#we'll say either one

[duskythesomething]

I MAY... HAVE BROUGHT HOME A NEW CHILD..........

this is Snickers Pie the One-eyed Guy! poor lad was so on sale it was ridiculous and i couldn't help it, so Cheesecake Banana Snake gets a new sibling.

#mrowr.txt #ask to tag #snakes #Snickers Pie the One-eyed Guy #ball python #reptiblr #reptiles #the guy had zero clue anything about him #supposedly whoever gave him the couple snakes to sell rescued them from somewhere and handed them off to him to sell and find homes for #it seemed super sus but he had a TON of bearded dragons so he seemed like a lizard guy #who just happened to have a couple random snakes #whatever the matter tho Snickers is now in the family #he's SO docile and sweet tempered. im hoping hes an okay eater but we'll find out later this week or early next #he's only 270 grams!!! #probably between 3-6 months depending on how good or bad he was kept before #i'm gonna say his birthday is prooooooobably in november #but im not a vet so idk! no clue if hes a boy or girl either tbh

[bugsbenefit]

my annoyance with the current leaker isn't even with what they say. they're about as credible as any other "leaker", easily bullshit but sure maybe there is something behind it. nothing provable until we get serious leaks or more show teasers. my annoyance is just from how everyone is jumping at everything they say, even the vague nothing statements, and using it as "proof" for their hcs theories. and not in a, "this would work together nicely" or "this inspired me" way which i get but in the "since we now know this we can conclude theory xyz is happening" way

i'm already seeing people that take every self proclaimed leaker to heart and base their entire approach to s5 on them. every time i get a "since A is happening it would be so cute if B" approach i think i missed something new getting out but no, it's just the ripple effects of an alleged leak on twitter from two weeks ago

it's just frustrating, not new, happens in every fandom, but still, frustrating. because now you have people putting anonymous internet users on the same pedestal as actual in show canon which is the exact way you get a fandom to fixate on an idea that "needs" to happen. which will just make everyone unhappy when s5 drops and disappoints their expectations

we'll just have a "Will's painting is a swingset" (for some reason?) 2.0. i got back on ST tumblr in late July and i Still had to wade through people bitch about how disappointed they were with the painting. just because they were so set on the swingset idea. when, genuinely, a swingset would have been so corny, the dnd painting is infinitely better (to me)

#we'll have so many 'leakers' (broad term) going up to s5 #and i'm fine with all of them #they're either real leakers or just having fun either way good for them ig #some things these people say can genuinely be good conversation fuel #but this is the first taste of what will happen over the next year #and you just Know people will run with one of these ideas because it's 'cute' or supports a personal theory etc #like a specific byler scene that's supposed to happen or a plot point/twist #and when it won't happen in the show or be significantly different since even people working on the show don't always have full context #we'll get the swingset painting fallout electric boogalloo #st5 leaks

[toashesireturn]

absolutely insane take from the priest this past sunday but apparently he doesn't consider marriages only carried out at the courthouse and not through the church as real marriages so if you got married and didnt get a specifically catholic marriage then having sex is still a sin. absolutely baffling take along with the rest of the purity culture bs he was spouting

#shay speaks #ex catholic #ex christian #purity culture #new post from shay on the vent blog yippie!!!!! /s #sorry i cant stop thinking about this like is it that important to you. #my gf and i arent super religious so i cannot imagine we'll have a religious ceremony if we do get married one day #i would prefer not to but if she wants it then i'm not gonna say no either #but that's besides the point like. idk man a marriage is a marriage does it really have to be through the church to count #what if you got married before you converted do you have to get. remarried? #thats more rhetorical idk how many people are converting post-marriage if they didnt marry a catholic #ie my dad who i do not think has actually been confirmed or gone through the conversion process #and yet he takes communion anyway which is such a big no no in the catholic church

[synthshenanigans]

Small pattern I noticed with the power hours is that it starts off semi normal before getting emotional in the middle [either sad or angry]. But mainly they all end with a "well it be like that sometimes" vibe

Not Perfect- "It's not perfect, but it's mine"

Chonny's Inferno- "The bright, white islands high would get the boring ones excited, but trust me, man, you wouldn't like it"

Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world- "So if you only have one chance, you ought to try your best to live as you'd like. One day, you're going to die."

Idk if its intentional but I find it neat

#chonny jash #KJ is ranting at like 4am again #moss post #idk what that means for the final one #tmph is basically saying it already but “im not perfect but im mine” #thdph being “i maybe be dead & in hell but its not all to bad actually. it could be worse” #wwph with “we'll all die one day with maybe nothing after so like. live life as you can” #all being some variation of #“life's not gr8 but its not always bad either/life be that way sometimes so you just gotta work with what you got” #which now that i think about it a lot of his songs are kinda like that #it is 5 am i do not know what im saying but like you know what i mean

[emelinstriker]

About those 3 Anon messages recently...

