#well this is just depressing but true

[knickynoo]

At what point in time do you think the original timeline McFly family started being dysfunctional? I’m sure George and Lorraine were fully in love at first, and Lorraine even still in the 80s seems to look back fondly when recalling how they fell in love. But I do wonder when exactly it started to go downhill, when they started having kids? Just with age? Or maybe it was never really great to begin with before Marty got involved

This is a really interesting ask, and it's something that I've thought about a handful of times. The Twin Pines McFlys fascinate me.

As for my own headcanons about when the dysfunction started, I think it was always there. Dysfunction within families is complex, though, so it likely ebbed and flowed and morphed over the years. Some thoughts! (hehehe, analysis and theories incoming)

I 100% believe George and Lorraine were fully in love at first and are even still in love when we meet them in 1985. It's just that life has beaten them both down in various ways, and they've lost touch with each other and fallen into a pattern of being resigned to (and maybe even comfortable with) all the disconnect within their family. But there's no mistaking the fondness with which Lorraine begins her story of how she and George met and the way it shifts to such sadness within just a few seconds. Her question of, "It was the night of that terrible thunderstorm, remember, George?" is such a clear bid for connection with him. A hope that he'll smile and recall that night and join in on her story. That's what Lorraine wants! But George doesn't even acknowledge her (not on purpose, I'm sure; he's just so wrapped up in watching The Honeymooners), and you see Lorraine gradually deflate from there.

It's so sad because you can see the emotions shift so suddenly in her! That first gif still holds such affection as she recalls their first kiss. It's like she's a girl again, feeling that overwhelming sense of love and all the possibilities for their life together. But then it changes. She's brought back to reality and all the unhappiness, the disappointments, the realization that life isn't what she imagined for herself.

By the last gif, she's a woman who clearly feels trapped. Now stuck with this guy for the rest of her life. And what makes it so awful is that you can TELL Lorraine still loves him. She longs for that happiness they once had, but it takes two people putting in effort to make a marriage work. She can try to reach George all she wants, but if he can't be emotionally present, it isn't going to work.

Also, I'm sure that George loves Lorraine as well, but he's got a whole plethora of issues that just. Haven't been addressed. George has no self-worth. He's meek and lets people walk all over him and is so completely anxious about everything in life that he's mostly shut down. He's trapped too, with no way (that he can see) to change things. So he does what he can to survive, which consists of doing Biff's bidding and retreating to an inner world at the expense of shutting his family out.

I don't think things were always to this extreme, though. For a while I'm sure things were okay, maybe even good. They were young and in love, and while George was still George, I don't think life had defeated him yet. They got married, really established their little life together, and I can see them as both having hope. And even if there were moments that seemed shaky or hinted that things might be difficult down the road, it was easy to brush it aside. They were still finding their footing, and they were young and had their whole future together to make things better. In all honesty, Dave probably got to experience the "best" versions of his parents for the first several years of his life.

However, each year and every hardship (big and small) likely chipped away at the McFlys and brought about additional dysfunction. I don't know if Biff and George started working with each other right out of high school or if they came to work those jobs later on, but I'm sure that was a huge factor. It offered no escape from Biff for either George or Lorraine. Just a predictable cycle of George having to do whatever Biff told him, Biff invading their home whenever he pleased, and everyone having to watch George immediately tuck his tail between his legs.

As I said, I think things gradually kind of unraveled in their house. As the state of their family became more solidified, Lorraine likely began drinking more and withdrawing. I do think they still had their good days, though! Moments that brought them together and where they felt that happiness they once shared (I mean, they had three children together, and it's clear Dave, Linda, and Marty ARE loved and were raised well.) But the state of the McFly household is probably all Marty has known for the majority of his life. I can see situations arising where maybe Dave has told him, "They weren't always like this, you know."

Dysfunctional as they are, George and Lorraine really are trying. I think they can absolutely see the cracks and the flaws—perhaps even the potential damage being caused to their children—but they just have too much brokeness inside themselves to do better. So, they do what they can, which for George involves trying to protect his children's feelings by discouraging them from taking risks. He doesn't want them hurt or sad or disappointed, and his solution is to have them form shells around themselves. Better to save yourself from all the headaches life brings.

