#were we ready for today

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

[brahmenbones]

“I Am The Messenger That Strikes First.”

#murder drones #my art #art #serial designation n #uzi doorman #murder drones uzi #murder drones nuzi #T MINUS 10 MINUTES GANG #ARE WE READY??? #FUCK NAH #WERE DYIN TODAY #AHAHHAHAHAHAHAA #MURDER DRONES EPISODE 7 #also if anyone can figure out what painting this is based on I’ll sketch u something #HEHEHHEHEHE #murder drones n #n md #YEAAAAAAA #YUPPIIEE

[miodiodavinci]

collapses to the ground like a deflated balloon

#my god #stage one is finally complete . . . . . . . . #if you can recall that poll i reblogged about passing out #that important contact i received was mr. seto of the vocaloid team #who messaged me asking about a collaboration and quite literally nearly caused me to pass out #i read the message preview on my phone #stood up #saw stars #and collapsed onto my bed and had to lay down for like. 10 minutes before my body would stop feeling distant and weak w #i similarly felt ready to pass out today when i sent a message to ask when the announcement tweet would be #and they tweeted it. immediately after w #no joke rice and i were scrambling behind the scenes to get our act together and figure out what we wanted to say KHGJGSJKFHGKJ #all the while screaming because yamaha said they'd be posting it on valentine's day and we thought they meant our timezone w #because the whole point of this collab was to get the zolas more well known in the english-speaking sphere w #EITHER WAY #i am. so so tired and now i need to pass out so i can get enough sleep before more internship tomorrow w #which is heating up because my seminar professor wants a detailed plan of my final project goals This Friday #but my mentor won't know anything about where to fit that in until Thursday at the earliest #and my supervisor just hounded me over email to coordinate with the two other people at my station and choose an activity to lead #but that requires. planning. that our mentors won't have until thursday........ #perishing . . . . . .

[canisonicscrewyou]

Okay here’s the thing, some of you are asking for the 2019 Aziracrow Cosplay Pics** in my inbox, and upon reflection how could we not. You’re gonna get so much more lore than you could’ve ever asked for or wanted,though. This is a long post, and I almost want to apologize for it. **Pre-HRT baby face pics ahead

For context, Damien and I have known each other since freshmen year of high school, 2012. In fact, we had like no classes together, and whenever one of us mentioned our nerd shit in class the first couple of days, kids kept telling us we HAD to meet each other. We finally met in a history class after they got transferred into it, and exchanged fandom memes back and forth after school on the sidewalk that day until our rides picked us up, and pretty much from then on freshmen year EVERYONE thought and asked if we were two little queer kids dating in our Catholic School.

And of course we weren’t— we just sat in each others’ laps a lot, or grabbed at each other a lot, and were a little inseparable for a while. Neither of us read anything into this. We were also, very importantly, cringey little 14-15 year old SuperWhoLock girlies, only I didn’t watch Supernatural, and they didn’t really watch Doctor Who, and we both thought Sherlock was pretty good. We supplemented our own love for our special little shows for the other. We were so inseparable that Damien’s 1-month-long-freshmen-boyfriend got them a Doctor Who gift for Valentine’s Day. The key to the Eleventh Doctor’s TARDIS. (My favorite, at the time, and also one that I knew they definitely sold at the comic book shop up the block.) They break up with him for giving them chocolates with nuts(allergy), and immediately give my little autistic ass the TARDIS key at lunch. Neither of us read anything into this. This is a common theme.

Damien, at some point, tells me to read a book they love, Good Omens. Due to my brain being the way it is, it takes about 3-4 business years, until college, to read Good Omens at their recommendation.

Damien is one of my best friends throughout high school and college. I also think it’s important to note that they were a jock, and I was a theatre kid. And the only time I convinced them to do something, a haunted house, with the drama club, to share a hobby maybe, they got hit in the head with a lightsaber by a 1st grader and needed stitches immediately after we started.

ANYWAYS.

I get Damien into cosplay a year or so later- 2013? 2014?

But it also takes us years to cosplay together- we would help with each others’ cosplays a lot. By that I mean I built a bunch of their props and they helped by getting the supplies with me and generally just hanging out. It takes us until 2019 to cosplay together.

