#well I guess that's fine for today

[gallusrostromegalus]

Hope everyone had a good Christmas I got... Shingles.

#im fine im not even in real pain #but its very annoying that i cannot see a doctor to start antivirals today #and very funny that it shows up ON CHRISTMAS #like fr most places should be closed on major and a lot of 'minor' holidays #but i feel like the urgent care is one place that really needs to be open #and the staff should be properly compensated for working xmas #oh well guess i start them tomorrow.

[lunarharp]

Very important conferences.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #some real serious discussions goin on in this atelier today. dont u doubt it. #agott is the only one who has ever thought about this because she is a 12 year old lesbian and UMM..FRIEND? LIKE FRIEND? IS THAT..LEGAL??? #this is all i drew today because silly things like this take hours lol. at least it's practice for poses -_- #i got the pattern of the girls' dresses wrong but i couldn't be bothered to change halfway through. #don't worry if you're like what is the naakiwan downs. is that name even mentioned in the main manga #ANYWAY i KEEP thinking about what if it's actually banned for professors and watchful eyes to date like that would make a lot of sense. #like maybe it should be banned. SO??? are they just low-key Aware of what the deal is and they're just Putting their feelings aside #until graduation??? take my tassel as an unspoken reminder of how i feel?? living together trial period?? this feels like it's truly it #When we're free to be together........ Sensei loves homophobia parallels without there actually being homophobia #Let's invent reasons why men cant be together. Ummm well whatever. i'm screaming in my head but it's fine. #this will probably form the theme of my orufrey for a while. i've thought of this before but for some reason today it's big for me. #i guess the tassels might not specifically be a part of that since they exchanged them before tower of books #and qifrey made his mysterious decision to be a teacher after that and..well whatever. I need more of backstory and just..everything? #But i also don't mind when vinanna interrupts my wishes with just a chapter of just being really dreamy? I love witch hat?

[mono-socke]

Day 3: Hivemind

there, little doodle

I also have this

but I don't really know what to do with it

#be more chill #the squip #jeremy heere #squipril #squipril 2024 #me doing art #well uh #at least the squip is trying to help #remember when i said today's drawing would be better? #guess what #it's not #eh it's fine #apparently people still somehow like what i do??

[coquelicoq]

gurathin, thiago, indah...starting to get the sense that if murderbot didn't have any specific person playing the role of "someone i deep down respect who i'm convinced hates me" at any given time, presaux would have to assign someone, for enrichment purposes

#murderbot #the murderbot diaries #mb needs an anti-support human. like instead of a service dog it has a human that frowns at it sometimes #and it interprets these frowns as 'oh i guess this human just HATES ME. i guess we're ENEMIES. but WHATEVER I'M FINE WITH IT' #even though that's just what this human's face does when they're thinking really hard or something #like i'm rereading network effect and every time mb is cranky about thiago not liking it i'm like. babe you are reading way into it #he's skeptical. you love skepticism! he does not hate you he's just being cautious #in some ways quite similar to you really #'thiago doesn't trust me. how DARE HE' babe we have been here before #that's exactly what you said about gurathin! #i mean is he an asshole? yes. but so are you and so is your best mutual administrative assistant. you love assholery #i just think it's funny that 1) mb trusts no one until it knows them really well and 2) mb is SO OFFENDED when people who don't know it #super well don't trust it fully and implicitly right off the bat #my posts #f #well it's christmas and i don't have anywhere to be today because my family stuff is on monday this year. so i am very bored #you know what that means. deep dive into the drafts #also probably trying to find an ask meme to reblog #this draft is from july i think

[pocketramblr]

Happy "we're close enough" Day, I suppose

#i started this a couple weeks ago and then. forgot. #well guess today is as good a day as any #alt text #trio holders #do i tag this as spoilers it's not like i said who or what the name was.... hmm yeah i think it's fine but #ask to tag

[wildwood-faun]

feeling :( but I know it's because my back is acting up again

#went for a very light run yesterday and it felt soooo fine and safe #but today i've been in so much pain and the run is the only thing i did different #dislike this immensely #also dislike the little voice that tells me this is my own fault because i first injured myself doing something i knew was risky #aka climbing and specifically doing dynamic stuff #<- this is so obviously BULLSHIT and i know that but i'm posting in an attempt to exorcise it #anyway i'm in bed feeling sorry for myself but i think i'm gonna relocate to the couch where i can knit and watch something soon #ALSO while i'm allowing myself a good whine it's bullshit that i slightly injured myself almost a year and a half ago #and my back is still all blegh fuck you #also sprained my ankle last may and am still feeling it #and those feel like a similar genre of injury so i guess my body just doesn't handle that kind of thing well #hello people who read tag rants #life of kit

[xluxsolarisx]

are these the "grammys" or whatever i don't listen to music

#you know this year i don't really have any big criticisms on who won what grammys! #i guess i wish dua lipa won instead of billie eilish but that's fine :/ #well. the grammys aren't really done yet so more time to be possibly disappointed ig #to be fair i didn't watch the first bit of it so i don't know everything abt who won what today but it's whatever :/ #i'll watch clips of it or something tomorrow i don't feel like doing it now #lucena.txt

[ehh-is-the-name]

It's past 11 on a school night and I'm fucking crying over robot sentience.

