#what do i do while the class is reading

[marblerose-rue]

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it's this way! / squirrelpaw and leafpaw

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #squirrelflight #leafpool #warriors #warrior cats #wc #waca #wc art #IM SORRY THIS TOOK A WHILE sufferer of the stardew valley fixation and college u_u #IM GETTING MORE COMFORTABLE RENDERING which is cool but im still testing the limits of what works and what doesnt so . #REGARDLESS I AM SUPER DUPER STINKIN HAPPY WITH HOW THIS TURNED OUT #you are not immune to me constantly drawing leaf and squilf #i belieeeve theres one more coming and then ill be back to regular schedule #and that will mean either silly little/medium to low effort things or radio silence #did i tell yall i have an exam next week for algebra and i have no clue whats going on. its cobwebs in my brain #but other than that classes are going very well and i am enjoying second semester very much. i got to look at daphnia thru a microscope #today which is super fun :-) microbiology is so cool #one day ill plan my posts better since its midnight but i have a feeling yall are gonna eat this up #WHICH SPEAKING OF you guys have been so kind to me :'-) i read all of the nice things yall leave in the notes and it makes me so happy #i always get so nervous before i post and idk why #tomorrow i will put this up on my redbubble if i remember . i would do it now but it takes a while and i gotta get up #at six to study for a quiz at 8 </3 crying sobbing #anyway if the erins want to sponsor me my email is m- * sound of metal chair wham * #thats a joke unless they want to ANJHKFDGB

[pyjamacryptid]

I’m trying soooo hard not to rant to my friends about unfortunately common writing conceptions but I remember that I was once studying to become a literal editor, so I feel justified for a second, and then I’m back to staying my hand because this soap box feels like a face reveal! The face of pretension!!!! Lmao!!!

#I know I’m thinking myself in circles!!!! #aksjsksj #I hadn’t thought of editing (writing) as a career until my creative writing teacher came up to me after class #and was like hey… kid…. you wanna do what you were doing all class for your classmates while making a living?? #and I was like 👀? #anyway that likely won’t happen now and I’m much happier with my current studies #but studying it or not it’s because I CANNOT TURN OFF WHEN I READ #I AM UNABLE TO!!!! #it’s about the rhythm of sentences!! pacing!!! #EMOTIONAL pacing too!!! #the tonal difference between minute changes in syntax!!!! #I’m so passionate about it and opinionated wjdjekd #I both want to go on a rant about it and hide lmaooo #anyway #writing #creative writing #ren rambles #ren rants #ren keeps hovering her foot over the soap box and doing a walk away and then a spin back to the box and then back again and

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[aropride]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

#text #ive never understood flashcards . like what to do with them. how is that any more different or helpful than just like... writing a list on #paper of vocab terms or whatever #and like conceptually i know 'learning' is like. not only committing things to memory but also being able to engage with it which #is why teachers loveeeee group discussions and essays. but like. you read the text and then you go to class and Discuss but how do you #Learn what the text is saying like how do you . put it in your brain and udnerstand and remember it . #i think im missing something very simple because everyone else in the world seems to understand this fine #like where does the part where you go oh! i understand this and can explain it in my own words. Happen #how do u force it to happen if its not something ur autistic about #Like the only example i can think of rn of this is when i hyperfixated on hpa axis dysregulation + trauma a couple weeks ago #so i was learning stuff about it for Fun and not for school so no comprehension tests or notes or anything #and basically i'd just put on a webinar while i sorted seaglass or worked on sewing or whaever #and i can explain the concept fine. ur brain controls ur body so if it gets too scared ur body loses its shit basically. #but i dont remember most of the words. i still can barely define neurotransmitter #i can apply this to my own life but i confuse the hippocampus and the frontal lobe and the amygdala etc #and i couldnt point out any of them on a diagram #i dont get it . like i know a lot and simultaneously nothing at all abt it #how am i supposedto be remembering words and numbers AND understanding the concepts AND im supposed to do that between #reading the book and engaging in thoughtful conversation with my peers i dont understand

[hextechmaturgy]

please nobody dox me for this one but I feel like the social commentary in bridgerton is. really bad

#bridgerton #i thought they had colorblind casting and was like okay dope! but then. racism does exist? and we ended it via royal wedding? What #id like to know what's going in their colonies now #show me that instead of all this damn miscommunication #also! bold choice to end all racism while keeping sexism homophobia and classism most of all #eloise should've been a lesbian or aro/ace but if we are going to have her marry someone (a man) why does it have to be a lord #she can't stand them! have her be with the paper boy and end class divide. via wedding #that's how it works right 🤨 #man...i did watch both seasons and ive read romancing mr bridgerton. ill probably be watching s3 #but i do so mourning the wasted potential #while i distract myself with all the GORGEOUS wigs they made for the queen

