#what the fuck is this

[introspectivememories]

tim and bernard who break up and it's nothing big, no one cheated or anything. it's just their lifestyles didn't work out well together. tim cannot give up vigilantism currently and bear cannot handle the level of danger tim puts himself in. and on the other hand, tim cannot handle the fact that bear chooses to run into danger as an emt bc he already worries about everything but now he has to worry if he'll find his boyfriend convulsing from fear gas in a random alley but also bear who felt the life drain out of darla cannot stand the thought of not helping people and runs headfirst into dangerous situation after dangerous situation hoping that every person he saves can somehow make up for the fact that he could not save darla.

(he very pointedly does not think about the fact that there was nothing he could do because if he thinks about that, he'll spiral until they have to lock him in arkham too)

and so they break up but they were tim & bernard in high school and when they started dating they balanced out the worst of each other and they became tim&bernard. and everyone who knows them, knows that they're better together but they cant be together, they refuse actually because they cannot lose another person to the violence of gotham and by the time they figure out that they cant work together as long as the other is an emt or vigilante, it's too late for both them. they've already left too many pieces of themselves in each other.

tim still knows what bear means when he says "tim" in that exasperated voice. tim still goes boneless when he hears bear say "baby" in that firm tone. bear can still read tim like a book. he still knows the right way to massage tim's neck so that tim can go to sleep. everyone at the first responders gala knows not to bother ceo drake-wayne and senior emt dowd when they're talking.

(and if they're standing a little too close to each other than what is normal, who are they to judge? everyone knows that dowd and drake-wayne have history)

and if everyone on the night shift has caught red robin with his head tucked into the crook of emt dowd's neck as emt dowd runs a soothing hand up and down the vigilante's back, well then, they just quietly back away.

(after all, dowd's one of like, five, emts that can get the bats to receive medical treatment so if turning a blind eye to whatever the fuck they have going on is what allows them to give back to their heroes, then the night shift will do it every time)

and of course, tim and bear are practical people. they loved (love) each other sure, but when your lives are fundamentally incompatible, well, you cant get too stuck on the what-ifs, that's for sure. and so they do find love with other people and yeah, maybe it's not what they expected love to be when they first fell in love with each other. it's not the bubbly, stomach-swoopy, cant stop grinning, feeling that permeated tim&bernard's early days or the i Know you/you Know me that was their middle or the quiet despair that was their end but it is contentment. and in a life with as many losses as theirs, contentment is something they hold dearly

and they're happy! truly! but sometimes, at galas when they're making each other snort champagne out their noses or in darkened alleyways when their clothes are both stained with blood or at rallies for stricter gun regulations in gotham where they both sit too close to each other, fingers enclosed around each other in a death grip, when the presenters inevitably bring up grieves

(worst school shooting in gotham in decades, there's blood on their hands and blood in their mouths and darla is dead in between both of them and there is a chasm so wide that they are screaming to get their voices across and she will always be dead and maybe this had always been the problem that she is dead and there is no coming back from that and that there is blood on their hands and blood in their mouth and blood on their han-)

but sometimes, most especially on opposite sides of the street, as life pulls them in different directions, just sometimes, they see each other and just for a second, nothing too long, the flap of a hummingbird's wings, the time it takes to blink, an electron's orbital, they look at each other and for the briefest moment, blue on brown, a barely noticeable stutter in their steps, the space between heartbeats, because this is all they will give themselves because they do not dwell on what-ifs or what-could-have-beens, or what-should-have-beens, or delusions of a softer world, their eyes meet and they think to themselves, god, in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with him.

#what the fuck is this #the theme was wistfulness. hopefully that came across right. and like i wanted this to be all 1 text block so you feel how it all collapses #into that 1 thought they have at they end but fuckass tumblr has a 4096??? text limit for a single paragraph???? so here's multiple paragra #anyway here is my middle of the road sad timbern hc. do i think this will happen? no? is this still a fun world to play in? yeah absolutely #also super huge fan of darla haunting the narrative. darla as this chasm they cannot cross. darla as smth they shelter each other from #but also smth like a 2 way blade. it cuts them both. it will never stop cutting them. smth smth the wound will always bleed #also i cannot stress how important it is that they are happy with other people!!! they are both satisfied with other people. it's just that #they have a very specific history and they are the only two people who really know and understand that history #and also it's not that theyre unhappy with their partners but just that smtimes they look at each other and... wonder. in a softer world #maybe i could've been a chef and you could've still been a superhero and we could've still worked out. maybe we would've gotten a boat #together and maybe we could've come home to each other. maybe i could've trusted you to come home to me. maybe you could've #understood my need to help people. maybe we could've held our love as something precious. #maybe in a softer world our love wasn't something that hurt us both. #i need to lay down. im going crazy #as always i do love reading yalls thoughts in the reblogs and replies!!! #bernard dowd #dc #tim drake #timbern #timber

[coughloop]

#what the fuck is this

[sock-gato]

7 hours ago an evil fucking skeleton had to wake up his pregnant wife to show her. Awesome.

