc: claire. #oc: val. #oc: v3nu5. #actually loving the difference in style tbh ... i want to do like a lineup of their diff outfits per their own respective stories but i #just get too many inspos and ideas i want to do it all at once then i get overwhelmed smh #anyway i want to do my tabris/hawke/trev next but when i replay da lol

[crystallakec]

unfollow me right now because invincible season 2 teaser trailer just dropped and I'm afraid of the person I'm going to be for the. next 3 weeks

#IT'S SO OVER. #THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WITH. AND ITS JUST A TEASER TRAILER #thaedus appearance🥹mentions of the great purge…sorry I'm very vulnerable when it comes to viltrumite topic i love everything about them #also. kombat pack for mk1. i was laughing so hard #while I'm typing this they just announced an eve origin story episode. DROPPING TONIGHT. help #we are so back you guys……… #it keeps coming i feel so overwhelmed right now #HELP. #清洁工碎碎念² #invincible #invincible season 2 #TOO MANY STUFF HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME IM LITERALLY GOING TO PASS OUT A LITTLE BIT #RELEASE DATE. NEW POSTER. NEW TRAILER. NEW EPISODE. EVERYTHING #we are soooo back

[demigod-of-the-agni]

call me insane, but if Jenova (and to some extension, Sephiroth) can appear as anyone you know, fear or love, what are the chances that Cloud kills someone else in this scene

And Sephiroth hugging Cloud? it's just that other person slumping over him as they die

#no because GENUINELY why would seph tell him to get more angry after getting stabbed?? because he KNOWS he goaded cloud into making- #-a bad decision. one that cloud is going to REGRET AND HATE HIMSELF FOR #i think he realises what's happened almost immediately. just the overwhelming sense of “oh FUCK”. HIS LIPS ARE TREMBLING HE'S GONNA EXPLODE #this is going to be a major turning point in the story. i just know it. maybe this isn't as yaoi as se made it out to be #i literally do not know who it could be. im too scared to think about it #bro really attacked tifa/tifa-lookalike i am CONVINCED cloud at least attacks and wounds someone he loves AND THIS MIGHT BE IT #im just going to pass away when we get to this part..... goodbye #cloud strife #sephiroth #ff7 #ff7 rebirth #ffvii rebirth #ff7 rebirth spoilers #agnirambles

[maplefield]

finally started honkai impact 3rd. can someone please explain to me how anything works. i'm confused

#i mainly play for the story but id still like to understand what im doing #also ig stigmas are like relics/artifacts #weapons i understand although the lvl up system kinda confused me at first (it still does) #how do you do team comps. is 8t the standard main dps buffer sustain or like can you survive without a sustain if you can dodge #i believe im still too early to need a healer (i only did the first 4 chapters and the everlasting memory story stuff) but still #send help #honkai impact 3rd #hi3 #hi3rd #hoyoverse #also how tf do banners work. can you even check who/what can you get on each banner. am i just stupid #what is the dorm used for #there is so much stuff i dont get #i can read i swear!!! there is just. so much stuff. im overwhelmed #one more not minor thing. generally just. how does character building work. #i also appreciate any tips #honkai

[everyneji]

Do you ship Neji with anyone?

Hehe. I answered this once but I'll definitely talk more on it. I love Shikamaru/Neji, and considering I published fic for them as recently as of 2021 those feelings are still going strong. Generally I prefer my ships to have a little more, er, content, but they captured my imagination so what can I say ...

If my followers will forgive me for getting indulgent for a spell, there's something very charming about how, in the Sasuke Retrieval Arc, Neji is keeping up with Shikamaru.

When they're trapped by Jirobo, Neji seems a little surprised by Shikamaru's false surrender, but keeps quiet. Now he's not a loudmouth like Kiba and Naruto, but he's also not shy about speaking his mind. However, between his own observational skills, a likely respect for the command structure, and Choji's words, he doesn't interfere. He's then right in step with Shikamaru and Choji when the plan starts.

Neji then explains that he observed everything Shikamaru did (that the prison recovered from Kiba's attacks at different rates) and why Shikamaru spoke to the enemy and so on. We expect Choji to work well with Shikamaru 'cause they're besties, but Neji was essentially a stranger to them and he's right there with them because he can get why Shikamaru does what Shikamaru does.

