#what i want to say

[ineffectualdemon]

What to say to that one "friend, ex, boss, coworker, etc that one of your favourite people has been putting up with if said favourite person let you off your leash:

Hi! I am a very partial third party. I am not hear to resolve any conflict. I am here to say all the things They won't because they are too damn nice.

I am not nice.

There are of course two sides to every story but I don't care about yours because you are nothing but an unfortunate pubic hair in the iced latte of life.

I am sure you have had your struggles and difficulties and trauma and I really couldn't give a shit. In fact, all your problems are your fault and you are always to blame and maybe you should reflect on that a little and try to stop being the bag of moldy carrots at the bottom of the fridge.

No, I won't listen to what you have to say because I have taken sides and it's not yours because you have the personality of dead mouse thats been rotting in the hot sin for a few days

Now, if you say one mean thing to the precious ray of sunshine that is my favourite person I will start by skinning you alive you infected ass pimple.

Have a great day!

#im vaguing about a specific friend of a friend but this also applies to many situations my favourite people have been in #like that one bitch my grandma cursed #thank you grandma for cursing her #what i want to say

[thecollectedchaos]

"It gets better."

The only thing getting better is my ability to suppress. I am permanently damaged. I will never be who I was, and I don't like the person I've become.

"The goal is happiness."

Happiness is a feeling. Feelings come and go. Happiness is an impossible destination. It exists only in moments.

"What do you want me to do?"

Love me. Through the cynicism, through the tears. Take my broken pieces and mend me back together. Show me I'm not too much of anything, but just enough of everything. Show me my survival isn't pointless.

#spilled thoughts #mental health #my thoughts #the collected chaos #what i want to say

[impulsiveinsomniac]

sorry i didn't respond to your text. i was busy getting way too fucking stoned and daydreaming

#what i want to say

[rougedemigods]

they use the tools of the empire to escape !!!! they are, in confinement, forced BY the empire to work well together or face horrific violence and pain then their cooperation and teamwork is what gets them out!!! corruption of the masters tools against the oppressor!

#this isnt exactly #what i want to say #but i csnt word it properly #i don't want to imply that the oppressors gave them team work #its more that their survival skill / skill that is used by the oppressor is what saves them #andor spoilers

[elonomh]

you’r really pretty

and you dont know

but you are

i promise

#dark academia #chaotic academia #academia #chaotic academic aesthetic #light academia #just a thought #dark academia literature #light acadamia aesthetic #dark acadamia quotes #dark aesthetic #dark acamedia #quote #quotes #what i want to say #pretty #youre pretty #light acedemia #light academism #chaoscore #chaotic academia books #chaotic

[menggemaskan]

I just want a home that is soft and quiet. A home unfit for screaming and frustration. A place where the walls cover me from shouts and the floorboards do not quiver with the sounds of distant footsteps. I want the sunlight like honey, sticky and sweet and golden to filter through the window illuminating my lover's sleepy face. I want the ambrosial smell of cinnamon rolls and fresh coffee to fill the air and so move me that I embrace my sweetheart and tell them I have no choice but to always be gentle and serene in this way. That I have no choice but to be nothing like those who made me cold and harsh and loud. And I will remember how tiring it was to strive to be delicate and lovely and kind and never be able to. Oh how I was exhausted, I will say. But for now, I am tired. I am damaged. And in this destruction, I will learn to be kind. I will learn to be uncritical. I will learn to be affectionate. I will learn to be upset. I will learn to be calm. I will learn. And I will unlearn. And I will be everything that I was never allowed to be.

#remember #soft af #tired of being tired #sunlight #poetry #pretty #lovers #love #life #lifelessons #beauty #i'm still here #journal #i’m sorry my writing is trash #what i want to say #trauma #sad thoughts #sad poetry #i’m sorry if you can relate

[taonpest]

#my stupid thoughts #what can I say #just another day thinking about him 😔 #btw while I was craving for more content on him I searched on the wiki if he appeared in another series beside revelation #the answer is no #and this just show once again that they're wasting potential but oh well #and don't even start talking about the comics #anyway #what I want to say #is that it was written «gender: male» and my brain crashed for a few seconds like «what do you mean he's not non-binary like my headcanon 🧍» #sksksksk I always forgot that the characters I headcanon as trans are in fact not trans sksksksk