Lorraine does her best to protect and guide her kids by way of warning them away from the very things that brought her to where she is in life. We see this manifest in the form of criticism mostly when she's talking to Marty.

Lastly even with Lorraine seeming as downtrodden as she is, I can see her clinging to the possibility of change. Hoping and praying that eventually, George would say enough was enough and stand up for himself. He'd put his foot down, step up as a husband and father, and things would become what she always wanted. She was the one always telling herself, "Someday. Someday..." until the point we see her at during the dinner scene, where she knows that "someday" isn't going to ever happen. Things are just the way they are, and she has to deal with it.

This was a lot, but I have a lot of feelings about the McFly family and how they operated in their day to day life. Especially the implications of the McFly sibs (Marty in particular!) being raised in such an emotionally disjointed environment. Ugh, those gifs of Lorraine make me so sad. The whole thing is sad.

Thanks for the ask, though! I want to write another Twin Pines McFly fic now.

#asks #back to the future #bttf #no but i could write a whole series of posts on Twin Pines McFlys #and how just that one short scene displays such a sad‚ tense home life #no cohesion. no true connection #checked out dad and depressed mom #& their oldest son who doesn't seem to have his footing in life‚ daughter who feels isolated & frustrated with a lack of social life #& youngest child who's anxious & so incredibly sensitive to rejection & feels directionless & has exactly one (1) stable adult in his life #growing up in that environment does things to you!! #and then Marty is thrown into a Better Timeline with very stable and well adjusted parents but he still was raised with the dysfunction!! #that's still part of him!!! how does he cope!!!!?? #losing my mind eric stoltz was right about the ending!!!

[bluegekk0]

oh my ass is NOT beating the “fpk is your weird self insert” allegations

#gekko.txt #also this is in relation to a reblog tag i got #i just didn't want to @ the person who left it #it's true tho #i base him on me #he is literally me #well maybe aside from the dead baby pit #that was a bit of an awkward moment #and maybe ignoring the anxiety and depression #(citation needed) #most of his other traits are me though #including the affinity for a certain troupe leader #ah fuck they're really just self insert x canon with extra steps aren't they #next question

[mainfaggot]

life is all about sitting in cafés with a latte and a cute outfit on

#hi everyoomfie. today I'm feeling less sad than usual. casual melancholy? maybe a bit #but deep sadness and even deeper melancholia? no... and that's okay because im more than my misery #isn't it so weird! I've spent a small period of my life clinically depressed and suddenly it feels like my identity #i dont enjoy it. i dont like it. im not fond. it's not romantic. it's miserable. but at age 16-17 when all my friends were transforming and #figuring themselves out .. i got sick #and now being sick feels like all i can be. but thats just not true!!!!!! so im trying to let myself float along #sometimes im miserable and sometimes im neutral and sometimes im even pretty good over the smallest thing (a song or a compliment or a well #made cup of coffee or a grin from the girl i like) #and yeah. whatever i dont know i contain multitudes and i dont have to be miserable forever. maybe I'll #recover from depression and maybe i won't #maybe i will and then relapse #but it's not who i am #z.post

[schrodingers-slut]

I’ve thought about this for years and always assumed that I was overly dramatic or naïve to not want character death in the fictional stories I read, but I’ve come to realize that no, it’s just if the author made me care about the character and they HAVE to die I want it to mean something.

Is this realistic? No. But if I wanted realistic I would turn on the news.

If I can argue a character’s death didn’t actually affect the plot or narrative, then not only does the death feel pointless, so does the entire character. Like you just wrote that character to die or you wrote them and then couldn’t find a way to make them go away.

And in my personal opinion that feels like lazy writing. That feels like the author didn’t plan this out or wrote themselves into a corner, and the second that happens I lose all trust in the author’s ability to give me a satisfying story.

