#what were they feeding them my god

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ACTUALLY I'LL MISS THEM 😭😭😭💖💖💖💕💕💕

#fluff speaks !!! #THE FRIENDS EVER..................................... 🥺🥺🥺✨✨✨ #Shoutout to ScarVio for feeding us so many loveable friend trios (Area Zero squad and these blorbos . my beloveds) #I just love how they changed in their own little ways throughout this series and became good frenssssssssss 💖💖💖💕💕💕 #they're all so sweet I love them I treasure them and I'll miss them now that this is over ueueueueueeeeueueeee #their video was absolutely stellar too god it WAS SO GOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDD #ALL THE TEACHERS AND LEAGUE MEMBERS AND THE FACT THAT WE ACTUALLY GET TO HEAR RYME RAP????????????FIREEEEEEEEEEE #god the animation was soooooo soooo edible and delicious as well I could gnaw on it all day #I'm honestly so glad I saved the last two episodes of Paldean Winds to watch cause I was having a really awful day #and getting to see these sillies and just how much wholesome lovely vibes there were in these episodes was just a wonderful mood boost #ooooooughhghghggggg they're just so cute I love they 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖 #also I'm not the only one who noticed that spark between Ohara and Aliquis rightSDJKFSHDNFJKANSDNDFS #there was that extended shot of how glad Aliquis was to see how happy Ohara was and I couldn't help but go 👀👀👀👀👀 #IT WAS CUTEEEEEEEE but anyhow them as a trio of friends is absolutely precious in and of itself hehe #aaauuugggww what a delightful way to celebrate ScarVio ✨✨✨ #paldean winds #pokemon #pokemon scarvio #pokemon scarvi #pokemon scarlet and violet #ohara pokemon #aliquis pokemon #hohma pokemon

[savagebisand]

THE WAY MOND POPPED UP IN THAT ELEVATOR AND I JUST KNEW IN MY BONES AND CURSED SOUL THIS NERDY TWUNK BITCH IS BOEING AND MEW GOT IN AND I WENT "FUCKING MOND?!?" AND TOP WAS. HE WAS FUCKING MOND.

#DJFIFIFKFFKD STFU #im so pleased to see my goblin chaos son again #they are feeding the gramyok ghostship from not me agenda #what a legend choice #look i love mix but mond is so good at playing sneaky smarmy bitches #and i would rather see him than mixs cute lil face on this instance it was such a pleasant shock #ive missed my man. hes here to cause issues. #im surprised hes causin them for topmew in a way but also not?? #look his showing up has raised a lot of thoughts for me #bc blatantly he always cared more about prioritising top even when with sand so it makes sense hes happy being tops insomnia fuck #and wants to compete with mew for top. i just envisioned sand learning of it and going off the rails. #bc top said to sand boeing and him were long done but they now clearly arent. #im hoping sand will realise boeing was never a good match and now ray has picked sand and being better over the so say love of his life #sand will notice boeing never wouldve done that and will simply leave him to fiend for top and get his closure. #and for the love of god start holding boeing accountable but we'll see. #only friends #only friends the series #boeing #topmew

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

[2pookie]

not so sure how to feel about the "this burden is not yours to bear alone" and the "sh/oto is our h/ero" moments...

#delete later / #first of? it IS his burden to bear alone immho. everybody is hurt (traumatised) and everybody feels like they failed #because YOU rotted this family. YOU poisoned it. YOU wrecked it from inside out. YOU alone abused them. #my visceral reaction to that line was 'don't piss me off now' because dear god... this was a one man's hit. imo! #everybody else's reactions behaviors etc etc were in response to what he put them through #of course! some things are entirely theirs to bear and own up to. but everybody was subjected to his blinding greed #i may get sh/ot for this but the impression i have so far is that t/oya was the one he cared for the most #insane statement. will rewatch it / read it and analyze it all and come back to my current impressions tbh #and now the whole 'sh/oto is our hero'............. #it can be summarized into 1. he is a 16 y/o kid. it's long overdue to stop placing the entire weight of the family #on his shoulders. and 2. i think it feeds and plays into the isolation sh/oto suffered that wrecked them all #+ the vicious cycle of it all + it's still the 'sh/oto vs everyone' mentality idk... what are ur takes on this? #did nawt mean to rant this badly on the tags btw 😭😭

