#went out for a jog

[inkskinned]

i turn 29 on july 1st. i feel like i make a lot of these notes to myself, to check in. hi, me, here's what's happening.

hi, me. hi, you, too, if you keep reading. here's some rules i have been following:

when a book is bad, i put the book down. i choose something i like instead. when i don't like a movie, i don't make myself watch until the end. i care less and less what people think about me and focus more on being a good friend.

for the 6 months or so, i've been asking people what they think should be my next book or tv show. i ask them where i should go on a walk next week. i ask them what food i should try next, what hobby. and then i write it down in front of them.

the truth is some stuff slips through the cracks. but most of the time? within two weeks, i get to send my favorite kind of text - so i tried the thing you were talking about and !

i have a new policy for split-second choices - it's better to try it. i have social anxiety. i have to talk myself into doing many things. i am constantly battling the desire to run away as far as my feet will take me. and then i stand up and i do the thing anyway. i make myself act and dance and sing. sometimes, yes, i know-immediately never again, i hate this. but most of the time - i just have fun with it.

i have a new mantra - nobody is scorekeeping. at the end of my life, there will be no grand reading of how many calories i'd been eating. no reviews on how many boring documentaries i forced myself through, no calculation on how many hours i endured an extremely dull educational podcast. and so what if i try karaoke and i don't actually nail it? so what if i stumble over my words while trying to make a public announcement? so what if i wear something too-showy to go to the grocery store? nobody there knows me, and: nobody's keeping score.

life doesn't resolve with a grade (i know, i was as shocked as everyone else when i realized it). i am not falling behind, because there's no curriculum to life that i should be following. there are no checkpoints; nobody is making sure i have a fully-furnished life resume. i am just here for as long as the earth will have me, and i get to decide what makes me happy.

i don't have a partner or a house or anything that is supposed to belong to people-my-age. i spend most of my time focusing on being kind, compassionate, ready to listen without restraint.

and honestly? i feel good. like actually. i kind of like it this way.

#the really ironic thing #is that the less i care what people think of me #the more friends i have #the more i get along with people easily #19 year old me would kill me for saying this bc she HATED when people said ''stop trying'' #but it was that i wasn't trying to be their friend #i was trying NOT to be ME #i went from being like ''i think im too different for people to ever like me'' #to a decade later being like #'' ah i'll be okay i get along with pretty much everyone '' #it was true about food too #i wasn't kind to my body and thought it could make me look a certain way #if i was pretty it would make up for the way i was internally very ugly #but im now in probably the best shape of my life #and i have pretty much kicked my eating disorder to the curb (goodbye die in a hole) #bc i spend SO much more time seeing the chance to work out as a FUN THING #bc i don't make myself ''follow the rules'' of working out -- i dance or jog or whatever my body wants to do instead #do you know how weird it is #to go from being a COMPLETELY alone kid like NOBODY will talk to you bc you're a social pariah #like bullied ALL THE TIME bc ur stupid and flighty and strange and too loud etc #to being like the exact same person but now people are like ..... ''ur smart and funny and charming and happy-go-lucky'' #some of this does have to deal with the fact i got therapy and medication #and started being a better person and actually focusing on myself and the ways that i could improve #im gentler now. i don't crave attention in the same way. i don't mind things that used to destroy me #it DOES help that i finally got diagnosed with ADHD #anyway feelin things bc it's been 5 years of recovery <3

[darksisterswielder]

Introducing y‘all to my little friend from my neighborhood 😌🫶🏻

#She belongs to a family whose house I pass every time I go jogging or taking a walk in the forest #I‘ve known her for a little over 3 years now #every time she sees me she immediately walks over to me meowing like crazy and headbutting me #we‘ve even gotten to the point where she turns her back to me and just chills out while I crouch down next to her catching my breath #and enjoying nature #idk her name I just call her darling or little one lmao #during the pandemic I went for a walk every day on the same route and befriended every cat on the way #but she is special #also she is not overweight that is her pouch #got inspired by my mutuals who regularly post their cats on here #I wanted to contribute but alas I do not have any pets :( #and these little creatures are so fascinating and comforting so I felt like sharing them #animals #cats #mine

[ticklystuff]

Merry Christmas (Eve)! 🎄

we made ube crinkles hehehe pls take one!

