#we see how you look at your brother

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 81

Danny blinked at the small children Ellie was holding the hand of, looking quite proud of herself. The small children- between ten and twelve so somewhere similar to Ellie’s age- who both practically stank of magic and Gods. 

He took a deep breath, pinching the bridge of his nose even as Dan cackled while opening the door more to let them inside. “Alright, what’s your name, kids?”

“B-billy…um, Billy Batson...” “‘m Percy! Percy Jackson.” 

“Nice to meet you two- any idea where in your family you have a god or two, because one of you definitely smells like Zeus and I’m pretty sure Poseidon and I am not dealing with either of my half-brothers.” 

#prompts #dcxdp #dpxpj #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #billy batson #Danny was adopted by Clockwork who is the origin behind Kronos #Oh they're both orphans? No one to take care of them? #Goddamnit Clockwork you made sure Ellie found them didn't you #Liminals are hidden from monsters thanks to feeling like them & the dead #CW: If they won't take care of their kids then I'll give the lil demigods to my favorite son :) #The JL finding out Billy is a child: You need a guardian- how could we let this happen #Billy: Actually my older sister has looked 12 for the last 100 years and my younger brother looks 20 so that's very human-ist of you #Percy peering out at some camp people who are trying to see if he's home: MA There's some weird ass cats outside! #Percy: Am I allowed to throw the pool at them 'cause they aren't taking no for an answer #Danny teaching the kids how to use powers: Alright and now we're going to your other dad and moms to learn magic #Danny: And how to shoot a gun in Val's case because I will forget gun safety #Everlasting Quartet #Phantastic Four #“Hey Marvel how do you know that info about Dr Fate he looks so pissed??” #“Oh one of my parents know him and they don't get along so now we always take the chance to call him a lil Bitch but politely” #Percy: Billy if you can summon lightning and I can control water can we combine them #Billy: One way to find out- hey Daaaaan #Camp people trying to find Percy: Wtf wtf wtf #The pantheon: WHAT DO YOU MEAN KRONOS HAD ANOTHER CHILD?! WHERE?! HOW!? #Clockwork: Look at my Favorite Child who doesn't Fuck with the Timeline or are Raging Hypocrites & takes care of his kids #Clockwork curled up with Danny & new grandchildren in his chest like a mother crocodile: Everything is as it should be :) #Marvel: Look at my lil brother isn't he adorable he's a year younger than me but takes more after our other mom #Percy: Hi Mr Aquaman I can control water & talk to fish and was wondering if you have any tips #“Marvel we're going to die-” “No we're not lemme call my big brother- if he can destroy the timeline he can fix it” “If he What”

[sohaoying]

unfinished business

#your turn to die #yttd spoilers #sou hiyori #shin tsukimi #kugie kizuchi #yeah i'll make a ghost au #i didn't have room for more dialog but i think he'd want to be called shin here #shin's my fav and i like the greenblings so much but sometimes i forget that he was kind of a cringefail brother #sou being to kanna almost like what midori was to him + kugie rubbing it in >> #but also there's no way to know what their time in ch 2 was like for sure #it's only ever others who say kanna was being used while kanna herself denies it+her whole thing is that the main cast overlooks her agency #they had normal conversations (e.g. mint choco ice cream) and kanna was more aware than she let on (e.g. knowing sou wrote the phone note) #but the one conversation we saw of them alone from sou's pov (post-nightmare to be fair) was not a good look #we just don't know how healthy their dynamic was overall! #kugie wasn't the best sister initially either so i think she's reminded of her regrets too. but the dunking comes first #sometimes you see something you hated about yourself in someone else and go hm. hate that #i think they should have ghost adventures after their initial beef though. why? bc the kanna hallucination cg is my fav and i said so #and yttd is all about feeling empathy for everyone y'know? #art

[inamindfarfaraway]

I love that we're getting focus on Chris Rodriguez early in the TV show, so that we have time to get invested in him before he a) betrays the camp and b) is driven so insane that only Dionysus can cure him. Knowing him beforehand will also make his relationship with Clarrisse, friendship and romance, feel more interesting.

