#what id do to have more content of them

[ganondoodle]

i really like tumblr bc despite its reputation i get way less annoying people being clowns on my posts on tiwtter i can mention literally anything i dont like about totk and you bet theres some guy that either gets really salty about me not worshipping the game like a god that can do no wrong or straight up get mad about what they IMAGINED i said

#ganondoodles talks #thankfully its not many #but still more than here #and yes i block people over that bc i dont need a clown spamming my notifications #“sounds like you just want more content” #HUH #they added TWO more map layers but me saying they could have left the shrines or titans models in the game is asking for too much more??? #the shrines/titans where ALREADY IN THERE just leave them in there and slap a green moss texture on it #me saying hey wouldnt this be cool to do with the titans after they stop funtioning is demanding more content #but ah yes id love colelcting even mroe than a thousand krog seed or hundreds of mayoi signa or 15 copies of the same vaguely dif link oufi #i dont need to have 500 options of items to glue to my arrows #making me scroll endlessly to find the item i need #im fine with 5 actually #soemtimes less is more #i want to bite some people #and i wish i had the confidence some of these have #just going on other peoples posts and loudly blaring in their face of what they think you said but 100% didnt #at least have the courtesy of making your own post to complain isntead of yelling it in my face #what do you think it will do? #lol #anyway #thanks for being much more bearable tumblr #ily <3

[selenealwayscries]

fuck you *puts your fairydog in hanfu*

#mcyt #last life #last life smp #trafficblr #rendog #ldshadowlady #fairy fort #. yknow what ill tag this as #fairydog #as well even tho that tag is populated by val and dust at this point #anyways . my hanfu agenda going well as you can tell #i wish i have more canon excuses to draw block people in hanfu tho #like its fun to headcanon stuff but its still more exciting to get canon content of something . if that makes sense #id die for mote asian rep in mcyt spaces o(-( like not just ccs either #i want more non asian ccs to take inspirations from asian cultures . build asian architecture inspired bases #heck . write lore with asian myths and folk legends as inspiration #as long as you do research and do shit respectfully i know at least 5 people who would literally throw parties over them #anyways if yall see me reblogging hanfu posts youll know why #anyways anyways . my bones are killing me so goodbye #catgirl supreme

[postergadorart]

"No matter where I go to offer aid, Link remains at my side"

ever since i read that in game all i could picture was this

#anyways i love zelink #and yes i made this into a sticker just for my heart to be content #zelda botw #zelda totk #zelink #oh yes im trying to post more here #tomorrow i'll ran out of art to post but who cares #no but like #they make me so emotional #i love them so much #theres so much i could say about them but id rather just post my art and vanish #please scream in the tags i love seeing what other people have to say about them AS LONG AS ITS POSITIVE YES #oh ya btw i dont usually do chibis #if this is even a chibi style #but ive been kinda trying (ive made like three drawings lmao) and i really liked the result so yes #hopefully someone else does

[arolesbianism]

Sits in shambles I didn't read maybe Jorge's id correctly in the mysterious hermit logs the first god knows how many times I read them and only just now realized that it's the same id as the scientist that speaks in the agricultural notes log why must I be so bad at reading

#rat rambles #oni posting #on the bright side thats one mystery id kind of solved #by kind of I mean its most likely jorge but theres no way to comfirm it #this does make me feel like there might be some other b363 thing I missed but Im not sure if I doubt myself enough to go check rn #they are another character seen in story trait logs alongside an in game lifeform origin log just with critters this time #Ive made baseless speculation on who b363 could be based on what named characters we have without ids but its nowhere near confirmed #at least from what I remember but again Im starting to doubt myself a lil so I might double check at some point #the only idless characters we have fully marked off is nikola Im pretty sure #although based on the characters we do know anything abt itd most likely be either ada or liam but thats not saying much #ada is a fairly high probability tho since we basically 100% know that shes a part of the bioengineering department #liam possibly is too but thats more of a educated guess then smth particularly implied #Im glad I've finally realized who our lovely plant guy is tho #alas even if I find some hidden b363 content that still leaves I believe 3 ids unidentified #well we do know that at least one of them is steve but we don't know which one #and while we can take shots in the dark at who the scientist is theres also a second guard #and out of everyone we know bits and pieces abt theres no one who fits that bill or at least not anyone Im remembering #every other mentioned character is some flavor of scientist or is implied to be #not counting quinn but they are also off the table on account of not being a gravitas employee #so basically unless I missed smth the only previously established character that we know for sure is in that log is steve and the other two #could easily be any of the currently unused guys #and the other guard basically has to be unless theres scientists here that also double as guards

