#we're all depressed here

[lovingherwasgay]

shot out to the 7 different hellers i befriended in my taylor swift concert last week after they recognized my destiel-eras themed shirt. i love you

#the destihellers and swifties venn diagram is a circle #we're all depressed here #taylor swift #Argentina #Buenos aires #11/11 #destiel #deancas #supernatural #BIA

[feluka]

the way a lot of the MEANINGFUL statements in support of palestine have come from people who have never touted themselves as activists and a lot of the silence/worse than silence have been from people who constantly sell an image of themselves of how humanitarian they are and how devoted to causes they are

#like. when i say 'i can't believe some of the best statements i've heard have come from macklemore and rupi kaur and nyan cat of all ppl' #i don't mean to say 'i can't believe it's coming from stupid/'lesser' people' because that doesn't mean anything. #nobody's words is inherently worth less even if they're associated with memes or such. BUT #there is something to be said that these are people who have never attempted to inject themselves into scenes as AcTivIsTs #or constantly talked about how good they are and how much good they do #so it's depressing when critrole that brazenly says corny shit like 'we're here to leave the world better than we found it' #and don't get me started on 'don't forget to love each other' #have been dead silent

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[quickhacked]

i finished the index page for my portfolio are you proud of me

#personal #all it took was 1) a massive depressive episode that lasted from december to february #2) a severe existential crisis about my overall future #3) a good 10-15 fistfights with the suicidal ideation man in my head #4) horrible mental breakdowns every other friday-monday #and 5) entirely too much jacking off. if you must know #i genuinely do not know how i managed to make it through art school relatively unscathed #but hey at least i did not fall back into alcoholism. we're still rawdogging life out here #i Could however use a drink or two though but i'll stay strong. for the sake of my fucking bank account

[princestolasofficial]

pro tip: water your plants with the 50 half drinken water bottles in your room to help lessen the depression pit

#depression tips #im just assuming we're all on the same page here #probably a safe assumption #love yall

[lots-o-doodles]

I've been feeling down about my art lately. 😥 I'm probably just going through a period of growth, it seems silly but it's frustrating that everything I draw looks like I drew it. I'm having a hard time appreciating my art for what it is...

What do y'all like about it?

(If you feel up to sharing.)

#sorry to complain! #i appreciate y'all being here and all the support you give me 💜 #sorry I haven't made anything in a long while... #i feel a bit like it's human nature to wish we were something we're not.....or maybe that's just my depression 😅

[beanghostprincess]

Just thinking about the fact Sora died because of the poison she drink to save her kids, because she is gentle and kind. And her only son who the desesperate act work is as kind as her.

But the StrawHats don't know she did that, this is something he don't have the courage to tell. And they know even less that Sanji is ready to do the same.

He isn't pround of that, but he ends up discovering the poison she drink and even have the recipe of how to do it. Because the germa soldiers teached them this and others poisons.

And this little fact is like a silent threat, a thing that if the crew discovers this, would be attentive about anything he drinks until they're certainly he's not gonna do the same thing his mother did.

And when the StrawHats learn about this fact, the exactly thing he expected happens, he notice Chopper and Robin always near the kitchen with the excuse of how's there was calmer, Nami and Usopp start to do his drinks for him or always are looking him while he's doing it, the others does things too. And Sanji notices all of this.

It's needed months to calm the crew, but still after they stop, all of them always have this fear in the back of they're minds (Luffy even goes as far as asking Law to do a check up on Sanji the next time they meet), that he will do this, but they want to believe he will not. They really want to.

(Just a thought that come to my mind yesterday, and I wanted to share, y'know? Based on some headcanons)

Oh, damn. This honestly hits close to home and it's really interesting so I wanna talk about it. But, you know, it's a serious topic so:

TW // Suicide, poison, self-harm, depression, etc etc you know the drill about Sanji and his issues. I don't go deep, tho, so It's not THAT explicit but could be triggering.

