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ive been astoundingly Normal at my internship so far so maybe [redacted] just made me act like that :/ i bet it was that damn mustard gas incident
#actually the mustard gas incident happened during my 6th month at [redacted] so i was insane for a good while before that happened#but ive been SOOO normal working on this farm. ive had like 3 minor incidents that i barely remember. thats how normal ive been#ofc i think working 1 on 1 with someone vs. letting an 18yo loose in a factory produces very different results#this is a nature vs nurture issue i think lmao. hopes inability to function vs being inside 12+ hours a day or touching grass 24/7#i do have a hunch that ill become Abnormal soon bc my aunt revealed some info that has got me Thinking#(apparently my boss is not all the way straight. this info revealed during pride month. girl we have got to go to a pride parade together)#diary post#also have you guys figured out yet that if you block 'diary post' you dont have to see posts like this from me#i am so fukcing sleepy i was going to stay up and play ultra sun but im tired :( cheese day today so ive been up since 5#but i found up my boss gets up at 3:30 fucking am EVERY DAY#girl the milky way is still RISEN at 3;30 in the summer that is SLEEPING HOURS!!!#kinda want to be like. bestie can i come over at 4am and we can look at the milky way together. i can show you the constellations i know.#ofc that would mean i have to wake up at 3:30am but like. milky way my beloved <3#or i could sleep at her house (especially now bc her husband is on a fishing trip and it wouldnt be weird it would be like a sleepover)#and then i wouldnt have to drive 10 minutes at the ass crack of dawn.#not even the ass crack of dawn the sun rises at 5:30 she wakes up fully nestled within the ass of night#i cant. i would rather kill myself than wake up at 3:30 every morning for the rest of my life#anyway im tired and i want a cat so at least one of these farm people im working with should give me one of their barn cats.#you dont need 6 cats but i need just one little creature :(#okay great post guys. hit the showers
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Skyscraper
Pairing: Johnny X Reader
Genre: Smut, Fluff, happy ending (for once) ex husband johnny, you have a baby with johnny,
Warnings: Lactation, just... filth.
Word Count: 1.6 k
“Go say hi to daddy!” You told your 6 month old baby, setting the car seat on the floor.
Your ex-husband, Johnny, used to be your best friend. He made the divorce easy for you. You got everything, the house, the car, the pets, the money in the shared bank account. He only asked for one thing: shared custody. One week with you, and one week with him. He only lived a 5 minute drive away so it was hard to find a reason to say no.
You played with your baby for a bit, trying to get him settled before telling Johnny you were heading home.
“Wait, stay for dinner. I thought we could eat and then talk about a few things after he goes to sleep.”
You obliged, not seeing an ulterior motive behind his words.
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After having dinner, you put the baby to bed and sat down at the table with Johnny.
“So… how’s life? You have enough money and everything?” Johnny sat across the table from you.
You sighed. “I never asked for money during the divorce, besides for child support.”
“Same thing.” Johnny rolled his eyes, eyes looking you up and down. “That outfit doesn’t exactly scream broke.”
You bit your lip, holding back the urge to cuss him out. “It’s a t-shirt and shorts.”
“Whatever. I’ll add $50,000 to the account.” You remembered why you divorced Johnny. He’s a fucking arrogant bitch.
“I never asked for money.” You felt your chest tightening in anger.
“You need it.”
“You’re so fucking narcissistic.” You scoffed at Johnny.
“You love it.” Johnny smirked at you. Johnny's confident. Too confident for you. You always wanted to knock him down a peg.
You crossed your legs. “I’m sure you didn’t ask me to stay over to just chat about money.”
“Let’s get back together.” Johnny looked you straight in the eye, no hesitation in his words.
“Absolutely not.” Your decision was a no brainer. Why go back to a man like him?
Johnny sighed, his head dropping as he looked down at his lap. “Mom wanted us to get back together. She misses you.”
“That’s really not my problem.” You scoffed, standing up, ready to leave.
Johnny shot up out of his chair and rushed to your side. “ Please don’t go.” His eyes were desperate, all his pride out the door. You knew how hard it was for Johnny to be doing this, begging you for literally anything.
A memory of him going to bed with an untreated wound comes back. He went to bed with a cut on his thigh, causing you to wake up covered in his blood and having to rush him to the ER at 3 a.m., all because he didn’t want to ask you to dress his wounds. He never, ever let you see this side of him.
But that unwillingness to ever let you in is why you divorced him.
“Johnny…” You look up at him and realize he's about to cry. “I just dont think this is good for either of us.”
“Can you at least spend the night with me?” His voice cracks, tears already threatening to spill.
You nod.
He leads you up the stairs into his bedroom. “There’s um, a bathroom right there if you want to borrow my clothes.” Johnny sits on his bed.
“I washed up before coming over.” You unhook your bra and take it off under your t-shirt. You don’t care if Johnny sees your body, or if you see his. You two were beyond that at this point.
Johnny pulled off his jeans and changed into his shorts, then taking off his shirt before laying next to you.
“What, no shirt?”
“It’s not like I ever wore one when we were married.” He scoffed, wrapping his arm around your waist. “You know… You were my first.”
“Hm.” You didn’t know how to answer that. Nor did you really believe him.
“What, you don’t believe me? I haven’t slept with anyone else since the divorce either.” He sighed. “I only ever loved you.”
“I wish you acted like it when we were together, then.”
“I still love you.” Johnny cupped your cheeks, his thumb rubbing your lips.
You suddenly wished he’d kiss you… And he did. Tiny, gentle kisses against your lips lead into bigger ones as you kissed him back. His hand reached under your shirt, massaging your breast as he slowly began to pin you onto the bed, straddling you so you couldn’t leave him again. He was scared. Scared you would wiggle out of his grasp once again, leaving him with nothing. Nothing he really cared about, anyways. He never even dared to look at another woman, feeling like he was cheating on you, since he still liked to dream you were still together. Dreaming you three were still a family, still eating Sunday dinner together. He thought that living out at least some part of that dream would make this desire go away… but it made it worse.
And now you were in his bed, pretty whimpers escaping your throat as you kissed him, your fingers interlocked in his hair, tugging on the locks while his body explored yours, desperate for some resemblance to the woman he fell in love with, the warmth you brought to his life.
“I love you.” He whispered as he pulled away from the kiss.
Not giving you a chance to process what he said, his hands went under the waistband of your shorts, fingers rubbing your clit, remembering the exact way you taught him to finger you, the way you taught him how to make you wet from when you started dating. You could never escape his desires when he did this to you. Not back then, not now… Filthy moans escaped your lips, your nails digging into his back as he pulled down your shorts after he took his off. Your ex-husband was about to fuck the living shit out of you, and you were dripping wet in anticipation.
“Johnny.” You breathed out his name, causing him to look up at you with confusion on his face. “I love you too.”
Johnny inserted himself in you. “If I make you cum, we’ll get back together.”
“Okay.”