[friendlifyre]

i think ive finally hit that point where ive accepted that i need to Allow myself to enjoy genshin more casually otherwise it wont be long before i stop enjoying it altogether

#personal #its taken so long bc when i started the game i skipped through a lot of sidequests just to get the rewards/whatever they unlock #and later on i regretted it bc i was retroactively interested in lore and there was nothing left to do so wished id taken my time w those #and its rly that same reason i held off on doing a ton of content these past few months #telling myself i shouldnt do them until i had the time and attention span to rly absorb everything #but its rly time i let myself just go for it and enjoy what i Want to enjoy and not dwell too much on what i need to skip to achieve that #not just bc i dont think i'll ever go back to being as hyperfixated on genshin as ive been before (and therefore wont regret it) #but also because i dont really... want to #im at a slowly turning point in my life where i want to do other things with it too #and if i want to make room for those other things #i have to accept that i'll never again be one of those players who take the time to fully consume 100% of the content this game puts out #and thats Good #and i wish id realized sooner skgkslg #i rly have a bad tendency to put arbitrary restrictions on myself and forget why i put them there in the first place #like i played sm of totk with a 'no teleporting' rule bc i wanted to rly gove myself an excuse to explore #and it wasnt until recently that i realized id gotten to a point where it was taking away from my enjoyment more than adding to it #and so that it was ok to just discard that rule atp #i need to try being more conscious of that in general bc im realizing its hindering me in weird places irl too

[aarix]

why do you remove image-ID captions when you reblog?

I'm sorry that my 20-follower personal shitposting blog, which I curate according to my own tastes for nobody's enjoyment but my own, does not meet your standards :( but if you like image captions and alt-text you should go check out my art blog :)

#this is the second ask you've sent me idk what u want from me man #Also isn't it a funny coincidence that this big push for alt-text has occurred juuuust in time for the AI uprising. #I'm only half-serious but it's my pet conspiracy theory #anyway if you are a follower & earnestly are concerned about accessibility why not message me off anon #in the more likely event you're some random fucker who just wants 2 be smug & passive-aggressive. do you need a hug #if you want the earnest answer: i wasn't aware I was removing them specifically but I do tend to nix captions which aren't useful/funny 2 m #I agree that accessibility for all is a good goal everywhere #however... my personal shower does not have a hand rail. #if you require a shower with a hand rail you can use the other shower in this house. which does have one. #we have two showers in this house and you should choose the one you're most comfortable in #the water's the same in both; you need not go unshowered NOR suffer needlessly in mine :) #this isn't just a metaphor btw those are the literal ablution solutions in the place I'm renting rn #i'm flattered that you think my content is so unique and unmissable. but there are other blogs out there which make a point of image IDs... #i don't think it's a moral failing to not have a handrail installed in your own shower. a public shower? that's different. #but my blog is not a public shower. do you get me. #it's just for me and (secondarily) my 20 followers

[the-fabulous-51]

yall i won't lie i'd give both my kidneys to know more about the commercial aircraft of WoC

#mine #cars fandom #id Love to know anything #do they have the captain/fo ranks? whats the difference? causw its not like you can have 2 pilots (duh) #whats their culture like #their day to day #their vacations?? #they cant work 24/7/365 ¼ like thats just not possible #what do they do when theyre not working?? #theyre huge!!! imagine trying to include them in something #man i just want to know so freaking badly what life's like for these guys #rrgrgrggg give me more planes content pixar before i start making my own

[nyphren]

i finished lightfall like two weeks ago and tbh i was expecting it to be waaaaay worse. bc its not bad.

like, speaking as a player who got into the game less than a month ago, who knows more or less what happened in d1 and in the vaulted content, it was... fine

know whats kinda bad?

shadowkeep.

shadowkeep is... rough. im dragging my brother through it rn and its a Time. the campaign quests are okay, i guess, but the whole ~forge an armor piece by piece~ is boring and the "do this bounty", "do events two dozen times", "kill things" between campaign missions are SO painful. especially because i have almost NO context re: who these nightmares are. i never met crota. i never met taniks. i only know who these people are bc i watched a 4 hour summary of destiny's story. none of this mattered or made much sense to me.

i love the atmosphere on the moon, tho. and eris is great.

