#what is it about him that makes us LoveHate him so much

[skyeslittlecorner]

Hi!! I love your work too much and it's the first time asking for a request but I need more baby leviathan 😭 I just can't, he's so cute and breaks my heart so much 🥺 I just want to hug him and comfort him. Could I have a little more? 👉👈

(Sorry for the bad English, I'm still learning since it's not my native language 😔)

Hi dear! Don't worry, your English is good! Sorry it took me so long, life got to me. But, it's finally time to write this lovely request. I made it a little longer than I planed, and I hope it will make up for the wait🧡

Words: ~700

Perfect from every point of view | Leviathan

Have you ever had a dream that you didn't want to repeat? A nightmare that has plagued you all your life? A trauma that you didn't want to forget, only to honor the memory of those who passed away? 

If not, imagine the cold. The Arctic cold goes through your entire body, as if you jumped into an ice hole in the middle of winter, drowned in icy water with a thick layer of ice above the head. These were the feelings Leviathan had when he looked at his baby hands.

Turned into a child. What for? Why him? An injustice he couldn't understand. Especially with his childish mind. It's not fair. It shouldn't be like this, he's the king, he can't be like this! No one can see him like that.

Although he was used to spending time in his office, today it seemed unusually empty. Somehow greater and dreadfully quiet. The furniture was a bit bigger, the footsteps were a bit louder. He even kicked Foras out so he wouldn't come any closer. Levi supposedly knew that his subjects wouldn't do anything to him, he could always hang them, but...  was afraid, and didn't want to admit it to himself. So when the door creaked, he raised his hand, ready to hang the unaware poor guy, but nothing happened.

“It’s just me.” 

A voice, unusually gentle, cut through the silence. Only after a while the boy carefully lowered his hand and turned around, still not coming out from behind the coffin. But he saw. It was you. Stood in the open door, smiling casually. 

Something made him want to trust you. That's good? Bad? Rather bad, after all you can't trust anyone.

“Can I come in? I have something that kids on Earth love. Do you want to try it?” You didn't get an answer, but you thought about it too. “No one in hell has ever tried this.”

With this promise, you managed to tickle his uniqueness.

“Nobody?”

“No, and certainly not made by me.”

Finally, a small, horned head popped out from behind the coffin and looked at you. Enemy? Friend? You were deemed the latter and invited in.

Of course, chocolate-covered bananas weren't the height of culinary genius, but you didn't have time to think or do anything else. Fortunately, the child didn't ask. He just tried thickly covered with cocoa pieces of fruit, and occasionally flinched at a sound you couldn't even hear. The innocent look reminded you of a scared deer, and the sharp facial expressions of a starved, tortured dog. 

You wondered if he would eat this little treat as an adult, or would he despise it? Although currently he looked like he was just eating stress. Or like he actually remembered starving when he was in the cage. You brushed shiny strands of hair from the fair forehead. He let you. Seeing so much terror and pain in those crystal yet dull eyes, you wanted to wrap your arms around him and protect him from the world. Yes, the adult was an asshole, but... You'll think about it when he'll be an adult again. You hoped that you would both just forget about this episode like it never happened and continue to lovehate each other. 

“I’ll spend time with you, okay? You will let me?”

Another moment of consideration passed before he nodded. A lazy afternoon together awaited you, just for you to fall asleep in a coffin together.

꧁:･ ✡ ･:꧂

When Levi opened his eyes in the middle of the night, everything was back to normal. You were finally in his arms and not the other way around. Smaller, more fragile, more delicate. Almost everything... from the one percent threat you had been before, you were now none at all in his eyes. Human, a creature full of doubts and capable of lies, chose to live honestly, full of care and warmth. Truly devilish. 

He hugged you tighter and kissed you tenderly on your forehead and then on your nose. As he fell back to sleep, his tired brain recalling a vision that he fortunately had no memory of when he woke up the next morning. Jealousy would consume him. But now? Now in his perfect arms lay the most perfect being.

#whb #what in hell is bad #whb leviathan #skye's little talk

[juminies]

I present myself as a Jumin bad story ending 2 hater in the grand scheme of things, but there is a lot of nuance to it. The thing is, I actually think it functions very well as a bad ending and does an incredible job of showing the negative path Jumin could fall down very quickly given the opportunity. It allows a prime look into his mindset and his brain and really opens him up to let the player properly see the deeply buried, traumatised, grimy parts we only narrowly skim otherwise. In that sense I hate it in the way you're supposed to dislike any bad ending: this is not where we should have ended up; this is not how I, the player, should have acted; it's uncomfortable and upsetting and makes you go Oh, oh no. If people were normal about bad ending 2 I would lovehate it in the way I have written long analysis posts about how normal ending is a bit fucked.

However, when I say "I hate BE2" really what I'm talking about is the way people simply were not ready for it to exist in the way it did, especially not at the time it did. A large proportion of the game's audience did not see BE2 and look through the surface dynamic, and instead completely ignored everything the game was trying to show regarding Jumin using BE2. They saw the CG and went "hehe BDSM, this is just like Christian Grey <3" and that was that. It led to massive flanderisation of his character by a concerningly large proportion of people who played and didn't play! the game. And sure, on one hand, if you really want to overlook Jumin as a character to fulfil your fantasy then okay. It's an otome game, the fantasy is the point. But it's frustrating as someone who loves Jumin so much to see people get him so wrong because they won't step away from 2016/2017 fanon. I still(!!) see people intertwining his BE2 outlook with his good end outlook, as if they're the same, which is absolutely wild considering both the layers of character development he goes through in the following days and the fact that it legitimately does not make sense that he would act like he does in BE2 if MC does not have her BE2 personality. You can obviously acknowledge that that part of him (the fear, the possessiveness) exists/ed on some level—in fact, please do! He's very multifaceted and it's important to note that he's not perfect! But you can do that without using it to heinously mischaracterise him. I could get into the ultimately what Jumin wants is whatever you want, he thrives on seeing his partner happy and feeling good side of it, but it's barely even relevant if what you're trying to do is tell me that Jumin is a sadist. He's not even a sadist IN bad ending 2

#i will say it's not as bad these days as it was a few years ago! but it still annoys me every time lol #debated tagging this but i decided i won't be a hater in the main tags today #also side note i have mixed opinions on the existence of bad & after in general #i think it was a very weird choice to release a multi chapter bad end dlc? #like... what lol

[huayno]

berserk ramblings! that's your warning

source: i read berserk one (1) time a couple years ago and talked a lot about it with people who also lovehate this manga (hi nat)

going into berserk i carried the impression that griffith had planned the eclipse from the beginning, and was all riled up to hate him, only to be thrown off when it became apparent that was not the case.

whether you already knew about eclipse in all its horrible detail, or just saw femto presiding over a demonic ritual in black swordsman arc in the beginning, the question hanging over golden age is: which direction will the betrayal come from? how will this camaraderie be lost? it's already an implicitly deterministic setup that nudges the reader into hindsight bias, and strengthens this with a parade of freaky, powerful beings declaring that all events are accounted for by causality. this is a mislead.

golden age griffith is not a stellar guy. he already considers himself to be superior, he sees the hierarchical position he wields through his charisma and competence to be just and natural, he's comfortable using other people as instruments. but his aim more subtle than just angling for a crown: he's a utopianist. the same moral calculus that allows him to let his loyal followers fall in battle for him is the same calculus that leads him to sleep with a pedophile so that fewer of them will die. this genuine concern (only casca knows about the actual bargain) and the allure of his vision is why they follow him. he even has some qualms about eliminating his political enemies, or at least he cares about guts' opinion of it. hold that thought.

griffith has no idea that he's in possession of a magical amulet that can trade the lives of his comrades for godhood. he loses it, it returns against all odds at a fatal moment. he doesn't even intentionally activate it—his blood makes contact with the behelit after an aborted suicide attempt. the godhand repeatedly emphasizes that the sacrifice is both his secret will (but it isn't, or they wouldn't have to convince him) and inevitable (which puts his will into question). this unsettling pattern plays out with other apostles we see throughout the story: they're made the sweetest offer at their lowest point.

the demons unearth griffith's suppressed awareness that there is only bloody path to his dream, but he didn't have to choose his dream. it wasn't the dream that sustained him while he was being tortured but guts, the first person he ever wanted as an equal. at the crucial moment he's again reminded that guts was the only person who could make him forget about his dream, but at the same time, he's already saying the words. the thought that he'll be left with an already substantial pile of corpses, with no castle and no guts (who will lead the band of the hawk and abandon him in his reduced state) is too much to bear.

guts, on the other hand, is just as fatalistically marked for death by this choice and chooses to keep himself and casca alive despite all the evil ghosts trying to drag them to hell. casca will not be a character again for a couple hundred chapters and guts has his own [incoherent ranting] but in this respect he's griffith's counterpoint.

skip to millennium falcon, griffith got reborn (again) as a god. what's he up to?

still on the same shit. now he has his glorious kingdom, with sycophants replacing his dead comrades, his surviving friends despising him, a (still despite being a god) politically necessary marriage to a woman he feels nothing for, atoning "good deeds" for civilians he doesn't give a shit about. shining pillar of light! tea with the pope!

DEEPLY swagless. sensui and itsuki (oh yea this was about an anime villain poll) snatch the win no contest.

hopefully i've made his juicy little dilemma more interesting, even if his grand motivation is decidedly unsexy. you can argue that it should be a nah duh, but "banding together to install our bro the wise and just as king" is a pernicious staple of fantasy narratives (kingdom. kingdom.) and there is merit into staking it to more compelling interpersonal drama and then ruthlessly shredding it into confetti. bonus points for not setting up guts as an opposing Great Man of History, 5 million negative points for [incoherent ranting again].

so i didn't even get to the eclipse [redacted] and the twenty nine different ways it wrecked the story or how chapter black stacks up but this is long enough. if you read all this i'll bequest my monster perfect editions to you in my will. goodnight!

