#what fills my lungs

[simmyfrobby]

that last flower poem moved me to tears. wow. WOW.

that entire poem makes me feel so !!!!!!!

#you know how poetry often isn't that interested in telling the full story but instead #picks one specific moment and focuses on what it feels like to inhabit that moment #with such. precision. that you have to carefully read every word #unlike with fiction where the brush strokes are coarser #and you can skim-read. or skip a word or a sentence or even an entire page and the story will still make sense #I think this poem is so incredible for the way it forces you to slow down your reading #to take in this moment together with the poet #I read it and it slows my breathing down #slows my heart down. fills my lungs. #it is a beautiful beautiful poem #and there is so much room left on the page #for the person reading it #like. yea. same boat. moves me to tears

[hiphopcherrrypop]

they are even in my subconscious… sick and tired 😭!!!

#bucchigiri?! #i woke up and LUNGED for my phone + started typing in ewhatever in notes was open #which was stocking job stuff so sry for the grocery list oops! #if i can secure 4 day work schedule instead of 5 again maybe i will storyboard this based on my memory LOLLL... #but if not i fear i will not have time bc i back to school now #the kabedon was in some place with no one else liek what are yall doing alone in there anyways🤔 #the jabashiri hagure hand holding had like slomo zoom frame of their hands before switching to full shot im cryyying #my sleeping mind is genius i guess #i wish i remember what was the setting of their trip besides brief stop in weird liminal space airport room #if i draw this i'll prob just go BEACH TRIPPP even tho geographically idk that that makes sense #i will have to fill in mental gaps im glad i wrote some stuff down at least #they were out of school uniform but i dont rly remeber anyone's outfit except mahoro had a cute summery dress ^_^

[tansypansydandy]

finally finished clem’s ref sheet!!! it’s not much, and this outfit is post meeting the turtles, but its still somethin :] i’m still working on her comic, but feel free 2 ask any questions! im down to doodle some responses <3

#my art #tansy art #rottmnt #rottmnt oc #tmnt #tmnt oc #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles oc #tmnt 2018 #oc #original character #the doodles in the bottom right are a bit rushed #but i wanted to fill up the space #plus ive talked so much about clem i feel like her debuts overdue lol #tw organs #tw xray #idk what else to tag this;;; #she's usually covered up but ik the concept might still b triggerin to some #tw heart #tw lungs #???

[moodyseal]

Brb I'm overthinking the placement of injuries in the Riordanverse

#it started with me thinking about tbm and then about my exams #and somehow it all went down the road of 'how the fuck did lester survive stabbing himself' #like okay. he was going to stab his heart. he missed. okay #what DID he stab #because like. the heart is placed right in the middle of the lungs #above it there's a bunch of veins and arteries and the aortic arch and whatnot #below there's the diaphragm #did he puncture a lung? or stab those very important parts above the heart? #reasonably he could've punctured a lung given how he talked about his lungs filling with hot sand or whatever #but then how did medea's little vial of unidentified medicine fix it #and how did the dryad heal him after removing the clot #if the arrow somehow stabbed his diaphragm HOW did it dodge that far. how much can it move #HOW DOES IT WORKKK #lonely thoughts

[spiltlove]

december wants me dead

#my mom is at the animal hospital with the family cat now #he stopped eating and was barely moving #one lung is either filled with fluid or cancer #theyre throwing the works at him tonight #to see if theres any improvement #if not the vet suggested euthanasia #y'all i cant do this #i really cant do this rn #what do i do #we've had marley since like 2012 #why cant something good happen #why is it only bad #personal

[pessimisticprincess]

dude i’m so tired of being sick 😔

#i’m somehow just getting worse as time goes on which is a lil scary with covid i think this is the sickest ive ever been #my ears are all infected and filled with blood and my lungs are not doing so good #i cant get rid of the fever i have no matter what i take #sigh i really think my immune system just like cannot handle me working in this environment anymore

[outlying-hyppocrate]

pensées poétiques, i suppose

#random thoughts #the things i imagine......... i have planned myself such a beautiful life inside of my mind #flowers and a cottage. and a beautiful man who loves me. and i love him #and we grow raspberries. beautiful raspberries. he knows how much i love them #husbands. husbands in a cottage. we were happy for so long. but my condition worsened #i was already so sick. physically sick. sick in the mind #sickness. consumed by sickness. always. i like to think it was the pearl #the pearl who told me her secrets and poured her words down my convulsing throat as honey #honey. when i was young i choked on liquid honey. i was so close to falling away #it coated my mouth. filled my lungs. slowed my heart. i want to feel such a way again #to know that something so sweet as honey can take you. enrapt. beautiful #and i should like to think that the honey still remains. from my mouth as i speak. holding my viscera together. inside of my mind #so this is what we meant by “honeyed words”. beautiful prospects. beautiful visions