but i distinctly remember finishing shadowkeep and going "thats it?" and "are all the campaigns going to be like this????" and feeling dread because ffxiv is my main game and i had a very different idea of what a campaign should be bc i had already bought beyond light. which im really glad i did bc i went on to play it out of spite and it was much better. witch queen was fantastic. and lightfall was good.

so for me, it's witch queen -> ligthfall -> beyond light -> shadowkeep.

lightfall does have "this couldve been an email" vibes and the final boss fight is a huge letdown if compared to witch queen's but i dont think the story/campaign is a bad as ppl make it out to be tbh

#also i love nimbus #i also loved fynch #and besides ghost these are the two characters i grew to like in game #savathun and crow (two characters i love too) grew on me bc of the lore and youtube videos i watched #since i have no access to content with them bc of the vaulted stuff #anyway id be more worried about shadowkeep letting down players who start playing destiny 2 and want to do everything in order #bc lightfall is actually fine #ok since im here im going to rant a bit about the vaulted stuff #i know you guys have heard (and said) that before but its so stupid #theres a scene in witch queen where savathun tries to tempt our ghost and hes like “nah!! i remember what you did to all my friends” #and proceeds to list said friends #and im like #i have met none of these people #NONE #imagine if i didnt have chronic boredom and hadnt watched this 4 hour video about the lore of a video game i was never planning to play #i would have no idea of who these people were #and like. it fell flat. bc i still dont know these ppl. but it wouldve been SO much worse #anyway lightfall is okay the soundtrack is great neomuna is super pretty #also nimbus #destiny 2 #ren.txt #last thing its bonkers to me that my first introduction to crow was the season of defiance cutscene where amanda kills him #i met this character who has such a rich story by a 'im so beefy' flirty line to a character i did not know at all (amanda) #like wtf are you doing bungie

[sirompp]

did you know lego has a "pick a brick" thing on their site whee you can pick individual bricks to buy. unrelated but did you know ive never shopped online for anything before.

#im still not done... #ive had this tab open for days. #n*njago friends you will be real soon. #<-censored so it doesnt show up in searches. youre welcome random people ill never see who are just trying to find fandom content <3 #im getting extra of some pieces bc i want to paint them....... #i literally have just minifigure pieces in here btw. #i used to be (and still am) obsessed with making minifigures #more than building sets anyway #bc. like. sets you get to make once. but lego OCs? you can unmake and remake them foreveerrrrrrrr #like they have so many normal lego pieces on here too but how am i supposed to know what pieces ill need for a build. #i dont even know what im going to build!! #i wish there was a site or a program where you could like. make your own lego builds with whatever pieces you like #and then itd tell you what pieces and how many youd need to make it irl so i could order them on the site... #in an ideal world id be playing with legos So Much but sadly i dont have very many legos. #ive literally only made 2 lego builds that Werent straight from an instruction manual and that was. this month. #only one of them is a real build the other was just a set piece for photos for a silly storyline i was doing in my discord server #the van doesnt look great. the windshield comes off So Easily and also Doesnt Even Align With The Rest Of The Van Theres Like This Weird Ga #and the other thing is just a wall with 3 chairs and a Very Bad Looking Mirror/Window and the walls made with ROOF PIECES. #and i mean. theres this old saying. limitation breeds creativity. #idk if its an old saying tbh i remember seeing it one time #and its definitely true. my builds look Kind Of Stupid but theyre charming and theyre MINE. #if i had access to every single piece in the world the hair salon set piece might not have had pink and white striped walls #which are only striped bc i had to put flat white tiles between the roof pieces cause i didnt have enough of them #and the van. um. ok im struggling to think of a good thing to say about the van i just like it man even if it looks a bit shit #i used the horse stable doors as actual openable car doors which is something ive always wanted from a lego car #actually if i had all the pieces in the world i wouldnt have made the hair salon setpiece thing anyway cause i only made it bc #i lost the hair piece of one of my minifigures and Could Not Find It At All and thought itd be funny if i made the guy go to the hair salon #AND if i had all the pieces in the world that minifigure wouldnt even exist!!!! i would never have made n*injago friends bc i would have. #just had the normal n*njago minifigures. no need to White Womanify them because like every lego friends piece is a white woman piece #and the Cole With Gun bit wouldnt exist bc my friend would have never thought he was holding a gun instead of an axe

[amatres]

I know you have to choose the option but the farewell conversation that sticks most in my head in the Gallows is with Carver where Hawke can say something along the lines of 'This is how we're supposed to be, side by side' and he tells them they know it can't be like that forever.

