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Bts reaction: How you met (non-idol version)

Kim Seokjin (Jin)

It was an icy winter morning and Seokjin was stuck at the grocery store, looking for the ingredients to his mom’s favourite recipe. It was his mom’s birthday and he had invited his parents over for dinner. As he was heading towards his car, he saw a young woman struggling to carry her numerous grocery bags in her hands.

You had decided to go to the grocery store without your car, thinking the fresh air would do you good. However, you soon realized how much of a mistake that was, as the freezing wind hit your uncovered cheeks, sending chills through your whole body. Being already near the grocery store, you ignored the shivers going down your spine and continued making your way to the large building. You gradually warmed up once inside, but the low temperature hit you even harder once you got out. You also realized you’d clearly never be able to carry all of these bags by yourself, but you despised asking for help, so you forced yourself out of the store, back in the cold.

You were halfway through the parking lot when you heard a sweet voice calling, “Miss! Miss!” After taking a glance at your surroundings and not seeing anyone else near, you assumed you were the one being called. Of course, no one else would have been stupid enough to come here without their car at such a temperature. You turned around and noticed a tall man walking towards you, a single grocery bag in his hand. Once he caught up to you, seeing the questioning look on your face, he stated, “You shouldn’t carry this much in your hands, let me help you. I’ll carry these bags to your car. Where’s your car?” You smiled shyly, looking at the ground, knowing he would probably think you were out of your mind once hearing your answer. As soon as you answered, the man nodded and replied, “Oh well then I’ll carry these bags to my car and I’ll drive you wherever you need to go.” You couldn’t accept this offer and let a complete stranger waste his time because of your own bad decision. “No, thanks, I’m fine! No need to waste your time for me. I’ll take this as a lesson to use my car next time,” you answered. You obviously didn’t know Seokjin. His helpful nature made it impossible for him not to help someone every time he had the opportunity to do so. He insisted so much that you somehow felt embarrassed declining his offer once again and you had no other choice than to accept his help. You sat in his car after dropping all the bags in the backseat.

The ride was done in a comfortable silence, only being broken when he asked you where you lived. As you watched the landscape pass by, you slowly started drifting off into a peaceful slumber without even realizing it, your body being exhausted from trying to keep you warm the whole time you spent outside. Seokjin smiled softly, realizing his passenger was asleep and turned off the music that was playing to allow you to continue sleeping until you got home. He followed the instructions his phone’s GPS gave him and eventually pulled up in the parking lot of your apartment building.

You woke up by a strong arm gently shaking your shoulder and it took a few seconds for you to remember everything that had happened previously and to understand why a stranger was shaking you awake. Once you realized you had actually fallen asleep in Seokjin‘s car, you instantly began to panic, feeling extremely embarrassed for having fallen asleep in the nice stranger’s car, letting him drive you home without any help. You feared him thinking you were impolite and quickly started apologizing, to which he laughed a little, replying, “Don’t get so worked up, I understood you maybe lacked of sleep, so I purposely let you sleep. If you fell asleep, you probably had a good reason to and it didn’t bother me at all. Come on, now we have to bring your grocery bags up to your apartment.” You insisted in saying you could carry them by yourself and that he had already done enough for you, but he disagreed, already holding three bags in his hands.

Once the two of you were done brining all the bags into your apartment, you thanked him and commented, “You’ve helped me out today. I wanna repay you, but I don’t know how...” Seokjin smiled widely, responding, “It was my pleasure. No need to repay me, I simply wanted to help. Now I have to leave, but maybe we’ll see each other again soon, since I don’t live that far from here! Have a nice day!” He didn’t let you contest his answer and immediately headed out the door. As he was walking down the stairs, you suddenly realized you had forgotten to ask for his name. You ran out of your apartment and questioned a little too loudly, “Hey! I forgot to ask you: what’s your name?” He looked back at you and replied, “Kim Seokjin. How about you?” “Y/n Y/l/n.”

Min Yoongi (Suga)

When moving to Seoul, you had a hard time making friends. Everything was so different from your home country. You weren’t that much of a sociable person to begin with, but the fact that you didn’t speak much Korean made it even harder for you to meet new people. When you finally made friends with someone, it felt like a relief. That girl was sweet and completely open-minded, which made it easier for you to communicate with her. However, she was way more athletic than you were and often dragged you along with her on her sports activities.

That was why you were now out in Seoul, in a neighbourhood you barely knew, running shoes tied to your feet. Your friend had decided to bring you jogging with her, in an attempt to get you to exercise. You had been running for a few minutes, when you both came across a pretty steep hill. You were halfway down the hill when your right foot caught onto something and twisted, making you trip in the process.

Your friend turned around and saw you lying on the ground, a dumbfounded expression on your face. She quickly ran to you and held out her hand to help you up. “You okay?” your friend questioned, concern written all over her face. You thought you were doing fine, until you applied weight on your right foot. As soon as you stepped on it, you felt a stabbing pain run through your ankle and couldn’t help but wince at the uncomfortable sensation. However, you did not like asking for help and having people babying you, so you took a deep breath, before claiming in a not-so-convincing tone, “Yeah, I’m totally fine. Just a little shaken up, that’s all...” “Are you sure?” she asked, clearly not convinced by the look on your face. You faked a smile, responding in a tone you hoped was more convincing, “Don’t worry, it’s nothing!” she shrugs, not asking further questions. You carry on with your jogging session, ignoring your ankle’s pleas for you to stop.

As you came back to the spot where you had initially met up about thirty minutes ago, you couldn’t run anymore. You passed it off as exhaustion, so your friend wouldn’t worry about your ankle’s state. You were far from being fine, but you were way too stubborn to admit it out loud. You had to go back to your apartment by foot, seeing as you didn’t have a car yet, but you convinced your friend you could walk just fine.

As soon as you and your friend parted ways, you began heading back towards your apartment, silently cursing yourself every time you stepped on your right foot. Why did you have to be so stubborn not to accept your friend’s help? You apartment seemed so far and you wondered if you’d ever make it home alive. You had already been walking for twenty minutes and you hadn’t even reached a quarter of your path yet. You could feel your ankle’s state deteriorating, but there was nothing you could do about it... or so you thought.

Yoongi was walking back from the restaurant to his studio, when he noticed the girl in front of him seeming hurt, walking weirdly. He mentally debated wether to help her or not for about two minutes, before deciding his work could wait.

“Hey, miss... Are you alright?” you heard a soft voice ask from behind you, then felt a light tapping on your shoulder. You turned around, confused and annoyed due to your ankle aching so badly. “I... You uhhh... Just seemed to be hurting from your foot,” explained the cute young man now standing in front of you. You shrugged, pretending it wasn’t nearly as bad as it truly was, but the stranger knew something was off and insisted, “Let me at least take you to the hospital. It’s not too far away from here.” You quickly disagreed, not wanting to be a burden to him, but he kept insisting your ankle seemed abnormally swollen. You finally gave up, letting him guide you towards the nearest hospital. “Lean on me, it’ll be easier for you to walk that way,” the man noted and you followed his order, gladly allowing him to support you, alleviating the pressure on your foot. On your way to the hospital, you explained the nice man what had happened and he carefully listened to your every words, while supporting you as you walked.

You got to the hospital in no time and the man who introduced himself as Min Yoongi waited next to you the whole time, even following you when the doctor called out your name. After running a few physical tests, the doctor determined you had sprained your ankle. He advised you on what and what not to do, then handed you a pair of clutches and a few papers with directions.

Yoongi insisted on following you back home and you didn’t have the strength to argue, glad you had someone to walk you back home. You feared getting lost if you ever tried finding your way back by yourself. You didn’t think you’d have survived if you got lost, all the while being injured. You both discussed the whole way back, this time under a less tensed atmosphere, the urgency of the situation slowly fading away after having been treated by a doctor. You learned that Yoongi was a musician, which made him a hundred times more interesting to you. He informed you about his job, while you spoke about your recent arrival in Seoul.

Once you got home, Yoongi asked you to hand him your phone, claiming he’d add his number to your list of contacts, in case you needed anything. “Don’t feel bad for calling me whenever you might need something. It might be useful when you barely know anyone here,” he remarked, shooting you a faint smile. You immediately agreed, handing him the electronic device you held in your hand at that moment.

As he was focusing on your phone, you analyzed his features. He had tiny downturned eyes, a small delicate nose, soft pouty lips and clear pale skin. His dark hair seemed fluffy and you wished you could’ve ran your hand through his locks. Throughout the whole time you had spent by his side, you hadn’t had time to correctly and worthily observe him, seeing as you were in such a panic state, but now that you could actually take a glance at him, you realized you should’ve done it sooner. He was truly gorgeous, but you knew you couldn’t look at him for way longer, since he was about to leave.

After having made sure you got inside your apartment safe, Yoongi waved you goodbye, reminding you to call him if you ever needed anything, be it some help, a friend, an ear to listen to your problems or some company. You thanked him, but you doubted he heard you, being already halfway down the staircase. You were tempted to request him to come back, feeling more lonely than ever, but you restrained yourself, knowing he had done more than enough for you throughout the day. It would have to wait, at least for a while. You’d eventually have to pay him back, wether he liked it or not.

Jung Hoseok (J-Hope)

You had decided to register to some dance class in a studio that was apparently quite renowned and you felt a little nervous, since it was your first class ever in this particular studio. Do people already know each other? Are they friendly? Will everyone be better than me? Are the choreographies difficult? Will I be able to catch up to the others? You had so many questions racing through your head as you entered the modern building, but you decided to ignore them, focusing on the music that was playing in your headphones. You asked the lady at the front desk for directions and quickly headed towards the changing room to get ready.

Hoseok had been looking for a job for quite a while, so he happily agreed when his dance teacher offered him to give classes in order to earn some money. It was an offer Hoseok couldn’t have refused: he would make money while doing something he loves. He was one of the best dancers at the studio, so it was no surprise that his teacher had offered him the job. His teacher also knew about his ease to communicate with people and to bring them together, and decided Hoseok was the perfect candidate for the job.

After contemplating your life choices for fifteen minutes in the locker room, you realized the class was about to start and quickly headed towards the practice room. You entered the mirror-filled room and took place at the back, where no one could see you if you ever embarrassed yourself.

The teacher entered the room less than two minutes later, a bright smile on his face. He looked about your age and you had to admit he was quite good-looking, with his dark brown hair, his well-defined facial traits, his lively brown eyes and his heart-shaped smile. The both of you maintained a brief eye contact, before looking away, as if nothing had just happened. The young man introduced himself as Jung Hoseok, but stated that people usually call him Hobi.

You were delighted by your dance teacher’s music choices, letting yourself move freely, in complete sync with the rhythm. You truly were enjoying yourself after all, way more than you had expected, which is why you didn’t notice the constant glances Hoseok shot you.

Working with his students on a difficult move, Hoseok quickly noticed how you had already mastered it. He couldn’t help but stare at you, mesmerized by the way you swayed your hips and smoothly executed the steps one right after the other. You were doing exactly what he had been so desperately trying to explain to the other students for the past ten minutes, so he decided to call you out, asking you to come in front of the class and perform the move for everyone else to see.

You were a blushing mess, absolutely confused as to why your dance teacher was preaching you so much. You thought you were doing fine, but didn’t expect to perform so well Hoseok shows you as an example.

You followed his orders and walked towards the front of the room, avoiding his eyes. “What’s your name?” you heard Hoseok question. You answered and he smiled fondly, commenting, “A beautiful name for such a talented dancer...” You were so embarrassed you could’ve sworn your cheeks were as red as a freshly picked tomato. You weren’t used to this kind of attention back where you lived, but since your arrival in Korea, people could tell you weren’t from there and this made you a hundred times more interesting to the eyes of locals. This is actually what had attracted Hoseok to you since entering the practice room, although he hadn’t mentioned it. You rapidly thanked him, before executing the steps. People applauded you once you were done, adding to your current embarrassment.

You quickly made your way back to your initial spot, trying not to get noticed once again, dancing more discretely until the end of the class.

As you were about to step out of the room, you felt a tap on your shoulder. You turned around, facing Hoseok, who still had a smile glued to his face, despite having danced nonstop for an hour or so. He questioned you about your home country, intrigued in learning more about your differences. You eventually had to admit that behind that charming, bright personality, Hoseok was really friendly and knew how to make you feel at ease after all. Suddenly, he interrupts you to ask :

“Do you want to carry on with this conversation somewhere else?”

“Yeah, why not... But I don’t know the area quite well.”

“Don’t worry, I know a nice café only five minutes away from here.”

And so, the two of you walked towards the coffee shop, never once giving way to silence. The drinks were delectable and your conversations were interesting, and the afternoon went by smoothly, although you were nervous to hang out with your dance teacher at first. Signing up to this dance studio maybe wasn’t such a bad idea after all.

Kim Namjoon (RM)

You had decided to go to the library near your apartment, in search of an interesting book to read in your free times. You had never seen the building, but luckily spotted the big sign on which it was written “도서관” (library). You sighed, entering the relatively big, modern building. You were pleasantly surprised when you saw the inside: tall windows covered most of the walls, tall wooden shelves full of books were perfectly lined in front of you, there were a few tables and cushioned seats placed in small groups and potted plants decorated the room, giving off a soft, vintage and natural vibe to it.

You wandered through the library for god knows how long, unsure of which books to choose. A particular book cover caught your attention, so you grabbed it and went to sit down on a cushioned seat, finally being able to drop off all of your books on the table in front of you. You had chosen books written in korean, knowing you needed to improve your skills in that language, not only orally, but also in your writing, considering you were now living in Korea. You started off with the book with the interesting cover.

As soon as you realized there was a counter where they sold coffee and other beverages of that kind, you immediately abandoned your book, quickly heading to the counter to buy yourself something. You returned to your seat right after, sipping on your drink while reading your book. At that moment, you couldn’t have been more comfortable, fully enjoying that relaxing time all by yourself.

You were so absorbed in your reading you didn’t notice the young man taking a seat right next to you. “That’s a really good book,” you heard an unknown voice comment from your right. You snapped out of your trance, jumping slightly in surprise. You turned to take a look at whoever had addressed you and saw a young adult with dark hair, soft eyes, tanned skin and a dimpled smile staring at you, waiting for you to answer. You quickly regained your composure, smiling back at him and answering, “Yeah... You think so?” He nodded wisely, before adding, “Of course. It’s a classic here. I’ve actually read it more than once. You’re not from here, are you?” You shook your head no, then informed him about your home country.

He carried on asking you questions and you sworn you had never seen someone so genuinely interested in getting to know you. You spent some time discussing about your most recent literary finds, debating on which book was the best. Soon enough, you had emptied your drink and desired having some more. You got up to get a drink after advising the man you now knew as Kim Namjoon, before realizing how impolite it was not to offer him one. He kept declining your offer, claiming he didn’t have much money with him, but you were determined to instead buy him one yourself, without him having to pay you back. He eventually had to give in, soon realizing you wouldn’t.

As you were back in your comfortable seats, he kept insisting on paying you back for your kind gesture. After a few minutes of Namjoon desperately trying to convince you, you found yourself having no other choice but to agree to his offer. You questioned him about how he would pay you back, but he simply shrugged, claiming it was a surprise.

You were intrigued, but knew asking questions would bring you nowhere. He simply gave you his phone for you to type in your number, so he could keep contact with you after leaving the library. However, it wasn’t time to leave yet, so you resumed your conversation where you had left it before going to buy beverages. You learned a lot about this total stranger throughout the afternoon and you enjoyed spending some time with him. Namjoon was a really wise, logical and eloquent person, which made you full of admiration for him. He also seemed really ambitious, rambling on about his achievements and dreams.

You were both so deep into your conversation you stayed in the library until the sun had completely set and it was time for the library to close for the night, never having noticed once the passing time. You didn’t know you could carry conversations with someone for so long and you quite enjoyed it. Hopefully, you would meet again soon, keeping in mind Namjoon’s promise to pay you back.

Your new friend insisted on walking you back home, since it was pretty dark outside. You declined his offer, but he once again insisted so much you had to accept. “What kind of person would I be if I let you walk back home all by yourself, in the dark?” commented Namjoon. You chuckled, shaking your head as you both made your way back to your apartment. Once he made sure you had gotten home safe, you exchanged your goodbyes, promising to meet up again as soon as possible.

Park Jimin (Jimin)

You were out with a friend of yours, enjoying your day off from school, treating yourselves with a pleasant ‘girls’ day out’. You didn’t have an exact plan in mind, so you simply visited your favourite shops and places, not looking for anything particular. However, you still had precise plans for the night : staying in your shared apartment, eating takeout, lounging on the couches and watching your favourite series. In short, you were planning to do absolutely nothing, being way too physically and mentally drained from school to find the energy to accomplish anything else.

You began your day in a clothing shop, trying on both the most beautiful and the most ridiculous outfits you could find, giving each other advice on what to buy. You didn’t have much money with you, but you were still determined to buy something cute for yourself. After all, you deserve to treat yourself once in a while for working so hard, don’t you?

As you roamed around the shop in search of the perfect garment, your eyes met those of a male, about your age, who immediately looked away, giggling in embarrassment. His smile was the cutest you had ever seen, his full, pouty lips turning upwards, his puffy cheeks hiding his eyes in the process, making them seem as if they were smiling too.

You ignored the poor boy, heading back to the changing room, having completely forgotten about your previous mission, which was to find the perfect piece of clothing. You realized your hands were empty, as the lady managing the changing rooms shot you a weird look.

Jimin had come to shop with his best friend Taehyung. After your awkward eye contact, he turned around, hiding his face in his friend’s back in embarrassment, making him turn around in surprise. “Oh my god! I’m so stupid! I was staring at a cute girl in the shop and she turned around and we had an eye contact and I just looked away and laughed like an idiot! Why do I always make the worst first impressions with cute girls?!” Jimin whined. Taehyung chuckled in amusement and replied, “Because you have somewhat no social skills...” Jimin jokingly punched his friend’s shoulder, reminding him in his defence about how he had chickened out while asking a girl out once.

You continued your shopping round after having found what you were looking for. You decided out of the blue to go and watch a movie. As you were waiting in line, you spotted the guy from the first shop, discussing with someone you assumed was his friend. You tapped your friend on her shoulder, trying to discretely point at the young man, explaining her your first encounter in the clothing shop. She laughed and commented, “Well... He’s good looking. You have great taste in men!” You rolled your eyes, pretending you hadn’t heard her last sentence.

Once the movie was over, you were both hungry and decided to find a small restaurant where you could stop and take a bite. You were eyeing the menu, discussing with your friend before choosing what to eat when Jimin and Taehyung entered the exact same restaurant you were in. You lifted your eyes from the menu and noticed the two boys sitting down at a table a little further from yours. You would’ve sworn they were following you, considering you had encountered them on three different occasions throughout the day. Your friend caught you looking through the restaurant and followed your glance, immediately spotting the two boys. She chuckled slightly, pointing out how you had been staring at the young man every time your eyes came across him. You denied it, simply stating you thought it seemed suspicious that you had encountered them three times in a row. She agreed with you, but still insisted that you kept your eyes on him a little too long for you not to be interested in him. You had to admit the boy was quite handsome, but it didn’t mean anything.

As you were eating your meal, you couldn’t help but look in the direction of the young man, catching him glancing at you every time you did. You would both look away, a little embarrassed. You tried being subtle, but your friend had noticed for a while, simply abstaining herself from commenting.

You were about to leave, when you felt someone tapping at your shoulder. You turned around and noticed the shy boy’s friend standing behind you, a smirk on his face. He was handsome, with dark brown hair, deep eyes and perfectly defined eyebrows. He answered your questioning look, stating, while motioning to his friend, “My friend over there wanted to know if he could have your number. He’s too shy to ask.” You turned to look at his friend, seeing him hiding his face in his hands, the visible part of his cheeks being a bright tint of pink. You shyly nodded, taking the phone the man was handing you in your own hands, typing in your number, your hands shaking out of nervousness. The guy thanked you and returned to his friend, a look of victory imprinted on his face. “You’re blushing hard,” your friend declared in a teasing tone of voice. You quickly defended yourself, claiming you weren’t blushing and that it was probably the lighting giving off that feeling. You weren’t convincing in the slightest, but you hoped your friend would leave you alone, which she thankfully did.

You left the restaurant, heading back to your apartment to continue your day together, accordingly to your plans. However, for the rest of the night you couldn’t entirely focus on your activities, constantly reflecting about your special encounter, so much it kept you awake at night.

Kim Taehyung (V)

You had recently moved to Korea and seeing all these glamorous clothing stores gave you an urge to start your wardrobe all over again. You sometimes made a quick stop in some of the appealing stores in your neighbourhood, but you hadn’t had time yet to spend a good amount of time in each of them. When you were finally done with all the moving procedures, you used your last day off before the beginning of the school year to explore the city of Seoul and all its eccentric, fashion-forward shops.

You were an exchange student in Korea and although you were only supposed to live there until the end of your school year, you had planned on establishing yourself there afterwards. You were currently living in a dorm on the campus of your University and had already made friends with your roommate, with who you hung out during your free times since your arrival.

Your roommate had decided to accompany you in your shopping spree, so you could give each other advices on what to buy and what not to buy. You headed out of the dorm, sporting your not-so-fashionable sweatpants and a hoodie you didn’t quite remember when was the last time it had actually been washed. You couldn’t care less, considering you didn’t know anyone yet, so the chances of you coming face to face with an acquaintance were very slim, almost non-existent.

With your new friend, you stopped by the first aesthetic-looking shop you encountered, a feeling of excitement taking over your body at the thought of having a new wardrobe, full of stylish, trendy outfits you could wear. You had always been attracted to Korean street fashion, admiring the fashionable outfits on social medias, but it was no longer out of reach for you.

You began roaming through the different sections of the boutique, in search of lovely clothes you could try on. You joined your friend at the changing rooms and you both started matching pieces of clothing together, trying to create the perfect outfit, before showing the other, who would give you feedback and tips.

After taking a few heart-breaking decisions about which clothes to choose, which clothes to abandon, you both leave the store, feeling content with your finds. You quickly spot another shop, this time looking more on the elegant side. You repeat the same plan you had used in the previous shop, slowly walking around the store. However, this time, you roommate spots some of her friends right outside the boutique, quickly running out to catch up to them, leaving you all by yourself in a store you don’t know, surrounded by people who speak a language you haven’t quite mastered yet.

You tried not to let your anxiety take over you, but you couldn’t help but feel small and helpless in such a situation. You hadn’t realized you had been staring at the same garment for a good five minutes, lost in your thoughts. “That’s a good choice,” affirmed a deep, masculine voice coming from right beside you. Startled by the sudden noise and the proximity of it, you turn around way too quickly. The voice came from a tall, handsome young man with soft-looking brown hair, deep, sensitive eyes, well-defined eyebrows and a friendly smile dancing on his lips. “W-What?” you manage to get out, still a little frightened. “I said it was a good choice. The shirt you have in your hands,” replied the man, motioning at the piece of fabric in your hands. You finally came back to your senses, muttering a confused “Oh... Yeah... Right...” The guy in front of you chuckled slightly at your confusion, declaring, “I’m Kim Taehyung. Nice to meet you! Where are you from?”

You answered him, before he commented, pointing at one of your pieces of clothing, “You’re not actually gonna buy this, are you?” You frowned in uncertainty, questioning, “Yeah, I am. Why are you asking this?” He laughed and retorted, “Well, I’m sorry but it’s absolutely hideous!” Slightly offended by the blunt comment, you note, “What do you know about fashion? Have you seen your shirt?” “That’s a fashion item. If you knew anything about fashion you’d know this. I know something about fashion, I’m an art student,” he responds in a cocky tone. You snap back, declaring, “Being an art student doesn’t mean you have a good fashion sense...” “Alright, alright. Don’t be so pissed. I only said I thought you shouldn’t buy that shirt,” finally claimed Taehyung. You rolled your eyes in pure annoyance at his behaviour. He carried on, “Well, seems like your friend has abandoned you. How about we shop together, since we’re both alone?” You agreed, despite your annoyance towards him, knowing his advice might be useful, plus it’s always better to shop with someone. You didn’t know the man and he might as well have been a pedophile, but you chose to take the risk anyway.

