#we live together with nature

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

i vote that next year instead of reading Dracula we do a Jeeves & Wooster Book Club. those two never got the rabid tumblr shipping fandom they deserved (disqualified for the sheer technicality of being published a century too soon). we must correct this injustice

#jeeves and wooster #i want to watch tumblr go rabid i want to watch ao3 overflow with jeeves/wooster fanfiction #yes obviously the fandom EXISTS but it's a cozy little neighborhood #a handful of talented artists and writers doing their best to keep their charming little village going #but i'm tired of cozy i want this fandom TRENDING #I WANT TO SEE THIS ON MY DASHBOARD PEOPLE #i swear to you if they made a shiny new tv series tumblr would absolutely obsess over these characters. good omens levels of obsession #it's just such a great dynamic! the good-natured overly-trusting bumbling idiot in constant need of rescuing! #the stoic all-knowing genius who quietly masterminds mayhem in order to protect this one moron he's devoted himself to for some reason #jeeves as a morosexual is just such a beautiful interpretation of the original text #wooster as a happy-go-lucky himbo who stumbles his way into a relationship with a protective caring and supremely competent mastermind #the angst and social complexities of a same-sex cross-class relationship in turn-of-the century london! #oh AND half the stories are about jeeves helping wooster get out of engagements/desperately avoid marriage #two men who live together constantly scheming to maintain their bachelorhood. this is quite literally the main plot point #the gay subtext is there! the gay subtext is there and very ripe for picking!!! #this thing is LOCKED AND LOADED we can pounce literally any time

[virgothozul]

Ok. I have listened to the people. I have watched the thing. It is very wholesome.

Kazu comes home. He is hopeless and tipsy. And he swings between excited and wasted.

#I am SICK of Miri’s voice ngl #I know kids are loud. And make a mess of EVERYthing. That’s why i stay away. #But for Kazurei ; I made it to the end #They are precious #Rei is so cute I love this guy #He has 0 human skill and still is effortlessly hilarious and a little cutie 👏💖 #i wish we had more of their relationship bc they have sth really special #They never question their trust in each other like it never crosses their mind. They disagree almost all the time but they never part #It’s more natural than breathing. They’re always saying stuff like « it’s not fit to involve other people in our way of life » #it’s not even an option to live apart. They clearly will spend all their lives together #Except that scene it’s so weird when Kazu says « hum with Miri gone we don’t have a reason to live together anymore » lol man #Not as if you guys were already joined at the hip before meeting her. But I get the «the family life changed us now sth’s missing #and it feels incomplete ». But still guys. You are soul mates. #Also the « of course he comes with me. He’s my partner. » line 💕💍 #even if at some point they meant to part ways ; really they can’t be separated. #kazurei #No homo daddies #Buddy daddies #kazuki x rei #Domestic gays

[deargravity]

i don’t want hajun to be mysterious, beautiful and elusive. i want him to see his messy, fractured moments. no more bare minimum details. i need to be acquainted with visceral details of his childhood.

give me 13 year old hajun in japan, alone and confused and still convinced that this whole thing is a ruse and his parents will come get him eventually. i need 14 year old hajun still clinging onto the hope that if he’s good enough and proves himself his parents will take him back. i want 15 year old hajun disabused of all his faith in his parents and realising home is nowhere now, and he is fundamentally unwantable unless he learns to wear the right masks and say the right things. little hajun who had to figure everything out by himself, while knowing his existence made no difference to his parents back home anyway. now it’s his life and the only person to whom it matters is himself.

i wonder if he had a phase where his anger was just like dongha’s — wet, guttural, thrashing, amorphous. when exactly did it take shape into the cold, sharp thing it is today? i want him slowly getting sick of breaking his own heart with his own wanting. i want him meeting allen and experiencing the terror of caring for someone for the first time. i want him falling back on the “vengeance on my parents” narrative because he can’t admit to himself that allen and anne appeared in his life at a time when his walls weren’t fully up yet and now they’re here to stay after he’s so carefully built himself up to avoid abandonment by avoiding intimacy altogether. i want to see him growing up and retreating slowly further and further into himself the more he realises he won’t be able to survive losing allen and anne, i want him disgusted by his own wanting and uncomfortable with himself but so distanced from his own feelings that the only way he can process / experience anything close to it is by antagonising others to create congruent reactions within them just so he knows what it’s like to feel something.