#i say things #writing thoughts #I’m not telling anybody what to do I just don’t personally enjoy constant depressing tragedy #a well written tragedy has true moments of hope for both the audience and the characters #if everything’s hopeless then you’ve wasted my time #you could’ve just said ‘once a bunch of people died but in a magic way’ #and there that’s it we got everything we need #this isn’t actually abt anything I’m reading rn it’s just been marinating in my head for a while

[prettyinpunk85]

I admire a lot of people on Tumblr. Hilarious people. Amazing writers who make my day better. It’s how I get through my day. Pathetic? Maybe 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sadly, as much as I am in here, I have no friends on here. How big of a loser am I?? 😩

#tumblr #blog post #me #just me #depression #sad but true #lonely #oh well

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[chaoticvictorianspirit]

Actually, I like codependency in fiction. Let people love each other exactly in the way they long for and need. Just because they are capable of functioning seperately doesn't mean they have to when all they want to do is spend their days together and share the tiny blip of existence they have left with one another. And I'm sorry but I'm tired of screenwriters pretending that learning to be miserable on your own is somehow a superior story arch as well as a moral virtue somehow. Maybe you want realism in your fiction but I for one want my comfort characters to morph into a singular entity. I want to treat them the way I did gummy bears as a child and just leave them out in the sun until they melt together into one solid block of sweetness. Reality is already depressing enough. Friendships end. Love fades. Life gets in the way and seperates people who aren't ready for their journey together to be over yet. Loved ones leave us all the time and sometimes there's no good explanation and it's unfair and painful and too often there's nothing you can do about it. And sometimes the one person you wish you could talk about it with the most is the one that's leaving and it fucking sucks. [And I get that this is precisely why we need these themes in fiction to confront these feeling and cope with them in a setting removed from reality but that's not what this post is about damn it.] I just wish this weren't the only angle we got. I wish we also got the "easy" happy endings, the unrealistic friendships, the kind of closeness that isn't portrayed as weighing you down but rather lifting you up. I wish fairytales weren't only for children and I wish adults didn't take such pride in forgetting they were children once, too. Can't we at least have the nice things in our little made up worlds?

TL;DR: Girls should get to have their little escapist delusions. As a treat.

#was this prompted by a fucking buddy comedy show about two guys bitching at each other over zoom? well #staged finale really poked some Painful places #not saying the episode itself should go differently btw it fit the show and the pandemic setting very well #like it was actually an amazing piece of writing and performance and the ending was symbolic and bittersweet and very true to many people's #actual experience at the end of the pandemic. it was glorious and good. but I'm also depressed about it. and this is my post to cope so... #I'm just very emotional at the moment and Sayning Things. don't expect me to fully Mean them too. #there's a much bigger narrative and a more nuanced take here but I don't feel like writing it atm. this post is about found families and #platonic soulmates and life partners in fiction getting to stay together and about not being forced to move on when the people involved #don't want to move on and don't need to move on. this post is about comfort and that's enough. please don't expect me to be eloquent today #staged #found family #platonic soulmates #and yes this is also very much about stranger things okay I am not rid of my other demons yet

[caffeinatedopossum]

POV: an inconvenience happened to me but I'm depressed

#based on a true story #im not suicidal but the ideation is there #my depression is getting worse again because of course and i cant sign in to my minecraft account #so like i may as well die really #/hj i wish i was fully joking here but I'm not kidding there are very few things keeping from laying in bed and crying all day #and if i only lay in bed and cry for long enough i know what comes next #its less that my life is sporadically falling apart and im dramatically spiraling #and more just that little things are incrementally become slightly harder and more inconvenient #until nothing is worth it and i stop #im very tired i cannot do anymore #i am losing my patience with life

[wetslug]

i was trialing being off my anti depressant medication (for past 6 weeks) and havent had MDD symptoms but surprisingly ive just felt generally unstable like ive been crying more easily, very quick to get frustrated and lash out, lack of empathy, etc etc. im not sure whats wrong with me (i havent been off meds since 2016 so i dont remember if this is consistent with prior behavior) but i think im gonna restart my meds bc i feel like a worse person