[anotherblblog]

Gameboys Rewatch Episode 4

Thrill of the Chase

so like I do feel sorta bad for Cai for this cuz he’s all happy in his lil situationship and feeling good and then here comes this asshole

like I love/hate Cai which is to say I love Cai but hate his antics but I get his antics and his demon twink ways

Terrence - I just can’t stand actual fuckboy

I will say this - like the music cues around Terrence are freaking great love how his bass and lower notes (I don’t know how to articulate well or probably correctly about music so apologies if this is not helpful or accurate) influence the soundboard. “Just Like Old Times” and “Terrence and Wesley” are such great tracks and it’s because of how Terrence has all the low heavy bass leitmotifs 

Gav and his squees and excitement are so endearing. Dude is just playing with his hand revealed

and here’s Cai not being direct and helping the situation....  this is where I stop feeling as bad for Cai

when I talk about this moment and the later Gav v Wesley sitch - I do feel the character tension in Gameboys is very grounded and reasonable - even and especially if the characters aren’t being grounded and reasonable

Cai is thrown off by Terrence and while it’s easy to say “he should just straight up ask Gav” if Cai is already not 100% about Gav, he doesn’t know what to believe Gav does seem too good to be true and it would hurt a lot to go along with that and then have the carpet pulled from under you but I still do assert the more mature and least overall harmful if not easiest thing would be for Cai to have a (hopefully) honest and clear conversation with Gav

relationships and trust are hard

I do love Gav being like “wanna see me naked” lmao Gav is in the dark and it sucks but is also funny cuz he’s the very last to know because people work hard at keeping him out of the loop which makes me mad because I see comments saying that Gav is “dumb” or just a himbo and I don’t fully agree Gav is confident and not playing games or hiding anything and people are playing games and hiding thing from him that concern him, so he just is not aware of all the facts but I have never gotten the impression Gav is “dumb” 

it is funny watching Cai who is not being upfront and kinda gaslighting Gav get gaslit so hard by Terrence. Like Terrence just systematic gets into Cai’s head. Terrence’s knowledge of Gav and probably social media stalking skills really must be sharp

as much shit as I give Cai (cuz he deserves it) Cai is not malicious with his bullshit and projecting about Gav. He’s just overwhelmed and wound tight Terrence is being malicious with his bullshit and lies

Gav is trying so hard and Cai is shutting him down even harder but Gav is very very fucking attune and aware and can sense there’s something wrong/different with Cai and does ask Cai repeatedly but Cai chooses to not be honest and then the bitch runs away lmaooooooo Cai is unintentionally hilarious

Pearl - “try walking through fire” lmao I am very protective of Gav

”bites back” “bites back?” “bites back!” Pearl and Cai are good friends

Cai is insane - “it’s one sided and only favors Gav” - Cai wtf are you talking about? you’re so ridiculous

no more Scorpio slander! trying to make us the bad guys, Chun Li

Terrence’s final part in this ep where he really puts the screws into Cai... oof hook, line, and sinker

like you can see it so well on Cai’s face when he hears it out loud that it doesn’t make sense lmaooooo see, when you do gaslighty clownery

my friend calls the Cai “confronts” Gav scene - girlbossing too hard and flying into the sun 

Episode 4 Final Thoughts:

I love Gav I lovehate Cai I hate Terrence

#Gameboys #gameboysrewatch #rewatch

[usamey]

absolutely ADORE how if you go to anyone who likes scout and ask them to describe him, they immediately go “SCRAWNY LITTLE PISSBOY LITTLE TWINK LANKY HEADASS SKINNY LITTLE COCKY LITTLE FREAK STUPID DUM-DUM HIMBO IDIOT STUPIDFACE”

#egads! it speaks! #it’s universal at this point #like i do it #max DEFINITELY does it #but im snoopin thru scout stuff rn #and ive seen multiple different users just absolutely REAM into him #like ‘LMAOOOOO WHAT A LOSER CANT EVEN GET A GIRLFRIEND THATS WHY YO DADDY LEFT YOU OL SKINNY TREE LOOKIN ASS’ #but at the end it’s always #‘i love you tho <3’ #LIKE BITCH- #it’s its own little culture honestly #if you like scout you’re like a Guaranteed Tsundere #‘i drew/wrote/am going to make out with Scout- but not cuz i like him or anything!!😠😠😠’ -Every Scimp Ever #what is it about him that makes us LoveHate him so much? #you wouldn’t say those things to pyro- that’s HORRIBLE! pyro is sweet lovely angel and so is soldier and demo and heavy and- #i am proving my own point #everyone is lovely Except For Him #SHDJFNDMDNFNMF WHYYYYYYYY #idk man just- food for thots 🤔🍔

[cesca-untoldstories]

THANK YOU! I feel Anasui doesn’t get much love and maybe I’m probably one of the few that would ship him with Jolyne.

Totally! I always feel so bad when Anasui is always classified as a "Silly Horny Simp and Incel" when in Stone Ocean many things have been explicitly shown that give to analyze Anasui and understand his compulsive obese behavior from a Jojo-ish edge. but I think history repeats itself as with Kakyoin being called as "Milf Hunter" and traveling to Egypt only by Jotaro's mother. of couse I like to laugh at memes of one been a simp and the other been a milf hunter but they are not like that actually, just memes or dark humor. but yes, in fact I also ship to Anasui and Jolyne from my analysis that I will give next:

WHY IS ANASUI THE WAY HE IS...

The way he likes or loves jolyne... all of us at first say "he is a mere simp" but he is actually one of the most inteligent in the group. Anasui is told to be a prodigy kid since birth, telling he always wanted to know how everything was built and the inner things. the pure things. they never actually reveal how he got his stand. but assuming he got it like s born stand user... that would mean his true nature is to "open things to be pure for him to activate his stand or keep him powered. so... when he is in jail due killing his fiancé cheating on him with another man. he was never in loveh he was using her for own devices to keep activating his stand and feeling powered by only the thought of obsession. the determination on him leads in how obsessive he can be over someone to make Diver Down powerful enough. this means when he got actually in jail and felt or even saw Jolyne's determination and pure hearted. he find his new obsession because it brought back DD that's why in the beginning we saw him as a woman himself. I always like to tell that anasui doesn't have a "gender" he is like "tell me whatever you like I go with anything" vibe. but with jolyne he ended up gaining the hability to change his appearence anyform. to human to this other one that introduced a lot of chocolates in him to be out of the police. what I theorize is his true nature is obsession to activate his stand. and having this obsession possed in jolyne's to be rejected everytime make him stronger. that's why he is like so...SIMP as we say. Jotaro indeed understood his nature when he beg him to marry jolyne so much. he needed to be rejected to activate or power up his stand. so jotaro keeps telling "yea keep talking i don't understand" Anasui never wanted jolyne to fell for him, because he himself feel like he doesn't deserve to even be alive. but if he got a pure heart in order to help the ones that need help. and been this obsession with jolyne and making her feel uncomfortable was his lead to rejection and power up the obsession. but at the very end when jolyne... told him "don't ask my dad about marriage. ask me." anasui was so afraid. because he saw in jolyne's eyes that actually she start falling in love with him with the determination of IM NOT A DAD'S GIRL ANYMORE IM BIG ENOUGH TO TAKE MY OWN DECISIONS In conclusion, Anasui is as inteligent as Fugo. both attached to an emotion. Anasui to obsession As fugo with rage

#thanks for coming to my tedtalk #mun fran talking #narciso anasui #stone ocean #jojo #jjba #jojo's bizarre adventures #jojo theories #BUT ITS JUST A THEORY #A JOJO THEORY

[help-im-a-gay-fish]

Okay I had to do some stuff, but here I am rambling about relationship between Killer and Nightmare in Colours of LOVE.

Some of this I might mention before some of it might be your and Jann or Yuri ideas... Anyway!! The way I see that:

Even though this is soulmate au Nightmare and Killer aren't perfect fit for eachother. They are perfect fit in threesome - Ccino softens rough edges of both of them, and changes their attention from being mad on eachother to carrying about Ccino together (especially at first when he is really depressed). But before that... It was hard.

Killer is really open about everything he thinks and feels. If he founds someone who is attractive he will flirt. Even when he is already dating Nightmare. And also he always shows his affection to Nightmare everywhere, in public too. That's cute and sweet, but Nightmare is really closed person so that makes him really uncomfortable. Night often got jealous with Killer flirting with anyone else, got embarrassed with his kisses and all on public, and in general is a bit annoyed with Killer's actions. Killer on the other hand doesn't really understand why Nightmare is so "tensed" (he is not, Night is just much more calm, but Killer don't get it).

They were braking up and coming back again a few times, because they had argued a lot about everything and got tired of this. Right now they are on their "best days" - they started to date again a few weeks ago and right now they are through some stuff, they understand eachother better, and pretty chill about eachother weird actions. Like in the second page Night is a bit flustered by Killer's kiss but he almost used to that. Same as he is worried about being late, since Killer is almost always late, but he is more or less fine by that. On next page (which you haven't seen yet), there are an interesting dialog between them, and I will definitely write some of "subtext" about it when I will post it.

Actually if they haven't met Ccino they would break up again after a few months. And maybe come back again after a week.

