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#well i got the task done that i was using to withold food from myself so i ordered food :3 good for me
garlique
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3 years
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the way i have been hanging out w so many disordered eating bitches lately...... im really boutta fall back into it huh
tw in tags for ed and weight loss talk :3
#ed tw
#like really pls dont read this if itll trigger u im boutta talk v frankly abt my ed
#my boy andrew the one i was gushing about last night literally Every time i see him is like
#ooooh i haven't eaten today!! hehe oops and every time im like andrew that is Bad. that is Not Good
#and hes like yea i know....
#and the horrible ed part of my brain is like why cant i be like that >:|
#god u know what is really the fucked up thing abt my disordered eating is its completely changed like
#the way i engage with other fat people too
#which is so awful and i feel terrible but it used to be that like i viewed gaining weight as a typically good thing
#and losing weight as a typically bad thing !! which like r all blanket feelings n i knew i needed 2 b more nuanced
#and now i can't view gaining weight as a good thing anymore because people keep commenting on me losing weight
#in a really positive way :( like i got weighed at the doctor and had gone down something like 40 pounds
#since i was last there and she was like wow!! that's amazing !!! like ok
#and even just like. people that i see. have started to be like wow you lost weight !! like ok
#and i really think my being on adderall is not going to do good things for my eating
#ive been awake for almost seven hours i woke up hungry and i still have not eaten yet :/
#and listen i know everything im saying is Not unique ok. i know that this is typical of most eds
#but it is so scary. like genuinely my ed thoughts are so fucking scary
#the longer i go feeling hungry the better i feel about myself. like wtf
#well i got the task done that i was using to withold food from myself so i ordered food :3 good for me
#idk. like i just need people to stop talking abt ed stuff around me but also i dont want to say that
#because its helping my ed and its got its horrid little claws Deep in my skull
#and also the number of people who don't believe me when i say i struggle w restricting is :(((
#the thing is though like im not ready to recover
#i dont want to be recovering rn. i want to be in it because i want to be losing the weight and i want to feel the hunger
#ugh. idk. im gonna go keep working on my novel its making me happy today
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