i want him alone in his room and suddenly so crushed by emotion but incapable of identifying them because he never grew up with the tools to define his own experience. maybe that’s also why making music with bae matters to him (since their theme revolves around taking charge of your own narrative). he built himself a sense of self from scratch and still he couldn’t outgrow his childhood fear of being unwanted. yeah he’s sadistic and callous and morally dubious, but he wasn’t born that way. i am asking once again i need the visceral detail. the guts of it. but i may be crazy.

#idk i just love him #but i also hate him #you’d think with the amount of bae content we already get we wld have something by now #i’m going to have to start making things up if this continues #everyone wants to talk about his twisted personality and sadistic nature but nobody wants to talk about why he is the way he is #not to mention this is all just AFTER he left the yeon household. he had to live there for 6? years i think under the same roof as dongha #unless they kicked him out right after dongha birth and thennnnn he went to japan when he was 13 #idk the timeline is confusinf #what i mean to say is yeon household was cruel and the world was cruel too so it’s all he’s ever known #because girl you are like kintsugi pottery. the gold holding your pieces together is beautiful #but darling what broke you in the first place? #your parents put this heavy heart in you and broke it and left you to pick up the pieces with your shaking child hands #you cut yourself on your own shards trying to be whole again #paradox live #paralive #yeon hajun #hajun yeon

[keeps-ache]

porch time porch time woowoo !! :D

#just me hi #this is nice hvhs :3 #sometimes i forget cuz we've always lived so close together but i MISS my alone-lone time hbshf #alone-lone time is like zero people zero people noises. alone time is like. i can still hear you lol #and i don't like putting on shoes all the time. very hassley i'm giving that a four pfk :) #we moved from the city and augh. aaaoighdhsuaha hbsh #i'm actually really surprised i didn't go insane during the two year transition here because Oh Boy #though you know what i think i did pay in others ways i haven't thought of yet so hehe :> puzzle for later! #ik the first year sucked absolute gravel like Yikes hdhsb #/but Anyway ouhhhhh porch time !! :D #n i can listen to my music out here too.. very cool.. :D #plus the nature and such things lol #there are these cats that keep trying to get at our cats food so i'm low-key looking out for them #//oh and i need to get a trim #or maybe i'll let it grow out again to do somethin fun with it!! that'd be cool but idk if i wanna do long again fish #it was. not so fun lol #the last straw was that i kept trapping it under my elbows when i tried to get up. treacherous hfbsh #//but ye gonna go back to drawing :33 #i like drawing centaurs lol :DD

[laios-burger]

Can i just say these are the cutest things ever…

#did . did they learn from their past mistakes and actually recapped what the characters were doing #so that it made SENSE? #peak fiction im afraid (the story literally has just made sense) #honkai impact #arthur talks #also the gangs interactions are reallt charming they have natural chemistry its so refreshing #its ALWAYS cute whenever a cast of characters plan up together…what a wonderful world we live in.

[klanced]

“Keith is like a little purse dog to lesbians” where do these thoughts in your head come from? I’d give me heart, body and soul, to one day perhaps understand even a sliver of your operation.

there's just something about voltron specifically that gives me access to the sublime

#honestly though i'm always like this. voltron just gives me a lot of consistent material to work with #you should hear me rate my friends' boyfriends #my best friend is alex. we live together. he's great i like him a lots. tried to make him watch voltron with me. didn't stick #alex and i talk about this blog a lot. well usually i accost him in the living room and show him my latest silly posts so that he will laug #he is my best friend. anyway we try to psychoanalyze me #alex says that i am always funny and insightful but my voltron blog is like the purest crystalized distillation of my humor #'how is every post always a banger?' he will ask me #i think the easiest explanation is that i am a very funny person naturally but god nerfed me by making me a voltron blogger #ask #anonymous #keith is my little purse dog i want to bring him places with me but i don't need him as an partner just as a companion #i am paris hilton and he's my fucked up looking chihuahua who lives a better life than most middle class americans #if keith was my purse dog i would buy us matching white newsboy caps bedazzled with rhinestones