Yes, there's 3 now. Third on came up while I was finishing typing about the 2nd one.

tl;dr context: peeps defending a fictional 2D lego character, questioning the morality of esau (despite the lack of lore context), as well as for some reason a personal attack on me... also smol chinese jesus??? :'D

DISCLAIMER:

I respect y'all's opinions and headcanons and whatnot. It's all valid. However. I expect respect on my own opinions and headcanons return. That's literally all I'm asking.

That's common sense and I will from this point on just delete anyone else's anon asks if they try to argue with me about my standings on these matters mentioned in here. Or this post in general.

There's literally no point in arguing over words written in a story, or debating whether or not pixels on a screen are hot or not.

With that disclaimer being said...

Case 1:

I'm fully aware of the entire discussion thing of Nezha being eternally 12 and all that, but I'm also fully aware of how LMK Nezha is more of a parody on the original. LMK Nezha is more of an adult 2D character who took the characteristics of the source, but then was turned into an aged-up parody.

It's not weird with the context of how things even came to be in the AU. It does involve a form of "infection" that changes those that are infected. In ESAU it's just slightly different from my original story's OCs to appeal more to the Reader. There are people out there who seek comfort in their own superiority complex too, especially if they can never explore that part of themselves normally. If that doesn't appeal to you, that's fine. But don't assume it's weird just because you don't like it if a fictional master/servant relationship isn't for you.

Now, this ask wasn't really bad or directly disrespectful. That was just basic questioning on the general relationship of the AU as well as the LMK Nezha being 12 discussion. So I went to bed, cuz I didn't wanna respond with my rather aggressive response to the topic. Like, I ranted about it to my Discord server, but it was already around midnight and I knew I'd come off as aggressive, despite the logic and facts, if I just copy n pasted the way I phrased the rant. So I went to bed. But then I woke up to an essay in another ask...

Case 2:

I'm assuming this is the exact same person, based on the timeframe and the writing style..? Maybe even the same person who asked that question about whether I'd make Nezha's relationship towards the Reader romantic or platonic..??

For the sake of this entire thing being unworthy of an unnecessary discussion, as well as the fact that the person sending this isn't worth directly responding to if they hide behind an anon face, knowing they would get flamed, I will solely respond to these for my actual viewers, who do enjoy ESAU.

As in, I noticed how almost every single point is easily arguable. Like, they literally just made it up as if every single relationship between the Reader and their champions is romantic. Which couldn't be further from the truth. This is a point I wanna get more into due to how it covers the Master System more. A random anon sending me questions, or rather statements, like this doesn't deserve to get a detailed response to this directly either. My viewers do deserve more insight though. Be it to avoid more people thinking this is automatically grooming, or just to give interested people more lore dump.

To keep it short: Everyone who wants to be a Reader, is a Reader. I myself am a Reader of fiction, which is why I use my persona to fill in the Reader's space in any drawing I do for ESAU. Which is also why Macaque referred to their Master currently being female in that one drawing- Because in that moment, in my drawings, I'm technically seen as their Master.

So when you see the champions swap between their Master using non-binary or female pronouns, this is why. If you see me draw them referring to their Master as a "she", they're referring to basically their current Master in that exact moment. However, literally anyone else can also be placed in that spot.

Whenever I refer to a Reader's reincarnation, I usually mean either "the same person, but another life" OR "different people of the same/a different life". As in, the Reader can imagine themselves having had multiple past lives, or their "past life" is actually another Reader. We're all the Reader. That's why I kept saying the Master System is rather philosophical.

The Reader can imagine themselves if they met their champions as a child or as an adult. However, nothing in ESAU is forced to be romantic or sexual. If you were born as a prince/princess/royalty, that doesn't mean your servants are immediately destined to be romantic or sexual with you, right? That entire portion is up to the Reader to decide and imagine. I do not control what another person thinks of and imagines. If they chose to pick a darker path, the fuck do you want me to do about that? Unless it ends up hurting anyone, or they actively push the topic onto others, I see no issue with however a Reader wants to think up what happens in their life with their servants. All I do is create material for others to play with.

Except for the First Master, any other Reader can be considered either the same person or various people. That's up to the person behind the screen, whether they feel more comforted with one idea or another.

