#we all deserve that someday

[sivsii]

I sincerely hope every artist gets to have the experience of falling in love with their art someday. even if you have to fight for it. i think we all deserve to look at the result of our creativity all giddy and go holy shit, I loved making this! I love the lines I put down and the colors I used and the indulgences I’ve taken. I love seeing things I liked and taking it for my own, pushing and molding and playing. I can’t wait to do it again

#art stuff #maybe this is just me being all mushy or whatever but GOD #i used to hate my art so fucking much #i used to hate the act of creating so deeply that putting pen to paper knotted up my insides #and I don’t know HOW I grew through that but I did! i genuinely thought it was the end of such an important part of who I am #but it wasn’t! #and now for the last few years I’ve been consistently able to look at my art and feel proud of myself? like holy shit I made this! #i have such good taste! #and there have been times where I’ve hated the process or been dissatisfied with theresult ofc #art is fucking hard #art block and burnout is a bitch #but Ive still been able to look at the sum of my journey and just feel. satisfied. and accomplished #eager for growth but still proud of what I’ve made #idk #we all deserve that someday

[kimwexlersponytail]

The only thing that kept me going was knowing you were here.

#bcsedit #better call saul #mcwexler #jimmy x kim #kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #been seeing a lot of people saying that they don't deserve a happy ending after everything and though i get why that's being said #i disagree with the idea that they must be punished by the narrative in the form of an absolutely devastating end where they both die or #are broken down even further because they're Bad People and they Deserve It...their relationship is the heart of the show and #i don't believe that the writers spent over half a decade building this relationship up just to leave everything hanging in the balance #we can argue all day about jimmy and kim being Good or Bad but they love each other. they do. and bcs is a love story #do i believe that they're going to live happily ever after and get a fairytale ending? no of course not but i don't see a doom and gloom end #for them either. narratively speaking jimmy has been in prison all this time and who knows what kim has been up to all this time #i just don't think it would be narratively satisfying if the ending was about punishing them i really don't #i think it's going to be bittersweet for sure but there's no doubt in my mind that it'll be full of heart.... #but god all of the takes about jimmy not deserving to meet up with kim in the gene timeline are just making me root for it even harder #and i really hope the world turns back to color the moment he sees her and idc how many people think it's cheesy <3 #and you know what someday maybe they'll finally get their house. #mine

[hiddenbysuccubi]

"Why's it necessary to have transphobes calling X character their deadname-" To show exactly what we face. That it is ugly and unnecessary. To parallel their grandmum fumbling but doing their best. To show how I still have to hear my birth name in legal settings. To show that my mom isn't really an ally but is trying for my sake. to show humanity and that it isn't just easy A B C the character is This without even Trying. To connect with a varied audience. Why the entirety of fuck do you want it sugar coated and dumbed down for you? In a perfect world yes it DOESN'T MATTER. But for how often it does matter - IT MATTERS. It matters that I get to see this character facing the harship I have faced AND SHRUGGING IT OFF. It does MATTER that their family accepts them even if they struggle with correcting the pronoun they use. The Star Beast handled this correctly and I'm glad our LGBT rep producer handled this the way he did. I'm sorry that the younger generations don't appreciate this the way I do.

#Doctor Who #Sorry not sorry #The Star Beast #You have to appreciate subtext to appreciate when they break through subtext to just make it text #some of the posts I've read recently want to jump through a dozen hoops without effort or appreciating the mainstream backlash it takes #AT ALL #We won today #it's wonderful #Now stop discounting everyone who came before you to enjoy it #We WILL get to effortless text someday #Now stop belittling those of us who didn't get this when we were your age and discouraging those who can give us this now #Do we deserve better yes #But this is something huge for BBC and a newly backed Disney narrative #And remember not to be prejudiced and phobic to those who experience queer different than you or face being no better than the haters

[devilfic]

it's funny that anon talking about being a late bloomer sent that ask today because I just got done having a conversation about how being a late bloomer can really fuck with your brain. specifically, I think I've narrowed down why it's hard for people who aren't late bloomers to conceptualize why it can fuck with your brain.

non-late bloomers see romantic experiences in their youth as trivial because they've probably had infinitely better experiences since then. they might struggle to understand why anyone would envy that first experience, especially when they're so often... Not Great. meanwhile, late bloomers are still ruminating on when they'll get to have their first experience.