[extra-somethin-somethin]

hey so do you think wtv keiko had to deal with growing up with yusuke could be considered a type of parentification

#god chapters where barely anything happens except a character's realization about things can be hard ... #im writing another keiko pov chapter and it's hard because well!! #keiko was never really a main focus in the series and as time goes on she gets even less of a focus so i have to fill in these spots #in her personality and views that aren't really explored. im taking a lot of liberties lets say #and idek if it's gonna read as in character cos of that #anyway im tryna say that like. pre series keiko was basically this presence in yusuke's life and he saw her as a pain but he cared #she was there to scold him and cajole him into going to his classes and she was his only friend #now we know atsuko was negligent and idk how involved the yukimuras were in his life but i feel like keiko #whether directly or indirectly was given this duty like you have to keep him outta trouble #you're smart you're mature he needs someone like you. this responsibility just kind of put on her before she can understand the weight of i #and she can't really comprehend that weight until it's abruptly taken from her. yusuke dies and there's no one to shepherd #i feel like keiko should get to be mad about this. this realization of the nature of their dynamic. keiko planning things around yusuke #who's never done that in his life. not because he's purposely being thoughtless but bc he was never the one to have to plan #to think about what their future looks like. he just kinda drifted along and keiko tried to do damage control. it wasn't fair #yusuke is keeping secrets from her she is scared of high school and that he'll die again without her knowing why and it's unfair #so she should get to be mad also because girls getting to be mad is one of my favorite things 👍🏼 #the realization that yusuke won't be lost without her so she shouldn't hinge her life on the expectation that he will be #she worries about yusuke a lot i think. especially after he comes back from the dead. and i think kuwa's presence would help ease that #dread in her heart. it doesn't have to be just me. there's someone who can be there with him always and it doesn't have to be me #the guilty relief of not having to be the sacrifice. but kuwa doesn't mind so maybe it's okay this way #idk just rambles about my fic while i puzzle out how to word it #character analysis #yukimura keiko #yu yu hakusho

[bluberimufim]

I printed out DoS's 1st draft for editing and my plan was to read it like a novel first for the Experience(TM) and I just.

I lowkey hate it rn.

I know I don't actually hate it and it's just that I'm too "in" this WIP at the moment since I recognize my strengths in the writing, but I need to be physically restrained to stop myself from working on it. Reading this WIP is not a want, it is a NEED!!! But I also NEED to take a break from it!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#i read up to chapter 5 today and omg #it was a terrible experience. it sucked. it hurted. #like i look at it and realize it's good but my brain says it's bad #HELP ME #-she says while obsessively outlining book 2 #i don't remember what i was doing with my free time before nanowrimo #bc since then i've been writing every second i get #guys i think i've forgotten how to human #i have a boring class on thursday and idk what to do. i used to writ during it but now? #tf do i do? learn??? acquire knowledge?????? #writeblr #writing #ramblies #devourer of souls wip #may post a pic of the doc later who tf knows at this point

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia? #how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

[victoriartdrawings]

fanfic rec post tomorrow maybe???👀

me to all my fandom ships knowing perfectly i wont have the time to do even 1 for at least one pairing til next week 🤡

#percabeth #snowbaird #anidala #zutara #hiccstrid #so much more ships name to add (like REALLY) these tagged ships are just some my brain is currently obsessed with this week #my next obsession next month???? idk yet 💀 my head is weird. like often #rn im mostly frustated with myself and feel a little bit useless be.cause. it takes so much time!!! but i want to do it #but i dont #so my brain says to me DWE IT YOU LAZY USELESS PROCASTINATING ASS!!!! #like first i have to remember the fic #then scroll through my 7000 downloaded fic folder. a nightmare 💀most of the time i dont remember the title but only the period #where i was obsessed with them (also hell because my multiple obsession with a ship always leave and then come back 2 or 6 months later 🤡 #so sometimes I find myself downloading 2 or 3 times the same fic🤡) #(ALSO some its been 4/5 years since i read them so i let u imagine the headache i get trying to remember lol) #then class them by long fic one shot - theme etc...while re-reading fast some of them bc my memory is shit #and AFTER ALL THAT i write the actual commentary for each one of them and remembering what my experience reading it was like #because personal commentary that made people laugh and want to read the fic recommended make me so happy for the author!!!! #ALSO I MOSTLY JUST LOVE SHARING MY READING EXPERIENCE WITH OTHERS!!!!! SO MUCH JOY AND HAPPINESS! #but then real life is like no.not today. and indeed. not today. #fanfic rec #fanfic #reader #fandom

[chloeseyeliner]

okay, young royals, WHAT happened while i was studying for the written constitution-

jesus christ on a bicycle.

