#well at least i'll have money

[thelivingautomaton]

i started playing max payne 2 and was immediately so put off by how he no longer has sam lake's face that i decided to put together a collection of some of the max payne 1 panels that i really liked. enjoy <3

#max payne #max payne 1 #remedy entertainment #sam lake #remedyverse #idk depending on how well-designed they are maybe i'll make a post of my favorite max payne 2 panels also #but like. i know literally they had 0 money when making the first game which is why sam lake just used his own face #(also he got his parents to model as woden and horne which is so incredibly funny/based of him to do) #and then for the sequel they could hire actual professional models/actors #but like c'mon. max payne 2 looks like a generic middle-aged dad protagonist of a 2000s action blockbuster #by comparison sam lake has such an interesting face (which if anything fits the raymond chandler film noir vibes even better) #i have very high hopes for the remake(s) that remedy is handling but in a way i hope they keep at least some of the unpolished aspects #anyway sorry y'all the remedy brainworms have gotten me there's no escaping this

[tricoufamily]

update tinder guy superliked me, asked me on a date, spent the entire thing belittling and making fun of me and seeming vaguely angry at me. then asked me for a second date

#that was the worst weirdest date i have ever been on what the fuck #like. got weirdly angry at me for having a decent relationship with my immediate family #like 'oh well at least you have [blank] 🙄😒' so many times and would not stop reminding me how much harder his life supposedly is #literally asking me to say hardships in my life so he could 'one-up' them. ???????????? #you would have literally thought i was a member of the royal family #like i had already said i was poor and was bullied in school and he was STILL kept insinuating- #-i had a family who gives me tons of money (lol) and was popular/well-liked in school. unlike him. of course #also making fun of my interests how i talk act write texts etc etc etc #you know who i bet would never do this. that's right. my crush who i can never have FUCK IT WE'RE BACK BOYS WOOOOOOOOOOO FUCK MOVING ON #one of his ice breakers was 'what's your worst tinder experience' though. guess what buddy!!!! #next time i get asked that i'll have a funnier story thank you

[mulletmitsuya]

please support the global strike in solidarity with palestine

#this is actually the only platform i haven't posted about palestine #but please do whatever you can to support it #i was gonna do this on my main blog because i didn't wanna disturb peoples timelines with non fandom related stuff #but people are being bombed and it won't do much to affect your day #i'll be sharing more posts from now on because it's the least we can all do #please share these posts as well #also tumblr supports israel btw #don't use your money on the app #they're spreading pro israel propaganda and also muting things that have to do with palestine #my blog could get affected bcs of this and ofc i don't want my blog deleted (idk of tumblr can do that) but again #people are being killed #remember to boycott!!!! #i'm so late to this and am greatly dissaponted in myself for not posting on this app considering i have a high number of followers #but i'd rather start now than still be silent #silence is compliance

[chloeseyeliner]

help, now that i have stopped tearing up at every mention of the series, the young royals forever documentary and the bts videos have brought my past obsession with film-making back-

#beware: rambling ahead!!! #so when i was in high school a secret dream of mine was to go to film school #because i was mesmerised by the whole process of writing and directing and everything the crew typically does during filming #and i was reading so much stuff about all the different angles and symbolism and the like #but of course my mother wouldn't let me #(very neil perry of me lmao) #and i mean i was trying to be realistic too #because i don't come from money and greece is not exactly a great place to be an artist #(since i wouldn't be able to go abroad and chase my dreams or something like that i am not the main character in a disney movie) #so like i threw this dream into the bin along with being an astronaut (i was bad at physics because no one ever explained anything to me- #-before last year of high school i still don't know how i technically aced my uni entering physics exam lol ANYWAY) #and don't get me wrong #i like the path i have chosen now (which was at the beginning at least also against my mother's wishes but she thinks it 'has money' so- #-she 'allowed it' as if- i won't say anything worse i'll regret later i'll just leave it be) #i like it very much because i can help people and maybe contribute to making this world a better place #i just... #i watched the documentary some days ago and it's all i can think about (along with the show of course) #like i LOVE the cast #but the crew is magnificent as well #what they create is like magic #anyway #young royals #filmmaking

