#we can study him for a while

[thewiglesswonder]

@undergaster I love him. I would die for him. I want a 300k word fic about him by midnight tonight. I’m going insane thinking about him.

#does he have a personality of his own or is it just bee and wasp shoving back and forth for control? #we may never know. #team prime takes him in because he’s BUMBLEBEE (sort of) and like. what else can they do #ratchet is trying to study whatever freaky cybertronian artifact caused this #while everybody else has no IDEA how to react to this double minibot hurricane #he’s caught between familiarity and safety from being in team prime’s base #and the fact that half of him hasn’t felt safe in a few hundred years #I’m spinning him in my mind like a gas station hot dog. #I want to hug him. I want to study him. lovingly #my art #tf #tfa #transformers #transformers animated #maccadam #bumblebee #tfa bumblebee #wasp #tfa wasp

[moliathh]

hellsing and the case study of vanitas crossover would be so cool omg i like how blonde hair green eyed monster-hunter priest that is overly enthusiastic, have superhuman strength thanks to medical enhancement, is a big brother to others in his team and is only loyal to god is a universal thing in both of this media

cute short haired vampire girls with big ahh weapons

and a lot of vampires too (basically vanitas no carte is a manga about vampires)

it would be amusing to see alucard in this setting because according to the vanitas lore vampires are born under red moons and those born under blue moon are cursed, alucard was born in sunrise so hes built different plus that would be interesting to see a new type of vampire being introduced in the vanitas universe

in the vanitas setting there were vampires everywhere but they function and disguise like humans until there is a type of vampire rabbies that make them go bloodlust 🧎‍♂️ i would like to see alucard get sick with this typa rabbies too

and the vampire biology in vanitas universe allowed vampire and human crossbreed into half vampire half human called dhampir 😭 omg alutegra can have kids in this setting

and the difference is that vanitas is set in france while hellsing is set in england, that explain the big difference in attire etiquette (vanitas is set in 19th century and hellsing is set in 20th)

probably it have to be some sort of time travelling shenanigans that get the hellsing cast into vanitas universe where women dressing in breeches is not new but guns like hellsing arms is definitely a refreshing addition to the lack of gun as a weapon choice in vanitas no carte

i like how the vanitas cast are mostly bourgeois and dressed like one while the hellsing cast is also very high status but due to their job requirementsthey dress in uniforms like military force, it is stated in gonzoverse that there are other true vampires besides alucard that fly under the radar and was not exterminated since they did not pose a threat (idk if hellsing knew about helena’s existence but im sure they must had known and with the way helena phrased it there are more than only her and alucard) so despite france in vanitas universe being swarmed with vampires in hiding i dont think the hellsing cast would butcher them all since the vampires in vanitas universe live by vampire’s underground codes and rules forbid them from attacking human to protect their own people from hunters too

also vanitas no carte is a manga i would recommend because the WOMEN

#hellsing #the case study of vanitas #vanitas no carte #alutegra #crossover #jun mochizuki was the author i grew up with #she was the reason i can draw laces and victorian gothic dresses i am forever in debt #i love vampire medias #omw to go thru all vampire medias so i can make AU and put alutegra in those alternate universes #and while we are at it might as well pour castlevania into the mix #roland use durandal and trevor use morningstar which are both whips #hellsing and belmont being colleagues since they are both vampire hunter families #alucard tepes is a dhampir #looking at my post again i realized i may had choose a too tamed image for roland fortis #putting him side by side with anderson makes roland looks like a coughing baby #but i swear roland is scary af i am glad that he is on the protagonist side because he is fucking uncanny scary in battle mode

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[talesofthehollow]

Wild how I spent years of my life not hearing Louis Hofmann utter a word of English until now. It’s been two weeks & I’m still *SH00K*, TBH. In my defense, I was knee-deep into my studies @ uni in 2017, so I didn’t have much mental bandwidth to spare for Dark, even though I liked what I saw of the show. So, I set it aside & sort of forgot about it. Fast forward six years later, the ATLWCS trailer pops up on my feed & I recognize the actor who played Jonas in the YT thumbnail, piquing my curiosity. Now imagine that I’ve only ever heard Louis Hofmann speak German, as it didn’t occur to me to look up cast interviews/promo materials when they were right THERE. Silly me, huh? Nothing could have prepared me for the on-point RP in the press. It’s not so much that I’m surprised he speaks well, but what gets me is HOW well. He could easily blend in with the British crowd unless you’re listening closely.