You ended up spending the whole afternoon together at the mall, realizing how you both have many similar tastes in clothing. You had to agree he was right about the first shirt, even though his behaviour irritated you, questioning your ability to make right clothing choices. At the end of the afternoon, you exchanged numbers, before parting ways.

You spotted your roommate at the entrance of another boutique, gesturing for you to join her. She introduced you to her friends and they immediately welcomed you in their group, questioning you non-stop about your home country and discussing about life in South Korea. You continued shopping with them until it was almost dark. However, shopping wasn’t as fun as it was with Taehyung and you couldn’t help but wish he was still next to you, giving his opinion whenever you spotted something you liked. That art student maybe had a good sense of fashion after all...

Jeon Jeongguk (Jungkook)

You had moved to Seoul a year ago and another school year was about to begin, to your biggest despair. You had made a few friends, but barely had time to hang out with them, seeing you not only had to get the school work done, but also had to learn korean on top of everything. It had been an exhausting first year, and frankly, you didn’t know what to expect from this second year, hoping for the best, but bracing yourself for the worst.

It was the night before the first day of courses and you had everything ready: your bag was packed, your lunch was already prepared, your outfit was ready for the next day, resting on your desk chair. You went to sleep early, trying to be in the best possible shape the next day, but your racing mind prevented you from falling asleep.

The next morning, you woke up as tired as ever, wishing you could’ve slept for another hour or so. You got up, sipped on a warm cup of coffee, dressed up and applied a light touch of makeup to your face, wanting to look at least a little decent for your first day of the school year, before heading out the door, completely forgetting about eating breakfast. You were in a rush and didn’t want to miss the bus bringing you to the campus, so you walked at a quick pace to the bus stop, although you were far from being late.

Once at school, you sat down at one of the numerous empty seats, getting your school supplies out of your bag, ready to begin your course. Luckily, you only had three hours of class that day, meaning you had the whole afternoon to yourself. A few minutes later, a boy your age stopped at the desk right beside yours, asking, “Is this seat taken?” You shook your head no, allowing the boy to sit down. He had gorgeous rounded brown eyes and brown strands of hair perfectly fell onto his forehead. He shot you a friendly smile, his delicate lips curving cutely. “Hi! My name’s Jeon Jeongguk, but you can call me Jungkook if it’s easier for you,” the young man declared. You introduced yourself too, thus starting a conversation with him. It was his first year at that school, recently having moved to Seoul to pursue his dreams, so you informed him about everything he had to know about and questioned him about his ambitions.

You spotted an appetizing breakfast sitting at the corner of his desk and you couldn’t help but stare at it once in a while, feeling your stomach grumbling out of hunger. Jungkook soon noticed your behaviour, quickly offering you some. You declined his offer, claiming you’d eat something later on. He couldn’t let you start your day on an empty stomach, so he insisted, handing you his dish. You thanked him, explaining why you hadn’t actually had breakfast before coming to school. The food was truly delectable and you still felt bad for stealing half of it from him because of your own mistake. He kept repeating he didn’t mind, then took a few snacks out of his bag, saying he’d eat these if he was hungry, finally convincing you it wasn’t such a big deal.

You started discussing about your interests and hobbies, discovering you had quite a lot in common. It was enjoyable to discuss with that new friendly student and you didn’t notice the time passing by. Or at least, you hoped class wasn’t starting soon.

Suddenly, you both heard a loud and strict voice state, “Hey the couple in the back. If you don’t mind, I’m trying to teach the class, so could you maybe tone it down a bit.” You felt your face flush in embarrassment as you noticed all the faces turning towards you and Jungkook, including the teacher, staring at you from his spot in front of the classroom. You glanced at your friend, noticing his cocky smile. He quickly replied, “Oh, Mister, I’d like to apologize on behalf of my girlfriend and myself. Don’t worry, we’ll be quiet from now on.” Jungkook was surprised by the confidence in his tone as he gave the teacher a cocky answer. He’s usually not the type to talk back to an adult the way he did, but this time, it was different. He couldn’t embarrass himself in front of you, so he hid his usually shy personality, gathered all his confidence and replied with a sarcastic comment.

You were still shocked by his blunt answer, especially since he had called you his girlfriend in front of the whole class, while you had just met minutes ago. You shot him a weird look, to which he simply replied by bursting into a fit of laughter. His laughter was contagious and you soon joined in, giggling about the situation. The teacher thankfully ignored you both, carrying on with the lesson.

You and Jungkook continued subtly discussing throughout the whole class, acting as if nothing was going on whenever the teacher turned around, making it hard for the both of you to contain your laughter every time you saw the annoyed look plastered to his face. You would usually religiously listen to the teacher talking, but you didn’t mind breaking the rules for once, if it allowed you to keep exchanging with Jungkook. You’d ask a fellow student what you’ve missed later on. As the course came to an end, you knew your school year wouldn’t be as bad as you had expected it to be, as long as you had your new friend sitting next to you.

It was lunch time and you were looking for an excuse to continue spending time with Jungkook. You then remembered how he was new to this school and thought you could show him around. You suggested your idea, hoping Jungkook wouldn’t think it seemed suspicious. Luckily, he smiled softly, answering, “Why not? I’ve told my roommate I’d eat lunch with him, but I can tell him I’ve had a change of plans and I’m pretty sure he won’t mind. I can still eat with him tomorrow. So... Let’s go! I can’t stand being in this suffocating room anymore and I’m starving!” You laughed, then followed him out of the classroom.

You hung out together for the whole afternoon until it was time for you to catch the bus driving you back to your apartment, never once feeling bored. You thought time really does fly when you’re in good company. And you wished time would pass quickly more often, if it meant you were spending time with Jungkook.

A/N: [This is my first actual post. I hope you like it and I’ll be back soon with the next one which is the idol version of “how you met”. Thanks for reading!] 💕

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nayareads21 · 6 years

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About these BTS concept photos, I have 2 comments. 1st, I don't see any relation to the theme of the album: Love Yoursef: Answer. Second, I know BTS have always been honest about their issues concerning fame, but this got me sad. it's like they'rere complaining about us, Army, for getting famous and being followed by us. So, do they want us, army, to stop following them? Don't they like to have so many fans? Weren't they happy with getting so big? it's differnet from Hixtape lyrics: cont

So, first off thanks for commenting I love hearing peoples opinions and questions. And about the concept of Love Yourself Answer I cant say that I know what they’re thinking or doing, these are just my personal theories and what I can tell about the photos that were dropped, however BTS does have a tendency to bring light to places we’ve never seen before and connecting things we never though of so I wouldn’t put it past them to have some sort of connection between the album and the photos or else I don’t think BigHit would have let the photos drop. And then about your second comment I don’t personally think that its about having so many fans or anything or wanting Army to stop following them, I think it has more to do with the constant pressure society as a whole has put on them and the constant prying the media has put on their personal lives and everything they do to try and find fault with them or even discredit them. After becoming globally famous a lot of famous people and media icons are unhappy that they are famous for multiple reasons wether it be race or the message they’re trying to share or the fact that they are something fresh and genuinely happy and a good influence and it threatens their own careers. It also could be about sasaeng fans and how sometimes certain people take it to far but I don’t think thats what its talking about. I mentioned Army not to insinuate that BTS was constantly feeling pressure because of us more like how Army can sometimes unknowingly (and sasaengs) can add pressure to them. Like with Jimin’s weight, or Taehyung’s hair, or even the rumors of Namjoon’s plastic surgery. And it’s not always Army, a lot of people who made those comments were anti’s or people who don’t know BTS. Sometimes pressure can be to much, even with good intentions and some Army (definitely not all or even most) expect BTS to be perfect and that kind of pressure can sometimes feel suffocating. So I don’t believe BTS would ever make this about Army as they clearly love and adore Army with everything they have and are so grateful for everything Army has done for them I just added them in there because of my beliefs on the topic. And these are just my theories and what I can tell from the photos so please don’t take everything I saw as a definite, right now I’m just trying to work with what I was given. Thanks again for the questions though!

#BTS #BTS army #BigHit

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thereturnofthedirtyblog · 6 years

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My observation & honest 2 sense?!😉

I’m not here to argue, I’m not on ANYONES bandwagon…I’m just here to give my options same as everyone else, to state an observation I’ve made as I’m sure many others have while reading some of this…I don’t know Zak, just as I don’t know anyone who’s made claims about him, I’m not saying I don’t believe ½ what’s here, but AGAIN I’m not on a personal bandwagon of Zak’s cause I don’t think he’s all perfect & innocent, he’s a man not a Saint, but I’m not on the bandwagon of let’s bash & ostracize him either…I will say opinions are like assholes everybody has one…because as I just stated above I don’t know anybody who’s made a claim/post to know if their telling the truth or not, I wasn’t present during their relationship, didn’t witness what she said & did, what he said & did…I know NONE of it…What I do know is…WE ALL LIE, that’s a given, people make shit up, girls especially ex’s can be petty, vindictive & spiteful when they’ve been hurt, wether it’s jealousy, or because of what he did in general, fans too can be pretty psychotic…I myself am experiencing assumptions said about me by my ex that aren’t even true & unless your that one involved or a close friend how can anybody else claim they know you or something that happened between you & your ex if they weren’t involved to witness ANY of it…I could really tell you some things about my ex & you’d wonder why I stayed as long as I did, HE WAS A TRUE NARCISSIST, mentally, physically & emotionally abusive, a narcissist of the worse kind, I could tell you ALOT, but I’d be here writing for a week & not cover ½ of everything he’s done, this isn’t what I see about Zak…he might be disrespectful player yes (if everything is true) but NARCISSISTIC, no I’ve lived with that & rest assured I’m not seeing that, even in what I’ve read about him…but what I could say about my ex nobody would know if I’m telling the truth, it’s my experience & nobody was here to live it but me…also this being the internet everything has to be taken with a grain of salt, so many fake accounts, people using profiles or pretending to be someone Er something their not (which I’ve been experiencing myself with my ex’s girlfriend) just to stir & create drama…Zak maybe what some of you girls claim, but again whose to say some girls making the claims weren’t jaded & saying shit just to be vindictive & petty because he didn’t wanna get more involved with them or some whacko fan pretending to be something their not making the same claims to keep him single cause if they can’t have him nobody should or hoping she’ll be the one, we all have our issues & NONE of us are perfect by far, while I do agree if he really wants someone who is mature, doesn’t like, want or create drama, doesn’t have to be the center of attention, doesn’t need to be bought things to feel needed, wants to have a great relationship/friendship then he needs to find someone 30 & up, with their shit together, older girls can have just as much fun, be spontaneous or even chill, plus they to have a higher sex drive…cause those under 30 are still trying to get through life, they have a long way to go, things to live through & experience, but he is an adult & as long as their 18 & older their adults too! At 18 who ever listened to another adult?! What 18-22 year old didn’t act like they already knew it all?! We all have our likes & dislikes, some girls love fame, fortune, muscular men, a sugar daddy with lots of money, while some girls just want a guy who’s not like her ex, who’s their best friend & partner, who’s not into the materialistic shit, most of us are to busy looking with our eyes instead of really getting to know someone, & what they bring to the table, to see if they actually get along outside of the bedroom…(this can be said with all of us), I’m not judging him or dismissing anything people has claimed…my Philosophy in life is this, look beyond what you see, listen beyond just what you hear, cause not all that we see is accurate & not all that we hear is true…I guess what I’m saying is instead of blindly following & believing everything that’s posted & never asking a question leaves one ill informed, it’s just a 1 sided story…just as assumptions were made about me (NOTHING to with this or Zak, just personal experience & things I’m currently dealing with with my soon to be ex) I know what’s it’s like for an ex to make up shit to tell other people that don’t know me or the situation, but to make shit up to make me look bad so he can feel better about the shit he’s doing…maybe Zak will find her, & he’ll change for the better, maybe he thinks it takes meeting many, to find that 1 he really connects with, maybe its dabbling more with the darker things (like demons) that’s changed him & he’s not really aware, the guys have been dealing with darker things & it’s bound to have an affect on their behavior & personalities, some things the fans can see, their not around them all the time, they probably wouldn’t notice because they live it, see it & deal with it everyday & are used to it…so it’s not noticed…it’s always easy to make judgements from the outside looking in…like when we girls gain & lose weight, we don’t notice, but those who aren’t around us all the time notices the changes…So I’m not a blind follower of Zak or of ANYBODY’S, that’s silly, but I’m not gonna ostracize someone over opinions of other girls or people who’ve I’ve never met & don’t even know, that I don’t know if they ever actually dated, if they are the actual person who was involved with Zak & if they aren’t just mad, jealous, just being petty & vindictive to create chaos & drama because he didn’t choose them… I know these are opinions/theories & what have you, but I read some of what’s here & it’s like, nobody here likes Ghost Adventures anymore, everyone is ostracizing Zak & judging every move he makes good or bad (mostly bad) or putting down the other girls & even if Zak went with someone his age & wasn’t a fake made up Barbie looking model, y’all’d still put him & her down just the same, y’all putting down Aaron essentially the whole crew & wanting to dig up dirt on everyone…I’m sure most of us have skeletons in our closet that we wanna keep there, we’ve done shit we’re not proud of & we’ve changed ourselves to become better, or we found/met or it took meeting that person who made us want to change & become better…if it wasn’t for those mistakes we might not have ever become who we are…I understand the purpose behind this, trying to inform & warn other girls, let girls find out what her behavior creates, what it attracts, if she has no respect for herself but to advertise herself as a piece of meat, that’s how she’s gonna get treated, she’ll either grow from it & change for the better or she won’t & she too will lead & empty shallow life, life is about experiences the good & the bad…the bad, may be bad for a bit, but it’s also the best learning & teaching experience…it makes us wiser & stronger…if & I say “IF” loosely…but if Zak is a 10000% of everything everyone has claimed/posted, then his fate is sealed & he to will end up being alone, cause shallow girls only want money & their only worried about keeping up their fake looks & large spending habits or he will eventually run into a girl that uses him as he has them, as they say karma is only a bitch if you are, then again he might run into that girl that captures his soul & he becomes better for it…we’re all capable of change…we all can find that 1 who we want to change everything for, to be honest we’re not qualified to have an HONEST opinion about his life, cause we don’t know who’s behind the keyboard saying it, we wasn’t in the relationship so who knows the real story…as they say there’s 2-sides to every story & I know before someone jumps in to say it, well their experiences were the same as others, but as I said we don’t know who’s behind the scenes making that claim, one can assume & speculate, but no actual FACTS or proof, no videos, no behind the scenes footage, just a post from someone making a claim that may or may not be true, that may or may not be done out of malicious intent… that may or may not have actually dated Zak, who’s to say that after they broke up, they didn’t or hadn’t already came across this site & decided to use it to create more drama, & gossip just to be spiteful…I’m gonna be honest, there’s so much hateful, nasty comments all the way around towards Zak, Aaron & the rest of the crew, to all the other girls, in all honesty it sounds catty, like there’s a few here that wasn’t picked they needed to put down & have bash Zak fest & the rest of the guys, Going as far as saying that they stage shit for the show, I honestly don’t see them risking their reputation & living in doing such things (again my opinion), I don’t think they’d risk getting exposed & their credibility ruined like that, Zak May be arrogant, but I don’t see them risking their livelihoods in that manner…I might get jumped on for saying this, but I’m just being honest here, it’s like a bunch of ex’s who wanted more & didn’t get it, met each other & decided to get together & air their dirty laundry, make up stuff, over exaggerated things, talk about how small his wanky is, how lame in bed he is, being to old…just petty shit…that’s how all this sounds…jealous pettiness…if I was a jealous ex, a jealous fan & wanted him to never have a girlfriend & be alone, keep him single…this blog would be perfect to fuel that, help stoke those flames & keep girls away or it could have the reverse affect & makes some girl think she can be the one to save & change him..who knows…I’m not saying that’s what y’all are doing…& I’ll reiterate everything might be true, but how is anybody to actually ever know…they can’t all this is is someones else’s second hand opinion…someone who may or may not be vindictive & jealous…all I see is alot of mud getting slung & nobody’s hands are clean!! Remember he without sin…cast the first stone!!!! JMHO!😉

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maxhoemo · 6 years

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lovers to strangers chapter 3 [p2]

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The job Randi’s friend had lined up was absolutely awful. The rigid office environment really didn’t suit Max at all, but that wasn’t even the worst part. He had to wonder what exactly Randi told her friends about him because nobody seemed to think he should be there. And they were right, he shouldn’t, but not for the reasons they thought. He tried explaining that he wasn’t just some bum spongeing off his wife, but trying to explain his career to ordinary people was impossible. They either didn’t understand what he meant, or assumed he was lying or delusional about making a living from it. Everyone thought of him as a charity case, which was very clear from the job they had given him. “Jr. Receptionist”. All he had to do was answer the phone, make some photocopies if people needed them, and distribute memos. Obviously, Chrissy’s husband didn’t think he was capable of doing much else.

He had the lowest job title, and he could tell everybody else looked down on him. Sure, it was true he’d never done this stuff before but if they would just give him a chance, he was sure he could figure it out. Like earlier, when he’d gone to use the fax machine. He was just unfamiliar with it, but when he asked one of the secretaries where a certain button was she rolled her eyes and just did it for him. Like he was totally helpless. ‘Sorry!’ Max thought. ‘It’s outdated technology anyways!’. But that wasn’t the worst part. It was lunch time, as he approached the break room he could hear the same woman talking with her friend. He only stopped himself from entering when he heard his name. “That new guy, Max?”

“Oh my god, he’s a total airhead! He didn’t even know what a fax machine was,” she laughed.

“Are you serious?”

“Yeah. He couldn’t even figure out how to use it. He must be someone’s nephew or something, cause he’s a fucking moron.”

“Wow, I mean who ever....” Max frowned, feeling sick. This was just like high school all over again. He knew exactly why he hated environments like this! These people were all the same, no matter how old they got!

And Chrissy’s husband, his boss, Mr. Kirk, was a complete asshole. He made it very clear to Max, several times already that; “We don’t need you here.” “A monkey could do your job”, “You make less than anyone else here. By a lot.” And his favourite; “Your wife would be pissed if you got fired.” He was right, and that was the worst part. He traded his daytime hours of freedom, being alone in the house, to be disrespected and looked down on for literally no reason.

He’d been working for a few weeks, and it was the same type of thing day in and day out. When he got home, he was mentally exhausted. He just wanted to curl up in a ball and dream about Ian. Sleeping his life away seemed like a pretty good option at this point. Maybe if he was lucky, he’d fall into a coma....

Maybe a nice hot shower could sooth the feeling. Yeah, that actually sounded pretty nice.... He ended up staying in a lot longer than he intended, but he figured he deserved it. He stepped back into the bedroom, towel around his waste.

“Hi, Max.”

Max jumped a little. “You startled me.... I didn’t think you’d be home yet...”

“How are you, my little worker-bee?” She seemed to ignore his statement, looking Max up and down, biting her bottom lip.

Max felt uneasy. Even though his wife was beautiful, he wasn’t attracted to her at all. He didn’t like her looking at him like that. The only person he felt comfortable seeing him like that was Ian, and since Ian was gone, he didn’t want anyone seeing him in a sexual way. Not that he could ever articulate any of that, or that it would make sense to anyone else.

“I’m so proud of you....” She went on. Wrapping her arms around him and feeling up his naked upper body.

Max didn’t hear the rest of what she was saying. Her touch made him inwardly cringe. Her kisses were like poison. He wanted to push her away, but he didn’t dare. Her soft, caressing hands made his skin crawl. He wondered if he didn’t actually prefer her being cruel. At least he knew what he was getting at that point. She continued on, beginning to get undressed herself.

“What are you doing?” he asked.

She laughed. “What do you mean? I wanna fuck you!”

“Oh.... I don’t really feel like it....”

“Ugh! Come on, Max! We haven’t had sex in six months! Do you ever ‘feel like it’?” She asked, making air-quotes around his words.

“I guess I... Just don’t really like sex...” ‘At least, not with you....’

“What kind of a guy doesn’t like sex? Are you trying to be a little tease, Max? I know you like it. You liked it when we first met, that’s for sure!” Max didn’t respond, just continuing to stand there awkwardly. “Come on, baby. Just do it for me.”

He wasn’t sure how to say no. She was his wife, wether he liked it or not. Maybe he did have some kind of obligation when it came to this stuff. After all, she couldn’t get it anywhere else and other women probably had husbands who actually wanted to be married to them. “Umm... Okay...” Was the only response he could manage to articulate. He let her do what she wanted, but he didn’t kiss her back or physically acknowledge anything she was doing. He didn’t even look at her. She pushed him on to the bed, his eyes staring past her at the ceiling. She either didn’t notice or didn’t care. His mind didn’t respond, but his body did. Something she was obviously very amused by.

“I knew you liked it you little brat,” as if he was playing hard to get or something. If anything, he felt easy and cheap. Her hands and mouth were all over him, making his skin crawl. She got on top of him, mumbling something about having needed this for so long. He squeezed his eyes shut, thinking that maybe he could pretend she was Ian. But it was impossible. His stomach was doing flips, his skin was sweating so bad it was painful and itchy. He wanted to crawl out of his own body. Suddenly a voice, as if it belonged to an outside observer, rang through his head. ‘YOU DON’T WANT THIS’, it said. It was true! He sort of knew that, but now thinking those exact words all made sense. It clicked all his feelings into place. He wanted this to stop, but the words wouldn’t come out. It wasn’t fair! She decided what he did, when he did it, what he did for a living, how he dressed, what he ate and how much, and now when he had sex. It was like he wasn’t even his own person anymore. He was just an extension of her, or a compliant doll or robot. And no matter what, he couldn’t bring himself to say anything to her. To make any of it stop. Why? Had she done that to him too? Had she somehow conditioned him in such a way that speaking his mind to her was impossible? It felt more like a curse.

“I...” he tried again, but nothing came out. She didn’t seem to notice he was trying to speak anyways. “S-stop...” He had to literally force the word out, and even then it came out as hardly a whisper.

“I’m almost done....”

“But....” He just wanted to say how he felt, but it was impossible. Like there was a physical block from his brain to his mouth. “I have to go to the bathroom...” was the best he could do.

“Just hang on....” She insisted. “It’s been so long, just let me get off....”

“Okay.” Why the hell did he just say that!? He didn’t even think about it, it was just automatic. He was her domesticated little bitch, conditioned to agree to anything and everything she said. Trained to obey and do as he’s told. How did he let himself become this? He was only trying to keep her happy, to minimize her freak-outs... Ian would have never expected such an insane level of compliance. Ian thought of him as an equal. But if he was this easily manipulated maybe he really wasn’t. But he should still be treated as one, shouldn’t he?

Finally, he felt the weight lifted from his body, immediately rushing into the bathroom. If she said anything of it, he didn’t hear her. He closed the door, just standing there for a moment. This was all too much. Finally finding his barings, he splashed some cold water on his face. Looking up at the mirror, a glare crossed his face. “I hate you....” he muttered. “You’re pathetic. No wonder Ian doesn’t love you.”

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luludyprimwell · 6 years

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Heeey ~ Just posting the translation down below for your fangirl souls bc we can’t add any subtitles on the video itself ಠ_ಠ The numbers at the begining of a paragraph correspond to time the person’s talking in the video. Hope I didn’t make too much mistakes, I tried to cut all the “huuum” and all the hesitations parts. What’s btw [] are my comments. Enjoy !!

Miraculous, lucky charm

Magic lady and luck lady

Miraculous, lady of the heart

To be heroic in case of emergency

Miraculouuuuuuuus ~

0:18 Thomas Astruc (Director and producer of Miraculous) : Well, come on in, people ! I’m going to make you visit where we produce Miraculous. So here, in fact, we share the set with 2 other series within Toei Animation. This is where we make the serie, under all our fans’ eyes who send us fanarts, cosplays, who send us letters… Good, now we’ll begin with Wilfried who is co-director of the serie… and who’s working on a storyboard.