On the Nezha being 12 topic... Do people know what a parody is, I-

LMK Nezha looks more like THIS-

Not as young as THIS-

And he was never said to be 12 years old in LMK. Nor does he look 12, act 12, speak 12, sound 12... LMK needs to be seen and accepted as more like a parody AU of the original story, if that wasn't obvious enough. I find it funny how they brought up my own age though-

Cuz yeah, I'm 21, almost 22, and I do understand the difference between reality's religions, fictional 2D pixels, and the difference between the source and a parody. Wow. Shocker. I know.

Or as I said it in tags earlier today-

Also I'd just like to add… If we go by the theory of specifically LMK Nezha still being 12, despite literally thousands of years having passed, his body being depicted as a fully grown adult in basically every single goddamn aspect of his character within the show… Literally all he got is his paperwork saying he's 12. Like- LMK Nezha would literally just be one of those people that were born on February 29th. Just him not getting any birthdays. Do you assume after literal thousands of years, with his body and mind being mature, and only his paperwork saying he's 12, this dude wouldn't be tryna explore more of himself and his interests, wh-

Like- LMK Nezha isn't the original source Nezha. Simple as that. Just accept it's a parody and be done with it. If you don't agree with it, that's your opinion and I respect that. But don't you dare fucking push that opinion on others who do actually accept the show as a parody and wanna live out their fantasies in said parody.

Your opinion does not mean it's the opinion of others.

Like, the entire age thing in LMK is such a headcanon thing to the point where no one seems to have a solid age, besides maybe MK, who I've seen people calculate his age for due to his driving license and all that. LMK Nezha is confirmed to be depicted as an adult within the show, which is the headcanon I'm going with, regardless of whatever bullshittery people are trying to argue with.

In conclusion: Nezha may be eternally 12 in a story. But that story is NOT Lego Monkie Kid.

On a side note, something I found ironic and funny, is if an aged up character isn't allowed to be sexualized, then I guess if someone ages a character down, suddenly that original source of the character is no longer allowed to be sexualized either, just because that character suddenly has a younger version of themselves. It's not even the younger version that's being sexualized. That literally is the entire logic of this debate on not wanting a fictional character to have an aged up version of themselves.

Good job, nobody wins. I guess nothing can be sexualized at that point- But then again, Rule 34 wouldn't exist then.

Okay, but now this, THIS is where I got REALLY annoyed, cuz NOW we're getting into more personal territory of nitpicking at ESAU. And those who know me are aware of how I go Asian mom mode when my creations, or younger friends and mutuals, are being wrongfully disrespected.

In general, their entire point is a snowflake-behavior nitpick. Branding is also seen as a way to claim ownership over something. The torture part is basically just the pain of it. I could've also just have the champions have one of those toy stamps for lil children be slapped onto them if you really wanna snowflake it all for tHe PrEcIoUs cHilDrEn...

C'mon. I grew up with FNAF and Creepypastas. Which tend to be usually two of the first fandoms I see children get interested in and hyperfixated on. Mentions of brandmarks that have fully healed ain't nothin' at all.

Like, I literally met a boy who was 8ish years old, who was so happy and hyped about FNAF that he asked me to draw Freddy and Bonnie.

Creepypastas also might make one edgy for a while, but they do grow A LOT from it once they leave that phase. So far, everyone I've ever talked to about Creepypastas in the past became such a good person. Because they look back, and recognize morals so much better. They have seen what bad things can happen and we all know where to draw the line between what's fine, and what's not. Nitpicking on LMK Nezha and ESAU doesn't mean anything since it's just that, nitpicking. I know where to draw the line, but this line these people set is a line no one but themselves can imagine.

Show children bits of reality's darker side and they will know how to deal with the knowledge much better and faster as they grow. That wasn't even just about branding, but I'm tired of people saying how we need to keep children safe. Well yeah, keep them safe physically, but they will never fucking grow and become more independent unless you fucking let them think and process the good AND the bad for themselves.

Also on the topic of adding content warnings- Like, the fuck do you want me to even add? Those asks other people sent of the Reader being basically raised by their servants need no warnings, X Readers in general need no warnings, the brandmarks need no warnings cuz they're just there as aesthetic symbols for anyone not invested in the lore, LMK Nezha needs no content warnings-

Literally the only content warning I'd ever need to add is something like gore, which I do admit I didn't add on the ESAU!Nezha X Reader one.

And I'd just like to add a little something that made me raise an eyebrow: They complained about me going against "Wukong's celibacy vows" when they literally admitted to actively looking through the LMK X Reader tag. While that doesn't necessarily mean they would marry or bang Wukong, that means they're at least curious or interested in what a relationship with any of those characters would be like. Which by all means, would not be possible without it being fiction/fanfiction, and without them having some curiosity or interest in the 2D show of LMK.