P.S. His current accent & level of proficiency took years of dedication, which I can confirm after going through his interviews over the years. He always had solid foundation, but he improved so much within that time frame.

#claudie!screeches #louis hofmann #dark netflix #jonas kahnwald #all the light we cannot see #all the light we cannot see netflix #atlwcs #atlwcs netflix #werner pfennig #all this to say #no one is immune from certain biases #or making assumptions #but also #Iinguistics & studying different languages #very much my thing #so this all fascinating to me #he's an incredible talent btw #& while we're at it #can his agent get him more romantic parts ASAP PLS #preferrably w/ HEAs

[shhh-secret-time]

To be honest, stardew valley has me in such a chokehold. It always has, even before the 1.6.

In such a way that my brain wants to smash my hyperfixation into it. So late at night I'll be awake thinking of this stardew/south park mashup.

Call that bad boy Star Park AU.

But no brain! Bad! We already have too much going on! You have a Secret Soulmate AU. Fantasy AU, A Cowboy AU story staring Kenny that's still in the outline phase, and these one shots!

(Look at the tags to watch me descent into madness)

#like C'mon #it would be so cute and wholesome #ya know #everything south park isn't #its not my fault I think about me and my friends ocs starting a little farm together #i got one friend I rp with #we smash everything into our stardew rp #it ain't even really stardew besides like the layout of the town #I could write something like that up #like Stan and his family are already “farmers” #the heart event where he tells you he fucking hates it #but next heart event he confesses he's starting to associate farming with you #and now...maybe its not so bad? #COME ON #Kenny taking Karen to see your animals and falling in love with the way you're so gentle with her #Kyle finding you passed out in the mines and scolding you for being careless #but he's patching you up while he does it!!!? #Cartman demanding you bring him crops from your farm because #“everyone elses crops taste like dirt and ball sweat! at least I can stomach yours.” #(its the sweetest thing hes ever said tbh) #tweek having his little coffee shop set up there #he gets away from his parents and moves out to the valley because its quiet! #Craig moves out there to study the stars because they're so clear he can almost see all of them without a telescope #Clyde is JUST Alex and you cant change my mind #after the death of his mother he goes to live with his grandparents #Bebe is like a mix of Haley and Emily! #her events would be you helping her get her outfit designs off the ground and using her photography skills to have you model them #Wendy's whole thing would her being the mayors assistant but over heart events you make her believe in herself #and she becomes mayor; fuck you lewis you old fuck #shhh its a secret

[neverbelessthan]

I just read someone’s hot take on ‘the mermaid scene’ being ‘peak cringe’ and I just-

Sweet, sweet human. That’s Ed’s psyche you’re taking about. My dude is having his life flash before his eyes in the most beautiful little heartbreaking s1 montage, and if that’s how he wants to picture Stede coming to redeem his lonely fucking soul - as a glittery goddamn tits-out merman, then that’s HIS GODDAMN BUSINESS.

#like how #I don’t get it #also the fucking HIPS on that man am I right? (I’m right) #I mean I get it - it’s silly but then also consider that ITS NOT AND GO AWAY #don’t be kink-shaming my man #if he has a merman-Stede fantasy bouncing around in his psyche just ready to go then good for him #also I don’t know how you can be cringing during this scene with the fucking acting by the two of them like #MY HEART #anyway clearly I have some issues #‘some’ lol #but no fuck off actually this entire end sequence is magical I’ll fucking die on this hill come at me #things that will be playing on a loop rent free in my brain while I try to go about my life doing normal adult things like grocery shopping #and studying and having casual conversations #I’ll be like ‘wow those red capsicums have gotten pricey I wonder if it’s a shipping thing?’ #or like ‘yeah I see what you’re saying but I don’t think Nozick’s views on identity and property have the level of overlap you’re assuming’ #and then suddenly my whole brain will just be the image of Stede’s face when he stops on the stairs and stares at Ed’s body #and I’ll be wondering why I can suddenly feel the supermarket floor tiles with my face #and what’s happening? why am I in this white padded van? #where are we going?! #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers