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[kkshowtunes]

google citing ao3 as a source is so unhinged

#dowak #bi rodrick heffley #ao3 #fanfiction #doodlebug says things #banger #super banger #banger banger hall of famer #banger 5k #banger 10k #banger 15k #banger 20k #banger 25k #banger 30k #banger 35k #banger 40k #banger 45k #banger 50k #banger 55k #banger 60k #banger 65k #banger 70k #banger 75k #banger 80k #guys this breached containment #i always wanted a popular post but now i get it i’m overwhelmed #also i misspelled a word in it #what is going on ‼️‼️🔥🔥 #jk guys never stop reblogging this #may rodrick heffley bisexualism reign supreme

[stil-lindigo]

when people reblog donation posts and say "donate what you can", I really feel like people aren't actually internalising it. not all of us can afford to donate $50, $100, more than that. but i know for a fact that there are thousands of us that can spare $2 or $5, and that all adds up.

it hurts so much to sit here and feel the limits of our own ability. we're not millionaires. we can't instantly fund these escape attempts. but these are bids for life, by people who never asked for the hellfire being rained upon them by sadistic colonialists, greedy for oil and land. they committed no crime other than being born in palestine. and of course it's unfair, to have to shoulder the weight of people's lives when we're all struggling to get by as it is. but our governments relentlessly fail us, they fail to scrape at the bottom of their cold dead hearts for their last dregs of humanity. it is so, so unfair, but it is up to the common man to save each other.

please. look at this spreadsheet. find a fund that resonates with you. and DONATE WHAT YOU CAN.

#i dont know what else to say anymore #i just want all of them to survive #theres truly nothing that could justify this ongoing genocide #and it kills me. that global pushback is so pathetic. gutless and meandering #free palestine #palestine #fuck zionism #fuck israel #we will see an end to zionism and israel within our lifetimes #i might be suicidal but im not dying before i see netanyahu get what he fucking deserves #donation post

[bahoreal]

kids these days who are fans of fall out boy and can just read the lyrics on spotify or whatever. do you know how lucky you are. when i was a lad you listened to an illegally burnt cd, heard a nonsensical string of syllables, and listened to it 100 times until you thought you know what was said. and then you got ahold of an album sleeve with lyrics and read the lyrics. and realise you were absolutely nowhere close.

#fall out boy #'the friction in your jeans' when i read those were the lyrics i wanted to throw things #thats not what he said but for me mishearing lyrics #that's not what i heard !!!! #fob write gorgeous lyrics. not that i know wtf theyre saying

[theoldkyokodied]

The Allegiance of the Ascended Vampire and the New God of Magic

#bloodweave #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #gale x astarion #astarion x gale #gale dekarios #astarion ancunin #yes this is about astarion helping gale defeat mystra and take her place with the crown in exchange for gale helping him with the ritual #the ‘they can make each other worse’ part of their relationship turned to the max #I enjoy them being reluctantly soft for each other more but from time to time I just think about how powerful they could get together #toxic evil boyfriends. take love and twist it up until it’s unrecognisable #I like to think that astarion approached gale with that offer after realising no one else in camp is gonna help him #and that he can use gales own hunger for power which backfired when astarion actually became emotionally invested in gale #and after gale kept his word despite everyone’s concerns astarion changed his plan from not fullfilling his end of the bargain to actually #helping gale kill mystra (mostly so that gale could belong to him and him alone. and letting him take the place as a god bc having a god #at you beck and call is definitely appealing. especially one as eager to please as gale) #anyway what I want to say with this is please please please let me kill mystra i don’t even care if the weave gets destroyed again

[inkskinned]

in internet posts it is easy to cut them out of your life. they are hurting you! they aren't listening to you!

they held your hair back. they lent you lipstick. they held your hand at the train station and got you home safe. they rounded on your bully, got loud, said get fucked, spitting-mad in your defense.

they also cut the hair off again. told you that you should really think twice before wearing something like that. took you for granted. took your insecurities and threw them in your face again.

you know logically it should be easy. all the internet advice comments always read it will feel better. like an equation - if a person is rotten, you just remove them. you pull the tooth that's hurting.

but it was never a big flare-up moment. you don't live in a sitcom. they never tried to take your boyfriend or steal from your apartment. they showed up to birthdays and they wrote songs about you and bring you water without you asking. once you found out they carry an emergency inhaler for you, even though you haven't had an asthma attack in years - just in case.

where is the line? people fuck up. sometimes they fuck up badly. sometimes people have raw personalities, like a powerline, and being around them is dangerous. addicting. sometimes they can't help themselves, but you know they're trying. sometimes they are just rough-around-the-edges. sometimes they don't even realize how they sounded when they said that. sometimes it's just - you've both loved each other for so long now, the way this thing hurts goes back to the root.

