#what a waste of time effort and money

[ciderjacks]

Can we kill the whole “no attention on artwork is sad and means it was a waste of time” thing? Like Seriously can we kill it. I put a fuckton of effort into my art and it usually gets like, 10 likes, and that doesn’t really matter to me bc I love making it. I’m grateful for nice comments, but I’m gonna keep making the stuff I make regardless.

Like ok I’m not trying to sound all holier than thou here, but the amount of artists online who say stuff like “this artwork was a flop, so I’m feeling really discouraged” is making me go crazy. Is that all it is for you guys? Content? When you’re making artwork are you just making content for an audience? No offence but I feel like that’s a huge fucking waste of time, way more than making art you like and getting minimal attention on it.

#art #discourse #i guess?? #Idk sorry I know I sound like an asshole but dude #the way people talk about art is crazy #Where’s your love for what you’re doing? Who cares if it didn’t blow up like you wanted? You still had fun making it right?? #“Ppl need to start rbing artists more all their effort is being ignored bc ppl hate art” is some hot steaming bs too #Like oh Were you creating for attention? I didn’t realize random peoples approval was that important to you my fault #It’s such an accepted mentality too like “well of course I want people to like my work that I put hours into” is #Seen as a completely reasonable statement which like. on the surface it is. But then u realize they consider 20 likes “no attention” #Is you liking it not enough? Are the 20 people who liked it not enough? Are your friends who gushed over it not enough? #Or do you not actually mean “people” when you say that #Do you maybe just want to feel an ego boost when you see a big number next to that thing you put hours into. #You feel like you’ve earned a big number for all that otherwise wasted time #It’s like a weird twist on consumerism #Where at some point for a lot of you I feel like you’re not making art. You’re making a product. #You’re just a commission artist except you’re not making any money #It’s sad I hate it and if you’re an artist who talks about their art like this then I don’t respect you #And I sure as hell don’t respect your “art”

[feluka]

Please can I have a link the ofmd renew campaign organiser’s fate like

there's probably more out there but i don't have the stomach to delve into the depths of the fandom so there's all i can find from a rudimentary twitter search: link to statement from the "organizers"

ahhh the catharsis of seeing them turn on each other and call each other selfish in the replies... maybe this little infighting will refocus their efforts from harassing palestinians to harassing each other instead and all of us will get a reprieve from them at last.

#as far as what happens to the money there's probably a lot to look into and a lot of people to ask but #tbh anon it's just not worth any time and effort to waste on these people. just point and laugh and heckle then move on <3 #there are better things to do with our time atm

[orbmanson7]

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Very bad grade in therapy today

#thought i could make progress this year and yet here i am having done jack shit by now #what has even been the point #i just wanted to do something today that didnt feel awful like try to encourage people to watch a show or play a game #and now im just right back to Why do i bother staying alive? im never going to make any progress #and even if i do I'm going to just be worthless the whole time and waste precious resources others could be using #oh yes just try saying a nice thing to yourself for once! yeah sure that will help when i cant do anything worth a damn #i want to help people but i have no skillsets and no money to further my education and teaching myself gets me right where i already am! #continuing like this is like spitting in the face of anyone who is actually out there pursuing their dreams and thats not fair to them #they put in all that hard work and im over here being a whiny ass bitch bc i want so badly to do better and learn more #but the only thing holding me back is that im a dumbass who cant do anything right and no one will ever think differently #why am i trying to make myself something i can never be? what is goddamn point if its just a waste of everyones time and effort #i just... it feels like the least i can do is just stop taking up space #free up some oxygen for someone who really needs it and shelter for someone who truly deserves it #i shouldnt even have these things and yet i complain about how much gas i have to pay to commute to my jobs #like such an asshole #and i said i so much in these tags bc im such a selfish jerk who coearly doesnt care enough nor has a worthwhile vocabulary to say otherwise #theres just no fucking point to any of this #... #its cold today #might be a good day to do my favorite plan #actually yeah fuck it im gonna go #hope you all stay kind to yourselves and enjoy your 2024 #you absolutely deserve it and everything you can get out of it #keep being amazing yall #see you on the flip side or whatever #orbs thought bubbles