[radio-charlie]

I think the whole genting area should be evacuated and thorough sitechecks + reinforcement + zoning be conducted because that place is just constant disaster waiting to happen. during rainy seasons please just stay away from all these developed highland areas feels like nobody ever gives a fuck abt safety until a whole bunch of ppl get buried alive

#the 1995 landslide is what killed one of my grandparents #when they retrieved his body his lungs were filled with mud

[collecting--stardust]

Posted to female oncology ward for these two weeks and all I can say is cancer is cruel but amidst that pain and sorrow, you can really see true love in that ward

#saying this in light of one of my group's fav patient that passed away after my shift last morning #shes in her early 30s and was a teacher and was diagnosed with breast cancer that metastases to lung and cervical lymph nodes #she was weak since she was admitted last week and usually just sleep but shes so nice every time we administered medication to her #or even when we check her vital signs despite how tired she was #her husband is a teacher too and as of late hes there every day as her condition deteriorated #apparently she wanted to undergo chemotherapy but her first cycle led to some severe side effects so her doctor doesn't allowed it #when we read the case note before clocking out the shift yesterday theres a psychiatrist entry so yeah #her husband was just caressing her hands as she slept yesterday and he looks obviously pained when my friend asked what had she eaten #because we need to fill the intake output chart and yeah she was unable to eat much anyway #it was very sad to see her husband wiping his tears silently by her bedside #and then we came to the ward this morning to find out she had passed away and there was a discharge note on her case note #apparently she supposedly will be discharged today so that she will be able to go at home #turned out she left first.. #it rained the whole morning today and it kind of summarizes the mood of our group members this morning #it was sad obviously but when i think about it you can really see how much her husband really cared for her until the end #i hope he will be able to heal and that may her soul rest in peace #personal.txt

[daz4i]

in my "i am going to die soon i can feel it" era again

#as you may guess from the phrasing i have turned out to be wrong the last times it happened #i usually get it around my bday and i think. i had enough distractions during it so now I'm getting this dread in delay #also in 2 weeks-ish I'm gonna be home alone for about a week which doesn't help this feeling #it's kind of like despair is filling my lungs choking me and i feel like i have no other choice than to die. you know how it is #also been having constant thoughts abt drowning myself recently. again you know how it is 👍 #it just happens sometimes. that's just what life is. constantly awaiting death or being distracted enough not to notice the wait 🤷‍♂️ #negative // #suicide // #ask to tag

[acidbathcat]

yawning every 2 seconds but my yawn keeps getting stuck. also feel like i have to manually breathe but not that i can’t fill my lungs all the way. why

#nevermind can’t fill my lungs all the way #why. i just washed all my bed sheets with hypoallergenic detergent. #well i was coughing mysteriously earlier but it stopped after i took my inhaler #so either 1) yesterday’s burnt food smell is still bothering me 2) my cat being in my room for 5 minutes was enough for him to contaminate #it or 3) there is something in the air that i haven’t identified yet #what ever it is it’s keeping me from sleeping.

[huntiburon]

continued from here! @quirofiliac

𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒𝐍'𝐓 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃; with a sense of faint bitterness came from him, that was all she needed to know that there was something bothering him. ( she simply does not know what it is, nor does she care to fix it. ) tier knows that in the end, she will forget about this encounter and move on with little care.

whether he did or did not was not a problem of hers.

his words do catch her a bit surprised, making her turned to see he was smiling despite the faint hint of annoyance she felt just a moment ago. he seemed clever, analyzing his step to counter hers. no doubt aizen - sama would find him . . . someone worth hearing more of, but tier still had little to bite on yet. he simply peeked her interest, with how his face seemed to be forced into a masked, painted face of acceptance and false warmth.

she was getting rather curious, but she remained silent; ----- choosing to listen to him closely without interrupting him. tier was a woman of silence and study, like the shark she is she waits for a time to strike; both in combat and conversation. perhaps his own hidden, cold blooded baby blue eyes was masking something more.

and that could be of interest, but solely if he proved to be right under her suspicions.

a hum leaves her lips despite the hollow mask on her face making it sound deep and cold.

❝ . . . then i may stay here until your bus arrives. ❞

she spoke up, her eyes of the sea on his own sky blue ones.

