#what is my brain trying to tell me

[discolizardwizard]

had a dream mcr and the used were playing the pink/black stages at wwwy AT THE SAME TIME and bert and gerard kept bickering and shouting at each other to stop playing

#what is my brain trying to tell me

[marsilainen]

Y'all tell me why on earth I had a dream where Carlos Sainz was outside my house setting off some fireworks which was apparently not allowed at that time because then my grandfather of all people went outside to talk to him only to have Carlos Sainz fucking ATTACK my grandpa like I was screaming to my brother GO HELP HIM PLS but by the time we got there it was over and my grandpa needed stitches so I proceeded to slap the fuck out of Carlos 💀

#what is my brain trying to tell me #and after this i had a very stressful fantasy action type plot dream #pls could i rest just once when i sleep #also for the past two nights ive had dreams where i was wearing high heels 🤔 (i dont wear heels ever) #should i start tho because i did feel powerful and tall in them lmao

[memesandmusicalss]

have the urge to. write things. I open up a google doc and start writing. in german??????

#I have never #and I mean never #written anything in German #where did this come from #why #what is my brain trying to tell me

[ruairy]

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#last night was the second time ive had a weirdly stressful dream about art and im really starting to think i should try and draw soon #the art goblin in my head is rattling its cage and has been for almost a year and ive been ignoring it #but i never had dreams about doing art when i drew regularly #what is my brain trying to tell me

[pettyprocrastination]

do you guys think that having four stress nightmares in a row is like a bad omen or smthn. 

#tj talks #what is my brain trying to tell me

[fff777]

Two nights in a row, I dreamed that I'd written a second laytao fic while writing my current laytao fic...

#thinking out loud #fic talk #what is my brain trying to tell me

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some Lights Out au scribbles. thinking about Sally... thinking about her A Lot... shhhh she's sleeping<3

#okay so i said that i wasnt gonna flesh out this au. im a fucking liar #i made. i made a doc. ive been trying to pin down what i want this au to be #my brains not cooperating! #its like 'heres a general vibe and some vague images' #thank you!!! thats absolutely useless!!! tell me what its about!!! #im starting to get an idea tho. its in the brain rotisserie. braintisserie. rotibrainerie #i think i need to go sleep #scribble salad #welcome home au #wh lights out au #welcome home #IM HAVING FUN WITH IT THO #leaning into the horror #wally is not having a good time!!! no one is!!! #the dark is a scary place full of scary things #but at least they cant see you if you hide

[mysandwichranaway]

i got something half decent out of my brain!!!!

#at least i think so. my eyes like- died and my hands barely obey what i say #anyway #hua cheng's devotion is everything to me #xie lian looking flustered is also everything to me fr #i imagine being new to love makes you get easily flustered over everything #so i made this #to get that feeling out. you know??? #anyway i'm doing this instead of working on commissions even though i need medicine money lmao. can you tell my brain is trying to ruin me? #heaven official's blessing #tian guan ci fu #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian #sandwichart #sketch #heaven officials blessing

[glitterghost]

Normalize wanting to gaze at someone because they're mesmerizing. That something about them clicks in your brain that's soothing. Or calming. Appreciative in a way that isn't an "I want to fuck you" way but a "you bring me joy" kind of way.

#asexual #this happens to me where I'll see someone and just *click* there is something about them i love #idk what it is but they're this mystery of happiness that seeps into my brain #if feels weird to explain to people bc i feel like if you do it also you understand #like i know nothing about you but i want to give you all the joy i can #i want to tell you that you've made me day for no reason than being yourself who ever that is #i wont lie bc bad omens is ALSO that for me mixed with other things of course #but its more when you see someone randomly #and get pulled into their gravity and just are trying to figure out what it is #about them #maybe this makes sense or no sense at all who knows

[ganondoodle]

Hello 👋

Swallowing my nerves at last to send you an ask! I was just wondering, what inspires your designs? Are their inspirations in stuff like movies or games? Or just things you come up with yourself?