#man im bummed out ive been hearing about people finding ''their true selves'' after going off psych meds #well i did and my true self is shit 😞😞😞 #to be honest this might be a feature of my dysthymia + asd #i used to have double depression aka constant dysthymia w episodes of extreme depression so it makes sense that the dysthymia would remain #i dont know theres even a label that could be neatly applied to me #when im unmediated i just feel constant low-level instability i just feel it constantly bubbling under the surface #and despite being relatively asymptomatic its very very scary because im never 100% sure i dont do smth impulsive and destructive

[xamaxenta]

who keeps unfollowing me on insta everytime i post wtf

#i mean im not very active on all my socials bc see previous problem of slow at art #and i dont interact much either except on tumblr #but my god its v depressing to see my numbers on insta just stagnate like that its always gain five to ten #in the course of a month or two only to instantly lose five to ten whenever ii post #💀 y did u follow me in the first place man i legit only drop Ace art 😭😭😭😭 #im not gonna complain too much im grateful for the interest i have but ah… being slow at art rly sucks bc it makes me #think i spent a long time (which logicay true but effortwise untrue lol bc cumatively its like a weekworth max of work) #but spending a month and a half on something and it flops is ah goddamnit #OH well ill just keep going one day ill make another banger #like werwolf ace art 👀

[skinreflectsthesun]

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#therapy sessions where you realize you might have post partum depression #well I can’t say I’m surprised #I just feel like I’m rejecting it but I know it’s true #and there’s nothing wrong about it #but it feels like I’m lying #like it’s not that bad #I’m fine #and then I burst into tears #so it’s like uh actually you’re not

[mars-ipan]

honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”

#obviously demonization is more Actively Harmful #but to say things like depression and anxiety have been destigmatized is. incorrect i feel #yes we are not treated like we’re evil. which is for sure an improvement #nobody deserves to be treated like they’re evil #but our illnesses are now being dismissed. ‘oh everyone has that’ not like me #‘you’re just being lazy’ i wish that were true #like. ok hold on let me use an example bc i’m worried abt reading comprehension on this website #(not my followers i trust u guys but i act as if every post i make will get popular) #my brother is autistic. i have GAD. #my brother was diagnosed when he was 2. he’s faced a lot of bullying from both kids and adults and it sucks and he didn’t deserve it #because of all that bullying (especially as a kid) he’s rejecting his autism and focusing really hard on being as ‘normal’ as possible #i was diagnosed last year at 17. i’ve been having these issues my whole life (my mom and i both saw it) but my issues were dismissed #by all the other adults around me (save for family) because i wasn’t visibly struggling and i was doing well in school #it made me doubt my convictions for a long time. what if i’m wrong? #as such i didn’t seek a diagnosis for a long time until my anxiety had gotten to a point where i knew i couldn’t keep ignoring it #now that i have that diagnosis i’m able to wield it as a weapon. my struggles aren’t made up #they’re real. and they always have been. and i can’t just ‘calm down’ like you can. and that needs to be respected #so while i think one is more actively harmful (bullying and harassment lead to self-rejection and loathing) #the other is also harmful- just passively (constantly being dismissed leads to self-doubt and not asking for help) #also why are people angry about the idea of a mental illness being destigmatized? #one group freeing itself from oppression isn’t gonna immediately forget about the groups who helped them get there #if i’m one day able to get perfect accomodations for my anxiety and nobody looks at me like i’m dramatic when i talk about it #i’m not gonna suddenly stop advocating for mental health issues to be normalized #if anything i’ll argue HARDER. you learned to understand me now learn to understand my siblings #learn to understand those with bpd. with psychosis. the sociopaths. the narcissists. the systems #i’m not gonna act like i have it worse than people who are heavily stigmatized. i’m not gonna get attacked for stuttering at mcdonalds #but that doesn’t mean i have /no/ problems and it doesn’t mean i think i’m better than anyone else #i don’t get why people fight each other about this. it’s a good thing so long as we remember where we came from

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

#purrs #i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life #situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to #drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a #stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well. #i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i #am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone #and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good. #delete later #that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd #this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be #neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority #and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol. #24 year old dependent moment <3 #well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will #never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰 #side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester #starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like #this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it #would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or #anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol #well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3

[katyspersonal]

The trap of enlightenment in Bloodborne

Tbh I think the ‘Kos hates humans’ impression, whereas could be true, might miss some nuances?