I think that after WCI and Wano, they'd all be worried. Sanji has always been pretty self-sacrificing with everyone and he doesn't value his life in the slightest. He doesn't show signs at first of being actively suicidal but the way he treats his own life makes it clear that he gets into self-sabotaging situations to the point of it being considered self-harm or even passive suicidal behavior. He just- Doesn't care about dying because he puts others first all the time. He has been doing that forever and Skypiea is just one of the times he does that. But, y'know, they never notice that. At least not everyone. I think Zoro is the first to know because of Thriller Bark, honestly. That's one of the biggest signs imo. But then they're separated and it's not like they can talk about it. Then two years happen and uh, shit goes downhill after that because WCI is just utterly traumatizing for Sanji and Wano makes everything worse to the point of asking Zoro to kill him if he loses himself. And we always say that's really gay (because it is) but we ignore the whole point of Sanji genuinely asking somebody to kill him without any fucking hesitation. And he spends all of Wano having the biggest crisis of his life wondering if he's human enough or worthy of being in the crew and???? What the actual fuck. Anyway, I think the crew ends up finding out about everything and I don't believe Sanji is well mentally after all of this. I know they don't write it like this because things are happening and they have to go to Egghead, but I think Sanji would end up really fucked up after WCI and Wano to the point of being worrisome.

If they do find out about the poison thing and Sanj's suicidal thoughts (honestly, I don't know how they would even find out about it unless Reiju tells them or Sanji snaps and yells about that, but, y'know. The point is that they know and Sanji is getting worse) I think you're completely right and they'd be all over him. Because that's exactly what happens when somebody acts this way. They look after him to a suffocating extent and watch his steps. They take turns to watch him. They prepare his drinks. They even make up something so he doesn't have to be on night watch so he can sleep, because he's probably not sleeping either. Or eating well, for that matter, which is what makes them all worry even more in the first place.

And hear me out, because I think he would try to do it. Like- Commit, I mean. Not gonna get into the topic too deep but I think he'd try and I think it wouldn't work because somebody would help him right away and I think he'd try to play it off as a mistake and a misunderstanding, but everyone would know. And he'd just try to ignore their pep talks and interventions.

This is projecting from personal experience and everyone goes through these things differently, but God, I think he'd fucking hate it if they looked after him. Because he knows he won't do it again. At least he doesn't want to do it again. But everybody keeps looking after him like he's about to break at any moment and it's so damn annoying to not have any type of privacy because they think he's gonna off himself the second he's alone. And he gets why they're doing it and appreciates their efforts to look after him, but acting this way is not the answer to his problems. It's just asphyxiating and it isn't helping him get better. You know how the crew is, they're NOT subtle and careful with anything and they're just-- They have good intentions but it's suffocating and he can't handle it anymore.

And I think he'd snap. I actually want to write a fic about this if you let me use your idea (I will credit you, ofc) because I think it'd be great to make him snap at Nami, specifically, and then regret it completely.

Long story short because this is getting long: I think Brook and Robin would end up talking things out with him because they're the ones who understand him the most in this situation. He'd apologize to Nami but also everyone else would apologize too for acting this way, they were just worried and wanted to look after him. I think, after this, the only ones watching Sanji would be Brook and Robin and they'd do it carefully, supporting him and helping him get better. And the whole crew would be next to him along the way but doing it with less assertiveness and just gentler.

I think the concept of Sanji thinking about death so often is great because it adds depth to his character and it's not a crazy thought. I think it's pretty damn canon, actually. At least him being careless about his own life.

#so i never talk about these things here bc trauma but i've gone through shit like this and people don't let me go near medication alone #and it's been YEARS #and it's only stressful because they don't let you do anything on your own once shit like this happens and you lose all sense of privacy #like your whole identity and intimacy you could have fades away and i understand why sanji would snap at them #i think he'd regret it right away and he'd apologize and nami would understand perfectly but damn it hurts anyway #i could go deeper on this analysis but idk if it's a topic i should talk about on tumblr bc it's triggering for some #i think you understood what i wanted to say tho #he gets better dw #robin and brook are like- obviously the ones who have gone through shit like this ofc they'd understand him #anyway i always love to talk about sanji's mental health issues #he's very depressed has anxiety and probably bpd and an ed but that's a topic for another day #and he's also a sweetheart and deserves to be happy #we're all about positive thoughts here and i swear he gets better #one piece #black leg sanji #straw hat pirates #tw self destructive behavior #tw suicide #please be aware of the tags it's a really sensitive topic and i don't want any of you to be triggered :(