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i want to go ahead and write up A Whole Thing about how ricky's arc ultimately comes down to 'protect what's yours,' in a way that tbh manages to be kind of the opposite of the toxic masculinity that trope tends to embody in western media especially. but also it relies on several other major essays about the themes in this show that i need to write up first to tie them all together with it. ashdjsjdjdh. Help

#SDMItag #ricky owens #i'll probably try writing it up for now and then see which things it does turn out i'll need to establish first #but the tl;dr is that ~protect what's yours like a man~ tropes are all about Defending Your Assets from Outside Forces with Violence(tm) #and ricky's 'protect what's yours' is about love as in loyalty as in setting down your stake Here #committing yourself to the wellbeing of whoever or whatever you've chosen; being a support for them to grow and be safe and be free #'yours' as in your family your community your work your activism the things you've built #instead of 'yours' meaning 'i have the right to destroy this and exploit it and throw it away as i please. it's there for me to take from' #it's 'i have a duty; and that duty is not synonymous with Violence; it can be feeding and healing the people you love' #'it can be putting your foot down and removing someone's access to a person or thing you've chosen when they're exploiting them/it' #'it can be *refusing* to do violence' #it's 'you chose me and you were supposed to love me and instead you treated me like a thing that exists for you to use and ruin' #'well i wasn't. i'm not. and i'm going to be what i needed you to be and you weren't' #'i refuse to hurt what's mine for my own gain because i can and i won't let you do it either' #it fucking kills me and it makes what pericles does to him and forces him to do in retaliation that much more fucking tragic #there's so much dude oh my god #kill me #professor pericles #dyn: when i die i want you to die too #abuse cw

[raspberryzingaaa]

Thinking about going to World Most Boring Bible Study Ever. Idk yall. Idk. Idek.

#the number of times i have faked a call yo leave early. the number of times ive played solitaire on my phone. i got to the potty to kill tim #like! just answer questions its not that hard!!!!!! #you dont even need to be right just throw some spaghetti at the wall and see what sticks! #also group leaders stop reading questions from a script from your phone #ALSO PLEASE CAN WE STOP GOING THROUGH THE SAME VERSES WE GO THROUVH ON SUNDAYS #this is why we have a split in our life group/church crowdm just sayin #i just. i just miss doing bible studys with people who were way smarter than me #being a church kid in a college church is just 👁👄👁 #i shpuldnt be dreading going to bible study!!!!!! #so its probably a me problem right?! #and also the group leaders have had to tell me to stfu more than once (politely. which was really annoying. dont pussyfoot around!!) #also our only bible study is also our ~only space for new comers~ so i get in trouble if i get too meaty in my excitements and theology #EHICH SHOJLDNT BE MY FAULT!!!!!!! #and YEAH it IS my fault that its my only spot where im spiritually feeding. but also there is a secret eomens group people mention that.. #i guess im just excluded from? but also i know most of the women dont like me bc I have interminable Doesnt Shut Up Disease l #like i understand fhat yes it is a little my fault rhat me talking about deep theology makes them feel inadequate but also THAT SHOULDNT BE #guh. i also forgot my meds today so im a little bit more mulish and hard hearted #and i KNOW its a teachable moment amd God is usimg this to temper me or something else but im feelimg grumblr #and ill probably delete this later. #and i have to got to work ok bye