When they break free, Neji briefly assumes command to stop Kiba and Naruto from attacking while Shikamaru is busy thinking of another solution. Shikamaru names Neji his second-in-command -- and I know it didn't come up earlier because it wasn't relevant to the story, but in a more Watsonian perspective, it seems like Shikamaru should have done this at mission start. Neji is the shinobi with the most experience there. So did Shikamaru just assume they wouldn't have to split up or he wouldn't die (optimistic) or would he prefer to evaluate someone's leadership potential before trusting the lives of his buddies to them? I'm more inclined to believe the latter.

From all this we gather that they're both intelligent, observant people who quickly gain a mutual respect of each other when asked to work together. I happen to be a big fan of relationships between people who are both strong-willed and opinionated leader types. Yes, they can clash, but so long as they're respectful of each other there's so much potential for an interesting dynamic to explore.

They're also both lowkey people with compatible lowkey hobbies (cloud gazing & bird watching, napping & meditating) who I think could just relax together, though Neji's got a more active personality to keep some of that spark and spice. Neji needs some relaxation in his life ... Shikamaru can be very tender and emotionally intelligent if he feels like it, and Neji could use that too. What does Shikamaru need? Someone who is unafraid to challenge him, haha.

In fact, figuring out what Shikamaru wants (answer: a hardass with a nice smile) is easy because we see it in canon, but what about Neji? That, my friends, is a separate post I will make because I get very sidetracked from just gushing about my little rarepair.

Thank you for the question! ♥ In the end, I stand by my opinion that so long as Neji is getting some love all's fair! I've read or at least seen art of every Neji ship that exists I'm pretty sure … I just want good things for him. ✌️ Also, if you want to talk more specific shippy stuff, feel free to hit me up on my Naruto sideblog @hallwaydodge!

#not everyneji #ask #long post #neji hyuga #shikaneji #.i had to rewrite this whole damn thing bc u backspace once tumblr deletes ur whole damn post #.ok so wanna talk abt what i'm writing its a rly long post series neji lives shikaneji au #.its playing on the conceit of this naruto sd episode but played straight (neji fake dating naruto to test his worthiness for hinata) #.but that's just the inciting incident for the first part of the story #.it's really about young adulthood and grief and trauma and martyrdom #.and thinking you're too smart for feelings to surprise you #.its where i dump all my neji feelings when i get overwhelmed #.if i reference writing a fic on here it's most certainly that one

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Every bookbinding tutorial i found online: "DO NOT TRY THE COPTIC STITCH AS A BEGINNER ITS TOO ADVANCED"

Me who has only bound one book before and used a completely different method: "ehh it can't be that hard"

2 hours later

.....I was right. Its not that hard.

#its technically slightly wrong cuz i dont have signatures #im just doing one folded piece of paper at a time #which does take longer #but i was expecting that #doing actual signatures would have a. been way too thick cuz im using watercolor paper and getting them to lay flat wouldve been annoying #and also i wouldve had to pay a lot more attention to how the pages were actually laid out #and this project was already kinda overwhelming without that added in #im also combining methods a bit cuz im also gonna glue the spine with wood glue for extra support #and i also dont want the stitching to be visible #every tutorial was also like ''coptic stitch is great for exposed stitching!!!'' like cool story. not why im using it. gonna cover that shit #also finding one that wasnt in video form AND actually showed everything i needed to know was completely impossible apparently #i needed to know how to attach a fresh string when i run out cuz i always struggle with that in any sewing project #and generally need a refresher each time #and all the written ones were just like ''just make sure your string is long enough before hand!!! but not so much that it becomes #tangled!!!'' bitch im making a much thicker book than you. i cannot just use ONE string. it b #absolutely WILL become tangled if i make it long enough to finish the binding in one go. #yall are WEAK #my book is 3 times thicker than yours #i need to know how to attach a fresh string #the video tutorials cover that but i had to fast forward through most of it #im running out of steam for tonight (hence why im here and not working on it) so ill be finishing this tomorrow #was hoping to get this part done over the weekend but i ended up not getting a lot of the writing done on friday as i intended #cuz i ended up having to play tech support for my friend so she could update her sims mods

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[redvelvetwishtree]

What is the correlation with pro-Israel blogs being either extremely racist or just p0rn blogs?