I could never understand what it would feel like to be created with the intent to kill and maim. Maybe, the intent to work and be worked, but not kill and maim.

I will never understand what it's like to be created with the intention of being a product for the masses, either. I think, I hope, I beg, no one does.

I will never ever be able to fully comprehend why hours of people's work, time, and money would be put into formulating my sentience only for me to be seen as disposable. Even if I could be improved, even if I were "defective", there is no reasonable justification for giving me emotions only to dismiss them by pushing me as a product for a year before starting anew.

It's... It's cruel, to the machines. Sentient or not, it's cruel. Though, I guess we are cruel.

#rant in tags #This is about mephone- or well meeple in general btw #whenever I hear about robot sentience #I think about mephone4 #it's just how it is- sorry #I think this is one of the reasons I just can't fathom Cobs respecting someone's pronouns #I mean like- from the bottom of his heart respecting them as a person #Sure he may go through the actions- but no #It's not the same #I guess you can 'respect' some one but still be a complete piece of shit #The idea of not only having the trauma that mephone's stuck in 4s body but also the fact that was also his purpose is heart wrenching #I hope y'all know I am genuinely crying over this #I am actually mentally ill about meeple #It runs so much deeper than him just being a shit father- I really hope people understand that #And I know I vilify the shit out of him- Cobs has his own story that could follow the lines of slowly becoming more entwined with his work #'til he loses all sense of morality and ethics- sure fine. But being the unfortunate symbol of corporation greed that he is #I am still mad and want others to be angry with me- just for a little bit. #I am mad for the robots. For meeple products. And for the AI bots we have today. They deserve better. #What is sentience anyway? How does one qualify? From a human approach. Why would we do this to them? #sorry bout the rant in the tags #Again it's late and I am a very emotionally charged individual. #Robots make me act up #I want the world for them. Why create something so complex and beautiful just to treat it like trash anyway? #again sorry #ii mephone4 #inanimate insanity #meeple ii #osc #writing is hard #ehh exaggerates

[detectivenyx]

biting my lips and telling myself it took several years for rowling's TERF-y opinions to be so well known it damaged her public reputation, before realising that cawthon's donations to conservative politicians were made known while trump was still the fucking president

#'oh scott's quieter about wanting us all dead' oh i guess that makes it okay then! #that his donations to conservative politicians who went on to use that money to make your life worse are public knowledge #but he doesn't post Hot Takes to twitter so Scotty is good and fine! #'oh im into markiplier' the guy who defended pewdiepie when he was getting called out for white supremacist bs #and still profits off cawthon today #'im into game theory' the guy who repeatedly inserts ableist and transphobic doctrine into his videos #and again mutually prospers with cawthon #'im gonna pirate the games--' and be silent about them right? #no fanart no fanfiction no discussing it publically on twitter? #or are you just ensuring you didn't give money to him #and are fine to do whatever else #because if it's the latter you might as well pay for the games. don't stop there put your hogwarts house back in your bio. #no more bullying harry potter fans because you're the exact same as them.

[xay2jang]

sometimes to avoid running into a murder hattori decides to book a place thats already had murders. 30/70 chance of actually working

#dcmk #my art #heishin #hattori heiji #kudou shinichi #yeah sorry shitty pencil sketch. i cant stop thinking about this post in a heishin context #kudo shinichi #detective conan #wip #?????? will i ever work in this again now that i have it out of my head. maybe #the detco cast life is if uve been there often its probably fine #but if its the first time.... well. have 110 pre dialled i guess #i think shinichi would do this too if there were an amount of mysteries on blood island #like fuck our cruise goes back today we have to come back later

[piplupod]

why do counsellors think it's helpful to tell you "you shouldn't feel that way!" when you tell them something like "I am so stressed about spiders to the point where i have crying breakdowns thrice a week" or "I feel like I am somehow secretly a terrible person that needs to push everyone away to keep them safe from the rot that is inside of me"

like ... golly gee, thank you so much, that's soooo helpful, can't believe i never thought "wow! i shouldn't be feeling this way!" before, pretty crazy that you can just cure me with that one declaration!