Also! Interesting thing about third soulmate: at the beginning of the comic (before Nigh met Ccino) Killer is 100% sure that they have third soulmate, but Nightmare is sure for about 60%. Killer is existed about that, he knew knew that he is polyamorious for a long time, but Nightmare hesitates a lot, because he can't really imagine himself in polyam relationship. It feels weird and also he is soooooo jealous about Killer paying any attention to anyone except him, that he worries to become "third wheel". Will it be different with Ccino?? Who knows (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

Hi kotikaleo!!! This was super fun to read.

Firstly I'm going to tag @zu-is-here since she started the studio verse

It's definitely an interesting insight to your comic and the characters!

It reminds me a lot of an early version of my own ideas about the studio verse nightkiller relationship! And I can definitely see the way we have bounced headcannons of each other paying off.

Them still dealing with a softer kind of lovehate dynamic is an interesting one. It doesn't seem to be as extreme as my version, but it's interesting that it's still there.

The fact that they are meant to work as a 3 makes sense as well. If they are supposed to be bounded as a 3 it makes sense that three they their relationship would be unstable. They don't work as a two, but they are soul mates and something would always pull the two of them together.

I'm also curious, since Nightmare isn't 100% sure that the lack of colour is due to them being soul mated to another person. I wonder if he ever felt like the universe got it wrong? And that he'd been mated to the wrong person? Or perhaps he felt it meant that him and Killer don't have soul mates and that's why they have some connections.

It sad boy.

Also if Killer knows he's poly by nature, is that something that causes disagreements with the 2 of them?

And now for mine and @jann-the-bean version.

This story has been something that we mostly developed in tumbler DMs but both me and Jan wrote a story about it. Jan wrote

KillerNight(s)

And I'm writing

Round and round till we all fall down

Nightmare and Killer's relationship started off baddddd, it basically started as a mutual dislike for one another. This is due to their conflicting personalities and morals.

Nightmare was originally quite excited to meet Killer, as he'd heard a lot about the actor. But almost straight away he found Killer to be rude, childish and irritating. Killer found Nightmare to be stuck up, snobbish and entitled.

The two first met at an awards ceremony and got into a yelling match after a few drinks and were separated. From there their dislike for one another was made quite well known to the public because of a social media battle back and forth.

This only went on for a few months however, as the characters of 'Killer' and 'Nightmare' were cast to play together.

Nightmare and Killer agreed to be civil in order to function while working and get the filming completed as soon as possible.

As they worked together, their dislike turned into a playful banter and respect for one another. And then something else shifted.

Now Killer has a reputation for being a player and one who likes to sleep around, as you said, he's open about his interest in people when he has it and enjoys casually flirting with just about anyone.

Which came to include Nightmare.

Nightmare paid no mind to it really, though he couldn't understand why it embarrassed him so much.

Killer comes to find Nightmare to be very attractive and enjoys his reactions when teased, he rights him off though because he was under the impression that Nightmare was straight, and he'd never try to change that.

It was a day when they were talking about Killer's eyes and how it's caused him to struggle, that Nightmare tells him that he thinks his eyes are very pretty and that they are an attractive quality, and something in Killer breaks and he kisses him.

So Killer feels like he messed up and the two avoid each other. But it causes Nightmare to start questioning things about himself.

Nightmare at this point had only every dated women. He assumed that he was straight. But after that kiss a lot of buried feelings are dragged to the surface and exposed, and he realises that he's also attracted to men.

So Jan goes into full details about this, in the fic Killernights, but basically Nightmare confronts Killer about the kiss and Killer tells him he 'has a thing for him'

The two go back to Killer's flat to talk, but their normal banter, leads to flirting and then another kiss. And Nightmare who is curious and suddenly craving new sensations becomes lost to him. Killer who finds Nightmare physically very attractive, also gets wrapped up and the two of them sleep together.

Nowwww this is getting long so I'll try to shorten it down a bit.

Basically, it's an amazing night. It's passionate, enjoyable and a lot of fun for both of them. Upon finding out Night has never been with a man, Killer guides him carefully though the process.

After that night the two can't stop thinking about each other, even though they both planned for it to be a one time thing. Again, they avoided each other until talking after a while.

And killer admits his desires for the other, and offers Nightmare a safe environment to experiment with his sexuality, where he won't be judged.

To cut a long story short, this spirals into a passionate and carnal, on and off booty call/fling with each other that spans for years.

Other that time they grow very close with each other, and come to recognise the similarities that they share, and have soft moments of just enjoying being together with one another.

For Killer, Nightmare is the first person to ever tell him he had beautiful eyes and mean it. The first person who wasn't at all put off by them.

To Nightmare, it feels like Killer is the one person that will never pick Dream over him. And he makes him feel wanted and desirable in a way few have before.

However, their are still parts of their relationship that conflict. Of course a healthy relationship will always have some conflicts. But for Killer and Nightmare the conflicts clash and fight with each other.

That along with both of their past traumas, (I wrote about Killer's back story here) means they find it difficult to talk about genuine feelings and what's bothering them. Causing things to bottle up and blow up over time.

They also find it impossible to admit that they actually love each other deeply.

They tried to be in a full on committed relationship once, (which I'm writing about in Round and Round) but it didn't work out for these issues. As well as the fact that Killer is poly by nature, and therefore gets anxious and uncomfortable in a relationship with one person only. Which he won't talk to Night about for the reasons stated above.

Enter Ccino.

Now Ccino is the missing piece for Nightmare and Killer.

He's soft and gentle spoken, which easily helps them calm down when things get heated between them. He also provides a safe and loving space to open up about what things are bothering them.

Nightmare and Killer's also, as you said, spend more energy caring for and sometimes worrying about Ccino, so they have less energy for the constant fighting.

Ccino was the missing piece. He's the person who will cuddle and read books with nightmare, but also the one who's super into affection, which Killer loveesss.

A relationship would never work between just killer and Ccino, since Ccino wouldn't be able to keep up with Killer's libido and killer doesn't know much about Ccino's mental health. And Ccino wouldn't work in a relationship with just Nightmare because Night's colder and more straight forward personality would leave him affection staved after a while.

They just work together! They are basically soul mates in this universe as well!

P. S Nightmare in this universe was also very veryyyyy jealous when Killer showed interest in Ccino. Which is something he took out on Ccino till Killer stopped it. After falling in love with Marshmallow he regrets this a lot.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR MORE. COLOURS OF LOVEEEEE

#undertale au #shipping #undertale multiverse #sansest #fluffynightkiller #fluffynight #Nightkiller #studio verse #studioverse #studio au #studio versions #studio #Fluffynightkiller #ccillermare #Colours of love #headcannons #Headcannon

[storiesaboutcole]

Request 12: Cole x Reader in an angsty relationship.

From Anonymous: Hi! I love your stories could you please make one where Cole is in a lovehate relationship very stubborn, infuriating and passionate that doesnt end well? Thank you!

From @aestheticrelated Hi I was wondering if you could do an angsty sad songfic. Based on the song 'Tryin' To Love Me' by Jason Aldean. And if you could make it at the end where she moved on with someone else and he just has to watch as he made one of the biggest mistakes ever (bonus if you could make it KJ). Thank you so much I cannot link the song but again it is called, "TRYIN' TO LOVE ME" by JASON ALDEAN.

Notes: Hello. I just think that these 2 requests are more or less the same so I decided to combine them.

Warnings: Language

You were 21 when you met Cole. He was hanging out in a bar with his friends, and you were stopping in with your friend Valerie after a class for Happy Hour. It  was a coincidence that Valerie and Cole sort of known each other from a mutual friend and the first thing Valerie whispered to you that night before introducing you to him was, “You are going to love this guy.” You didn’t know how right she was until after that night.

Cole bought you a drink a chatted up you up a bit. He assured you that he was ‘just a student at NYU’ and you had no idea that he was once a famous actor right until Valerie spilled the beans. Cole seemed uncomfortable that people acknowledged him for being ‘a famous actor’ and you could totally relate to that since you grew up with a mother who is sorta well-known since she’s a fashion designer.

You spent the night enjoying the company of Valerie and Cole’s friends, but whenever you returned you gaze towards Cole, he would meet you with a smile. At the end of the night, you were drunk enough to surrender your phone number and he called you the very next morning.

You both fall madly in love right away.

You and Cole dated for about a year before moving in together and your love story was unfolding beautifully. Fast forward to another year, Cole got the call. He was offered an acting job - something that he was once certain to leave behind. 

“The offer sounds good. Are you going to consider it?” you asked him in his embrace as you trace meaningless circles with your finger on his chest.

“I don’t know,” he shrugged. “Should I?”

“Well, it really is up to you, honestly,” you muttered although you knew that with him taking up the offer would mean that the slow life that you both had been living would drastically change. He eventually took up the offer and you landed a modelling gig with an agency not long after - a job that you knew Cole was not comfortable with for some reasons unknown.

Before your careers and long distances took hold of your relationship, there was plenty of typical arguing and stress over regular, every day stuff. It then became a competition of who had a more stressful day at work. You were both always hot tempered, emotional, stubborn and stressed out.

Cole was back in NY for a short weekend and you were having a week long break. You promised to cook him some dinner and looked forward to spend time with your boyfriend and there he was, sitting at the bar counter, scrolling through his phone, barely speaking to you. You felt frustrated that he doesn’t seem to pay his mind to you at all even after months of not seeing each other. 

“Are you gonna keep on doing that?” you pointed at his phone, but he wasn’t looking.

“Hmm?” he asked, his eyes still glued on the phone.