#i always open a pro-Israel blog when it engages with my posts in any way because I want to see if they hsve evidence and information.... #... information about anything that might be happening in Israel #there is never any information #there is always extremely racist and islamophobic content on there #they are all still using h@m@s and @nt1 s€m1itism as excuses because that's what they were taught decades ago #they don't have up to date news about anything #like literally nothing of substance on their blog that could support the b0tH sIdEs story many like to post #or an overwhelming amount is p0rn0gr@phy... #when i say overwhelming i mean 9 out of 10 #they have nothing of substance to present #and because of that they keep repeating @nt1 sem1t1sm all day everyday without realising this card does not work anymore #israel has been exposed too much but somehow these blogs are not one bit aware #i am just fascinated by the correlation... #israel #fuck israel #palestine #free palestine #gaza #gaza strip #free gaza

[pepprs]

tonight in class we had to pair up w a classmate and talk abt our positionality in doing community engaged work and i got paired w my carpool who is a 50something yr old mom whose kids are slightly older than i am and i told her abt how im bi but my experience of coming out to my family was so damaging that it forever fucked my ability to be vulnerable with ppl / not hesitate in being my true full self even when it has nothing to do w my sexuality and. 🥹🥹🥹🥹 she told me that she recently realized she’s bi too and she hasn’t told anyone yet even her kids and she showed me she’s going to these meetup groups for lesbians and bi women and she showed me all the ebooks she’s reading that are wlw love stories and she told me i need to start doing affirmations and she showed me her journal and all the things she does for self care like buying herself flowers every week just because she can. and i haven’t thought about it too much since she dropped me off at home but its just hitting me now and it kinda makes me want to cry thinking about it. her kindness took my breath away. im not alone!

#purrs #i mean i knew i wasn’t alone but like. to hear this wonderful beam of light of a woman talk abt how she too is figuring out her sexuality #and is shy witb it and struggling just like me… and for her to be so kind like that.. im just overwhelmed by it really. especially this time #of year bc it was just national coming out day which will forever be one of the most painful days of my life lawl 🤑 she doesn’t know the #full story but even for her to be like so firmly passionately like.. how you are treated was wrong. and for her to be IMMEDIATELY vulnerable #like that��. god. i feel kind of weird being more ‘experienced’ than her in some ways like just in terms of being semi-out and knowing that I #like girls for most of my life whereas for her it’s only been in the last few months thst she’s known. but like.. wow!

[samarecharm]

Random question about the “they should make persona for people who like good games” post. Do people think the persona series is that bad? I know they aren’t perfect but I wouldn’t call them bad games.

I had a wholeass essay written out before i realized im too tired to make it sound coherent. AND my only experience is p 4 and 5, so my opinion on it means jack shit. All i can say is that the most recent titles suffer from bad writing. (And repetitive gameplay, but thats a different issue). Be it poorly written characters and dialogue, or poorly written interactions and plot, it is hard to take some of the stuff in the more recent games at face value. One could argue that that just means the game is subpar, not necessarily bad, but thats subjective; bad means different things to different people. And i say this as someone who thinks this game is Not the best but still found it incredibly engaging and entertaining.

#chattin #i am the kind of person to write video essay length posts on games that disappointed me LOL #so i am the wrong person to ask #remember that when thinking about the quality of a game; you should ask urself #who is the target audience? is it accessible to this audience? do i need an outside source to keep up with this game ? (like a guide) #if its in a series; what does it do to separate itself from the others? #is the writing okay? characters? interactions( #? #insensitive content ? #how is it handled? the game may me okay for me but can I have my fat friends enjoy this game??? #can i have my trans friends and gay male friends enjoy this game??? #who can i recommend it to? my sister is unable to process all of the social links and requirements for these social links #so she just. doesnt do it. she IS the target audience bc she likes rpgs #and she likes the story and characters. but its too overwhelming #and the social links would be overwhelming regardless of the difficulty #are u meant to enjoy the game in one playthrough or across multiple runs?? #is it WORTH it to do those runs? for a game that has ‘choices’ it is painfully linear #and it confuses people who are trying to follow the rules (do things in my free time to build confidants) #when theyre unable to actually hang out w confidants bc of a rush of mandatory scenes #velvet room fusions are a pain and overly complex #and the game stops being about making a good build #and it starts to become ‘make a shadow null to everything bc the game will keep instakilling you’ #forcing a game over when ur main character dies is ALWAYS bad to me i will swear by this #u make more interesting builds when u arent scared of a gameover #weh. rambling #the game is as bad or good as u want it to br #people clearly love it; we talk about our faves all the time. but how many of us are replaying a game meant to be replayed. not many.