Like you're literally telling me I'm practically hurting a fictional character's feelings on the matter, but then turn around and try to get with another character.

Fanfiction and AU's are a thing, man. It's all opinions, headcanons, and literally made up shenanigans. And there's nothing wrong with it when it differs from one person to another.

But dumping empty accusations onto me, someone who thinks more logically than emotionally, literally doesn't help your case. Like, you're debating whether or not this 2D character would actually give a shit if someone would wanna bang them cuz they look hot to the other person.

Case 3:

This one just got dropped into my inbox as I finished typing out the last paragraph and just- This is literally just a unnecessary and only somewhat personal hatred thing at this point- But I'm wheezing at the idea of a smol Chinese Jesus-

Bro, as someone who was forced to be Christian on paper, but never gave a shit about it, because Religion doesn't prove anything or form you, I really don't care. And even if that were the case, I wouldn't complain. It's all fiction dammit. You're again, defending pixels on a screen. Besides that, that wouldn't even be the original source character, again. Also in general, honestly, I see any religious story as fiction anyway. Cuz that literally is what a religion is- You put a belief onto someone over a being/a story-

If you're religious, I respect that. But so do you have to respect that I'm not exactly religious myself.

Case 3 was probably the most directly aggressive one of the 3, but also the most unmeaningful one and so unnecessary one... as if that would be the one to prove a point.

Anyway, rant over, I'm done with this.

If I see any other personal hate on me for not sharing the same fucking opinion on such a niche debate, I'll just ignore and delete it all. This is such a pointless topic.

ESAU is supposed to be a comfort zone for those who actually do feel connected to it. If you don't, that's fine, I fully respect it. If people believe Nezha is 12, I respect that. But don't push that onto those who literally are just here to have a nice time away from shit like this. If you wanna "keep the children safe", fucking keep them away from this sort of nowhere-leading discussion topic.

Literally look at Genshin's Twitter Community, this just feels like the exact same type of unnecessary drama I see there.

And no I will not tag these 3 anons. If they respect me enough, they will either just keep quiet or block me and move on. I don't mind. But I refuse to let this bullshit be a whole ass discussion when I'm just trying to have a good time connecting to my viewers after a long day at work. If they look for a fight for some reason, I won't give them one. They can pick someone else for this bullshit, it's not worth my time as it's all OPINION AND HEADCANON-BASED.

And such debates don't end in peace. So I'd rather be the bigger, more mature person and just say "This is the line. Discussion over. We're done here".

Have a nice day, anyone who actually is nice and respectful towards others and their own takes/opinions on things! Weekend's here now tho so y'all ESAU lovers might see some wholesome lil doodles! :D

#lmk esau #eternal servants au #rant #the fact that all 3 are anons tho and 3rd one tells me to respond #but i'm over here still finding the anon part funny #like- easiest way to solve it is to literally just either block me or have me block you. problem solved. i won't change my opinion on thing #or just block the esau tags idk man #usually i wouldn't just say “ignore if you don't like it” #but in this case that's like the only option #this is a nowhere-leading topic that doesn't need to be discussed further #it's just opinion-based bullshittery #if you see nezha as 12 that's fine #if you see nezha as an adult that's also fine #neither side has to push their opinion onto the other #just let us have our fun and we'll let you have your fun. simple. just accept that humans and human minds differ from another.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hey! I can't remember if you ever found out what the red flower vines on Frank's house could be, but I think I found a candidate! It's called the Red Mandevilla Vine and their meaning is interesting

OHHH THAT'S THE BITCH!!! that's gotta be the bitch!!! i'm stuck between that one and the red trumpet vine, but i think you probably Got It. hopefully... god i'm gonna be chewing on this all night aren't i

if anyone is curious, this ask is referencing This Post i made about neighborhood observations / flower symbolism

#'feeling secure in the love we possess inside us rather than needing something from the outside to feel complete/whole' #give. gimme a second im. oh my god i. oh. um. WAILING #some other symbolism found from the mandevilla im seeing is #thoughtlessness/recklessness from one source #perseverence/determination from another #and the last im finding is strength/resilience/adaptability #i love how flower symbolism is like 'heres five different interpretations have fun' #i think all of em could fit frank perhaps? we'll have to see #rambles from the bog #wh speculation #motherfucker there was something else i wanted to say!!! #i had it primed to add on and then i went to type it and Poof! Gone From My Brain!!! #shit!!! im mad now. thats gonna bother me all night #sigh. anyway #the level of insanity im at is zooming in to count flower petals #which is very ridiculous of me #but still... looking real hard at those vine flowers and they could easily be either mandevilla or trumpet.... #bc the way some of them are clustered look like trumpet... but also do they..... im losing my mind #rocking back and forth in a corner chanting 'its not that deep its not that deep' #But What If It Is. huh. What Then.