0:48 Wilfried Pain (Co-director of Miraculous) : So, here, I’m going to show you a sample of the first episode, in which we’ll see Ladybug and Chat Noir facing up for the first time to the ennemy in the first episode, Collector. And so, I, I’m taking care of producing the scenes from the sript, defining the characters’ emotions, the action, and the way it will be shot. It takes 4 weeks : 4 weeks to decide the way we will produce it. After that, to finalize the animation - that is to say with the “voice-witnesses”, with a little bit of music to give the intentions, and then more importantly timing the episode within the 22 minutes - it takes between 8 and 10 weeks. [so 1 episode requires 2-3 months of work]

1:46 Kamel Tazit (Character designer) : I’m in charge of the characters, which generally come 90% to 100% already designed. I am in charge of making some littles retouches and adapting the technic essentially. [Pointing to the Collector’s leg on the screen] This part has to be articulated because here we have flare pants that are quite close-fitting, that’s not easy. [Pointing to the akumatized black and red woman] This character’s special feature is her helmet, she must have a really expressive helmet that conveys everything that she has to. I particularly pay attention to the helmet. [better be attentive then ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)]

2:22 Matthieu Hassan (Special effects designer) : So, actually, i’m working on the magic infection statics of an object caused by one of the villains of the serie called Robustus. And well, his power brings life to inanimate objects : machines, everything like food and drink dispensers, toasters, fridges… And here, [he adds pointing to the screen] this is a drinks dispenser that is being shot by a magic wave, which is going to have green magic and electric effects that will spread all over it, and then it will come alive and start to attack the guy who’s there, well rather than “attack”, it will chase him. What’s going to be important will mostly be to have a strong silhouette to get a true feeling of dynamism. For example, suppose we make a lighting strike with an impact : we will start from an abstract shape, then we will rework it to acquire something truly dynamic.

3:25 Aurélien Cottier (3D supervisor) : I’m a 3D supervisor, so everything that’s done in 3D passes by me to be validated and make sure everything’s working. Here [he says pointing to the urban landscape on the screen] are all the backgrounds : you can see there is Nôtre-Dame here, over there we have the Eiffel Tower, with the Trocadero, and there are all the streets : there even is the Arc de Triomphe. This is a condensed version, this is all the map, and nowdays everything happening in Ladybug takes place in these sceneries. In fact, in the first season, the majority of the 3D sceneries were indiviual and not connected with each other, which is why you had Eiffel Towers in every shot, because it is “parisian” and that’s the serie’s spirit. Yet in the season 2, we changed that and made sceneries linked with each other, so now we don’t have what we call “map painting” anymore, these are digital paintings that we used to place around the scenes and sets in season 1, but that doesn’t exist anymore in season 2.

4:29 Florent Touitou (3D graphics designer and composer) : So, what I do in fact is the “compositing’‘ [Idk what he’s talking about, French people tend to associate french and english words and sometimes it’s hard to guess the meaning] stage, in general it is the penultimate stage before editing. And, roughly speaking, it is a beauty layer, a bit like photoshop for movies. We receive separated elements that we have to put together in order to improve and embellish. For example, the necklace here [Chloe’s] : tiny interpenetrations. This kind of thing can be pretty easily corrected. It will be quicker to correct it now, we will waste less time. We try to fiddle with it, to draw so it’s done quicker and more simpler. Very tiny details, for example, we add reflections on the advertisings boards : you don’t particularly see it but it plays its part anyway.

5:10 In the editing room with Thomas Astruc : So, here is the editing room : it’s small, it’s the place where with finalize the episodes, wether it is on the rythm level or the final look of the image. Manu gets the designs back, the final look of the episodes, and then we edit them together. It’s to fluidize the episode’s rythm, but Manu also adds another layer of special effects. For example, when a character falls down or that there is an explosion or anything else of this kind, she will add what we call ’'cam shakes’' : camera tremor which is what gives the impression of weight and impact. She adds light effects, shoulder cam effects to make it more dynamic.

26 of October 2017 Results on the day diffusing the first episode of season 2.

#miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug : tales of ladybug and chat noir #tales of ladybug and cat noir #ladybug and chat noir #ladybug #chat noir #thomas astruc #toei animation #interview #waiting for next episodes #practicing my translation skills on you

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stigmin · 7 years

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playing with fire (8) | taehyung

genre: fluff, fuckboy taehyung, smut

pairing: taehyung x reader

summary: you knew what you were in for, but it was too late to get out. besides, it’s not like you wanted to anyways.

last chapter: here

Throughout life, your bound to meet someone who is unlike any other. You could be with and talk with that person for hours, and never get bored. Tell them things you would never tell anyone else, and they’d never judge you. That person is your soulmate, your best friend. Because the best relationships usually begin unexpectedly. That’s how you felt about Namjoon. It’s how you still feel about him.

“Why do you still have all this stuff?” Y/F/N ask you, as she rummages through your bottom drawer. Which contained almost every single thing Namjoon gave you. From pictures, to books, and accessories.

“You even kept this stupid ring!” She scoffs at you, glaring at the jewelry in her hand. You snatch it back and frown. “I haven’t had the heart to get rid of anything,” You tell her honestly.

Parts of you was still clinging onto the bits of Namjoon that you had left. Wether it was a book he recommended you to read or a polaroid of the two of you. Anything that would make you never forget what you once had.

“And it’s not stupid,” You mumble. “We got that together on my birthday. By they way, happy birthday Namjoon,”

Y/F/N rolls her eyes in annoyance. “It’s time for you to get over him. This has been long overdue. Plus, you have a boyfriend. How would Taehyung feel about this?” She presses you.

You sit up from your bed, puzzled. “Taehyung isn’t my boyfriend. We went on one date, and that’s it,” You say, putting so much emphasis on the last two words. That was really it. After your date, the two of you haven’t spoken along that. Taehyung texted you here and there, but you deliberately ignored him. And he got the message and didn’t bother you.

“God, if I was Taehyung, I would so drop you. I can’t imagine a guy leaving me high and dry and other types of mixed signals,” Y/F/N says.

“Is it bad if I say I’m sort of playing him at his own game,” You question yourself.

“Yes,” She gasp at you. “Up to now he’s been treating you so well. Don’t ruin it,” She warns you.

The sound of your phone alerted the both of you. You grab your phone scanning the screen. “Is it him?” Y/F/N ask you.

You shook your head. “It’s Jimin,” You look over the messages he sent and sighed. “He’s asking me what did I do to Taehyung. Apparently, he’s acting like “he’s on his period”- how nice,” You slightly laugh.

Out of no where, Y/F/N grabs your phone and runs into the bathroom. You jump off your bead and chase after her, highly perplexed with what just happened. “What are you doing, Y/F/N!” You yell.

“You’ll see,” Her answer was muffled on the other side of the door. Suddenly, the door swings open and your phone was shoved in your face. On the screen, showed Taehyung’s name.

“What the hell,” You whispered yelled. Grabbing the phone and ready to press the end button.

“No,” Y/F/N screams at the top of her lungs before jumping on your back. “Talk to him!” She says.

You scream in frustration as the weight is put on your back. “Get off!” You yell with strain, moving the phone away from her reach. “Stop!” The two of you stumble into the room and on your floor.

“OW,” You wince.

“Answer him,” Y/F/N pins you down the floor and takes the phone putting it against your ear.

“Hello,” You croak out of breath. After hearing no response you take the phone seeing that their was no one on the line. You groan and push Y/F/N off of you. “Can you give me a minute please,”

Y/F/N nods at you and leaves your room for a moment. You sit up from the floor and sit again you bed, clicking Taehyung’s name once more. It rang about twice before he picks up. “Yeah,” He speaks.

Your face became heated and your heart was racing. “Uh, h—hi,” You stutter and clear your throat immediately. “I’m so sorry about what just happened,” You bit your lip, just wanting to bang your head against the wall.

Taehyung chuckles. “Don’t worry about it,” He tells you.

“Taehyung listen, I’m sorry for ignoring you. I just needed some time, I guess. I don’t know. I’m just confused; I’m still confused. Things are hard for me right now,” You explain to him. “But our date. It was the greatest thing I ever done in a long time. I loved it,,”

“That’s good to hear. You worried me for a while,” He says.

“So, you can stop being bitter, okay.” You assure him.

“I was never bitter,” He retorts.

“You were being a little bitch,”

“Y/N!” He yells.

You hold your stomach from laughter and couldn’t help but smile. “I’m sorry, again”

“I can’t be mad at you, Y/N. Ever.” He says.

You were currently internally screaming. Why did this boy make you feel like this? Like you were falling in love all over again.

“It’s late. You should go to bed,” Taehyung speaks.

“Okay, tell Jimin good night for me. And Jungkook, if he’s there.” You say.

“Please don’t say his name,” Taehyung groans.

“What? Jimin or Jungkook?” You tease him.

“Y/N, I’m serious.” He growls.

“Good night, jealous boy,” You told him and hung up before he can say anything further.

“I love when couples make up,” Y/F/N come in jittering. Your big smile then became a frown, once you recollected yourself. “We’re not together,” You respond back.

“Your not together, yet. Give it some time. I say in about three weeks or less. You’ll be Kim Taehyung’s first girlfriend ever.” Y/F/N gushes. You couldn’t help but have a scenario in your head. You being Taehyung’s girlfriend. It’s so unlikely, so unexpected. Never happened before, others would say.

“Oh, shut up already and let’s just go to sleep,” You say getting into your bed.

The two of you head to sleep. Waiting for the events of tomorrow.

You and Y/F/N sit at the kitchen table eating cereal when you suddenly receive a text.

taehyung : im picking you up in a few minutes

“Aw, he’s so sweet. You guys are totally in the dating stage. When he picks you up, drops you home, he’s definitely going to be more intimate, and give you cute pet names and all that good stuff.” Y/F/N cooed.

You gagged and finished the rest of your breakfast. “Please stop talking,” You tell her putting the bowls in the cereal. “You love it, admit it,” She presses you. Ignoring her, you get up and head to the living room to grab your bag. Just at that moment, you hear a car honking outside.

Y/F/N squeals and pushes you out the way as she bolts to the door. Your father wasn’t home, like always so you had to lock the door yourself. There was Taehyung’s hot ride in front of your house. You take a deep breathe and head down your stairs.

You see Taehyung immediately come out the car to open the door for you. “Thanks,” You say to him as you get in. You turn around in your seat to see Jungkook and Y/N. “Hey Jungkook,” You greet the boy.

He slightly looks at you and gaze at your neck for a split second. “Hey,” He finally says, clearing his throat. You smirked and turned around, not expecting the boy to be awkward around. What happened, happened. Plus the hickey’s were faded.

Taehyung get’s in the car and starts it up. The ride was silent for a while. Not a single person uttering a work. And you wish it stayed like that until Y/F/N opened her big mouth. “So Taehyung, when you gonna pop the big question to Y/N?” She ask aloud. You gulped and sat up straighter.

“Uh, when she’s ready to start a relationship with me,” He says with no hesitation.

You briefly looked at Taehyung and then back at the window. A shy smile creepng up on your lips, but you let no one see it. “You hear that Y/N,” She hisses at you.

Once you see the school building, you immediately open the car door, which made Taehyung stop the car; and you get out. A few head turns once noticing Taehyung’s car, and of course; you. You still didn’t care what people thought of the two of you. It’s just what they make it.

“Y/N,” You heard Taehyung call out to you. You stop in your tracks and waited for him to catch up, so you two can walk together. “Sorry, If I said something wrong,” He told you.

You shook your head. “Don’t be sorry. You were just being you,” You tell him. Taehyung chooses to not bring the conversation any further, so the two of you walk silently into the school building.

“So, um, are you up for a second date by any chance?” Taehyung ask. You hear the shyness in his voice, and it almost made you smile.

“What do you have in mind?” You ask.

Taehyung eye’s suddenly became brighter. “We can, go to the zoo. Or go out to eat. Oh, there’s also the animal shelter I’ve been wanting to go to. Jimin would never go with me because—he’s Jimin. And I sort of ignored Kookie for a while.” He rambles.

You frown as you reached to your locker. “Please tell me your not still mad at him. It’s not his fault. In fact, it was no ones. Well, maybe yours for having those fucked up drinks,”

Taehyung groans and leans his head against a locker. “I just didn’t- I don’t want anyone touching you and being with you,” He says.

“What I’m hearing is, it makes you jealous,” A teasing smile appears on your face. Taehyung moves closer to you and stares deep into your soul. “Very jealous,”

You found yourself getting tense and tried to relax at the closeness. “All right then,” You mustered up some words to say. “I’ll only be with you,”

Taehyung took an advantage of this moment to press his lips against yours. You depend the kiss and soon your tongues were colliding. You pulled away completely embarrassed by the kiss and hid yourself in his chest. “What’s wrong?” He ask you, pecking you on your forehead.

You shyly look up at him and sigh. “What are you doing to me?” You didn’t expect an answer. But all he did was look down at you and smile.

Y/F/N was certainly right about how Taehyung would start acting around you. He was surely more touchy. Began holding your hand out of no where, and start caressing your face. It was cute. And you hated how it made you feel. You were deeply effected by his actions. Some moments you wanted to rip every strand of hair out your head or better yet die.

“I’m taking you home,” Taehyung says as school dismisses. Your no longer going to comment or protest anything he does anymore. You liked how he was trying. Trying to build something up with you. And again you say, you hated how you were starting feel.

He takes your hand and you two walk out the building and to where his car was parked. “Did Jimin come to school today?” You ask aloud as he opens the car door for you.

He closes and jogs to the other side getting in. “Nope, he was setting up for our friend’s birthday party tonight. It’s gonna be a huge surprise. You should come, I want you to meet my other friends.” He tells you.

“Woah slow your role, I didn’t even meet your parents yet,” You laugh at your own joke.

“You will when they come back from Daegu,” Taehyung says.

Your eyes widen at this and your suddenly stiff in your seat. You cough awkwardly and look out the window as he drove. “Remember when you told me that we’ll see where things end up for us.” He says.

You furrow your eyebrows for a second and nodded, recalling the night of the party. “Yeah,”

“Well let me give you a visual. Me and you are going to be happy together. We’re going to go on all the dates we can think of. Do the craziest things. Maybe might get arrested for it, knowing me. Then your going to see how you completely changed me,” He explains.

“Ugh, your just like him. Saying the cheesiest shit out of no where,” You say looking down.

“Who?”

“My ex, not important,” You say.

“Tell me about this ex, so I can know what my competition is like in the future,” Tahyung pries.

Slightly chuckling, you look out the window. “He was definitely smarter then you. Older too.”

“Oh, is that a kink,” Taehyung teases you and poked your side rapidly.

You laughed out loud and swatted his hand away. “Really though, he was an amazing guy. I’m sure he still is,” You say.

“Well, he’s dumb for losing you,” Taehyung tells you as he pulls up to the front of your house.

You smile to yourself and turn to look at Taehyung. As soon as he turned his head to look at you. You swoop in to kiss his lips. The kiss lasting more longer then ones you shared. This brought him to cuff your face and bring you in more, your tongues meeting. You pull away leaving him in shock. “Wh—What was that for?” He stutters out.

“I’m starting to like you Kim Taehyung,” You answer and make your way out of the car.

You and Y/F/N had drove over to Taehyung’s house for the surprise party he was planning for his friend. “God, he’s always having a party,” You mumble as your park the car nearby.

“I’m cool with it, their always fun,” She says to you excitingly getting out of the car and running towards Taehyung’s house. You tugged on your gray bodycon dress as it was hiking up. Usually you would never wear anything like this. But tonight, you wanted to be more vigorous.

“Stop you look great. The shorter the better,” Y/F/N says from the front door, repeatidly.

You growl at her as you reached the door. It was suddenly opened by a stranger who looked both of you up and down. “Nice,” He said. You rolled you eyes and bumped him out of the way as you make it inside the house.

The home was decorated with birthday things, such as balloons, streamers and many more. “I’m gonna go find Jungkook,” Y/F/N said. You nodded and watched her leave before wandering around the house.

Suddenly, you felt two arms wrap around you. You grin as you felt his chin lean on your shoulder. “You look really good,” He said lowly in your ear.

“Aren’t you gonna tell me it’s too short,” You shuffle out of his grip to turn to him.

“No,” He immediately says, pulling you into him. “I’m not that type of guy. Your an independent woman. Wear what you want.”

You widen your eyes and couldn’t help but laugh. You cuff his face in concern. “Either your really woke or your just trying to get me in bed,” You say ruffling his hair.

Taehyung laughs and takes your hand. “Come on, my friend is coming any second now,” He pulls you into the entrance of the house were a couple of people already started gathering around. Jimin comes through the door and immediately closes it. “He’s coming! Everyone shut up! Jungkook the lights,” He says, before taking the spot next to you. Everyone stopped muttering and got into their places. “Don’t be mad,” He whispers to you.

You turned to him with confusion. “Why?”

Taehyung hands you one of those mini confetti cannons. And you gladly took it, ready to pull it once the person came in. The lights then went out. You felt Taehyung hands wrap around your waist, and you would’ve gutted him; but you allowed it, the feeling brining you comfort.

Just then the door opens, as three figures appeared. Then the lights turned and everyone simultaneously yelled surprise. You looked ahead at the person who walked in. Eyeing every inch of him. Your heart sank to hell, and probably anything below it. There stood Kim Namjoon, and his friends who use to be your friends, Yoongi, Hoseok and Jin.

It was when he made eye contact with you, you lost it. You pulled the string on your confetti cannon out late, earning stares. His hair was a nice lavender color. He look so damn good. In that moment, you wanted to be shot dead. Why him? Why now? Especially, now. You were slowly getting over him. And he just pops up out of the blue and knocks you down. Still making you feel this way, even though your not together. You hate it. You hate it so much.

But hate doesn’t last forever. And neither does love.

i say sorry way too many times. the wait is over. finally namjoon is here shake shit up, lmfaoo. hopefully it gets good from her. also feedback is really nice….cuz to me this chapter was kinda shitty and let me know if i’m dragging the story. cuz i have way to many ideas. so like it up.

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tsif19 · 5 years

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1. This week I took time to focus on the things in my life that hold the most meaning to me. Life to me is kind of like being on a boat out at sea, there are so many waves that can present ups and downs in our lives and can drag us farther and farther from our goals or the place we want to be in life. With that being said wouldn’t it be nice to have a nachor that can help keep us from getting lost at sea. These images are just a couple of the anchors for me in my life each image holds its own weight!

2. Overall I would have to say that Boris Groy’s interpretation of “ Self- Deisgn” doesn’t necessarily apply to me because these images could mean nothing to anyone else or bring me no type of status and I would still feel that they are the most important things to me. When thinking about self design I feel that the interpretation is in the person. Deciding wether or not you’re doing something to make your self happy or to please others is the main idea I picked up from self design. This helped me stay focused on the topic of images this week.

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sealofzeal · 5 years

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Childhood

City life gave me all that I could ask for. My parents were well off, both working in the trade industry, and were able to provide me with academy level training and education. Sometimes the lifestyle was daunting but because I knew I belonged here I pushed when other faltered.

I had few friends, but of them the closest was Rhalyf. We shared most of our schooling time together and during our free periods we made up games to play. Looking back, it seemed so childishly delightful. He was so extremely adapt at playing hide-and-go-seek, but, no matter the hidding spot, eventually I could find him. Other times we would practice our fighting. Being as young as we were they only taught us the defensive stances but it was only a matter of time until we out grew our lessons. Once we snuck into the city guard's training grounds. Rhalyf, being the crafty one that he was, helped me scale the walls so we may watch together. He had such an uncanny ability to know which stones were loose and where to grab. We spent hours together watching the men and women train. My job was to take notes and memorize the movements so we may practice together afterwards. Somethings that Rhalyf would miss, I would notice, like the way to set your footing before swinging a sword, or how their hands were placed on a bo staff. Between our games he would find fun in quizzing me. He knew my favorite subjects were history and lore. Often he would marvel at the little things I could remember from our class. He loved bringing up the far out land of the elves, Evermeet. Over and over he would ask. I knew he knew everything that I said, after all, we shared the same lessons. I think that he just liked hearing about it. He shared with me one day about his anxiety of being half kin and that he wouldn't be welcomed into Evermeet or that if he was it was merely an act of petty. I hugged him tight that day and told him that any one who would turn him away clearly misunderstood how incredible he was.

We grew up eventually. I had a few years on Rhalyf but his human side made up for that quick. Rhalyf would eventually apply for apprenticeship as a Bladesinger but when no word returned he feared the worst. Whether it be from his half human blood or the fact he was no Evermeet citizen he took the news hard. He was at the top of our class, only riveled by me, so whatever the reason he was sure it was something due to that.

I met him the day before he left. He had been crying, one of the few times I've seen him ever do that. Being a Bladesinger was all he ever wanted. Powerful guardians. Champions of elven kind. Adventuring was in his blood. And that's why he had to leave. A college had accepted him when Evermeet and her master's did not. My memory is so vivid of that night. We were in his room for hours, from set to rise. Perhaps my mind knew already the long length of time we would have to endure before seeing each other again and so it captured every detail it could. We sat in his room, near the open window. It was summer and the wind stayed warm many hours after the sun had left. He had candles burning, a mix of fresh pine lumber and lemon, something he always burned when worried or stressed. We talked but also enjoyed comfortable silence.

His time to go came. The sun had it's first light over the city and Rhalyf was adamant about leaving without other people's knowing, wanting to avoid the fuss of good byes.

I hugged my friend again before letting him go down his path but not before he asked one last question.

"Vox, why don't you want to go?"

Adulthood

But why would I leave? Where would I go? What place could I go to that was better than here? Perhaps I was too bought in on the idea that our elven differences were so firm, at least that's what others thought of me. But what can I say? I am a full blooded sun elf. A lot is expected of me wether they admit or not. Time out "adventuring" could be time spent on bettering myself and I must be the best me.

When finished with the academic portion of my life the next series of months blended together. My memory is very strong but there's not much I could tell you about that time. I wouldn't discribe it as a 'blur', but more like the gears of a clock. Days mimicked days and weeks were mirrors of each other. The only breaks of the continunity were the local festivals that my city observed but those matter much less after Rhalyf left. Those days were better spent with personal projects.

Cooking was an interesting venture for me but was short lived as I don’t eat much. I tried my hand at my parents' own vocation but rarely did they require my help. Most hours with them had me idle and anxious to be else where, doing something different. Tutoring was a promising start. I was with a youngling named Ceara. Access to an apprentice came in handy and I was most pleased to influence her and give guidance. She had fallen behind in school due to what her parents thought was a poor immune system. It turned out to be more than that. She would fall ill randomly and after enough encounters with our family physician we took it into our own hands. I admired how willing and brave she was. It took some trial and error, something that wasn’t easy on either of us. Eventually, over the course of months, we discovered that Ceara had an sensitivity to the weave of magic that was omnipresence. When the threads suddenly changed course and caused a peak or valley Ceara would experience something akin to vertigo. After that we found prescriptions useful to her and mindful meditation aided Ceara’s mental strength to withstand the occasional shifts. It wasn’t long after that she was caught up with her classmates and no longer required my tutelage.

That lasted for a little over a year and maybe it was for the best. Teaching wouldn’t be my calling. Maybe in a century or two later would I consider but not now.

By this point it had been close to four years since Rhalyf left for college. Letters were sparse, mainly sent in time for each other’s birthdays. I had gathered enough spare gold to send a care package of some of our home city’s goods. Fresh fruits, a green and gold ribbon from the Day of Color festival, a supply of candles. The item most pleased to send was a flat palm sized slab of obsidian. It came to my possession via my parents. It was an oddity that never sold after years of trying. The material was rare but in such small quantities it hardly had any appeal. It was always warm to the touch and I suggested he store it in his glove or a pocket. He was far north in the snowy lands and judging by his correspondence afterwards he’ll never receive a better gift. This was quite some time ago and had recently been considering sending another. Tutoring Ceara had landed me a windfall of gold. Her parents insisted on paying extra after going such lengths for their daughter.