What other cool, fun, not-heartbreaking characters will the show give more attention and depth? Silena Beauregarde? Charlie Beckendorf? Micheal Yew? Castor and Pollux? I can't wait!

#can you imagine the gut punch of having castor and pollux be recurring minor characters #always together #the classic either very similar or very different twins trope #with jokes about dionysus being their dad and more insight into that awkward relationship #that's their shtick like the stoll brothers except the comedy premise is 'mr d is their dad' which really does write itself #they're well-established as both part of the camp's normal and one of those 'two-in-one' side character duos #then after over three seasons of this castor dies in battle #and we don't see the death but when we next see pollux castor just. isn't there #and we Know #only one thing could have separated those two and it looks like pollux is missing at least an arm (and hurts accordingly) #and when we next see dionysus he's exactly as broken as a father who's lost a son would be #so different from how we've seen any other god emote about their children #and it sinks in that he actually was present in castor's life for years and now that's gone #it isn't 'well the view from olympus is different now and my name is stained with failure. drat' but the weight of #'he won't sit at my table tomorrow' 'he will never play pinocle with me again even though it bores him because he secretly likes me' #and so on and on and on forever #because he's never coming back. we will never see castor AND pollux again #enjoy your fantasy series kids! war is worse than hell because it hurts the undeserving! #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjo disney+ #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo

[notanotherinfjblog]

Productivity

ENTJ: Do you know those moments when you’ve got so much to do that you have no idea where to even start and so you start making a list of things that are too unimportant to waste your time on right now? But at the same time you’re wasting time by not working on the things that actually are important. You’re just making lists of all the tiny aspects of your work that you can throw out just to make yourself feel like you’re doing something.

INFJ: No, I don’t know those moments. I’m less productive, you see. When I’m overwhelmed by all the stuff I have to do, I panic and stare at the wall for three hours.

ENTJ: You’ve been doing that a lot lately, haven’t you?

INFJ: ... yes.

#i feel like it has to be said that we only had this conversation because entj didn't have the motivation to work anymore today #so he came to my office to make me procrastinate with him together for an hour and then he left to do the same to our estj co-worker #he's such an idiot i love talking to him #every time i meet another NJ (which happens like once every 100 years) i slightly lose it a little #because talking to someone else with Ni is like suddenly being allowed to breathe #suddenly there's someone who actually speaks your language and there's never just one second of silence because there's so much to say!! #(is that how people with more common functions get to feel frequently? like SPs meeting other SPs? SJs meeting SJs?) #also it's very funny to be on the receiving end of the Ni stare because all of us NJs do that #so whenever you see two (not romantically involved) people just staring at each other's eyes for two hours you've found two NJs #my intj brother has a problem with eye contact actually but he STILL DOES THIS just not when you're looking too #this has nothing to do with the post but you know me #maybe i'll do a more elaborate post about the ni stare at some point #also i'm gonna post the list with the writer interviews very soon took a bit longer than i had anticipated and i still only have one isfp #but oh well what can you do #mbti #mbti conversations #entj #infj

[quietwingsinthesky]

what if. Amy “fix-it” because hallucifer makes sam so paranoid about dean leaving for no reason that sam gives in and follows him and is witness to the whole thing