[brittlebutch]

Desperately trying to make sense of Alex's motivations in Season Two and you know, I do eventually have to wonder if maybe Alex wasn't actually lying in the majority of those tapes.

Like, we tend to assume that Alex's motivations have been a consistent throughline since the college years, but do we actually know that that's the case? Do we know for sure that Alex was acting in deliberate, calculated ways in 2006; or could it be that he's telling the Truth on those olds tapes when he says he's blacking out and can't remember what's happening to anyone? After all, if we're assuming that Season 2 Alex's motivations are the exact same as his motives in Season 3, then it doesn't make any sense at all that he spend months working with Jay to try to find Amy; Season 3 Alex would have attempted to kill Jay like, on sight just to get things over with as quickly as possible and contain the spread of contamination as best as he could.

But, maybe, if Alex really had been separated from Amy after the events of the 04-04-10 tape, and if he really doesn't know where she is, then maybe that could make things start to make more sense. Maybe he really had been watching Jay's channel, and seeing Jay start going through the same things he went through in college without things devolving into violence and disappearances, and wondered if things maybe could play out differently this time. Maybe he really did send that tape to Jay to ask him for help, maybe he really was just trying to find Amy.

But then, instead of actually being helpful, Jay makes it extremely clear that he's a lot more interested in stalking Alex than he is in finding Amy. Alex asked for help, and instead there's a bunch of masked dudes on Jay's heels that keep attacking him, Jay is breaking into his house, stealing his things, leading the Operator right to him all over again, keeps trying to get other people (namely: Jessica -- if Alex is being honest when he says that his call reassuring her that Amy had been found was an effort to make Sure she stayed away from everything that was happening) involved; and instead of anything getting better, instead of anyone finding Amy, things are just getting worse all over again.

It's not until after the incident at the tunnel that things seem to start rapidly devolving. Rather than a calculated attempt to finally follow through with his need to curb the spread of contamination, this is very clearly an outburst of rage and terror. Alex's "I told you not to follow me" line in conjunction with Jay speculating that Alex didn't know who that guy was, to me, pretty firmly seems to speak to Alex having mistaken that stranger for Jay. From his point of view, Alex knows that Jay and totheark know where he live, have broken in before, he suspects that Jay stole a key to make it easier to get into his house, and he's been followed on the daily for months -- Alex is sitting at the tunnel because he doesn't know where else he can go without being constantly surveilled, hunted, and assaulted. And instead of getting a moment by himself to breathe, Jay followed him out there all over again (it feels like Alex looks directly at the camera in Jay's footage of him from this day; he knew for a fact that Jay was there), and then to make matters worse now 'Jay' won't even keep his distance anymore.

So Alex lashes out. And it's not until afterwards that he looks down and finally recognizes that this wasn't Jay -- it was someone completely innocent. Things have finally reached the low point he was at in college all over again; maybe even worse this time. If Alex doesn't remember attacking anyone in college, but he was at least partially conscious of it this time, then things have reached an entirely new rock bottom, they've reached an absolute point of no return.

He has no idea what happened to Amy, and he's spent months trying to find her with no hint of where she could be; he doesn't know where Jay actually is or what additional trouble he could be causing at this point; he does know that now innocent people are getting caught in the crossfire (in regards to the stranger in the tunnel, and also Jessica now that Jay has her phone number, and the untold number of people Jay got involved when he started posting videos to the Marble Hornets channel); things are spiraling out of control and there's no one left to ask for help. The situation isn't getting better, it's getting worse; things aren't getting easier to handle, they're just getting more out of hand; the negative impact is spreading and who knows how much further it can still go?

So, Alex decides to go scorched earth. He disfigures the body with the rock either to hide evidence or to make sure the guy would actually stay dead and not just get back up to start his own cycle of contamination in a few years. He tries to give Jay one last chance to back off, and Jay instead admits he's been talking to Jessica, acts obstinate and lies about not having Alex's spare key, and then breaks into Alex's house a second time (minimum). If Alex doesn't stop him now, who will? Alex met with Jay planning to kill the others, and then himself, so he could put a stop to this once and for all and keep things from getting any worse than they already were.