That sealed the deal, your words being all the permission he needed. You wrapped your legs around him, knowing Johnny always wanted to feel you as close to him as possible. “Fuck, Johnny, you’re so deep!” Johnny was always a tiny bit too big. You grew used to it, but his dick always reached your cervix, and he let you know when he could feel it. But you could tell he was holding himself back, going slower than he usually did when you were married, as if he knew you were in a bit of pain. Gentle kisses trailed across your cheek and jaw, reassuring you he would never try to hurt you.
“Call me daddy.” Johnny grunted as he thrusted inside you, his pace picking up as he sensed your pleasure growing, and the initial pain subsiding.
This was new. The entire time you were with Johnny, he had never had a daddy kink.
“D-Daddy.” You moaned out, not knowing how to totally feel about it.
“You called me daddy earlier today… So fucking hot, I think I got a fucking boner after hearing you say it.” Johnny began to lick your neck, trying to make you moan. “You can’t call your ex “daddy”. That’s why I’m inside you…”
Your cunt squeezed around Johnny’s dick, tightening after hearing his words. You realized Johnny didn’t have a daddy kink, but that the fact you birthed his baby was hot to him…
“Fuck, I hate it when you do that, I always cum so fast.” Johnny always thought your pussy was a perfect fit for his dick, as if you were especially made for him. That’s why he always thought you two were soulmates. “Fuck, I’m gonna make you cum…”
Johnny started to suck on your neck, trying to give you a small hickey right on the sensitive part of your neck. Johnny always tried to make you both cum during sex, his stamina never wearing out unless you were dazed, or your pretty eyes were looking back into your skull. Your pretty little moans kept him going on, forcing himself to go on even after he came inside you multiple times. His hands trailed back down to your clit, rubbing circles into it, trying to make you feel as good as he did. Your moans grew louder, and Johnny’s confidence grew as well. He squeezed your breast, knowing your nipples were sensitive. Sucking your nipple, milk began to leak out.
“I forgot, fuck, I’m sorry…” Johnny didn’t know how to react.
“Drink it.” You watched him suck your nipple, swallowing all your milk. Johnny’s hand never left your clit, still rubbing it while he drank.
The overstimulation proved to be too much for you, especially after not having sex with Johnny for quite some time. “Daddy… G-gonna…” You wailed, wanting the relief that you knew Johnny would give you.
“I’m gonna cum inside you.” Johnny’s lips pressed against yours, so you would moan into his mouth as you both came. Sticky cum shot inside you, the warmth filling you up. Johnny didn’t pull out, wanting the cum to not leak out of you.
Johnny laid his head on your chest, knowing you would stroke his hair while you two came down from the climax.
“Do you want to go to the courthouse with me tomorrow?” Johnny reached into his bedside table and pulled out three rings. Your rings and his band.
You pulled him into a kiss as he put the rings back on your finger, fitting as perfectly as the day he proposed.
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Hazbin hotel headcannons!!!!
just general stuff i think the characters do!!
(radiodust, staticmoth, vees are poly, chaggie, pentniss, little bit of radioapple if you squint, also one sided huskerdust/angeldusk)
characters: Alastor, angeldust, lucifer, charlie, vaggie, husk, sir pentious, arackniss, baxter, niftyz cherri bomb, the vees.
cw: nsfw!!! valentino
Minors do not interact.
definitely vapes. since he has to stay sober, i think he would vape to take the edge off a bit :)
Angeldust
in an attempt to get alastor to actually like him, he lays off the flirting a little, and cooks for him from time to time, he mainly just makes different pastas
He teaches alastor italian, and alastor teaches him french
Hates arackniss most of the time, but loves teasing him about being a bottom with pentious (hes a switch)
Alastor
he cooks for others to show he cares
i dont think he'd be a fan of imps ir hellhounds, idk why i just get that feeling
HE IS STINKY.
hes curious about arackniss because hes the opposite of angel, so they have drinks together sometimes- alastor always asks questions about angel
he doesn't believe that he likes angel at first, but angel starts letting his walls down, and alastor realises hes actually an interesting individual!
Charlie
she just wants her dads to get along!
she ok puts together trust exercises specifically for alastor and lucifer to get closer but it drives them apart
She loves taking care of vaggie, it makes her feel useful. Whenever vaggie isnt feeling well, she only lets her leave bed when necessary. She gets everything she needs.
Lucifer
hes a switch but prefers to bottom, lillith 100% pegs him.
Cooks breakfast at the hotel on weekends for the main guys- alastor started helping too out of spite, trying to make his food taste better.
Always does things to prove hes better than alastor, hes mainly just trying to get als attention but he pays him no mind.
Vaggie
If anyone looks at charlie the wrong way or touches her without consent she goes fucking beserk. If she ever finds out about what valentino did, she'll kill him herself.
Husk
has a pretty close relationship with lucifer! they play board games together and lucifer sometimes vents to her
they shit talk alastor together
vaggie vents to him aswell
him and angel watch movies together sometimes and cuddle! alastor does not approve, but him and angel arent together so he cant really do anything, because it makes angel happy.
Sir pentious
He loves angels chest fluff and sometimes purrs into it when they're cuddling. angel teases him for it, but in a cute way
he practises magic tricks with angel when they're having a movie night.
him and angel sometimes fuck, for angel is just sex with a close friend but husk really likes him, husk just knows alastor likes angel too and he does NOT wanna fuck with alastor.
when angel and alastor get together he hides away in his room for a few days, he only tells charlie what happened
Autistic. Most autistic guy in the show (until we get baxter at least)
Doesn't understand why niss doesn't say hes only half a bottom when angel teases him about it
when angel asks about his sex life with niss (as a joke) his whole face turns red and he screams "Itss none of your businessss!!" and slithers off as fast as he can, angel thinks its fucking hilarious to get him flustered
Nifty
Proudest dad of his egg bois, he sometimes makes little outfits for them and they out on mini plays for him and arackniss about very random stuff, they can never tell if the plays are based on true events or not.
he has a giant heat lamp in his room, he lays under it and reads
She plays with dead bugs, her favourite thing is playing with corpses of dead bugs in front of other bugs
She has a pink bed and her room is always spotless
she loves alastors cooking, she refuses to eat lucifers food if alastor has cooked something too
straight, during pride she puts an excessive amount of pride flags everywhere, every different type too, the hotel is covered in them.
Arackniss
him and angel tease each other alot. arackniss mainly teases him for being in love with a red deer.
he confesses first to pentious, and pentious is a flustered mess.
hes overprotective with the egg bois, he kinda freaks if one is missing
smokes in the hotel lobby even tho charlie hates it, vaggie yells at him all the time for it
he always needs pentious' tail wrapped around at least one of his legs to sleep, the contact gives him comfort
he loves tying pentious up during sex
Cherri bomb
Baxter
autism!!!!
if you touch anything in his lab he will have a meltdown- everything has its own perfect place and it cannot be adjusted.
he accidentally blows up his lab alot, it causes alot of hotel damage
he uses his little light to read at night
definitely believes in some crazy ass conspiracy theories
only at the hotel to research the whole redemption thing.
he loves leviathan
tells people to eat spoonfuls of vegemite as a prank, when alastor enjoys it she doesn't find it funny anymore and stops
Vox
when people piss her off she speaks with a real hardcore aussie accent and uses alot of slang, also talks fast.
she is aboriginal :3
she secretly watches bluey with angeldust
she absolutely loves making people try australian snacks like fairy bread, jaffas, pavlova, sausage sangas, smiths chips on a sandwich ect
pentious and her are besties!