#hallucifer: wow. big brother really trusts us. (beat) so something’s up right? we know it’s never this easy. #sam: (visibly restraining himself from saying shut up. about to grab his scar.) #hallucifer: (aware he’s about to be banished) don’t listen to me if you want but. I’m just trying to help. #don’t blame me if you look in the papers tomorrow and find a obit for your brain-eating girlfriend. and… what was her kid’s name again? #sam: (touching the scar. not pressing down. face all screwed up.) || hallucifer: :3 it’s not like it’ll hurt anyone #if he really does trust you he doesn’t even have to know we’re following him. *and* you’ll know your brother still trusts you. #even when I’m here. maybe he won’t even punch you again. that still hurting? #sam: (grimace. because yeah. it does.) || hallucifer: door number two - he thinks you’ve lost it and he’s going to stab that woman to death. #so what’s it gonna be Sam? ready to gamble your friend’s life on if Dean gives a shit about your opinion? #[and that’s the point where sam goes to follow dean. still doesn’t talk to Lucifer. not there yet. but oh hallucifer is sooo pleased with #himself about this. because he’s Sam. and he picks up on what Sam doesn’t. and he could see all of Dean’s little giveaways that Sam was #turning a blind eye to. and now here’s the perfect opportunity to put a wedge between them and get sam to trust him more <3) #GOD. FUCK. IM UPSET NOW. WHY WASNT HALLUCIFER IN THAT EPISODE. MOST OF THE EPISODES? #such a good fucking concept. squandered. #anyway. idk if sam saves Amy but he DEFINITELY here’s Dean’s little speech to her about how she can’t change. #hallucifer with faux sympathy like (sigh) damn. well. i always told you what he was like. Michael. Michael-sword. no difference. #both of them want us dead the moment we step out of line. #and Sam just frozen there in horror with Lucifer’s voice sinking in. and he believes him. how can he not. with dean proving him right #hallucifer #spn #sam winchester #amy pond

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[angelsdean]

their sibling dynamics are so fascinating to me bc i have a similar parentified dynamic w/ my own younger sister, like to the point where it's the "joke" in the family that i'm literally her second mother / third parent like people say that about me. anyways. but we're also like, besties ??? and we have a bigger age gap than dean and sam, double their age gap actually. and we both make fun of each other and "fight" and have our own inside jokes and can make each other riot with laughter from just a single look and we can have whole conversations w/o saying a word and we have overlapping neurodivergencies that just make us go "same brain!" but then also she has sensory issues that i just do not get and vice verse and we tease each other abt them but if anyone else were to do such a thing obvs it'd be like wtf dude??? but we're allowed to be extra mean to each other (and no one else can) bc we love each other and it's unconditional and we're literally besties. but then at the same time, she'll be a huge baby and not want to do something or do it wrong and i'm just like [exasperated sigh] "give me that" and just do it myself. or she won't want to order at restaurants. or ask for help finding something in a store. and i also do not want to do that but my older sibling "mother-mode" kicks in and i'm like ok fine i'll do this for you. and i always give her the bigger portion of things if it's not evenly cut or distributed. and i'll leave the last of the pink lemonade in the fridge for her and drink water instead. and it's just, a weird complicated dynamic of "i love you like my own kid but also you are my sibling and we will have these sibling moments of getting on each other's nerves but i'm also always going to put you first in the things that really matter" and that's how i see the sibling dynamic from dean's POV really. and sometimes the show manages to show that dynamic but a lot of times it flops hard on getting the sibling-isms right and it's very frustrating lol

#not turning on rbs but i just wanna talk abt thee sibling dynamics ! #i feel like a lot of ppl just don't get it ?? esp if you don't have a sibling yourself or you're the younger sibling #OR you just have a normal non-parentified dynamic #like having an older sibling who just does stuff for you occasionally is not the same as having an older sibling who everyone including #your parents sees as a 'third parent' to them and who is treated like a parent and given parent responsibilities #and above all that IS emotionally thee main parental figure and the one ur sibling actually goes to when they need something #a lot of ppl will insist that ppl take the 'sam is dean's kid' stuff too far and that nooo they're brothers let them be brothers #but it's !!! complicated !!! when one of them is in a parentified role !!!!! #like i said w/ my own sister. we absolutely are siblings and have those sibling moments. most of the time we act like siblings #but there's always an undercurrent of. ok but she does come first in a lot of ways. and i'm responsible for her #which i think is something dean feels a lot and is actually like. the crux of their dynamic and why he constantly gives up so much #to follow his father's first commandment of 'look our for your little brother' #but crucially !! sam doesn't reallyyy see dean as his parent. he sees dean his annoying older brother. and that's where things clash a lot #between them. bc in *my* situation my sister also is aware of the parentification and we're gotten to the point were WE can joke abt it #but sam imo does Not see how dean is literally his main parental figure. bc john as his authoritarian father is so large in his mind #whew. lots of tags ajsfdkf maybe i Will have to make a proper post abt all this later but i just wanted to ramble my thoughts rn #vic.txt