It would have been such a surprise for Rhalyf had he not surprised me first.

The Silver Hymn

I threw my arms around my dear friend and hugged him tight. He had grown but not quite to my height. His clothing choices were different too. He sported a more fashionable attire that leaned on ostentatious. His hair wasn’t cut short any more either and was pulled into a low pony. So much had changed but I could still quickly pick my friend out in a busy crowd.

We exchanged our pleasantries before finding a place to sit and talk. We traded our stories from the past four years. I asked questions about some of his letters and he did the same back. He was impressed on how much I could recall from them and accused me of rereading within the last few days. I teased him, saying that he wishes and was quickly reminded of how acute my memory could be. He then asked about Evermeet and about the Bladesingers. Of course I remembered as children how he used to do this but there was something he was leading up to, I could tell. And he didn’t let down. After my brief lesson of the Bladesingers he asked me if I thought they were the only ones, sword fighters with a wholly original style of combat. I said yes and he thought so too, until he left. His theory is that there could be others. He hailed from the sword college now and that the talents he learned from the mountains were cousins to the Bladesingers, and that there could be more. He showed me an insignia that I later learned was for “The Silver Hymn”.

The Silver Hymn is a guild of lore seekers, or would eventually be. As of now it was just him and one other, the guild’s benefactor. He explained to me that he needed me, that there could be no one else to do it. Anyone could memorize text from a book and retain knowledge but only in me did he see the passion for it. He described the types of roles I would play and after two days of considering I said yes.

It was interesting work to say the least! Within a month we had grown from two, to six. Actually it was seven but it was hard to consider the guild’s benefactor as a member. Rhalyf and myself were looked to as the founders. Darcan and Jhaan were the first to join, classmates that had also stayed with in the city. They were revered well but were having trouble finding work without dedication to a mage college. After we had Eleyon join, a half moon elf who out grew her peers in the classroom and was eager to start their adulthood. She was the youngest but carried her weight just as much. We weren’t sure if the guild needed any more until a wood elf of the name Kel joined. He was older and had experience far outside the city that both Rhalyf and I knew we couldn’t pass up on.

Gold was steady for the guild. We would receive a payout every two weeks. Darcan would prep and send the progress report in the in between weeks. Darcan has the finest of penmanship. Sometimes I would review his report just to see how that man writes his o’s. Jhaan had a knack with accounting and was quick to fill the role of treasurer. She made sure we had everything we needed and budgeted accordingly. Eleyon lacked initiative to work on her own and found her time better suited with me as an assistant. Kel we were still getting to know but he was delightful at the six string and had a tongue of silver, something useful when ever the need showed. No matter our talents we all poured over every book.

It took some time for any honest progress. Eleyon felt like we were shooting an arrow with out a target. She didn’t like the ambiguity of what we were looking for. It was actually Ceara that gave us our first step in a new direction. I had the sudden impulse of checking in on her, seeing what improvements she had made. I told her what I could of what we were doing. Until then we had just been cataloguing events of Bladesingers but they had been kept factual not instructional, likely to keep the artform's secrets. Ceara asked why do that if we were looking for something like the Bladesingers. From there Eleyon suggested we look into folk lore, specially since Kel always said stories like those always had some truth to them.

It was the best months of my life. Rhalyf and I, working closely again. Making new friends. Together we separated fiction from non. There were examples of what Rhalyf was searching for. A sword fighter had returned from the Moonshae Isles and was completing feats of mastery, with acts discribed similar to a Bladesingers but not exactly. Many books mistakenly called them a Bladesinger or even The Bladesinger. This just wasn't true as this character lacked key attributes from the fighting style. None of them discribed the whistle of the blade or gave examples of a dancer-like manner of fighting. Jhaan found examples of the character being refered to as a "she" while still fitting the description from other books when refered to as a "he".

We slowly found other stories of them. It seemed that this person lived a full and fantastic life. We had to cross reference passages told within novels with historic events. It helped us form a better timeline of them. Whole works of literature being read and boiled down to a single page of factual text.

Satisfaction came when Darcan finish the report of our findings. I must have read those pages a dozen times over. Our guild's magnum opus. I would still consider it largely unfinished but our benefactor would be nothing less than pleased. After finding an appropriate carrier suitable for something this important and paying the large sum to have it delivered most of the guild broke off for some rest. Rhalyf went with the package to better present it. Kel was "getting the itch" which meant he wanted to go deep wood hunting and camping. Jhaan and Darcan kept quite about what they did but likely went off acting on the chemistry they experienced during our work. Eleyon went home with most of her earnings but only after a day venture of shopping. She was raised by an elderly woman, unrelated to her, who took Eleyon in and supported her education. I spent time with Ceara and my own parents. Rhalyf asked me to join him but understood when I declined. I had been surrounded by people and needed some alone time. Not to mention that my physical maintenance had lessened after the guild's formation and I was determined to return to form.

We would have to wait until Rhalyf made it to his destination, which we learned via a missive spell, and then for his return. Eleyon was curious on what would happen next. She wasn't entirely pleased at the idea of doing exactly this again for other examples. Not that she had intentions of leaving if that were the case as the take in gold was too good to pass on. She had woes when it came to money coming from a life that struggled to make all ends meet. We got to know each other along with Kel after a night of camping together. The two of us wanted to check in with him, letting him know Rhalyf had made it. Kel was much harder to locate than anticipated but eventually the fun of watching us struggle wore on him and he made himself known. He played for us on his instrument and treated us to his hunt of the day, this time being fish. He was much better at cooking than myself.

Moonshae Isles

Three days after Rhalyf's arrivle we received another magical note from the carrier's guild. These were not cheap to request and already had major significance. Rhalyf had news, huge news, to share when he returned and asked us to be ready for his arrival at an appointed date. I didn't delay on informing the other members. Eleyon had a flurry of questions for me but she would just have to accept that I knew nothing more than what I had told her. I spoke with Darcan and he took on telling Jhaan. Kel was again tricky getting a hold of but didn't play games this time which helped.

We gathered together in our research room. There was an air of unease that lingered. It felt very cryptic in is nature. Rhalyf was intentionally vague in his letter and Jhaan was clear on how she didn't enjoy this position of not knowing. She also didn't like that none of us other than Rhalyf knew this benefactor. Anxiety was getting to us all. Kel had went with playing his six string to pass the time. No one said anything but he was noticably jumpy. Eleyon couldn't stop fidgeting. She was in a new position every ten minutes. Darcan was straighting some notes we had left behind after our work completed. I was reading a short story that Ceara had wrote. She wanted me to judge it and help with mistakes if any. There weren't many but quickly did I realize that the main character was embarrassingly based off me. I wouldn't tell Eleyon what it was and that frustrated her to no end.

Relief came when finally Rhalyf showed. There were some men with him carrying something heafty. They set it on the table and then left. Rhalyf thanked, tipped, and locked the doors behind them. He apologized for the wait and got into explaining his trip. The benefactor was pleased with our findings and wanted to support a expedition. The next step was to obtain physical proof to back up our research and thought we should be the ones who go about finding and studying anything found. The idea is to keep the number of eyes and minds to a minimum. That notion struck Jhaan as odd and asked to meet this person, now wanting to know who she was working with and how they plan using our work. Rhalyf eased her and everyone else's worries by claiming that they were a promising historic practitioner and specializes in finding heroes lost in lore. I found this off putting as that wasn't Rhalyf's original pitch to me when founding the guild. None the less, I choose to trust him.

Finally we open the box after Eleyon insistence that we do. It contained six soft in color purple cloaks with an insignia of The Silver Hymn as clasps, sized and fitted for each of us. It was a gestures made not by the benefactor but my Rhalyf. He wanted to show their union and how close he felt to everyone.

The rest of the box was a large bag filled with gold and platinum. This was a combination of our compensation for our report, and funding for supplies and travels with an early bonus if we accepted. There was only one caveat, no one person may accept unless we all do.

We all stood in a circle, cloaks clasped on, and agreed.

Personal affairs were to be put into order. I spoke with my parents about where I was going only saying what I could about it. We had together all sworn to some level of secrecy. We weren't doing anything illicit or something that needed protecting, it just felt like the right thing to do. With Ceara though I broke that swear to the others only after she made her own promise to me to never share what I said to anyone. I handed back her story with some notes about. I told her that I expected more to read when I returned and hugged the girl tight as a goodbye.

The surplus of gold allowed for a new sword, masterfully crafted, as well as armor fitted to me. I didn't know if either would be necessary but I felt better with them. I was also able to afford a rounded shield and painted the face with our guild's insignia. The others has similar ideas on preparation. Jhaan bought a new tomb for spellcasting as well as a few scrolls. Kel was more interested in practical supplies, but did also get a cooking kit for travel. Eleyon picked up a hand-crossbow and after seeing what I did to my shield she asked me to do something similar. Darcan had a cracked orb as a focal and with a bit of his gold had it repaired. Rhalyf had eyes on this elegant elven thin blade since we were young and after this lump sum of gold it was his.

Travel was uneventful, which was good. Eleyon would disagree but she also didn't know better. We opted for renting a horse and being pulled by carrage. It saved time at the cost of more gold but allowed us to bring more supplies into port. From there we obtained a vessel to the Isles.

None other than Kel did well on ships. He had been on a number of them in the past. Rhalyf found enjoyment between bouts of sick. I watched my friend as he gazed out into the open sea with such a large smile. I could tell adventuring was for him. I'm not sure what he saw in it but then again, here I was too.

The Moonshae Isles were not welcoming as the travel from home had been. We didn't obtain any lasting injuries but it was a good warning to stay vigilant and careful. Kel took lead and sometimes would scout ahead. We had our notes and eventually we started noticing landmarks from our readings. We found safety and formed a camp in a suitable space and began our dive into history.

Weeks passed and progress was good. We had a map drawn in the main tent with landmarks and notes written all over it. It turned out Eleyon had a great sense of direction and made for a talented cartographer. She had made many revised copies and eventually started drawing maps of all the tunnels and caves we came across. Jhaan spent every possible chance she could detecting any magical aura in the area. Darcan would always be the one to volunteer to join her but with how less hidden they acted with their relationship we all knew why.

It wasn't until the end of our eighth week here did we come across something tangible. We did as before, separating tale and fact. Moonshae Isles were the origins of the hero and in the stories about them the character reference the area often but never spoke where the abilies came from. Some supported to notion that this was a narrative device that allowed for other authors to spin their tales about the hero. Others, like myself, think it was deliberate, an attempted to keep it secret. The others debated their pet theories while I reviewed the maps. I was laying on my back with the papers stacked on top of each other to better review what changes had been made. Normally this would be done over the fire so the light may shine through but tonight the moon had been full and bright. With each revised copy they became better detailed. I was about to compliment Eleyon on her improvement when I realized that she always left out one corner of the land mass undetailed. I asked why and she said that not a single passage in any of the books spoke about it. We had visited there early on but determined that it had no real importance due to the lack of mentions. Her eyes went wide with the same realization I had. Rhalyf was fine with taking another venture out that area but declined joining. He was working on his own angle on this problem and wished us luck in the morning.

Kel, Eleyon, and I went together. Kel again took the forward position which allowed me and Eleyon to review her map. She had chosen an older one with more of the tunnel system drawn in before she started to separate the layers. Some clever deductions were made and she theorized that the tunnel should continue all the way out here. Kel's survivalist ability kicked in and noticed that there must be a underground spring nearby with how a stream of water didn't flood the area. We did find that cave, the entrance well hidden, and went on searching inside. It was rough and rugged as a tunnel ought to be but farther, just as it was starting to tapper off and shrink, the texture changed. In a cube like formation it was smooth and sort of man made. Some sort of magic must have carved into this portion of the underground. Turns became 90° corners and there were some gradual slopes downward. The hallways opened into a large room. Tapestries decorate the walls and although they may once have been brilliant in hue, they now hang in graying tatters. Despite the damage of time and neglect, I could make out their once-grand images and symbols of spellcasting. Messages in strange languages were carved into the ground in chalk somehow untouched by time and the elements. I was sure they were likely written in such ways to aid in casting. Me and Kel both had the sense to stay still but Eleyon jumped and cheered at their find. She had ran in excited, moving before we could stop her. The runes on the ground became lit and flashed in a spark. At the time we were sure it was a trap but guessed it fizzled with age. Kel and I sighed with such relief.

We were sasitfied with finding that room and after marking it on our map we turned for home. At first we didn't know what was different but something felt wrong. It had been much later in the day from when we entered and the ground was soaked from rainfall. Kel suggested that maybe we couldn't hear the rain because the tunnel went that far deep. I didn't fight that as an answer then but it was when the sunsetted on us and the moon became apparent. It was clear something had happened. The night before it had been full and yet here and now I see it as a just a thin cresent. There was no denying it now and matters only worsen when we returned to camp. It was gone. Our tents, our supplies, and most importantly our friends. Eleyon shouted, saying that this isn't funny. She didn't understand what me and Kel did. I grabbed her and asked her to please stop. I think she must have seen the fear in my eyes because she didn't resist.

Kel saved us that night. Eleyon too. Her map gave us some ideas on where to set up a makeshift camp and Kel's took over from there. We didn't have much with us. No food other than some traveling jerky and water skins were low. My pack only had some parchment and writing utensils. I had my weapons and shield, and luckily the cloak was weather resistance. Eleyon had her short sword, crossbow with a few bolts, and a cartographer kit. Kel traveled light and thankfully that means he carried only supplies to survive. Even with the rain earlier he managed a small fire for us. We would take turns to keep watch and I took first shift. I wanted Eleyon to sleep and not dwell on thinking this was her fault. Kel meditated on my right and Eleyon laid her head in my lap on my left. We eventually all got rest and started answering new questions the morning after.

Kel went off to hunt, leaving me and Eleyon to focus on what happened. Not only had the camp gone missing bit the signs of it even being there were gone too. Grass had regrown and the places where the stakes had been driven in at had closed. There was only the faint circle of stones that gave hint that someone had been there. Eleyon was distraught. I was too but I guess I hid it better. Together we spent a few days looking for Rhalyf and Jhaan and Darcan, but when no signs appeared we had to change our goals. The three of us couldn't stay here in the wilderness forever looking.

We returned to the port where arrived from and asked there. I could feel my hope drain with every puzzled look I received after pointing to my insignia or showing my purple cloak. In the end the light showed and someone mentioned three others. The troubling part was this man remembered them from almost over four months ago. He remember them catching a boat to Waterdeep.

Waterdeep

It took some convincing for Kel to agree but eventually he went with going to Waterdeep. Eleyon and I had brought no personal gold with us. Mine was with my parents and Eleyon gave all of hers to her caretaker, spare some traveling coins. Only Kel kept his on his person and ultimately it was his choice on what to do with it. He saw no other recourse obvious and went with it.

Some how the seas were worse this time through and me and Eleyon were unless during the choppier parts of travel. Kel managed us a less expensive ride to Waterdeep at the cost of manual labor. We did what we could but clearly Kel carried more than just his weight.

The Sword Coast greeted us with I suppose a typical hello. Pirates of the sea had caught us unguarded by other ships and the winds too dead to escape. We managed with our lives, quickly coming to arms against them, but not without cost. Kel has taken blows to the side with a flintlock. He lived but needed rest and care.

Now we three find ourselves, drained, injured, hopeless, and in Waterdeep.

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foreign-studies · 7 years

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Hello, in need of some advice. So, my eighteenth birthday is next week and to celebrate my best friend and I are going to spend the day shopping and hanging out in the town in which we will both be attending college in the fall. (It's only about an hour and a half away from where we live, but neither of us know much about it.) The reality of what is to come is finally hitting me and I just feel extremely overwhelmed by this. Any advice to just get me through enrollment day without losing it?

This is going to be a very long answer, i’m so sorry.

Hi sweetie,

Going to college is a life changing experience, not only because of the knowledge you’ll acquire, but because your life will literally be turned upside down, you’ll move out of your house, you wont have your parents or relatives around all the time, you’ll have to look out for yourself and make sure you’re doing everything you’re supposed to do. You’re going to be shifting to a completely new life-style in a few of months, and it can be stressful to even think about that, but there are a few things you can do to make this transition a little bit better.

NOW

Make sure you are ready to go. During stressful times its normal to forget things you’re supposed to do, buy or pack. You have a lot of time until you have to go to college, but if you’re like me, leaving anything to the last minute can make this experience much more maddening. So go online, research what should you bring to college, make a packing list and a list of things you have to buy. Call or check youour collegeration center and see if they have dorms available and if you have to sign up for it, if so, do it. If they don’t have dorms, then start looking for apartments nearby, it’s better to do this with plenty of time to look around and compare prices, neighbourhoods and designs. Start to make sure you have everything ready right now to take that weight off your shoulders.

A FEW MONTHS BEFORE ENROLLMENT DAY

Meeting your surroundings beforehand is great and i’m glad you’re spending a nice day with someone you like in this new envirowment. Try finding places you feel good and relaxed at, a cozy coffee shop, a pretty boutique, a park, anything that makes you happy, so when you feel anxious, nervous or sad in college, you already have a safe haven to run to and destress. Also, if you can, pull off a Lorelai and try every nearby restaurant, coffee shop, supermarket and keep the flyers so when you need some good comfort food, you have those in mind. If it’s possible, try to go to your campus and see a dorm room, if you’re getting one, it will make it easier to move in when you know what you’re moving into.

FINISHING HIGH SCHOOL

Its going to be sad. Even when we think we don’t care about school or anyone in it, its hard leaving a place that is common to you. Don’t worry if you sob your heart out, that doesnt mean you’re not ready for college, just like not crying doesn’t mean you have it all figured out. Life has sometimes to be happy and some to be sad, this moment is a sad one, but that doesnt mean you have to push past it.

“Let everything happen to youBeauty and terrorJust keep goingNo feeling is final”

SUMMER

Now you probably would be feeling overwhelmed, with college starting soon and everything changing, i think now would be the time to get excited. Find out about extra curricular activities on campus, find new music and make a playlist to listen to on the first day while moving in you new place, go on pinterest and find DIYs or things to decorate your room, make some art to hang on your walls and make it feel like home. Read about classes you would like to take, see if you can find a list of classes you need to take to get your degree. Watch move in vlogs, find college life channels, get exited about it. Some people would advise to not think about life in college at this point, because you’d feel anxious, but i think you should think about it as much as possible, at first its going to feel weird, stressful and upsetting, but you have to push past this. Try imagening the good things that will happen to you when you’re in college. Sure, you’ll miss you family, your house, your hometown, but a lot of great things will happen there too. When we face change, we usually think things are going to be worse than what we have now, but there’s a great possibility of things being so much better.If everything else fails, turn to College related films and shows. Rory Gilmore’s first day at college, Elle Woods getting into harvard, Beca singing in Barden Bellas. Or, maybe find a great movie, or book that you haven’t read yet and swear you’ll only watch or read it in college, to make you look forward to it.

THE WEEK BEFORE

Make sure you have sorted out all the paperwork you’ll need, if you’re in doubt about wether you’ll need something, bring it anyway. Put it all together. Start to narrow down the classes you’d like to take, you don’t have to be absolutely sure about it, it’s just a way to learn what you like and what you don’t. Also, star to analyze that list of classes you have to take to graduate, see if you can find a list of suggested classes in your college website, it’ll make choosing your classes much easier. Try and take those lists with you on enrollment day.

ENROLLMENT DAY

College looks so intimidating, everyone looks like they have it all figured out, all of the other freshmen look so sure of what they’re doing, it feels like you’re the only anxious one. You’re not. I bet that at least 98% of them are just as clueless about this new life as you are. And that’s okay, we’re not born knowing everything, and no one is expecting you to know everything, mostly because most people are also trying to figure things out. So keep that in mind and take a few breaths in when you feel overwhelmed. This is a good moment, try to enjoy it. You can try an acting exercise, if you want, pretending you are the most confident, self-assured, completely bold person you know, and see how that feels.

Also, some colleges might have their freshmen do a little test, so don’t be fightened by it, it’s just a way to see where you’re at at certain subjects, so they can point you to the right class. If you’re worried about it, call your college adm and ask if you should prepare for something like that. Dress comfortably because it’s probably going to be a long day, but look good, because feeling confident great and because you might have to take a picture for your student ID.

Get everything you absolutely HAVE to do DONE, so you can continue on with your day much more relax and without that fear of forgetting to do something. Go after all the information you think you might need or like to know. Bring a notepad and a pen to write down if needed.

And last of all, just know that it’s going to be okay. Things might not go perfect, but its going to be okay. In a few years you’ll look back on this and realize that most things you were stressed or anxious about were not so big of deals.

♥ some of this tips are from DaceyCouture’s video. She has a really nice CollegeCouture series, if you want to check it out

P.S.: My askbox & messages are always open if you need some advice

#ask mine #college #feeling overwhelmed #calm down #college tips #advice #college advice

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foreverwaytoosadtilltheend-blog · 4 years

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The mornings where you cry and I cry are the hardest. I love you so much still that my heart breaks every morning regardless of how hard I hold on to where we get every night.

I regret not being open like I am right now our whole relationship. I regret every bout of unfair anger, sadness, and frustration. I look back and see how much you really loved me. How much you cared for me. How much you put up with me. It breaks me apart knowing that you loved fiercely and unwaveringly for almost the whole relationship. I don’t hold anything against you anymore, I really have found and made my peace with the problems we did have. You are truly the most caring, incredible, selfless person I’ll ever get to call mine. There will be no replacement for the love you gave me. It was the things the stars are made of.

I remember watching Disney movies with you in the beginning of our relationship. Laying in bed sometimes talking, but mostly kissing and smiling with each other. I remember the time camm and I went to a show in Calgary and xxx’s friends pissed you off and I raced home because I knew you were upset and I never wanted you to be upset alone. I remember the shitty random room mates and how often we would talk about how fucking stupid and weird they were. I remember how soft your hand felt the first time it fell into mine, the calm, the first time of feeling totally relaxed after being restless for so long. I remember how much you loved the fireplace and how we would sit by it and drink coffee and have bongs in the morning. I remember moving to Calgary. The mountain adventures that we went on every weekend. I remember you getting pregnant and me failing you in every way but financially. I remember the sadness I felt in the bed every night and couldn’t do anything about it because of how messed up I was. I remember the day Jacob was born and how I wasn’t there until almost the whole time for him to come and how absolutely shitty I felt being stuck where I was. I remember how upset and restless both you and Tucker were with the mice. I remember deciding we had to get out of there the day the water came through the roof and how badly I felt I failed at giving you a decent place to live through everything you had went through. I think about moving to the place in saddle ridge and even though not all of that was the best times, I had the chance to live with the love of my life, my best friend I’ve ever had, and our dog. When it was just me and you I really cherished every day wether I was somewhere else in the house or not. The cute derpy kisses i would come give you in bed before you woke up that you’d always smile even if you were asleep. How cute you were every morning when you did wake up and how incredibly beautiful you were after a good rest on the weekend even when you didn’t believe me when I said it. I go back to bringing xxx back and thinking it was a good move for me and us at the time and how it’s done more of solidifying that out of everyone in my world, you are my best friend. I can’t talk to other people like I talk to you about things. My words tie up and get stuck and I just get frustrated.

I don’t want to go into the bad times, the tough times, the hard times. I’ve gone through all of the negative I thought that you might have brought to me when I thought you made mistakes. I was unfair and didn’t take into consideration that you were growing and evolving. You were figuring yourself out and going through your own hard times doing so and even harder times with me not being open and emotionally fully connected to you.