Maybe it makes a lot more sense if, rather than being a strangely incomprehensible detour on what should have been a straight path, the events of Season Two were the breaking point that put Alex on that path to begin with.

#N posts stuff #idk!!! I've been thinking a lot lately about the tendency to take Characters at Face Value; when they tell us things we tend to #automatically believe them despite what evidence we might have to the contrary. & like when it comes to deciphering what #went down during the college film project it's mostly totheark that posits that Alex was Definitely Lying and Definitely Acting on Purpose #(even Jay is largely ambivalent - wondering which way it leans and basically saying it could go either way) #but. do we KNOW that they know that? Do we Know that they're Right when they claim that? Or are they just Assuming based off #of their own rage and animosity towards Alex due to what happened? Do we Know for Sure that Alex Was Lying in s1? #i don't know if we do!! And so without Knowing that for sure; how can we speak to Alex's motivations in season one OR season two? #now TO BE CLEAR: I am not saying this in an attempt to claim that Alex is somehow completely innocent of all guilt and that like. #Jay is the 'Real Antagonist' of the series - not at all my intention. this is just More of my usual 'look. Everyone in this series is #all kinds of Morally Grey; no recurring character in this series is free of guilt they ALL have unique fatal flaws & trends towards #antagonism that makes things worse and dooms them all' shtick - a la 'everyone Thinks they're doing the Right Thing but No One Is' #BUT i Am wondering if this Does help to like. clear up some of the ambiguity/uncertainty of Season Two - and even Season One - and #lets the series as a whole read a little bit clearer? idk i know that Jay does Claim to think that Alex was bullshitting him #the whole time & was Actually planning on tying up loose ends the whole time but AGAIN it doesn't make Sense he'd wait so long #idk - Am i making sense? does any of this track? i'm trying to figure it out; i am open to comments on the subject to help #i haven't rewatched season 3 yet today and so maybe there's stuff in there that contradicts this whole theory lmao but i'm taking a break #and just posting this anyway; we'll see what happens lol #marble hornets #mh lb

[dolokhoded]

what i really love about figaro being a barber is that it serves absolutely no purpose to the plot. it's such a random ass useless part of the story and it has no reason to be written in. literally none. and on top of it all it's a Big Thing too the entire opera is called the BARBER of seville he has an entire cavatina talking about what an absolutely spectacular barber he is and that's how he's introduced to us. it's not going to contribute to the plot in any way. but you have to know.

#il barbiere di siviglia #the barber of seville #(in the opera at least I haven't read the play i don't know if he like breaks down the door with comically oversized barber equipment #or something) #AND IT'S NOT EVEN USED TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE PLOT EITHER HE DOESN'T EVEN LIKE #it's not even used as an excuse to why he's allowed in and out of basilio's house he's not like 'oh im their barber' he's their MEDIC #(which hes absolutely not qualified for btw. i refuse to believe he has any idea what he's talking about.) #it's not used so they can get into the house. he doesn't go 'ok so we'll say i have an appointment to fix rosina's hair' or something NO SI #he's too ELABORATE for that he has to be like 'so you'll pretend you're a DRUNK SOLDIER. why are you drunk? idk lol. for the shits of it.' #beaumarchais was rlly just writing shit. #and rossini saw that libretto and went yes this. this is the one. #mozart i get he's mozart but rossini girl what are you doing !!!!!

[dirtytransmasc]

its so weird thinking about childhood best friends you don't know anymore. like. the girl and her siblings who lived next door for year, who I used to considered my sister, who now looking back on it was probably my first crush ever, who swore we would grow up together, who was only 'visiting' her family for a month, turns out her parents lied to us, I never saw her again. the girls I went to summer to summer camp with every year and now I can barely remember there faces.

like. how are they doing?

I still can't conceptualize that these people who mattered *so* much to me are just... gone... chances are that I will never see them again, especially my best friend who's back in Pakistan, and even if I did, so much time has passed that I would most likely not recognize them even if I did see them.