[angelsdean]

my tags on my prev reblog re: dean's misinterpreted attitude toward monsters just got me thinking abt sam and the bloodfreak stuff in general and like, as we know a lot of the early seasons were framed in sam's pov so a lot of the time it' him who's feeling like a monster and projecting that onto others to confirm his own beliefs abt himself. like when he finds out abt john telling dean to kill him if he goes darkside sam suddenly is in agreement w/ john saying john's right and dean has to do it because dad said so !!! anyways that's just preface to what i want to say which is, sam isn't really a monster. what i mean is, he's not a monster in the inherent sense that he seems to think he is, and that's part of the reason why dean pushes back against the demon blood stuff because he knows sam can be saved and for dean his number one job is to save sam because the alternative is following john's order and that's something he just cannot do. so it makes sense that dean would do whatever it takes even if that's being a little mean or forceful (calling him a monster, echoing john by telling him not to walk out that door to give sam pause, forcing him to detox) because he does not want to kill his brother.

but anyways, sam is not a monster in the way he (and a lot of fans) thinks he's a monster. he was Not born a monster, it's not something that is intrinsically and inherently part of him. and i'd argue there's really nothing special or "chosen one"-esque about him (aside from the lucifer bloodline making him a better candidate for vessel purposes), he was just a regular baby who was dosed with demon blood, which in the text is treated as a drug / addiction. there was nothing special about any of the babies azazel dosed, they were just the children of people he'd made deals with. i think pretty much any baby (possibly even adult) who's fed demon blood from a powerful enough demon (like a Prince of Hell) would develop psychic powers. so it's not something completely out of his control that's turning him into a monster like a virus or a vampire / werewolf bite where he can't stop the progression. it's not happening to him he's making active choices to strengthen those powers and the more he feeds the more he wants it. everything w/ ruby is framed as him knowing he's doing something "wrong", the sneaking around, the lying. and i think dean's response is along the lines of "we need to get you help. we need to stop this because it's something that can be stopped. and if we stop it then i won't have to see you lose yourself or go too far. because if you go too far and start hurting people then i might have to kill you and i can't do that so please just let us save you." and i think that's fair. yes he and bobby maybe go about things the wrong way but i think it's born out of desperation. and also it's not a rejection of "this is who you are and we hate you for being a monster" it's "you're making choices that are leading you down a dangerous path and we're scared we may lose you so we're trying to stop you from going too far down that road."

like the end goal of all the bloodfreak stuff (ruby's end goal) was to free lucifer and freeing lucifer would mean sam becoming his vessel. they obviously don't know all that at the time, but in hindsight it's like, yea we should've curbed that bloodfreak stuff sooner. also heaven was telling dean to stop sam too and that he was going down a dangerous path and that if dean doesn't stop him they will (likely meaning death) so again, of course dean's gonna try to do whatever he can to stop sam even if it's by not great methods. (also heaven was playing him too bc they also wanted lucifer to be freed so that Destiny could come to pass)

#i've been thinking a lot abt the bloodfreak stuff lately #esp whenever i see takes that sam is like inherently different or monstrous #like he's really not ??? he was just a baby who was fed demon blood like many other babies #i read the bloodfreak stuff thru an addition lens moreso than a 'there's something inherently wrong w/ me' lens #which is also why the queercoded sam stuff often just. does not stick for me. like i Can see where ppl are coming from #but when you don't view sam's monstrous-ness as inherent then it's like. well it doesn't make for good parallels to queerness #whereas you take the shifter / dean parallels and it's like !!!! the shifter relating to dean and saying they're alike in many ways #that they were both born different and hated before they had to make themselves different and both just want someone to love them #and the shifter as dean earlier telling sam he's a freak he knows he's a freak and that everyone will always leave him #it's just different the way dean's ''freakness'' is framed as something inherent to him #while sam's is literally literally !! something that was Introduced to him after the fact not something he was born with #i'm sorry and this isn't sam crit it's more. interpretation crit ? #but also i think we can all have different and conflicting interpretations too bc sometimes i'm like yea. queer sam! #(tho often that has nothing to do w/ the monster-coding) #but idk i've just been thinking abt the bloodfreak stuff lately and how other characters reacted to it and how it's framed from sam's pov #vs deans and other characters. like sam seems to think there is something inherently wrong w/ him and so a lot of viewers believe it #but from outside perspectives dean and bobby and even heaven view it as an addiction and as choices sam's making that he can stop #vic.txt #mymeta #long post #sam studies

[aserpent]

btw my lucifer's intentions for tempting eve with the forbidden fruit were two-fold: he did wish to gift humanity knowledge, for he thought living in paradise was not worth the ignorance.. but he's also incredibly petty*, and he wanted to prove a point to The Lord, because he'd already begun waging war with lilith at his side at this point and he was feeling a lil bitchy about it.