#i swear this show puts content out there while i am doing the most random stuff #although that's for class it's not random but YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN #i haven't watched the clip yet #i hope it's something with sara #but i read about someone yelling over a six-second something #which i am going to do very soon i guess so JUDGEMENT-FREE ZONE HERE!!! #we are fangirling (gender neutral) #young royals #edit: OH IT'S WILMON #smiling #... #(maria don't be suspicious-)

[szappan]

also today me and an exchange student i became tentative but earnest friends with over the semester realised we're probably never going to see each other again it's all so strange how quickly you can start missing people

#we had the same lit class and we didnt talk for the first many weeks but i thought she was really smart and i had a little #freakout session about byron and shelley and keats to her and we discussed literature we like while i walked her home and it was great we #understood each other swimmingly and now she'll be so far away. but i hope we'll keep in touch id like to get to know her better shes great #we also braced ourselves and went up to our syntax lecturer together whos a delightful little clown but just as well i gaze at him in #wonder for 45 minutes every week barely comprehending anything he says. and he uploaded some sample questions for the exam and it's #it's not good lads #and today he said 'i read on markmyprofessor that im incomprehensible and i should present the material as a teacher' #and then he explained one thing completely plainly and we all understood what he explained just then and it was wondrous #then he went back to his mind games and allegories and stuff immediately and my minute of relief was over #and i really do wish hed done the whole lecture series *vaguely germanic accent* 'tanárként' #because he can and he just doesnt. silly. and difficult for me. but well maybe i'll figure it out by the time the exam comes around #my post

[casiavium]

Everyone on the program: omg cool mummies!!!

Me, literally holding back tears: they are so far from home. Are their souls scared? Has anyone even offered them bread in the afterlife?

#important to note: some ancient Egyptian tombs contain prayers to give the deceased food in the afterlife meant to be read aloud #we read aloud a prayer (NOT SPELL. I AM AGAINST CALLING IT A SPELL) in my class two years ago #we're going to have a 'discussion' on the ethics of displaying mummies and I had to start taking the anti anxiety meds again so I Do Not Cry #while this happens #god. i can't go into Egyptology #day one on the program and I Know Now. I cannot do it for Various Reasons #I'm still doing classics (Ptolemaic period counts as Classics not egyptology) but I Cannot and Will Not interact with modern Egyptian #bureaucracy #tw death #??? #i have no fucking clue what to tag this #it's apparently a controversial opinion to say that Egypt is in Africa #a dutch museum got an exhibit SHUT DOWN for PROMOTING AFROCENTRISM. EGYPT IS IN AFRICA #like this is super cool and very important to my feild of study of museum work in general #but yeahhhh i am Too Passionate and full of Righteous Indignation for egyptology #screaming crying throwing uppppppp #and idet and ruiu aren't even THERE

[coffee-bat]