[diseaseriddencube]

looking at the akudrive perfumes again today and 1. why are they all bergamot based. is bergamot and pepper just the cyberpunk scent???? 2. what is with the character choices. cutthroat, courier and hacker???? why not swindler

#akudama drive #you just know they weren't brave enough to make a sniper perfume #I kinda want the funeral scented cutthroat perfume #just to know what it would smell like #but reading the notes #tbh I think I'd actually hate it #and then it'd be a probably $200 waste #assuming I could even find a reseller that ships here #I think I'd enjoy the green tea one though #which would probably only be $100 total assuming that listing is still up by the time I have money #both versions of the bottle seem really fucking generic and boring though #like for expensive merch I'd want a cool bottle #portals perfume style except a really ugly statue of cutthroat's head 😍 #anyways though. I guess I'll get the green tea one if possible #and sadly never know what a funeral smells like #I just. don't want to spend that much money and effort on a perfume I'd probably hate the smell of #I just hate florals and wood scents like that #I like more sweet or gourmand stuff

[brainrotdotorg]

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extremely awesome when your dad calls you to tell you for the sole purpose of telling you you need to get a job (along with your internship) because you are not making enough money, tells you that you arent "Really doing work because youre sitting at home and drawing", says you need to "hustle", says you need to leave the house now that you have a car (but doesnt allow you to drive to visit your friends because its too close to the border) and when you express your frustration that you HAVE been trying to get a job its just that no ones hired you yet he says that your little sister got hired the day after she applied somewhere and that you maybe just "havent found the right place to work". fucking god

#this is a vent sorry guys #im just yelling into the void i dont really need anyone to try and console me right now. #i just want to beat the hell out of something . #god. im not earning enough money. thats what fucking matters to them the most is the money #i know theyve got other kids to support and i know i should be pulling my weight but i am trying. im honestly trying #any time im not working on SOMETHING i feel guilty. #this isnt me trying to beg for commissions either god knows my plate is full on writing already #i just need to get an actual fucking job im trying to get hired i really am #they think ive been wasting my summer because ive been spending it doing my internship and working on my own art and writing #it feels like whatever i do is never good enough #if i hear the words 'put in the effort' from him one more time i am going to scream

[atinyladybug-daydreams]

Advice from experience: Be VERY careful on spending money on games, especially if what you're spending money on is like, limited events and shit.

Once you're in, you're IN and it's very, very hard to get out of mostly because of guilt and not wanting to put down stuff you've spent hours grinding for.

#alt rambles #rants in tags #recently started putting down and breaking off of a game that i've been grinding on for two years #and realised how much more time i have on my hands #and how much less draining my daily life is #and that i have more energy and time to do stuff instead of spending 2-3 hours every day to grind on the game #yea i spent 2-3 sometimes 4 hours per day just playing this game on a daily basis for the last 2 years #because i spent money and a shit load of time and effort in it #so putting it down genuinely makes me feel a lot of guilt #cause i feel like its such a waste #but like idk #i got really frustrated the other day and so burned out i gave myself a few days break and hoenstly im doing so much better than before #and i actually have time to do other stuff and do more art that now im starting to like #not want to go back to playing the game anymore #lmao yea if you know me you know what game im talking about #i mean i still love the game but damn was it fucking predatory and its only gotten worse thanks to new updates imo #it was fun before and now its just endless grinding #anyways #its another reason why i dont wanna pick up playing genshit even though i really want to #cause i finally got scara (thanks friend who logs in sometimes) #cause like i know genshit will also do that to me smh #anyways idk its just been on my mind lately about how i have unhealthy relationships with a lot of video games #i think im just going to stick to games like sdv and sr that don't have event after event #so thta i can go for breaks without feeling bad or like im missing out

[avatar-state-kate]

I thought we all knew months ago (years ago actually) when Bryke left due to creative differences that the atla live action remake was going to be bad, now we are getting clips/interview quotes that sound like it’s going to be bad and we’re surprised?