(i love my aussie girl <3 none of you are allowed to disagree with me because these are my headcannons)
glitches when hes about to cum
Velvette
gets overheated during sex sometimes so he has to stop to cool down
his penis is robotic and it can pop off and back on. he has a bunch of different ones he can use, val can choose what one he uses.
listens to musicals and sometimes performs them with val, specifically heathers
hes really jealous of angeldust, he wants val's attention as much as he can possibly get it
Vel & val play video games on vox's screen sometimes. Velvette always beats him at whatever theyre playing cos that fucker is blind
Valentino
Prefers having sex with women, only man she really ever fucks is vox, most the time she just fucks her models.
practices makeup on valentino, also constantly makes fun of him for being blind & bald
she does drag with valentino and they out on little fashion shows for vox
He can only see 3 metres in front of him
Vox and vel have to help him with paperwork
Vox gets mad at him because of how many cords he has lying around
has the most insane sex toy collection, he has everything.
he vents to vox's sharks sometimes. he knows vox can hear him but he just pretends he doesnt know
ty for taking the time to read!!! drink water and eat today darling!!! <33
#baxter hazbin hotel#arackniss#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel headcanon#angeldust#alastor#nifty#cherri bomb#sir pentious#pentniss#radiodust#radioapple#staticmoth#the vees#husker#chaggie#charlie magne#vaggie#vox#hazbin#radio demon#the vees are poly#poly vees#valentino hazbin hotel#arackniss hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel velvette#hazbin hotel vox#headcannons#fanon#huskerdusk
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HI so for the mota hockey au:
any out of pocket viral moments of the boys? magazine photoshoots press tours etc what are they like? are clegan out and proud or are they more like go on keep guessing?
Bucky has a LOT of notable moments. He's just a teenage girl and puberty is so hard it makes him so hormonal.
He gets sent to the penalty box for BLATANT hooking one time which is a pretty iconic out of pocket moment you dont really get tendys serving penalties. usually another play subs in for their penalty but refs are prob like Fuck you Bucky you're such a menace you pay the price.
He drops the gloves with a rival teams goon that absolutely boards the fuck out of Gale a la Scheifele/Evans hit. Normally we love a good Goaltender fight but this hit was too scary. people still take notice bc they're like look at Bucky defending his BOY
youtube
John is a very Seguin type character. As I mentioned he has a similarly nude sports illustrated photoshoot. But also very messy party phase with Curt much like Segs and Marchy
theyre messy bitches who know how to have fun okay.
He's got a LOT of really famous soundbites, just the most out of pocket shit professional yapper w the cameras fr. it's mostly him hitting on Curt and Gale. There's a mic'd up clip of him singing "Baddie Friend" by kevo jefe perfectly word for word.
Gale's really bad with the cameras he clams up a ton and just kinda defaults to hockey mumbo-jumbo. he does get one Hockey social media clip where he gets to talk about space and that gets him a little excited. The clip of his one skate goal does some pretty big numbers just because Holy Fuck Dude.
he gets gif'd a lot for chewing on his mouthguard like Tkachuk. nasty boy. the fangirls go a little feral over those ones.
In terms of their relationships there is some plot stuff I'm cooking but John doesn't really care for the most part. he isn't ashamed but hes also like well im here to play hockey and im single nobody needs to be privy to my sexuality so he's kinda just closeted bc hes too lazy to do otherwise. you bet ur ass he wears pride tape every game and practice after Gary fucking shittman tried to institute the ban
(Shoutout to Travis "It had to be done" Dermott who called garys bluff like a PRO you my number 1 bbygirl i have a puck signed by him)
Gale is definitly closeted and it's a plot point in the au his journey with it. hes not closeted to himself but there are factors making him NOT want to be open with things.
I do think once theyre established in their team, they both have the C and a couple cups under their belt; when gale is ready - yeah they sit down with management and draw up a coming out plan. The team is so supportive of them they love their Bucks squared.
It's internet breaking
Please bear in mind hockey is REALLY homoerotic like these straight men kiss and hug and call eachother handsome and pet names constantly so theres a LOT that Clegan can actually just get away with and have plausible deniability
( a few seasons ago Marchand started licking other players and the NHL had to release a statement like 'its not against the rules but wtf bro stop')
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I mean- giving Bo head and him pounding you aint a bad idea tho 👀 if you dont mind ofc- take ur time gurl
god i want Bo to breed me lowkey........anyway i got you love
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You've learned many things while sleeping with Bo, and one of them was to always make sure you were not going into work the next day when you wanted to suck on his dick. Something about the act drove him feral, and by the end of it you could barely move. Since you had tomorrow off you decided on your way home that you didn't want to walk tomorrow either.
Walking into your apartment you see bo sitting on the couch, head tilted back as soft snores come from him. Ah he was asleep…even better.
You quietly put your things down then snuck your way to him. Once in front of him you got down on your knees so you were staring hungrily at his dick straight on. No longer able to wait, you undone his pants, and pulled both his pants and boxers down allowing his semi hard cock come out. He must be dreaming of you…might as well make it a reality. You began by kissing up his shaft till you got to the tip. You then licked down his shaft continuing the process till his dick was fully hard.
Since Bo has always been too big for you to handle on your own you slowly took what you could in your mouth, and once you started a pace you had a hand come up and wrap around what you couldnt fit. You could hear the whines that left him as he shifted a bit as your pace began to pick up.You could feel pride bubble in your chest knowing that you were making me like this, but that was slightly replaced by fear when you felt something on the back of your head pushing it down making you take more of him in your mouth.
“A-aah! Puppy….i need to feel more of you.”
You relaxed realizing it was just Bo finally waking up from your mistrastions. You scooted up closer to him, your hands finding themselves gripping on to his jeans as you head came closer and closer to his hips, and his further further down your sweet tight throat. You felt the hand on the back of your head grab a fist full of your hair. Using that grip to pull you off his cock, looking up at him. His usual cheery demeanor no longer visible as pure lust, and need took over.
“Couldn't wait huh puppy….You needed a good fucking that bad?”
You whimpered as you nodded your head the best you could. Bo smirked down at you pleased by how truthful you were.
“Dont worry puppy……Ill fuck you so hard you wont be able to THINK of anything else.”
He kept that promise that night. Once your mouth was around his dick again he used his grip on your hair to move at a pace he wanted. Sometimes he would keep your face squished to his pelvis, while his cock was down your throat. It felt so nice to have his dick wrapped around your warm tight throat. He would pull you off to allow you to breath for a bit before face fucking you once again.
“G-God puppy! Your throat is so fucking..t-tight!”
“Im gonna..paint you white…so everyone knows who..you belong to!”
“Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!”
Due to his knot he can't cum down your pretty throat like he wants to, but that just makes him quick to take you off his cock, into his arms, and throw you onto your bed. He takes off his clothes on his way to you, then all but rips off your clothes throwing them somewhere.