#( better to reign in hell than serve in heaven ) * character study. #i really need to make a lore dump... #i still need to mssg all of u from that lore post i made a while back so we can plot and i can thrive <3 #so grateful for all of u being here and supporting this blog even though i'm canon divergent as fuck. #lucifer is so near & dear to me. i've been writing him as a character for years and i'm trying to mould my version of him with HH lucifer. #he doesn't necessarily regret his action but he feels remorseful toward adam in pear & i's post-finale arc.. having stolen paradise from hi #hubris was & always will be his downfall 😔

[disdaidal]

I don't want to brag or sound too optimistic about it, but after three weeks of training at a private college, I think my lessons with this one particular immigrant student (who has serious motivational problems lemme tell ya) are finally starting to get through and there's been improvement.

Only slight improvement so far but I have spotted some, so maybe not all hope is lost yet.

Remains to be seen I guess.

#personal #so in case anyone's still wondering i'm studying to become a tutor/instructor/guidance counselor etc. etc. whatever it's called in english #and currently i mostly work with immigrants with language. sometimes i help high school students as well. but mostly immigrants #and there's this one immigrant student who's been there since last spring. and he still barely even knows the basics because he's 'given up #according to him that is. he told me this at least three times yesterday and i told him that's a problem #so i've been trying to hammer it through his head that he can't be sitting in classes and using his phone when he's supposed to be learning #or expect me or teachers giving him all the answers when he also needs to show a little effort and help us back as well #and that he needs to participate in pair and group activities in classes because we're a team and we need to work together #so basically he's been asking me to either teach him or then find someone who can teach him #i told one of our teachers this and she answered that he could also participate in evening activities at the college but he's not doing tha #and according to him he doesn't 'mingle'. so i told him maybe he should once in a while. get out of his comfort zone. at least try #to my surprise he actually showed up to one of the evening activities that i hosted. didn't do much anything there but sit but still #that was effort. he did exactly what i said despite it making him a little uncomfortable so that's improvement #so then yesterday he asked me about teaching him the language again. i told him i host a homework club at tuesdays & thursdays @ 3:30-4:30p #he showed up there yesterday and was the only student. so i had time to teach him basic greetings. weekdays. months. things he shoulda know #and i thought it's all probably in vain but i tried. so today. he was in their class and actually doing pair work and reading stuff aloud #and even translating some stuff when i asked. calling it easy. and that he's trying to use his phone less and memorize this stuff instead #to which the rest clapped at and cheered him on for. and i told this to the teacher afterwards when she asked me about him. and she gave #me a thumbs up and looked a little surprised but also delighted. because he's been a popular subject amongst ourselves for a reason #so i don't want to get too optimistic about it. because he still has an attitude problem. but he's tried a little at least. so there's hope

[oatbugs]

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#i havent come to terms with the fact that one of the people i held closest to my heart has graduated and i wont see him for a good while #until i can shell out the money to fly to singapore. i get the feeling this is the conductors first shift on the train. #(all the black and breathing rapture) so welcome to charing cross? are you ready? an adminstration error #you are covered in the metallic stench of the rusty chains of command. its time to make four thousand pounds. i thought of you. #here in the garden of england she scrapes the shards of glass from the black sea. first with a spoon and then a knife and the with the #hairdryer that belonged to his mother. in the back of his car i can feel the stutter and jutter of the wheels the same shaky-straight path #of a beginner driver. i love you and the trees. hes finally growing his hair out. here is an enclosed metal room #more man than machine. i wont see you for another year. driving dangerously close to an 8-wheeled tall box i feel safer with you #than i ever will at home. weve already started a campfire in the backseat of your car ive got you didnt i? #we laid in the luxury of a four-person tent next to the mass of campfires and stars and i told her i thought you hated me #I've never hated you. ive never hated anyone except my father. here is how to forgive unspeakable things. #i am really all that ive been looking for. youre not a narcissist baby youve just got a lying problem. take molten gold #and glue the fragments of yourself back together. we cant stop crashing into the sky. drink wine straight from the grapes in the vineyard #and when you give it give it all. studies have shown you view your own future self as a seperate person #and oftentimes you have less empathy for this other person than for a friend. it is time to extend your kindness unequivocally. #the aviation tax attorney on the train floating on water told us a short story of her life. a smile full of charisma and #feeling old retiring at 47. theres a lot about you we shouldn't know. GRAB A GUN AND SHOOT THE IMAGE OF YOURSELF STRAIGHT IN THE MIRROR.