Like, my Hawke at least spent so much of her life building her identity in service of her family. Hawke most resembles their father no matter what, and the family is shaped around them narratively (if you're a mage or not deciding which sibling you lose first and how that class effects how those siblings feel about themselves and their place in the family) and they shape themselves around their family in turn, exist for them, takes up the role of leader after Malcolm has passed. The answers of where Hawke considers home when they're asked never felt right, because they lived on the run for so many of their formative years, the true answer feels like to me to be their home is their family, the place never mattered beyond being allowed to rest and not look over their shoulder every day.

What happens to that identity when everyone you built it around is gone? Where would they consider home when it's all said and done? The Amell estate was something they got for their mother, one of the answers they can give to Varric in Act 2 on what they plan to do now is watch over their mother, Carver tells Hawke to look after her when the expedition separates them. Then their mother is gone too.

There's no final statement for this since it's just me rambling, but it's hm, sad to think about. Who is Hawke if they aren't living for the sake of another, when all those they lived for are gone and they never felt at home anywhere but in the people they surrounded themselves with?

#ama mumbles #dragon age #dragon age 2 #hawke #allyn hawke (oc) #im not writing meta this is just me rambling thoughts specifically born from trying to figure out allyns uhh problems lol #by act 3 the answers is probably their companions but eventually everyone leaves their side besides their possible li #so what do they consider home who are they when they are truly alone #my hawke is a mage which also shapes this perspective i dont know how it affects nonmage hawke #anyway carver was right and valid to want to find an identity separate from the family #bc like look how his sibling destroys themself trying to shape themselves around it #as for my own hawke id say she felt most content in lothering she briefly was feeling the same in kirkwall in act 2 but when leandra dies #part of her dies with her i suppose. shes the champion of kirkwall and its a death sentence bc shes a mage so she decides #to try and help at least make the world a bit more comfortable for any mage that comes after her #allyn and anders in act 3 shaking hands over being suicidal and throwing themselves into at least making it mean something #by helping ppl like them maybe having a better life #on that point the chantry explosion didnt feel like a axe to allyn it felt like a release. finally the hold of this place has lifted #if that makes sense lol. kirkwall was only for her mother now that shes gone allyn was waiting for an end to her stay there and it came #back to being on the run. something that felt more natural to her. maybe one day she will have a small farm again #or maybe she will live in a city with a garden if the people she surrounded herself wanted to live there #just somewhere that the noose of her family's ghosts were no longer strangling her

[peachy-lemon83]

I have determined that some peoples brain must be able to separate fictional characters from irl people, and then some peoples brain can’t. Because like there is no way we’re watching this same thing and I’m so attached to this character bawling while he dies and they’re sitting over there looking at me like I’m crazy for crying. Like what do you mean your not attached?!?!

For reference it was a bit ago, me and my parents watching Endgame, I was rewatching it and still bawling, my parents weren’t phased one bit by the movie. And yes I do still think about that moment because I am still and will be for a very long time mourning Toby Stark.

#mourning fictional characters #fictional characters #avengers endgame #Tony stark #im still reading fix it fics to survive #I just miss him #and I miss Iron dad and spider son #like what do you mean you don’t get over attached to certain fictional characters #and you don’t cry when they die #even though logically you know you can rewatch or read anything with them in it #but you’ll never have fresh new cannon content with them ever again #and it’s even worse when you like a pair because then the others reaction just kills you #Far From Home is so good but absolutely gut wrenching the second I think about it for more then a second #and like I didn’t even start watching the Marvek movies til around Covid #Id only know Tony for like months max #though to be fair the first Iron Man movie was why I had decided to watch any of them at all #and now I’m a huge nerd who binged them in order of events #all the way to Far From Home

[waterberry-strawmelon]

i know a thousand other people have said this already, but im so tired of the fact that people just dont write good fanfiction about female characters or female relationships. all the 100k-word epics on ao3 are about m/m or m/f pairings, and i just mourn for all the life-changing stories we could have about female characters, the ones that fundamentally re-frame your way of thinking, the ones where the romance is slow burn that's hot and heavy and so, so achingly intimate that the page is bleeding with it.

where are those stories?