[ardentpoop]

normal

#sam: perfect solution we can just turn you into a living corpse that needs to systematically steal ppl's organs to keep its body upright #dean: no lmao bc then u die moron. its in the contract #sam: fine then we'll be living dead boys together. easy! 😤 #naturally the organ theft and murder of it all is not their biggest concern #spn

[feluka]

having to do internet gymnastics to access local newspapers and having to do internet chess to access western media... good lord i ask you to grant me the privilege of Clicking On Links at some point in the future please and thank you

#it's second nature because in.. 2012? 2013? they shut down skype and teamspeak and all such apps here #because of 'national security threat' or somesuch #and the gamer in me couldn't live with not being able to communicate with my teammates and do raids together in online multiplayer games #so we would find ways around the block and then phone our classmates and pass it on LMAO

[juni-ravenhall]

i rewrote the legend from the sso intro for my fic but i think it turned out pretty nice so im sharing it here, feel free to add replies if u have other ideas about how the legend could be changed. see my tags for some commentary dhsfgjk

Legends say that Jorvik was once a desolate rock in the cold, dark sea…

Until one stormy night, when the stars glittered above the thunderclouds, and the crescent moon was shining brightly…

Just as the first rays of sunlight beamed out beyond the horizon, a great flash of lightning struck the black waves, or perhaps it was a falling star... 

From the swirling depths, a girl on horseback sprung forth, and on a golden harp she played such a tune that both the sea and the sky calmed, and became at peace… 

The girl rode out of the waves onto that desolate rock, and from her horse’s hoofsteps sprung boundless life and beauty, and to the melody of her harp, every living thing sang and gained its voice…

Once the rock was full of vibrant life, in harmony with the sky and the sea, the girl and her loyal steed came to rest… 

As she lovingly touched her hand to her horse’s muzzle, the two faded into the air, splitting themselves into many millions of pieces, like the smallest grains of sand…

Those pieces gave love to the hearts of all the island’s creatures, and solidified, for all eternity, the bond between horse and rider… 

It is said that one day, when great storms take over the skies, and cold waves wash over the island, darkness is taking over, and the girl and her horse will return once again…

#ssoblr #star stable online #sso #the part about the harp and things gaining voice also refers to like... we have talking trees and animals etc so its a jorvik thing #that every living thing (sort of) has more of a 'voice' than what u regularly would think (positive message about caring for nature) #and the part about harmony w the sky and sea refers to how the jorvegian flag is sky land and sea and itd be inspired by legend #obvs the first parts is about that the soul riders all have to come together #as a sisterhood or whatever #might still change the last part im less sure about that #darkness and stuff #imbalance between worlds?

[crippledanarchy]

Being isolated since march 2020 has me hitting levels of insane that I haven't had since I started medication

#every day a new piece of me fades away and there's basically nothing left #who am i without connection or community? by nature of my high risk existence I'm holding my love back from living a full life #we can't even get out of the house together because other people are there and it might kill me #cant do activities like hiking or outdoor exploring where other people aren't a risk cause my body can't take it #we just have to stay inside and suffer while everyone else moves on and progresses in life #bex talks to themself

[canongf-archive]

this is a lil update on that irl crush. because i'm happy and i think i'm in love and i wanted to share with my friends. :)

i'm just happy happy happy! we've gotten so close! we've shared things with each other that we've never shared with anyone! things that we've never even said out loud before! we've had the most intimate experiences together and we've connected on a level deeper than i think i've ever connected with anyone! especially a man!