I know at times in our relationship you’ve cried in the bathroom, or our bedroom alone because you didn’t know how I would react to your feelings or didn’t know how I was doing that day so you kept to yourself. I understand that you’ve had to walk alone and carry yourself, and that I wasn’t there when you needed me and it may be part of why your heart begun to drift away. I hate myself for every time you felt alone in this relationship and it’s something I will carry with me for the rest of my life long after I find a way to forgive myself for it. You are so strong, so precious, and delicate at the same time and those are some of the reasons I first fell in love with you. It rips me apart that I didn’t tend to each of those things every day that I spent with you because you did deserve it. I miss kissing you, and hearing that you love me the most though. The last times I actually really kissed you last week I tried to really, really kiss you. Because I knew they might be the last time I ever get that feeling. I miss hearing you say you love me multiple times a day. Even though I know to some extent, just not the same extent, you do. I still long to kiss you most of my days right now, and I know I need to separate from that, but I’m stealing every one of them you’ll let me have, until you tell me to stop. Your hand when it grabs mine still puts the wind in my sails. The times I still get an “I love you” from you still and always will put all the restlessness I feel to the back of my heart and soul even if only for the duration of the words.

I know because of how I’ve acted in the past that it doesn’t always feel mutual on how strongly I believe you are probably my only true friend, and best friend. But you have been since day one. You always cared, you always listened, you always heard me out. I’m going into this unknown part of my life dragging dead weight while my biggest team mate is going off on her own. I respect you for choosing to show yourself these things you need to, I am so proud of you for holding strong. I will always, always wish that I had the chance to change and that your heart hadn’t gone too far before I got to a point where I am some of the time right now when we can talk about everything without outbursts or my being snarky to you. You are everything to me. You always will be. I just hope I get the chance to steal a few more kisses before you’re gone, stare into your eyes and hear you say you love me a few more times, and have your hand meet mine a few more times so that I can cherish them, remember them, and take them with me as I go on without my partner, my best friend, the person who gets me the most, and the person who loved me more than I’ve ever been loved in my life.

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the-sargerei · 5 years

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Childhood

We grew up eventually. I had a few years on Rhalyf but his human side made up for that quick. Rhalyf would eventually apply for apprenticeship as a Bladesinger but when no word returned he feared the worst. Wether it be from his half human blood or the fact he was no Evermeet citizen he took the news hard. He was at the top of our class, only riveled by me, so whatever the reason he was sure it was something due to that.

I with met him the day before he left. He had been crying, one of the few times I've seen him ever do that. Being a Bladesinger was all he ever wanted. Powerful guardians. Champions of elven kind. Adventuring was in his blood. And that's why he had to leave. A college had accepted him when Evermeet and her master's did not. My memory is so vivid of that night. We were in his room for hours, from set to rise. Perhaps my mind knew already the long length of time we would have to endure before seeing each other again and so it captured every detail it could. We sat in his room, near the open window. It was summer and the wind stayed warm many hours after the sun had left. He had candles burning, a mix of fresh pine lumber and lemon, something he always burned when worried or stressed. We talked but also enjoyed comfortable silence.

His time to go came. The sun had it's first light over the city and Rhalyf was adamant about leaving without other people's knowing, wanting to avoid the fuss of good byes.

I hugged my friend again before letting him go down his path but not before he asked one last question.

"Vox, why don't you want to go?"

Adulthood

But why would I leave? Where would I go? What place could I go to that was better than here? Perhaps I was too bought in on the idea that our elven differences were so firm, at least that's what others thought of me. What can I say? I am a full blooded sun elf. A lot is expected of me wether they admit or not. Time out "adventuring" could be time spent on bettering myself and I must be the best me.

Cooking was an interesting venture for me but was short lived as I don’t eat much. I tried my hand at my parents' own vocation but rarely did they require my help. Most hours with them had me idle and anxious to be else where, doing something different. Tutoring promising start. I was with a youngling named Ceara. Access to an apprentice came in handy and I was most pleased to influence her and give guidance. She had fallen behind in school due to what her parents thought was a poor immune system. It turned out to be more than that. She would fall ill randomly and after enough encounters with our family physician we took it into our own hands. I admired how willing and brave she was. It took some trial and error, something that wasn’t easy on either of us. Eventually, over the course of months, we discovered that Ceara had an sensitivity to the weave of magic that was omnipresence. When the threads suddenly changed course and caused a peak or valley Ceara would experience something akin to vertigo. After that we found prescriptions useful to her and mindful meditation aided Ceara’s mental strength to withstand the occasional shifts. It wasn’t long after that she was caught up with her classmates and no longer required my tutelage.

That lasted for a little over a year and maybe it was for the best. Teaching wouldn’t be my calling. Maybe in a century or two later would I consider but not now.

It would have been such a surprise for Rhalyf had he not surprised me first.

The Silver Hymn

It was interesting work to say the least! Within a month we had grown from two, to six. Actually it was seven but it was hard to consider the guild’s benefactor as a member. Rhalyf and myself were looked to as the founders. Darcan and Jhaan were the first to join, classmates that had also stayed with in the city. They were revered well but were having trouble finding work without dedication to a mage college. After we had Eleyon join, a half moon elf who out grew her peers in the class room and was eager to start their adulthood. She was the youngest but carried her weight just as much. We weren’t sure if the guild needed any more until a wood elf of the name Kel joined. He was older and had experience far outside the city that both Rhalyf and I knew we couldn’t pass up on.

It took some time for any honest progress. Eleyon felt like we were shooting an arrow with out a target. She didn’t like the ambiguity of what we were looking for. It was actually Ceara that gave us our first step in a new direction. I had the sudden impulse of checking in on her, seeing what improvements she had made. I told her what I could of what we were doing. Until then we had just been cataloguing events of Bladesingers but they had been kept factual, likely to keep the art form a secret. Ceara asked why if we were looking for something like the Bladesingers. From there Eleyon suggested we look into folk lore, specially since Kel always said stories like those always had some truth to them.

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ducky-chan · 6 years

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Just saving this here just in case...

