Im...happy?? Even temporarily???
Woke up and laid in bed longer than I should have, but less than I usually do, and while filled with dread, it's LESS dread than usual
Walked to mass at new church, completely bland generic sermon & bland generic music, which is perfect, nobody knows me or is trying to rope me into things or expects things from me, I don't have to pretend I don't absolutely loathe so much of catholic parish culture, I can just, go in, go out, be a nameless face in the pew which is Safe and Uncontroversial. There was even the coolest looking older butch in the pew with me. Docs and leather jacket and all.
Stopped and read on a cafe patio with a coffee and pastry. The sun was out. Nobody was constantly texting me asking where I was. It was me and my iced coffee and silly vampire book.
Checked out the main shopping area, saw all the local grocers and bakeries and small local businesses. I'm not in a suburban box store desert anymore. I may pay slightly more at small businesses but if I want the luxury of this kind of area that's a cost I'm willing (and newly able) to pay. Plus living here means I don't have to own a car and am saving so much on that front that it still works out in my favour financially
Stopped by a little florist, tiny hole on the wall, met the nicest man and his nephew and got tons of plant advice based on my apartment layout and some recommendations for what should be unkillable given my brown thumb. Will absolutely be going back for more plants once I'm fully set up + some for my office
Like. This was unthinkable a year ago. I desperately need to keep my job. So I can keep this. I forgot how good it was to live in an area like this, not endless detached housing sprawl. I can walk everywhere. I lived in an arealike this in uni but my budget was nonexistent (grad school funding woooo). Now that I have a (very small admittedly) degree of financial flexibility??? Im allowed to sit on a patio with a 5$ coffee once a week??? I can pop into little florists and grocers and bakeries if I want?? Nobody is going to judge me for "wasting" money by not buying the absolutely dogshit quality cheapest thing possible??? Or not reporting on my location at all times? I owe no accounting of my every trip out the house?
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Hi I know it's been a hot minute since I've done this but woe au be upon ye because I've been listening to a slowed version of the disappearance of Hatsune Miku and yeah.
The vocas finding a fucked up very corrupted Piko because as a result of the discontinuation a lot of them were deleted, and they just decide to adopt him because they feel bad.
Slice of life anime except your roommate is a glitchy shell of a person who is very stressed and just wants a hug but can't communicate that because their voicebank is shitfucked and they're barely legible.
Here's the he
OHH there is so many things that could be done w/ this idea. poor poor piko 😭😭
ik u said slice of life anime which implies some more wholesome moments & comedy, and sure there is potential for that as well but. ofc the first thing my mind jumps to is angst 😭 pikoooooooo
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my neighborhood is apparently losing connection for ? some time ? so parting gift for u all. its v sillies how tsurugi spent so much time in blind faith and dependency due to being vvv traumatized and having no options other than juu. like i don’t think i’m well versed (or awake) enough to accurately articulate my thoughts on a “cult like” childhood right now but u guys get the vibe?
it’s silly how that’s how he grew up and then whoops! haha funny story tsurugi you know how you keep being given ways out/having your beliefs questioned and challenged and changed (kinji (twice), satsuki, etc)?
haha. wellll hope u took those lessons to hard because ur now being forcibly cut from the person u were reliant on in the past! because juu fucking sucks and traumatized as u are u can’t rely on him anymore as the figure u follow because the beliefs he instilled in u are the antithesis of his actions! so i sure hope ur able to cope with everything in a normal way instead of falling back on ur old beliefs to a even more extremist degree because everyone who gets close to u and then acts against what u believe in winds up dead or “worse” (a criminal/a despair)
and so obviously because this is how he is with systems of beliefs and with dependent tendencies he launches hard into isolating himself from others and not allowing for their input. and whoops look at what u did tsurugi! you created a workplace environment where people work for u (forming reliance/dependency) and also u provide them with a sense of security safety and stability after they’ve been traumatized and have a severe distrust of the entire world/view it as something which needs to be cleansed. and then u have a category 5 meltdown do some morally questionable things and go off the map because ur arguably alone.
this is so long but tldr. i think it’s really funny (not) the degree to which tsurugi winds up replicating juu. i need to not think abt tsurugi anymore i have so much schoolwork due i need to sleep
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This is the first Corpse Party OC I'd like to show off, here's Riko Saruwatori! She's for Dead Patient, so if you haven't played it there will be *slight* spoilers.
