#we miss your photos

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting

[miamierre]

OK BUT IM THINKING ABOUT IT AND LIKE>. CHARLES WANTED TO SHARE THAT MOMENT . HE WANTED PEOPLE TO SEE THEIR LOVE AND JOY AND FRIENDSHIP

#im sorry im sorry this is what happens when you work all day and miss your fruits fruiting #i'll delete this eventually its just. the way they are so intentional. it is always that deep w them #bc otherwise they are so private.......so for this to be something they put out together on instagram is just like . okay . #this meant something to you. enough that you wanted to bring it to life outside of your own private photo albums #its fine. im fine. we;re fine out here

[lokisaved]

The wildest thing about getting to take a photo with Tom is that it didn't feel quite real, like he wasn't a real person standing there in front of me that I was about to be right next to. I partially attribute that to how fast the line was going, but even if I had a bit more time to process, I surely would have felt the same: that a man whose life, basically, I had been following since 2013, was in the same room as me and I was mere feet away.

I was lightheaded in the moments prior to the photo, although whether due to being hungry and needed water or overwhelmed suddenly despite not feeling it before (and thrown off by the girl in front of me trying to hold a brief conversation and the crew trying to escort her away), I'm not sure. I do wonder how Tom feels about the whole thing, about how fast it went.

We greeted each other, I got to shake his hand (his hand really is big, much larger than I expected, yet when he shook mine, it didn't feel overwhelming, and he didn't crush me), he put his arm behind me and mine behind him (his coat was quite soft; my mom speculated it's a nice/fancy wool), we smiled, FLASH, I thanked him (I can't recall if he thanked me), and off I went.

While fast, definitely 100% worth it. I've never had the chance to go anywhere else he's been due to time and money, but this time, the stars aligned.

I was lucky enough to have enough income to be able to do that plus get better seating for the live show, which was also definitely worth it; I wasn't as close as I would have liked, but better than higher up—and the general seating filled up really fast, so much so that when it got delayed due to autographs (I get the sense they overbooked him, because he had to go BACK after it was done), they told us not to leave the theatre because so many people couldn't get in.

Anyway, I absolutely loved being able to hear him talk in person, and he told pretty much all new stories this time! At least, new to me, but I'm pretty sure most of them had not been told before, probably because the audience got to ask the questions (using a Google forms from the week before that was only open for twenty-four hours AND I MISSED—and they had apparently 84 questions?? Surely they could have left that open longer, then).

I really hope I get the opportunity to see him in person again in some form or fashion; i.e. I'd probably do an autograph, or if he's got enough live event, just pay for good seating for that. I don't know if I'll get so lucky a second time, and I will definitely cherish this for a long while.

#tom is probably one of the few people I'd pay this much money to see/interact with #aside from burt reynolds this is probably the highest caliber celebrity I've interacted with/been near #I don't know if tom wopat counts and im probably forgetting someone who isn't a singer from the 60s (peter noone) #megacon #megacon orlando #tom hiddleston #loki #we interrupt your regularly scheduled reblogging from 5 years ago for something completely unexpected #i will probably write this down in my journal but i reaaaalllly wanted to put this out there #idk if it'll go in the tag though lol whatever im not looking for a bunch of notes or anything #also despite tom being 6'2“ he didnt seem quite as tall as i expected and i attribute that to the fact #that i have a coworker who's six foot that ive been working with for 4 years come summer #so ive gotten used to it haha but he definitely was still tall #also i was wearing books with a bit of a heel so that took the edge off the height difference #*boots not books im not sure how i missed that #also also. his weekend look was much better than his friday look. also he looked very good in person 😌👌 #it's strange now looking at old photos of him with his real hair and stubble and having a sort of cognitive dissonance #between that and what i saw yesterday 😆 #my stuff

[skinks]

spring roadtrip up to Torridon via Cairngorm with the lads @thewintermusketeer and @benevolentbridgetroll feat. desperately trying to keep birthday candles alight in a loch wind, hand-feeding reindeer, a 9 point turn on the UK’s highest altitude road in a snowstorm traffic jam, eagle sightings, red deer sightings, 19 hours worth of driving tunes, constant mountain-view-induced-hysteria, and an intensely prolonged bit about a vampire in a hostel