and that's the fucked up part. you have pushed your fingers against the sweetheart of memory. things these days are electric, tense, harrowing. they didn't used to be. there were a lot of good days in there. sometimes you want to just close your eyes and say can this be over yet? do we still need to be fighting?

doing that would give up any chance you get of getting an apology, but you don't always know that you need an apology, you love them. once they flaked on your birthday party. once they told you to get over it, people are always dying. they also let you crash on their couch for a week after the breakup, handfeeding you when you were so sad you couldn't eat. they are also judgmental about everything, occasionally react to banal statements with an attitude that is weird and fiery. they also love you like a lighthouse sometimes, so strong they cut the storm like lightning.

but the problem is that you might be storm. you might be the thing that needs breaking. what if you are two forces who are desperately, horribly drawn to each other, shaped by the other person's passions, and both good for each other and bad in equal measure.

what if you're both just people, and you're no saint neither.

just cut them off! swallowing the saltwater, you catch yourself in the mirror. you've been shaking more than usual. there's an ache in you that is oblique, loud, impossible to soothe. is this what it looks like? when life is "easier"?

your mouth will always have a hole, is the thing, if you remove the tooth.

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #this is about someone specific but feel free to blorbo on main. #tbh this is familial for me so that is an element but it's also about childhood best friends #and probably about ur enemies to lovers blorbo #(but i want to specifically say if ur partner is like this. not necessarily a good partnership lol.) #(the dynamics at play in familial/friend relationships feel equally important and in some ways are HARDER to escape. #bc we can see that this is a potentially toxic romantic foundation. #but in family ? ...... it's toxic and it doesn't stop u from loving them. bc u always have. #and i think that makes it harder. by a lot. which is what this is referencing). #but genuinely and really truly forever feel free to tag ur potentially toxic enemies to lovers on this and all my poetry #here i'll do one for u - adora & catra :x

[feluka]

In front of the Journalists' Syndicate, Cairo, Egypt, on 15th January 2024.

The crowd chants:

مصر مشاركة في الحصار معبر بيننا و بين اهالينا الصهيوني متحكم فينا طول ما الدم العربي رخيص يسقط يسقط اي رئيس عملوها احفاد مانديلا و احنا فخوف و فعار و مزلة عايزين المعبر مفتوح

Translation:

Egypt participates in this siege! A crossing between us and our people! Controlled by Zionists! As long as Arab blood is seen as cheap, Any and every president must fall! Mandela's grandchildren have done it, While we are seized by fear, shame, and humiliation! We demand Rafah Crossing open!

#i wanted to say how huge this is #how we haven't had any act of open resistance to our regime in years and that i couldn't believe what i'm seeing #but i can't call it huge because it's the bare minimum #still. we haven't done the bare minimum in many years. #free palestine #idk if 'grandchildren' has any infantalizing connotations in english but he is saying it as an honor #maybe i should use descendant but i translated the man's words as accurately as possible and that's what he said

[redysetdare]

The response to "ace people are just virgins who can't get laid!" Shouldn't be "ace people can still have sex!" but instead " being a virgin isn't a bad thing."

The response to "aro people are just heartless freaks!" Shouldn't be "aro people can still feel love!" And instead be "not feeling love or other emotions doesn't make you a bad person."

Instead of pushing the idea that aspec people can be "normal like allos" we should instead be trying to normalize aspec experiences. Yes aspec people can be normal because aspec identities are normal. Some aros fall in love. some aces have sex. but they should not be the only valid aspec experiences. We should not use these experiences to make the aspec identity more palatable to amatonormativity and allos.

#text #aro #ace #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aspec #acespec #arospec #ik i made a similar post to this recently but i feel this one better words what i wanted to say with that one #ill leave the other posted but heres a more worded version ig #basically stop theowing repulsed and non partnering ppl under the bus #dont only validate favorable and partnering experiences when fighting aphobia #we are here too

[scarlct-vvitch]

in honor of ace week id like to shoutout every asexual who first thought they were bi/pan because they looked at all the genders and felt no difference and zero is equal to zero so they said "huh. must be bisexual" and then shoved their sexuality back under the rug for 3-5 years

#shoutout to not knowing what asexuality was for the entirety of high school #or bonus points if u DID know but everyone around u wanted sex so u didnt want to admit it #anyone who says they knew they were ace from day one is a liar #well not really #but i do question u #asexuality #ace week #ace #aroace #aromanticism #aromantic #asexual #asexuality week #oh shush