#so busy today hhhhh #jogged at 7 #then baked cookies at 9 #then hung out with friends at 10:30 #then went to another friend’s xmas party at 12 #then picked up sister from airport at 2:30 #then finished wrapping presents once i got home #we have our xmas party soon so i nap now zzzz

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

today's motto was movie characters and i actually got recognised by a teacher :D however a couple other teachers who asked told me that i was missing the hair which. i guess lmao

#i went as the dude from the big lebowski #jogging trousers a white shirt crocs and a too large bathing gown were my outift and you know what #it was so so so comfy #a biscuit's rambles #but GOSH i had another new teacher today and two times outing myself in two days is just too much #i can and i will do it #i want to be fully out and if i have a new teacher im gonna tell them right away #but jesus it always leaves me exhausted and shaking for a solid couple minutes

[inbarfink]

The other thing I’ve been Thinking of is this DHSAB production

The actor who’s doing Captain Hammer is actually pretty damn good. Definitely my fav member of the whole cast. But he’s also pretty short compared to the guy they’ve got playing the Not-So-Good Doctor. So basically every time CH and DH are interacting, Captain Hammer immediately puts Dr. Horrible into a headlock in an attempt to not attract too much attention to the way Billy fucking towers over him.

#dr. horrible's sing along blog #dr horrible #doctor horrible #dr. horrible #musicals #musical theater #musical theatre #theatre #captain hammer #musical #theater #I watched this recording then I went jogging and then I went 'actually this is amusing enough to make a Tumblr Post out of' #so to make sure I don't forget I just wrote down in my notes #“Captain Manlet”

[kozidraws]

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#life rambling #don't mind me #so moving to new place went smoothly #but caught covid again 2 days later haha #getting to live with one of my friends has been such a mood lifter though #he went out and bought me meds #and the new place is so peaceful #like no car alarms or screaming matches throughout the night #people go JOGGING??? late at NIGHT??? #not used to living in a safe suburb #I actually sleep so much at night without fear of someone trying to break in #the only stress I have in my life now is finding enough work to live #aside from that there is no drama #i feel thankful #once I feel better and get my room sorted out I'm gonna get back to drawing #just give me a while!

[bodega-catto]

Tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy

#personal #woke up and knew I was gonna have an uneasy day from the get go #so like I love vacations but if I don’t have an structured day as time goes by my ocd starts flaring #and today as I was approaching my car im pretty sure I unlocked it but anyway pulled te door and in my brain I was like ‘oh I didn’t lock #it last night’ #and the whole shit started because of it #I arrive at coffee with my friends (because again vacations) and I spend 15 minutes just staring at the manual break and pulling the door #making sure everything is in order #I realize as I arrive I didn’t bring my charger (WHICH I DONT PARTICULARLY NEED) but I started feeling #like I left it because I was gonna die in traffic and wouldn’t be able to let my family know bc my phone would die midway??? #anyway just bizarre thoughts I had today #I’m really tired #came home and went for a jog with my dog which helped but not I’m just gonna take a shower and chill out #not even gonna cook just noodles and take a nap #SIGHHHHHHHHHH

[victorluvsalice]

-->And then -- time for a snowball fight! Because, well, it was cold, there was snow on the ground, so why not? XD They all ran around throwing snowballs at each other and having a lovely time for a few rounds (Smiler even getting a happy sentiment with both Victor and Alice about how much fun they were having) – but, unfortunately, Alice’s werewolf instincts interrupted and made her very testy and in need of a nap. *sigh* Darn finicky temperaments... So I ended the fight and let her get in a snooze in the snow by the bar while Victor headed over to the observatory to observe the sky (no new print, unfortunately) and Smiler went looking for frogs in all the frog logs (getting a Striped Leaf, Striped Eggplant, and Striped Dirt -- none of which they actually needed, but at least they can be used for breeding?). Alice woke up once her energy was better and her instincts quieted, then grabbed another plate of meat and cheese before running over to meet Victor and Smiler by the observatory, where they were making more snow angels. Everyone happily came together to spin some noisemakers and throw/blast confetti in honor of the holiday –

Just in time for the date to end on gold level! :D You love to see it. (Though I think all they got out of it was another VIP bucket – I wish that the date rewards were a little more varied!)

