#well hopefully i have improved

[kald-dal-art]

well it's the 17th of May again so did a redraw of this piece i did last year (X)

My two favorite Norwegian/Scandinavian fairytale creatures, the Huldra and Nøkken

#norway #scandinavia #norwegian folklore #scandinavian folklore #original art #artists on tumblr #huldra #hulder #nokk #nøkk #nøkken #clip studio paint #digital art #folklore #well hopefully i have improved

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[josukespimphand]

your art is so gorgeous i cannot BELIEVE it hope you are having a wonderful new year

Ahahajjjjhsjs thank you so much!!!!!

#I always feel like I’m apologizing whenever I get nice asks on my art blog since I barely update it and a lot of the art is so old even tho #I’ve improved a ton and post more on twitter or never post most of the stuff I draw at all while only showing them to a few ppl in private #but but BUT THANK YOU SM…….. it means a lot to me!!! I’m drawing trans Ijichi rn I love him sm orz #anonymous #tkf replies #idk when I’ll update my blog but hopefully it won’t be too long of a wait 😭!!! #I hope that you have a good year as well 🥺❤️!!! #my wips are like lost archives… sm of them that’ll never see the light of day but I have art that I’d like to post to my blog soon anyway

[queerstudiesnatural]

hello! :•D

#i don't feel like dying today! #my stomach is still a bit upset (i need to watch what i eat) but i don't feel so dizzy #i can walk ! without falling ! #yay #i'm staying with my grandparents bc i can't be alone rn i literally can't do anything #and they keep talking about their friends and having their friends over and it's like :) i fit right in :) #we're all talking about how we can't take ten steps without falling down and how we need at home help lol #<3 #anyway i still need help (can't cook and i need to be very careful about what i eat) #(and also if i stay alone with my thoughts for more than five minutes i'll start behaving like a rabid dog) #but i feel better so yay :) hopefully i'll keep improving #and be well enough by the time i get back to work on tuesday 😬 #rain.stuff

[doctorweebmd]

both zero-sum and the litany of love and loss were concepts that possessed me and would not not get out of my head until i wrote them but i have wastly different feelings about both of these stories despite loving them equally

#I love both of these works but I hated writing litany of love and loss. does that make sense #both of these pieces have the same amount of love and dedication #arguable skill-wise and imagery-wise a litany of love and loss is better #like running for fun vs running away from a zombie horde or something #technically you are doing the same thing. you’re probably even running faster with the zombie horde #but the context of that activity is endlessly different #…there’s been a weird few days we’re people have been commenting on zero sum #which makes me really really happy #but also nostalgic for it. I loved the story and writing it and interacting with people while writing it #everything that came after it has been a much different much less satisfying experience #in other news the path to paradise is both more fun and more interesting than both of the above stories #but I fear the fact that so few people are reading it takes away some of that external validation fun #now it’s all internal validation. lol. and the 3 really nice people who read and comment #we are honestly always our own worst enemies #I don’t compare my writing against other peoples (<- is lying) #but competing against myself is always a problem #just that weird feeling like despite the fact that you’ve grown and hopefully improved as a writer #there are some stories and concepts people are going to feel captured by and some that aren’t #tbh I know most fic readers don’t come into it being like ‘what is the most well written or interesting piece?’ #I tout zero sum game but a large proportion of people reading it do it only because it’s exclusively dkbk #which I have my own feelings about. mostly negative. #anyway…. I’m so thankful for people #for still reading or caring about anything I’m writing… #…..eh #anyway does anyone else feel like this #or am I just thinking too much about everything all the time #haha #anyway I’m being sentimental because once again I am #night shift is…. yeah

[nearestend]

hi my dear friends. i know i made a promo, said i would be active, and then immediately dipped. i haven't been in the best mental state, considering all things. trying to earn some income is a priority for me right now and is quite draining for me so i don't really have the energy to talk to a lot of people or write atm. i'm still taking commissions, unfortunately i don't have any new examples to show for it, but i'm also working on getting some designs made for my shop (i will update you guys when i have that done in case anyone wants to check them out).

in the meantime, if you'd like a commission of any kind, send me a dm here or on discord (@/thefourthbeastieboy) and i'll try to get back to you as soon as i can.