#I thought when they announced the concept we knew it was going to be bad #idk I honestly do not care at all #I feel no hype I pretend I do not see it #what a waste of time money and effort #I will not be watching because I don’t care and I’m not here to waste my time on rage baiting myself #atla #atla live action

[fcstellae]

going from a really tough program that stressed me out 24/7 to some baby easy classes with a lot of people who dont care didnt give me the rewarding feeling i thought it would

#i do realize this is a gripe that very little people would ever share #and that this like a crazy first world problem #and that whats easy for me is difficult to other people #but im BORED. IM BORED. NOTHING HERE IS AS CHALLENGING AS IT WAS IN THE OTHER SCHOOL. #IM BORED IM RESTLESS IM WASTING MY TIME I FEEL MYSELF GETTING LAZIER AND LAZIER #ALL THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT I MADE. GONE #THERES SO MANY PEOPLE WHO DONT CARE!!!! WHY ARE YOU PAYING MONEY IF YOU DONT CARE!!! #someone in my class complained about an 800 word essay. 800 WORDS. ITS 800 WORDS. YOU CANT SAY ANYTHING OF NOTE FOR 800 WORDS? #rant aside i just feel unfulfilled #and the funniest part is is my grades still are affected (tho theyre still good) because im just getting lazy becquse i feel unchallenged #and completely unmotivated #i already stand out in all of my classes #and i just dont feel like putting in effort #i know itll get harder i know and i cant wait for it #i cannot function without some outside stres or something. i feel like im falling apart

[townofcrosshollow]

Idk man if you're constantly talking about your crushing loneliness and feelings of being ostracised and left out when you ostensibly have a bunch of friends around you then maybe the feelings of loneliness aren't the problem there

#i would always feel really empty and distant and 'act out' after our hangouts #and i always framed it as like 'i get the high when i'm around people and then i crash afterwards' #and didn't really consider that maybe sitting in a vc for 4 hours feeling left out while other people have fun is just soul sucking #it was always framed as my behaviour that was the problem. 'you did this and you did that.' so i just kinda internalized that #if i felt like shit it must be my fault. everybody knows i'm the one who causes problems so i'm just causing more problems #if i say that something made me uncomfortable and the response is 'i wont make accomodations and how dare you even ask' it must be my fault #idk. we filled out consent forms in the game i'm really not excited to play and i was reminded that nobody ever asked my consebt #and when i tried to advocate for myself and voice that i wasn't consenting it was treated like i was causing problems by trying to say that #and i saw that as a reasonable reaction at the time cause i had been so deeply convinced that i was broken and horrible #that if i was trying to revoke my consent or even just negotiate it then i was ruining everything for everybody else #that if i was uncomfortable with what was going on i needed to just shut up and live with it #i wish i had realized that and dropped out months ago. maybe that could have preserved some semblance of my relationships with those people #far too late for that now. i'm trying to accept that #and all that effort was wasted anyway #i tried to say once that i was putting in a massive amount of effort and i felt like nobody was recognizing that fact #and i still kind of feel that way #i put hours of mental energy into trying to be enough for people who kept demanding more from me and kept giving me less in return #did that do me any good or did it just cause me 3 months of grief and an empty bank account from therapy? #the problem is that i still wish things had turned out better even though i know i had no control over that #if i had kept advocating for myself it just would have been over far faster. i guess that might have spared me a bit of money #if i tried to talk about the problems it would have just been dismissed with some quick quippy therapy phrase amounting to 'not my fault' #we're already living in the universe where i put all my effort into changing in the ways i was told to change and look how well that went #idk. the attitude was never 'let's fix the problems.' it was always 'you need to fix it.' and then when i did it was #'now there's a new problem. fix that one too. and this one. and that one.' #and to do all that work for somebody and then be told they thought you never even cared about them. man it just stings #idk. it's in the past now. but i can't build new relationships. i'm trying and it's impossible #i try meeting new people and they all suck. i try strengthening relationships with old people and they all get too busy or leave. #the only reason i post these things on tumblr is cause i don't have anybody else to talk to about it #the only person i could talk to has their own shit going on. there really just isn't anybody else #personal

[lemon-wedges]