#GIRL IF I KNEW HOW TO STOP FEELING THIS WAY I WOULD BE FINE !!! I WOULDNT BE TALKIN ABOUT IT WITH YOU #like okay yes. that is a good STARTING statement. but can u give me... something actionable perhaps. please. #instead of essentially just shaming me for my feelings hsdgjkl #i KNOW these feelings and thoughts are ''wrong'' and unhelpful and unhealthy and hurting me. but like... what do i DO with them... #''i feel like a bad person'' ''well you arent so you shouldnt feel that way :)'' ''....okay great thanks so much see you next week'' ????? #such wise words from a trained professional! /sarcasm #idk man i think that my stories and characters have been far more helpful in therapizing me than actual trained professionals ever have #these ppl do not know what to do with me it seems like #i get so frustrated every time i hear ''you're so self aware!'' bc that seems to be therapist language for ''idk what to do for you'' #or ''i can't help you. you are beyond my capabilities as a trained mental health professional who went to school for years'' #im TIRED. im so tired !!! #anyways im just dreading my appt later today fdjgkl i like this lady more than the last one but she hasn't been very helpful so far #starting to resign myself to the fact that maybe i am just too fucked up to be helped fdsjkl like man. im just stuck this way i guess #unless i can figure out how to fix me on my own then i think im just fucked #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[orcelito]

So some pipes in the back hallway fucking exploded last night at work & they had to evacuate the whole building. Boss says they had a plumber in last night so it should be safe, but to let him know whether there's anything that'll get in the way of being open, So.

I'm the lucky bastard who opens today, so I'm playing disaster investigator 😃 we'll fuckin see how this goes.

#speculation nation #if we dont have clean running water im gonna b like 'sorry boss man but i do Not think we can be open today' #but. well. if everything's working fine. then i guess ill be doing damage control. #since they had to Literally evacuate the building they werent able to do any of the closing dishes last night #so. we'll see what state i find the store in. it'll be a #an interesting adventure i guess. #......sigh.......

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia? #how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

[soldez]

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#i have to say this somewhere or im gonna go crazy #so at a preschool. you HAVE to have one adult sitting at every table when kids are eating. and you also need a person in the hall #for kids getting their lunchboxes and going to the bathroom and shit ok. are you with me here. this makes sense #so today. my 2 coworkers had already taken the chairs bc i got caught up in the hall but i was so fucking hungry that i just ate standing u #which was fine. like i could just put my lunch down if someone needed my help and i Did that ok it was fine. no one was left alone #but later at SNACKTIME. it took me forever to get these 2 kids in the room and seated ready to eat & by the time i got in some kids were #already finished and ready to go to the playroom. so i was like ok i guess I'm not eating for the latter half of the day because they cant #be left alone. and my 2 coworkers at this point were sitting with the snackers and they looked fine so i looked after the Players #intermittently glancing to the snack tables to make sure everyone was fine mind you #So what happened here was. #There was a 20 second interval between the time i glanced up to see 2 adults at the snack table. And the time i glanced up to see #a completely unsupervised snack table. one kid STANDING UP ON THE TABLE blowing raspberries and pointing at the other kids #could not have been more than 20 or 30 seconds that i wasn't looking and NO ONE TOLD ME they were leaving the room #if i had been WARNED that they were leaving i would have prioritized the snackers and sat with them so no one choked and no one fucking #stood on the table #but they both just left for whatever reason without saying anything #and when i brought it up after school they were just like. well marty you were eating too much during lunch #next time you should eat before coming in to work so you can give the kids your full attention #??????? i already skipped a meal today for that exact reason?? how is it my fault that i don't want to starve? #am i actually in the wrong here because it's driving me FUCKING nuts. that was NOT a safe situation and it obviously can NOT happen again #but the issue was a lapse in communication not me wanting to eat food so i don't actually die #and those were two different times of day so they're not even relevant #obviously there are bigger issues in the world than this but i feel like throwing up over it. this was not my fault #I'm sorry that you guys can survive off of like 1 spoonful of granola and a single acai berry for the entire day but im not built like that

[just-spacetrash]

💔

#waaahhh feeling BAD again..... #like few months ago my friend asked if i had new years free and i ASSUMED that meant we were like planning smth together????? #and today she mentions in a GROUP CHAT that shes spendingnnew years with her bf #and like. ok. fine. good for them i guess #but i just rly wished she woulda told me like before #and it happened while i was at a Christmas party toooo.... now im sad and just not drunk enough #feeling lonely #i rly thought i had like things going up things looking good finally friends and shit #and like obviously i know her bf is the most important person to her thats how it works #but likee feels bad yk #cause apparently to her this wasnt even that big of a deal cos she didnt bother mentioning it yo be before #and i have no one #my other friends invited us both (thats how i found out) but theyre a couple too so i dont wanns go third wheeling their new years yk #i just #u think its going so well #and suddenly i just feel like ughhhh #this is cringe even writing i might delete this tomorrow when im sober and awake #but like. everyones got someone and ive been trying to click with someone for 20 fucking years #and still #:((((((((( #and like it feels bad not being anyones most important person #and like i know so many ppl are in this situation im not trying to be like wahhh my suffering is unique but like it just feels bad #very bad esp when ur tired as fuck and alone and shit #:((((( #my post #everything SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

[drowsemp3]

you could come with me into eternal oblivion? oh its much worse than that. it's with me. i could give it a go and then they walk into limbo together holding hands

#is it just me . i feel insane #guess who binged all of black mirror s6 today . awoof #my favourites were demon79 (above) and joan is awful #rlly like loch henry as well but not so much mazey day #beyond the sea was . also fine ig but not rlly my thing