“I'm gonna fill you up so much puppy!”
he takes his dick and lines it up with your entrance slowly pushing himself into you.
“We are gonna have so many litters after this.”
This was the last time he was soft with you that night . Once he was fully seated in you he fully pulled himself out once again before slamming into you making you back arch moaning his name. His long thick cock hitting every sweet spot with every thrust making you see stars. You could hear the bed creak and crack with each powerful thrust. He was making sure to fuck you into the bed. Making sure you will only be thinking about him.making sure you NEED him.
“F-fuck take it! Take it all, p-puppy!”
“I-I can't wait to see you full with my pups.”
“F-ffuuucck!...so tightttttt.”
When you started to feel like you were ready to cum Bo stops making you cry out.
“N-now now…be patient puppy…you might like this.”
Bo moves back a bit before grabbing the back of your knees, and folds you in half. Once he enters you again you could feel every inch until it hit your cervix. Tears began to stream down your face as he began thrusting into you again. As each thrust became harder and more rough you could feel your eyes cross, and tongue hang out as drool dripped down and slid between your bodies. As he watched the drool go down he noticed a bulge in your stomach right where his dick would be. He pressed down on the bulge making you squirm, arch your back, and moan loudly.
“God look at you….already a slut for my cock.”
“Your insides will be in the shape of my cock. Now and forever!”
As much as he would love to keep this going he needs to cum in you so bad. He NEEDED to see you full of his cum. Full of his pups. Full of HIM. Not long after that his thrust became quicker and sloppier and his hand reached between your bodies rubbing sloppy circles on your clit.
“Cum with me p-puppy Cum…With…MMMEEEE”
Feeling his knot inside you causing white hot pleasure to course through you as you could feel yourself cum alongside him.
Bo collapsed on top of you still buried inside you due to his knot. You couldn't feel anything but the pleasure still coursing through your veins. This was exactly what you needed, and it made you excited for the next 10 rounds of that night.
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rpc i think we need to have a little talk about misconceptions surrounding polyamory after the shit show last night
not all polyamorous relationships are open relationships. polyamorous is not a fancy word for 'free for all'. poly people can and do have closed relationships.
polyamory is not synonymous with religious polygamy. no one is mandating you into a polygamy unless youre in some kind of cult sect or a religious group that actively practices such things. consentual relationships between adults is a lot different from mandated polygamy brought on by religious or political authoritarianism. monogamy and polygamy both have been utilized to oppress and control people throughout history. non-consensual arranged monogamous marriages anyone? that shit still happens to this day.
polyamory is not a fancy word for 'lack of commitment'. if anything, it takes more commitment to support a romantic relationship with multiple people
polyamory is not inherently more abusive than monogamy. this is just straight up just not true from a statistics standpoint, polyamorous relationships are not any more abusive than monogamous relationships. and since there are just more monogamous relationships out there, the chances for abuse to occur in monogamous relationships is just simply higher. as the stigma against polyamory fades, more people are going to attempt it. just like how when theres more dogs, more people get bit by dogs -- doesnt suddenly make dogs evil (tho some people would argue that for some breeds). your relationship status or mode does not indicate how good or bad of a person you are.
polyamory is not cheating. as with any relationship, in order for it to be healthy, there must be boundaries and respect for your partner/s. people in both monogamous and polyamorous relationships cheat. cheating has nothing to do with your sexuality or your relationship preferences. no sexuality or relationship state inherently makes a person more likely to cheat. its like implying bisexual people are more likely to cheat because of their sexuality.
humans are not 'wired' for monogamy. this is bioessentialism. no one is arguing that monogamous relationships arent common among humans, but saying we are 'wired' to be monogamous implies that polyamory is somehow an unnatural state. which stinks of the same sort of bigotry of 'homosexuality isnt natural/humans are wired for heterosexuality'.
'i have nothing against polyamory, but i dont want it forced on me' is a dogwhistle for 'i dont want polyamorous people to exist in my general direction' and if you said that about any other group of people, it would obviously be a bigoted stance. 'i have nothing against gay people, but i dont want their gayness forced on me'. you see how fucked up that sounds? no one is holding a gun to your head saying you have to be in a polyamorous relationship.
the internet has made people forget how to mind their own business. it has also made people forget that just because something makes you personally uncomfortable doesnt mean you have to create some sort of moral justification for your hatred and fear. its a common tactic among troll and extremist political groups to prey upon people's discomfort and fear and turn it into hatred (kink at pride discourse anyone?). outrage culture is very real and 'alternative' or non-mainstream lifestyles and people have always been a target for this. it is nothing new, it is just the same old bigotry given a new fresh coat of paint. learn to sit with your discomfort, because its ultimately a you problem, not an everyone else's problem. people are not obligated to change or make themselves smaller to uphold your comfort. a boundary is not an ultimatum you place upon other people, its something you place upon yourself. people existing and living their lives is not forcing anything upon you.
#ooc.#ok im not talking about this anymore sorry!! back to this money#but it really bothered me and honestly made me feel kinda unsafe that theres people out there that think this way#like i would expect this sort of mentality to be on reddit or twitter. not tumblr lol#long post cw#discourse cw#okay to reblog
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D&D Obey me- Lucifer, Mammon, + The Twins!
@trash-opposum here you go. seperate post so people can find it but here!
Disclaimer, if i do the rest, im going to avoid making EVERYONE a tiefling or aasimar, those are just for who i think are exceptionally appropriate/is how im playing them as my current dnd character is just Belphegor. If yall want me to make the others (Asmo, Levi, Satan, maybe Diavlo but who knows) let me know!
so let's GOOOOOOOO
Lucifer
Aasimar, the kind from Mordenkainen so no special extra type
Noble background, mainly cause i cant think of anything else
As for class, we have four potential options
Two varieties of Paladin, cleric, or warlock
First paladin variety- Oathbreaker
In this case he was probably originally Devotion before the revolution, and whoops! Oath Broken!
It'd either be a point of pride for him ("I fought for what I believe is right, and there is no shame in that") or he'd hide it from everyone
Second paladin- order of the Crown! obviously because of Diavlo. fellas is it gay to swear undying devotion to your future ki- *gets shot*
Cleric, then Order Domain. clerics are sworn to gods and not demons but shush his patron might still be Diavlo. in an actual D&D setting i can see him instead swearing to like Tyr or something.
he wont be healing. clerics are tanky he's out here ordering people to drop their weapons and then fucking murdering them
Warlock, gotta be fiend patron. im not sure if its possible to be your own patron but itd be funny as shit. worse case its fiend patron with some flavor homebrew as i call it to literally just be a fiend in his own right climbing the infernal ladder as he levels up
i promise the others wont be as long
Mammon
Earth Genasi as those are descended from the Dao, which are the greediest genie. Also, they just look rich with gem-like stuff growing in cracks on their skin you just know Mammon's one of them
Charlatan background. he is scamming people left and right and it works
Rogue, thief subclass. Honestly any subclass other than Arcane Trickster (hes not smart enough) or Scout (hes not equipped for the "outside of civilization" shit)
Unlike for Lucifer, the others have Backstory! Woo!