Seeing how disinterested he was to even look at you, you groaned and continued stirring the pasta sauce mindlessly. You were absolutely fuming. “You know, if you’re gonna do that all day, might as well date your phone then.”

He finally snapped his head at you. “What are you so angry about? It’s just a group chat.”

“Oh, so you have group chats now? With whom? Lili? Camila?” 

“Hey, leave my friends alone, okay?”

“Since when are you so friendly with your ‘friends’ anyway? You meet them everyday and you guys are texting each other now?” you asked, your voice shaky because you were just so angry at him.

“What the hell is your problem, Y/N? So I can’t have friends now? What about you? You’ve been hanging out with your ‘model’ friends too. How is that any different?” 

You snapped your head at him, as your hand turned off the heat from the stove. “Do you see me holding my phone texting them while you’re around? I barely get to see you, Cole. The least you could do is act like a decent boyfriend for once!”

Your words flipped Cole’s switch. “So you think I’m not a decent boyfriend?” 

You moved away from the kitchen, holding your hands up in a signal that meant stop.

“Tell me, Y/N, who’d be a decent boyfriend to you? That stuck up model friend of yours? Or that horny agent of yours who hired you just because he wanted to have sex with you? Which one?” His voice made you feel guilty, but also made you angry. You wanted resolution, you wanted to not be so upset, but it was more than that. You missed him and that’s a fact. But he doesn’t miss you, that’s also a fact. And he was just pissed off that you were right.

“How could you say that? You have no idea what you’re saying,” you muttered, adding, “This is not about me, okay? It’s about you.”

“Of course it’s about me, Y/N! It’s always about me! You are never wrong. You are always right!” he scoffed.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“You think you’re such a great girlfriend, don’t you? Well, let me tell you this, you’re not!” he continued.

“Cole... stop.”

Ignoring you, he added, “You complain too much and you think you are better than everyone. You always try to prove that you are a great girlfriend in front of everyone but the fact is that you bring nothing to the table. All you do is whine about how badly I treated you. Have you ever considered that maybe you are the problem? You haven’t been a great girlfriend at all and all you ever do is flaunt our relationship on your Instagram so that the public would think that ‘Oh she’s so happy with her boyfriend’ ‘Oh they are so sweet’. Well, Y/N, who are we kidding? You know that’s bullshit! We are not happy. Just look at us!”

You were shocked by what he had said. A tear stubbornly fell from your eye although you had not given yourself a permission to cry. You were so hurt by Cole that you just didn’t know what else to say.

“Look, Y/N, if you’re so annoyed that I am here tonight then fine. I’ll sleep at Dylan’s tonight,” Cole told you, barely making any eye contact with you. “You can go and look for your decent boyfriend or fuck that agent of yours or whatever. I don’t care,” he threw his arm in the air, aiming for the front door.

You tried to process and take a second to just think, but your head was foggy with emotion still. You walked away and went to the bedroom door. He stopped his tracks and watched you with a look of pure angst on his face. "I know I shouldn't be this hurt," you spoke with a low voice,"But I am. I think maybe you should go. I want to be alone right now."

You took the painful step into your room and closed the door between you. You cried into your pillow and pretended that it didn't feel like your heart has been punctured a million times over by tiny pins.

***

The bedroom door opened with a force as you pulled it towards you the next morning. Cole fell backwards onto your feet. Startled, you stared down at him. He looked back up at you, waiting.

"Were you there all night?" you asked. He nodded. You assumed that he’s left but maybe because of guilt he didn’t. He sat up and shook out hair with his fingers, then stood. He looked at you nervously and licked his lips.

"I’ll make you coffee" he offered.

"No, you don’t have to..."

"I know. I fucked up. You're angry, and I promise I'll fix it," he gently lifted your chin with his finger.

You said nothing, barely making eye contact with him. You were still hurt, but you didn’t feel like telling him that.

"God, Y/N. Let me fix this,” his voice was shaking.

"No, Cole, look, I don't need you to comfort me or anything. I'm good. Just… we can just forget it,"

"I'm your boyfriend, I should-"

"Are you really?"

Cole looked defeated, and you felt exhausted. He licked his lips again and nodded. You stood for a few seconds, figuring out what you wanted, or needed. You leant into the door frame and closed your eyes. You heard Cole moved, and then he was in front of you. His hands were on your hips, but you pushed them away.

"I love you so much, Y/N," he whispered.

“Really?”

“Of course,” he protested. “I know I said a lot of stupid things last night. You know I don’t mean it.”

“You know what, Cole? I don’t think I know anymore. What you said last night... they are just... I... I am sorry. I think I need to be alone for a bit.”

“Y/N, baby, please...” he grabbed you by the hips again. “I am so sorry. Please...” He pulled you into his arms, but you didn’t hug back. Your arms were stuck between your chest and his. He was rocking side to side and holding you a little too tight. He took your face in his hands. His eyes were glassy with tears, but you knew none would fall.

“I don’t think I can do this anymore, Cole,” you finally admitted.

“No, baby, don’t say that! We can fix this,” a tear finally fell from his eye as he violently shook his head. “I am sorry, “ he repeated over and over again like a broken machine.

“This is all we ever do. We fight. And make up. And fight again. I am tired Cole. I am just so tired. It’s exhausting,” you sobbed. “Please don’t beg and just let me go. Please... I can’t hurt any more than I already have, Cole.”

“I’m sorry. Please, Y/N. Fuck. I screwed up, baby, I know. But, please...” You stopped looking at him then and shook your head. 

“I’m sorry, Cole. We should’ve done this a long time ago. You’re not happy. We’re not happy. Why are we hurting ourselves like this?”

“That’s not true. I’m sorry... Please...”

“I’m sorry, Cole... I don’t think I can anymore.”

***

You eventually moved on with someone new a year later. And you were happier. You’d never thought that you’d see Cole again, but you did. You accidentally bumped into each other at the Met Gala and he saw that you were with somebody new. He stopped his track, debating if he should said hi, but he read your unwelcoming body language well. It was just too awkward for you.

Exchanging glances, you saw that knowing look in his eyes - like he knew you’re in a better state of mind. That you’re happier. And that’s all that needs to be known. He looked like he was taken aback for a brief second, laced with a mixture of sorrow and regrets, like he wasn’t expecting it but he also sort of knew. He snapped himself out of his thoughts, and went back to his old cheery self. You took that as a cue to walk away - away from the fond memories of him. What was once shared between you and him were evidently no longer there.

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[peachy-blinderss]

One get's an ask: How happy are you with Thomas' relationships in general? Because I don't know and noone of my friends watches the show. I get most of his family-relations. The lovehate for Arthur, the protective instinct for Finn and also Ada (and the rest). But from the start the situation with Grace was just not what I hoped for him? And I'm not sure about Lizzie either... So please: Share your thoughts or ignore this :) Have a lovely day! xx

Hi there!! This is a very interesting question. Yea and no to if I’m happy with them. I really wish he would be more open to his family members. I know he keeps a lot of things secret to protect them, but I feel like that makes him so isolated. He really doesn’t have anyone to be 100% open with. He relies heavily on Polly but that relationship is quite strained even still. I think Grace is the closest he has ever come to being 100% open with. He gave her his heart and his body. We all know Tommy uses sex to feel close to people, and I feel like with Grace he had that going for him, and he did really trust her and he was able to confide in her. I liked Grace a lot even though a lot of people don’t which is totally ok. I feel like with Lizzie he confides in her the most out of everyone after Grace because she is the only one he EVER let’s see him vulnerable. Yes he does have sex with other women like Jessie and May, but Lizzie has really seen him at some of his lowest points like after the war, and after Grace’s death. She has seen all of his worst, and most broken parts. She knows most things about him and can read him like a book. How she differs from Grace is that he only gives her his body and not his heart. He is fairly vulnerable around her but he doesn’t love her so that makes a big difference in how open he is to her. I love Lizzie and I wish she and Tommy could work out but unfortunately he will never be able to give her the love she deserves. He uses her and she sticks around because she loves him too much. I’m very interested to see how the Lizzie, Tommy, new baby dynamic will play out. Tommy better love the shit out of Ruby. Overall I wish we had more development in Tommy’s relationships. I wish we got more of Ada and Polly’s backstories and I do hope to see more Ada and Tommy moments because Ada can really put Tommy in his place which I love, plus their brother sister moments are so cute. Than you so much for the ask!! Hope this answered your question :)

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[saportuh]

ok panic concert highlights

(plus some personal adventures)

this was the portland show on the 12th k

so it was a fuckin hour and a half drive bc where i fuckin live now is far away from everything i hate it anyway that sucked & i ran my phone down to 80 percent during said drive which proved problematic

we get there (me & my lil sis) & our dad drops us off & we run up & im bitching about how weird the fucking venue is (it’s normal, it’s just not what i’m used to - in vegas the venues were typically in the casino/resorts so you lined up inside the halls & sat against the walls & tourist-watched, in this venue u stood outside in a line???? ughhh)

so we approach the line & something happens, i’m gonna make a separate post about it because holy shit

befriended two excitable gay kids, maybe 8th or 9th grade?? & i was like woah i was u once. now im old & jaded. eugh. then they bailed on me so.

we got into the arena & were on the wrong fucking side so we had to JOG all the way AROUND THE WHOLE FUCKINGN PLACE UGH

THEN WE GOT IN & SAT IN THE WRONG SEATS so the guy next to me (dad w a thick accent, maybe ukranian?? it wasn’t russian but it was close) politely informed me & i was like fuck well until they get here we’ll stay, but i had anxiety so during an arizona song i pretended to go to the bathroom & came back to look for our actual seat, someone took it so i pussied out & went back, had hella anxiety about it, then before hayley the ppl showed up so we had to move & i had to kick some preps out of their seat & they called my lil sister a bitch ;-;

OK SO ONTO THE PERFORMERS

arizona was cute, gotta check them out... singer kept getting emotional & wiping his eyes, it was sweet, and he was hella feeling himself dancing & stuff lmaoo. idk em but im proud of them.