#oh the screams we scrumped #oh the way we mangled don’t wanna miss a thing even worse than Steve Tyler mangled it #scotland #that’s me tiny by the loch in the third photo #stole some of your pics lads sorry. OUR pics <3

[frecklystars]

Every time I see that picture of Barbie holding Ken’s hand, bringing him to life, and they’re both wearing their very first original beach outfits with the blue watercolor backdrop? I have to take ten minutes to stare at them both and then I get emotional about it bc they mean so much to me and there’s just something about the way Barbie looks at Ken and the way they’re holding hands and the way Ken looks at her. and it's even better in the imax clip when Ken’s breath hitches in his throat and he notices that the person who is his girlfriend is this gorgeous, highly accomplished woman who can do anything and be everything... I always laugh when he does a fist pump and whispers breathlessly yes!

And I can’t help but always picture myself in the middle, both of them holding my hand and each kissing my cheek

#I’m just laying in bed and I’m all sniffly and weepy about how much I love them 🥺🥺🥺 #im so shaky bc i cant sleep and my body is sooo. exhausted. but i love them so much #im so drawn to these characters. like as if upon my first arrival there they smiled and said 'we missed you!' #even tho we hadn't met before it felt like we were meant to be together. and i was so nauseous seeing pink at the time #but it's as if they both held my hands and said 'we know youre scared. but we still hope you'll stay' #'don't worry. you're safe here. nobody's gonna hurt you. we'll make sure of it!!' #I like to think they both found a cold blinking out dying star in the sky and said ‘oh that’s her!' #they saw how much I needed them and plucked me out of the sky and held me so tight in their arms in this big group hug #Barbie’s line to Gloria ‘I came for you!’ is something I remember at least once a day and it makes me melt. bc I know she’d say that to me #and Ken would be standing right next to her and they’re both reaching out their hands ready to catch their fallen star #'sweet girl!!! keri!!! we came for you!!!!' i think about it every single damn day #and the feeling just intensifies every time i see that photo #this movie came out at the perfect time when i needed these F/Os the most #love notes #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-

[todayisafridaynight]

every day i mourn my wife (edo period mack) who was lost to the war ('''''unnecessary fanservice''''')

#snap chats #i was playing y3 last night and of course.. i remembered him.... #fym unnecessary fanservice IN THE FANSERVICE GAME ? #yokoyama i generally respect your rigidness against fanservice i truly do i love it and so with all due respect Bro ??? #WE LET ZHAO AND MABUCHI AND JOON-GI IN THIS BITCH but not our boy.. #and listen OF COURSE i love zhao and joon-gi. mabuchi's there too ig. #but photo mode tutorial with mack.... for a time period where cameras are generally still a new thing... #i never used photo mode tbh but i would have for mack HE WAS SO DRIPPED OUT TOO #im not saying i wouldve picked mack over miss tatsu and/or bacchus. but if we binned bacchus i wouldntve minded #LIKE BACCHUS IS A VIBE but mack has a bigger place in my heart.. sorry king... #i gotta go sob into my eggs remembering what we lost brb #i have class in an hour and i dont wanna go but i never wanna go. then when i get there im always like 'oh this isnt bad :)' #this is one of my shorter classes too.. ok bye im gonna remember mack and miss him #maybe ill start another run of y3..

[wrathfl]

[ooc.] A few hours ago my beloved dog passed away. I'm a mess now. Please give your animal a hug from me while you still can.

#[ i will go on hiatus for some time] #tw dead pet #[ i cant stop crying for past 4h ] #[ please pet your animals while you can ] #[ sorry im a mess right now ] #[ just wanted to show you guys her last photos we took on a walk 2 weeks ago ] #[ Saba was a fucking amazing dog and I will miss her fucking deeply ] #[ I just wanted to share with you how good dog she was ]

[feelin-woozy]

Mutuals I love you<3 you're all my friends and I love you<3

#i had a friend die semi recently and been thinking abt her lots so pls tell your friends you love them #its fucked up to live in a world without them and i just miss her an ungodly amount #i have so many fond memories with and of her and im just :(( that we dont rly have any photos together #anyways grief is a weird thing

[againstthegrainphoto]

….to say I’m bummed today is quite an understatement….