i .. honestly its kinda hard to tell, sometimes i just randomly think of something, like some detail, or color combination and try to incorporate that into a design somehow; it can come from anywhere, like the color scheme of a pithaya/dragonfruit is something i have been wanting to make a design with for ages but havent come up with anything good in all those years ;O;

im a very easily fascinated by color, espeically in nature, like sometimes i just stop and stare at something like i froze in time bc i just woooooooooooooah color! i probably look like a weirdo doing that though

its really hard to pinpoint anything specifically, the most is probably .. other artists? i guess? which always makes me nervous bc my memory is shit in most areas of life and i worry myself to pieces whether i unintentionally "stole" an idea and just dont remember and think it was my own, it goes further that sometimes i see something that makes me want to draw a similar concept but dont bc i dont want to 'steal' even if that couldnt be further from my intention (have been accused of that before ..)

that said for my ocs specifically .. most are rather old and have just kinda evolved out of their awkward first iterations (shargons first iteration was a hauro-howl- copy that was really just some human covered in feathers .. another oc was once a hellboy copy but in green- havent drawn nor redeisgn them in ages lol), the biggest inspirations for them is a mix of animals, bonus if you dont see them often- im a big shark, whale and sea creatures in general nerd so i tend to take from them as a priority but always trying to be less directly animal and mostly just .. features that work together

Eadrya is one of the newer OCs- i started to write but then looked at my folders and oh they are from 2017 .., i even made a design timeline for them how much they, and my art, have changed back in 2020, so thats also way outdated now lol (they apparently started as a whale .. thing? its like a pokemon evolution lol)

this is them now (i like this sketch still, though shargons design is now also outdated lmao)

this ones from early 2023 so also outdated now but you get the point

for demons i try to be a bit more wild on shapes and colors while still adhering to the rules of how they work (humanoid form, demon form, animalistic, one element each and more or less made to fit that, 4 arms is very common, look to be bost scary and wild but also something that would make you stop in tracks and stare in awe and fear if you crossed paths)

often times designs just kinda .. happen, i have maybe the idea ok i wanna make something with a white and red pattern also moose or those big horned cows are cool and kinda scary so maybe sth akin to that (though this one is technically a redesign too- its also pretty much entirely different)

for non demons but still non human i go for a much more restrained design, mainly inspired directly by an animal and giving the color scheme a good spin, plus adding unconventional body shapes, like ki'ita is also a good example, her old idea was just orca anthro pirate and just by making the white green instead in her most recent redesign already adds that little spin to it

that can have its pitfalls though, as i often fall into the big arm small head small legs scheme over and over xD

alot of it is trial and error, deciding on the colors can take me hours bc im always searching for my little rule of having one contrast color that shows up in very few places to draw attention to it (like with Eadrya its those bright yellow eyes and thingy at their tail)

and that is all about myy own ocs, when its fandom stuff it works kinda similar though, either in the connections i wanna draw or just thinking it further- like how deities in destiny work also just kinda .. happened like an ever derailing train

like for demise i was at first really just im gonna give him horns bc horns are cool and he got those on the starting mural in the game- so how his hair work? well maybe it isnt hair actually and just unbound energy, im making him a deity too and fit hylias design to his so, yeah, then so how does it work, ok he gotta have a skeleton still, but what if his entire actual body is made up of pure magical energy with its core in the ribcage? with the core in the ribcage >:3c and the scales you see are just like cooled down lava as an armor bc his thing is fire and earth !! the normal blood? is a thin layer of skin imiated from mortals to keep the scales together and flexible so if he ACTUALLY gets hurt hed bleed magic that looks more like lava and any normal blood you see is just the armor- so why does he have a skeleton still instead of being just energy? maybe its gotta be bound to something OH and what if all of the deities started as mortals like a mirror to the trio later on and the gods cannot have direct influence to the worlds so they needed a right hand that is neither god nor mortal but both by killing a mortal by whatever their element will be (demise burned, hylia drowned etc) and their skeleton and spirit is kept but put into a body of magic- OH what if their spirit core is like almost piloting their bodies like a mech in a way bc if youd look close youd see that every strand of magic is actual a hand of their spirit so it makes it more weird and other bc hed be able to reach out with thousands of burning claws of all shapes and sizes like the beheaded forest god at the end of mononoke- SO if hed lose and arm or something all those strands would untangle and rearrange his bones back together-OH MY GOD the whole armor idea works so well for ghirahims dark armor so what if demise had two swords once and lost one and since has forged an armor similar to his own for ghirahim out fo fear of losing him t---