HAYLEYYYYYYYYYYY her dancing & drumming & outfit??? also all the lesbians/wlw getting crunk in the crowd was so damn good haha

ALSO shout out to hayley’s band, they were so cute??? the guitarist & her kept having moments & he seemed like a cool dude, & the girl on synths was so pretty omg??? & smiley i loved her. & the drummer, they were goin so hard i couldnt get a good look, but they had kewl hair

“if you don’t know anything about me, there’s one thing you should know: I LOVE GIRLS” there was so much gay energy at that show i was teary the whole damn time

k confession, i love everything about hayley but i find her voice a little grating on the ears, something about it, but it was super angelic live & didn’t bug me once, & wanna be missed fucked me up cuz it’s my fucking f a v

SHE DID THE DRUMMY IT WAS HOT 

her oufit was so damn iconic rlly tho, the pants & shoes totes fit her but wouldn't look good on anyone else, but that shirt, the hot dad look w the open v & all the jewelry, holy fuck that’s how im tryna be

during girls like girls, everyone had their lights out & there was a bunch of pride flags out, and i got this gorgeous shot of a gay pride flag illuminated by lights (i posted it)

most of the songs they played between the breaks were gay themed too which was powerful dude i was so damn emotional

then during the countdown to panic, they played the next episode by dre (the “smoke weed every day” song) & then africa by toto jsfndjfndjskfnjdk

THEN PANIC CAME OUT 

WHOLE ASS STRING & BRASS SECTION BDEN RLLY WENT THERE WOAH

KENNY & NICOLE WERE SO CUTE THE WHOLE TIME THEY KEPT GOOFING AROUND ESPECIALLY KENNY IT WAS ADORABLE

THEN BREB POPPED OUT THE DAMN FLOOR

ok several things about breb

one, i never was heavy into panic, but considering how obsessive i was into bandom a few years back, i still know a lot about early panic, livejournal shit, ryden bullshit, etc, so it was really weird being there with normies who were just like “he’s hot & sings good” when i was like “yall lucky fucks never heard of myrtle beach ” dsjfnjsdnfds

two, four years into panic & i never was attracted to brendon, but dude, EVERYONE fell in love with him at this show, myself included, & i was starin at this bitch ass motherfucker in a trance before i was like “wait ur a bastard STOP U ENDEARING DICKWAD” he was so fucking endearing it was ANNOYING cuz i’ve seen some of the shit he’s pulled damnit. srsly tho, so absolutely charming, wow.

three, and what stuck with me most; brendon loves what he does. a little bit of exhibitionism, i think; he likes ppl looking at & admiring him, he’s that type of person, a showman, but also, i think he just loves making music, people singing along to the music, etc. ive been to eight concerts now, and i don’t think i’ve seen someone who clearly loved being on stage so much. a lot of ppl act like it’s a chore to tour, but brendon clearly loves it, and it made me happy, especially as an aspiring musician. 

four, the straighties drooling over him and the gays drooling over him was truly straight/gay solidarity

ok what else happened... brendon would throw in random ass high notes towards the ends of songs... my sister looked at me super alarmed when he first did it during dtmwagt lmfao... ppl would cheer & it was impressive, but kinda piercing & i was like “show off” lol

HE DID THE ‘I MAKE THESE HIGH HEELS WORK’ thing, i thought he retired tht?? so i was pleased lmfao

i dont rmr anything that stands out about ready to go or la devotee but the lights & backgrounds during them were very pretty & i got some good pics of brebbois face (i finally got semi decent quality pics im rlly happy abt tht, concerts r so hard to photograph)

hallelujah was cool cuz there were, like, those catholic(?) church windows projected on the top part of the stage, it was pretty af, they rlly outdid themselves with the visuals

and mona lisa had like pipes & industrial stuff?? idk it looked dope, and it contrasted rlly cool it was super pretty

nine in the afternoon,,,, the only pretty odd song... i dont even like pretty odd but it was like,,, damn. & he had the piano, total live in denver vibes ;-; but he wasnt dripping sweat this time lmao

golden days, brebweenie knows hes hot, kept winking & doing mic flips & shit & i was like u fucken weenie ive seen that pic of u w a bowl cut in a bra, die

k he’s a fuckin bastard but hhe’s pretty & talented fuckin big ego bitch ... can yall tell i hav a lovehate relationship w him bc i do

I GOT THIS ONE PART ON VIDEO DURING GOLDEN DAYS WHERE KENNY & NICOLE R FUCKING AROUND & MAKING FACES & GOOFING IT’S SO CUTE

during casual affair in the chorus, the mic would echo each word (just lay (lay) in the atmosphere (sphere) & the ‘lay’ was rlly good on my ears idk sometimes certain vocal notes sound GOOD & that was one i keep replaying it

SO VEGAS LIGHTS as yall kno i was born & raised in vegas & a vegasfucker69 it’s my fucking home i moved last november (not my choice) & miss it violently & i was CRYING during vegas lights hard & it was so beautiful im gonna watch the video i got over & over & over that song means so much to me IM SO FUCKING HOMESICK

speaking of which, im pretty bitter i didnt see panic in vegas, this was my first panic show & that kinda bothers me, like i should’ve seen them in vegas a few yrs ago but it never worked out.... still, im grateful i saw them at all & im glad i saw the song live. i had my fob snapback on too, it says ‘las vegas’ on it cuz i got it there haha, wore that on purpose

he did the fucking running man thing towards the end & everyone cheered & i was like dONT ENABLE HIM

sat down during dancing’s not a crime cuz im a bitch who doesn’t like half the new record & also my knees hurt cuz im old apparently, anyway this chick glared at me then sang every word wat a fuckin prep lmao

o yah i forgot, in golden days he got in the crowd & let a girl sing the last chorus it was amazing i bet that made her life

AND DURING DOAB HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD that was SO FUCKING ENDEARING i was like “wow what a guy” then i was like “HE’S A BITCH U KNOW HIM” & i was like “hmm??? what a guy” but omg he made so many people happy it was really beautiful & sweet & i was like... half in love & then i came to my senses jksjfhjsdhfkjsdn

RLLY THO HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD & HIGH FIVED PPL & SHIT & GAVE HUGS & TOOK ART/LETTERS IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD HE WAS SO SWEET & LEGIT EVERYONE WAS FALLING FOR HIM & I WAS LIKE SUFFERING

legit guys, like it’s weird i used to watch his parascopes in 2015 or w/e & he’d say some Bad shit on there sometimes, like ik he does some messy shit BUT HE ACTED SO FUCKING LOVELY BLEH

also he’s very short, like he’s 2 inches taller than me but he looked so little in the crowd i was like... aw

the piano thing ;-; it was rlly pretty but my paranoia & anxiety was off the charts i was like that things gonna fucking fall & crush the crowd it’s gonna fucking fALL but it didnt ofc but i was stressed bleghh

but ok on a positive note, that was soo fucken lovely, bden stopped to try to make eye contact with as many ppl in as many places of possible, like he made the effort to get to everyone & make them have a special moment & it was ... magical ok thts fucken cliche as shit but it rlly was

ok i did smth lowkey embarrassing, i doubt he saw, but when he faced towards us i was just overwhelmed w like.. gratitude?? ive had a bad 2 years in every way, so being somewhere filled with love & fun & kindness & joy & all around good vibes, i was so grateful? i just wanted to thank him for creating that kinda atmosphere. so i like,,, blew kisses but not in a weird way, like later i was like oh that was kinda weird whyd i do that, but at that moment i didnt use my head & it was jus my instinctual way of saying thank u idk it’s lame but it happened so there ya go idfk

fun fact, my vid of it is out of focus cuz i was so enamored watching him & watching the crowd react it was pretty fucking magical it rlly was

once he got down from that piano he went “wow i feel so fucking inspired now” & i was like “bitch me too tf” 

legit it was absolutely indescribable, even watching my vid now.... wow. and u can hear me lightly crying in the back of my video too lmao, and i was shaking p hard, it was so fucking magical. like im getting emotional rn cuz it was exactly what i needed to remind myself that there is good stuff in the world thats worth staying for. 

i never was super big on panic or breb like i said but if i ever meet him im gonna thank him bc that. wow. transformative.

also that transition from the piano cover he did to dying in la was smooth af. it was all around gorgeous.