[andthebeanstalk]

I HAVE BEEN LEARNING ABOUT MISTER AUGUSTUS OCTAVIAN/OCTAVIUS GAIUS CAESAR SINCE 8TH GRADE. HOW AM I STILL LEARNING MORE THINGS ABOUT HIM THAT MAKE ME GO "octavius babe holy shit what the fuck what the FUCK dude"

#roman history #overly sarcastic productions #Augustus Caesar #octavian caesar #octavius caesar #original #like is he as crazy as nero? no. but the thing about emperors like nero and caligula is that while a lot of us know their names because #they were so unhinged - they were too violent and volatile to actually have very effective reigns as rulers. #their effect on history is limited in some ways because a mad king will go down in history for madness but little else #but Augustus Caesar was the most ruthless ambitious terrifying motherfucker to ever meddle in the Mediterranean #he makes Julius Caesar look chill. he was so GOOD at political ruthlessness during a time of upheaval that he made himself into a GOD #we still have months named after him and his adoptive father and i live in North America just about 2000 years after he died! #he re shaped a huge part of the world and i have been studying greco roman culture for so much of my life and HOW is it i JUST #found out that this bitch SACRIFICED OTHER ROMANS TO THE GODS. WHICH WAS NOT. A. THING. PEOPLE. DID. EVER. IN. ROME. #and then AFTER THAT he becomes a GOD EMPEROR. how???? #did the sacrifices... WORK?! #like i cannot emphasize enough that I have learned specifically about Roman culture for years #and this is the first I have ever heard of an instance of human sacrifice. it wasn't a thing! it was wicked not a part of their religion!! #and he just did it as a political move. because he was fucking crazy. #and I'm just going to go ahead and use that language because I am a person with severe mental illness and you can bite me. #octavius caesar was fucking crazy. not in the mental illness sense tho - in the HOLY SHIT THAT SHIT IS FUCKING CRAZY sense #although All Things Considered he probably did at least have some kind of trauma regarding all the murder and war and stuff #I once saw a gender swapped production of Julius Caesar and it was really good #and I remember being terrified of my friend lucette playing Octavius. it was great #HUMAN SACRIFICES. IN FUCKING ROME. WHAT. FUCKING WHAT. I AM LOSING MY MIND #how the FUCK did this man manage to remain politically successful after this????? I guess it helped that there was no internet #it's not that I'm surprised about brutality in Rome it was their whole brand it's that this particular form of violence is extremelY #not something that romans DID. like it just wasn't part of the culture this wasn't a thing

[emmaknightly]

hotd thoughts: episode ten:

aemond v. lucerys

(spoilers ahead):

for those saying aemond didn’t want/expect lucerys’ end to be that way, like huh?? a dragon is bound to it’s rider and their feelings, one would expect that hatred towards rhaenyra and her side to seep through that. not only that, it’s not as if he didn’t gode and threaten a poor boy of thirteen into drawing his sword in defense of his person. if not for baratheon and his men, lucerys would’ve perished right there in that hall by his fully grown uncle. his uncle, who is demanding an eye in payment for a strife years past, just as aemond’s mother did when lucerys was barely out of toddlerhood, for a slight aemond himself told his mother to put to rest since he got vhagar in the end. lucerys only came as a messenger of his mother, to speak to his cousin to urge him and his house to honor the oath house baratheon had already pledged years prior to rhaenyra. so in the end, lucerys did not come to, seek to, or wish to fight. thus it makes sense lucerys would attempt flee storms end on arrax, when by all action and word, the young prince’s uncle was ready to draw blood. then aemond made a fully concious choice to mount vhagar, in anger, and take to the skies in chase. vhagar, who is a war machine in her own right, would not see arrax flying away as anything but a battle rather than a scared dragon attempting to to save itself and it’s mount. aemond could have stood in the castle’s courtyard watching the boy-prince flee, but he did not. his face after arrax and lucerys plunge to their deaths does give off a regretful demeanor, insofar that the result clearly shows he is actively understands his complicity in the jump start of the war’s turning from ravens to bloodshed. actions speak louder than words and despite trying to call off vhagar, it remains so that ultimately aemond made conscious choices taking to the sky thus becoming a kinslayer, the most hated thing in westros, and changed the trajectory of the land’s history forever. the greens kick started this brewing war with aegon the elder’s usurpation. then aemond furthered it with the murder prince lucerys and his dragon, arrax.