Hmm... How do I start this story, Let's start with this ? I'm running in this field because this isn't my place... and by that I mean this isn't my home I don't live here I have no connections to anything here. That's why I'm running, a loner can't hang around in someone else's territory... and by that I mean wolves. Yes I'm a werewolf and no I'm not a spacial wolf in any way, but I still manage to get people... wolves chasing me, I don't know if it's being a rouge or I'm just a bitch but its always how it ends up. Thinking about it ... it usually happens when I feel comfortable with the ppl I'm around , they suddenly turn on me or just abandon me with no warning ... but it's not like I don't get it, I'm a difficult person to be with in any way wether it's friends, family, lovers they all push me away. Now don't think this is a " aw poor me everyone is so mean to me for no reason " type of thing... I think they just don't want me around when they finally realize I'm no good. Hell even I get tired of me! My wolf does too she'll just stop talking to me even tho we are supposed to love each other no matter what we all have our tolerance and no matter who they are they all have a low threshold for me. So that is why I'm alone here running .... eh more like trotting I'm not in that big of a hurry. The pack that claims this land doesn't know I'm here, or at least they haven't confronted me about being here yet. They might have realized that I'm just passing thru and don't feel the need to warn me or threaten me to leave... or they just plan on killing me before the boarder, it wouldn't be the first time. ... So you may be wondering why I'm a loner tho, my parents left me when I was young and I had to fend for myself since then. They couldn't take care of me and their problems, so to the woods I went. I spent like a year or two only in wolf form other than sleeping and lazing around but I knew what to do to stay alive, I had been with friends while their parents taught them how to hunt and track and things of the wolfs survival needs. I'm thankful that they realized my parents were incompetent and they showed me as they showed their own kids... I miss feeling that feeling... The feeling of a family... but even that leaves. Oh yeah, you may be wondering why I'm in my human form and not my wolf form. Since this area is a well known hiking area it just made more since to do this in human form than in wolf. Oh, finally the boarder woods! I didn't think that they would be back this damn far into the country side. I guess I see why ppl come hiking here tho it's nice and quiet, perfect for thinking about all your life decisions and regret them at a nice slow pace. Like me right now, I regret doing this in my human form. I should've figured that they would be this far back cuz like 5miles ago there was a fence that said ' NO TRESPASSING ' and 'PRIVATE PROPERTY ' I just hurdled it with out thinking about it. I know it was a dumb idea and an even dumber idea to not read all the signs and doing this during the day I could be found so easily and killed ... hell this could be where the pack houses land is! I'm half way into these damn woods and I didn't even scope the area out! I didn't even bother to see when and where they do patrols !? Doing things like this might be why I get ganked from comfort * sigh * stopping and taking a minute to rest and think this plan over a lil more I decide that I have to continue and get out of this territory as fast as I can so I catch my breath and just start bolting as fast as I can forward. Being the dumbass I am I wasn't watching where I was going very well I just wanted to get out of this situation I so dumbly put myself into. The next thing I know I'm stumbling over a tree root at full speed and as I go to put my other foot down I feel the hard compacted dirt under toe and then a loud * SNAP! * rings out and I tumble to the ground hitting hard! And rolling/scootching forward If I was a bigger person my own weight would have knocked me unconscious as I smacked my head on the ground. As I focused again it hit me and it hit me hard like Dorothy hit that witch with her house. I shrieked in instant pain leaving my throat scratchy and hurting. I quickly push my face out of the dirt and look at my ankle just flipping over to look at it caused me to whimper in pain. Wolf: " What just happened!?" Allorra: " Fuck! " I look at my ankle I seem to have picked up a new anklet a slightly rusty one at that. I start blubbering as I look closer at this trap eating my foot I can feel my consciousness starting to waver at the pain, I start trying to pull it back open but to no avail. As I fall onto my back head pounding heart pounding ankle pounding I can hear my wolf "We have to go! I'm sure anyone in the near 5 miles heard your scream and most definitely any wolf heard you! They will be coming and if a wolf finds you before a human we're dead! Now get up! " her voice was fading in and out I think I gave myself a concussion when I fell and the pain is just helping me pass out faster. I touch my forehead and the side of my face where I had hit it, I pull my hand off my head and blood is all other it. I can't keep my eyes open any longer and I pass out faintly hearing " No! Don't do it! Don't pass out! Get up! We-" As I open my eyes I don't see trees I see ... a ceiling? A white stippled ceiling, its kinda dark so it takes me a moment to fully come to. I hear the beeping of a heart monitor, it stinks like a hospital and it's making me nauseous. Putting my hand on my forehead I feel a bandage where I had fallen so gracefully onto my face, I quickly start trying to get up and feel a jolt run up my leg. I wince in pain with a " Tcchh" leaving my teeth I quickly cover my mouth with my hand so I don't alert anyone that I'm awake. But that didn't work when the pain spiked so did my heart rate and I guess they where keeping a close eye on it cuz about a minute later a nurse or doctor walled in. He said " well it looks like you're awake " I just watch them walk over to the monitors and check them, " How long have I been here?" I ask. They only reply with " a night " They look over and smile at me. I think to try to comfort me or something? He then stated" the doctor should be in to talk to you momentarily " walking out checking his chart for a different person, I shift to a more sitting then laying position cuz it's always just weird when someone can just loom over you. As I set in my bed waiting for the doctor I remove my blanket and look at my ankle it's wrapped up so I'm just looking at the wrapping like it's going to talk to me. The doctor walks in and watches me stair at my ankle for a moment then she clears her throat , I'm guessing to get my attention. She walks over and moves a chair next to my bed side and sits down. " So what's your name " she asks, I look at her a moment watching her, her hair move as she breathes and her eyes never falter. I reply" Nikki " it's not my real name but as far as she knows it is. " age? " she asks " 17, but I'll be 18 by the end of the month " I didn't need to lie about that so I didn't. " Your ankle should be fine in the next few days it's just bruised. You're lucky that Alpha was in the area when you got trapped it could've been much worse. He said he heard you from the pack house even, and that's quite a ways away from where you got caught. " When she said Alpha I could feel my wolf get agitated as my eyes widen, pulse quicken and I just stare at her... for much longer than either of us was comfortable with. " Alpha? " I say trying to see if she slipped up, since I've been masking my sent the entire time I've been in these wolves territory I didn't think they could tell I was one. " Your head healed faster than what a human could so wolf was a safe bet " She says. As we continue to just stare at one another I see a man walk in out of the corner of my eye, I turn to look at him. " I see our patient is awake " The man says In a joking manner, the doctor stands and walks over to him " Welcome Alpha, I'll leave so the two of you may talk " She says walking out of the room. " Thanks Doc. " He says, as he walks over to the chair next to me I watch him without a word. He sits down crossing one leg over the other and putting his knuckles on his temple and wresting his elbow on the arm of the chair. " So why were you in my territory? " He asks blandly. " I am just passing thru the area on my way to the next state over " I state in a bland way lightly making fun of him. He chuckles at my mimicry and relaxes into his seat a lil more, " alright, why were you seemingly heading toward my pack house then? " Still in a casual tone he asks. " I didn't realize till I had reached the woods that it could be the way to the house and before I could stop to turn around ... well you know what happened...Why did you bring me here instead of just killing me? " I ask . He just looks at me with surprise and wide eyes, I swivel in my body with my feet now dangling off the bed. He just watches me as I stretch out my body and wince from the sore muscles I have, lucky me they kept me in my clothes. He adjusted in his seat shaking off the shock he felt no doubt. " Well since you won't need to stay here you can come stay at my house till you can leave if you want that is " he says while leaning forward to stand up. "Eh!?" Comes out of my mouth when he says that I just stare at him baffled at his words, We set there for a minute as I think about it and talk with Fera my wolf. Me " What do you think ?" Fera " I don't know I can't read him, he did bring us here so we wouldn't die... " Me " So for now I guess we can trust him and it's not like we won't be healed in a day or two " Fera " Alright let's try it out but if anything goes sideways we are leaving healed or not" Me " no shit Sherlock ." After we talked it out I look at Alpha ... wait I don't know his name yet, " What's your name? " I ask " John Motter , but you can call me what ever you like " John replies. " Anything?" With a smirk on my face " Ok no not anything it has to be appropriate " he states " Alright I'll just call you Alpha John for now " I say as I get off the bed. " Should you be up walking around?" He looks at me in a worried way. " Yeah I'm fine to walk " I say as I grab my beanie and remove the bandage from my forehead throwing it into the trash and fixing my beanie onto my head. He nods and starts walking out of the room, I follow behind him waving bye to the doctor who looks at me in an unapproving way. He leads me outside it's night and still warm, summer nights are so nice, now that I'm outside I take a deep breath in smelling the sweat flowers in the air and the fresh cut grass. As I look up into the night sky I stare at the stars I can see in between the clouds, A whistle catches my attention Alpha John was holding his car door open for me. I walk over as fast as my ankle will let me and climb into the car. Ok I know what y'all are thinking Why are you getting into a strangers car!? Because I want to. It's quite the drive from the hospital to the pack house, we sit in the car while he tells the pack members to stay in their rooms for a lil while so I can get in with out being attacked by a pack member that doesn't know how to listen. We get out of the car and I'm real confident that none of them can smell me as I'm blocking my scent. Fera feels uncomfortable with this but doesn't say anything to me knowing that I'll do as I please, The house is pretty big you can tell it's a pack house. The smell of dog is emanating from the house. " Come on in everyone's in there rooms so you have no need to worry about them" Alpha John says as he reaches his hand out to help me up the steps. " Hmm? Oh Fera is nervous not me " I say as I grab his hand. He lets out a chuckle and guides me up the steps and opens the front door, the inside of the house is way fancy like? Who lives like this!? It makes me nervous just walking into the house. " So you're nervous now? " He says with a chuckle letting my hand go. " Only because everything is so expensive " I say meekly I hear the foot steps of someone walking up to us from the hall on the left, as they walk into the light a beautiful woman is walking over to Alpha John her raven hair shining in the light of the entry way, she kisses him asking " Why were you gone for so long? " He chuckles and hugs her waist, " I had to make sure everything was going ok with this pup and while I waited for her to wake up I was chatting with the Doctor " She turns to me and her eyes are a golden brown they give off the feeling of a warm fresh baked cookie, she lightly smiles at me. " Welcome to our home, may I ask what your name is? " " I believe she told the Doc it was Nikki wright ? " He says looking at me to confirm. " Actually I just said that so she'd go away faster... sorry " I say looking around and putting my hand on the back of the head. " Well that's fine, my name is Alice and I'm the Luna of this pack would you like to tell us your name? " she asks with no pressure behind her words. " Oh well hello Alice, my name is Allorra thank you for welcoming me into your home and I'm sorry for the inconvenience. " I say as I kinda bow to them. " I'll show you to your room so you can get some rest " Alpha John says as he starts walking down the hall on the right. " Good night little wolf sleep well, I'll come and get you in the morning for breakfast " she says with a wave and walks the way she came. We walk to the end of the hall and he opens a door and walks in turning the lights on in the room and he says " this will be your room for the time being, I hope it's ok " I am in aw of the room even their guest rooms are super nice! I don't say anything I just start touching everything in the room that I've never seen before, picking up books and vases and touching the lamp shades wondering into the small bathroom in the back of the room touching the curtains and smelling the shampoo and conditioner. I see myself in the mirror and I'm startled at how gross I look, dirty and oily from not having a bath in so long and dark circles under my eyes from the lack of sleep I sigh and walk back into the bedroom. " So do you like it? " He asks with a tender fatherly expression. " Oh! Most definitely! I've never been in a room so amazing before! " I say excitedly " I'm glad you like it, well some clothes are in the dresser so I'll leave you to it, Good night Allorra " He says closing the door as he leaves. The first thing I do is hobble into the bathroom as fast as I can and start the hot water a nice hot shower to wash all the grime away then a nice bath to calm my nerves and help me sleep. Fera purrs as I sink into the hot bath water after my shower, yes I showered then soaked in the bath I didn't want all that filth just floating around in my bath water making me feel just as dirty as before the bath. She purrs as my muscles relax into the hot water, I look at my pink scrubbed skin and I start rubbing the sore spots of muscle that are bruised from ether the hard ground I hit or those ass hats that beat me up. That's why I'm glad I still had my running clothes on, I had scars and bruises I didn't need anyone seeing. Yes I'm a wolf and I have scars when I was younger and I was to weak to heal with my wolf healing I wound up healing with just my regular human healing ability and well they don't heal to fast so that's the scars. I have many over my body and none I want to explain to anyone. I start to feel tired so I pull the plug on the bath and slowly get out setting on the rim of the tub so I don't hurt my ankle getting out cuz with my luck I would find a way to do it. I grab the plush towel and wrap myself in it and walk over to the sink and wipe the steam that had settled on the mirror away and look to make sure I didn't miss any dirt, I grab the lotion and start putting it on my now glowing hydrated skin. After that I brushed my hair and found a blow drier and dried it still wrapped in my towel I walk into my room and find some pjs that cover most of me so no one sees the scars and stuff. As I lay down I can hear ppl in the living room, I can't hear what they're saying but I can smell them... well the ones that aren't masking themselves. I just slide under the covers more until just the top of my head is sticking out of the blankets, sleeping all thru the night for the first time in a long time. I don't know why I feel so safe here but I'm leaving tomorrow so it's not that big of a deal. I wake up in the morning to my room still dimly lit it looks like someone came in and closed the curtains so the sun wouldn't bother me, I look at the clock on the wall it says it's (8: 36 am) ... why am I awake? Fera is still asleep so I'll let her rest longer she deserves it. I slowly get out of bed and open the curtains to let the light in, I don't hear anything out in the house so I think everyone's still asleep. I look the the book shelf stocked full of books, I'm way to excited to read these books but it feels like it's been years since I've touched a book, I go over to the books and pick the first one that my eyes are drawn to. I place the book on the bed and go into the bathroom to brush my teeth and as I'm doing that I notice my hair is jacked up. Like I need a hair cut a.s.a.p. After I'm done with my teeth I look around and find some scissors, I brush my hair out. I usually have someone else do this like a friend or something but that's here nor there. A maid walks in she looks surprised to see me up and with scissors. " Ah! What are you doing!? " she raises her voice just a lil as to not wake anyone else. " Oh I was just cutting my hair or at least thinking about it. " I say putting the scissors on the sink top. " Oh ok well let me do it since I'm here I've cut most of the packs hair for years " she suggests " Um yeah that would be cool " I say with inflection in my voice. " My name is Margaret by the way" she says " Well hello Margaret I'm Allorra it's nice to meet you " I say cheerfully I grab a chair and hand Margaret the scissors and tell her how I want it, she opens the window to let the fresh summer breeze in, it's still kinda cold out but the smell of the dew on the grass is so relaxing. I take a deep breath in and out relaxing my body more, she starts cutting my hair starting with my bangs that was quick and easy, she grabs the drier and blows the severed pieces to the floor to sweep up later. She asks me to look down and gathers my hair behind me and starts cutting a little at a time as she's doing that I breath the fresh breeze in and out calming myself more with every breath. She finishes my hair and starts brushing it out to make sure she didn't miss any small chunks, using the drier one more time to get all cut hairs off of me she says " Alright I'm done why don't you go look at it and make sure I did it the way you wanted" I quickly stand and look in the mirror that is on the back of the dresser, a huge smile plastered on my face seeing my new haircut. " Ah! I love it! " I lightly yell keeping my voice down so I don't wake ppl up. " I'm glad I could help you, do you need anything else dear? " she asks happily. " Um maybe a drink and a snack? I haven't had ether in a few days" I say regretting it as it leaves my mouth knowing she's gonna tell Alpha John. " Oh! most definitely I'll be back in a moment " she says with a turn on her heals and a dash out into the hallway. I wait a few minutes and hear her footsteps walking quickly down the hall, she enters the room with a big smile of her face and places the tray on the end of the bed and taking the drink and putting it on the nightstand so it doesn't spill. " I've made you a fruit salad something easy on your stomach since you haven't eaten in a few days, I'll leave you to eat but if you need me you can just call for me " she says gleefully as she waves and closes the door behind her. I look down at my feet, she forgot to sweep up the hair, I'll just do it then I'm sure she has many things to worry about. I look in the closet and find a small dust pan and hand broom, I sweep the hair up and thro it out the window letting the breeze take it. I put them down on the window sill and set on my bed grabbing the book I had set down to read before, I start reading said book. The contents are about the science of flower biology and it's so fascinating to read! Who would have thought that flowers were so complicated. I had devoured the fruit I was given and I had moved from my bed to the window sill soaking up the sun, mainly for my hair soaking up the light to keep its strawberry blond color. I pause from reading and listen to the house it's now (10:20am) and it sounds like more ppl are waking up and walking thru the house. I find some paper and rip a corner to hold my place in the book I hope I can finish it before I leave tonight. I look out of my door cautiously so I don't notify anyone in the hall that I'm awake. I start hearing idol chit chat from down the hall I can only assume it's from the kitchen, I close the door back and grab my book and sit back down on my bed and as I read I start to fall asleep and I give in and put my book mark in my book and drift back to my dreams. Alpha John " we should probably wake our guest up soon it's not good to sleep all day" " She's been awake since (8:30) Alpha " Margaret says while cutting some food for breakfast. Alpha John " Oh really? That's good, what was she doing?" Margaret " she was about to cut her own hair when I walked in to check on her but I said it would be better if I did it and she let me, I'm glad she did then she asked for some food since she hadn't eaten in a few days " saying so looking at Alpha John with a worried face. " Hm well she did ask at least and that's a very good sign she's not thinking we are gonna mess with her food. " He says reassuring the maid. "I'll go check on her just to make sure she finished the food and is ok" Saying as he walks in the direction of her room. Knocking on the door he opens it when he doesn't hear a reply to his knock, he sees the young girl asleep on top of her blankets with an empty bowl and a book with the book mark indicating she's almost done with it under her hand. He doesn't want to wake her up so he just watches this girl that he feels oddly positive of not in a romantic way but a fatherly way, something about this girl made him feel like she was his child and that he loved her from the start. Deep in thought he realizes she's shifting and wakes up while he just watches her look at her book and sits up then stretches. She finally notices him. I wake up from my nap (11:35am)and as I'm stretching I notice Alpha John is watching me, " Oh! Um hey y'all are finally up I see " I say with a brow raised looking at him. " I'm sorry I startled you, I just came to check on you cuz Margaret said you were awake already " He says with a worried smile. " nah it's fine I get it I'm a stray in your house you just wanna protect what's yours " I say with a shrug as I get out of bed. " would you like to come and meet some of the pack? " He asks with hope in his voice. " Yeah sure, cross your fingers they don't kill me " I say jokingly with a chuckle as I pass him in the door way. Taking a few steps into the hall and stopping to wait for him to exit the room, I'm guessing he was stunned by my comment and was telling everyone to be nice or something. He finally walks out of the room with a smile on his face and walks passed me waving me to follow, I can smell wolves masking their sent so they don't make me feel threatened. As we get closer to the dining room the smell of breakfast wafts into the air making me feel so much more hungry than I thought I was. Alpha John walks in first and everyone continues talking, as I walk in everyone looks at me, making me feel nervous enough to wake Fera up in full alert mode ready to protect me with her life. " Wow, this is awkward " I say while looking at all the wolves. " Maybe for the next stray you pick up and bring home, you tell them how many wolves are gonna be staring at them when everyone meats? Just a thought " I say as I stand at the end of the dining room floor tile. " Ah, you are very right" Alpha John says " Yes I am " I say surely cutting his comment in half. A minute goes by everyone is kinda stiff in their seats not making any moves other than breathing and small glances at me. " Is this the house of wax or is everyone in the middle of a stroke or something? " I say chuckling as I walk to an empty seat next to Alpha John. They all see Alpha John laugh at my joke and relax and start talking and laughing like before. Of course as I'm talking to Alpha John I see ppl glancing over to me and whispering, Alpha John noticed I wasn't really paying him any mind anymore and places his hand over mine on my arm wrest. I look back at him and he just warmly smiles, telling me not to worry. I lean in towards him " I'm always worried, that's how I stay alive. " staring him in the eyes for a moment then leaning back into place and squeezing his hand in a reassuring way, telling him I'm not worried or scared of him and his pack. Soon the food is brought out and everyone is in a big hoopla, I just laugh at their enthusiasm and wait for everyone to get the food they want. The huge morning feast is super good, I engulf two stacks of pancakes and waffles along with more fruit and a couple of pieces of bacon and sausage with a small amount of eggs. After eating everyone remains in their seats as Margaret and a few other maid I haven't been introduced to yet clean off the table. I stand up and start helping them as the amount of plates is crazy huge, everyone looks surprised at how many plates I haul into the kitchen. When I returned to the dining room they all were looking at me putting Fera on alert again, I glance over at Alpha John with my brow raised indicating that I was confused about the situation. Understanding what I mean with the facial expression he answers my question. " They haven't seen anyone help the maids without being asked and they haven't seen someone load so many plates with no damage at all." He says in a matter of fact kind of way. " Have they never been to a restaurant before? " I say with a sprinkling of sarcastic tone. He laughs and replies " They have but usually the workers only handle a few plates at a time so if they drop them half of the plates aren't broken " " Oh ... ok? " not knowing how to reply to that exactly I shrug it off and start to walk away. " Where are you going ? " Alph John questions " To my room to change, I'm not gonna wear my pjs all day " I say as I'm turning the corner and continuing down the hall to my room. Hearing everyone a buzz with comments surly about me. A few minutes later I ask Margaret to wash all my clothes and she happily agrees taking all my dirty laundry, I look thru the dresser for something to wear finding some sweatpants and a shirt to big for me and an A-shirt or " wife beater " type shirt as some call them, the pants and A-shirt fit perfectly but as expected the other t-shirt is big on me causing the collar of the shirt to slide down a portion of my shoulder when I'm just walking around I might remove it later but it's none of my concern right now I just want to go outside and do my gymnastics stretches just test my ankle to make sure I can run and jump around on it plus I was asleep for like an entire day my body is wrestles I need to move around outside in the perfect summer weather. I grab my iPod so I can listen to music while I'm out in the yard, yes I have one, when a gutter kid gives you free merchandise you take it no questions asked. I make sure that it's charged and hit the 'shuffle ' button for my playlist. I decide it'll be easier to leave via the open window, no need to sneak around people that'll ask questions or tell Alpha John I walked out, I stick my head out the window first to make sure I'm not jumping out my window right into a wolf on patrol. Looking carefully around the yard and seeing no one, I climb out the window planting my feet into the flower bed getting lightly stabbed by wood chips, as my head comes out of the window I fall forward a little bit, I make sure to not hit the flowers as I catch myself with my hands making an arch over the Dahlias I'm sure I'd get yelled at if I hurt them. I quickly stand up and move my ankle around and ask Fera what she thinks. " You should be perfectly fine by now you slept all night and that lets me wrest and gets our healing abilities replenished " " Alright if you think I'm completely healed I don't need to hold back do I ? " I ask " Yes , you are perfectly fine to do the stretching you want " she says as she herself stretches out, I'm guessing she wants to run by her eager behavior. I start my music and wait for it to begin before doing my warm up stretches, but as I'm bending over to put my palms on the ground stretching out my legs and lower back the bigger shirt slides up ... well down and the only reason it's staying on is the collar getting caught on my chin as it slid off of me. I quickly thro the shirt to the side and continue with my stretching, after the first stretch I did some basic gymnastics stretches. After I'm done with those I start to move into the splits easily done, I then stand up and go into a back bend, then pulling my legs forward into a point on the ground in front of me moving them into a headstand position straight into the air and moving into the splits over my head. Putting my legs back into a point and placing my feet back on the ground I stand up and do a standing split just to stretch out my legs more, I'm doing all of these slowly to make sure my ankle is fine. I can tell my ankle is 100% now and start doing more than the stretches making sure I'm not losing my flexibility, I do that for about half an hour (12:05pm) before I need a drink. I turn off my music and grab the shirt on the ground thinking of putting it back on when I get inside. I climb back in thru my window fanning myself as I'm hot, a man about my age comes barging into my room no knock or nothing! " Excuse you! " I yell at him grabbing the hand broom from the sill and flinging it at him, hitting him directly in the face with it. " Ouch! I'm sorry! I was told to find you as you couldn't be found so I didn't think you were in here. " He explains. "Well maybe knock for good measure next time idiot! What if I was naked!? " I yell at him. Scratching the back of his head embarrassment crossing his face " I really am sorry I'll make sure to knock next time for sure. " " Oh yeah Alpha is looking for you" Saying this while facing the door. " alright, where is he? " I say still annoyed " I'll show you the way miss Allorra " He says while motioning out of the room face still red. I nod grabbing my t-shirt as I put it on I notice he's watching me do so, I decide to tease him a little by pushing my chest out and pulling the shirt down tightly so the bottom of the shirt wrinkles and catches on the top of my boobs making them more obvious. I watch him practically salivating over watching me then I quickly pull the shirt down to where it should be and just walk out past him. Now I'm not a chesty girl but I'm not flat so if he acts like that with my body type he must be the thirstiest pup I've ever met, He quickly runs to catch up to show me the way to Alpha John. Taking me up stair I can definitely tell he needs a cold shower, he opens the door to Johns office but doesn't go in knowing he'd be asked about the situation, he leaves when I walk in the room. Alpha John looks over at just me standing in the room and looks confused asking " Where is Bobby? " I giggle " He got an eye full so now he has to go take a cold shower " Alpha John looks confused at what I mean, I take a seat on the couch in the room and look out the window as he finishes the work he was doing when I walked in. He puts his papers away and walks over to a chair across from me sitting down and rubbing him temples. " Where did you go earlier? " He asks " I was just out in the yard making sure my ankle was good to go for tonight, then I let Fera go for a run around the perimeter of the garden. Why? " I ask picking up a candle from the coffee table and smelling it. " What do you mean by making sure your ankles ok for tonight?" He asks with an expression I cant describe like he's confused and super confused. I look at him tilting my head to the side wearing a confused look myself " I don't know what you mean or why you're confused " We stare at each other for a minute, that's when Luna Alice walks in. " Am I interrupting ? " she asks taking a few steps toward us. " Yes, but I think it's good that you are " Alpha John says leaning back in his seat placing his hand on his forehead. " I'm always glad to help dear, what can do for you? " she asks walking over to him placing a kiss on his cheek and sitting down next to him crossing a leg over the other. " So what seams to be the problem? She says this like a pro. I look at her squinting my eyes with suspicion " How very therapist of you " " Well I am one so I hope I sound like one " she says with a smile. We all set in silence for a few minutes, I decided to start this conversation because it'll be over faster that way. I let out an exasperated sigh throwing my head back onto the cushion of the couch behind me. " Your husband seems to have forgotten that I'm a lone wolf and was thinking I would be staying here for a long while. " I say in a slouched position with a huff. " It's not that I forgot you wanted to leave I was just hoping you'd want to stay for some time " He says with a somewhat sad look on his face. " That doesn't make sense dude! You know I was only here to pass thru and might I mention that I've only been here long enough to sleep all night " I say quickly sitting forward placing my elbows on my knees. " Yes but you like it here don't you? Why leave unless you have to? " He says while Luna Alice nods and watches us. " Who says I don't have to! " I say with an abrasive tone. " You need to calm down he's an Alpha he can kill us if he so pleases " Fera speaking up out of concern and as my voice of reason. Without thinking I answer her out loud " Yes I know he's an Alpha but has the threat of death ever stopped me? " I say looking out of the corner of my eye towards her voice. " Well no, but I have stopped you from making countless mistakes that could cause more pain to us then is needed correct? " she says sitting in a dignified pose. " Yes, that statement is correct but they don't seem the torture type... but I guess the ones that seem least likely to do it are usually the worst of them " I say placing my hand on my jaw line still looking off towards the window into the woods. As I talk to Fera I forget that Alpha John and Luna Alice are in the room still, I'm so used to being alone I can easily talk to my wolf out loud and not realize I'm doing so as it is the only time I get to talk with my voice for long periods of time. I often get weird looks when I'm in public and I talk with her. She's all I got. " Then if I'm correct why are you arguing with me? " she asks tilting her head. " Because I like arguing, you of all people should know that, and why are you arguing with me!? You know we have to leave! I won't drag them into our mess." I say looking at the window annoyed. " Then tell them why we are leaving so he doesn't look so sad about our departure, and maybe he'll help us " she states. " I don't want to tell them why we have to leave, and he isn't sad that we are leaving he doesn't even know us. " I say rolling my eyes. " You should tell them just incase they somehow track you here it would be more problematic to not mention it, and it would be rude. " she says giving me a little attitude. " Ugh! " I replied " Plus! I like it here it's nice and calm and it feels good being around these wolves " she says with an annoyed tone. " You don't even know these wolves how can you like them!? " I say face palming. " The ones I've smelled I like! So we're staying! " she says snapping her head to the side in a defiant way. " Uuuuuuuuuuuugh! Why are you such a brat today!? " I say as she walks away from me. I turn my head to see Alpha John and Luna Alice staring at me in a weird way, I just look them up and down with a brow raised. " What ? " I ask " You know you were talking out loud right? " Alice asks " ... nope. " I say with a flat expression. " So what were you and Her arguing about exactly? " Alpha John asks hesitantly. " Hmm? Oh if we should stay and if I should tell you why I was even coming thru here in the first place. " I say feeling tired. " What did you decide? " He asks I let out a sigh " She says we're staying only for now tho, but I'll inform you when the information is needed on why we were passing thru " " Oh! That's grate " He smiles " You'll get to meet the wrest of the pack members that live in the house " " I haven't even met the ones that are here now, I only know y'all and Margaret and I guess I know that pervs name is Bobby " I say wresting my chin in my palm. " Well then let me introduce you to everyone, we should let him get back to work " Alice says with a smile " Um... who am I to say no to a Luna " I say watching her stand and giving Alpha John a kiss. I stand up as she walks to the door, waving bye to Alpha John I follow Alice out of the room. She laces her arm around mine at the elbow like we're going to prom or a formal diner party, we slowly walk down the stairs I'm feeling very insecure next to this woman that would easily be a model in magazines. As we reach the bottom