According to Simon, Hunter’s Nightmare is a place specifically for blood-drunk hunters - an easy parallel to draw with those that murdered citizens of Fishing Hamlet! It is not supposed to target humans in general, only those indulging in the ‘Hunters’ practice - a thing often hinted in lore as a quest doomed by design but benefiting a kinda corrupt (or ‘insidious’ deity).

But also, I feel like Fishing Hamlet residents were pretty comfortable living with their sea mom before Old Hunters ruined everything! From how they speak, they’ve been loyal to Kos ever since she was beached ashore, and aware she was pregnant. Whether mutation was voluntary or not, they definitely resent what hunters done more than what happened to their bodies.

Patients of the Research Hall were trying to get in tune with the ‘sea’, as in earlier Healing Church days, Arcane was associated with the water, and it is very easy to assume that Milkweed was the voice of Kos. It gives me a strong impression that not only Kos encouraged Adeline, who wished Insight enough to wade through horrors that driven other patients crazy, to seek the ‘stars’ for salvation, but maybe herself fallen victim of hunger for Insight - that is stimulated by parasites that possibly sickened her body!

I pointed out already that parasites found within Kos resemble Brainsuckers very much, and I think it makes sense! Tiny parasites resembling a specific type of Kin that sucks your Insight out, you know? The very type that easily could stimulate hunger for eyes.

It is sort of why I don’t think Fishing Hamlet fish-people dwellers were “cursed” by Kos parasite - they look nothing alike, and they seem to be more interested in living in harmony with their Great One than in research for Eldrich Truth. If anything, their mutation seems more like adaptation (similar to spider people such as Patches, with Amygdalas they worship)

We can conclude that Eye is the rune representing the voice that comes from Ebrietas, but also that she is more or less a pawn of the ‘Moon’ on Earth - aware of her twisted role or not. Nonetheless, her resemblance with celestial larvae isn’t accidental, and it goes beyond sharing the way their wings look.

So, essentially, Research Hall patients end up being tortured by whatever they witness in the ‘Sea’, meanwhile whatever the ‘Stars’ are offering are their salvation; nonetheless, the knowledge that Kos (or “ocean” at least) offered Adeline suggests seeking the ‘stars’, and don’t forget the way that OoK cries towards the moon!

Honestly? It feels less like Kos deciding to hate the whole humanity in general, but more like the ‘marine’ enlightenment is not morally aligned (unlike ‘divine’ Star/Moon enlightenment and ‘cursed’ enlightenment Amygdalas and alike offer). If you are a horrible, sinful human being - you will suffer; if you are open and in a way naiive (like Adeline) - you will be mere fascinated by the mysteries.

Moreover, again - it is possible that Kos fell for the trap herself - after all, she has humanoid face, so maybe she herself ascended from a mortal once and came to wish for more knowledge. Or in this case, parasites tainted her with the desire for Insight? We know that the ‘Moon’ is insidious and somehow benefits for the cursed cycle of bloodshed and hunt, yet there is a large layer of ‘facade’ covering her motivations and own depravity, in the form of starry Arcane and Ebrietas and illusion of salvation and Insight.

But all in all, Kos might be not even herself be all aware of the motivations of the ‘Moon’ - so she wishes to be saved from pain and dread that caught up with her even through she herself transcended humanity long time ago! And so even people who waded through all horrors such as Adeline (and Rom I presume) were offered just the ‘seek the Stars for Insight and salvation’. Because Adeline envisioned Milkweed that suggests lumenweed reaching for the stars, and because Ebrietas weeps the corpse that looks much like Rom. Rom also bleeds grey from her head if you hurt her in the Lake area - ‘grey’ blood is very specific for cosmic Kin, too!

Alternatively, Kos is bitter towards humanity, not necessarily hateful. She tells those that try to reach her - ‘Go away and seek the corrupt Moon that governs this world and hunters, maybe this will give you peace!’. But in the middle there are ‘Stars’, that offer illusion of purity and knowledge. Maybe she thinks that by nature humans are not ready for true Insight and the “Sea”, and they are better off (and safer, and kinder) under protection and total control of Stars and Moon... Ignoring what happened to Ludwig and what the ‘Moon’ really wants, apparently.

