#we'll be having a perfectly good time and then i'll wreck my own mood with things that never even happened to me

[quietly-sweetly-yearning]

this breakdown is not mine to have

i’m sorry

this hurt is not mine to suffer from

i’m sorry

#gonna tag this #trauma #and hope that covers me #will also tag #pi's ventings #for tags #sorry to bring negativity here i just dont want my partners to see #none of them have had really... good lives #they're all past it now and doing better every day but #sometimes when i think too much about how they got hurt i kinda. break a bit #too empathetic ig? like. ik im valid but. it feels stupid. i feel stupid #i get that love sometimes means sharing hurt and pain but this is smth else #this is... idk #just makes me feel bad #we'll be having a perfectly good time and then i'll wreck my own mood with things that never even happened to me #doesnt feel like a very valid reaction