#in my mind they're frozen in time #who knows where they are or who they've become #to me we're still 8 years old playing Minecraft in her basement #or 11 and going to the beach #or 12 and im sitting next to her at the dinner table #im 10 and meeting up with all my friends at summer camp #im 13 and its my last year at camp and we all sorta know we'll never see each other but we won't say it #im 14 and scrolling through my old Instagram trying to find a sliver of hope that I'll ever talk to her again #I miss her #I miss them #im forgetting her voice #how is one of the most important parts of me. of my childhood fading away? #currently sobbing #if fatima. who loves unicorns and dogs and the color purple and popcorn and brownies and left for a wedding and never came back. Hi. #your best friend misses you. More than you could ever know. #I still have those friendships necklaces that were supposed to come in before you left. they came 3 days after. I still have them in my room #I never gave the pink one to rose. I never saw her again either #personal vent

[flovverworks]

thought again how overwhelmingly lonely akira would become after everything while time does its healing. u go from having a twenty-something ppl around u at all times to being alone. no one to knock on ur door in the morning, no ppl going in & out, no chaos of sudden fights. even in the (more likely) case where akira forgets its like. this haunting feeling of having forgotten something u shouldnt have. guy who goes to every social gathering ever to have that chaotic energetic experience of having so many ppl around again

#stardust speaking ! #meeting some of the most important ppl to u and losing them in a yr is uhhh a lot #akiras had a lot of themes of not wanting to leave their world just yet/see through what theyre there for #as well as questions like 'what will /i/ be doing next time x happens?' in a very...hm. accepting way? casual? #actually idk if theres ever been any point where its been 'yeah probably a year and then we'll see what happens' #but considering akira went from 'i wanna go home;_;' to 'whats the way to make sure all of u are safe in the fight against the moon' #as well as what they knew about them appearing right after their last battle w the moon. theres. suspicions. i am sure of it #either way there Is that one 1.5 segment too....... #I LOST MY THREAD #but. lots of stressful topics too #since akira knows how many wizards THEY had to summon and the implication the old sage summoned at least one too #thinks about some of the drusilla event lines again.....forget being special i wish we had met under normal circumstances...... #i had more to say about this topic but it also feels like just repeating myself i just think its gonna SUCK for akira #thinking about some lines in kk's diary too...T_T very akira to me. ill go find them again l8r

[stormdragon23]

Baek Seok-Jin: Uh, I think I got your lunch. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘I am very proud of you. Love, Dad’*

Choi Je-Ni: Oh yeah. I didn’t think this was for me. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘Be good. For the love of God, Please be good.’*

#solo leveling ocs #incorrect quotes #baek seokjin #choi jeni #one of them got all their dads’ chaotic energy #the other one didn’t get any of it #the dad could honestly be either choi jongin or baek yoonho #we'll say jongin since it's his birthday today #solo leveling next gen

[waterfallofspace]

Does anyone else hate writing the beginning of fics??

Like I know where I want the story to go, sometimes I even know where I want it to start, but trying to figure out how to open it?? Introduce the scene??

I just feel this pressure that it needs to have a good hook (thanks school-essay writing for that one) that HAS to catch the attention RIGHT away.

Maybe this is just me but it's my least favourite part of writing ;-;

#waterfalltalks #not snz #just complaining <3 #sometimes!! i do know what i want!! #but most of the time im just sitting there like... uh... these characters are in a situation... i guess... #reading other fics all you people start them SO well #but i always feel like im either doing WAY too much or not enough #anyways im just complaining over here feel free to ignore this hahaha~ #just ~writing burn out things~ #i use the word anyways too much in my tags ive just noticed that #id say i'll use it less but i know i wont <3 im a roomba brain person <3 #im always jumping from one thought to another to another to anoth- #ANYWAYS (sadjiolgkm) I will end this little vent session here~ apologies hahaha~ #gonna start a trend where people send in intros and then you build a story to finish it #easy solution~ (im kidding... exceptmaybeI'mnot guess we'll see-)

[octoagentmiles]

bonjour I want and also 99% believe in there being a chance of above and beyond finally dropping the L word (lieutenant) on Kwazii.

here are my contenders for who I think could say it:

Barnacles: I can also 1000% see him calling him his "first mate"; mostly to humour him- but still. I can see Paani or someone else asking what the heck Kwazii does and for him to explain.

Tracker: This dude calls Barnacles "Captain" and "Sir" despite literally being childhood BFF's with him. I can vividly hear him in my head calling Kwazii the L word and Kwazii being awkward about it because he's the only one who does it-

Natquik: Less likely than the others, but I'm ranking him higher simply because I can see him being the one to ask Barnacles, and/or making a random comment about it.

Calico Jack, but he might say "first mate" instead. Other than that I can see him having a Moment™, where he's praising Kwazii and naming all the things he's done that he's proud of him for.

Tweak: Same thing as Barnacles; I can see someone asking, and her explaining it. OR—and this is wishful thinking—I can see her having a Moment with Kwazii as well, talking about responsibility or something.

Dashi: Responsibility Talk™, but Dashi edition.