Mammon is the son of a Dao and a human. His human parent helped him escape from the Elemental Plane of Earth, but then he was left on his own
So. He quickly learned how to con people. At first it was for survival, and then greed.
He found Lucifer while running one of these cons. In particular, his "con" was a vanishing act. He claimed he could become "one with the earth" when really he was curling up on the ground and casting Pass Without Trace. Lucifer saw through this illusion and threatened to out Mammon as a conman, unless he joined him as his ally. So, he did.
Lucifer keeps him in check, but that's not to say Mammon isn't fully on the straight and narrow
Beelzebub
Tiefling!!! variant tiefling favored to have fly wings.
Outlander background, ill explain why in a sec
Barbarian. Need I say More?
actually i will- Totem animal, spirit of the bear. Since bear gets resistance to all damage (other than psychic) while raging and i feel that works with Beel more than anything
now for his backstory! he isnt canon in the campaign im playing belphie in but his backstory has the same catalyst. When he was five years old, the kingdom he lived in was caught in a rebellion against a tyrant. In which, Beel saw his older sister get killed by a royal guard. Belphie was going to be killed- but was protected by a tiefling in a knight's armor (my previous character who was killed. rip avi)
Beel, in his five-year-old mind, just ran. He took off without a second thought- a decision he now regrets deeply.
He ran into the surrounding woodlands. And gets an Atalanta-style backstory. For those who dont know, Atalanta was a princess who was abandoned in the woods and raised by bears
So Beel is raised by bears. Which is way better than being raised by wolves
They teach him how to hunt, gather, and its all well and cute. He sometimes entered the rebuilding kingdom to trade in leftover meat for clothes and weapons- and, to try and find Belphie. No luck.
Eventually, Beel grows to be a powerful warrior. Hangry, sure, but his rage hold the rage of freaking bears. so keep him fed. please.
Anyways Lucifer and the gang (everyone minus belphie) encounter Beel in the woods, watching the cubs. Beel agrees to adventure with them. He says goodbye to bear mom and promises to visit- hopefully, with his twin, next time.
Belphegor
hehe its ME
Zariel Tiefling but i dont give a shit about the infernal legacy its just There. tail is a cow's tail he basically just looks like his demon form
Hermit background. again ill explain in a sec
Druid, circle of stars! to people about to scream "i just checked the wikidot why he no circle of dreams??" because that doesnt have to do with dreams and sleep as i wished it did. its the obligatory faewild subclass. i hate the faewild subclasses (other than the bard one that ones fun)
Currently n the campaign im in we're level 5, so his two wildshapes are wolf, and a bull. But he also has his three starry forms due to being circle of stars.
now. backstory! strap in this is Long
he's saved by my previous dnd character- Avi- and is taken in by him and his husband when the rebellion was over.
Except. due to seeing his sister die and not seeing his twin after that, Belphie assumed the worse and thought that Beel also died and he was the last one of his family
He fell into a pretty deep depression and had no motivation to do anything besides sleep, cry, and eat very tiny portions of meals.
eventually his adoptive dads start telling him stories. and. surprisingly. they seem to help! Belphie is still a shrinking violet but he eats more and can cook and do basic chores!
And Then Avi Goes Missing
His husband- Skull- asks the now 11 year old Belphie if he wants to come along to find him. Belphie declines, saying he needs to get in control of his life and some big quest is probably just gonna leave him with more trauma
Skull lets him stay home, and gives him one of his feathers. So if Belphie ever needs a hand, he can call Skull over and. well. have one of his dads at least
For five years, Belphie took to studying druidcraft, and the stars. He also enchanted his favorite pillow to float and be able to carry him. So he had a little more comfort when going out to buy groceries. He'd make detailed star maps to sell in return
When the sun rose on his 16th birthday, he left a note at home saying he felt ready to tackle his own destiny, and left.
He had a brush with Lucifer, but not Beel. so close, buddy.
Anyways he arrives at The Hunters Guild, finds his parents again, and takes residence in the observatory, where he studies his stars and druid magic again. But also, sleep and dreams.
and. yeah thats where we leave off! god that was long im sorry
#obey me!#obey me shall we date#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me belphegor#obey me beelzebub#im sorry this got So Long#also to people who dont follow me for obey im sorry about the sudden hyperfixation#but its my blog yall just visit here
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watching fusion reborn again and i need to talk about it before my head erupts tw for insane delusional rambling about a non canon anime movie that came out in 1995
the whole scene where theyre discussing fusion is like such a vital kakavege moment in history LMAO like it starts off with goku diving into a pile of NEEDLES (which he has a phobia of, if u dont recall) without hesitation to catch vegeta and safely escort him to the ground. wild detail to add guys but what do i know lmao
the conversation uses crazy language like goku saying “youre going to fuse with me” and “there’s no other way, you must know that” among other lines implying he knows vegeta well enough to predict his reactions in this situation which you KNOW is my shit i love when goku and vegeta show that they know each so well
goku’s stupid “vegetaaa youre already dead” followed by the weirdly long animation of vegeta’s annoyed face isnt relevant but it is super funny
also not that important but the way goku and vegeta say each other’s names over and over again its like every other word out of their mouth is each other’s names it’s so gay dude
then the scene after where goku runs to vegeta’s aid only to stop before touching him cuz he knows vegeta doesnt want his help, this kills me this kills me so bad
FOLLOWED BY VEGETA BREAKING DOWN AND CRYING, LIIIIIKE OKAY ALRIGHT THATS A LEVEL OF VULNERABILITY I WOULDNT EXPECT VEGETA TO SO CASUALLY DISPLAY IN FRONT OF GOKU LIKE ..! DAMN LMAO.. also goku trying to console him after is so good omg
then of course the line “i guess fusion is out of the question huh. you have your pride as a saiyan prince and everything” this is the kind of line that whenever i hear it i need to be sedated in order to calm down like oh my GOD. goku is just unreal. he knows and cares about vegeta SO much he’s so understanding of vegeta’s feelings he’s so fucking crazy in love with him it makes me nauseous not to even mention that this like definitely makes vegeta reconsider fusion after hearing because almost immediately after he says “kakarot, perform fusion with me” AND AGAIN WITH THIS CHOICE OF LANGUAGE.. perform fusion with me.. no suggesting no asking just straight up “okay kakarot we’re doing it.” it wasnt we’re going to perform fusion, or i will perform fusion with you, but simply perform fusion with me. wild dude. insane.
AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THEIR FINAL INTERACTION. vegeta saying “kakarot i never want to perform fusion with you again” with the biggest smile ive ever seen him have and goku laughing in response and just saying “see u later vegeta” GODDDUUGGHHH WHAT THEFUCK !!
fusion reborn is a banger of a dbz movie dude esp for kakavege fans like its the best argument we have in kakavege’s name lmao. its just goku and vegeta being vulnerable with each other and fighting a bad guy together and having fun with literally no one else involved its just a fun little adventure they go on together that no one ever really knows about <3
TL;DR im pretty normal overall about fusion reborn…!!