I don't think that having a first kiss as a teenager like the rest of my peers would've made me better off full stop. I do think that it would have assured me, in a real and tangible way, that somebody at least ONCE has wanted to kiss me. and the longer I go on without that tangible evidence, the more it means to me.

because that kiss could have been gross and slimy and otherwise unremarkable, but I would be reassured that at one point in time, there was a person who looked at me and thought, "I wanna kiss you." which feels infinitely better than never knowing at all.

#mjspeaks #it's less the thing taking place at a specific time and more so the reassurance that someone has wanted to do that thing with you #and when you begin to crave doing these things as a teenager but don't get that release... it does a number on your self-esteem #now that I'm in my 20s it isn't like. world-ending to me anymore. but it is a deep and unique pain #I missed out on a lot of 'typical' teenage experiences bc of my upbringing. and I make up for them everyday in adulthood #which is why I wrote late-bloomer!! bc it sucks being 'behind' regardless of how okay it is. we know it's okay. it still hurts #anyway there's nothing wrong with you if you're a late bloomer. you'll get that reassurance someday. people love in silence all the time #and you deserve someone to love you out loud!

[delurkr]

Little Hope is WAY too sad guys, I hate it actually 😤

Joking ofc but fr every time I watch another playthrough of it I fall in love even harder 💗 yet I am mercilessly and utterly destroyed over and over again each time Anthony gets left alone in the end, I simply cannot with the whole thing guys I mean why'd they have to make it SO SAD?? And with the MUSIC?? I mean??? Bro it's too sad we gotta fix it, what can we do to fix it

#what did we do deserve such a sad game guys #what did ANTHONY do #WHAT DID ANY OF THEM DO 😡😡 #ok no cause listen #literally none of the rest of the dpa has this kind of thing built into the endings #you can MAKE happy feeling endings in the other games even after all the carnage and whatever along the way #for lh tho? #NOPE #its heartbreak and misery over here 24/7 #and there is no relief #and its legit gonna kill me someday #ramblings #the dark pictures anthology #little hope

[cascadianights]

I understand being upset that the character you saw yourself most in died, that he didn't get to sail off with everyone else. We've been force-fed tragedy and buried gays for years, happiness finally finally dangled in front of them just to lose it all before they could taste it.

But that's not what happened here. Izzy didn't just get to glance at what that life could be, he lived it. He got to experience family, and acceptance. He got to make choices to step forward, to be himself to be HAPPY. The way people are implying that because he died, it was all pointless?! That his healing and growth and huge steps forward all became null and void because he died??? Life and growth and love and choosing family choosing to fight for and protect them even knowing what it might cost is EVERYTHING! It's the WHOLE POINT!!!

This was not a condemnation of Izzy it was a celebration of him. This was a reminder that even though we're all going to die, no matter how much pain you've been through, you can still choose to heal and move forward and live for yourself and the ones you love.

Nevermind the entire rest of the crew?! Nevermind the gay marriage, the chill polyamory, the in depth dive into suicide (via Ed) and how none of us is unlovable. Nevermind that he died surrounded by family and love, something he never thought possible. You CANNOT just discard it all and harass the creators & take this as a message of despair when it is a blazing neon sign to KEEP LIVING KEEP FIGHTING KEEP SINGING!!!!! To do so is to get lost in the pain and the internalized voices that say we Will be miserable forever, when so so many people are working to make this art begging you to be able to feel and move forward and heal from that place.