[jmjkjjk]

Okay fanfiction aside I refuse to believe Crowley needed that 'bit on the side' conversation with Nina to come to the realization that he's in love with Aziraphale. Even though I'm convinced it's not the oh moment, I have no idea what else it could be. And consequently I can't justify the nothing burger of a conversation Nina and Maggie had to have with Crowley before the confession. There is no way after thousands of years of pining, a bottle of wine and two meddling sapphics solved it in a day.

#good omens #i hope no one's mean to me for this #nina and maggie are just.... what is going on my dudes........ #“he's in danger and I'm not leaving him behind” that's your landlord girl go home #“i had brothers making faces won't scare me” that's not a HUMAN BEING LOVE #did you see how possessed nina looked when she said “almost makes you believe in true love” #why are they named the way they are #why can't they be hypnotized? but also we didn’t really see them successfully hypnotize anyone this season #the other person crowley tried it on was gabriel so maybe it doesn't work on angels (if so why did he try?) #I love this season to bits but I'd be lying if i said it doesn't feel like a tree that has most of its major branches cut off at the middle #and no amount of reading other people's think pieces is satisfying me

[creativesplat]

That scene from A Tale of Two Stars, from Stan's perspective.

#I imagine its pretty darn scary having your carer/ grunkle beaten up by this random dude from a portal that your grunkle liked #also the 'you didn't tell me you had kids down here' bit Ford looks so guilty like #like he knew he just full on attacked this man - which in his mind is morally fine - but in front of kids? that's where ford draws the line #and stan just looks really sad when he looks at scared Mable #also the r-i-n-g bit is the tinitus caused by Stan's ears slamming into the ground/ dislodging his hearing aid ( and totally #not me deciding that adding the goofy (but still scary) dialogue because it would ruin the tone and also because I hate writing in bubbles #also you all know I had to add the bloodied nose from the story boards what sort of person would I be if I didn't? ;> #when they tell the story it certainly affected Mable but I imagine Stan's joy at seeing his brother being reciprocated by a punch really #imprinted on her I think #she's not scared of loosing dipper until she sees the grunkle she trusts (enough to potentially doom the world as of the last episode) #be so so wrong about his brother - when you see a grown up getting betrayed or being wrong it really impacts a child y'know? so yeah #but I love ford being so caring about children even when he hates his brother and wants nothing more than to slam him repeatedly into a wal #he sees children and immediately changes his attitude #is that because of his parents do you think? did he and stan see or experience physical abuse? is that why he cares so much about these #children not seeing their grunkle getting hurt? Did he see his mother hurt or stan? we all know Filbrick wasn't the best dad ever so... #because as much as stan and ford are jerks to each other they care about Mable and dipper from the moment they saw them and that's just ... #I love them #also I am so surprised by how easily they accept ford into the conversation like I get it for narrative purposes but #someone just attacked your boss/dad or your grunkle/grandpa and even if there were just massive secrets revealed and its like a celebrity ( #aka the author) he still punched your boss/dad/grunkle in the face and pinned him to the floor #did no one want to stop that or... #but for real I love how quickly Mable is like 'hey this guys odd and I love his fingers “a full finger friendlier than normal” my heart #anyway I had to draw it so I did #your welcome! #lol #grunkle stan #grunkle ford #dipper pines #mable pines #stanley pines

[inamindfarfaraway]

I’ve seen a lot of posts praising the intertwined love stories of Hadestown - their songs, their themes, their acting, their emotional impact - and all of it is absolutely deserved. But can we take a moment to appreciate the weight of "If It's True"?

“If it’s true what they say, what’s the purpose of a man? Just to turn his eyes away?”

“If he turns his back on everyone that he could’ve stood beside?”

“If it’s true what they say, I’ll be on my way.

But who are they to say what the truth is anyway?

‘Cause the ones who tell the lies are the solemnest to swear.