[zialinart]

starting my new job tomorrow wish me fucking luck

#i hate new things #i know it's for the better but i haaate itttttt #i want to stay in bed and stay in my depression and not have to talk to anyone #and it's so stresfullll #what if they're all assholes #what if there are only guys #what if they see my hair color and call my agency and are like wtf guys we're not employing punks here #it's a bank and i have fucking green hairs #why do i have green hairs it's stupid #should have stayed at my old job where i didn't have to go anywhere #i know it made me depressed but at least it wasn't stressful #anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy it's gonna be fine right #right

[herdreamywasteland]

idk if this is a neurodivergent thing or a me thing...

but having friends is hella hard.

and making them is even worse.

like, if I had a nickle for every time soneone said we 'wouldn't be good friends'

i'd be able to hire people to be my friend.

just saying :(

#actually autistic #i hate making friends #and tbh #i hate having them too #this is sad #autism #neurodivergent feels #i prefer internet strangers #we're all weird here #and i don't have to worry about scaring y'all off #because we all love eachother here #damn #i love tumblr more than my irl friends #this is depressing #i should probably get some sleep...

[cyberpunkedd]

every time i come back here after being away for a bit, it's less and less notes on gifsets and it's so sad to see.

#people hardly reblog anything anymore it's no wonder gifmakers are giving up #aside from one very popular game atm there is very little else being circulated. only memes and stupidity getting notes it's so frustrating #(i'm speaking of vg side of this website in particular and maybe i shouldn't assume it's the same for all areas/fandoms but i do suspect) #we're all gonna miss gifmakers when they're gone #i know i'm not saying anything new here but seeing these beautiful creations get hardly any notes is so depressing #gifmakers don't even get reblogs from *within their own fandom* anymore. it's ridiculous #adventures in gifmaking

[nikatyler]

just had a thought

#'hahaha my depression wrote the raleb breakup storyline' #nope it was the worst decision of my life aka going to university ew #so naturally you know what i should do now as part of my healing journey #yeah. yeah not even gonna be mysterious about it #we all know how it'll end #big canon raleb reunion 2024 here we goooooooooo #we're heading into the better timeline again #nature is healing #blorbo talks

[erobret]

😔

#▓▓▓┆♚ ˖° ❛ out of character #.ask to tag #.death mention #.depression #life has been so hard on me since i was last active on here #from breaking my finger and not being able to write #to life getting hectic #with my mum breaking her back and healing #to my first cruise #i was gonna come back after the cruise once i was resettled #but then my grandmother fell and broke her hip and a week later she was gone #i was at the rehab center when it happened #it was so fast #i was talking to her then went to get her a pudding #came back and she was gone #its officially been a week since her funeral #and 2 weeks since she passed #my mum's bday was inbetween her death and her funeral so it was super hard #we're currently moving out all my grandmothers stuff from her asst living apartment #then we have to work on her house #im so tired and so sad #ive lost my will to write though i want to but i log on and just stare #i dont know how to write anymore and all i can do is close my laptop and cry #i dont know what to do #i was the only one left of the grandkids who hasnt been married #i hadnt had a chance to introduce her to my partner #and im just broken right now #i want to try tho #i want to try to get back on here #i want to talk to yall again

[halogalopaghost]

.