Good Omens is out on Amazon Prime.

We text each other.

“Do you want to do a couple’s cosplay of this?

Yes, yes of course I do.

And yes, of course you’re Crowley, and of course I’m Aziraphale. And of course I’m Crowley, and of course you’re Aziraphale.”

Pretty much every week that summer, we built our wings from scratch, from wire and masking tape and ethically sourced goose and duck feathers and mall Chinese food. We go out and plan and shop for our gay little outfits. We sit and talk in their car, in my driveway, for ages every time, every night.

Another fun fact: this was the same convention that I painstakingly painted their tits blue for. And also painstakingly helped them wash blue off of in the shower, drunk, later that night. Unrelated, Aziraphale was the first cosplay I felt comfortable in.

Another fun fact: while getting ready for the photo shoot we booked that morning, my family dog scared my cat Almondmilk, and he peed all over my Aziraphale cosplay, and I yelled a bit. Our photographer rescheduled, blessedly, and a few hours later our photographer was asking how we wanted to stage the kiss, since of COURSE there had to be a kiss, but instead we sort of just—

“We’re really good friends— We’ve known each other since high school— We’ve already seen so much of each other this is no big deal— Do you need another shot?”

“Uh-huh,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “I think maybe one more, if we’re comfortable with—“

“Oh yeah, no problem at all-“

“Uh-huh, Yeah,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “Tilt your head up more.”

Not many couples can say they somehow managed to get their first kiss documented and edited in HD.

Damien got nauseous at the last day of the con, and the only thing we had to help were these honey sticks from a tea shop booth. They couldn’t open the little sticks themself, with their fangs in, so I took them and ripped them open with my teeth to give to them. Completely, totally unrelated, though, I think this was the summer I began to realize, perhaps realize once more, that I was so absolutely done for for Damien.

Anyways all of that went SO well, that we were planning every Ineffable Husbands cosplay we could. Somehow, our most logical next choice was a fun and very quick, messy little boudoir photo shoot in my college dorm room, while they were visiting me 3+ hours away from their school.

Down so bad you lovingly pack wigs to go to college with so that you can have your best friend sit in your lap for your little ship.

We did that as Just Good Friends, literally in front of an old friend who took the photos and helped us stage the poses a bit.

We went to sleep that night in that bed. It was big enough to fit 3, maybe even 4 people if you were in a pinch. The bed was not treated like it was that big. (Note, we now sleep on a full sized bed, and it’s suddenly too small.)

And we talked for a while and we went to bed and all I could think about was how much I loved them no matter the sense of the word. And how many nights we sat talking in your car in my driveway for way too long, wondering if I should ask if I could kiss you. (A quick pronoun change, because I know you’re reading this.)

And

Nothing

Came

Of

This

For

LIKE

FOUr

MORE

YEARS.

Just good friends. Just good, good friends.

And that’s how Good Omens helped me realize, in retrospect of 2019, how in love I was with my Crowley best friend.

#long post #sorry for the gay oversharing nerd ass romance story when all y’all were asking for was cosplay pics. #hiiiiiiii damien this is close enough to our anniversary (next week?) that I can be gay on main hardcore mode. #also everyone say happy birthday Damien bc that IS today #the hilarity of 2019 especially. how we didn’t end up dating after that con alone is beyond me. #We probably Were Not Ready but anyways. it’s a good fucking cosplay. I still have that cosplay. #this cosplay gave me gender euphoria pre-hrt which was hard to come by in costumes/theatre/cosplay #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens cosplay #aziraphale cosplay #crowley cosplay #we beat the toxic codependent sapphic teenage friendship by transing our genders <333333 #andrew’s face #ask to tag for the boudoir ones. however they’re also incredibly tame bc a friend was photographing us and we were trying to play so cool #I was at least

[wild-wombytch]

Did any smart radfem here write a piece about how mainstream feminism is liberal? (Even if it's really old)

I can see it in the way it caters to capitalism, especially by putting women in competition with each others and how it also is very individualistic and creates a decrease in feminist rights in favour of an endless inclusion but also I'm a bit at loss given "liberal" is sometimes used interchangeably with "leftist" in US centric spaces, while it's used interchangeably with alt right/very capitalistic right like Macron's in France.