#and it's not just because there are more male characters in fictional media #it's mostly because we all care about men more #because a m/m pairing between two male background or side characters from a popular show will have AT LEAST QUADRUPLE the amount of content #than the content for a f/f ship between MAIN CAST members from that same show. #it just fucking sucks. and i wish i could change it. #it's not always enough to just write it yourself yknow? #thats not really the solution here #it would require a massive restructuring in how we prioritize female characters #especially in order to prioritize them separate from male characters. #the majority of shows or fandoms where a female main cast member is popular? their number one ship in fandom is with a male character. #can't escape it man :( #mine #fandom #i feel like we just dont like dedicating that much time to thinking about women—even fictional women. #it's not as fun or as interesting as thinking about men. and why is that hm? #i cant change what people like to write #but its always so devastating when i see an author who writes really really well #just stick to m/m stories. and theyre fantastic!! but id love to see what those writers could do with female characters too. #an account with like 8 different 50k fics about the same m/m pairing. AND while often writing a f/f pairing as a background pairing #(which is a whole other annoying issue that deserves its own post) #it just makes it even sadder that they dont dedicate that same energy toward imagining what it might look like for that background f/f #pairing to have a story of their own with just as much love and care. #(AND LIKE. YOU CANT EVEN TELL ME ITS JUST CUZ THE CHARACTERS ARE CHARACTERIZED DIFFERENTLY #LIKE TO SAY THAT THE F/F PAIRING JUST WOULDNT BE AS INTERESTING BECAUSE THEYRE MORE STABLE OR NORMAL OR NOT AS CODEPENDENT OR SOME SHIT #LIKE NOT ONLY IS THAT JUST SEXIST. IT'S ALSO HYPOCRITICAL #'CAUSE YOU'RE OUT HERE GIVING WHOLE NEW FANON PERSONALITIES TO THESE MALE CHARACTERS #FUCKING. STEVE HARRINGOTN AND EDDIE MUNSON FROM STRANGER THINGS WOULD NOT IN A MILLION YEARS DATE IN THE SHOW. #SO TO WRITE SOLID FANFICTION WITH GOOD CHEMISTRY YOURE GONNA HAVE TO CHANGE THEIR PERSONALITIES A BIT. #AND THAT'S NOT A BAD THING!!! BUT IT MAKES IT ALL THE MORE FRUSTRATING WHEN YOU JUST...DON'T PUT AS MUCH EFFORT #INTO THE FEMALE CHARACTERS. JUST CUZ YOU DON'T LIKE THEM AS MUCH.

[faithinlouisfuture]

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#ashamed anon #not publishing your ask cuz I don’t know if it’s genuine or not #if it is the good for you #some of us have been saying for a while #and if watching the documentary had this effect on you then all I can say is finally #I can’t watch the documentary till it’s put up on some streaming platform so I won’t be able to tell why you came to this conclusion for #quite some time even though I have an idea why #id you actually feel like talking it through please free to dm me about it #you wouldn’t be the first one to do it and I would never reveal your identity #as for telling your moots you don’t owe them anything #simply start catering your content/tweets to your interests ONLY and they’ll begin to understand on their own #especially if you don’t want to be confrontational #because your side of the fandom are bullies when it comes to online interactions and difference of opinion #hope there’s many many many more like you in the coming weeks and months #also I really mean it feel free to dm me and talk about it - I won’t judge or reveal your identity #you’ll find that louies are not what we’ve been made out to be #here’s to hoping you stay strong to your new found convictions #appreciate your message <3 #(sorry for all the typos that’s just how I am)

[timeisacephalopod]

In relation the that true crime post I made yesterday, does anyone know good true crime YouTubers who aren't fucking weirdos about crimes, criminals, and constantly advocating for higher prison sentences acting like Americans??

If you say Princess Weeks I already follow her and if you don't it's not all true crime that just comes up go watch her shit she's very informative and let me to the In The Dark podcast, which is also very good

#winters ramblings #in americans defense obviously other countries ALSO have a USian obsession with inflicting cruelty on 'criminals' #like making them suffer A Whole Lot will result in lower recidivism rates but the US's recidivism rate is MEGA high #like i think the over all numer is some 70%?? why advocate for a system that VERY VISIBLY DOESNT WORK #especially when your ass is telling me true crime tales like i want to know how serial killing went down #not how much you bought into christian ideas of crime and punishment while acting like the state should inflict your bizarre #revenge fantasies on criminals that you have nothing to do with and if you claim thats to help victims #that doesnt help victims. you know what would?? access to mental health care and group therapy with other victims #do we do that for victims of violent crime? not that i fucking know of. seems way more helpful than throwing someone in jail for 800 years #because thats somehow supposed to solve the problem of crime and make the victim whole again #seriously id love to dig into true crime content but finding someone who isnt a fuckass is next to impossible