-->However, before they went home, I REALLY wanted them to get a cute trio shot together somewhere in the park. You know me and my love of taking in-game pictures of them, after all. :p After looking around (and unsuccessfully trying to direct them all to the same spot in front of one of the fish fountains just off-lot), I decided one of the corner fountains would do and had them head over there via their various teleports. I had Alice get out her tripod, then tried positioning it right outside the gap in the hedges leading to the fountain, hoping that would lead to a good shot. There was the usual trouble in trying to set UP the group shot – a bit of lag, Smiler insisting on presenting some flowers to Victor just before they were to wait for the photographer – but, having learned my lesson from previous attempts, I just shut off autonomy for a while before giving it another go –

Aaaand discovered that the camera was facing at the most awkward angle to the group EVER. XD Now, fortunately, when your camera is on a tripod, you can actually spin it around 360 degrees to get a better angle. UNFORTUNATELY, when I did that, Victor and Smiler were half-behind the hedges, meaning there really was no better angle. *facepalm* I took a few snaps just because I wanted SOMETHING from the date, but I don’t know if any of these will be going up on the wall! At least, not where visitors can see. :p

#sims 4 #the lazy save #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler always #yeah why not the trio hadn't had a snowball fight in a while #as usual poor Victor got picked on #though he got in a good shot or two himself #and yes that is Felipe Sisson jogging by in a COMPLETELY inappropriate for the weather outfit in a couple of shots #dude I know you're trying to keep healthy but you don't have to give yourself frostbite doing it XD #(she says as she makes Alice sleep in the snow in her human form) #I was really hoping for more luck with Smiler's frogs but alas #at least I might be able to breed one they need out of them #and if not -- plasma packs #and yeah I thought I was lined up perfectly for a nice shot #and then the game went into the actual picture-taking mode and #XD I mean I TRIED #they probably have enough pictures of themselves on the walls anyway #again I ask for a photo album object #be so much easier #queued

[robustcornhusk]

continually flipflopping between "there's no way i'll even match my race result from last year" (<1:58 for a half) and "i can totally go at least 30sec/mile faster" (which would be more like 1:50)

#i still have 7 weeks to figure it out #this morning went great #there's a funny jog in my gps track from when i beelined across the street to pet some cats in the middle of an interval #learned an important lesson from last winter: don't fucking get that sick ever again #didn't even get to start from 0. had to start over from -1.

[herawell]

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#went down a rabbit hole researching Martin Luther king jr #and found out that a year after he was assassinated #his brother drowned in his backyard pool #and 6 years later #their mother was also assassinated #in her church by a black man #who despised them bc of their Christian faith #how the fuck have I NEVER known this #also what’s v interesting is his widow (coretta Scott king) #supported gay rights and abortion rights #meanwhile his niece (one of his brother’s daughters) #who later became a representative #disagreed with her aunt about those topics and is a trump supporter #plus 3 of mlk’s nieces/nephews (his brother’s kids) died of heart related conditions #including a 20yo niece who died of a heart attack while jogging #mlk sr outlived his wife and both his sons #and one of his granddaughters #mlk jr had four kids #and only one of them ever had kids #his only grandchild is about 14 rn #well actually 15 #mlk iii had her at age 51 #she was named after her aunt #mlk’s oldest child who had died the year before #the year previously Coretta had died #mother and daughter died only one year apart #and Coretta never got to meet her grandchild #Alia talks

[femme-malewife]

You have. honestly got to be fucking kidding me right now.