❝ i have a feeling by your reiatsu that you are not what you appear to be. may i ask some questions, sir? ❞

despite her inquiry, her tone remaind aloof and distant, arms crossed in her usual stance as she looks him over for a bit. ( he appeared human, but something had to be hidden . . . none would be hiding it as much if it wasn't a deep secret. ) she decides it is best to speak to him on a level tone, attempting to appear more curious than cold before.

it was not often she found a human that caught her interest as much as he did, despite the hidden depths of the sky reaching colder air until it is choked out of someone.

❝ or should i let you be? ❞ she wants to give the chance, she never was one to force her intent on people; even if the curiosity was nipping at her shins. ❝ i will let you decided, i do not force one to speak to me if they wish to be left alone. ❞

#quirofiliac #[♚]. in character. > when i bleed; i relieve you of your pain. #[♚]. multiverse. > let it fill your lungs; breathe in something new. #[ idk what happened to the format of my post so i had to move it here WEEPS hope thats cool! ]

[attachablepenis]

the absolute worst part about therapy is that i have to talk. im not even joking or exaggerating here, having to figure out the right words to express myself is one of the worst things in the world. most sessions are just me going "but yea idk?" and "[hand grsture] you know?" and "[barely coherent but very passionate sentence] and its like... yeah... yeah. (ran out of steam)" and i never get better at it

#like i dont know what emotion im feeling rn #its like my skin is thinner and more permeable and all of the universe is filling me up up up #and its good and awful and i feel it in my lungs #and i cant sleep bc i might miss something (dunno what that something is) #and i desperately want to sleep bc its too much but i cant bc im too full of the world around me #<- if anyone knows what emotion that is ill draw u something in crayon #penis meows #i desperately wish humans had some sort of telepathy so i could just share whatever im experiencing

[lactose-hates-me]

Dear John and Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve and Clean and Bigger Than the Whole Sky and and My Tears Ricochet

#taylor swift #speak now #midnights #folklore #songs that mean so much to me #don’t you think I was too young? #give me back my girlhood it was mine first #goodbye goodbye goodbye #I’m never gonna meet what could’ve been would’ve been what should’ve been you #the water filled my lungs I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing #I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace #grieving the person I may have been

[call-me-lemon]

Vaping and cigs are stupid and you will die sooner if you do them

Weed is like, fine ig but I dont like the smell and I dont wanna do any ever so please dont hotbox the car while im in the back seat like my family does ok thanks. Also maybe dont do a drug that slows reaction time and critical thinking while driving, especially in florida.

Not saying all drivers in florida are bad. Im just saying theres a reason insurance rates are so high here.

#im serious #strong smells give me headaches #especially smoke #especially smoke from burning sage or smoking weed #you can have fun in a bedroom or on the back porch #not in the car when were going to an appointment to the dmv #or in one of two functional bathrooms in the entire house #i need to pee quit hogging #I dont care what you do on your own time and im not well educated enough to tell you not to #but please respect my boundaries #its hard enough to get clean air now a days without you filling my lungs with second hand smoke #because you think its funny to invade my personal bubble and because youre nursing a joint 24/7 like its an inhailer

[bibleofficial]

oh wow the urge to give tumblr money in order for another stupid post to be added to everyone’s dash’s unwillingly is so strong but the refusal to give a penny to this site is stronger

#stream #like omg it’s like 6$ #& u know what 6$ could get u ? nearly a whole pack of cigarettes #marlboro red shorts are going for like 8.53 rn but they WERE at like 8.93 last year & i wanted to flip a table #i’m quitting again btw i ran out of cigarettes last night & since today is 4/20 i’m just straight chainsmoking weed #as if last night i was like ‘wait u need to smoke less weed’ & ‘but after 4/20…. lol’ like i agree ! #starting tomorrow 🫡 i ONLY get 1 bowl of the vaporizer which is like .25-.55/g idk but it’s not much like it’s gotta be like .4g bc a shorty #joint can fill it twice if u empty it into it & i guess the shortys are around .8-1g ea #i’m also running out so i need to buy more anyway \: #ANYWAY #what was i even talking about #oh yea i’m quitting smoking i’m back on the GUM #i hate it but it’s fine like my new thing is just constantly chewing gum #like i wish it were ‘drinking water’ instead but we’ll get there ALSKLAKSALKSLSKL #like my lungs …. the girls need a break truthfully like y’all i ran out of a whole pack that i bought on sunday on tuesday #AND I STILL WANTED ANOTHER WHEN I FINISHED THE LAST #but i haven’t gone to buy a pack yet if i can make it 7 days on the gum only then i’ll buy a pack as a TREAT & do one in the evening