#* OOC. #The Situation™ hasn't really improved if i'm being honest so i'm just trying to stay alive #but not doing well with that because i'm very low on funds and business hasn't been great #i have an appointment with my career counselor soon though so hopefully that will help with the job search #i'll try to update you guys on occasion but for now i won't be saying much :/

[gibbearish]

hey @humans saw yall responded to a post making fun of you for updating the pixel alignment of a dash icon rather than fixing anything important saying "changes like this feel small but can make a big difference for some people" which is a bullshit cop out if ive ever heard one so im here to tell you directly in a way you cant wiggle out: you know what would actually make a big difference for a LOT of people? not being transphobic assholes

#that response was so deeply annoying to me like they couldve been like 'yeah its not big but it was technically an update #so we had to include it in the update report' but they tried to frame it as 'well ackshully everyone was BEGGING us to perfecltly #align this pixel so youre WELCOME' and its like. man fuck off you dont get to throw a fit that your userbase is pissed off about #repeated blatent bigotry and then try to act like youre doing us a favor moving an icon a smidge #yall know exactly what the users want you to do to improve this site and are ignoring it because you dont actually give a shit #but you cant say that bit out loud so you have to keep talking circles around it because you know the dirty queers are the main people #keeping your site the tiny bit afloat it still is but are unwilling to actually treat us well so you have to #talk in circles and pretend you give a shit and hype up minor updates like theyre godsend while fucking over trans people anyway #anyways i hope the transphobe on staff is the one who opens this tag notification #just kidding thats all of them because if youre willing to keep a transphobe on your team and allow them to make changes #that directly target lgbt people then you are all transphobes #whats that saying thats like 'if you have 3 nazis and 9 regular men at a table you have 12 nazis'? that #i dont actually expect them to respond to this post bc like. theyre obviously already aware people are mad about this and have just been #avoiding the subject especially if PIXEL ADJUSTMENT is something theyre responding to instead but #w/e #also moving an icon slightly does not make a big difference for anyone sorry not sorry i guarantee if it hadnt been #included in the updates post not a single person would have noticed or cared #they just need something to pad their uodates post out with so people hopefully eont notice the glaring lack #of 'fired the transphobe' 'unblocked queer tags' 'turned off the image filter that targets trans women a lot for some weird reason'

[vvitchering]

Got a job interview in 20 mins!!! Fingers crossed for a livable wage!!!!!

#I feel decently good about it #it’s at the bank I used to work for LMAO #which will honestly be an improvement on my last situation #they just gotta pay me fairly this time #I’m hoping I can sneak back in at my precious status so I don’t have to work my way back up from the bottom #the lady who’s interviewing me actually is the same lady who hired me back in 2018 so! #she knows me and knows I did really well there SO hopefully this goes really well #life

[cloudbends]

I got so absorbed in the game that I forgot to post about it. oops

#vi rambling #persona #ok. sorted out my thoughts somewhat i think #i think. the gameplay has been greatly improved. i think its well rounded and improves some of what was iffy originally #however. i think my main issue is the storytelling approach theyre taking in terms of tone ans visuals and priorities #because like. tartarus looks genuinely incredible #but something about the games overall muted grungy tone. that worked so well with its overall deathly feel of foreboding. is lost #and well while the effort is put in gameplay and immersion i feel like. the cutscenes are severely lacking. so much was encapsulated in the #cinematogoraphy and editing and overall minimalist aesthetic of the original that here is just. told very plainly and takes away a lot of #the impact of these moments. despite most of the voices being a MAJOR improvement. #idk if this is articulating my feelings on the matter but hopefully it does #its most prominent in their choices of what to keep as cinematics and what to replace with 3d cutscenes and even those are. very bland to me #idk. but im having a great time. especially when i can stop being insane and treat this not as the definitive version of this game. #and yeah i will be talking critically because i like critiquing things even when i like them. its not like i think the original p3 is #objectively perfect. but narratively and visually and thematically and tonally it was perfect to Me. in a way that wasnt recaptured #SORRY ANYWAYS #im after the second full moon we got fuuka her voice is wonderful . also bebes goddamn social link being voiced had me choked... REALLY GOOD

[4giorno]

oh my god. i just saw some of my OLD OLD digital art like before i made my art blog and holy fuck. suddenly faith in myself completely restored

#this is why its vital to save your old art like you can get yourself so down and be like wtf am i doing this for im not improving #nothing like seeing something you made 4 years ago to bonk you on the head and make you see sense #ofc im not improving AS fast as i could be bc i dont draw enough but still #now my priority should be to become faster like its absolutely necessary. it already was years ago #i just checked how long it took me to draw my latest post and ill tell you. those two drawings took me 39 FUCKING HOURS #like that is absolutely unacceptable. no 'just go at your own pace' or anything no. that should not happen and i need to fix it #hopefully there is an actionable plan and advice out there ill have to look <3 #waah im so sad it seems the steady trickling in of notes has stopped finally. i was so close to getting my first drawing with over 200 notes #im sorry if this is shallow but it is a big deal to me #im so thankful for the notes i did get tho! it is my most well received drawing ever and that makes me happy

[hatake]

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#been relearning figure drawing so hopefully i can get more comfy/faster with drawing human characters 🤔 #i feel like a lot of ppl say it's harder to go back and learn basics #and i have studied these kinds of basics before but totally forgot them until now #and yet it feels easier learning them now 🤔🤔 #we'll see how well my art improves tho lololol

[jovenshires]

bio? updated. about page? updated. i am SLAYING at life today.