I look forward instead of at her and see the wolves from breakfast with the exception of the ones that are probably on patrol. Alice walks over to the group, dragging me with her. " This is Allorra she will be staying with us for a little while so please treat her accordingly " She says with a small smile starting with the closest wolves she goes thru their names. " Jack, Molly, Danny, Dawn, Julie , Brandon, Nattily and Bobby plus the ones on patrol " she lets go of my arm " Now that you've met everyone here do you feel better? " " I didn't feel uneasy to begin with Luna Alice " I say " Dear you don't have to use Luna when you talk to me " she giggles " Oh sorry, never been in a pack so I don't know how they work status wise " I say looking at the others, they look confused, Alice looks sad and concerned for a moment but only a moment. Her face returning to the motherly smile she adorns regularly. " That's alright dear you'll learn as you get along with everyone, they'll show you how it's done. Now if you don't mind me I have work to do" she says with a wave as she walks away leaving me with the others. I look out the corner of my eye at them as we all watch Alice leave. I turn to Bobby " I see you fixed yourself " with a teasing tone to help them relax. Surprised by my comment he looks at me with well... surprise stuttering out " Huh!? Oh u-um yeah " he quickly looks around avoiding eye contact and blushing. Jack quickly grabbed Bobby's shoulder pulling him in, looking at me with a mischievous smile. " What do you mean? " Jack says raising his eyebrows and grinning. " Don't pay him any mind! " Molly says overly energetically while jumping at the chance to meet me up close. " Molly come on we'll have plenty of time to hang out with her we have to get back to work. " The older man named Danny says. " Yes sir " she says with a laugh and a wave and happily chases him further into the house. The others left after Alice did so only I , Jack and Bobby were left standing in the entrance, Jack pulling on Bobby's cheek while holding him in a head lock was trying to get the story behind the meaning of my words from earlier. I was in the mood to play so I decided to string this pup along. I stand watching them for a moment before Jack realizes I'm still there, He looks up to me and let's Bobby's cheek go. Bobby looking annoyed rubs his cheek from under Jacks arm. " So what did you mean by what you said earlier? " Jack asks, he must be the gossiping type. " I won't tell but I'm sure he'll remember to knock the next time " I say that in a teasing manner and turn on my heals and strut away seductively. Feeling their eyes on me as I disappear from their sight, I giggle when I know I'm out of ear shot. I walk back to my room and find Margaret folding my clothes and putting them in the dresser. I sit on the bed with a plop and lay back looking to the top of the bed for my book, seeing it I grab it and start reading again, when Margaret is done with the clothes I thank her. She looks pleased at getting praised for doing something most of the pups in this house probably forget to thank her for, before she walks out I ask if she could bring me a snack when she has the time. She tells me lunch will be made soon and eating now would spoil my appetite, I nod and tell her that I'm fine with waiting then and she leaves. I continue to read ' The Orchid Thief: A true story of beauty and Obsession ' it's a good read. But I soon feel eyes on me, I glance to my window and see a girl duck down below the sill. I believe her name is Dawn but I could be wrong, I go back to reading figuring she just wanted to see me up close but not talk to me...I sound like a new animal at the zoo. I don't see her again at my window and just roll onto my stomach and wait to be called for lunch. I'm awoken by knocking on my door, I groggily push my body up off the bed and turn over. I slide off my bed and open the door to Margaret. " Oh! I'm sorry did I wake you? " she asks surprised " Yeah but it's ok I shouldn't sleep in the middle of the day like this anyway it'll mess up what little sleep schedule I have " I say with a groggy laugh and stretch. " Alright, well lunch is done " she says with a smile gesturing her had toward the dining room. " Good I'm hungry " I say with a smile as I pass her. We get a few steps down the hall and suddenly a huge ruckus sounds from the entry way, Margaret grabs my arm and runs us back into my room closing the door quickly behind us. " Um? What was that about? " I ask " I'm sorry those are the members of the pack that we're out on a mission I did not think they would be back so soon, they don't know you are here so please give them a moment to process the fact that you are here Alpha well tell us when it's ok for you to come and meet them. I'm sorry for the inconvenience " she explains with a look of worry. " Oh ok that's fine no need to worry about it I've waited longer than this to eat it won't kill me haha but they might if I go out there. " I say with a shrug. " You are very considerate. " she says shyly with a slight bow " No point in getting worked up over something like this, I'm not a pack member so the possibility of them not liking me is valid. But if I was allowed to leave like I wanted this wouldn't have been an issue at least not a big one it's only mid day " I say pulling a chair over for Margaret to sit on. " That is true but I think Alpha would be sad that you left " shes says " Why do y'all keep saying that? He doesn't know me you can't miss what you never had " I say rolling my eyes falling back onto my bed. " Alpha says that you should stay in the room for the night so he can calm everyone down and explain everything to everyone. I'll go get you some food " she says walking to the door and leaving. " No way in hell am I staying locked in this room " I say to myself and Fera " You said we'd stay! " she bitches at me " Yeah when has anything worked out in our favor Fera? Plans change that's just life we don't get what we want that's it. Now we're leaving before the cycle repeats itself " I state while packing my bag and changing into my own clothes but keeping the A-shirt on. " No! I don't wanna leave! " Fera yells " Ugh I don't have time to bicker with you Fera! You need to calm down it's not like we won't see them ever again " I say leaving the book on the bed with the book mark sticking out saying ' See you later ' I jump out the window and close it when I'm on the ground with the crunching of wood chips under my feet, I bend down and tie my boots up and head out. I sneak to the back of the house, lucky me the dining room where everyone is gathered is connected to the backyard by huge windows and a porch. I move away from the building and crawl across the steps of the porch, I can hear some yelling from the glass doors they aren't good at keeping noises in or out huh? I glance in from the steps I can see a young man a lil older than me maybe making all the noise other than the murmurs from some of the other members. I decide that bolting and hopping the fence while they're all distracted my him would be best, I jump up and take off running as quietly as anyone can while running. Hopping the fence and fumbling with the landing I walk backwards looking at the house one last time before I leave for who knows how long, I turn on my heal and take off again running hoping none of the patrol spot me and tell Alpha John. Running in the day is terrible and doing it while hungry is a more terrible idea, after passing their boarder in stop and catch my breath leaning my hands on my knees. Looking back one last time to make sure nobody is following me I check my watch, I've been running for about an hr it's (2:46pm) I sit down trying to catch my breath and to cool off. I can tell Fera is pissed at me I can feel her anger but I'm gonna let her be so she can calm down, I lay on my back looking up at the sky it looks like it might rain that'll work in my favor to cover my tracks just in case they try following me. I look around to see what I could use as shelter if the rain starts suddenly, o see some small trees that could work for shelter at least keeping me somewhat dry. I get up and walk over to the trees, they could do if needed but I should keep going I'm still to close to the pack I need to find the nearest bus station and get as far away as I can. I start running again and about an hr goes by and it starts to rain I pull the hood up on my jacket and keep going, it's hard running in mud falling a few times I keep going. Jumping over rocks and shrubs on my way to the nearest town I'm soaked and muddy I can see the lights of the town in the distance I suddenly find my self about to hit I rocky area I slid to a stop at the edge of the rocks thankfully I didn't slide off I walk to the edge of the rocks breathing hard looking down I see a big drop off I could have died if I didn't notice the change in the terrain, I look up to see the town on the other side of the drop. Looking around I see a land bridge and run over to cross it there are several bridges because of the high difference between where I am and where the town sits, I start crossing the bridges and as I get half way down the rain starts getting harder. I start running as I don't want to get stuck on a bridge or have one crumble breath me, finally reaching the other side I tumble forward doing a roll getting more muddy and wet. I sluggishly turn over slowly getting up so I don't fall for the hundredth time since it started to rain, I turn to the town I run to the nearest building good for me it was a bar. I run into the building quickly closing the door behind me sloshing over to a table and sitting down trying to catch my breath I drop my head onto the table with a 'THUD' letting my hands drop and dangle. After I have my breath back I keep my head on the table just feeling the water drip down my skin and watching it fall to the floor creating small dirty puddles of water under me, I hear someone walk up to me they might have thought I passed out I'd been there for about an hr or more. They just stand there for a moment I look up at them, it's a waitress. " You good honey? " this 30 something asks " Yeah, sorry about the water ... and mud. " I lazily say " Well it's getting late and it's almost happy hr you don't look old enough to be here for happy hr " she says twirling her pencil and raising an eyebrow. " Hm? " looking at my watch " Oh sorry I can leave if I have to. " I say sitting up feeling my cold AF hair move one my chest. " That might be best stranger some of the men that come here are not to trust worthy when they drink. " she says looking around the bar. I nod and stand up walking out the door with a wave, a few steps out I'm smacked in the face with hard wind and heave rain, I walk back in the bar more soaked than when I came in in the first place. Spitting water out of my mouth like a damn fountain saying " I'll take my chances in here " and sit back down where I was before. The waitress just looking surprised at me looks back to the bar and leaves me be I take my jacket off and hang it up I wring my hair out, having long hair in this kind of situation sucks. I glance around the bar to check it out, I didn't look at it when I came I cuz I just wanted to get out of the rain and mud I didn't care what this place was. Looking around I see a pool table on the other side of the bar slowly walking over to it I turn the light one above the table and walk around it, looking for the pool sticks and cues I find some pretty nice sticks I move them thru my fingers like I'm hitting the balls. The woman tells me that the hand powder is in the small cupboard in the corner along with the racks, I nod walking over to it and crouching down to open it I pull the racks out and put the balls inside placing the cue ball where I want I break and just start seeing how rusty I am at pool. Some time passes and a few people walk into the bar I don't pay them any mind glancing up I see the sit at the bar talking to the bartender about what they want, they haven't noticed me but that'll change when I break again. Putting the balls back in the rack and racking them I pick my stick up moving to my spot and break, I see them lightly jump quickly looking at me. I ignore their staring and continue to play, working on my trick shots as any pool hustler should I can hear them talking I glance up and they start asking the bartender about me. I just continue to play they aren't moving to come over here... yet, a few more people walk in at this time a few lady's and they great the men at the bar and the bartender. I'm guessing the men say something about me as they all look at me at the same time, I just walk around the table looking for my next shot I hear a group of people walk in about 6 people? I'm looking in the opposite direction so I can't tell exactly what's going on over there. Finishing up my game I look for the bathroom wanting to see how dirty I am from falling, when I get into the bathroom I look into the mirror and I'm surprised at how dirty I am, they probably couldn't tell just how dirty but they could probably see a few spots. I quickly put my hair up and wash all the dirt off my visible skin, I dry off with some paper towels and walk back out into the bar. I walk passed everyone they all watch me whispering to each other, I open the door to see if it's still raining so hard, it's not raining so I grab my jacket and wave to the bartender she waves back and I leave. Some of the guys were making gross comments about how they'd love to fuck me so I left as fast as I could, I walk into the town more trying to find any bus stops or bus schedules but it looks like this town might be to small for one or just to far in the middle of nowhere. Finding a small general store I buy a few bottles of water and some snack, asking the clerk where the next town is and how far it was, I got out of town sloshing thru the mud all the way. About time mid day rolled around the ground was pretty much dry again I'd stop and rest or sleep during the day and run for the next town at night. Fera : " we can run in wolf form if we get there faster " " So we're talking again?" I ask her Fera : " Yes " " Are you still mad at me for making the decision to leave before it could get physical?" I ask her Fera : " No, I get why you did it we've been thru a lot I just wish we had stayed to hear the outcome of their argument " I sigh " I get it you liked them and stuff but we liked the last group " I can feel how disappointed she was that we left, I hated doing this to her but it was better this way. I shifted and grabbed my stuff and dashed in the direction the town was in just following the road, during the day I was tempted to ask for a ride but decided that would be dumb and Fera would yell at me. It took a few days to get to the town but they were big enough to have a charter bus I thru out the old empty bottles and bought more waters for the bus ride, I just decided I would get off when a town looked fun enough to stay in for awhile leaving this place behind and forgetting that pack would be best for now. -A year later- I walk down a small single car length dirt road I've been down this road before, it was almost a year to the day that I met an ankle snare in these woods. I guess subconsciously I wanted to come back here wether it was Fera whispering in my ear as I slept or just my own want to be here, I would weave in and out of the edge of the woods just in case I needed to duck down and hide. I could see the edge of the woods I could see the fresh cut glass I had once rolled around in, it hurt being back here knowing coming back could kill the happy memories I have of this place. I decide to sneak into the house walking around the inner edge of the tree line I look for the scouting wolves that do patrol of the yards so no one can get in and hurt the pack, I don't see anyone so I move to the side of the yard where my room was when I stayed here nothing had changed except the flowers under my window sill were now ' Forget me nots ' or ' scorpion grasses ' they're perennials. I look around one last time and crawl thru the grass, thank the moon I'm in army green pants and jacket today. I get to the flower bed and step over the flowers I look thru the window to make sure no one is in the room before I brake in, testing to see if the window is unlocked it slides up opening giving me the ability to climb into the room, carefully I step into my room I quickly and quietly shut the window to not arouse suspicion. I take my jacket off and put it in the closet on a wooden hanger I keep my boots on just in case. But then decide I want to take a shower I haven't had one in months living in the woods is nice but no running water unless you find a stream is a pain in the ass. I take my boots off and carefully place them next to the window cracking it open about and inch or two so they don't smell them if they stink. I walk into the bathroom taking my clothes off from head to toe, hat, shirt,A-shirt, socks, pants, under wear, I move the curtain and turn the water on giving it a moment to get hot I look in the mirror. I look gross again hair oily, skin oily and dirty, a few new scars here and there, I walk back over to the shower turning it on and stepping in I wash the grime and dirt off my skin relaxing my body under the warm water. The lavender soap helped relax me greatly, getting out of the shower I grabbed the plush towel that was hanging up. I walk back into my room and grab some clothes from my bag, I get dressed and open the window all the way to get the hot air out of the room, I move my boots to the left and glance up at the book case... the book I was reading is gone? Did they get rid of it because I read it? Fera : Don't be dumb someone else is probably reading it I'm sure pack members swop books all the time. Allorra : I guess you're probably right. I sit on the window sill and dry my hair in the sun and wind of the day, I guess I should go talk to Alpha Motter. It'd be weird if I just walked into breakfast in the morning, not to mention it'd get me attacked. After my hair dries I go brush it and sit back on the window sill to put my boots on I grab some socks from my bag and slip my feet into my boots and lace them up, I walk into the hallway leaving the door open as an extra escape rout. I walk towards the kitchen I don't hear anyone and decide to grab a snack snatching an apple out of the fruit bowl on the counter, taking a bite the apple makes a loud crunch the apple is delicious... ether it's really good or it's because I'm really hungry. I stand in the kitchen finishing my apple, I still don't hear a single person here and it's not an hr you would go thru training so people should be here at least like 6 wolves should be walking around in the house. Allorra : What do you think Fera? Fera : I'm just happy to be back here! Allorra : What if they all got killed because we were here? Fera : Don't be dumb we'd smell that and I guess we need to find Alpha John to make sure everything is ok here Allorra : True lets go to his office I thro the apple core in the garbage as I walk past it, it's wired I don't even hear the maids they should be making lunch or at least cleaning up after it. I walk up the stairs and across the walkway that's above the entrance to the kitchen, I stop I front of Alpha Motters door. The door is wide open it feels like the house has been abandoned, but as I'm thinking that I hear a sigh from inside the office. I slowly walk into the room making sure to keep quiet, when I'm in the room I see John setting in a seat facing the window holding a book... my book! I walk up to him still keeping absolutely quiet. I get the idea to scare him with a smile on my face I creep up behind him and crouch down, waiting a moment just in case he might have felt me behind his seat. He lets out another sigh and I jump out with a loud " RAAAAAH!!! " effectively scaring the shit out of him with an " AAaAAH!! " he flys back in his seat going about half way across the couch with the face of the man about to have a heart attack. At his reaction I buckle over with laughter causing me to tear up, I grip my sides and fall to the floor in tears and splitting sides laughing so hard I can't breath I'm rolling on the floor. As I'm doing this he has his hand on his chest breathing hard with the book in his other hand in the throwing position he finally notices it's me and he looks stunned that I'm here like he's hallucinating. I finally stop laughing but only after I roll over to face the window and can't see his face any more, I get up and turn to him he jumps up and hugs me. I'm so startled by this I just stand there until he lets me go he had tears in his eyes, with a huge smile on his face he motions me to sit down. He wipes the tears from his face " How did you get in here? Why did you leave!? Where have you been? Etc... " he asks so many questions in a row I feel dizzy. " Woah geez calm down John one question at a time please " I say with my hand over his mouth. A man runs in to the office I'm guessing he heard the yelling and was worried somebody was getting hurt, " Alpha are you ok!!? " " he's fine Bobby I thought we went over the knocking thing " I say with a smirk He looks just as stunned as Alpha Motter did. " I'm fine she just scared the shit out of me " he says with a chuckle looking at me "How did you get in here the door makes a lot of noise " turning his head with the question. " The same way I left, my window. " I say looking at him, he looks sad and surprised. " We should lock that window more " he laughs " You think a lock can stop me " I say with a smirk He takes a deep breath setting the book down on the coffee table and rubbing his hands on his face, he looks at me he looks tired. " Tired doesn't look good on you " looking at him with concern " Yeah my paper work has gone down with my son being old enough to start training to be an alpha but," he sighs " He's a stubborn ass and just wants to do it on his own and won't let you help until he's dead in the water? " I say leaning back into the arm of the couch stretching up and back over the arm. Haha " yeah he's a real ..." " Chip off the old block and now you see why your dad hated showing you the ropes? " I say setting back up to look at him with a sympathetic look. " ugh yeah it's a mess " he says with a sigh. " well I'm gonna wander the house since I didn't get to last time, that is if we're done talking " I say about to stand up. " Actually I'd like to ask you why you left ? " he says with a hand on his chin. " I heard the commotion the wolves that had arrived were making and figured leaving would be in the best interest of all of us. Most packs would have just killed me so I'd rather leave early than never leave at all. " I say staring into his eyes. " I'm sorry my pack made you feel that way " He says looking remorseful " All packs make me feel that way dude don't worry about it. Can I go now? " I ask " uh... sure let Bobby walk around with you so you don't get attacked, I'll also tell the pack members that are home that you are here and not to harm you. " He says " Sure " I get up and walk over to Bobby " Make sure you keep up pup " I say teasingly to him. He just looks at me surprised and taken aback by my comment, he soon remembers what happened last time I was here and blushes wildly. " Ok you may roam the property but stay with in the yards the wolves out side of the hedges didn't get the msg " He says with a smile " wouldn't it be easier to just tell them all? Like two birds one stone type of thing? " I say confused. " No they need to focus on the work they're doing getting a msg from me would just distract them from the task at hand " He says with a serious tone. " ok well I'm gonna go do stuff I'll talk with you later " I say with a wave as I walk out of the room. Walking fast down the hall to the stairs I jump up on the rail and ride it down the stairs, I'm to lazy to put the effort into walking down these stairs I'd rather fall down them. Falling off the rail at the end I catch myself before hitting the floor and popping up to my feet looking back at Bobby, he looks very concerned and confused about what just happened. I start walking away and Bobby runs down the stairs to keep up with me I walk into the kitchen to think about where I wanna go in the house or go play outside, Bobby noticing my stand still says he'll show me the public rooms. Our first stop was a living room big and spacious and clean, also the stereo system looks bang'n and I can't wait to play with it! The next place was like a bar in the basement had a pool table and pin ball some other things big tv to watch movies and stuff on. The third place was a library that I just wanted to dive into and start reading anything I could get my hands on but I refrained from doing so, Bobby just laughed at the excitement I was showing for the library he just laughed as I looked around. He took me back to the kitchen and out the glass doors in the back, looking around I spot Luna Alice gardening and walk up to her. " Hey Alice what's with the forget me nots? " I ask jokingly " Oh! I didn't think I'd get to see you till later! " she says with a big smile standing up to hug me. " I'm just exploring seeing what I missed the last time I was here " " oh so do you like what you see so far? " she asks walking over to a small table and chairs with a big sun umbrella. " yeah y'alls house is uncomfortably expensive " I say setting down in a seat looking at the house. " yes, we only want what's best for our pack so we may have gone a little over board with the design " she says sitting with me and giggling. " So the garden looks good, so why did you put the forget me nots under my rooms window? " I ask sipping some chilled water that she had poured me. " John asked me to put those there he was so sad when he found out you left he didn't want you to go he was drawn to you " she says looking down at her glass watching the ice. " That sounds questionable and kinda gross what do you mean he was drawn to me? " I ask concerned " Oh not like that he's a mated wolf they can't be tempted away from their mate after the mating ritual is complete, He said you made him feel like you were his daughter " she says looking at me with a warm smile " He doesn't even know me tho how can he feel that way? " " Johns always wanted a daughter but I wasn't able to bare more children after our son and I guess even after all this time he was looking for the girl that could take that place, and I think his wolf chose you " she says with a sad smile looking from me to the house. Asking Fera " is that why you said he'd be sad that we left? " Fera : " yes " We set in the garden for a few more moments and I get up and told her we'll talk more later I still had places I wanted to explore, she waved to me putting her gloves back on as I walk away. I still felt weird about hearing that John felt like I was his daughter but if that's how he felt then that's how he felt, I guess it's no big deal for now I've never really had a father so if he wanted to take up that role he can try. It'll be difficult considering I'll be 19 soon, and I've never been the type to listen to what people say. Walking to the side of the house that I had crept along a year ago I opened the gate and waited for Bobby to catch up as he didn't notice me leave Alice, he ran across the garden hurdling the small bushes along the way to catch up to me. Reaching me he smiled I assume it's because I waited and didn't just take off without him, he would only be able to see me as I've still kept my scent masked especially now that I'm mate age. You can only find your mate after you turn 18 and your mate can never be more than 7 yrs apart from you in age, so if you're 18 and a 39 yr old says you're their mate they're wrong. Plus both wolves have to claim each other out loud for all in the area to hear. This is so all the males in the area know that the female is your mate and girls yell it also so all the other girls know that this male is hers. It's seams crazy and archaic but wolves mate for life and sadly if the mates don't mark and complete the ritual another male could possibly force an unwanted mark of the female and she'll be his. The ritual is completed buy sex or blood, sex is obvious but the blood selection is the two parties combining blood cutting hands like a cult or the male biting to hard when marking the female. Both options are well... options, don't get me wrong it's not like I don't want a mate ever I just don't want one as soon as I'm " legal " So to speak. I don't want to be tied to someone at least not now I'm young I don't want to get married right out the gate I want my freedom to do with as I please, they only way you find you mate is by smell so I don't let mine known to others it's safer that way. Since I'm just thinking and walking not paying any attention on where I'm walking I run right into a boarder hedge and freak falling back spitting leaves out of my mouth, looking back at Bobby on the ground laughing his ass off at watching me walk straight into a bush. I quickly scrambled to my feet and ran at Bobby noticing I'm coming for him he jumps up and runs from me. Chasing him thru the side yard where my room was he hooks around a tree trying to shake me off his tail laughing the whole time, when he thinks he's created some space he runs for the front yard jumping some bushes and almost eating gravel from the road up to the house. That fumble gave me the perfect advantage I go to jump on him and he suddenly swerves causing me to fly forward while watching him out of the corner of my eye, I slam to the ground rolling a few feet but I quickly recover and as he's laughing at the new fight between me and plant life he almost doesn't see me get up. Tears rolling down his red face I dash for him again noticing me he starts sprinting the other way, getting distracted by something he slows down and I tackle him as hard as I can. Doing so he lets out a squeak as I hit him and a " hurgk " when we hit the ground, claiming on top of my pray I put my hands on my hips and strike a proud pose. We both burst into laughter. " Lucky first try! " he says " You got distracted " I say putting my finger on his nose " if I wanted I could have killed you " I say teasingly and sticking my tongue out. " yeah yeah yeah " he sighs " what did you get distracted by anyway ? " I ask still setting on him. " it was Alpha John watching us from his office " he says kinda embarrassed I look up to my right and sure enough John was watching us from his office sipping what I can only assume is coffee, I wave and stand up and help Bobby up off the ground. Looking down I have grass stains all over my clothes from a moment ago, looking back up at Bobby we start laughing again dusting ourselves off. We walk up to the front door opening the large squeaking door we walk into the house and walk into the kitchen still lightly laughing, Bobby grabs some drinks and I sit down in the same seat I sat in a year ago. Bobby brings the drinks over setting mine in front of me, he sits next to me. " So where do you wanna go to relax before diner? " He asks taking a sip of his drink. " I think I'm gonna take a nap always being alert even when sleeping is tiring " I say leaning my head back to think. " That's good, not being able to sleep properly for long periods of time sucks " he says leaning his head back also. " Just thinking of a nap made me 10x sleeper " I say with a tired laugh I stand up and Bobby follows me to my room, I wave him goodbye and take off my shoes. I put my hair up in a bun and lay on top of the comforter on my bed feeling the cool sheets on the belly lulled me to sleep fast, I jolted up out of bed in a cold sweat breathing heavy I set up taking a moment to calm down I put my hand on my chest and take a few deep breaths. Fera : you ok? " yeah just some memories no biggie " I say getting up and looking at the clock it was an hr long nap. Fera : you should wash up a little don't wanna sell sweaty at diner " true I'll wash up a little then " Taking Fera up on her advice I splash my face with cold water whipping the sweat off my face, neck and chest I let out a sigh. Hanging my head above the sink I grip the sides of the basin and just close my eyes for a moment and take deep breaths to help calm my shaking hands, trying my best not to vomit. I finally calm down enough and walk back into my room, I sit on on the bed and glance out the window. It's still light out and it looks so nice I wanna go lay in the grass but I don't wanna call Bobby over to just watch me lay in the grass watching clouds that'd be rude, I decide to sneak over the the library to read something I'm still a lil shaky and I need a distraction. I notice a pain of slippers by my bed and they weren't there before my nap so I think one of the maids brought them for me. I slip on my slippers and sneak my way to the library, finally making it into the library after making a few wrong turns I don't close the door all the way might make noise and I just don't wanna deal with other people rn. Finding a seat on one of the window benches? It's the type of window that has a deep window sill one big enough for an adult to set in, I walk thru the isles grabbing any book my eyes are drawn to buy the end I had 15 books setting with me on the sill giddy to start reading I pick the most interesting out of the pile and start reading. " Margaret can you go get Allorra it's almost diner time I don't want her to miss it considering her spotty record of eating regularly " John asks " I would love to Alpha! I'm so happy she's back she was really nice " she says walking out of the office. * 10 minutes later Margaret: Alpha I can't find her Alpha : What do you mean you can't find her!? Bobby said she was in her room sleeping Margaret: you don't think she left again do you? Alpha : if her things are still in her room then she's just hiding somewhere Margaret: ok I'll look out side just in case Alpha : Good idea I'll have Bobby help me in the house Alpha John and Bobby meet in the dining room to discuss where she could be in the house, after about 20min of looking Alpha John noticed the library door was open, the door is always closed and is only used when one of the books is needed the younger wolves find reading to be boring and only one or two of them read the books in the rooms. Finding it odd he links Bobby and they walk to the library door smelling to make sure someone didn't break in, although it would be an odd place to come in from or to try to enter a pack house to go to it could still happen. They don't smell anyone but that doesn't mean someone isn't here, they quietly creep into the library making sure to survey the areas they can see while Bobby went to the left Alpha went to the right walking the edges of the library they're on guard. Asking it the the back Alpha John spots a small frame laying in the window he laughs lightly and links Bobby at the other end of the isle telling him that Allorra was asleep in the window and it was just her in the big room, lightly smiling Alpha watches her sleep while Bobby makes his way over to them. The way the dimming sun cascaded over her she looked at peace. Bobby noticed Alpha John looking at Allorra with the love and adoration of a father, he waited a moment so he wouldn't disturb the nice calm and warm moment. He knew that Alpha always wanted a daughter and he guessed he found her, Alpha John pulled his phone out of his pocket and quickly took a picture of the scene not wanting to forget this precious moment and wanting to show Alice how cute a daughter could be. Rolling over " take a picture it'll last longer " I say annoyed that someone was watching me " Oh hey John what's up? " I say realizing that it was Alpha John. " I did just take a picture actually, you seem to have gotten a little ambitious with collecting those books to read huh? " he says looking at the book not on the floor " Huh? Nah I've read all those that's why I set them on the floor so they'd be out of my way " I say setting up and twisting around to pop my back. " How did you read so many books!? In one go most of the pack falls asleep half way thru one book " he says a little bewildered " well when you grow up unable to get a hold of books getting the chance to actually read is a huge thing and I love reading getting to learn new things " I say getting up from my seat. " O-oh ... " Bobby says " You should tell us how you grew up or we can call a druid and they can look thru your memories and show us how you grew up " Alpha John says taking a few steps back so I don't have to move the books out of my way. " I'll have to think about it... the Druid sounds like a bad idea tho my life's been pretty fucked up so I think it would cause y'all nightmares like it does me. " I say looking John in the eyes as I walk passed him. Walking out of the library I don't hear them walking behind me they're ether shocked or confused but I don't care I smell diner and I'm not waiting for them to snap out of it, the quickly catch up to me before the kitchen John grabs my are in a way that says that the pack members that've never been told I was here or was back here are at the the table with the wolves that do know I'm here. Bobby stays back with me to make sure no stragglers find me and try anything, we listen to Alpha John tell the pack that I'm here everyone is silent while he speaks... well mostly everyone there is one male that angrily interrupts him. Angry that someone is