#I'm having anxiety for some reason which is an unfamiliar physical feeling for me #I do depression and my SISTER does anxiety we're the mental illness brothers you see #but nooo apparently she has lent me some anxiety or whatever #anyway I was feeling useless and kind of like shit about how I never do anything anymore #and never get anything done or help around the house or even clean up my own living space #so I just decided I was gonna get out of bed at three in the morning and sweep the whole house #which like. that's fine I guess #and I wouldn't sit down or take a break even when I wanted to stop because I have got to!! start fucking doing things I can't just #be a lump that complains and consumes resources all my life #but anyway that was a bad idea or whatever bc my hands and feet got real hot and red and now I feel like I'm gonna frow up #I'm laid out on the couch near the phone charger. save me phone charger. charger for my phone save me #so what do we think am I feeling unwell from the activity because I don't do the activity enough or because I am just unwell #last time I swept a large area AND mopped was less than a month ago #I. also had to lay down after that actually except I was at work #just laid across a row of seats like yeah just. gimme a fuckin second to necromancy myself here #anyway #I'm a lil anxious bc of my neurology appointment I guess?? it's either that or the Wellbutrin #OR a yet to be identified food sensitivity maybe?? #I actually have no fucking clue I just have a bunch of ideas ranked by plausibility #I'm. a little dizzy and the nausea is mcgetting me #farewell cruel world it's been nice knowing u

[one4sorrow]

Charlotte come home

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#where did you go are you ok? #they put you in the obituaries but you cant be dead they just dont give a shit #nobody there gives a shit they didnt care about me and now theyre not caring about you and fuck what if theyre the reason you dont come hom #they keep talking about oh she was depressed like no shit look at the world we live in nowadays but thats not whats going on here #and they seem like theyre ready to give up already and they cant do that they cant #we're supposed to ditch everyone and go move to salem together she cant just be Gone #charlotte is the thing holding us all together she cant go away shes still alive they just dont care enough to look too much work #shes just a nobody right charlotte lancaster is just a nobody this is bullshit #i thought my brother would be better but even he's not trying as hard as he could i know hes not #he cant be or he'd have found her by now #shes not dead shes not you arent dead charlotte come home please #fuck me i didnt wanna cry and now here i am crying i hate it here

[austerulous]

Gentle reminder that I’m very slow and inconsistent both ic and ooc, and that the speed of my replies ≠ my interest in them.

#i work part-time i'm the primary caregiver of twins i do all the housework all the cooking all the gardening #i'm in the middle of some hefty home renovations i have a dog i have depression and very likely undiagnosed and untreated adhd #mental load is real and it's insidious #( i'm actually this 🤏 close to quitting my job because i can't Do It All ) #all this is to say sometimes i'm here sometimes i'm not #sometimes I focus on ic stuff sometimes ooc convos #very often i'm just here to like posts / leave comments / reblog aesthetic stuff #this is stated in my rules and if it's something that makes me and my blog incompatible with you that's absolutely fine! #no hard feelings #some folks need consistent momentum but i can't offer that #i owe in 67 threads right now and i have 170 asks in my inbox #i'm trying to streamline things and choose a handful of threads to focus on but the fact remains i have more to do than time to do it #anyway! 99% of people understand my situation and i'm so grateful for your patience and understanding ♡ #if we're mutuals please know i like what you're doing and i'm interested in writing with you #◈ — ooc; puffin speaks

[hellsbroadcaster]

the communities thing looks cool I won't lie.. but I am in agreement with a lot of folks who worry about it becoming super exclusive. And tumblr already has that huge ass problem as it is.

#⌜off the air⌟ . // ooc #i personally have so much beef with a lot of tumblrs fucking cliques i could go on all day #like imagine thinking you're better than someone cuz you rp fictional characters online with strangers all day gtf out my face #we're all a bunch of losers here just trying to have fun and do a little escape from our day to day lives #bring that shit on here with petty ass drama about things that in hindsight dont even matter #if you're constantly needing online validation to make it seem like you are worth something you need to work on loving yourself more #the way some ppl on here act like roleplay gonna fix your problems #no boo #you actually have to deal with yourself at the end of the day #your blooming aesthetic your purple prose writing you're teeheee im depressed and i have mental illnesses aint cute when you are actually #just a shit person #and I need ppl to start acting right fndsklfnldksf #SORRY I WENT OFF IM JUST #pPL BRP