#ofmd #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 #izzy hands #ofmd izzy #please i know what its like to feel betrayed and in pain #that is what this show is ABOUT #but if it all means nothing just bc we're gonna die someday #if a whole enormous act of love and connection shouting out to you that we will make it we do deserve happiness we will find family #if that isnt enough i dont know what to say!! the cops and demons in your mind can only be banished by you #but this work is here to help and to beg you to keep living long enough to try and PLEASE see that #also I know my dash is extreme vibe dysphoria bw genocide and gay pirates rn but this is my current hyperfixation coping mechanism #i also copied this from a note w a totally unrelated sentence at the top and def posted it that way so if u see that version #ancestor forests is unrelated lmao

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

sometimes i think about it, yk? as cringe as it sounds i really do think about it.

cringe warning yippeee- (just me texting abt dumb silly writing idea AUGH)

#ill delete this later #probably. #i feel nostalgic all of a sudden over this #sometimes i think about old ideas i never got around to finishing #this idea deserved better even with how much it used to not leave me alone #pre 2 moment frfr #me using what canon we had to form some semblance of a cringe unhinged moment #also yes this is “i can feel it in my bones” this is literally me talking about it for the first time #i miss it sometimes. if i could i would hug this au.... is it an au? probably. #i was so scatter brained abt it yk but its fine. i was 17 and dumb so it checks out #maybe someday ill get around to opening that document. it was literally inherently the first toh fic i really wrote. before i even finished- #-watching s1 #like i wrote part of it from october 2020 to november a bit #anyway this is dumb to post about but i feel like i should put this somewhere #i should open up that document to look at it. maybe fix some of that writing. idk

[skrunksthatwunk]

just found out rascal (babycat)'s been with his owner this whole time instead of my roommate which is. something. :|

#if you dont know whats happening basically mr and my roommate (dorms) have been raising an abused kitten belonging to our floormates #we had him for a month and a half i think and then a month of break has gone by with my roomie staying on campus and me going back home #to my prey-driven dogs and snake and cat-allergic mother among other things. hence the inability to really take him in easily. #i mean shit. if she decided to actually take care of him instead of making everyone around her into free childcare then that's a good thing #*petcare #and admittedly both me and my roommate should've been more in contact about him whether this was going on or not #we both have really bad object permanence + flow of time issues though so it kinda... didnt happen #i thought about him a lot though. i planned on coming back early to spend a few days just chilling with him before the semester started #but other stuff got in the way and i had the 'its too late so dont ask at all' guilt #idk. it seems like hes alive but i don't know much more than that rn. it makes me nervous yk #but i never thought she'd just. still have him. i never expect what she does with him tbh #i almost feel better about getting stuck and not figuring out visiting or shared custody (in my house that is Not Ideal For Him) knowing it #wasn't even really attainable but. shit. #i want her to treat him like he deserves and if she's doing that i have no right to complain. he's not my cat. he's not. #but it means she'll probably just leave with him someday. no thanks or payment or future contact. idk i just. thought this would end sooner #in taking him to a shelter or a new home or us taking him in or her putting her foot down. but instead it's like im drowning in gelatin #what am i even doing. i love him. so much. and i want a cat so so bad. i want *him* so bad. #but i didn't rescue him and i didnt even try and. god idk. i love him and i still couldn't get my ass up to visit in a whole month #i want to say it's because i was stuck and it's not untrue. but i just. idk. i still feel like i shoulda pushed through or whatever anyway. #it makes me feel like im just as bad as his owner when i know im not. im not. #he's probably a lot bigger now. assuming she's actually feeding him. god. i really thought he'd be with my roommate #for reasons im not even gonna bother getting into. and i was reassured that my roomie would tell me if something was up with him. and she #didnt. and im not mad at her it's not her fault i didn't reach out when i wanted to know. but i feel just. ough. stupid ass situation i got #myself into. stupid sad ass consequences of being nosy and big hearted and wanting to help in stupid ways #at least her dogs didnt eat him. i was worried about that. i don't think i could take it if she got him killed and i didn't push harder to #help him. but i can't just fucking. kidnap him. he's not mine and we're neighbors and i can't even keep him at my home. not really. #god i miss him so much. i hope i didn't hurt him by leaving. fucking hell. #but he needs somebody and his owner is almost certainly not it. and maybe im not either but i want to try for him. man.