OK GIRLS GIRLS BOYS, I WAS SO CONCERNED W FILMING I COULDNT PUT MY LIGHT ON (i had a red heart) BUT OMG

he got a bi flag first, then a rainbow one, then another rainbow one... one was those hayley ones lol, and one ended up on the stage out of his eyesight & he never saw it & i felt so bad fjdnfds

G-D ALL THE GAYS SINGING WAS SO EMOTIONAL & THE RAINBOW BEHIND THEM ON STAGE (AND PAN FLAG COLORS AT TIMES?!??!?!)) IT WAS FUCKING MAGICAL & BRENDON LET A FLAG DRIFT IN THE WIND FOR A SEC BEFORE HE PUT IT ON IT WAS GORGEOUS

AND ALL THE RAINBOW LIGHTS IN THE CROWD FUCK DUDE

breb might be a turd but he’s the only one of these emo dudes who parades around draped in flags & so aggressively empowers gay fans through it, and for that, i respect him. ik the song has more perverse origins but now it’s a bi anthem that rlly connects w lgbt fans & it’s rlly beautiful, AND i got another gorgeous shot of a pride flag surrounded by lights & im just. wow.

after, breb said “that is gorgeous btw” about the rainbow lights, and “thank u for participating in love” & giggled, i got this shot of the lights in the dark lookin incredible ;-;

also said “this a record number of flags tonight, very cool” so portland is rlly gay apparently, kewl

nicole doin the nicotine bass line slayed me dead wowie u can hear me go “WOO” on the vid lmfao (im a bassist so i lov her double)

ive seen miss jackson live twice now cuz at my monumentour show, new politics brought lolo out to cover it so that’s dope lmfao

anyway bden did the fuckin valley girl voice for “the scenery is so loud” which was delightful

he had us do the ‘ayyyy’ bit woo

NICOLES BASS,,, SPARKLY

drum thingy ;-; speaking of monumentour, andy & patrick famously did a drum off & i MISSED IT cuz the stage at my venue wasnt large enough to fit both sets ;-; so they didnt do it ;-; but bden doin his own drum solo kinda made up for it a little bit

fuckin show off tho he played like 3 instruments & i was like u bitch stop

there was some kinda audio sample that went “i got a fever & the only prescription is more caffeine(?)” & bden mouthed the words along, and some girl behind me went “SAME” 

UPDATE: googled it, i knew i recognized chris walken’s voice, he says cowbell not caffeine & it’s a skit from snl that i’ve SEEN im a disgrace anyway that was fun also woo cowbell

the big screen kept cutting from bden drumming to a shot of the crowd & someone holding a pride flag & i was like yah drumming is gay now

lmao i only filmed like a minute of a song unless i rlly liked it so i could spend the rest of the song gettin funky right?? & i like king of the clouds but not a ton, but i filmed the whole thing cuz the visuals were so pretty lmfaooo i jus was staring at them like wowwww prettyyyyy

during the ‘i dont feel anything at all’ he looked rlly sad & i couldnt tell if it was genuine or if he was goin for like a pouty look djfdsjfndjks then right after he winked so ig pouty thx breb

at some point he introduced nicole&kenny plus the strings & brass ppl as “his friends” it was sweet & he was like “these lovely ladies” about the strings & “these handsome men” about the brass & i was like WOO GAY RIGHTS

FIRE DURIN CRAZY EQUALS GENIUS. BOZ FLASHBACKS. FIRE ON MY FACE HUNDREDS OF FEET AWAY. FEAR. DONT LIKE FIRE. SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION. KENNY WAS TOO CLOSE. FEAR.

a whole arena singing bohemian rhapsody 25+ years after freddie mercury’s death was Incredible, i dont believe in afterlives but if there is one i hope he was watching & enjoying & knowing his legacy was staying alive bc wow that was powerful

THE END WAS CRUNK AF HOLY SHIT BDEN GOT DOWN

i cant believe i remember the day emperors came out like,,,, jeez. so lit live tho

I HAVENT MENTIONED HIS SPARKLY SUIT YET. KING OF SPARKLY SUITS

BRENDON DOIN HIS HIGH NOTE BIT & THE STAGE LIGHTING UP FULLY ON FIRE FUCK DUDE

bitchden took his shirt off when he came out for the encore..... bitch

SINS,,, FUCK DUDE,,,, MY CHILDHOOD WAS CRYING HHYSTERICALLYYY, 

in the background of my vid u can hear me do the ‘ily’ ‘ily’ from the mv emo ass

my lil sis got fucken turnt to sins lmfaooo??? danced her ass off???

us: W H O R E bden: ily

VIOLINISTS GETTIN WILD TOO

they played footage of the music vid & breb & his fuckin iconic outfit & i was a lil emo kid again omg i cant believe i saw it live

he did funny voice durin calls for a toast nerd ... least he’s not entirely bitter abt songs ryan wrote anymore tho lmao... or maybe he is considering theres only two on the 30 song setlist ;-;

i gotta listen to afycso again damn it’s so iconic

oh yah at some bit he said “ive been doing this for 14 years, im 31 now” & it reminded me like.. most of these emo bands, they started so young. & got successful at such a young age. it’s so crazy. idk. wow. 

he got growly during the chorus, that’s pstump’s thing beeb dont steal it lmao

CONFETTI fitting ending, & i got him walking off which is cool, other bands it goes dark & they just kinda disappear & it’s unsatisfying ;-;

so yah i finally saw breadman live, i got 400 pics and 30 videos so that all got spam posted over the last few days lmao

#finally posting it lmao #81218 #long post -

[mariabrophy]

Update on @drewbrophy healing: It's been 32 days since Drew was admitted at the hospital. Three weeks ago he was put on a ventilator to help him breathe. He is making progress - it is very slow but steady. I'm told that slow is the name of the game with Covid pneumonia. I've learned so much about patience and faith.... 👼 Though heavily sedated, Drew has moments of clarity and is able to answer yes and no questions with a clear mind. He knows what's going on and he is frustrated that it's taking so long for him to heal. He hates that he cannot move his body (due to the meds). 🌊 Drew is used to being the strong guy, the guy who fixes everything for everyone else. He's never relied on anyone in his life before...and so this is a transformation he has to go through. 🌊 My job is to go in there every day and keep his spirits up, remind him of all the love that pours in every single day from his family, friends and fans. And to remind him constantly that he IS healing, that his lungs ARE getting better and that he WILL surf again. 🌺 The will of the mind is powerful- and so I'm making sure Drew's will to survive this stays strong. ✨ Thank you all so much for your love ♥️ and caring. This is the most difficult thing myself and our family has ever had to endure. Your kind words and love and positivity brings peace. Love heals. 💕 And I believe that all of your prayers and positive intentions for Drew is helping him heal. 🙏 The power of the energy of the collective is strong. We all need to continue to hold Drew's healthy image in our minds. 🙏 Take a moment to imagine Drew healed, breathing on his own and drawing and surfing again. Your visualization and positive expectation will help. 🙏🙏🙏 Thank you all. Love to you! Maria Brophy 💋 PS: If you want to help keep the business healthy for when Drew is back, please shop at at www.drewbrophyart.com #drewbrophy #pray4drew #paint4drew #healingprayers #loverules #loveheals (at Brophy Art Gallery and Design Studio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXj8v1pP3nS/?utm_medium=tumblr

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[sweettalkingshit]

Here we go again, December

Two years ago... i fell in love with this dude. He's my middle school friend. It was okay but I don't believe in him because he's never taken any interest on me before.. And truth to be told.. He's interested on me just because he thought I hold the same opinion about something and he's on journey to forget his own broken heart.. Which I didn't know anything unless I stalk it. Lol sorry but it's just messed up.

It's not love. More like lust and lonely... Passion and anger. But the complicated things happened. My crush since high school is on vulnerable state and I kid you not.. I used to love this fella so much more like a friendhate situation than lovehate.. I mean we pretty much similar.. Weird and not fit in the box but we still have different shapes and sometimes it's just not very good situation back then

He used to like me first or so I thought... That's what happened with all my love story. It's rare.. Almost never have I taken interest first... Because I am very skeptical about love. Then I thought they're just playing games with me because I am lonely and so did them.

Pardon my English. Okay I am still learning and always. It's not my first language as you can clearly see.

Then I made very big mistake that until now I still thinking about it sometimes... Whenever I am with my high school crush I told about this middle school friend.. And so the opposite. But I don't feel any guilt because deep down I know they're also playing my heart too.

I mean they both having a girl but they're always come to me when I am sad. I am the second option.

Then I have the bravery to left them.. And left all my past.. I know it's sound cowardice but I also need peace on my life.. I can't keep hoping for false feeling. Aren't I?

It's just December always make me emotional... Many goodbyes happen on this month.. Now O am grieving for my best friend.. Nah she's not died but I am dead to her.

Mind you own business. Mostly people said that to me.. Because I was too caring and loving back then lol. Now, i am still caring and loving.. But more to myself.

[pinupgirl24]

RED FLAGS OF HIDDEN ABUSE

I’m in the healing process now and I wrote this for myself as well as to help anyone else who may have a toxic person in their life. Also to help you see the signs of a toxic person right away. And if you do….. RUN!!

There were certain signs along the way. I had my blinders on and I often question myself…. How did this happen to me? Why did I allow someone to control and destroy me? Am I weak? I needed to journal this, because I had been blaming myself.... I also didn’t recognize this as abuse right away. It was done in a very repetitive, insidious and so sneakily. With gaslighting, passive aggressiveness, sarcastic jokes and then flattery & sometimes small glimmers of that “love” like in the beginning of the relationship. But, those little glimmers were once again only for him to get what he wanted. I just kept slowly diminishing. My self worth was gone, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I was having panic attacks, suicidal thoughts. I stopped participating in all of the things that I had once loved. I couldn’t look people in the eye. I began to self medicate. With my use… It once again gave him more power. In fact when he started to see that I was getting real about sobriety. He would try to sabotage that. It’s all so mind blowing.