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#lately its been hard to get back into my bgs studies #especially that now fanart and commissions have made me more money than any of my 'professional' art ever has #its not even a LOT of money but enough to let me even think about planning a day out with a friend without worry #idk man!!!!! #it can be very disheartening #years put into studying and never getting anywhere #but ive also put so much effort not to loose myself to that depression #and continue pushing myself to learn and get better #and i do in fact like drawing backgrounds #but i find myself less interested in learning so i can get into animation and more just so i can paint cool stuff for people and their ocs #sigh #and see #back in jan i finally just accepted that i dont really want to learn how to paint bgs or probs for shows #and just embraced a style i thought would be a waste of time #like whats the point if ur not putting ur all into making every part of ur stuff marketable for animation #whoose gonna want this? #ME i want this #ive never felt happier or prouder of my work than i have these last few months #and its crazy to think ive only been painting like this for a few months when it feels like its all ive ever been #anyways #i love you #and ENOUGH THINKING #least i fall into the horrors #i got more drawing to do HUWAH #😎👍

[mariacallous]

I’m never going to finish that grad program lol

#between my suspension and now being an out of state student I’m not going to be able to afford it lmao #wow what a waste of time and money and effort yet again

[slipper007]

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#im sorry for how much I've been venting on here but things are shitty and hate burdening people with it #to delete #im applying for grad school now and I asked my parents very carefully if they'd be helping me with application fees or if i was on my own #and I made sure that I didn't imply that I expected it. i made sure i worded it so that it was fine if they didn't want to or couldn't. #and I made sure I brought it up when everything was calm and there were no stressors or anything. #and I just got an exasperated sigh and even before they said anything it was over. literally just say you don't want to pay. it's fine. #don't sit there and tell me my grades are great but you don't want to waste your money. that feels so much worse than just being told no. #it feels like they don't believe I'll get in and it's not worth the effort to find out. #and honestly they're probably right. I'm a wreck lately. finishing my applications feels insurmountable. #finding the money to go even if I get accepted is impossible. and that feels awful because I know so many people getting free rides already #it's just like high school all over again. everyone's practically getting paid to go to one of their top schools and then there's me. #stressed about application fees #stressed about what on earth I'll do if they say no #stressed about how I cannot afford this without loans and being in debt. #i just. i hate this. i hate myself. my applications look like shit. the recommendation I've gotten back is literally shit. #i already know I'm not gonna do well in the quote unquote adult world and honestly this is just proving it to me #i literally haven't felt like me since junior year of high school and i don't know what to do and there's just no time to rest #and no time to put my all into anything #im doing school and 10 hours of work per week with free weekends and i can't rest already #how the fuck am I going to do school and 30+ hours a week of work and make rent and commute and agh #i feel so behind and so inferior and so fucking shitty all the time and there's nothing to fucking do about it #hhhhhhh #and nobody gets it. least of all me.

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[aansoo]

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#literally at my breaking point #and I know I’m at my breaking point every 2-3 months but this is another level #why is this so existence so FRUSTRATING it’s insidious #I feel so ungrateful but if given the chance I really would throw away this life #it’s so stupid and ugly and mundane and boring #and when it’s not boring it’s downright tragic #what’s even the point I’m just rotting and getting progressively more insane and unstable #and money and time and effort is all going to waste #I just need something horrific to happen to me at this point I’m exhausted #I’m sick of burdening everyone id just like to leave in peace

[bubblegumbeyotch]

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#god i’m so unhappy and i just really don’t know what to do #i tried to look at job listings today and everything i saw sounded absolutely abysmal #i feel so pathetic i just wish i could work and have a normal job and not be a fucking freak about everything #i just wanna be able to take care of myself i hate being dependent on others so fucking much #but all i have the energy to do is lay around and feel miserable and everyone keeps telling me i need to do something! anything! #and i try i really fucking do but just nothing happens bc i just have no energy for anything #i want to go to school or have a job or SOMETHING believe me i don’t want to just lay around and not do anything and have no money #it SUCKS and makes me feel awful about myself and it’s straining my relationships bc i can tell everyon: #*everyone’s tired of me acting like this and i’m tired of it too but i just genuinely don’t know how to get out of it #im so tired and depressed and i’m trying so hard not to be like i’m taking my meds and doing my basic tasks and hygiene #but beyond that i have no motivation or energy for anything else and people are concerned about me wasting my potential #and i just feel like i’m disappointing everyone and i’m just a time/money/effort suck for everyone around me #i don’t even know what would make me feel better at this point #maybe just being someone else entirely. someone who’s not a fuckup who wastes everyone’s time like me #just nothing brings me joy anymore and i’m so agitated and pessimistic about everything and i wish that i wasn’t #the only thing i know to do is to cover it up with an inflated self esteem about how hot i am and how people desire me #but that desire is always so superficial and empty and feels amazing in the moment and progressively more awful as time goes on #idk i’m just ranting at this point but just know i’m in my electra heart era and not necessarily happy about it #personal