#every few months i watch this movie and make a big ass post about it because like#this movie actually changed me fundamentally#completely rewrote my beliefs and views goku as a character and as kakavege as a whole#its such a blessing to have this film. seriously#fusion reborn#kakavege#dbz
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Soo i kinda need help rn
So in my friend group there's this sapphic girl and this straight boy right. We talk a lot n we're rlly close and he always seemed like an ally but idk recently he seems like he doesnt support us that much?? I'm gonna try to explain
We had this one talk about pride month once and he started saying he doesn't think we deserve it because it started as a way to show pride but it turned into an inappropriate thing and a celebration for perverts, and we tried to change his mind but i dont think he changed his opinion
Recently he made a joke saying like "Oh no one can resist me with those shoes" n i was like "lesbians could" as a joke right and he said "Well not too sure abt that ;)" n started talking abt how he made a lesbian girl call him cute n said "oh right bcuz the only ppl i can call cute are the ones i want to fuck" and he was all like "chill girl im just saying..." idk if im overreacting but he seemed like those boys who say "i can change you" which ofc made me a little uncomfortable
But we made a joke saying "your name is gay" (inside joke, hes named after an lgbt god) and he immediately blocked our friend and left our group, i get that we may have hurt him a little, and we did apologize but it seems a little stupid that he makes those stupid jokes about us but we say one little thing and he does that already
I love that friend group so much they're everything to me and idk what to do rn
Pls help?
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im bored and kinda high so heres my opinion on all the reboot characters
caleb - is a character
axel - im just as gay for her as the next guy but there's no way in hell she's final two next season lol but i wanna hold hands w her
nichelle- yass girl give us nothing 🥰
scary girl - idc idc she was funny asf but i am glad she went early bc if she stayed any longer i wouldve hated her lol
damien - one of the best things to come from the reboot and yall are doing him a huge disservice shipping him w priya 🥴 that shit is so boring but honestly? there might be something there somebody's gotta make me a believer tho. CONVINCE ME
mk - as a bitter, annoying, sarcastic individual myself i could not stand this bitch omg 💀 her character has a ton going for it but all they did w her is make every single one of her lines sarcastic n shit and i was BORED
raj - dumb gay man i love him
wayne - dumb ace man i love him
ripper - bro just wasnt funy. i dont get why they make characters who just pride themselves in being nasty n shit kind of a waste of development idk
zee - we can all agree that he was great but he gives me early boot vibes for next season bc like if we're demanding development for all the first season early boots then he's just gonna be there ig. dumb can only get you so far yknow?
chase - him and emma both are such wasted potential like BREAK THE HETEROS UP OMG their relationship dragged the second half down so bad like chase is just bad for the sake of being bad. like he wasn't even funny either just a waste of space by the time he was gone 😭
emma - first i'll say im glad we got a plus sized girl w some fucking athletic ability beCause THEY EXIST yay happy but anyway she was so funy until she got back with chase and that whole shit w him throwing that challenge for pizza was so DUMB like she honestly thought he did that shit for her 💀 like she was CONVINCED bro the straight delusion was insane
julia - she was the bad bitch we all needed and deserved but i cannot sit here and let you mfs say that she played the game well bc she absolutely DID NOT. girlie had no actual strategy other than winning and thas not even a strategy. even her trying to "manipulate" chase that one time sucked too lmao. bro her goal was to get everyone to hate her and win out of spite that shit is so dumb but it's so her so idc we love her anyway
millie - there were so many times where i lowkey forget she existed lmfao i don't even dislike her it was just "oh yea she here too lol" but i gotta say it kinda feels like they used her as a scapegoat to make writing her outta the finale easier idk maybe it's just me. but her crying after bowie clowned her ass when she was eliminated was the funnies bit in the entire show i was giggling n shit bc she honestly did that to herself lmao rip
priya - people compare her to zoey and sky way too much honestly (its me, im people) but when you look at it we have a mary sue that was infuriating to watch , the same girl but olympic flavored whos existence i have to be reminded of every two months, and priya. priya is perfectly fine and she was a nice winner even if i knew she was gonna win the second she was onscreen lolZ but when she read millie's notebook and absolutely demolished her ego i was living. like girlie ate her up w absolutely no crumbs left idc
bowie (the real winner) - i was fully prepared and ready to hate this twink istg. like i was in my homophobic era and ready the second his name was called but omg i love him sm. he was the queen i never knew i needed in my life. and to all the mfs who say his gayness is his entire personally have never met an fem black man and it shows 💀 idc what anyone says he's the best writer character in the entire show 🤭 as much as i love him i cannot let his fit slide. the pearls can stay bc those were a serve but the pants??? THE FUCKING PANTS??? THOSE FUCKING FLOOD WARNING HIGH WATERS.?? why would they do him like that omg. fits like that are why we get hate crimed 😔
ok im done good luck to anyone who actually reads this lmao
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#total drama#total drama 2023#td Millie#td priya#td caleb#td wayne#td raj#td bowie#td axel#td Nichelle#td scary girl#td julia#td mk#td emma#td chase#td zee#td ripper#td Damien
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I need more petty drama in fanfiction okay?