...or maybe Kos knew of the depraved ‘true’ form behind the ‘Stars’ from the start, Fishing Hamlet priests didn’t know better and had all TOO dignified opinion on her, and Kos and Flora been corrupt lesbians from the start, working against humanity to trap them into vicious cycle from the get go and her “death“ was to curse humanity with search for the Insight and the vicious cycle ( x ) from the get go.

We just don’t know fhhdfs

I guess it depends on how noble and dignified you want to make Kos be?

#bloodborne #bloodborne heacanons #bloodborne theory #mother kos #this post is brought by the 'it isn't likely rom was given eyes because Kos HATES humans' because like #the more i think about it the more i realise it is more palatable kos only hates the hunters and is bitter and depressed towards humanity #and easily rom only was able to get the 'eyes' because like adeline she was not scared nor all that entranced with prospect of purity and- #-salvation? and more like micolash doesn't really get what it all entails #but all in all kos seems more complicated than someone that cursed the whole race #especially if you believe that her humanoid face isn't accidental at all. she might very well know what being human/pthumerian is like #but either not even she knows true motives of the moon or she knows but thinks 'whatever this is still better as we can't evolve' #however evil lesbians theory also has its merits ahahah #my personal opinion tho is that kos is more noble but got caught in 'moon' trap just as much as an average human

[shopcat]

to be honest i know we've all been making jokes about how easily ed quote unquote folded after taking about like six hours total to actually "forgive" stede but i stare at that scene where stede is telling him he loves everything about him he loves just being Near him and ed's expression is SO INSANE like the second after he stops stede from actually saying "i love you" and stede immediately just starts doing it anyway he's like DON'T -_- but he's turning to face him like a flower in the sun bc he absolutely wants to hear it and is prompting him to continue it's making me sick. and then his little 3 step smile... augh... he literally did fold wet napkin style but it's so sweet :(

#🐾 #TO ME... ! i know people who are being critical and perhaps loserish even say this is a reason why they're doomed bc he gave in so quickly #and forgave him. but i don't think that's actually true and i think this conversation and the one in the woods healed way more than people #give them credit for or even maybe think about. like i do think blackbeard as a physical manifestation of ed's heartbreak is still ofc #due to that but i also think it's a disservice to ed himself to accredit everything JUST to stede and is why people might think it's sloppy #or something. i think ed was well on his way to healing and dealing with the breakup just fine until he was forced into having to suppress #everything about his emotions (the emotions that make him who he IS...) and it became the catalyst to him needing to confront his own like #inner misgivings about what he thinks of himself. i think it could technically be fair if people were going Look they just showed that #stede appeared and solved all his problems and he jumped back into his arms then it blew up and then he did it again!!! #and it's like okay. well i don't think that's what happened LOL #and that is WHYYYY stede saying i love everything about you and just being near you As you is so sweet and what he wanted to hear and why #he turned in the first place. he absolutely had already made peace with everything to do with stede IN the gravy basket #and everything else was just the inevitable leftover feelings and why they melted away so easily. though tbf he did express his feelings #VERY CLEARLY and efficiently if i do say so myself like he was communicating. it wasn't unhealthy LOL 😭 #and i think him finally letting himself want these things (stede's affection / love) and turning actively towards them IS the indication #that he was already ready to move on and feeling more stable emotionally and mentally. and all the conflict after was understandable #and also well come on this is a romcom they need conflict it doesn't mean they're doomed 😭 anyway #i also think stede appearing in ed's dream and saving him the way he did was on purpose and reflects all of this really well and people #attributing it to ''see he just came and fixed everything and made him not depressed anymore'' are STUPID #like the entire point is stede appears and reminds ed of what he can have and work towards and also in the literal sense that damn mermaid #did NOTHING. they just floated there together. he didn't pull him up to the surface ed did that himself. ITS ALL HIM. UGH. anyway #anyway that's just what i am turning over in my mind about it i'm sure others think different probably #ofmd #gentlebeard