[softersinned-arc]

you ever think about a character who just got so spectacularly fucked over by canon that you really don't know where to even start with making it right so you kind of just have to hold them in your hands and say "i love you so much and someday i'll do right by you" because

#(thinking abt fiona dra.gon age today) #('fuck the chantry' ma'am i'd die for you) #(what i wouldn't have given for her to get to interact with hawke. or velanna.) #(or for her and alistair to have CONNECTED god i cry so hard whenever i reread the calling) #(do i need another character? no! will i write her anyway? probably!) #(god. god. god. thinking bout what would have happened if we could have gotten her instead of wynne) #(fiona carefully avoiding alistair for as long as she can because He Doesn't Know and seeing him with the amulet knowing it's hers) #(watching her son fall in love for the first time. knowing he's likely to die in the final battle.) #(or fiona in kirkwall??? or even. fuck. a real explanation for fiona to have allied with alexius) #(because she had to have a fucking reason) #(and it had to be good so like. was she being manipulated? we know blood mages can hold other people in a thrall) #(and given the threat from the chantry we know that there was real danger posed) #(but what would have prompted her to a.) invite in a foreign power while trying to stay safe in ferelden) #(and b.) invite in a foreign power that frequently engaged in the enslavement of elves) #(when she herself has such a painful history) #(and is now responsible for countless mages. including elves.) #(anyway. holds her in my hands. i love you. someday i'm gonna figure out how to do right by you.) #(also. nevarran fiona whose necromancy could make the mortalitasi blush. it's what i deserve.) #(thinkin bout cassandra too what if i just put everyone on the new multi and subject you all to watching me reblog about them constantly) #(cassandra has curly hair i want you all to know this she has thick curly hair and she cuts it v short so the curls are SO bouncy) #iv. tilting pretty sharply bitchward. ( marianning )

[bmpmp3]

i consider myself a bit of a connoisseur of besties-turned-lovers stories but one thing that has always bothered me a little is when the besties actually become lovers and then the relationship loses all bestie-itude LIKE correct me if im wrong but i feel like these things aren’t usually mutually exclusive... i see it more often with m/f besties but i see it with same gender, etc besties on occasion too and like. YES its realistic that friendships change their dynamics over time (even without turning into lovers) but i always see this thing where these two besties get together and then are immediately like “but i CANT dick around with my bestie anymore because theyre also my significant other” you could if you werent a coward. can’t u dick around with ur bestie romantically. can’t you dick around with ur partner bestie-ly. what am i not getting here

#and i mean maybe its because i do enjoy a m/f relationship often in a very bisexual and mildly genderly sort of way #that this character relationship development style is so like. alien and bizarre to me. what am i not understanding #had pacific rim on the mind and i was thinking about some m/f besties i like. mako and whats his nuts #(sorry i really like his character but i havent seen that movie in like 7 years orz) #i really adore their relationship as besties and also i do like the fun little flirty scenes they had a couple times in the movie too #thats a m/f bestie couple i quite like in like a romantic and platonic way folded over itself. if that makes sense #i think its very sweet and awesome. mako deserves a handsome bestie to flirt with. as a treat #thank god they never removed any bestieness from their relationship. even in the goofy flirty scenes they had they were still bestieing #thank u mr del toro #wait sorry now im thinking about mixed gender besties. i love mulder and scully of course we all do #and in the three seasons ive seen ive come to the conclusion i like them in the sense that like #theyre platonic theyre romantic theyre both theyre neither theyre something else entirely #but most importantly. theyre scully and mulder LOL #its a category in and of itself. a very interesting form of besties #oh and recently ive been rewatching elementary since i never saw the past the first season #that one as of the season ive seen i adore fully and completely platonically. oh these guys are very platonic besties #only sherlock story on earth where sherlock and watson are purely platonic LOL #god their relationship is great. oh speaking of platonic im still like fascinated with that one webcome i never finished. villainess no more #i think thats what it was called. someday i'll finish it. its fun and the romance is sweet but i still like. #kinda liked their relationship more when they were just besties at first sight. marriage of convenience turned platonic besties #probably not intentional from the author. sorry. im a sucker for romance so thats kinda new for me too #theres so many variety of bestie. so many layers. its a rich artform: the bestie