WHAT UNIVERSE DO WE LIVE IN THAT THIS TWITTER POST IS REAL WTF?!!?!????!

#196 #rule #shitposting #twitter #funny #memes #what the fuck is this #Rule posting #Morbid reality

[justhereforteamrancher]

ALRIGHT WHOS THE EX HUSBAND

(I asked my good friend, she says it was Scott)

Skizz, Ren, and Cleo are all TINY

#traffic life #traffic smp #trafficblr #traffic series #life series #real life #real life smp #skizzleman #grianmc #grian #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #scott smajor #smajor1995 #geminitay #rendog #renthedog #martyn #martyn itlw #martyn inthelittlewood #WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS

[shiftythrifting]

#thrifting #shiftythrifting #submission #regretsy rule but #what the fuck is this #no lowballers I know what I have #dinosaurs #shiftylisting #art in its purest form #teeth

[kathiann26]

I have to admit i'm still mad about the change of his 3d model, because c'mon, is so different, specially the eyes

You can't accept easily that this guy

And this one are the same person

Seems like the explosion of the cannon affected him so much when he died

They did him so different in Kung fu panda 4, even my friend noticed it when we watched the movie, he literally asked me "was only me or they changed Lord Shen?", call me crazy but there is someone else that did notice it

#kung fu panda #kung fu panda 4 #kfp #kfp 2 #kfp 4 #kung fu panda 2 #lord shen #kfp lord shen #what the fuck is this #my poor baby #wtf happened #my poor little guy #why the change

[theoneofwhomisblue]

Nonsense rule

#196 #reddit #what the fuck is this #what does it mean

[letsplayeternity]

Every once in a while i think about "I always thought that if I would make it to F1, Charles would also make it" and "It's not a surprise that we're sitting here together" and i have to sit down for a second because what the fuck, Max. Why are you there dropping poetic ass lines like it's nothing. I don't believe in fate or destiny or whatever but honest to god those two make me rethink everything.

#lestappen #charles leclerc #max verstappen #f1 #those two make me unhinged #what the fuck is this #unpopular opinion #but in the soldier poet king test #max is the poet #charles is the king #sorry i do not make the rules #because honest to god what are these romantic ass lines #max verstappen i see you

[panziku-nox]

Hey Bdubs.

Bdubs.

Bdubs what the fuck.

#bdoubleo100 #SIR #hermitcraft #MY GOOD SIR #WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS #S I R

[bloodweaveyaoi]

YET ANOTHER Astarion reaction to the bomb in Gale's chest that you cannot hear in-game. It is somehow worse than the last one

UPDATE: Thanks to @traladeeda, you can now listen to these as they would play in game! ❤️💜

#meri original #bloodweave #evidence folder #what the FUCK is this

[cynikore]

im sorry

#harry du bois #abomination #what the fuck is this #disco elysium #fanart #disco elysium fanart

[spacelazarwolf]

about the "how is it okay to refer to people by their genitals if theyre afab" (which afab doesnt fucking do) "it's the misogyny" post. take the fucking mask off, crypto. misogyny is towards WOMEN - not towards afabs

i would love to know how u came to the conclusion that all the misogyny i’ve faced in my life doesn’t count as misogyny bc i’m not a woman.

#ask avishai #like i’m sorry but the internet has rotted y’all’s brains #what the FUCK is this

[ithinkitwasvodka]

ladies and gentlemen and unicorns we’ve got another one on the i-have-lost-everyone list

also shuri carried the whole movie

#marvel #excuse moi #what the fuck is this #literally just #why tf #shuri #black panther #wakanda forever #peter parker #thor odinson #wanda mcu

[magicratfingers]

#what the fuck is this

[shiftythrifting]

I love her.

#thrifting #shiftythrifting #submission #what the fuck is this #cookie jars #she #dragons #housewares #jars #kraid

[kerrslvr]

beth england there is a warrant out for your arrest and it’s because of This

#what the FUCK is this #i’m so mentally unstable #cheers beth #beth england #emi talks #woso #woso community #engwnt