[arctic-hands]

I have joined the society of bluetooth earphones

#refurbished for the record #i have been dragged kicking and screaming into the future #my phone doesn't have a headphone jack. my mp3 player does but it also has bluetooth capability. my ereader only has bluetooth for audio #so I figure since I'm going on the eclipse trip in a few months I should get some wireless buds for the train #went with some used skullcandy sesh because they were like twenty-two dollars had had a twenty hour battery life #I ALMOST went with some used Hesh headphones that looked really cool and had fifteen hours but were also forty-nine dollars #which combined with the other things I needed to buy would have put me thirteen dollars over my seventy-five dollar walmart giftcard #I was very tempted if just for the aesthetique~ but realized if I bought the cheaper earbuds I could have enough money for some instax film #and the cheaper earbuds and 2 pack of film plus the household objects I needed put me at a tidy seventy-four dollars and fifty-six cents #so I didn't have to spend any actual money on anything woot woot #the earbuds are blue. which is my favorite color. but they're like a pastel blue. which is like my least favorite shade of blue #ah well I'll sacrifice looks for function and affordability any day #*stares in slight dismay at hideously pink refurbished and thirty dollar instax mini 9* #what I REALLY wanted was some of those urbanista solar-powered headphones/earbuds #but even used/refurbished both were out of the total price range of the gift card(s) #I actually had two giftcards which together totaled seventy-five so that was pretty sweet

[razzek]

This is going to be hard to find so, to anyone else who was on James Somerton's Patreon until last night, can anyone help me find out the sources of his Revolutionary Girl Utena video? I really enjoyed that and I'd like to give whoever he got it from some love.

#james somerton #revolutionary girl utena #utena #hbomberguy #I'm so bummed out about this and The Completionist #two people I enjoyed and somewhat looked up to turned out to kinda be a pair of tools #and that sucks #I'd love to say I thought james was iffy but I don't have the brain space to pay that kind of attention #thought some things he'd say were kinda off and weird but I'd forget and do other shit #well that's patreon money I'll never get back but oh well it is what it is #anybody wanna support a blind queer artist who will inevitably yell about something you personally object to? :D #I can't hold myself back as any long time friends well know XD #and I've been shit on for just about everything under the sun by fandoms I'm in #promise I don't plagiarise at least I ain't got time or head space for that kind of shit XD #and I won't misgender people or shit on fujoshis and women who are exploring their identities through fandom

[arsonist-chicken]

hehehe fourth day in a row I've slept until 5pm because I fucked up my sleep rhythm staying up until 7am but probably more likely because of the ✨curses✨, but at least today I finally saw some sunlight again by walking to the store to still make it before they close. this is fine.

#the curses are mental illness aka depression or whatever idk man just give me some energy to be able to live my everyday life #i mean i thought i was getting sick on tuesday evening so i already planned to not go to uni on wednesday #also because i hadn't done a presentation but i really thought i was getting sick too #and it's been downhill from then #the last two nights i said to myself at lik 6am i'll sleep four hours now until 10 so i have the day to work and then can actually sleep #normal again but either i didn't hear my alarm or i turned it off and woke up again when it was still light outside #but close enough to already the sun setting that i was not gonna get any sun #the psychologist who did my adhd exam said i could start treatment with her but i'm a little wary of that #since my insurance still hasn't let me know if they'd partly cover that or if she's not in that system. idk how it works. #and also she's a psychologist not a psychotherapist #and no offense to my friend but i saw my friend studying psychology and becoming a psychologist after she finished her degree #and I don't think she'd be educated at all to actually offer therapy #she just does evaluations and such now but no therapy #and damn if I'm going to spend my emergency money on therapy because well it's not covered here then i at least want it to actually work #and actually be therapy. like working on the adhd and depression; not just an adhd coaching #that would have helped when i was in school or just starting uni but by now i definitely also need therapy for the depression that evolved #from all the issues. also maybe just brain chemistry idk. #mine