[theoestofocs]

reading a truly excellent fic from a small fandom, that hasn't been updated in ages despite the author promising an epilogue: ah fair enough, hope everything's okay, I'll hit "subscribe" just in case bc i loved what they wrote so i'll comment that i liked it

scrolling absently up through the other 5+ comments and abruptly stumbling on a breathtakingly bad faith criticism of -problematic- elements that weren't even present in the fic:

#id in alt text #linden's originals #seriously y'all never comment ur negative analyses of an author's thematic choices #especially if they're all stuff that's clearly tagged & in the content summary?? this is free entertainment & fully informed consumption #even if u have something to criticize about their word choice or sth - like if the author uses an outdated term or sth #& u genuinely have reason to think they'll appreciate being informed of their mistake. like. you still also tell them the stuff u liked. #u don't leave a comment just to tell an author whose personal stories (stories they chose to *archive* which u may read #but which are written first and foremost for the author's enjoyment! that's what the ''archive'' part means! it's someone else's journal!) #to tell them they Messed Up! #tell them what turns of phrase u liked! tell them why ur glad u got the chance to read the work! they do not owe u a story u like! #and leaving a negative comment (even a well-intentioned one) can wreck an artist's motivation to continue creating a work #(i know if i got a comment like this - however well-intentioned - i'd probably have deleted the entire work & also cried #not bc it was particularly unkind it's just. unsolicited yk? & criticism of something so intensely personal. art created by & for you.) #like. a lot of fic is written by neurodivergents too. it's more relevant than the average situation to remember that an author might be #''disproportionately'' harmed by negative feedback. RSD; emotional dysregulation; stuff that makes emotions so much stronger #& more capable of lasting harm #anyway. i guess this is a #vent post #i know ''flames'' were a common issue in fandom before my time but i get the feeling a lot of that was bc #online fandom had a much higher proportion of teenagers shaping the culture. as we get older i think we get a better sense of ourselves #& better at understanding & respecting each other's boundaries. & rights #kids in fandom learn from adults just like everywhere else. be kind is i guess what i'm saying #never cause more harm than you need to. not when you can just walk away and leave no one the worse. just - be kind #and for the love of tillie mayard don't tell people what u think is Problematic about their literal fanfics #even if ur right & not fantastically misreading something to the point of seeming intentional. like. just don't #anyway. this has been #linden in the tags

[jello-fello]

i so desperately miss being REALLY into making fan content for stuff. like i miss the days where i was uploading fics rapid fire because i kept getting ideas but at the same time i'm like. really relieved about not doing it anymore? I rarely even open ao3 anymore and idek how i feel about it.

i think i miss the fun of it, but all the relief in stopping comes from no longer having to deal with other people that i'd be catering to and trying to please everyone. the moment i realized writing fics wasn't actually like. my job. i think i stopped feeling so burdened and just kind of ended up moving on altogether

and as much as i really really love focusing on original things now, there's definitely a kind of void i feel knowing the audience i did and still have and that the vast majority isnt interested in me as a creator once i'm no longer in a specific fandom yknow? like "wow over half a million have read this one fanfic but only the smallest fraction of that have read my comic"

that being said the biggest thing i've been learning over the last year is to just make content for myself and to try not to worry about Numbers

#i do adore everyone who reads my comic though <3 #and i'll forever be grateful for the bnha fandom especially for the following i have #now that its also really helped me get somewhere ALMOST tangible as an artist #i sincerely think if i never wrote fanfics i wouldnt be doing comic cons or having an etsy or ANY of this stuff im doing #but i dont want to keep making fan content just because i think it'd help me careerwise because that just doesnt feel genuine to me #i like to think id still be into making fics esp for bnha if it werent for what happened with my fic server #the way some people spoke to me towards the end of it really made me step back like 'wow these are the people i write for?' #it was only the smallest handful of people but yknow people focus on negatives more than positives #and after that i just. lost motivation #i finished regen honestly kind of just wanting it to be over instead of looking foward to what came next #thought back to conversations with that one handful of people literally crying almost nightly for Months #and was kinda like 'is this what its like to actually be a creator because i dont want this feeling' #BUT NOW I HAVE A GREAT SERVER AND I LOVE ALL OF THEM DEARLY <3 #my comic readers are all absolute sweethearts and i'd die for all of em #100% taught me the thing about small close communities always being better than big ones #thats why i'm so okay with the stats of my comic now compared to my fics #im happy with the numbers now #my brain is very full tonight yall can tell #its the adderall #todo kipp toe flam quicksilvers and everyone else in the server iluuuuu