I wanna read about how you and deku have a freaking argument that ends in you being like “FINE” and walking out that door and he’s equally pissed off so (even though he’s in his own freaking house💀) he walks right out that door after you too and does his little jumpy jump into the freaking sky messing up your freaking hair 🤬 making you even more pissed off than you already where(and he def did that on purpose too)- after walking around a while you’ve calmed down but your petty af so there’s no way your gunna go back to dekus place no way 🙄 who cares that his home is way more lavish then yours! f him 👊🏽 So once you’ve finally settled yourself in for the night in your OWN home-KNOCK KNOCK who’s that at your balcony ( cause god forbid he knows how a door works) it’s freaking Deku😤 like bro we don’t wanna see you!!! So what we do? Look him straight in the eyes and close them curtains-can’t see him cant see the problem😌 problem solved right? Except when you get up in the morning to go open up them curtains who’s there? Deku. Man did not leave at all after you shut them curtains and now he’s leaning against those glass doors drool all over them dead asleep 💀 and okay-okay it’s not been a horribly cold night but you can see the morning dew in his hair making his curls tighten up just a little and maybe a few bruises from a villain fight he had the day before and he deff looks like he needs a shower and no way his neck is okay sleeping at that angl-OkAY! Okay, you feel guilty. BUT you got pride so there’s no way you’re gunna act TOO guilty so you open up that sliding door and he just flops in and the first thing out if you mouth is “Take a shower you stink”- LOOK I just know no matter the argument he Will probs try to apologize completely for both of you so at some point in his blubbering you’re gunna have to be like “ yeah I fucked up too…sorry🙄🫥” and he’s like “🥺 yeah I know 🙄🫶🏽” shut up b
I want bakugou to snap at you meaner then he intended and haha no sir you can’t snap at ME like that but you’re the ‘bigger’ person here so you understand and are going to give him a chance to make up 👏🏽 except, this is bakugou. And the reason he probs snapped at you was because he was already riled up so you being the ‘bigger’ person rn is not working-you’re there like “where’s my apology” arms crossed and all that good shit, and he’s like I said what I said 👹 and fine he wants to play petty you can also play petty. Your silent treatment begins. You turn around and walk right out of that room- and you know what? I dont think he would ‘care’( he deff would he’s in his feels). I think y’all’s argument could actually go on for tops 3 days (y’all can hold out 😮💨) but I think throughout this silent treatment your doing he’s not really acting like your doing it? Make sense? Like he will talk at you and stuff (honestly aggravating you more- just fueling the fire) but he’s not saying very sweet things cause he’s trying to get a reaction I think eventually he’s gunna say something a litte too mean and really hurt your feelings ( he just wants a reaction he dosnt mean it 🥺) and maybe you start to tear up and ‘oh no’ shit. Cause he was expecting you to snap at him not cry and now he feels like shit. And your like fuck this and turn to walk out and just-“Sorry” and there It is. He’s finally apologizing but at what cost? 👏🏽🙄 at that point your upset not angry you just kinda let the tears keep falling cause, c’mon? It’s been a few stressful days. (This literally could have been fixed in less then 30 min smh) and your just sobbing at that point and he’s coming up behind you hugging you and just apologizing over and over and being all like ‘I didn’t mean it’ cause Jesus did he fuck up. And your all like ‘you were so mean 🥺😞’ and yeah his hearts breaking, cause, yes, he can be mean and he knows this, let’s just say he’s deff not gunna be forgetting this anytime soon you might have accepted his apology but that didn’t make him feel any less guilty. He probs thought you were going to leave him for good😬
#I COULD GO ON FOR DEKU I HAD TO PUT A STOP SOMWHERE#I wanna do one for todo too I think he would b a easily jelly bf#bakugou hits me in the soft spot sometimes#deku x reader#izuku x reader#bakugou x reader
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(Apologies, midget was not meant to be derogatory or used maliciously, it was meant to show Jaune's mental state deteriorating as panic set in and he became a little unhinged from seeing Ruby the first time and then Roman and Cinder shows up. That was poorly done of me, tone did not carry though well enough, sorry)
(Also, Roman isn't dead, he jumped out. Roman's not crazy, plus he still needs to get Bunny Kicked by Juniper.)
(Cinder also survives. Shes like a cockroach, and Jaune opens the door enough to remember that she always shows back up with more scars and less sanity. Totally axes her infiltration plans, though.)
(Cinder, hilariously, has no memory of what happened. She thinks Roman is making up the giant Jackalope kicking the Bullhead. Then Jaune and Alyx ruin at least two more of her plans and she will scream at Jaune "I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE!". For irony. )
(P.s. sorry again)
In future, don’t use slurs to indicate tone, use swears. At least that way you’re not, ya know, being incredibly offensive
Also Jaune would never, even when deteriorating mentally/emotionally. This is the same guy that was getting his ass kicked every day by Cardin and still was about to fight when he saw Velvet getting bullied. Jaune would NEVER
Don’t do it again
Tone mistakes aside, of course they both live
Roman probably took one look at the rapidly growing bunny and was like “Fuck this shit I’m out” and straight up abandoned Cinder. Lie, cheat, steal, and survive indeed
Cinder, meanwhile, of course has too much freaking pride to abandon ship. Get exploded, girly
And let’s be real, 90% of the infiltration plan could still happen. Cinder isn’t involved in most of it, because to be completely honest she BARELY passes as a teenager as it is
So Neo, Emerald, and Mercury could still completely infiltrate, they’d just need a fourth team member. Not that it’ll matter, since we have future knowledge, but they don’t know that
The amnesia thing is hilarious though. Cinder is gonna gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss her way through this whole situation, meanwhile Roman sounds like a crazy person
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Update :) on irl Ellie
Irl Ellie is so fucking attractive 😭 we talked for a bit and went to dinner earlier, she's super sweet. She called me out for staring at her hands and me being me I blushed like a gay bitch in heat. I told her she looked like Ellie and I showed her the pictures and she was flabbergasted. She said I was delusional for thinking she was that hot, we argued for like an hour about who was right and I won, only because I asked our server if they looked similar. We met days ago but I feel like we've known each other for longer? My best friend said I should ask her out but I don't want to push her, y'know? ALSO, she said and I quote "if you want my fingers just ask me." I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SHES INTO FEMALES? I think she is bc she calls me love and she's flirty and looks gayer than the fucking pride flag itself, but I've had too many straight friends that act gay. RIN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO? I NEED HELP.
HELLOOOO?? “i dont know if shes into females” CMON ANON CMON. SHE CALLED U OUT FOR THE FINGER THING, SHE WENT TO DINNER WITH U… CMON. SHE WANTS YOU. gonna smack you upside the head KEEP TALKING TO HER SEE WHERE IT GOES!
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Heinkel Astrea himself >:D
YALL REALLY WENT FOR ME WITH THIS ONE.... OKAY. LETS GO.
Sexuality Headcanon: i think it could be one of several possibilities. he could be straight... he could be on the aroace spectrum... he could be bi and not even know... but we do know what he is for certain..... hes louannasexual................................................
A ship I have with said character: heinkel/louanna PLS THEYRE MARRIED OKAY......... louanna really looked at the astrea family Baggage and still went "im still gonna marry this man <3".... and like the way heinkel speaks about louanna T^TT "reinhard is me and louannas treasure..." "dont take away louannas way home"... LIKE FUCK MAN..... heinkel may be a piece of shit now but he took like those marriage vows of like in sickness and in health SERIOUSLY. its been like twenty years and hes been searching for a cure for louanna all this time. it drives me BONKERS...
A BROTP I have with said character: ......................im pretty sure you know what im gonna say LMAO. YEAH. YEAH. ROWAN AND HEINKEL?? ROWAN IS THE BEST POSSIBLE BROTP THAT COULDVE EVER HAPPENED FOR HEINKEL. deadbeat alcoholic dads of extremely powerful teenage sons club??? theyre literally insane. i love how they first meet because its the most pathetic thing ever. like rowan just seeing heinkel half-dead in some ditch and just deciding to help this random ass guy??? rowan dragging heinkel away like when you grab a cat by its scruff??? heinkel going "this guy is smiling at me but its not mocking... i dont know what the fuck it means" because heinkel doesnt know what fucking FRIENDLINESS is anymore...... theyre insane. im excited for the development thats gonna come out of them meeting. they foil so much T^T
A NOTP I have with said character: anyone other than louanna :((((((((((((((( pls..... pls dont separate them shes already in a coma :((((((((((((((((((((((((( ......except ill make an exception for rowan and heinkel because. they have 95 mental illnesses and theyre ALWAYS making it everyone elses problem... theyd be so horrible together and i can only see it happening if theyre drunk and the world is literally gonna end. they are Terrible. but they Would be entertaining...
A random headcanon: heinkel gets sober in all the timelines where wilhelm is erased <33 because its like. wilihelm gets erased, heinkel and reinhards relationship is better, so its like.... things are a little better for heinkel now. obviously his whole complex feelings on reinhard are either lessened or erased entirely, but i also feel like heinkel got at least Some of his insecurities because of how wilhelm probably was as a dad. and bc wilhelms gone - WELP nice going heinkel half of your insecurities are gone!! so, well, maybe heinkel wants to be fully sober and present for reinhard now. he wants to be in reinhards life as his dad...