And the ones who load the dice always say the toss is fair.

And the ones who deal the cards are the ones who take the tricks

With their hands over their hearts while we play the game they fix.”

“I believe in us together more than anyone alone.

I believe that with each other, we are stronger than we know.

I believe that we are stronger than they know!

I believe that we are many. I believe that they are few.

And it isn’t for the few to tell the many what is true.”

I was expecting star-crossed lover feelings. I knew there would be an archetypal tragedy that seems both preventable and inevitable. Those elements, I could brace myself for somewhat. But nothing prepared me in the slightest for the CLASS CONFLICT arc, and it gave me chills like Eurydice had in that storm.

#and then all of those lines are followed up with ‘why do we turn away when our brother is bleeding?’ #‘why do we build a wall and then call it freedom?’ #‘if we’re free tell me why i can’t look in my brother’s eye?’ #interspersed with the ‘you gotta keep your head low if you wanna keep your head’ refrain because they’re still afraid! but they don’t stop! #the workers’ development made me cry #orpheus was really like #‘well i can accept that death is inevitable and irreversible and let my wife go #like every human does with every other human as a fact of life #or i can start a socialist revolution and force the king of the dead to listen to me. #… #POWER TO THE PEOPLE!’ #it isn’t even that he’s so resigned and hesitant at first #it’s more like he sees how hadestown works is like ‘wow this is fucked up. you afterlive like this?’ #and the desperate downtrodden exhausted emotionally crushed workers are like #‘wait. is this fucked up? holy shit it is! what the fuck? let’s rise up!’ #orpheus is like ‘yeah that works! okay! i was genuinely giving up there but let’s go!’ #hadestown #hadestown orpheus #if it’s true #hadestown if it’s true

[m0e-ru]

just read the entirety of ep adachi in a spreadsheet within an hour this is exactly how kagutsuchi would've wanted it

#kommento #// yknow because he whole plot of ultimax takes place within. an hour. #// sorry for the kagu namedrop sorry brat you don't deserve to be here I'll save you #// adachis so fucking annoying brother I need to beat him to death. I'll do it for sho. hey sho get a look at this #// itsok I have good ideas for ep iznmi now it'll be so swag. cmon mariegirl let's see how much character development your sibling can get #// within an hour. it'll be so cool. #// adopt an insufferable brother along the way TSUNDERE GRUPO NUMERO UNO☝️1️⃣🏆‼️‼️🔥🔥💯💯💯 #// why pit them against each other when they're stronger together. this is how we win. #// guy who loves to not admit shit before the embarrassment even gets to him #// 'I wasn't doing this for you it was all for myself' shut your mouth and wipe your thoughts listen to your heart brother #// guy who needs to go to bed goodnight lol

[7-oh-ta1]

When people don't like A New Frontier but it's literally about a loser bisexual juggling his main priority to not repeat the toxic cycles from his childhood/young adult life while raising his niece & nephew AND being forced to face his own trauma with reopened wounds AND facing someone he's not sure he can ever forgive or even if he should forgive them (oh and it's the zombie apocalypse)

#lindsay speaks #twdg #uncle javi said you can come over and we can paint each other's nails if your mom says it's okay :) #i could go into heavy detail about how using context clues we can see that david suffered from parentification during he & javi's youth #which was even more common at the time of the season than it is today. despite having a loving father for all we know #we also know that david was responsible for javi quite frequently throughout their childhoods however he ''took care'' of javi #by dominating him in every aspect of his life -- making sure javi knew who was in charge and who had better follow orders #based on many things but in particular how he tells javi (once gabe has hidden behind javi) that he needs to ''teach'' gabe #just like he taught javi and clearly david is trying to intimidate gabe into submission in this scene. #and someday i WILL. I will go into heavy detail. #also the fact that david loathes playing baseball with javi because javi is good at it and david can't make him look incompetent at it #and that frustrates david to NO end #it makes so much sense -- the fact that davis just SWINGS at javi because he's ALWAYS done that and javi was raised to not defend himself #against david but THEN in the same breath david mocks him for his ''weakness''. every chance he gets he tears javi down especially in the #flashbacks. but he's javi's older brother. and he loves him. they love each other. david's a toxic fucking bitch that javi gotta the hell #away from as soon as he could and NEVER looked back until he hit rock bottom and had to go home. but he's still the brother that raised him #the fact that javi is lgbt also adds significant nuisance to this situation because. david is anything but an ally. #at first all javi cares about is taking care of himself... but then he is thrust into parenthood with gabe & mari. #for FOUR YEARS. and we get to watch as david reasserts himself back into the father role and doesn't even acknowledge all the shit #javi's been through. because he's lousy fuck up javi. but he's different now because he has a steak in this. he's not going to let david #raise gabe the same fucked up away david raised him. because gabe loves his uncle too. #gabe's safety is the one topic that javi refuses to buckle on with david and it shows that javi truly has changed from the young boy #who couldn't defend himself. #ignore my typos