[nerosdayinanime]

Please post more about giyu just dating everyone

i should...... gonna start right now cuz ive actually thought about mitsugiyu for the GiyuusFuckingSad au- when hes still moping around in the cafeteria corner she pops over because she saw shinobu, shinobu stops her excited rambling and explains that its Quiet Time and shes like 'oh! okay! i can be quiet!' and she just hangs around to doodle in her sketchbook across from them. giyuu once again baffled by another random girl deciding she wants to hang out near(with?) him when hes literally never said a word in response.

she sees him in the halls and tries to talk with him, he responds minimally but shes encouraged by any response at all and talks to him outside the cafeteria any chance she gets- giyuu's incredibly confused as to why she likes talking to him so much, but one time when he realizes he missed the turn to his class about three halls ago finally notices how much he enjoys listening to her stories (he ended up just walking her to class to hear the end of the story, he was a few minutes late when he got back to his own)

when shinobu starts inviting him to little outings with her friends mitsuri's the first to welcome him, kyojuro and suma quickly follow and hes. very overwhelmed. why did he get introduced to the loudest ones of the friend group first?? contrary to what he thought would happen though, they actually love him and despite how hype the three of them get (and how not hype he usually is) he doesn't ever feel left out or pushed to the side (physically speaking too- suma frequently hangs off him since hes the most stable one around now and mitsuri & kyojuro aren't hesitant to pull him in to make him focus on whatever they're talking about. he likes how free they are with affection towards him like that)

months later he's acquainted with and knows the whole group and they're all out at a restaurant chatting and having fun- giyuu notices how entranced everyone else is at kyojuro's retelling of a story and he can't help but think how much sabito would like them all... mitsuri stops paying attention to kyo and turns to him, "Giyuu? Are you okay?" "Yeah, why?" "You're crying"

the grief finally hits, the tears get heavier despite his attempts at drying them before he starts to panic and excuses himself- he practically runs out and mitsuri worriedly glances back at everyone before excusing herself and running after him. she follows him to the side of the restaurant in the little alley where hes having his breakdown and hugs him- he buries his face in her shoulder and holds back shaking like a leaf for a while before the worst of it passes. she asks what happened, "I-i just- he'd like you all.. he would've loved to meet you.." she knows who hes talking about- well.. she knows he was extremely important to giyuu, and that something happened and he's not around anymore, and that its extremely painful for giyuu to talk about so he just doesn't. she says shes honored by his thought and goes on to try to calm him down/cheer him up, his face looks a mess from the splotchy flush and eye liner- it got smudged to hell and back and hes a little embarrassed by it. only for a moment tho because mitsuri immediately offers to fix it for him. when they're finally ready to go back in they notice obanai standing at the entrance of the alleyway, blocking the view from outsiders. "aw! you're so thoughtful obanai!" "You two good to head back inside now?" "how long were you standing there?" "long enough, you worried everyone running off like that" "sorry.." "don't apologize, idiot. c'mon, lets go eat" and they followed an excited mitsuri back to the rest of the group.

after that mitsuri started inviting him to her apartment to practice makeup art on him since she knew he was okay with it. he was good at sitting still and he liked how gently she touched and moved his face however while she worked, quiet and serene with her music playing from the room over- the first thing she tried out was a simple little water-esque mark on his left cheek. when he was finally allowed to look at it he remembered the time when they were kids and sabito backhanded him there for saying he wished he had died with his sister. remembered how badly he wished he could have gone with sabito too. remembered his final words, 'promise me you'll love again'

he looks back up at mitsuri with a little smile, maybe that promise isn't as impossible for me to keep as i thought. "i like it" "oooh! i just had another idea! what if i made it look like a stream of water coming out the corners of your mouth!?"