[enigmasandepiphanies]

I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows

#gift giving is not a competition to some of us bestie #love is not conditional #dont make me overwhelmed by making our mutual friends bday a fucking competition #thank god her best friend also agrees and we are both her best friends so we know #but just why are people so #like this insecurity with love is so insane #people who want to see your love will see your love at the end of the day and if they don't keep being the lighthouse around please #anyway in other good news spoke to the cool batchmate i always wanted to talk more with and she was also like bro i love having convos with #you lets hangout and so we ate dinner walked and talked about history partition cultural stories my ex friend's bisexuality crisis which was #so similar to hers also takked about my cultural crisis family stories her firefly house urdu poetry her boyfriend my career pospects #so yayy i guess but so tired presentation was good prof questioned a lot cause he literally knows my source text authors its his friend in #uni and this girl said he'll take us out for drinks on last day of course so yayyyyyyy #my roomie and her bf constantly talk eh that is but i am gonna shower play my playlist till i sleep #today has been something but atleast i will have dinner with a new person tomorrow as well so yayyyy #life is just being very overwhelmed lately and i just hope people i love know that i love them and i am missing them even though #they live a floor above from me or live miles away too actually #eni life stories

[naffeclipse]

When you finish the cryptid fic do you have any other AUs or fics planned?

Or any you're kind of considering at the moment?

I'm going to write a MerMay fic that's a spiritual sequel to Deep Dreams involving Sun and Moon!

I do have a few AUs that I haven't talked about yet, but I hesitate to bring them up as I still have a few fics that are currently published that I can/might add more to, like Syzygy in Dedication, but I also don't want to jump into another big writing project so soon after CS. I'm just going to focus on the MerMay fic and see what I'm feeling after that :)

#i do want to get to more of those SJ prompts #I have a little story line in mind for BH!Eclipse as well that would maybe be three parts? #i am also constantly haunted by my canon fic that i need to face one day #so yeah there are many options but thinking about it too much can be overwhelming #so i'm just gonna stick to CS then Song Fish #naff nuh huh

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again

#I think I said something like this last year too lol #currently in a weird headspace about it #the biggest reason why I lost focus on them was bc I prioritized engaging in fandom #(something that I never really did when I was focused on publishing a few years back) #so part of me feels like in order to make considerable progress on projects again I need to cut myself off from fandom #and I kinda have been weening myself off a bit from animanga but not really for that reason #it was mostly bc I was getting overwhelmed by how much I was consuming and I wanted to appreciate things fully #I don’t think I’d cut myself off from fandom completely either I’d still try to keep up with stuff #but the idea of not engaging in fandom anymore kinda.. scares me? #idk I feel like a major loser admitting this lol #it just feels like I’d lose a lot of connections with people #and would lose a lot of the love I have for stories if I’m not actively interacting with them :( #and then there’s also that stupid feeling of being a ‘fake fan’ because I’m not dedicating every single second of free time to fandom #which is dumb bc like I have a life and need to make money yknow I got things to do #im just Stressed bc I’m at such a critical stage career wise and im getting closer to 26 so hhhhh healthcare coverage will be up in the air #so I really can’t afford to dawdle #there’s just so much I wanna do and while I’m not necessarily racing to get it done I still want to take advantage of the time I have #but it also sucks feeling like I’m giving up a part of myself to progress on another part of myself #I don’t think any of this makes sense sorry I just needed to dump my thoughts bc I am Terrified™️ #anyway personal projects! gotta get back to those ! #blahblahbills #delete later

[belphieslilcow]

fuck wait i forgot the last nb event was like a dream thing was it belphie centric fuck

#if i think about it too long i'll get overwhelmed and have a meltdown so i shant #hopefully #but uhh idk for sure cause i Didn;t Log In #i havent properly played in forever cause #im so far behind in terms of the story #like i think im still on asmo's part?? #maybe? #the power creep is just so fucking awful in nightbringer #or whatever the term would be #you need stupid high level cards in every type to even pass the ruri tunes levels #and it's so frustrating cause ruri tunes isn't hard in the slightest especially on normal it's actually frustratingly easy #because of how slow it is #but i have to use so many support items just to literally get a c at the last note #so i can finally read things #and idk it just makes me feel bad that i'm not caught up (it makes him feel like a failure) #so i get into the loop of feeling bad cause im far behind and then i dont play but then i cant make progress and the story continues which #means im even FURTHER behind #ohh i think i got it i think i scrounged in my brain i think i feel left out (has issues with that)