How she was drawn on paper (needed to separate the possible expressions and body+face because I end up screwing up the face when I draw on top of it... I'll need to practice getting over that)
Here's her body and face when digitally drawn, I'm not gonna claim it's the best, but it could be worse. It's good for someone that hasn't touched digital drawing in around 2 years, lol
Took me forever to find the English layout of the card layout.
Anyway, about Riko:
Design:
Riko is a 5'7 young girl below average weight with light blonde hair, resembling the jasmine she's named after (Riko meaning jasmine-child with certain kanji). Her hair is short, so that it won't get yanked on by her little brother, Kentaro, when she gives him piggyback rides. She also has deep emerald eyes that resemble her father's.
Personality
Riko loves to explore and find out new things and new places, adoring the quiet (or not-so-quiet, depending on if she brought her little brother) forest walks next to her home.
However, ever since her parents divorced (after an unfortunate accident involving her falling from a tree) her mother moved closer to the city, causing her to enjoy walks like that less than ever before. She has also recently become more timid and unsure of herself. Being less-social and overall making little contributions to group activities, becoming more indecisive by the day, and letting others take the lead.
Something that hasn't seemed to change, however, is her protectiveness towards her 11 year old brother. In fact, after the separation, it seemed to have strengthened considerably.
Story Integration
You'd find her in Dead Patient, in the 1st Chapter, in the normal ending. After Ayame encounters her nametag in the Locked Puzzle Room (via Ritsuko giving it to her), and after Ayame encounters Tomohisa freaking out.
Riko is running away from a walking corpse, screaming, "THEY CAN REVIVE THEMSELVES!?" Ayame, being too lawful-good for her own self-preservation, helps Riko. Riko gives Ayame a brief thank-you before telling her and Ritsuko to look away for a moment. They do so as the screen fades to black, while the graphic sounds of cutting and ripping something apart can be heard.
The screen goes back to normal as Ayame sees that Riko tore apart the zombie's head from its shoulders with a scalpel she apparently "found" in one of the rooms earlier. Riko tells the two that it's to try to ensure the zombies don't come back to life.
Ayame tells Riko about the check-in card that seemed to belong to her. Riko seems to panic for a moment before asking for it back, Ayame obliges and gives it to Riko. Riko thanks her and joins the party.
Once the group gets to the door Tomohisa was seemingly running away from, Riko decides to stick outside, while Ayame and Ritsuko go in.
Once the door shuts and the two on the other side are locked in, Riko tries her best to get the door to budge, along with Ritsuko on the other side, but there's no progress until Ayame defeats the hulking zombie inside.
After Ayame and Ritsuko finally get out, with two new members added to the party, Riko introduces herself to them, and follows along, trying to find and get through the exit.
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LISTEN
I WAS THINKING EXACTLY THE SAME THING TODAY!!!
Eric and Peter (Minus Tobias. He’s cool, but nope) - nothing new comes out about Divergent but I just sometimes remember those characters and can’t stop thinking about them!
Thank Goodness there are fans which keep writing fics with them because otherwise I would have eaten the wall!
Just uuuuuuuugh
💔💔💔💔💔
NO BC OMFG
the way they're always on the mindTM
Nobody has written enough fics for ANY of them (and this is so sad to me tbh) and I'm constantly gnawing the bars of my enclosure
Like I'd do anything for people to get into Divergent again and just go HAM on the fics
And even when there's months I don't think about Divergent, it ALWAYS lingers in my mind and I'm obsessed
Tobias is wonderful imho
But I WANT MORE of Eric and Peter, like please 😭 they make me feral on the daily
Like cmon. Eric and Peter have arms that could crush me and they're broad asf, which means soft chest to lay on and arms as pillows
There's never any new content for this fandom and I breaks me, especially because it's so good
I'm glad I occasionally find new fics for my boys because istg I'd have gone insane without them 😂
Always good to find another small fandom appreciator
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