#tomioka giyuu #kanroji mitsuri #giyumitsu #giyuu tomioka #mitsuri kanroji #mitsugiyu #loserboy giyuu posting #gfs au #most of this is actually canon to gfs au but this time with added emphasis on his relationship with mitsuri #shes so bubbly and kind its hard not to fall in love with her at least a little bit #(giyuu might also just have a thing for pink hair lmao) #((shit now im thinking of giyuu x sabito/mitsuri/akaza.. full set like.. cedes what have you done)) #i imagine for this version at first obanai is kinda jealous bc giyuu's closer to her but hes too nervous to actually do anything about it #once giyuu and mitsuri actually start going out hes like 'well fuck. there goes my chance. guess i'll pine' #giyu however notices said pining and just straight up 'do you want to date mitsuri?' 'wh- no!' 'cuz i think she'd love #to have two boyfriends to dote on her- give tengen a run for his money' 'what.' 'you liked her since before we even met didnt you? thats #kinda sad. coming from *me*' 'shut up asshole. ..yes i wanna date mitsuri' 'cool. i'll talk with her abt it' #'wait youre not fucking w me rn??' 'no? why would i do that' 'idk.. rub salt in the wound..' 'im bad at cooking' 'ha ha.' #mitsuri w two loserboyfriends who love and adore her immensely<3<3 #vauge other ideas for gfs au: movie night‚ pool party(turned skinny dipping)‚ mitsuri's microwaved stuffed animal #oo also giyuu helps her with outfits- if she finds something she likes or thinks would go great with an outfit but its not fitted right for #her he'll stitch it to fit her perfectly. he also buys her little things that remind him of her. lots of watermelon themed trinkets lmao #ough... i wanna draw them now... #its almost 3 tho and i cant... #...if i wasnt a pUSSY

[funkytoesart]

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#Not to be dramatic lmao and it's probably just burnout but i am SO tempted to quit making BTCT altogether :/ #I've been working on it for like... idk 2.5+ years now? and i'm just... t i r ed #also it's not like i'm even monetizing it atm. I'm literally just making it in my spare time (for free) and #I don't suspect it would do well if i Tried to monetize it again #and it's far Far too time consuming to continue if i choose to not monetize it #which is why lately i've been feeling like it would be better if I just.. quit making it entirely. #which would suck bc i love the story and the characters but at the same time i feel like it's just not worth continuing? #idk maybe i just have a case of burnout and imposter syndrome lol but #it feels pointless to continue? #I want an art career. And I need to earn more money. #but... i've kinda lost hope that it could be by/through making webcomics #or at least this webcomic #funky's personal tag #i say all this as if i'm not Just About to wrap up the first season production lol #i have like 1-2 more episodes left of season 1 to finsih #maybe i'll just finish making season one and Then call it quits #although season 1 ends on a cliff hanger so that would probably be pretty mean of me LOL

[terroristiraqi]

ok everyone there's progress (him still adding songs to our playlist is pitiful and doesn't make me sad)

#i know there is no way he'll ever like. reflect and think he was wrong #also like. ariana grande? fr? 💀 let's be serious #obviously i wasn't perfect either but at least i damn well tried 💀💀💀 #im so sorry you thought i would [checks notes] cheat on you bc u saw someone get cheated on at work. do you know who i am #im having funnnn im staying silly ...... such a sisyphian task though. EVERY DAY #no but like fr how did leyli not slap me through the phone ... give me that swana mom treatment #also. I HATE FACE CALLS!!! I HATE THEM SO BAD!!! esp since he never showed his face but would make me show mine 🙄 #like they're bad quality most of the time and u barely even talk ... once he was like 'ik ur sad and u want me to talk- #but i just dont do that' #when i tell u i wanted to grab him through the phone and kill him. WHEN I TELL YOU. #like im so sorry i have to do the work of distracting myself when im sad? lmfao? hello? #ALHAMDULLILAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM DONE!!!!!!!! #won't complain if i find a cute gym fling i'll take all his money 🎀💞 OR HER .... feminism win