#i was out on my jog ok #wasnt doing anything but jogging with music in my ears #this truck kept passing by me everywhere i went #literally no matter where i turned it was there passing by me and there were 3 guys in it #dont know them. they kept calling out to me and waving #and staring whenever i tried to ignore them. #i even cut my jog short and turned to go back home and they passed by me AGAIN. #literally no matter where i went they were THERE. #theres multiple paths back to where i live and most of them are roads that connect so i tried to go a long way to cut through a nearby park #and they passed by me again. so i turned around when they were out of sight and i ran back home #as fast as i could despite my lungs and legs burning #that was. legitimately fucking terrifying. #all i wanted to do was enjoy the weather and go out on a fucking jog. thats. fucking. it.

[vsirin]

okay i know there’s not much of a moodies fandom on here but i saw justin in concert the other night (SO!!!!! AMAZING!!!!) and there was this extremely adorable moment, he was discussing how sometimes song titles come easily and other times not at all. i’ve gotta be honest i forgot what song he was talking about but he said something along the lines of “I didn’t have a title for it when I wrote it, and I still didn’t have a title for it when I played it to the guys in the band and they said-” and here is where I lost it, he put on this air of Aloof Coolness, tossed his head back a bit, and continued  “‘it’s cool. what’s it called?’” 

i just thought that impression of his bandmates was too hilarious :’)

#justin hayward #the moody blues #if anyone knows this anecdote and knows what song it is pls jog my memory #i was trying to remember so many happenings during the show and in my total happiness in that moment i just. forgot what he JUST said sfjhs #i was laughing so hard it was really cute :'( and now i MISS JUSTIN #he radiates warmth even via computer screen but IN PERSON... #it is unbelievable !! the kindness and HUMILITY of this man #i love him so much :'(((( #OH and there was also. right before question when he got the 12 string guitar out (and the man next to me excitedly went ''ITS QUESTION!') #a moment when not into his mic or anything but justin went ''wish me luck'' #not to be a snob but us front row ppl could hear him fksjd how did i get front row- im still dying #ANYWAY it was adorable i love you justin :'( #personal

[wereh0gz]

Wonder if werehog sonic has ever been confused for a wild animal or a cryptid or something

Like he's just out taking a walk in the woods at night and someone sees him, but it's so dark they can only see this kinda big fuzzy silhouette and glowing green eyes

And the next day there's suddenly all these rumors going around, people claiming they saw some kind of monster, and other people saying it's probably just a bear or something, maybe there's even pictures going around and everything

Meanwhile sonic's like fuck man can't a guy take a walk in peace

#ramblings #i think it'd be funny if sonic had to come out and say nah that ain't a cryptid that's just me #but it could also probably lead to problems #like hunters maybe #or people just going out to try and find the supposed new cryptid only to find sonic on his nightly jog #and be somewhat disappointed but not too much because that's fucking Sonic T. Hedgehog #but also he wasn't what they were expecting #wait going back to the hunters it'd be kinda fucked up if people went out to hunt him thinking he's something else #would he get shot at or would they be able to tell he's sonic before they hurt him #hm

[cryptidsdad]

I’m taking my mom dog on a walk on a nature trail so I might die

#( * ooc. ⟩ ❛ stop posting. shut up. ❜ ) #shout out to last time I walked the dog and told my brother #where we would be and he went ‘you know people die in places like that’ like ?? thank u for that #we already passed a random man jogging so at least we’re not completely alone

[zenyuumi]

My grandmother just brought up my body appearance in a normal convo again for the third time this week ^_^ who wants to kill me and slice me open and take my guts so i can hopefully lose some weight

#MF I AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE #my weight is average #sorry for having a NORMAL FUCKINH BODY AS IF ITS MY FAULT #this bitch wants me to jog tmrw bc i havent done it in a while . and by that she means 2-3 days ago #ARE YOU KIDDING #I JUST WENT OUT TWICE IN A DAY AND GOT STUCK IN 2HR TRAFFIC #+ GOT 5 HRS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT AND GOT STUCK IN 2HR TRAFFIC AGAIN #i am dizzy . and nauseous . and tired #and this bitch want me to wake up at 6 IN THE MORNING TO JOG #vent tag #just after i gained some confidence in my appearance too.. i cannot hav nice shit around here can i #i am sorry i love my grandma a lot but i cannot stand her sometimes