and that all is a process that happens over several weeks and months not rarely while i am drawing something mindlessly and suddendly *have a thought* and omg that makes so much sense-

so "what" inspires my designs? an ever derailing train of thought about making cool thick monsters that arent the evil thing to get rid of for once? cool color schemes? idk it just kinda happens??

#ganondoodles answers #dont think this was the point of the ask #maybe i shouldnt actually try to answer any questions bc im inherently bad at ... having an answer #i havent even gotten into the anatomy of demons in my oc stuff #yes they ... they got organs #i dont know why id need to think about how and what and their arrangmeent #but i ssure did #I DIDNT EVEN GET INTO HOW DEMONS WORK- #wasnt the ask #my brain is an unstoppable train that never lets me rest #writing soem stuff out like that really makes me realize just how MUCH THERE IS #no wonder i got not space left for any actually important information #like i couldnt tell you my phone number i have had for years but i sure could draw an anatomical study of a demon oc lol #this took me an hour to write. #why am i like this

[honeybyte]

got tired mid mask

#symbrock #venom #he just like me fr #no but like #i am trying v hard to decipher what my brain is telling me #and this is getting closer #i like the idea that sometimes they just out like this #w the same flair as like #accidentally putting on a shirt inside out

[sunnibits]

loving reminder as someone who struggles with food: you are allowed to add joy to your food. you are allowed to add a little joy even if it’s a tiny thing, something silly or something weird. you are allowed to do it whenever you want, as many times as you want. anything that makes food easier and more enjoyable for you is worth it!! it’s your food, you can decide what to do with it!! you can add rainbow sprinkles to your ice cream. you can cut your food into little heart shapes. you can pack your snacks into cute little bento boxes. it is not pointless or childish, it is an effective and active coping tool that you are allowed to use.

give yourself a little joy. the little things add up.

#even if it’s just a teeny tiny thing it’s sooo helpful to get just a little bit of excitement out of ur meal!! #you are allowed to do it!! if it’s ’pointless’ then what’s the point in denying yourself from it?? #I’m being so serious like. put stickers on your air fryer. put your meals into cute containers even if you don’t need them. #cut your food up into little cute pieces if you have the spoons for it. buy yourself Dino nuggies. #try to have at least one thing to look forward to in every meal even if it’s just a little piece of candy #just!! change things up!! be self indulgent!!! you are worth it and anything that helps you be healthy is worth it!!! #there are no rules!!!! you are allowed to be kind to yourself!! #anyways. don’t mind my rambling. I’m just trying to romanticize my own struggles rn #and it’s genuinely been very interesting to learn what helps and how my brain works!!! #idk I just think about it a lot. it means a lot to me rn. #also before anyone tells me I piss on the poor. obviously my experiences are not universal and will not apply to everyone #things that work for me might not work for you and that’s ok!! I wish you luck I love u!!! #tw ed #just a teensy implication #gem don’t look #arfid

[astriiformes]

One thing they don't tell you about having raging undiagnosed moral OCD is that if you play a D&D character who is trying very hard to be a good person, they will accidentally get every single one of your Symptoms™ and years later in retrospect you will be extremely grateful your friends were willing to share a table with you