[kimtaegis]

hate to say it but july kinda sucked

#please let me whine and list all the things that have troubled me this month #first off having to get serious about my master thesis and everything taking so much longer than I want it to (the anxiety. wow) #and mentally preparing to tackle two jobs AND finishing the thesis all at once soon (how......am I gonna do that) #well then ofc my car breaking down and having to spend my last savings on a new one #generally having to spend a shit load of money. all my money. gone within 2 months #wanting to have a big birthday party so badly only for it to get so stressful and Too Much for my introverted perfectionist ass #that I was the first and only one to feel (physically and mentally) sick about four hours in and had to leave my guests on their own #the usual old struggles flaring up again (as in too high expectations towards everything and everyone and myself that leave me disappointed #and on a more irrelevant note lmao: being one of the few people who doesn’t seem to have enjoyed barbenheimer that much? #same for jk’s solo and everything around it it's just not really for me #and thus feeling a little distanced from the fandom and from creating lately...I'll try again this weekend though I'll try #and last but not least my skin is being SO bad again rn that I just want to rip it off my whole body!!!!!!! #yeah! not at all how I wanted july to go! anyways august in a few days let’s move on and hope for the best #SORRY for being negative on here again. there were also nice things. like awi and al and all my other friends. #and birthday gifts and messages. <33

[yo9urt]

mutuals i may be on the verge of becoming a gamer...

#not really LOL not like a serious one at least but umm this could be huge #mine #ok i realize i havent made a personal post in a while so let me explain... #for a while now ive been wanting to get a proper pc so i can play games and also do other stuff (<- macbook air owner) #but i was like ill just wait til i move out cause money and moving etc etc and then i was like well maybe ill get one for black friday #and then i was like no i don't have space and i need to be frugal and it'll be easier to move out if i don't have a pc to worry about #but i still want to play games...COUGH bg3. i really wanna play bg3...and minecraft and stardew valley and the yakuza games also #possibly other games too but anyway i was beginning to lose hope and then i saw someone on some thread somewhere mention the steam deck #and i was like oh yeah waht is that thing (i had never considered it before bc i thought it was more of a serious gamer thing but i also #didnt really know what it was at all anyway back on topic) so i goog'd it and it's like exactly what i need? #it's in my budget + small and portable + can run all the games on my list #(it doesn't run bg3 WELL...you have to be a bit careful with the settings and the framerate is a little messy #but i'm willing to accept that honestly it doesn't bother me i just want to play the game i'll lower my standards) #and with winter break coming up i'm like umm. i need something to do.... #plus they just came out with the oled version and after doing research #even though i want to be frugal i honestly think the 512gb oled seems like the right choice #so. i might order it tomorrow LMAO

[blujayonthewing]

well I've reached the point where I'm past the window shopping phase of car-buying and the next thing is 'take a concrete step towards actually making a purchase' and I am frozen in fear

#I've only done car shopping in emergencies fdjkhdfg #justin was like 'we can afford it so you shouldn't have to wait til you're 50 to have a car you actually want' #which is fair and also exciting but ALSO I've never shopped for a car like this before and it's intimidating #it's literally always been 'what can I make work for the least amount of money in the shortest notice' #looking at a car I REALLY like and going 'yeah that one. I'll buy it and then own it' feels illegal somehow? #it's a 2015! it's well within our budget! but I'm still just like... IS THIS ALLOWED...... #feels fake #about me

[orcelito]

Been finishing up act 2 of bg3. It's a good thing I find the battle systems so fun bc Hoo Boy there sure do be battles