#well technically this was last night but the point still stands i have made Improvements #i'm also gonna call my new potential boss AND apply for jobs AND make weekend plans AND hopefully! do some domo! #busy day (manifesting success instead of playing candy crush all day)! #personal #also yes i did make my about page header a quote from my own fic #sue me!

[barksbog]

hi! i sell my art online and i saw your post about ethical production for small businesses. i agree it's really important and i hadn't thought enough about where i get my materials. i'm looking into how the materials i use are made and researching the best places to source them. do you have any advice, information, or guidelines on how to do this? (i mostly am trying to figure out ink and paper/cardstock, as well as envelopes/packaging, if it's ok to be specific.) thank you for making your post, it's something i think a lot of people can overlook

hey! unfortunatly it can be hard if not impossible to source every material used 100% ethically. especially as a small business. personally i at least try to make up for that by buying as locally as possible or at least looking for things made in europe since i´m the most familiar with labor laws and conditions here (i´m european so that makes the most sense for me).

it´s important to consider where you get material from but also be realistic with how much control you have over those. i can´t realistically know how everything i need to make and ship my plushies comes from.

that´s not 100% related to material but if you ship most of your orders also make sure to check your carrier options and if you can opt for the one with the best standards for their employees

at the end just try to do the best with the steps of the process you can controll!

#that´s why i specifically focused on the labor involved when commissioning factories #putting all materials together is one of the last steps in chain and usually the one people are the most in controll over #like i can´t know the conditions under which every fabric i buy was produced since i´m operating on such a small scale that i do not #commission my own fabric production BUT #i can take controll over certain steps and i´m trying my best to create as much from my own labor as i can. #idk if that makes any sense i just think it´s important to have some nuance with it and just literally try your best but also don´t beat #yourself up too much if there are steps you just can´t reasonably control #like idk how the fabric was made but at least i know the employees of the small business i buy from are treated well and that the business #actually pays taxes that are (hopefully) used to improve peoples lives

[starbuck]

as someone who is prone to having capital F Freak-outs over life things not happening fast enough or the way i want them to, the ability to learn has really kept me in check. i had been in a HORRENDOUS mood all morning, but i got home, had a proper meal, sent a couple emails i was procrastinating on, did some language learning, started reading a new book, and messed around on the guitar for a bit and now i’m completely calm.

#CRAZY how that works… #the book IS another Work Book which is Blah - but oh well #i got some book recs from James that i’m excited to look for next time i get to a used bookstore #which could maybe be soon? who’s to say?? #i haven’t gone shopping for anything but food/other essentials since i started working #so i DESERVE a treat - imo #i should find one used online and order it just to give myself Packidge endorphins #things have been A Bit Rough and it’s understandable that i’m upset and i’m overall proud of how i’m handling it #HOPEFULLY things will settle within the next couple of weeks #but in the meantime We Are Coping #and in positive ways thank GOD #cuz if i can’t currently control certain major aspects of my self-improvement then godDAMNIT i can control others #me making some teensy step of progress: oh boy i am gonna be SO wifeable in five years!! #so proud of the amount of things i can Kind Of do that i couldn’t do at all a year ago #i wanna get back into exercising too!! #haven’t quite found the motivation yet - but when i do? ohohohohohoho… #i should make it a before-work thing… that’ll ensure it actually gets done 😂😂 #that’s the ticket right there

[thursdayg1rl]

I literally need to complain abt everything on here or I’ll die

#writing this on the plane so will probably release from drafts when we land #but yeah #um so the guy next to me on the flight is so fucking annoying #listening to whatever bullshit is on his phone out loud … havent we suffered enough #um what else. #the really expensive makeup that my aunt bought me for once was like ten shades too light #bc she got me and my sister the same shade… in what world… #I was serving clown #it’s a foundation but ig I’ll use it like a concealer #managed to make it look normal after ages then my cousin was like ‘take it off’ 🙃 #but it’s crazy tho bc it makes it look like my skin is perfect… #maybe my makeup skillls are improving after watching reels tho that is also a possibility #um what else. girl I am sooo tired #I’ve managed to sleep in like 5 minute increments on the flight #I have not slept in like . um. #might have been more than 24 hrs by no #but I’ll sleep well when I get there hopefully #bc it’s 3 hours ahead .. meaning you have to sleep earlier and wake up earlier… my nemesis #guys I’m so irrationally annoyed at this man next to me .. could you not have been a handsome azeri boy my age 🫠🫠 (delusional) #my illegally downloaded music is serving me well #there’s 3 more hours to the flight and I’m on 70% charge #so 🫡 just have to hope we make it #also have podcasts downloaded so will pursue

[mobtism]

i am drawing the prettiest art of yamcha right now and you know what? proud of it enough to maybe even be my pfp once im done. yay🥰

#✨ #its been somewhat of a struggle overall but its coming along really well and im💛🥺 #happy w/ how much my art has been improving. hopefully i can keep it up👍 #im also just proud bc i drew his eyes rlly well. eyes have been one of my biggest struggles fr