[asthevermincrawls]

I think this person on reddit summed up the youtube adblocker situation perfectly. my reaction to this is not "oh man guess I'll watch ads." its, "well, I guess I'll just do something more productive with my time." I highly doubt any adblock user is going to willingly go back to watching ads. so what actually happens is youtube loses a functionally tiny amount of its userbase--because adblockers weren't even losing them a significant amount of money in the first place(!)--and a bunch of adblock users move on to something else. what a fantastic waste of time and effort

#did you do it? did you stick it to your userbase? did you show them whose boss? #did you make them watch your eight fucking unskippable ads in a row? did you? #a.txt

[ketchuppee]

During the 2008 recession, my aunt lost her job. Her, her partner, and my three cousins moved across the country to stay with us while they got back on their feet. My house turned from a family of four to a family of nine overnight, complete with three dogs and five cats between us.

It took a few years for them to get a place of their own, but after a few rentals and apartments, they now own a split level ranch in a town nearby. I’ve lost track of how many coworkers and friends have stayed with them when they were in a tight spot. A mother and son getting out of an abusive relationship, a divorcee trying to stay local for his kids while they work out a custody agreement, you name it. My aunt and uncle knew first hand what that kindness meant, and always find space for someone who needed it, the way my parents had for them.

That same aunt and uncle visited me in [redacted] city last year. They are prolific drinkers, so we spent most of the day bar hopping. As we wandered the city, any time we passed a homeless person, my uncle would pull out a fresh cigarette and ask them if they had a light. Regardless of if they had a lighter on hand or not, he offered them a few bucks in exchange, which he explained to me after was because he felt it would be easier for them to accept in exchange for a service, no matter how small.

I work for a company that produces a lot of fabric waste. Every few weeks, I bring two big black trash bags full of discarded material over to a woman who works down the hall. She distributes them to local churches, quilting clubs, and teachers who can use them for crafts. She’s currently in the process of working with our building to set up a recycling program for the smaller pieces of fabric that are harder to find use for.

One of my best friends gives monthly donations to four or five local organizations. She’s fortunate enough to have a tech job that gives her a good salary, and she knows that a recurring donation is more valuable to a non-profit because they can rely on that money month after month, and can plan ways to stretch that dollar for maximum impact. One of those organizations is a native plant trust, and once she’s out of her apartment complex and in a home with a yard, she has plans to convert it into a haven of local flora.

My partner works for a company that is working to help regulate crypto and hold the current bad actors in the space accountable for their actions. We unfortunately live in a time where technology develops far too fast for bureaucracy to keep up with, but just because people use a technology for ill gain doesn’t mean the technology itself is bad. The blockchain is something that she finds fascinating and powerful, and she is using her degree and her expertise to turn it into a tool for good.

I knew someone who always had a bag of treats in their purse, on the odd chance they came across a stray cat or dog, they had something to offer them.

I follow artists who post about every local election they know of, because they know their platform gives them more reach than the average person, and that they can leverage that platform to encourage people to vote in elections that get less attention, but in many ways have more impact on the direction our country is going to go.

All of this to say, there’s more than one way to do good in the world. Social media leads us to believe that the loudest, the most vocal, the most prolific poster is the most virtuous, but they are only a piece of the puzzle. (And if virtue for virtues sake is your end goal, you’ve already lost, but that’s a different post). Community is built of people leveraging their privileges to help those without them. We need people doing all of those things and more, because no individual can or should do all of it. You would be stretched too thin, your efforts valiant, but less effective in your ambition.

None of this is to encourage inaction. Identify your unique strengths, skills, and privileges, and put them to use. Determine what causes are important to you, and commit to doing what you can to help them. Collective action is how change is made, but don’t forget that we need diversity in actions taken.

#long post #some thoughts I’ve been having