General Opinion over said character:
if i met him irl i would immediately pull a pridebaru and poison heinkel's drink. HOWEVER, i am also screaming and crying over heinkel's heartbreaking tragic corruption arc where he goes from a very earnest and hardworking person whos trying his best with all the shitty cards handed to him. and then he turns into *GESTURES TO PRESENT DAY HEINKEL*
i need him to get his shit together and have the most GRUELING, PAINFUL, NAIL BITING redemption arc of all time. he's just so fucking pathetic 24/7 it's like... like im sitting here and reading every scene hes in and im going, god hes like one of those sad dirty exhausted stray dogs you see backed into a corner and theyre just like growling and snapping at everything that comes close. like we vaguely know that its Possible for him to get his shit together at least a little bit (see: pride if), and we Know that heinkel used to be a very affectionate person to louanna and reinhard, and the fact that tappei said he'd make heinkel the mc if subaru didnt exist indicates that heinkels Probably gonna have some insane development, especially given the debut of the rowan-heinkel dynamic... i cant wait for it T^TT i just like how hes Terrible... but hes also clearly very human. what a well-written character. i hope he goes for anime onlys kneecaps in season three.
#re:zero#heinkel astrea#ask#AA TY FOR THE ASK <3#the fact that i am. way too many of the heinkel posts on this site. cries. what has rezero done to me. now i actually LIKE cringe fail#fictional dads.... ARRGHGH....#i actually have an unfinished drawing of like. i drew younger heinkel vs present day heinkel and the difference between them made me so sad
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Sometimes I think about how the queer community has been mostly absorbed by the capitalist need to turn everything into an acceptable market and our main argument became “We are just like you!”
You didnt ask to be straight, so we didnt ask to be gay! You want to get married and so do we! We can be good and acceptable and fit into your neat little society! No kink at pride, no neopronouns, no flamboyant gays, we are just as normal as your white picket fences! Love is love is love is love and our love is just like yours!
This isn’t in any way critical of those who actually dream of that life, but I still mourn how, for every new “we can do everything the straights can” we see less and less of “I dont care for the straights. I don’t want to pass, I don’t want to be like them, I don’t want to become something they deem acceptable”. There’s a lot more “let’s change the system to accommodate us” and not nearly enough “fuck the system”.
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HOW DO U MAKE NEW FRIENDS WHEN UR OLDER?!?!?! As I’m learning, I might need some new friends in my life.
How do i deal with creating and keeping healthy boundaries with friends that are only ever concerned with themselves/what they’re going through and need from me? Like, i love my friends but it’s hard not to realize that the level of care, support, or dedication to actually being there in any helpful capacity is not balanced in the slightest. I’m not trying to really have an argument on the matter with them, but I’m not opposed to being bluntly honest about the lack of balance. I just would rather be there as i can be and focus most my time and energy on myself/disengage mostly from them and their drama and most of all, being the fix it friend. (While also being somehow the friend that they don't want to listen to but then regret not taking my advice weeks, months, or years down the line because i was right. Ah, the INTJ struggles)
I would just really like to make ONE friend that even gives a fragment of what i give. But now in days I'm so busy that the little time i do have, goes to maintaining the very lackluster friendships I’ve acquired over the years.
I’m just tired. Like, really tired. I love helping and I’m good at it but I'm tired of people saying one thing while meaning another. I’m tired of people not wanting to change while also being appalled that others around them aren’t jumping at the chance to change for their ideals. I’m tired of the imbalance of others and my dynamics with them, and it creating resentfulness in me because I’m also too full of love but filled with much heartache and headache due to this. For all i give i don't deserve my reward being all this. It doesn’t add up. I’ve vented on other places and they all say the same things--my friends seem self-absorbed and straight up selfish, and like they don’t actually care about me. And ya know what i still defend them because i think somewhere behind that energy they do really care, sadly it takes ages to cycle back to caring about me again after ages of only “them, them, them” time, but it’s fine. I’m the fix it all myself type anyways because people usually hurt me in the long run when i do open up by seeming disinterested the second the convo turns to me. (Which actually proved their points, but still.. i mean, idk.. we have history that proves otherwise, i guess. it's just not that easy to explain. when i need people.. i end up being the best people in my circle to turn to because no one else has time, energy, or abilities to actually help let alone listen to me. Okay this is turning into a rant but-)
Just answer me this: HOW DO YOU MAKE NEW FRIENDS THAT DONT FUCKING ONLY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES?!?! Even just the little things, like “hey, prides coming up, lmk if you’d like to do something!/”/ “been thinking about you <3 hope you’re well, lmk if you’d like to plan a talk.” (and actually let you talk, like show interest in your life too)?
LIKE, I'm tired of being the friend that reaches out, offers time, and energy, offers help, offers ideas and still if I’m not there that’s all they can think about--the times i couldn’t do whatever it is they wanted me to for them because i finally am putting myself first because no one else can/will--which in the end, i’ve grown content with not being able to do it all and not being loved the same if i do (ending the people pleaser side of me because of podcasts i posted ages back helping a lot along with other research. i’ll link when i can). I understand, i always have, that no one can take better care of me than me, that’s all these friendships have taught me, all life has. I don’t want to sound as bitter as i once was about this even, it’s a lesson that is enlightening and i feel many could use (many, my friends included, are the type to think change will just come, slowly happen to them or suddenly be granted by some random force or person. i try to encourage them in proactivity in their life because they’re not, it’s exhausting talking to all them as a therapist--nurturing their inner child, telling them they must do the same to change, and still seeing them backslide or just stagnant. I’ve made peace with this too though young, people are all separate from me and we live and experience the world differently, no matter how much we love someone we can’t take their experiences/choices away from them... only help them along the journey, it’s just hard when you feel like a parent to everyone that no one listens to.) But really, i think they could do well with the lessons they’ve taught me to never look for what you can give yourself. but like a friend of mine i told this, said, external validation still matters for mental health... YEAH, YOU’RE RIGHT, IT’D BE GREAT IF YOU EXTENDED SOME MY WAY, THE WAY I AND EVERYONE ELSE POURS ONTO YOU/PEOPLE LIKE YOU. Like, as an INTJ I'm just getting tired of emotionally driven people getting all the attention and support just because that's their main focus (they can easily impose help of the type on others) and not ours, doesn’t mean we don’t feel emotions or wouldn’t like some support from time to time too.
ok, ok, ima stfu
#genuine ask#genuinely asking#INTJ#rant#personal#personal vent#personal rant#maybe i dont have as good of friends as i thought#bad friends#???#idk#friends questions#how do i make friends#making friends when your older is hard#i really try to give people the benefit of the doubt and try to work with them cause no one's perfect#but DAMN this shit is getting DRAINING!!!!#like energy vampire level draining#what do i do?#i dont want to give up on them as a friend but i needed to vent about it to someone but i literally have no friends#i have a small circle of long term friends
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