#speculation nation #im going the epic hero direction this run. mostly bc i care about saving innocents' lives as much as possible #which means Killing Necromancers...... ugh. #cloudkill my beloathed. me n my homies hate cloudkill (used against us at least) #i got my vampire kicked into a fucking CHASM i had to reload a save ���😭😭 #he's been phenomenally unuseful in these fights bc theres so many people and so few places to hide #usually hes one of my biggest damage dealers. and sometimes he can get a good shot in #but a lot of turns hes just firing one dinky lil arrow and then hiding in the corner #...... i keep forgetting about the fancy arrows. i have so many of those. i should try to remember them when i get to the Big battle. #which. hmmm. we r gonna hope it's not Too difficult a battle. ive been able to get thru every battle so far in this game #turns out im Pretty Damn Good at this game. to the point where i'll brute force it and still end up fine. #the literal only battle i had to leave and go back for was the big spider queen thing in the bottom of the well. she was scary. #im level 9 now tho and full of so much guts n grit. and loot. holy fucking shit the loot. #im looting every body (including fallen allies. sorry guys ur gold's goin to a good cause.) #i have karlach with a like 460 carrying capacity but she STILL keeps getting encumbered. from all the armor. #im making fucking Thousands off this tower capture im gonna have so much fucking money #once i leave here and can actually. sell them all 😂 #anyways i have been having fun! had to stop for the night bc it's late. but i will be killing thorny ass tomorrow. mark my words.

[princekirijo]

OK this is the last post I make on the topic because I don't like being too personal on Tumblr (not anymore at least) and tbh I might delete this after a while but it is so upsetting to see people shit on people who are addicted to gacha games. It doesn't matter what it is an addiction is an addiction. I've heard of people going into debt over these things like do you understand how sad and terrible that is. And like maybe idk we shouldn't laugh at them for spending 1k+ on some anime waifu maybe we should idk treat them like a human being and help them.

#turning off reblogs on this because i dont want this spreading #i say personal because ive been affected #not the extent that i've put myself in debt or anything wild don't worry #and to me its less how much i spent and more how fucking fast i was to spend it #but thats as much detail as i'll give #because a) i dont want to discuss it with you guys i love y'all but i have to set my boundries #and b) because as i said i would literally get made fun of for it #and people justify it like 'oh the characters are well written!' yeah because they want you to care about them so you spend money #its literally what the whole system is based on #in gensh!n at least i cant speak for other gacha games #the fundemental system is still fucked up #and look i wouldn't judge anyone for playing these games because that would be hypocritical #so like if you play them whatever #but just do really really think about what you're doing #for your own sake #i know its hard too i wont lie i miss gens!n because i used to play with my gf #she was so understanding though when i came away from it love that woman so much #not sure i would have stopped if it wasn't for her #im probably making it sound worse than it was but then again its probably like oh it wasn't that bad but if you think about it kinda was #just not as severe i suppose #and like final thing but the fact that i literally dont feel i can talk to anyone about this #im much better than i was because ultimately just coming away from the game and the fandom helped #but like because of the stigma around it on and offline i wouldn't feel safe talking about it unless its a professional therapist #and that's so fucked up #sounds like im looking for sympathy im sorry im really not (maybe a little subconsciously) but i want people to know that yeah its fucked #and you're not cool or better because you bully people for it especially if you play them yourself #sorry this post is all over the place ill def be deleting this in a few hours LMAO i just need to get it off my chest #and in fairness to y'all ye're good listeners #ask to tag

[piritos03]

Got an email that my hourly wage has been raised by 7 whole ass percent LMAO

The average food inflation last year was around 40-50%. Proof:

#We have rent and bills to pay as well #I will also spend this year's first half going from 1 doctor to another #( knowing our health care system it might take the whole year ) #But i'll proly end up w/ private doctors to speed up the process #Which requires a shit ton of money #Like how I've just spent 3 days worth of salary at the private dermatologist last week #But at least after 10+ years i got diagnosed w/ chronic disease #And got prescribed an expensive cream for my symptoms ( thank god it works) #Anyway #Looks like i'll have to start doing ko-fi stuff haha #I'm pissed #Personal