And it's also better to know what the hell I'm talking about instead of parroting "libfem" as a us vs them like all the insane mantras during my TRA days.

#also I'm getting ready because I'm very likely going to be fully outed as a radfem in my current social circle today bc some XX “enby” was #shitting on “TERFs” last time I saw her; expecting some mindless approval and not seeing my punk ass as being associated with evil terves 🤡 #I didn't exactly expect to be an evil TERF while we were literally painting flower pots but here we are ig #not gonna let someone spread misinformation or sit on my ass while someone defends misogyny. We'll see how much time before #my social circles gets nuked this time lmaoooo #radblr #terfblr #libfem bullshit #anarcha feminism #marxist feminism

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online #on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating #but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence #i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were #being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations' #not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities) #in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking #i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc #→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself #→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend! #sorry i am rambling #idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this #social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future #but im also like ready to have this persons back #me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across #and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc #not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!! #lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying #but not harmful #thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life #just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy. #or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly #again like only for shit that's not harmful obv #i need to shut up and go to bed

[trans-cuchulainn]

survived my gig and only had to play one instrument in the end! (somebody else played my other instrument)

#thank god i was not ready to be a fiddle player today #personal #i think there were about twelve simultaneous burns night ceilidhs happening tonight #in this city alone. it's amazing we found enough musicians for a band #who weren't already playing a different ceilidh

[spockoholic]

weird birthday vibes this year, wonder if my brother is gonna text me back (we are twins) or if he’s just gonna ghost me again this year

poll????

#all the energy is off and a #lil shitty ngl #my two friends who live in my city are asking me like what do you want to do tonight what are your plans like???? i worked all day today and #the previous four days i dont want to also have to plan my birthday that’s YOUR job #if imma be completely honest #y’all know #me very well #i am very tired and do no want to have to plan this #perhaps a little bitchy of me but 🤷‍♀️ #but yeah did double birthday text my brother this year which kinda feel like shit i wish he’d at least send an emoji back even if he doesnt #want to talk to me #anyways happy 26 🙃 #ALSO my long term partner and i finally decided that we’re gonna call it quits and just be roomates a couple days ago and like it needed to #happen and i’ve been ready for a while it still feels weird everything feels weir’d we’ve #we were together for almost 6 years

[johnbly]

before and after

(everyone is welcome to take some baked ones. not the dough bc i don't want to be held legally responsible for anything.)

#it's that time of year folks #today is day one #we were planning to do two today so we could still have all three ready for christmas #but then The Cedar happened so. one it is. #chilly chats

[honeysulani]

Today was finally the day where I've got to know if I passed my final working exam...I DID!!

I'm not an apprentice anymore!🧚🏻‍♀️

#after 3 years of learning this job #I did it #i'm so proud of myself #i've waited weeks for this #no one would tell us a thing if we passed #I was nervous for weeks😭 #today was my last day as an apprentice #I will miss my colleagues with whom I studied #we work in a bigger company #so we all got into different areas #it was a good time with them #we were such a good group #anyways on monday I don't have those nice working hours anymore #now that i'm an official ? worker I need to work 3 shifts :( #i'm totally not ready for that #anyways let's see #now I celebrate #this is so long omg sorry

[iknowitwontwork]

also no hunger games for me :( i wont watch it in theaters

#like i went to sleep telling my dad we're gonna watch it tmrw book tickets #and he was like u get up and we'll see what happens no need to book tickets and he was so tired of me #cuz i kept asking like this whole week cuz i knew then only they'll take me #and like so today i get up and my mom is like we have to go to this family dinner today so cant watch any time later than 12 #and there was a show of 12:50 pm in 4dx i started getting ready right i woke up at 12:10 mind u #and my father comes yelling that u cant take food or drinks there we cant go #and sayign if u woke up at 10 we might have went and like dude...u didnt even tell me THE TIMINGS OF WHEN WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO #HOW TF WAS I SUPPOSED TO WAKE UP #and then tmrw also we cant go and then the next weekend i have to study and then the next weekends my exams so

[boydykepdf]

was so overjoyed abt having local dykes in my area again that i forgot the epic highs + lows of trying 2 get dykes 2 be normal over text…