i haven't been having the best time lately

#sorry vent incoming in tags. you dont have to read you really can skip this #/so the day before yesterday i had a major argument with mom. about something incredibly small but she got super mad at me (basically i #suggested she might have made a mistake while cleaning the oven bc when i turned it on i smelled and felt burning chemicals. like- #-teary eyes and sneezing i wasn't imagining it. and she got super mad and started yelling) #for the whole afternoon it was either silent treatment or yelling abt how what i said is 'unforgivable' #and ofc rejecting apologies and attempts to calm the situation down bc 'this isn't something you can just fix with an apology' #i literally just asked if she's sure everything went right with the oven cleaning. bc it was done in a rush. #so anyway at 10pm i HAD to get the situation to a manageable level bc i was starving and she was in the living room (we have an open kitchen #) so if i wanted to get sth to eat i'd have to confront her. so screaming match ensued again with me apologizing and explaining my point - #and her yelling over me. it went on for 40 minutes. finally after me apologizing like 70 times she calmed down but said that 'what i did is- #-unacceaptable and she does not give permission for it to happen again'. i went to sleep without getting anything to eat of course. #and this fucked me up. bc i really thought we were doing better. i really thought our relationship would only get better now esp after we - #-bonded on vacation. but turns out not. and shes still lowkey mad. #THEN yesterday im studying for a zoology exam and mention it on the phone with her #she goes 'who do you have zoology for'. i respond with the name of the teacher. confused. #'professor (x) died on friday.' #?????????? #'it's not published anywhere yet so yeah YOU have to tell your class' #i had a panic attack legit. i threw up from stress. i couldnt do it. first off bc of shock and secondly bc how am i supposed tojust jump #into group chat like 'oh hey btw professor died' #thankfully the info was posted officially by uni at 10pm. so i didnt have to do it. but mom kept pressing me to the whole day #i was nauseaous all of yesterday bc of it. i couldnt manage to study anymore after the shock. sure he was older but he was so energetic and #seemed healthy. i wouldnt have expected it it was just. a huge shock. im still not over it #like you cant know someone for half a year then not be shaken when they suddenly die yknow. and mom is lowkey making fun of me like #'what were you emotionally attached??? he wasnt anyone close' #no he wasnt but im still shaken. and being mocked is only making it worse. as is having to keep studying for his subject for the next few- #-days. #sorry ok vent over theres just. a lot happening for me and im struggling i needed to let it out ig. theres just too much at once #vent #death mention

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#thought that what I wanted was to go back to my dorm after a long day of classes and studying and listen to AP music while I eat dinner #but I think what I actually want is someone to talk to 🙃 #I'm tired. wish there was someone here who knew me well enough that I could just lean on them #and not have to try so hard to be confident or happy or outgoing for a little while. #oh well. I'll listen to AP music anyway. and then maybe do some reading for one of my classes. #then I'll have been productive at least. #delete later

[morphogenetic]

my life has just turned into an endless grading cycle. i spent 6 hours grading one hw set today (and may not even be done with it lol). i ALSO have two more hws and a midterm (+ 1 more midterm once it hits wednesday) to grade. just kill me now lol

#why am i such a fucking failure that i cant even grade basic shit from A CLASS I ALREADY TOOK FROM THE EXACT PROFESSOR #why am i such a fucking failure that it takes 6 hours to grade 14 people. lmao #nobody cares aj #i havent been able to do any research at all in WEEKS and its destroying me because its proving even more that i should just quit while im #ahead no matter how much i fucking LIKE DOING RESEARCH. LOL. ANYWAY #im so fucking behind in everything (grading research the whole lot) and i feel like im drowning but its because of my own incompetence. #just fucking k*ll me now lmfao. god. christ. what am i even doing #(all of these are rhetorical questions. i dont want an actual answer or reply to any of those lol) #(that said. liking this post if you read through all these godforsaken tags would be nice.) #(not required in the slightest but you know. would be nice to be acknowledged. anyway

[dilfpassing]

I work at an alternative school for teen students who for many various reasons are unable to be functional in a traditional typical classroom setting - disciplinary reasons, anxiety, emotional disorders, trauma, etc. - and I assist with a lot of english classes. It makes me a little sad that the teacher I work the most closely with hates the catcher in the rye so much because I’ve been rereading it and I think my students would relate really closely to Holden Caulfield. Caulfield may be annoying and whiny and privileged and obnoxious but I think the narrative of a teenager who acts out and postures himself to be older than he actually is and is struggling to comprehend and process a lot of trauma in his life so he does things he can’t even explain to himself and acts self destructive and lashes out to other people and has emotional breakdowns for seemingly no reason would be REALLY relatable to a lot of my students and I wish I could teach it to them...

#we read books out loud in class instead of assigning readings too so like #i could stop in real time and ask them to think about WHY they think holden is doing specific things #why holden starts crying when the pimp asks him for money #why holden says he doesnt care much about his siblings but then knows every timestamp on their daily routines #why holden gets so upset over other boys his age sleeping with girls but holden doesnt do it himself #why holden gets himself into fights but doesnt like fighting back #why holden zones out while hes being lectured and thinks about the ducks in the pond and where they go during the winter #he's like a very well illustrated example of a kid who projects all of his own issues onto everyone else because he doesnt know how to #process whats going on in his life #and it makes me sad how much of a bad reputation the book gets #bc reading it reminds me so much of my students who i love very dearly #who are very misunderstood and struggle with so much that isnt their fault #idk i think my students might have a lot of empathy for holden #i wish i could teach it to them but i dont control what we do in class