….my mom would be in town right now….we would be going to my sisters house to hang out and get lunch….then we would be headed to see our long planned family outing and what would have been my mom’s first kraken game that she’s been looking forward to since literally last season….

Instead I’m still recovering from Covid.

😭😭😭

#excuse my pity party #I’m v down right now #and don’t feel good still #has been the worst week #I’m not crying your crying #I missed squid practice #I missed family time #I miss my mom #my sister was kind enough to drop off my meds to my door #this whole week has been one big pile of shit #I’ve missed a week of work #I missed a vaccine clinic I was suposta work #I missed a whole week of my life #I still haven’t finished the Wednesday 13 photos #at least I’m the person who waits and waits and waits to buy tickets when they’re cheapest so we didn’t lose any money #also I literally had the newest vaccine a month ago I should have been in peak immunity #fuck this shit

[fabulouslygaybean]

i hate how short dogs live in comparison to humans

#i miss my abner #ohhh what id give to smooch his big ol noggin just one more time #the memories thing in my photos app brought up a bunch of pictures from when we got him a little winter coat #and now im just sad #i miss him a lot. im very glad he lived as long as he did but i can't help but wish he had more time #what's that fuckin term people use to refer to like. essentially your soulmate in dog form. a dog that you form such a strong bond with - #- that you can't imagine bonding with any other dog the same way #that was abner for me. we were best buds through and through #he put so much trust in me and i put so much trust in him #we stuck together through thick and thin and i couldn't imagine having a better dog than him #HEART DOG. that's what it's called. he was my heart dog. or whatever tf it is #i loved that damn animal so much #and he loved me so much

[make-a-little-mischief]

Loving him was RED

That's right. It's a Jerry and Taylor Swift mashup. Because I can.

❤️

#jerry lewis #i love the lighting in these photos #buddy the elf what's your favorite color? #it's red #losing him was also blue like i've / we've never known #and missing him is dark gray all alone #AND we're all trying to know somebody we never met #little did taylor know she wrote this song about jer #i'm in a really random mood let's not question it

[phoebemunster]

watched where the crawdads sing and all I have to say is good for her.

#I haven't read the book so I don't know but I feel like this would've maybe been better as a series? #or maybe I misunderstood the assignment but it felt really romance heavy and I was like surely things have to be missing from the story #next to chase any guy was gonna look good but I'm really not crazy about tate either #she should've adopted the jail cat and become a swamp lesbian #it was frustrating I liked kya so much and her story but I was like can we please get rid of the men!!!!! #anyway full disclosure here #me and my best friend saw a photo of eddie munson that someone had genderswapped #and I was like that looks like the girl from the crawdad movie #and as a lesbian who enjoys eddie munson that spoke to me so I watched it #I'm going to watch fresh soon also I've been told the cannibalism isn't very graphic so I'm gonna be brave #also like this movie in general just made me so sad to leave florida #I don't know if there are swamps in tennessee I doubt it but if there are I won't be near them #and now I live on the outskirts of the heart of the green swamp #when we drive past the little sign it always makes me so happy #I love that you can drive by the water and see a gator and that there are wild hogs #not so much the coyotes I'm happy for them but I fear them #the hogs are actually so funny they're trying to expand the house out here because there's so much empty land and the hogs aren't having it #they're trying to file for fencing to keep them out because they're building homes on what's technically the hog's habitats #and so of course they're upset and they're causing like insane amounts of property damage like good for you guys!! #it's not often you get to see them but usually they have their little babies and if you keep your distance it's fine they're super cute #I'm literally crying just thinking about leaving skjdhfgjsdf it's fine like there's deer and bears in tennessee #I'm scared of bears but like it's fine #I have NOT however seen the wild florida monkeys #I've seen videos of them but never in person #I feel like usually when people see them they're out kayaking and I never really want to go because I want the gators to be in peace #I'm really sad to leave but like watching kya fix her little house up and write her books was just nice to see idk #sometimes murder mysteries can be feel good movies

[faggotmox]

@distortionboi just assigned me nick jackson & their boyfriend matt jackson bc their boyfriend is a "pretty little lady" which is very true. can't be mad abt that. they then realized they had assigned themselves adam cole in this situation, & frowned deeply.