he had to leave last week because he doesn't live here, he lives out of state. and he had a vacation planned! so he was leaving for vacation and then he was going home! and i was nervous, because i wasn't sure where we were going to leave things. i didn't know how he felt about me. but we got together so that we could say goodbye and he told me that he was glad it was me. he said that when he first came to town, he didn't wanna go anywhere or do anything but his dad pushed him to get out of his comfort zone, and that was me. he said he was so glad that it was me. he said that he was glad that he got to spend time with me, to get to know me. he said that he has women in his life that he adores and trusts, but that he's never had a relationship with a woman like the one he has with me. he said that he wants to stay close, he wants to text and call and facetime and he promised that we'd see each other again soon before he wrapped me up in his arms and hugged me for a long, long, long time.

i saw his parents a few days ago and they gave me a christmas gift from them & him. we talked about him and his vacation and they said that they had talked to him a little since he had left but "he doesn't share with us the way that he shares with you. he doesn't share with anyone the way he shares with you, liv."

this relationship is special and different than anything i've ever had before. i am happy. and i think i am in love with him.

#i'm just :) #he is. something really special. #and we have something really special when we're together! #it's so easy and natural #and i trust him with every part of me #i have never ever ever had this with a real man before and it is so exciting!!! #live

[ephemeral-winter]

in undergrad i had a graduate student instructor who i was obsessed with because she was so smart and so beautiful and such a good writer and she remains my role model for How To Do Academia Today even though we work at opposite ends of the long second millennium. also her cat is very cute. at the time i suspected she was dating a different graduate student i was less intensely obsessed with and have been assembling a mental bulletin board of evidence from their respective twitter accounts for several years now but the trail had gone cold due to them graduating and working in separate countries. academic job markets, man. but i got new evidence tonight. going to be entirely normal about this

#literally who am i going to tell is the thing. they weren't even in my dept #i loveeeeee academic relationship gossip i need more of it in my life #this is exactly like the time my roommate and i put together the gossip about our respective tutors #and deduced that they were common law married. and even though we have kept in touch with our tutors #and could have a more peer to peer discussion of our lives they still have not indicated to us the precise nature of their relationship #but we Know #funnily enough these tutors ALSO work in separate countries now. academic job markets MAN #rare pic of me in the wild

[szczylpierdolony]

the actually worst part of doing things alone is getting other people to not want to go with you

#bc it’s normal to ask someone to accompany you but telling someone you want to do sth alone tends to be viewed as rude #esp when the other person doesn’t get going places alone #but i looove doing that it’s sooooo fun #like i literally lied to someone today that i was going to the doctor even though i went to see a museum exhibit #bc i was worried she’d want to join me and i wanted to just sit there with headphones on and wander around #btw how do i get a relationship to die off naturally if the other person doesn’t seem to want it to end #like even the 2 hours we spent together today were a little exhausting and she’s been annoying me this entire past semester #nothing happened either ig i just don’t care as much abt this as her plus listening to her sometimes makes me want to go crazy #like yeah i’m sorry the guy you like told you he was busy and then went to see someone else #but also. this has been going on for so long he clearly doesn’t want to see you that much #but i don’t want to tell her that like it’s be kind of cruel but i just. find that such a strange situation #maybe it’s bc i’ve never had a crush on anyone or maybe bc i don’t care to pursue relationships when they aren’t just developing #on their own but like. girl how do you live like this #and listening to her complain that she doesn’t have classes this semester like ok?? then find some to go to??? #📓 #idk i don’t want to be an asshole but she’s so tiring

[portokali]

dream diary in the tags

#it was v nostalgic and ahhhhhhh the kind of dream that left me in a haze after waking up #i was me but fused w jo march littlewomen and my family all still lived in our old house #and there was a rich lauriecoded tall blonde neighbor i was besties w #and he was whipped w me but in the dream i knew i didnt reciprocate eventhough im not sure if i knew i was a lesbian or not #but i found it very flattering that he was v eligible but noo he was all for me and in the dream i was fused SPECIFICALLY w the wynona #rider version of jo so you understand. how beautiful i was of course. and i was creative and not really worrying abt the worries of capita #lism and still together w my family all in good relationships vibing enjoying life. woke up and my first thought was #that would be me without any mental illness LMAO #there were 2 scenes i remember distinctly fisrt one scene me and laurie we were in our neighborhood but then we moved to another place #that was kinda like the woods?? and apparently it was a #lumber cutting site or sth?? and there was a lot of logs stacked up and it was v green and wild #kind of a northerner nature than you find in greece so idk where tf in the world that would be #ik 'laurie' was supposed to be from northern europe maybe sweden idk #then we went back to the hosue #and there was a third person cut of 'me' as wynona/jo picking up the mail from the outdoors mailbox #in the snow at night. very cinematic #and there was the fact that the laurie boy was in love w me and me knowing it and feeling sad i couldt reciprocate #and when i woke up i had a followup thought that i wanted us to be like brothers but cant have shit in this econmy #huh what else. thahts all! #dream diary