[utenthy]

has anyone here seen richard siken’s current twitter antics

#im like insanely aggravated it’s like ruining my day #he’s kind of delving into this topic of the current discourse surrounding speculating the sexuality of an artist and how people are #trying to twist some crazy don’t ask don’t tell scheme into the most appropriate course of action #don’t know if you guys are too deep in anime heaven to be aware of this but oh my god #i get a lot of like popstars on my twitter feed and it’s just people like if you think this famous person is gay you’re fucking disgusting #it’s bananas #but siken is getting involved now and he’s kind of proposing this theoretical to his followers #and they’re all like falling for it in the most ridiculous way #he’s saying like. if you found out i was straight would you think of my art differently #and they’re all like Nooo baby we’d support if you were het cuz sexuality doesn’t matter bby #and he keeps like dropping all these leading questions trying to take them to the water like #even if a reading erases queer history is it okay #and they’re like yes it’s ok ❤️ #like it makes it so obvious and stupid i can’t believe these people are watching Richard siken #extremely important gay poet #get sucked into gaylor drama and their take is that he’s saying omg gaylors flopped sexuality doesn’t matter #don’t be stupid #he was like if i was straight it wouldn’t change the art would it ? And the answer is yes it would. fucking obviously. #but he’s getting into a lot of conflict with people #cuz like im always saying the greater society smoked so much homophobia that even gay people and allies are fucking CONFUSSD about what it #means to be an activist or stand for the cause of gay liberation

[deiscension]

I keep having thoughts like "final girl sqx" "sqx actually has all the hallmarks of a silent hill mc" "what would sqx be like as a dbd survivor" and I think I've figured out what to do here. I should just dress them up real pretty and then plop them down in an endless forest inhabited by ravenous beasts that range from pitiable in their nature to things that hunt just to feel a life shatter between their teeth. And then take detailed notes on whatever comes from that.

#▌ ◈ ooc ; ⌜ he fucking ascended again! ⌟ #okay i lied previously. THIS is my last post until i'm finished with more drafts. #i'm a horror guy what can i say. sqx's arc is in a way a gothic horror story. what do you expect from me. #'isnt that what happened with the reverend of empty words' WELL IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN AGAIN. #i can and will fully elaborate on the silent hill mc part given the opportunity #perfect victim because others deemed irrelevant were victims before you + penance is unobtainable + you will either feed a god or a ghost #they'd be perfect to have on your horror survival team. they have final girl immunity just put them between you and the monster #there is just Something with all the ghosts made to give them life and how their life is not a good enough grave for any of those ghosts

[wayward-wren]

Classic Who explores ideas, New Who explores morals

classic who is like 'i see this trend, lets explore what might happen if that trend continues and let the audience figure out what it's talking about and come to their own conclusions.'

new who is like 'this trend is BAD and i'm going to PREACH A SPEECH about why it's going to RUIN EVERYTHING' and it's so much more exhausting

#wren rambles #doctor who #this brought on by me watching orphan 55 #which had SUCH a fun concept #and then absolutely FACEPLANTED with the doctor moralizing at the end #like yes doctor who has ALWAYS explored topical and political issues #but never is there a definitive I Am Telling You This Is Right message #whereas now I just had to sit here and watch 13 preaching at me? #ughghg #explore the idea but don't shove it down my throat #classic who had an episode (Ice Warriors) exploring climate change as one aspect of the story #talking about how all the plants were removed and that messed with the atmosphere etc. #but that was just a SMALL PART of the whole episode and it was never outright condemned (it was made clear it was BAD and the root problems #but that was never the BIG ISSUE the Doctor Lectured His Companions about) (not that victoria or jamie could do anything lol) #plus this feeds into my issues with 13's run (which started during 12's somewhat but less so) #where the Doctor is painted as the Narratively Right one #where when she says something that's what the narrative wants you to BELIEVE #which coming from Two and Three's run is WILD #because Two is chaotic and murderous when he thinks he's right #and he's manipulative and deceptive at times #and Three is selfish and pouty and rude #and don't get me wrong Thirteen has her issues and I lvoe them #HOWEVER. she's pretty much always RIGHT she's the Word Of God when it comes to moral things #and this more than anything is my biggest issues with Modern Who #mostly 12 and 13's eras #so i hope we move out of that somewhat in the new era but i'm not super holding up hopes (especially after star beast) #maybe one day i'll write a proper full article about it but GOSH #i don't watch this show to be preached at. I watch it for a fun/tragic scifi romp and also to see interesting ideas explored #and reflect the climate of the world and how society influences media #explore the idea of climate change turning the world into a post apocalypse! that's such a fun idea and topical!

