#welcome to the queer cersei literary salon. it’s me ranting incoherently at myself about how cersei is a repressed trans bi man

[translannisters]

Not to be crass but as both a Trans and a Gay I am fully obsessed with the way Loras - simply by being a gay man participating (and excelling) in the masculine conventions of Westerosi nobility - brings out intense weird gender conflict between Jaime and Cersei. Yes there’s the obvious irony of Cersei being openly homophobic while also being involved with a woman but I think the crux of it is something deeper - I mean Cersei has resigned herself to this “man’s soul in a woman’s feeble body” image of herself and her sexuality performance is wholly based on her idea of her body as “feeble and female” which is ultimately one of the primary roots of her sexual “desire” for Jaime and the cause of her feeling the need for him to look exactly like her but male; she literally cannot relate to her body or her sexuality and feels DEEPLY unfulfilled and like she’s piloting a meatsuit - fucking a woman “only” leaves her dysphoric and unsatisfied (in the absence of her ideal self) but the idea of her ideal self, or someone like him, fucking men directly challenges the very concept of Westerosi manhood AND problematizes the idea that the things that cause Cersei to loathe herself are caused by something “inherent” and “natural” like her “female” body and sexuality. If a man can be “like a woman” in that regard Cersei has to face up to the fact that the only thing “wrong” was her birth assignment, that she can be Warrior or Maiden as she chooses, be a mother or a warrior queen, and still feel bereft. That “wearing her womanhood like armour” is despair-inducing even when it achieves her goals AND that, while being in a “male” body would have given her a sense of completeness that she can never ever feel as a “woman”, it would not be an instant path to being valued as a person because Tywin and his ilk would absolutely have viewed male-male desire as a “womanly” weakness as well - so that desire of hers goes deeper than the yearning for power she can sort-of-convince herself it is

#welcome to the queer cersei literary salon. it’s me ranting incoherently at myself about how cersei is a repressed trans bi man #valyrianscrolls #asoiaf #cersei lannister #trans cersei #loras tyrell #jaime lannister #internalized homophobia cw #internalized transphobia cw #misogyny cw