#like I’m sorry but how can you excuse the behavior and acknowledge who and what both he and vhagar are like #he may have attempted to call off vhagar but he still went into that storm knowing how small and scared Luke and arrax were while #having spent *years* with vhagar himself it seems improbable that he would not know his dragon’s true nature #thé she-dragon was visenyas after all #visenya used vhagar as a battle dragon—aemond admits himself that he has studied history—how could he not connect that she would take arrax #fleeing as anything but a battle and go to chase the baby dragon?? #plus arrax is barely big enough to accept Luke on its back. it’s very mirroring to when we see a young nyra and syrax #yes i do acknowledge this scene was put in to key in viewers that aren’t previous got watchers/f&b readers/ asoiaf readers that dragons #aren’t easily controlled nor fully tammed animals like dogs yet at the same time #aemond was able to stop vhagar from roasting him during the claimant as well as force her to accept him so I can’t fathom how #he lost control of his mount?? it just seems like a plot hole to me and doesn’t add up #house of the dragon #hotd #house of the dragon spoilers #hotd spoilers #lucerys velaryon #house velaryon #house targaryen #aemond one eye #aemond targaryen #team blacks #team black

[minglana]

aaahhhhh i forgot how much this woman aggravates me😀

#so legally im pretty sure that we need x hours of rest aka quiet time. and before this yr we had 30 minutes more than was legally necessary #for unrelated reasons they decided to push it back half an hour for everyone except for the youngest kids #the youngest kids are close by the office. but IM closer. so i hear everything #i have complained multiple times about the noise. that this woman lets kids stay in the office past bedtime talking w her #while im trying to sleep (or study etc) #the security guards dont give a shit either. they have aragonese intonation and voice. which means they are LOUD as fuck. #but they dont try to lower their voices. what makes me the maddest tho is this woman #she puts a façade of being super kind and caring abt everyone. but when i complain. nothing. 'oh im so sorry ur right. it wont happen again #rinse and repeat the next day and the next week and the next month #llike if they tried to keep the volume down i wouldnt complain as much. but not only can /i/ hear them. the entire floor can hear them #and there are kids that are supposed to have been sleeping for an hour already. and i dont think this is helping AT ALL. #and i cant complain anymore bc its like. the director does nothing. he just says 'hey theres been noise complaints' and thats IT #hes not very good at being imposing like a director is supposed to be😭he kinda... lets everyone walk over him tbh #z xarre

[t-u-i-t-c]

finished only f*iends

#of lb #misc lb #lots of thoughts but i'll keep it brief #things i liked: ray going to rehab #ray and sand in general #boeing literally just showing up to cause drama and leaving #mew villain arc esp the burning scene #sand isn't weird about ray giving him gifts #nick chooses himself and displays an ounce of self-respect in the end #people have to work for forgiveness #cheum and april communicated so they never had a falling out #yo and plug getting back together in the end #mew choosing to end his friendship with ton #ton leaving to ny where he can do the studies he wants to #things that were meh: that boeing ray and sand scene which was a bit out of left field #we did address ray's alcoholism but he also does coke so... #ray's father is so concerned about ray's alcoholism but literally keeps alcohol all over the house #mew and top really speedran their relationship like give us a second to breathe before you move in together #other thoughts: quite happy with the outcomes and relationships as they are #while i personally would not forgive infidelity i understand that some people would so i'm okay w top and mew together #sand is really the best thing to happen with ray like ray legitimately would have died on multiple occasions without him #nick deserves better and while he's not a great guy he does deserve better than ton can give #ton really reaped what he sewed by the end he didn't really have much left to his name #his friends were distant or cut him off and nick was moving on and he couldn't finish university all around a bad year for him #overall entertaining but stressful to watch as everyone is a 🚩 #umbrella.thoughts #umbrella.posts #umbrella.other #worst friend award goes to: ton