[geffenrecords]

if i can be so truthful rn.me and simones best friends this year really is this group of freshmen. okay 2 are sophomores but you get the picture. its not a good look that we always hang out with them even if the age diff is like2 years at the most but still . i made fun of so many people for mainly having freshmen friends and now we're here. oh well.youd understand if you met them. like we'd never tell them because they already have such high egos butwe really do love them. its not even an ego thing for us like "ohh these younger kids think we're so cool' cos theyre kinda little brats but its like. they come up totalk to me in the halls often and two of them will sneak out of class to come and hang out with me in library and im just like oh this is nice :)

#we were talking abt it yesterday . dude we literally say the kids. like ill be like 'oh did you talk to the kids yesterday?" LIKE? #like i think this year was set up to be a really good year for me. it couldve been really great and well it wasnt. my lifegot ruined a #little but atleast there is alcohol and driving around the kids and feeding them cheese i had leftover in my car . #zyz #idont know why i make posts with such detail about my life when i hauve a diary . but im still like ohhh my god guys..guess what..

[pepprs]

also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!

#purrs #delete later #sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me #and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take #care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight #and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not #an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid #and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and #keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top #priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she #cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and #then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma #onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and #nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l #lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day? #ask to tag #like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f #far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls #LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all #* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy #human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha

[vitiateoriginator]

Randomly remembered when I was a kid still the with Jehovah's Witnesses and I proudly told my bible study teacher about all the new words I'd learned in school, including the word "prediction". She proceeded to scold me for using it, and commanded I never use that word again because predictions were tied to/synonymous to magic and witchcraft which Jehovah hates. And using words like that could wreck my chances of getting baptized. Like I cared.

#god I HATED that woman #Im so glad I'll never fucking see her again #stupid ancient old bat #get fucked miss Jackie #there were so many other things she did and said #like she hated animals. HATED them #made other witnesses lock up their pets when we'd go to their houses for group bible study. and made me lock my cats up too #when she came over to study with me #she also believed animals don't have souls and that they don't play. all they do is based on instinct #and that lesson made ke make a fool of myself in school once #when my englush teacher showed the class a vid of a crow rolling down a snowy roof repeatedly and asked if what he was doing was playing #and I was the first to answer and parroted what my bible study teacher told me #and got laughed at by the class and aggressively corrected by the teacher for it #the shit you teach kids matters #and this old hag was sitting here feeding me false information #and that incident was SUCH a big blow to my confidence and pride. because I've always considered myself so knowledgeable about animals #to fuck up a basic fact like that felt cripping to me. it snowballed into affecting my decision on my future career path #I wanted to be a zoologist but dropped that dream because if I couldn't get such a sinple obvious fact right how could I #ever be an animal scientist? #anyways those are just a few examples of her evil #she was also super snobby and judgemental of everyone. especially me and the way I talked or dressed #I wish her only the worse in life because she is such a vile and pathetic human being with nothing but hate in her heart #idk why I started thinking about this btw sometimes it just comes back to me #sam's rants about life

[el-im]

todayyyy in class the guy i hate asked a stupid fucking question and antonio elbowed me to get me to notice he was saying something fucking stupid again (i noticed) and he said. i don’t know why you hate him so much. you two are exactly the same. and i said. what are you talking about. and he said. you look the same. and i was like. because we’re both asian? that’s racist. and he started laughing, then got a hold over himself, and was like. that’s not even what i mean--you dress the same. and i looked at him and he was wearing shorts and a sweater and a scarf and i said. i do not dress like that. (i was wearing trousers, patent leather shoes, a turtleneck, a massive wool coat...) he said. you’re both so pretentious. i said what do you MEAN. 