Peso: Same thing as Barnacles/Tweak again BUT I can also see him like?? casually bringing it up?? if they were to have any character randomly say the word, only for them to never address it again—I can see it being Peso lmao

Paani, but only as an echo. ie: someone else says it and he goes "ah yes lieuten—LIEUTENANT???????" in shock xD

Ranger Marsh. I can't explain this one but I can feel it in my bones. and really that's all you need ain't it?

I can't see it being Kwazii himself at all—because I firmly believe the reason he's never introduced himself with the word is not because of some pirate reason (prefers "first mate", feels imposter syndrome bc of his identity, etc), but because he struggles to pronounce it. like how he has trouble saying "symbiosis" and "aggregate anemones" etc. Thank you for coming to my Tedtalk.

#do i want the moment they finally say it to be meaningful and dramatic? yes #do i also want it to be out of nowhere and hilarious? yes. #🐺🐺 <– the two wolves inside me /j #octonauts #octonauts above and beyond #kwazii #*banging on silvergate's gates* WHERE IS SEASON 3?????? /j #just a crumb of content pleas. i am hungr. #......i happen to know. that they have in fact been recording lines recently. meaning it's only a matter of time til something drops 👁️👁️ #i estimate we'll get a trailer either the end of next month or in dec #but n e way #imagine one day they decide to just go HARD with the angst and lore-- and give us everything we've ever wanted #then the next episode everything's back to normal ✨✨✨ #that'd be so funny but also amazing xd

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

how does one like. get a binder

#like ik how #im priveleged enough to be able to buy one #ik ehic5h company id go with #but its like im waiting for permission #which no one can really give me #like i could wait til im registered back with the doctor's but even if i was brave enough to bring it up they'd either say just don't #or your asthma is completely fine like they always do #like im the best placed to gauge if my lungs can handle wearing one #really i want someone to come along and say it'll help you're allowed this it wont be a waste of money #and you won't have to share with your parents the specifics of your dysphoria #when i could barely come out without apologizing for it even tho they were ok with it #if it were anyone else i cannot emphasize how behind them id be but when its myself im just stuck going in circles #im gon try and call sib at lunchtime and order it then bc yesterday was really not pleasant #a properly fitted binder can't be much more uncomfortable than a too small sports bra surely #and im already good at taking breaks w that so #we'll see ig #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #not to complain abt being a skinny person w a big chest when society is obsessed w skinny ppl w big chests #but JFC

[scattered-winter]

THIS SUCKS!!!!

#SORRY I HAD TO GET THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM #she's not gone yet but. very soon. #if i had to guess i would say sometime during the night or tomorrow. very very soon. #ive already said all my goodbyes and we sang around her bedside one last time and i think im as ready for it as ill ever be #but that being said. how the fuck do u get ready for your mom to die. #but it's not all bad. #my aunt was sitting by me while we sat at my mom's bedside and just shared stories between singing #and she wiped the tears off my face and traced my veins and held my hand while we both cuddled my dog #and idk. im the black sheep of the family but that doesn't mean i'm not part of it. even when shit sucks. #and these last couple months have been rough because first i lost my friend suddenly and now the thing we've been waiting for #for 3 years is finally happening #and idk. in a way i'm glad it's happening because i won't have to watch her suffer anymore. and in a way i won't suffer either. #just kinda ripping the bandaid off yk. #anyway i am contemplative and mostly at peace this fine night. we'll see what the morning brings. #winter speaks #personal #grief tag

[citrinide]

On a soft stupid Sunset shipper note:

#every quiet down it's 'Cin talks about Wheatgel again' time #Finally having updated Wheatley's design from it's last phase is so relieving #becaue now both of them are at a place where im happy with the way they look #and and and. elements of their designs are direct references to each other and. #listen im gay. wheatgel propaganda persists even in the game where you can actively pursue either of them #secret wheatgel ending where you fail so miserably at rizzing them up during their shared event that they just date each other instead /j #i wouldnt be that cruel. (says the man with multiple endings where MC gets... discontinued we'll say <3) #anyway wheatley and nigel are my faves of their respective sets rn and i am sobbing im..im going to put them next to each other #this js me coping hours okay #no time for wheatgel when i have a game to work on. the woes of a single person dev team </3 #this isnt a cry for help btw im fine ive made more progress in the past couple months than i have during the past 5 years #... probably because 4/5 were an indefinite hiatus to focus on school and my mental health erm #and now im doing this kinda shit for a degree! woo! this will be my job or something maybe! #going to start tagging these with sunset.am #sunset.am #since i also call wheatgel Sunset and idk. in case someone wants to filter me ralking about my comfort ship out ig... #or stalk it and like every single one like a freak (affectionate) you choose. #i like talking about them. makes me happy idk.