I believe I stayed in this chaotic relationship for as long as I did, because I was always continuing searching for that man he was in the beginning, when he got me to fall in love with him. He got me to indulge my deepest secrets, I got extremely vulnerable with him. He asked all the right questions and he listened. It’s devastating to know now why he asked and why he listened, but in that beautifully painted honeymoon stage. It felt so good. In the final stage of the relationship he even went as far as using everything I had ever shared with him against me. However, every now and again... He would give me bread crumbs the man that wasn’t real and I would cling on for dear life. But this dream man, is not him. It will never be him. He can only be him for so long. I swear to you, he could win an Oscar. There were these incredible highs and lows. Almost in itself a drug. When I went to California it absolutely felt as if I was detoxing from hard drugs.

I’m gonna share some of the red flags I noticed now once the fog has cleared.

♦️RED FLAG 1: I felt on edge with this person, but I wanted him to still like me so bad. He went from this extreme high of being my “soulmate”, to very intentionally cold and distant towards me. I felt as if I was walking on egg shells all the time. That was a red flag. Ignoring certain questionable behaviors. Like, “oh that had to have been accidental, he can’t really be that insensitive?” Pay attention to these little things. If you have a feeling. Trust your intuition and if it’s too good to be true. Well you know 🤷🏻‍♀️

♦️RED FLAG 2: This one hurt me bad! He would withhold attention from me and undermine my self esteem. The beginning hooking up, the nonstop flattery and praise. Then suddenly he became uninterested in you and reclusive. Like I was just such a bore now. He made me feel needy and desperate. He would never initiate physical or intimate contact with me anymore. I remember one time. I had gone to bed with sexy lingerie for him. He laughed when he saw me. He said.... “Oh god, Amy has her come fuck me nighty on tonight!” And he rolled over and went to sleep. Once again, feeling desperate, needy and now unattractive.

♦️ RED FLAG 3: In the beginning, in that honeymoon period. All the texting and all the time. The tagging in memes, grandiose public displays of love and affection. I was wrapped up in this. But here is the thing though.... This wasn’t just for me and getting me hooked. This is also to directly hurt his ex. He knows that his ex feels discarded and replaced. Because, that’s literally what happened. He wants to get reactions from all sides. He’s got his fresh brand new supply who is. All giddy and infatuated and then he has his old supply who he revels in the fact that she’s broken and in despair all over him. Along with this..... There were the phone calls to “friends”. Doing damage control. Telling them he’s relieved to be out of the toxic and abusive relationship he was in and so happy he now has a new shiny toy.... ME👉🏽🙋🏻‍♀️ In all reality he is the abuser. He uses emotional reactions and it works effectively too. Making the ex look crazy and everyone feels bad for him. Manipulation at its finest. My eyes are open now!

♦️RED FLAG 4: They’ll compare you to everyone else in their life. From ex-lovers, friends, even family. They put you on this pedestal. When in this faze of the manipulation, you feel really special, because they are telling you how much better you are than these people. Then it’ll flip later during the devaluing faze.... They will use these same comparisons to hurt you. Plus they will add to the list and let you know too.

♦️RED FLAG 5: Sly little insults, passive aggressive comments, he would call me out on things that they don’t do either, in fact I pointed it out to him one time when I caught it. He couldn’t flat out lie like he usually does either. But, I could see the evil hateful rage about ready to surface. I sometimes would hid my phone to record our conversations, because I was constantly questioning myself. He caught me doing that one time too. That offense got a death threat. Which he’s told me he’s fantasized about smashing in your face. Also he told me that I’m probably going to be the one who gets him sent back to prison.I asked, “how so?” He said “Because, I want to strangle you to death!” He would insult me with a condescending joking attitude. He always would smirk when I would try to express myself. That smirk was also very evident when he discarded me and I was breaking, shattering to pieces right in front of him. . They get you emotionally reactive. Like saying something that would make anyone react..... Then, when you do react. He would be like.... “I’m leaving I can’t deal with your drama.” Then next thing you know, he’s giving me the silent treatment and he would intentionally over the top flirt with the dutch bros girl right in front of me. He would suddenly belittle my intelligence and any of my achievements. All the things in the honeymoon faze that he use to build me up with…. All the things he was over the top madly in love about me for. He said he loved my confidence and drive. He now loathed all of them and he isn’t gonna hold back getting me lower and lower. I had several very REAL thoughts of suicide being with him and my health was deteriorating. I believe he can actually maintain those superficial friendships longer than he can a relationships. Those “friends” are at an arms length. He called one at the beginning of our relationship, end of his other. Then he called them again at the end of ours. All for damage control.... He can use his charm so damn well and make me look crazy. Of course, point this out and he’ll call you hyper sensitive and crazy.

♦️RED FLAG: 6: Oh yes the social media jealousy provoking platform. When in the devaluing faze. Social media is now used to intentionally provoke rivalries and jealousy. While he just maintains this cover of innocence. He once focused all his attention on me, but now he will post ambiguous videos, liking lots of other girls pictures. He’d bait other women and make me doubt my place in his heart. He would blatantly go out of his way, with intentionally not liking anything of mine on social media. One time I deleted him off of my Facebook. Because, I was trying to do what was right. I started to realize he is an abuser and m not going to change him and that man in the beginning is a delusion. He’s not real. This abuser isn’t capable of loveHe’s jealous, insecure. He has to break

♦️RED FLAG 7: No one on the outside saw his true colors. No matter what they do, they always seem to have a fan club cheering for them. What I noticed too, he didn’t really have “friends” I mean the people on the receiving end probably feels it’s genuine.... But, I began to notice his “friends” too were only used when he needed something to gain. Like in the beginning of our honeymoon faze. He had to make sure all those “friends” knew that he was the one abused. She was the crazy one, who self harmed. Oh no! Not that he could ever control, manipulate, soul suck and destroy anyone’s sense of self and confidence. Actually, that’s exactly what he does. I know for me, I had several very REAL thoughts of suicide. I believe he can actually maintain those superficial friendships longer than he can a relationships. Those “friends” are at an arms length. He called one at the beginning of our relationship, end of his other. Then he called them again at the end of ours. All for damage control.... He can use his charm so damn well and make me look crazy. He has to bring down people and manipulate people to adore and idealize him. This feeds him. I was getting disgusted with myself. I didn’t want to feed him anymore.

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♦️Red Flag 8: He had a lot of crazy exes. He was always the victim. He had issues with co-workers and old jobs. He never owned his part. It was always….They, they, they!

♦️Red Flag 9: A sense of entitlement…. Outrageous sense of entitlement and shifting blame. My abuser, near the end of our split started to accuse me of cheating on him. I owned the couches in our home and one day he text me. “You’re giving me those couches, because I have to sell them to pay for my STD test. Someone from your volleyball contacted me and told me you had sex with someone.” All a complete lie. Shifting that blame onto me. Because my abuser was most definitely a cheater. He needs a female supply. My supply was about to end, because I was becoming awakened. I am of no use for him at that point. But he’s very sick individual. So he then goes on the hunt for his new supply. Using social media as a platform. A predator. While preying on his next. He is also plotting his final discard with me.

♦️Red Flag 9: A sense of entitlement…. Outrageous sense of entitlement and shifting blame. My abuser, near the end of our split started to accuse me of cheating on him. I owned the couches in our home and one day he text me. “You’re giving me those couches, because I have to sell them to pay for my STD test. Someone from your volleyball contacted me and told me you had sex with someone.” All a complete lie. Shifting that blame onto me. Because my abuser was most definitely a cheater. He needs a female supply. My supply was about to end, because I was becoming awakened. I am of no use for him at that point. But he’s very sick individual. So he then goes on the hunt for his new supply. Using social media as a platform. A predator. While preying on his next. He is also plotting his final discard with me. And it has to be extremely painful and dramatic. He feeds off that. In fact you may even see him crack a little evil smile as my spirit literally breaks right in front of him. It gives him a sense of power. Which after all, that’s what this whole game of his is about.

♦️Red Flag 10: He starts a relationship while he’s still in a relationship. It usually gives him a perfect starter for his next victim. Back to the….”Look, you make me so much happier than I have been in a long time.” And “ She’s so crazy and jealous. Look at her.” Victim stance always.

I REALLY HOPE THIS HELPS ANYONE WHO FEELS AS IF THEY ARE CURRENTLY OR HAVE BEEN MANIPULATED AND ABUSED. I BELIEVE HIDDEN ABUSE IS MORE DAMAGING THAN PHYSICAL ABUSE. YOU HAVE TO RETRAIN YOUR BRAINS THINKING PATTERNS. THIS ABUSER KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS DOING AND HE DOESN’T CARE. YOU ARE MERELY A GAME PIECE TO THEM. THEY ARE ON CONSTANT NEED OF ATTENTION AND SO THY WILL USE, ABUSE AND DISCARD OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THEY ARE INCAPABLE OF LOVE. INCLUDING LOVING THEMSELVES. IN FACT THAT’S WHY THEY NEED YOUR SUPPLY AND ITS WHY THEY WANT TO DRAIN YOU AND DESTROY YOU. THEY ARE JEALOUS OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL EMPATHETIC SPIRITS. STAY EMPATHETIC, BUT TURN IT OFF AROUND THESE ENTITIES. THEY ARE EVIL! IF YOU EVER COME INTO CONTACT WITH HIM OR ONE LIKE HIM…..RUN!!!! FAR!!