[mysticarcanum]

straight up getting emotional about a thing that happened in a campaign that ended over a year ago

like. i wrote an ambiguous and biased backstory of a character who is part of an apocalyptic world-ending cult, who deep down wanted to study wizardry but had to frame it as going undercover as an apprentice and stealing secrets from this doddering old archmage to aid her people’s cause . and then she goes and learns wizardry and eventually realizes she wants more for herself and breaks from her cult

and i mean. there’s a lot of ways my dm could have run with that. i was fully expecting that archmage to be furious at my character for lying to and stealing from him. and so when they ran into each other again, i was braced for a fight, or at least an altercation

but instead the archmage went. i knew all along. of course i knew. i’m a divination wizard, silly. i saw a young woman in a bad place and i wanted to help her. i thought that by showing her kindness and creating an environment for her that wasn’t all about power struggles and nihilistic fanaticism that she might realize that there was more out there in the world for her. that she deserved more. you didn’t steal secrets from me, because i gave them to you. i was your teacher. i loved you and love you still

and god i didn’t know where that character was going to end up before then. i thought maybe she could go on a typical wizard hubris spiral, or a revenge quest against her old cult, but in that moment i was like. oh. she is loved. she has new friends, new family. she has a reason to change, a reason to care. her story is just about love, and about making people’s lives better

her alignment shifted from neutral to neutral good soon after. she never stopped being curious, sometimes to the point of foolishness, but she never squandered her teacher’s gift. she left the world better than she found it

#i just WEEP when i think about it sometimes #and then her teacher did just become the party's best wizard bud #we got his teleportation circle and then just showed up to his tower all the time #to hang out #we eventually got a dedicated guest room #my wizard shared all the spells she learned with him. including some dunamancy ones that she pieced together herself #he even fought a tarrasque with us #eventually she even passed him in level #and when he found out she could cast wish...he was SO PROUD #genuinely in the final arc getting an 'im proud of you' from this man was the best thing that had ever happened to me #and honestly i think his influence is why at the end of the campaign my wizard chose to die of old age #she had access to pretty much every necromantic secret in the world #given she did a LOT of necromancy research over the course of the campaign. plus her old cult did a lot of it so she was well versed #she could have found immortality in a hundred different ways #but instead she lived a good life. loved her friends #and passed on peacefully with her warforged friend by her side #so the point of all this is love IS the answer #her character arc felt so natural to me. i lived it for YEARS and one day i looked back and realized she had changed utterly #even though i hadn't once made the conscious choice for her to change #it was just love. from everyone around her #it was impossible for her to NOT change in the face of it all #AUGHGHGHGGGHH #oc: arabella

[depressedzelda]

i got new ywars presents for my brand new fckin coworkers bcos i am normal at socializing. Fellas is it cool to give gifts to people you've known for like a month

#these are just for 3 ppl 2 of them live together so i combined the shit lol #not pictured is a. tiny pawprint necklace inside the outer pocket of the waterbottle carrier #IM PISSED THO the one girl has this beat to shit waterbottle she always brings and she mentioned she goes to the gym a lot #so i was like sick ill get her a new water bottle w a matching carrying case bc THATS WHAT WAS ADVERTISED ONLINE #but only the carrying case came -_- fine #anyway the other girl i saw drink boba tea once so naturally i got her a fckin boba tea pencil case #cus shes also a student . yeah im so normal actually jfc why am i like this #anyway. its all animal themed cuz we work at a pet store so. yeag