[milo-is-rambling]

My mother really out here telling me “you just make all the plans for driving and I’ll work around that” and then a couple days later once I’ve made plans and talked to people about shit she’s like hey actually you should come up a day earlier so you can get your grandparents (who are practically falling apart mentally and physically and my grandfather pisses himself and if he pees in the car that I am both sleeping and driving in I will be upset!!!) in the middle of Maine and drive them to New Hampshire for me bc I will be too tired from getting a three hour flight to go drive them :’( AS IF IM NOT DRIVING SIX HOURS OR MORE EVERY DAY FOR A WEEK HELLO??? YOU CANT DRIVE FIVE HOURS AFTER SLEEPING THE WHOLE TIME ON A THREE HOUR FLIGHT LIKE I KNOW ITS CRAMPED AND MISERABLE BUT YOU’RE GOING TO GO FROM A PLANE TO A NICE RENTAL CAR VS ME SLEEPING IN THE FUCKING TRUNK FOR A WEEK LIKE GIRL WHAT YOU ALREADY TOLD ME TO PLAN EVERYTHING AND NOW YOU’RE MOVING SHIT AROUND AND SHES ALL LIKE “well your aunt is gonna be visiting on the 11th so I have to get a flight on the 12th and then graduation is on the 13th early in the morning so I just won’t have time to go get them” LIKE GIRL THIS IS THE SAME AUNT THAT IS COMING TO OUR HOUSE FOR ONE SINGULAR DAY AND THEN WE WILL SEE HER AGAIN IN NEW HAMPSHIRE WHILE WE ARE ON OUR TRIP LIKE YOU LITERALLY TOLD ME “oh don’t worry about missing her we’re gonna do the graduation party at her house when we’re up north” AND THEN YOU WONT SHIFT YOUR PLANS ONE DAY TO FIX ALL OF THE SCHEDULING CONFLICTS BUT YOU WANT ME TO TWEAK A WHOLE WEEK OF DRIVING PLANS BACK A DAY TO MAKE IT MORE CONVENIENT FOR YOU and also I simply don’t want to. Also the garbage truck just passed bc I slept in and I don’t think we got the garbage out and I know we definitely didn’t get the trash from my room or bathroom out of the house and so now moms gonna be pissed at me for that god fuck this is so infuriating I am not planning a trip while on my period ever again I want to bite my mothers head off for even suggesting an alternate plan what is wrong with me I am such a bitch what the fuck no wonder she fucking hates me okay I am going back to bed she can figure this shit out later when she’s not slamming doors and yelling about work