#this is bc we said the three of us need to do a bucks kiss cole photo #and i said that miss liz (what we will be call the boyfriend) and i really are the bucks. just brothers lol #anyways we're cute deal with me being cute on your dash #is this what sammy and tay feel like? (lmao kms for that) #abt ranger #distortionboi

[pielplastica]

Yesterday wasn't a good day and it honestly ruined my mood for today. I woke up feeling bad for the things that happened yesterday and stayed in bed around 3:00 PM until I finally decided to get out of bed and grab something to eat, that's when my bff told me that she was going with her gf and her brother, and that if I wanted to accompany them and that's when I did my last post that I was indeed going. She picked my up and when we arrived I immediately was looking for you. I couldn't seem to find you so I changed my mind of instead of looking for you, look for your brother. You confirmed that he was tall so I was looking for him but still couldn't see him or you anywhere.

We went to buy food around and a pizza and sat close to the bridge area, I was sitting facing the opposite direction of the FIL but was constantly looking back trying to see if I could catch a glimpse of you, and didn't. But I tried to enjoy the day as much as I could and I believe that I did, we laughed a lot and talked a lot, so it wasn't that bad of a day after all. But I so wanted to see and hear you.

There was a voice telling me to say something like "I'm gonna leave you two alone so I don't third wheel for a while" and look for you, but I couldn't. There was this girl that I thought that looked exactly like you, and when I looked at her she immediately turned around and thought "it must be her" but when she turned back, it wasn't. I maintained my look thinking "if it is her, I want her to know that I'm seeing her and give her a smile", but it wasn't you. And sometimes I tried to stay as long as possible in a place, even when they weren't looking for any books just to see if maaaaaybe but... yeah, I guess you know what happened.

There's this deep desire in my of us seeing each other before october, writing you if we could meet on a weekend when you don't have to work or something like that but... is it okay for us to do that? We both know that "this" is ending in october but... can't we be or pretend to be friends again just for this little time that we have left? I know there's lots and lots of things that we have to tell to each other, and I know that one day won't be enough for us.

I always thought that I would feel this feeling or this other when seeing you, but now I know that it was a lie. I don't feel anything but "you look exactly how I remember you", "as beautiful as you always did", "I wish I could talk to you once more", "I wish I could hold your cold hands once more and feel their warmth". Friday, when I saw you sitting alone in the grass, I looked at you while my bff was looking at me, we were about to enter the FIL and... I said "maybe in another life". I let it out, and she heard me. She didn't said anything, but she knew I was looking at you without any discretion.

#good night #see you in october #or... is it ok if we meet before? idk now man #is it okay to admit that I kind of miss you after seeing you a couple of times? #): #maybe in another life #Also confession time: I saw your last photos on IG and for obvious reasons didn't reacted but you do look good and the long hair suits you #loving yourself looks good on you #This song was on my head today #Have I found you or lost you?

[prettywitchybabykitty]

all of the things that you love,

were lost when your hard drive was burst

all of the love for your child,

will end up in folders and files

#and I declare myself a god cut off my head so! #prettywitchybabykitty #why do i miss them? i need to move on! #2 years of photos gone all because i forgot to eject the flash drive out correctly :( #no proof you were even there #would it have hurt you to stop by and say hi when you came to town? #the embers of our friendship were already smothering out then #can you blame me for pulling the plug? #when did you notice? did you ever? #i hope you enjoy it out there with your cuckoo #no bed rot but really out there with the people you deserve the best #see you space cowboy im tired of you living here rent free #i hope i see you on the street one day where we talk about our wives over brunch #stay safe old friend