#i'm back at trying to transcribe some of our old session recaps and. you all will never guess what i'm realizing #listening to the audio we have of this one conversation between erwyn and kriv and physically cringing a bit #like on the one hand erwyn has a lot of trauma and him coming across as a bit mentally unbalanced is. in-character #but also i can tell how much of it was me doing it on accident #and also i'd forgotten that one reason i fell behind on recaps was that i was specifically avoiding listening to audio of this session #because i'd gotten so stressed out about it #not normal behavior! extremely mentally deranged of me actually! #god i'm so glad i understand my brain a little better now #but also. also

[kayvsworld]

sorry to be doing mcu throwback complaints again and EXTRA sorry for it to be about cacw and aou, sorry, i just am thinking again that if marvel had. in aou. committed to letting steve rogers see that captain america graffiti calling him a fascist with his own two eyes i would have forgiven many of their subsequent deeds and crimes

#like hey. hey shh. cacw but they engage with the politics of it and also have in a previous movie made him look at that graffiti. chefs kiss #WHAT IF THEY LET HIM MAKE A SPEECH. CACW BUT IF THEY LET STEVE TALK. UTOPIAN #i know asking that of mcu is like asking a toddler to build you a house but its just SO INTERESTING. TO ME #THAT IT WAS MADE AND FILMED AND THEN SCRAPPED #that they had steve's reaction be to just remove the helmet identifying him with that symbol and Continuing On #it's just interesting is all i am saying it's Interesting #note: i am obviously not saying steve's a fascist i just think it would be INTERESTING for Little Guy Of WW2 Fame to see it with his eyes #maybe i'm just still mad that my captain america press conference was stolen and turned into a peggy funeral idk. sigh #i'm done i'm done i promise. i don't have fatws open in another tab letting it microwave my brain. dont worry #kayvswords #mcu desperately trying to tell stories without telling an actual story is so genuinely fascinating to me #they want the themes and aesthetics without the substance but like. it's a story. it'll say something whether you want it to or not #idk idk idk. fatws is also i think peak mcu politics it's very funny. fascinating company. theyre so bad at movie #WHY DID CACW HAPPEN LIKE THAT. WHO THOUGHT IT WAS SMART. christ god #i feel like i should tag this as something so i don't get jumped but idk if that's still the vibe here kfdjglkjdfh

[front-facing-pokemon]

#palpitoad #this is SLIGHTLY more respectable than tympole? significantly. more respectable. but i still do not respect him very much #only a little #everyone's asking me why i'm being so mean on the tympole tags but all you have to do is LOOK AT IT #AND THAT'LL TELL YOU WHY LOOK AT ITS FACE. ITS EYES. ITS EYEBROWS???? THE MOUTH. GROSS #and the “stop this shit at ONCE!!!!!” is a jerma reference. ok #i don't remember why i was THAT mean considering i wrote those tags on the sixteenth and i'm updating these now today but #i mean i still think it's JUSTIFIED LOOK AT IT!!!! IT'S SO UGLY #SEE TUMBLR USER MEOWSTIX AGREES WITH ME. GREAT URL BY THE WAY YOU ALL ARE JUST HATERS OF ME BEING A HATER #“you guys are bullying a literal tadpole” ok but do you know what tadpoles do? they turn people into mindflayers. case closed #tympole would absolutely be the type to try to turn me into a mindflayer are you kidding me? he wants to go inside my brain #and turn me into a palpitoad. this is tympole's dream. do we want to let them take over the world like this? instate the Grand Design? no

[sxcrificialamb]

tbh i dont even care about them

#im lying #im literally insane about them #trying to draw them right now btw #i have requests from instagram to do #eehhhhh they are kinda dykes idk what to tell you #knuxadow yuri #on MY page we only do yuri here thank you....... #my brain is full of them all the time #knuxadow #they go to resturaunts and get burger and eat a burger together #shadow teaches knuckles how to skate eerrrererereererrreerrer *die*s* #knuckles the echidna #shadow the hedgehog #they remind me of me and my gf tbh #wtf i literally hate them #HOMOPHOBIA! TAKING OVER ME NOOOOOOO #jk im normal i love them #someone needs to rip me away from them so i can be nromal #//wally rambly rambles