showing John so much disrespect I walk out into the dining room pissed John looks surprised at my sudden appearance. I look directly at the loud mouth mutt disrespecting John " How about you shut the fuck up and let your Alpha speak you disrespectful cur " I say crossing my arms across my chest and staining him in the eyes. ( Cur (ker)- an aggressive dog or one that is in poor condition, especially a mongrel.) Bobby quickly runs out behind me and doesn't know what to do, me and this boy are starring daggers at each other. The boy quickly move to in front of me trying to intimidate me but it won't work he's pissed me and Fera off with this display of disrespect to John and we have no intention of backing down. Everyone at the table and in the kitchen stayed still and silent as he measured me up, as he want to walk around me I passed him and sat in the open seat next to John where this boy was sitting. Angry at my dismissive action he let out a low growl trying to tell me I'm on this ice or something, I just rolled my eyes and looked over at John and smiled. He looked very uncomfortable with my actions but didn't want to get his son all riled up even more than he was by saying something to me. " This is why I told you bringing a stray into the pack is a terrible idea!! " he angrily said to his father. " How is it that a stray like me is showing your Alpha more respect than his own son?" I ask in a snarky tone making it obvious that it was a rhetorical question. He just stood there grumbling for a moment until Alpha John stood from his seat and told him to go cool off, and that just annoyed him more but he couldn't disobey his father and Alpha. He stormed off out of the house probably to go running or beat up a tree, I look up at John now embarrassed at my actions he sits down placing his head in his hand with a sigh. " Sorry for my disruption John but his tone pissed me off, plus he cut you off I'm surprised you didn't do something physically to him. " I say looking at the the fancy table setting. " What do you mean " physical "" he looked at me confused I look at his reaction and cock my head sideways " Why are you confused? You know what physical means " we just stare at each other for a moment. " I think he's asking you to elaborate dear " Alice says from Johns right. " Uhm... ok I'll just act like you don't know what it means it'll make this easier, I mean hit him. Hell I've seen Alphas kill their own kids for being disrespectful " I say looking around at the wolves silently watching in their seats. As soon as my words registered in their brains they all gasped and muttered to each other. " I'm not saying you should kill him just give him a good wallop " I glance up to John, he looks so horrified at my comment. " What is with y'all you act like you've never herd of abusive pack Alphas before " confused I look back at the maids and even they look distraught. " I mean they are small packs it's kinda normal to run into them when you're a stray " I say kinda sad that I can't eat anything so I can stop talking. After a like 10 minutes of sitting in super weird silence as they tried to I don't know comprehend? What I said my stomach growls very loudly, everyone looks at my I can feel them. My head is laying on my hand with my eyes closed I'm about to fall asleep waiting for food. " Are you hungry Allorra? " John asks " I don't know, how about you not eat for about a week and ask me again "I say in a sarcastic tone. " You should have said something we would have let you eat hun " He said with a worried look on his face. " I didn't think it would take this long for y'all to snap back to reality I was about to fall asleep here " I say shifting my position in my seat. " Oh dear then lets eat! " Alice says outing a hand to her lips. " Please lets before I stop caring " I say with a small pleading look towards Alice. And just my luck the boy comes back into the house eyes downcast and his posture showing that he's sorry, I let out an " uugh " dropping my forehead to the table with a loud thunk. I stay that way for a moment then stand up, and walking away from the table. " Where are you going? " John asks ... déjà Vu... " I'm going back to bed " I say with a wave " What about dinner? " he says a little panicked " I stopped caring, later " I say with a yawn as I round the corner to walk down the hall to my room. As soon as I reach my room and close my door I pass out falling to the floor, this happens a lot my body wants so preserve every last bit of whatever it wants and if I don't eat by a point I stop caring like I have depression or something then I get super tired and ether lay down or I pass out where I am. It's super inconvenient for a stray like me, considering I don't eat all that often just enough to keep me alive unless I run into people that give me food like people camping or something. But it's a whatever kind of thing it doesn't bother me anymore half the time I don't even notice I pass out or I just forget that it happened. I wake up in my bed under the covers it's now after dark and my stomach is killing me I wince forward holding my stomach. Fera : We need to eat doll or it'll only get worse Allorra : I know, when it stops hurting I'll go grab something to eat After a few seconds it stops hurting and I slide out of bed noticing even my slippers were off and neatly placed next to my bed... that's really weird but I'll care later I'm hungry. I didn't check the time so it's just dark and it's oddly quiet so it must be quite some time after dinner, I walk into the kitchen flipping the lights on. Walking over to the fridge I open it and grab the first edible thing I see, a bag of rolls left from dinner, I thro a few in the microwave to warm them up, grabbing them I open my pocket knife and cut into them. I put butter on them and eat them quick, I grab a drink to wash them down with, noticing someone one of the corner of my eye I finish drinking and look over at them ... it's the pup from earlier. " Sup " I say looking at him blandly motioning my head up. " Father said you should go see the doc in the next few days..." he says looking to the side and not at me at all. " Why would I? " I ask with a shrug looking back into the fridge. " Well I told him you were passed out on the floor in your room " he says looking at me now that I'm not looking at him. " and why were you in my room? " I ask grabbing a plait with my name on it and unwrapping it. " I was coming to apologize to you for being so aggressive to you before " he says scratching the back of his head. I shrug " I don't really care about your actions toward me but I won't allow you to disrespect your father like that, he's one of the good parents I've seen and you should thank the moon that he is. " I say looking him in the eyes. " Yes you're probably right, my father told me what you said earlier and it made me realize that I was being an ass and super disrespectful to him " he says setting in one of the chairs. " At least you realized you were in the wrong and apologized to John properly " I say placing my food in the microwave then sitting a seat away from him. " So why did you come back? " He asks timidly like he didn't want to scare me off and make me run again. " I missed the showers " I say in a playful tone " I bet " he says with a light laugh " But really why did you come back? " " Fera missed it here " I say looking him in the eye. We set in silence for a moment before the microwave beeped, I got up and grabbed my food turning around he's standing there with a fork in hand. I guess he didn't want me going thru all the drawers in the kitchen, I take it from him and sit back down. Mixing my food around making sure it's all warm... not that I actually care if it is or not. " So what's your name pup? " I ask him as he sets in his seat again. " Jason " He says watching me eat. " What's your name? " " Dad didn't tell you that already? How did he manage to drop the ball twice with that?" I say holding my fork up to my mouth. " I didn't let him get that far or I just ignored him probably " He says looking down to the floor. " Allorra " I say stuffing some potatoes and green beans in my mouth. Quickly looking up and over at me " What ? " I just look up from my plate at him with my mouth full, we just look away from each other with an awkward feeling in the air. " Allorra " I say more clearly? I don't know why he didn't get it the first time we wolves have amazing hearing. " Just making sure I heard you right, I'm heading to bed now " He says standing from his seat " Gnight Allorra " he says as he walks away and up the stairs. I just watch him leave it was kinda weird that I had to watch him walk up the stairs and across the ... balcony? It's the same walk way to Johns office but the corridor to the bedrooms are before his office. As he walks out of sight he waves to me, like he knew I was watching him, jackass. I set in the dimly lit dining room eating my food and thinking over the evens of the day, now that I think about it why was I so protective over Johns status? It's not like me to care about pack shit so ??? Ugh what ever I'm done so I guess I'll wash the dishes and go back to bed... yeah I'm still tired so I'll just nap till morning. * Jason's POV * I can feel her watching me, it's oddly... nice? I mean girls watch me all the time I'm the future Alpha they're kinda brain washed to like me until they find their mate. For some reason she kinda excites me, it doesn't feel like a power hungry stare like the pack girls it just feels like a normal stare like when I'm in town and human girls watch me although they stare with lustful intentions. This is weirdly one of the best walks to my room I've ever had and it kinda freaks me out that she can do this to me and she isn't even my mate or anything. Damian : We don't know if she is our mate we've never smelled her scent she's always masked it, even when she collapsed to the floor she never let her smell out. Jason : Hmm... I guess technically you're right but wouldn't she have said 'mine' if I was her mate? I don't have to mask my smell it's my house and territory... Damian : No, if she doesn't want a mate her wolf will suppress the need or urge to seek their mates out. Think of it as when you have to pee and you're forced to wait so long to pee you stop feeling the need to pee, like in morning meetings that turn into day meetings. Jason : Oh ... ok that actually sounds logical. Damian : Or she just claimed us in private haha Jason : Can that even happen? Damian : I don't believe so, the reason we yell our claims out is to keep others from touching what is ours. Jason : Yeah, again very logical. I wave to her since I can still feel her watching me, I can practically feel her roll her eyes as at me as I walk into the darkly lit hallway to my room. Reaching my room I open my door and step in, the next thing I know one of the pack girls that watches or follows me like a stalker. She knocks on my door almost like she was right behind me in the hallway. " Jason~ " says the girl named Georgia " What ? " I saw disgruntled. " I wanted to see if you wanted to talk or hang out before bed " she says hopefully " Nah I'm good I'm real tired tonight, plus I have to get up early tomorrow morning " I say walking over to my dresser and grabbing some pajamas. " Oh... ok, well I'll see you tomorrow then " she says with a sad tone then shuffling back to her room. One of the only bad things about being the Alphas son, girls of most ages try to target you usually only the older girls are so bold to try to get into your room at night. The younger girls stay in public spaces but that, that was weird. I change and turn the lights out and plug my phone in, climbing into bed I feel my body relax into a perfect sleep position and I drifted to sleep quickly. Fera: He's cute. " Umm?... that was random as hell girl " Fera : Not really we just watched him walk up to his room, at least one of us has to admit something might be there " Don't wiggle your brows at me you weirdo and the only reason I watched him was because he's so damn awkward and unpredictable. " Fera : Yeah, ok Allorra : Don't roll your eyes at me Fera : Haha, go to bed dork I watch out my bedroom window for a few minutes watching the clouds cross the crescent moon, as I go to walk away I notice some wolves walking in the front yard like they followed the road here. I don't think this many wolves would be patrolling the same area at one time at night, Fera urges me to open the window to see who's smell I could get. Opening my window slowly so it doesn't make any noise I try to a whiff of the wolves but they're probably masking and or they're down wind, Fera is standing on edge more that she has in some time. I quickly leave my room and run down the hallway and stop in the dining room quickly looking thru the small windows on the sides of the door, the wolves are about half way into the yard. Fera lets out a growl indicating that I need to wake someone up, I quickly turn on my heal and run up the stairs and sniff out Jason's room. I should make sure they aren't just pack members that I haven't talked to yet, I find his room and I open the door. I can feel Fera getting more aggressive the longer I can't see the wolves turning my eyes nearly white, I shake Jason's shoulder and he just snorts at me in his sleep. I climb on top of him and Fera lets out a threatening growl to wake his wolf at least, he jolts awake at the growl and I quickly cover his mouth. " How many wolves are on patrol?! " I eagerly ask him He removes my hand from his mouth gripping my wrist tightly " Why? " he asks suspiciously " We don't have time, lets go " I say grabbing his other hand, pulling him out of bed. " Hey! What the hell!? " He says agitated " Shhh!" Continuing down the hall. Damian: He wolfs on high alert can you feel it? It's almost like she's desperate Jason : Yeah, her grip tells me they both are... Reaching the bottom of the stairs I pull him don't to the floor with me into a crouch and crawl to the windows next to the door pulling him up to the window to look out with me, our faces so close to the glass I can feel the cooled air coming off the glass. "those aren't yours are they?" I asked without taking my eyes off the wolves. " No. no they aren't " he says " I don't know what room is Dads so you go get him I'll watch them. " I say still aggressively watching the yard. " I'll mind link him " he says looking at me. " Will that wake him in time ? " I ask feeling my hand start to shake with adrenaline. " You're right it might be to late for that they're to close, I'll run up to him then " he says turning back to the stairs and walking to them. I watch as they get closer to the house, every step making Fera more on edge. We're so on edge we don't even hear the guys walk up behind us till they're a few feet away, I don't move me eyes off my potential prey. " Allorra" John says " Yeah what's up? " I look at him seeing Jason at the other window. " You should go and wake some of the other wolves up, we'll watch " he says with an authoritative voice. " sure " I say switching places with John. I run up the stairs and open every door I see with a threatening growl, they wake up almost immediately when I do it. I know it's because I'm a wolf they don't know I'm a potential threat till told otherwise by John, I just point to the stairs and more to the next door. I don't wake anyone that looks to young, they wouldn't be allowed to fight if need be. After I got all the other wolves I walk back down stairs, John is talking with them to see if any of them know the wolves. As I watch out the window I notice a wolf, me and Fera immediately freeze. Our breathing becomes quick and shallow, my heart racing feeling like it's about to beat out of my chest. Jason notices my reaction and looks out the window, and looks back up to me on the stairs. He asks if I'm ok I don't respond, I start walking down the stairs slowly. Now feeling all the wolves watching me my hands shaking palms sweating knees feeling weak, I walk up to the door stepping over everyone in a panicked trance fixated on the door. Reaching the door I lean don't and open the mail slot, a scent comes rushing into the house smothering me in it. My eyes widen and tears start involuntarily rolling down my face, I close the the little slot in complete terrified panic my breathing becoming stifled and sporadic. I can feel my stomach flipping making me feel like I'm gonna vomit, tears rolling down my face I place my forehead on the cold door tightening so fists so hard I start to bleed. I'm trying so desperately to think of a way to get out of here and keep this pack from getting attacked, my mind racing I don't notice the blood dropping to the floor. Alpha John grabs my shoulders pulling me back away from the door and back to my scenes, seeing the small pools of blood I look to my hands and they're covered. I quickly take off my big over sized shirt and wipe the blood up and throw it into the trash to mask the smell of blood with garbage, I wash my hands and run back to the window making sure he isn't sniffing my blood out. He was just looking around watching his wolves sniff me out on the grass where I wiped out this afternoon, I moved away from the window and dashed down the hall and half falling and running into my room I grab my shoes and throw them. I tightly tie the laces into a double knot as I'm doing this I hear footsteps coming down the hall, I'm guessing they're coming to check on me seeing as I'm acting crazy right now. The footsteps reach my door I move over to the window and open it, I look back at who ever is at my door. Jason looks surprised way to surprised to act before I can leave, I slide out the window and hit the ground running. I make sure the wolves can see me run into the woods, I just have to lead them away and I'll loose them somewhere in the woods but it has to be far enough away they won't think I came back to the house. I undress and shift running as far as I can until I can't anymore, shifting back to let Fera rest I lean onto a tree gasping for air as my lungs burn and sides splitting with pain. Since I shifted I don't have my clothes and it's a weirdly cool night, I hear them following my blood trail doing it on purpose to lead them away I had a huge head start so I put blood all over the woods to keep them there for awhile. Hearing someone coming up the hill crunching leafs and sticks under their paws not caring if I hear them or not, that means it can only be one person. " Oh Allorra, you're smarter than them but I know you to well to fall for something like that " The deep brown wolf says stepping towards me. " Ha sure that's what it is, Nick " I say with a sneer watching him. " You shouldn't doubt my loyalty to my mate girl " He says shifting into his human form. " When you find her I'm sure you'll be very loyal " I say looking at him with an agitated look. Next thing I know his hand is around my throat and I'm being slammed to the ground, feeling the impact with the ground I wince in pain and frustration. He lets out a low threatening growl his eyes are black or damn near it, he stairs into my eyes and I just look back with a pissed expression. " If this is how you treat your so called mate I'd hate to see how you treat the real one " I say trying to piss him off enough he slips up. He just tightens his grip cutting off some of my ability to breath, this tight grip will leave quite the bruise when it forms on my skin in the next few days. He moves closer to my face, if I could move I would hit this ass so fast. " You are my mate and the sooner you expect it the sooner you'll be happy, back home with me giving me plenty of satisfaction. " He says with a psychotic smile on his face. " Tsk " I manage to get this small noise out showing my disapproval of his crazy gross idea. He shoots me an angry look and starts tightening his grip trying to make me pass out, I take my left leg and sling him down the hill rolling till he hits a tree. Able to breath again I gasp for air and coughing, now on my hands and knees I look down to where I flung Nick. He isn't moving but I don't trust this guy as far as I can throw him, I set there trying to listen for a pulse or him breathing but I can't find anything. I crawl down to where he was about 15 feet don't the slope of the hill, I look around his body and that's when I see a branch sticking out of the tree it looks like he's just laying on it but I can lightly smell blood. I crouch down getting as close as I can to him with out touching him, I could now see that the branch was ... well impaling him... he's definitely dead. I look down to the wolves in the woods below and look back at Nick, I move his body off the branch so more of his blood would come out on the ground and flood the area with his revolting scent. After moving the body I walk along the ridge of the hill down back into the woods, I don't know how far away I am from the house but I need my clothes so I start my journey back. A few hours later I'm back in the woods behind the house looking for my clothes when I here men talking, I soon see it's Jason and Alpha John. Looking at them Jason has something in his hands but what? They step more into the moon light, the dicks got my clothes! I walk up to them I'm not making a sound while walking cuz that's dumb to do, they both face the house and they seem to be talking about something sad. " I'm sure she's coming back all her stuffs here and she can't run around naked in the woods at night in the cold " Jason says in a matter of fact kind of way. " Yeah but no one said she wouldn't be able to, she looked mortified once she spotted one of those wolves there has to be a reason she reacted that way son " Alpha John says in a defeated and sad tone. They fall silent for a moment thinking what to do next and I quickly snatched my clothes from Jason, scaring the hell out of the both of them. They turn around and Alpha John immediately turns back around as I'm still naked but quickly cover up with my clothes, Jason stairs for a sec before Alpha John smacks the back of his head and he turns back with his dad. Putting my clothes on I can see Jason trying to sneak glances but I'm better at this then he thinks, as he glances back I have my close back on and I'm standing there arms crossed and hip sassy. I mean mug him before walking between him and Alpha John, I jump the fence and shrub and start walking back to my window. I hear the boys jump the fence also, they don't say anything. They just watch me climb into my window hand slipping and falling to my face, I can hear them gasp with surprise and I just let the rest of my body fall to the floor with me and give the a thumbs up from the floor. They sigh and walk around to the front door, I stand up body aching and I close my window locking it cuz uuugh. I walk out of my room hearing the boys walk in, I'm guessing Alpha John told the others I was back cuz I could hear them coming back to the house. Walking thru the hallway I started feeling super groggy, that's what I get I guess. Entering the entrance I walk up to Alpha John and Jason, they just stair at me. " Oh good moon what? " I was just a little agitated " Would you like to talk now or later? Alpha John asks me looking like he wants to talk now but knows I might not. " Later please, I'm dead in the water rn and I'll probably collapse when I get to my room, ugh I still need to change into my sleep clothes " I say rubbing my hands over my face. " That's fine then but I do want answers tomorrow and for you to see our doctor " he says in a warm way, probably in a fatherly way. " I'll walk you to your room just in case you do collapse " Jason says placed his hand on his dads shoulder to reassure him. " Whatever, gnite Dad " I say with a wave walking away from Alpha John. As we walked away I could hear Alice talking to Alpha John probably telling him to go to bed, I hadn't noticed but I was wavering back and forth a little bit as I walked down the hall with Jason. I'm guessing he did notice cuz I suddenly felt his hand on my side, attempting to steady me but as he did this I guess my brain felt that it was safe enough to pass the hell out! Who does that!? As I pass out I can feel Jason strengthen his grip catching me, and everything goes black. [Jasons POV ] I notice that she's swaying and decide to steady her till we get to her room placing my hand on her side I can feel how thin she actually is, and suddenly she passes out and I catch her. She's completely out her body limp but her breathing relaxed like she's well... passed out, picking her up bridal style her head now lays on my chest I can smell the light smell of blood. Deciding to ask Margaret to change her clothes for her I step into her room and look around to make sure everything is where it should be, I move her blankets and lay her on her bed calling Margaret to come change her. While I wait I stair at this small exhausted wolf, Margaret reaches the room and lightly bows to me I nod in response. As I leave I look back at Allorra she looks at piece like she needed this sleep more that anything, I leave and walk back to the front of the house to the entryway I look down and see some of her blood is still on the floor it's dry now Damian lets out a growl. Jason: what? Damian: I don't know but I don't like it. Jason: is it her blood or the fact that she put the family in danger by bringing so many strays here? Damian: it's her blood, I don't like smelling it Jason : does it smell bad? Damian: No you idiot I quite like it but it is missing her wolves scent, well she doesn't have one that we've smelled anyway. I just don't like that she's had blood shed and she's only been here for like two days. Jason: Hmm... ok? I stop talking to Damian and decide to clean up the blood so it doesn't bother him more than it seams to, wetting a paper towel I wipe the blood up off the floor and thro the town away. Jason: Better? Damian: Yes. Since father feels like she's gonna be like a daughter to him she'll feel like a sister to us so it makes sense I'd be agitated. Jason: um... sure? I can feel him roll his eyes at me, as I walk to the stairs I see Margaret leaving Allorras room I ascend the stairs and go to my room. I set on my bed with a groan and let my head fall back onto my bed, as I start to fall asleep a hand is placed on my leg. Scaring the hell out of me I open my eyes quickly seeing it's just a old lover named Nikki. " Nikki what the hell are you doing in my room? " I asked confused and bothered by her waking me up. " I just wanted to see if you wanted some company tonight " she says in a seductively laced voice. " Nikki we haven't been more than fuck buddies for years and those were only for stress related reasons." I say in a voice that clearly indicates I'm in no mood. Damian: make her leave the both of them are super annoying. " But you seemed so stressed about earlier I figured you'd need my help " she says with a wink. " What are you wearing? " I ask noticing the tight tiny outfit that is clearly to small for her bust. " I thought it would help us out for getting started " she says placing both hands on my legs wiggling her ass to try to look more appealing I guess. " Nikki, get out I'm exhausted and I have no reason to or want to have sex with you anymore we've been over for a long time. Go to bed I have am eating in the morning " I say getting up from my bed and pushing her out of my room, closing the door behind her. " ugh! Fine! " she angrily says stomping away to her room. Jason: Where does she get these ideas? We haven't dated in like 4 years and we haven't slept with each other in 3? Maybe 2? On like new years cuz we were so drunk... well at least I was drunk. Damian: She just wants to be Luna she kinda always has, but I thing Allorra being here makes her nervous about her place in the pack. Jason: That's she's a pack member and Allorra isn't. Damian: But Allorra could be mate. Jason: I highly doubt she is we haven't had anything special happen between us. Damian: That's only because we haven't had her scent and she's a stray they don't really want anyone around them usually so most of them completely suppress the need or want for a mate as I've explained before. Jason: yeah yeah I guess you're right, gnite Damian. Damian: Gnite. I crawl into bed and soon fall into a deep sleep. [Allorra POV] I sling forward in bed looking around to get my bearings, breathing hard from my panic I bring my knees up and put my hands on my face. Once I've calmed down I look over to the night stand, thank the moon Margaret brought me water or at least a glass. I guzzle the water down feeling like my mouth was a desert I put the glass down. I look down seeing I'm in pjs ... I don't remember changing? How did I get into bed? Thinking about it I remember Jason and me walking down the hall and then passing out. Oh goody he brought me to bed... but at least he didn't redress me the glass means Margaret was here and she'd never allow something so shameful to happen even if it was the future Alpha. Margaret maybe an older dog but she knows how to care for her pack, I get up and decide to roam the house I've been asleep for long enough it's almost light. I think I'm gonna make some tea and grab a book from the library and go sit on the front porch, leaving my room the house is quiet except for the snores of the sleeping pack members. I go to the kitchen to start heating the water carefully opening the cabinets to not wake anyone, I find a pot the tea and a cup now where is the sugar? Opening the pantry door I see the sugar. Heating the water I leave the kitchen and walk down the hall to the library to get one of the book I left there before, retrieving the book off the shelf it was placed back on I go back to the kitchen to check on the water. Seeing that the water hardly get warm I walk over to the front door where some jackets are hung up, I pick one up and put it on. It's obviously a males jacket and it's smells really good, like really really good! Wait what's wrong with me? I look like a freak thank the moon the sun is just now lighting the very tip of the sky. Fera: Mate! " what!? " I say out loud in surprise to Fera screaming at me when I thought she was still sleeping. Fera: I'm pretty sure that's mates smell. " pretty sure? " I ask Fera: they haven't worn it in a while because it's been so it's hard to tell exactly but if it was fresh I'd know. " well ... I don't know who's jacket this is so we'll have to wait till we smell it again and then ignore it " I say walking back to my hot water. She doesn't say any more I'm guessing because she knows why I don't want a mate, or she's trying to remember if we've smelled that scent before. Turning the stove off I pour my water into my cup with my tea bag and sugar, walking to the door I remember how loud the damn thing is. So I walk to the back door and decide to sit in the garden and read while the sun comes up, and once the suns up and I'm at a good stopping point or if I just finish the book I'll do some stretching. Walking to the small seats I sit down and curl in my seat and start reading, taking sips of my Earl Grey tea as I read I feel very relaxed. Shifting in my seat were the arm rest is at my back and the house is directly in front of me I notice someone in the window and I wave to them, I can't tell who it is cuz it's still not all that bright in the house yet. They step out holding a coffee mug it's Jason, he walks down to me in the garden stopping at the start of the round tile for the small lounging area. " morning, how'd you sleep? " he asks sipping his coffee. " Pretty much the same as always, why are you up so early? " I ask plucking a leaf from the bush next to me and slip it into my book as a bookmark. " Me and Dad have a meeting today kinda early, um... can I ask you to stay out of the house till the meetings over? " He asks looking into his coffee cup. " Sure, it's not my house so what y'all say goes " I say with a shrug Ok good I just don't want you to get attacked especially after last night " He says looking me in the eye this time. " Don't worry about it I can handle it. " I say opening my book again. " So... why are you wearing my jacket? " he asks with a brow raised sipping his coffee. " Oh!? This is yours? It was just hanging up and mines in the wash still I think. " I say looking down at my book hoping Fera was sleeping. " Well it looks cute on you. " saying this as he walks away. I can feel my face turning red, he looks back at me with a mischievous smile and a giggle. Ugh I hate him, now that I've stopped I might as well do my stretches. Putting my book down and taking the jacket off walk over to an area that still has just grass, I start stretching starting with the basics like every morning. But after those I wanna do more intensive ones but you can't just jump to those, so I just do what I did the last time I was here glancing up to the house I can see Jason watching me. After those I decide I'm ok to do the harder stuff, I'm pretty much just doing a routine at this point running and flipping thru the yard hitting the odd shrub now and then. Deciding I was done I walked back over to the table and grabbing the jacket putting it back on and setting down to finish reading the book. About two chapters from finishing I hear Alice call to me from the patio and waving me to the house, putting the leaf in the book I get up and walk to the house to see what she wants. " What do you want for lunch dear? " she asks " It's lunch time already!? I didn't even have breakfast... oh well, hmm I'm good with anything really. " I say with a shrug looking at my cup of empty tea. " You didn't eat breakfast!? Oh dear I wish you said something to someone " she says looking worried. " Nah I was asked to stay out of the house so it cant be helped " I shrug again " Don't tell John that he'll be mad " saying this she still looked worried. " ok, is that meeting over? " I ask " Yes it ended 20 min ago " she says opening the door to the dining room. I just nod and walk in and she's smiling at me weird, like she's excited to see something but I have no clue what. Seeing Margaret I wave and sit at the table to finish my book, Alice sits across from me just watching me and it's really creepy. I look up to her unable to read with her intense stare, I just raise a brow and wait for her to say something. " So... What's new? " she asks in a leading and mischievous tone placing her chin on her clasped hands. " Uhm... I killed a guy last night but other than that I don't think anything is... " I say wondering what she wants. " What!? What do you mean!? " She practically yelled. " ??? I mean I killed a guy but he started it so it was self defense... technically " I say laying my book down on the table. Everyone is just staring at me even the maids, they stay that way for some time so I started reading again and finished my book. Before I could get up to go change Alpha John and Jason walk down into the dining room, they stop in their tracks seeing everyone stare at me. I get up and walk over to them shrugging I walk back to my room to change, all changed I switch my slippers for my boots and go back to the dining room. Everyone is back to normal so I hang Jason's jacket back up, I don't think they noticed me yet so I stare at Jason. Fera: Mate. Allorra: Damn were you wake? Fera: What? I smell him now it's Jason! Allorra: Yeah I know we spoke earlier and it was his jacket. Fera: Were planing on telling me!? Allorra: Nope. Fera: YOU SON O- Brought back from my inner argument Alpha John is touching my shoulder looking worried, " You ok? " he asks " Huh? Yeah I was just arguing with Fera sorry, so what's up? " I explain " We can talk now if you like... " I says worried " Nah lets eat then talk I haven't eaten yet any way " saying this I see Jason look a little guilty. " What? Why not? " He questions " I was in grossed in my book and I don't have a watch or clock to look at in the garden so time escaped me " I say with a shrug. " Well alright we'll talk after lunch then... wait what time did you get up!? " Alpha John asks " Umm... just before dawn " I say walking to the table " Why up so early? " he asks following me. " Just the same old demons coming for me no big deal " I say grabbing a seat. " What does that mean? " He asks " you're asking a lot of questions for someone waiting till after lunch to talk with me" I say " No I meant talk about last nigh, I can ask what I want now while we wait if it's not to intense " he says setting in his seat at the head of the table. " Fine. " I say with an eye roll. " what did you mean by demons? " He asks with concern " It means the others tend to keep me awake at night " I say looking into the small salon next to the dining room. " You're just doing this in purpose now " he says flatly " One monster showed up last night so that's one less to wake me up. " I say looking at him from the corner of my eye. " Ok well lets change the subject then, so what's knew with everyone? " he asks trying to lighten the mood. " I kept my window locked last night, Fera found mate, hitting your shrubs in the garden hurts more that I thought they would, y'all are bad hearing people in your own home, it's oddly cool for this time of year, I really want to snoop thru the house... and that's it I think for me... oh and that dudes dead don't worry about him coming back. " I say all this quickly trying to cover the mate thing up.

#long post #long AF post #just ignore this its just practice #or something?

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