[deus-ex-mona]

little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3

#while yes yes this post technically does apply to the simp bros i wanna cry about my own bro in the tags so you have been warned~? #so to start off my monthly existential crisis rant i just wanna say that… i’m so so soo envious of my bro. like to a really unhealthy extent #he’s tall enough to reach the top shelves. i can barely touch them if i jump. he has so many friends and even a gf. i have 0 irl friends. #he is able to sit in one spot and focus on his studies. i can’t even sit down for a full half hour to *eat* without getting up to take a nap #he’s learning how to drive. i can’t. he was admitted into university. i wasn’t. he’s able to find what he likes and stick to it. i can’t. #like mannn. he thrived in the course he chose in tertiary education while i lost my passion for it in the middle of my first year. #he’s good at picking up everything he tries (puzzle cubes; bball; you name it he’s good at it) while i’m just. bad at everything i try lol #he’s very good at his studies (aside from languages) and sports. i’m not good at anything at all. #he gets told that he has a great sense of humour. i’m just. boring and annoying. lolllll #he’s super sociable and he has good relations with pretty much every single family member (sans me). i’m not in contsct with most of the fam #heck he was pretty much the favourite from the moment he was born. his baby pics still get brought up from time to time bc of how cute he is #(granted it’s bc he looks like a bby m*ch*l*n man (like the tire company mascot) and he’s super cute in them but still) #and he’s also a guy and content with being a guy which is just… not fair y’knowwww~~~ asian family boy biases and all (cries) #our father pretty much cast me aside once my bro was old enough to hang with him. and even before then the bias was as clear as day. >:((((( #i make the dude mad? i get screamed at and whaccced. bro gets the dude mad? he gets a lesson on how to throw punches instead!!! like wow!!!! #he’s the only one who got to escape any direct physical harm from the guy and yet!!!! he was the 1st one to be singled out for trauma focus #idk if it’s bc of his age back then or whattttt but i can’t believe i had to friggin’ ask my therapist back then for a trauma assessment :( #2015 was a different time… my bro managed to succeed in school while i was rejected from the drama club for being too depressed :(((( #but i’m sure my bro has his own share of struggles… and i’m glad that he has a few groups of friends to chill with. really. #but i just can’t help feeling extremely envious of him. i could never tell him any of this though we hardly talk at home lol #and he pretends not to know me when i approach him in public lmfaoooo. i don’t blame him though; i’d do the same if i were to approach me #so yeah. if you read this i’m sorry for being cringefail and bad at everything~~ am i still allowed to pollute your dash~? <3 #and also. idk if i’ll be able to continue sischange over this week bc i’ll be handling 2 workstations by meself :( and idk how tired i’ll be #but we’ll see ok~? sorry for having zero time management skills am i still qualified to be a legit adult~? #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[deceptivemorals]

bold any fears which apply.

italicize what makes them uncomfortable.

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the dark ⋆ fire ⋆ open water ⋆ deep water ⋆ being alone ⋆ crowds ⋆ confined spaces ⋆ open spaces ⋆ change ⋆ war ⋆ failure ⋆ loss of control ⋆ powerlessness ⋆ imprisonment ⋆ blood ⋆ drowning ⋆ suffocation ⋆ public speaking ⋆ forest ⋆ the supernatural ⋆ heights ⋆ loss ⋆ dying ⋆ death ⋆ love ⋆ intimacy ⋆ rejection ⋆ abandonment ⋆ the unknown ⋆ the future ⋆ not being good enough ⋆ scary stories ⋆ speaking to new people ⋆ poverty ⋆ loud noises ⋆ lack of noise ⋆ being touched ⋆ forgetting ⋆ insects ⋆ dogs ⋆ snakes ⋆ illness ⋆ doctors ⋆ thunder storms ⋆ being watched ⋆ eyes ⋆ being vulnerable ⋆ needles or pointed objects ⋆ clowns ⋆ mirrors ⋆ isolation ⋆ shouting

tagged by: @devilfated

tagging: idk who did this already, so i tag everyone who sees this

#dash games #⚜ she didn’t make us monsters we did that to ourselves ▬ study #love makes him uncomfortable because while it can be the greatest thing he's scared it's taken from him