#I want to rip my hair out #why does she say yeah we can work around whatever plans you make and then immediately she’s like oh haha nevermind #and I know I’m overreacting I know I’m being a bitch and I should fold to my mothers needs or whatever but like simply put I don’t want to #deal with my grandparents (if they were dwarves in Snow White they would be called Naggy and Pissy) and I don’t want to deal with their huge #looming sense of dread bc they both know they are old and losing it and that their kids are dead and we are the only family they care about #and I was already nervous about spending any time with them at graduation and now my mom wants me alone in a car with them for HOURS #like I simply don’t want to and I don’t want to think about dad and I don’t want to think about them and I don’t want to drive the extra #hours or anything like ugh I just don’t want to. I want to get high on Millie’s couch and have a relaxing day after driving that much on the #way up and I want to only have to drive three hours to my brother and I want ti already be there for graduation that morning I don’t want to #go any earlier or later than I had planned bc I planned distances by how much driving I thought I could take at a time and If I add an extra #day of driving I will be exhausted and add emotional exhaustion to that from seeing family and add fucking bitchy mood and being judged on #my music or my driving or being asked about what I plan to do with my life or what have I been doing since dad died or are you okay? is your #mother struggling? (and not being able to talk about my mom going out and dating and getting laid and ignoring my dead father and their dead #son bc it’s the only way she’s coping with any of this anymore) #I just don’t want to. and I hope my mother will step up and change her shit to deal with them but if they don’t I’ll have to deal with it #and just get over it but fuck I really really really don’t want to #it just annoys me that my mother would rather move all of my plans back a day than not see my aunt for what six hours here when we’re #literally going to see her up north like five days later #like can’t you just wait to see her. like she has seen the house before. she knows what a screened in patio looks like. they’ve seen the car #before like they will know if they want the car or not before they see it they know the model and they know it’s sat in our driveway for #months and months like they are aware of the car so you don’t need to say that’s the big important reason for them to visit #I’m such an asshole what the fuck is wrong with me I’m really unwilling to have any changes made to my plans #my brother would fucking bend over backwards and do whatever my mother asks and she is so mad that I’m not like that and I should be why am #I not like that why don’t I do all the shit she does for me why am I such a bitch what is wrong with me #I am already exhausted today I only slept for four hours #I just want to skip to me being on the road already. need to smoke a cigarette at a truck stop out of state it will fix me honestly

[fgooooooo]

Professor Norton I need a professor norton

#need him to help me focus better #or maybe i teach norton cool subjects #HE IS SUCH A AVID LEARNER TOO 😭 WHAT IF WE TEACH EACH OTHERRRRR #a lil norton in my brain #leona in my brain too... he is so old brother coded to meeeeeeeee #LEONA LET ME EXPLAIN 2 U ABOUT CORAL REEFS #he would listen to you and acr like hes bored but hes actually listening intently #me explaining to norton plushie about the intricacies of microplastics and how theyre gonna affect us in the long run #LOOOKKKKKKK!!!!! ITS SOOOOOOOO #me reading my bioinvasions paper out loud to norton oruwuhdhwhajhs #leona giving you big head pat for working so hard but DON'T OVERWORK!!! look he is so comfort 2 me #he sees your passion and is like: wow i dont want you to be jaded either. but he was smart in order to be loved but #could u imagine if he was passionate again for someone #gawd..gawd #personal

[adammilligan]

every time i think about how genuinely open michael and adam are with each other i'm like jesus fuck goddamn okay. OKAY. i GET it already

#how they're both so relaxed and expressive with each other versus EVERYONE else #the way michael lets himself smile the way adam lets himself talk with his hands #they are SO! FUCKING! COMFORTABLE! around each other in a way they NEVER are around anyone else #and when you take into account that they've SEEN each other at their worst they were both in that cage going insane together #and michael pulled all that shit at the beginning with manipulating adam out of his heaven and ordering for his torture etc etc #like. they have every reason in the world to want each other gone. and they grew so close anyway #they're so COMFORTABLE around each other anyway. they're at PEACE #they can look at each other and go i am free to be myself around you. without judgement. just me #literally during the argument scene michael was baring his whole fucking self out adam's way. upset reactions and all. and adam never once #turned away from him #and we didn't get to see it on-screen but #michael's swiftness to keep calling out the winchesters like when he goes #'you who let lucifer walk free while your own brother sat in hell.' #or 'so you forgive them?' #and how critically he looks at them #it really does make me think that the same thing happened with adam in the cage. where he just bared himself and michael took him in stride #because he's adam and he's michael. and that's why. #head in my fucking hands. #azure rambles #michael #adam milligan #midam #we came to an agreement