[merlesbians]

merdred D/s filth and crack

disclaimer: i’m not a writer but the one that collaborated with me is.

this one is about this fanfic series

Most of Mordred's searches on porn websites are orgasm denial. Merlin thinks it's cute. -

"Milk or sugar?" "Both." "That a thing now?" "I LIKE MY MAN LIKE MY TEA. FULL OF MILK" "MORDRED NO... I like mine sweet and not too strong." "Yea." - Merlin texts Arthur when Mordred leaves. 'You think I look kinky?' 'Only when you're stressed and biting your lips' 'I do this all the time' 'Really?' 'Oh.' -

Mordred was obviously a first timer because he had no idea how to say no to people he wasn't interested (after all being a sub doesn't mean being held by the first dom that claims him). Merlin saw him all unconfortable with some guy, then approached them "excuse me but this boy is mine, aren't you?" to which Mordred thought THANK YOU MY LORD AND SAVIOR but just answered "Yes Sir. Sorry Sir". Arthur was at the club too, but he was probably too far gone with a femdom and public whipping. Merlin asked if that was ok because he noticed Mordred wasn't comfortable with the guy and Mordred just said that all he needed that moment was to be taken care of.

Mordred noticed Merlin's lips and cheekbones because "THIS LIGHTNING FLATTERS YOUR ANGLES, SIR" "My room is pretty clear and I want to see you whole and properly, boy"

"You a top or a bottom?" "I'm what you want me to be" "Fuck, boy. Can I make you come twice tonight?" "You don't need permission. Sir. And if I try hard we can make it three." "I like you"

Merlin makes Mordred finger and blow him to avoid him touching himself. Then he blows Mordred until the adge, then rides him (and he comes again and just says 'now you broke me' and sleep again). And Merlin makes him tea and biscuits.

Mordred tells his age QAF-like.

After the first night/dat/afternoon WHATEVER  Mordred is getting ready to leave but the mess in the room is absurd and he can't find his underwear. Merlin finds it while cleaning the room and it smells like strawberry (lube, maybe? Did he go ready to bottom to the club?) and Merlin dies a little. -

Merlin always gets paranoid about consent when they drink, but one time they end up having the most vanilla sex to ever vanilla. (Except the biting, Merlin can't help himself) (And hair pulling because PLEASE) Later he discovered that Mordred held his own breath because he can't vanilla (he actually can and it's quite lovely how long it takes for him to come).

- Merlin wants to buy something for Mordred. Morgana tells him to buy leather. He does. A jacket. And a choker. - When Merlin's friend Will meets Mordred, he says "I wonder how this one behaves in bed" because the boy is always ready to explode. Merlin laughs. "He's quite obedient, actually." - Mordred has a lovehate relationship with morning sex because he fucking loves the way Merlin takes care of his mmorning erections, but he has trouble focusing on classes in the morning. - Whenever someone makes a joke to Mordred about him and Merlin, he agrees and grins. "I even call him daddy." - Merlin got in bed too late and too tired because of work things, and Mordred was fast asleep already. When Mordred woke uo, got the sight of Merlin and couldn't wake him up, so he decided to wank in bed watching him. He was halfway through it when Merlin sleepy spooned hims and Mordred and he was all like of fuck and came between their bellies. - "Mordred, the sheets. I can't do laundry every day." "I'm s-" "I'd love to clean you up if you make a mess of yourself." "Mer-" "I can clean myself up too." - Mordred every now and then suggests shower sex. Merlin avoids it because, in some way, it seem s a too intimate thing he'sw not ready to. When they become closer and start thinking about moving together aqnd sheit, Merlin doesn't quite asks it to Mordred, just throws a waterproof lube. (It's also the first time they go bareback) - "I got a cockring to deal with your 17yearoldness." (Mordred didn't dare to make the joke about having a dildo to deal with Merlin's 30yroldness. He would suffer enough already.) - "Where were you?" "Dining with Uth--" "ASDFGHJKL TELL ME MORE" "-er and Arthur." "And were you boys all serious talking about business using your reading glasses?" "Will you ever stop" "Nope" That night: "I'm leaving my tie. And the glasses. You leave the hair pins, boy." Merlin managed to put the pins on Mordred's nipples. He was a begging mess that night. (More than the usual). - Once, Merlin invited Mordred for a Star Wars marathon - but his real intention was to get the D. Mordred was way too excited by the movies to even think about sex. By the end of Return of the Jedi, Merlin was already boiling in arousal and when Mordred said "this is just too exciting!" while Leia's escape, Merlin just screamed FUCK THIS SHIT THEN and procedeed to blow Mordred while getting himself off. Mordred's eyes never left the screen - but his grip on Merlin's hair was saying he was enjoying it thank you very fucking much.

Mordred returned the favor while showing Pacific Rim to Merlin. - Mordred likes the idea of having sex in front of Arthur because Arthur is the only other that has Merlin's heart and still, Arthur would never have Merlin the way he does. - One time Merlin finds Mordred crying at home. Turns out he had had a fucked up dream. Merlin kisses his whole body until he falls asleep again. - Merlin wants a dog. Mordred wants a cat. They get two fishes, called Puppy and Kitten. (Puppy stays at Mordred's and Kitten at Merlin's - until they move together - because they remind them of each other.) - Mordred starts calling Merlin "Emrys" when he wants to show respect. - When Mordred moves in and Merlin has work trips, Mordred sleeps wearing Merlin's clothes. Before he moves in, Merlin notice the clothes he thought he'd lost getting back to his wardrobe. Mordred swears he has 0% guilt on it. "I think the cleaning lady is stealing my clothes" "Hm" "But she's been working for the Pendragons for years, I don't know..." "They must be dirty" AT UNI: "WOA MORDY U LOOK GREAT IN FANCY SHIRTS" Mordred once got off in a Merlin shirt and brought it back without cleaning. - Arthur called Merlin late one night, and while babbling, Merlin was sure Arthur was getting of with his voice - but he never asked if it was truth fearing the answer would be no.

Mordred actually calls Merlin quite often to phonesex. Mostly while he's at Uni, and the classes are too boring. Those little escapades are the highlights of the week - until they're actually together. (Mordred also records himself getting off if he can't talk with Merlin, then sends the audio file to him) - At first, Mordred couldn't swallow so he would take off his mouth. Two times Merlin came on his hair, but he always washed it later. - Very often Merlin would arrive home stressed and tired, but if he could see that Mordred wanted something, he'd get the boy off. - Merlin showed Mordred how to deepthroat with practical demonstration. "Come on, give me your wrists. Yeah, good boy. Gonna show you something now." - Merlin likes to ride his boy because it's the best way to have him undone. One time Mordred drifts off so bad, Merlin thinks it had something to do with the breathplay. - Merlin wants to submit quite often, just to change up things a bit - but he can't refuse Mordred anything (and every single time what Mordred wants is to be taken to the edge) - Phonecall: “yes mordred please come but you‘ll have to put up with drunk Arthur again. Yes. Its football, what can I do?“

“MORDRED IS COMING?“

“Yes.“

“NICE. Mordred is fun.“

“He sure is.“

“That why you‘re not d drinking?“

“Kinda.“

“BUT WE ALL SHOULD DRINK YOU CANT LET ME DRINK ALONE“

“You promise not to creep on us?“

“Mãrlin, please.“

“so you can really take all of merlin‘s cock?“ “I have dreams about merlin and your father.“

“Oh, me too. Someday they might kill each other.“

“... kinky dreams“

“why are you telling me this, christ mordred“

“Dunno, they‘re both hot, thought you‘d agree“

“MY FATHER, MORDRED“

“sorry. Merlin would fuck the bitterness out of him, tho.“

“he would, wouldnt he?“ *frustrated noises because merlin* (Kidding, merlin/uther is not happening)

Merlin, while fingerfucking a tied up mordred and about to suck him off: “Go on with your poetry, then. You manage to finish it, I fuck you. Bare. If you stop, I stop. If you say anything more than the poem, you‘ll be tied all night and I‘ll just have a wank by myself."

That night, before they collapse in a very deep sleep, Merlin kisses him and tells him how good he is. With a lower tone, he says “love your voice“ by Mordreds ear, then kisses his neck, “love you“. He didnt know if Mordred could hear it, but then the boy started holding him harder and he couldn‘t tell if Mordred was going to collapse or just smile. ----

Mordred keeps asking what they‘re doing when he graduates. Merlin cant think of something special that they haven‘t done yet “MY SEXTAPE“

“mordred stop“

“PRETTY PLEASE“

“what if you lose it, what if your computer is stolen, what if, I dont know, my mother finds it“

“I‘ll cook you dinner for a week. A month. Wearing panties.“

“Deal.“

Said month:

(Merlin and arthur entering) “You said Mordred would make dinner? gonna say hi-“ “DONT“

Too late. Arthur caught Mordred making orange juice, sweating and wearing light blue panties. hih ----

Merlin starts a system to make Mordred study.

- "You finish this paper before 9, I let you bite me." - "If you don't miss any classes by the end of the month, I will wear heels." - “You make valedictorian, I wake you up with you already inside me.“

- “You pass, we fuck in lingerie for one week.“

Nobody understands how frustrated Mordred gets if he doesnt do well at uni.

“Mordred y u sulking u probably gonna work with Pendragon as soon as possible your grades are great“

“BUT NOT HOW GREAT I NEED THEM“

------

Merlin had to travel because of job stuff, and he doesn't see Mordred in two weeks. In the meantime, Mordred left his beard grow just because he didn't care about shaving, and by the end of the time away he goes meet with Merlin at the airport. 'Holy shit, Mordred.' 'Hey! Missed me?' 'If I knew you'd look so hot with facial hair I'd order you so much earlier to keep it' 'So you like the too-lazy-to-shave look on me?' 'Enough to be thinking about letting you welcome me with a bathroom blowjob right here' 'I thought you weren't into public display' 'We can lock the door. Come on.'

#merdred #some arthur #I'd change mordred's age to 18 so things aren't weird #this was some time ago....

[trewhitttesean1992]

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