[appropriatelystupid]

saw the pjo trailer and forgot they had announced the medusa casting and was fully ready to start clowning about who i’d love to be surprised by in the part

#the chance of her popping up in a different role isn’t zero and it’s most of what’s keeping me going even if it’s just .000000000000000001 #but she should definitely play medusa someday in something because i think we all deserve that actually

[scenetember]

no new prompt list this yr! :< honest update.

hello scenesters, strange update i was not expecting to make.

there will not be a new prompt list for this year, maybe there will be next year.. but unsure currently.

the reasoning for this is something ive been trying to not bring up too often but has started to become more difficult to not mention. CHAR (creator of this blog and sp4rkl3-d0g ) is an alter in a DID system. Ive avoided sharing this too much because the system has been in therapy for DID for years and it has been a very personal and scary struggle that I dont share with others ever for safety reasons. When CHAR first created his blog and scenetember, my system didnt see a problem as scenecore hasnt taken off like it has today, and i figured he wouldnt get much attention. oops! CHAR has now amassed a lot of followes on this and his personal blog. We all feel a bit overwhelmed with the amount of people we have here, so for now we are taking a step back. Thank you for making the scene comminity shine! ☀️ - C + M and co.

#txt #scenetember #maybe someday we will be back 🥲 probably not though. would prefer to watch from the sidelines instead #scenecore has gotten sooooo big in the past couple yrs! i see scene kids when i go outside again now! that rocks:) #but wed like to blend into the background a little more 👉👈 thank u for participating:) #might rb posts this year might not #physical health is still bad so unsure. CHAR will probably post on his main more but .. 🫤 #just wanted to say something instsad of being silent like we were originally planning. this community has always been kind to us #and deserves more than that :) #might delete this post eventually .. dont really like discussing DID outside of my therapy and it feels raw having it out here #thank you all again ✌️ esp. if you read the tags too #oh and please make ur own prompts this year please keep it alive somehow! thanks!

[unhonestlymirror]

Maybe it's for the better that I don't remember what I had at home

#I remember I had hundreds of books which I wanted to reread someday #I don't really remember what they were about #some illustrations #Lots of clothes #Several big anatomy atlases which costed damn too much #My guitar #My two guitars #It's just when Im having a breakdown while lying i remember how i was lying in a corridor and crying the same way because #russians were constantly bombing the building 'with neonazis' near us #not counting my mom i was the only person who cried from time to time im a bit embarrassed of this fact #My siblings and my dad didn't cry at all #So many people have being dying FOR WHAT for some russian ego?? #I remember how i read that a student from my uni was shot to death his name was Shmagliy Danylo #everything loses it's value when genocide comes to your home #I remember how a girl I can't stand sent a video with helicopters and fuck #Just because we are work enemies doesn't mean she deserved it #My another classmate lives in Brovary it's near Kyiv and I was so scared because she didn't respond and it was when Bucha happened #She's ok and her family as well #It is the time when people you barely know or even dislike write that rocket hit their house or someone died again and #It's the time your 'dislike' doesn't matter anymore #Nothing has so low price and nothing can be more valuable at the same time than life

[constantvariations]

I understand technical limitations preventing intricate and complex character designs but damn if I don't wish Nora looked more like a viking. I'd love her w a fuckton of braids and a strong nose and a big gut from celebration feasts. Maybe even a tattoo or two. Itd be fuckin sweet

#rwde #not blaming the animators or designers or anyone here #i know jack abt 3d animation but i def know that all those braids in 2d would make me go insane #but nothing abt her really says Thor other than hammer and lightning yknow? #like i adore the viking aesthetic #esp big strong noses theyre literally my favorite to draw #hopefully someday ill get around to posting a nora redesign #tall and thicc nora is what we all deserve #and it makes sense considering that she'd be fat bc long periods of starvation will change how your body retains energy stores #her being food poor as a child would def make her fat and food focused as an older person