#literally killlinggggg me this dyke was like #before we go on a second date u should know i just want sex… #+ i was like damn that’s crazy i also just want sex… #they were like omg amazing that’s great #+ i was like yeah so do u wanna just come 2 my apartment then #suddenly it’s radio silence + then oh today might work for me + then oh nvm sorry i can’t like #HELLO???? #so i’m like k just lmk if u wanna meet up this week then…. #MORE RADIO SILENCE #they already know i’m out of town this weekend like….babe clocks ticking im getting ready 2 consider u a lost cause… #twin was like ‘maybe they’re nervous’ WHY. that’s so annoying if u wanna hook up just come here like what’s the issue… #anyway. got another dyke offering 2 show me around the city now so maybe all hope is not lost….

[somelazyassartist]

There is. A reason I like to live in the middle of nowhere surrounded by a bunch of farms and cornfields. The city is terrifying what the fuck is happening

#my mom wanted to take me clothes shopping since she's got a bit of extra cash rn and most of the clothes i have are all hand-me-downs #we didn't end up doing much today though because the mall we were in??? got put on lockdown????? #i don't know a ton of details cuz they were getting ready to shut things down as we were already leaving but. what the fuck #the city is so scary how does anyone live here???? #yeah we kinda hurried out of there as soon as we heard sirens and shit. hate the city i miss my cornfields already

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Me, just trying to get through dance and doing my across-the-floors:

Some random-ass white woman staring at us through the window in the hallway: 🙎‍♀️

#I finally understand why we have those signs that are like ‘don’t look in whole class is in session it’s distracting’ #anyways I started my jazz 1b class today #was not expecting the second level of jazz classes to be more tiring than the second highest level of musical theatre but here we are #not complaining tho I really need to get my split ready so I can try out for my schools dance team #prolly need it for competition pep squad team too but that’s a whole other thing #as long as I have my split and my calypso down before the end of the school year I’m good #I love talking about dance fully knowing most of y’all don’t know what the fuck I’m talking ab #I act like everyone who follows me has also been doing dance since they were 6 and therefore knows what I’m talking about #to be fair that is how I act like irl too #madurday night live

[keeps-ache]

outside once again for designated outside time

#just me hi #the sun. ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh #it's nice rn :3👍 #//thinking of writing/drawing !! ? #i am PUMPED but it's the kind where it has no rhyme or reason so i just sit here vibrating hfbhs #i have GOT to finish a thang by today or i won't have it ready for tomorrow #so i SHOULD do that.. #gotta redo the sketch tho. cuz the initial idea is Way too much for the time i've got fbhs #not something i usually say but i am Always getting blindsided by the complications that come with animation lolll #i think 'oh i like drawing characters over and over again! this should be fun' but it is NOT the same #//WHERE YA THINK YA GOIN BABY HEEEYY I JUST MET YOU- #//cough anyway yea lol :3 #was also thinking i was gonna come out of my pi.e brain but i really heard One good song and oh there i go again hfbvshvf :D #it's just [strangling gesture (positive)] you know ? #Oh i made a thing for that too but i'll post it in a minute lol :) #//anyway speaking of designated outside time can SOMEBODY take me to a riverfront Please #i miss skating at the riverfront hbsh #cuz it was Always empty (except for the people fishing n they never moved from the railing) and i could go So Fast #i get kinda wobbly now though i gotta work on that lol :> #+ i wanna learn how to do jumps again. those were fun :D #my brother reed could JUMP though dude #the one time we went to open street they had ramps out and he was FLYING hfbsh #/though also speaking of that i think i'm getting better at turns again :D #it's taking a minute to remember how to use my feet but i'm getting there >:3 #//okey i'm gonna go spin now though :>>> #ooo toodles ooooo [ghosts away] !

[umilily]

what a time to be alive (derogatory) (confused)

#lily talks #I am in hysterics #my other friend just called me and we were laughing to the point of tears on the phone #the accurate comparison was made that this feels as surreal as when the first lockdown was announced #just complete and utter disbelief like ‘what did she just say????’ #genuinely the last thing I expected to be told tonight #sorry for the erratic incomprehensible posting but what the actual fuck #just this morning I made the decision not to put on pants today #and then there’s people my age out there who just get ready to pop out a child #surreal