#i am sort of. pissy #i'm pulling my head out of the sand a little and realizing that Now That He's No Longer Flirting With Me As Overtly he doesn't ask me any #questions about myself. doesn't respond to the things i tell him. responds to my questions with one word answers. #and i'm just like. why am i wasting my time on this. #what the fuck. #captain's log #i just dont get it. he's not nice to me anymore. #and then he IS #and then he ISNT #and i think. he's using me. and he's getting so much a sense of self importance from this. #today we were talking about grad school programs and i said i needed to write something for a portfolio and he was like. what do you mean? #you dont need to write stories. if they read your letters they'd know you can write. or even your notes. anything you write. and i said--no #you have to write something... original. with a narrative. and he said. why dont you write a book about me? and i laughed and said yeah i #bet you'd like that. and he was like. addyyyyaa write a book about me! write a book about me! #and i said. what--like a biography or just my impressions of you? and he said. what you think of me. and i said. i'm not sure if you'd enjoy #reading that. and he said. what do you MEAN. and i said. well some things i'd have to say are harsh. but true i think. #and he asked me what i meant and i (pressed) gritted my teeth and tried to explain myself #and i said. you think so highly of yourself. sometimes rightly but. my god. you dont take anything seriously. and he said. i DO take things #seriously! and i just--. #and i said. you feed people. so that they'll bolster your ego. you give them fodder to work with. and he looked at me and said. adya-- #i dont feed my ego. if anything--you're the one making it what it is. #so anyway i hate him im sick of him he's so-- #he's such a narcissist and he's so self important and i am simultaneously SO in love with him and SO sick of him #because he's so selfish. and i dont think he understands any of this. and if he does--he doesnt respect it. and he isnt kind about it. #and he deliberately misleads people to get what he wants from them. #AHHHH

[smile-files]

hello friends... i come bearing fruit... :)

(please click images for better quality!)

#dandy's doodles #botanica #my oc #my ocs #y'know what? these are fruit with faces. these are inanimate objects turned sentient. this is an object show #object oc #osc #yeah!!! by technicality i am feeding the community <3 peace and love #worldbuilding #also yes hello everyone/everything looks different now #for one thing there are no vegetables anymore lol. sorry it just got annoying managing which vegetables could or couldn't be sentient #and not all of them have wings now!! only some do #but yeah um something funny about the prophecy story - the one with gay fruits and vengeful gods as it were #for every major botanica lore update i completely overhaul that story #so i'm currently on the third incarnation!! will still have a lot of stuff from the second though #most of the character archetypes/dynamics are still there just with a fresh coat of paint #you still have the fire one and the water one siblings #the trust issues-having air one befriending the fire one only to be betrayed when the fire one is suspicious of the prophecy #and the earth one who's perpetually smiling for some likely horrifying reason #the major changes are to the gods #for one thing the way the stuff with the powers plays out in this new version is so much less convoluted #no dumb stuff with... souls and soul-splitting and the differences between elemental magic and god magic (??) #the vengeful god is still vengeful. in a more reasonable way this time #but now the other four gods are now just one god who's also the new version of the fifth element (think clover in v2) #they have psychic powers and they stop being a god so they could be a little baby child in the real world #(instead of a little baby child still attached to the tree of life) #by leaving 'life' behind they can truly live... woag #okay so um that's a lot of lore. enjoy *runs away and doesn't give any updates on the story for months* #also chances are i'll need to change my art tag because i'm probably gonna change everything about peppo too (including their name)

[aftermathing]

The worst thing about suffering is that it still hurts when the danger is over but no one cares about it anymore because it shouldn't hurt. No one will ever say "I'm sorry that happened to you" especially when they barely say "I'm sorry that's happening."

#Okay to tb btw all the personal stuff is in the tags #Like. Not eating for a week because you couldn't get groceries hurts #and people will say 'oof sorry that's happening' but then #after you're able to get food no one will ever say 'I'm sorry that happened' even though you think about it and hurt from it constantly. #No one will ever say ':( that must have been so hard' because you're fine now right???? No psychological damage there????? #This example is stupid but I do think about it every time I feel hungry. I told people I wasn't able to get groceries #and there was no food in my house. And they said. Oof. #Instead of idk Oh God Are You Okay ?? #No one cares when you've been abused your entire life and behave the way you do out of genuine terror because your brain is fucked forever #They don't say 'I'm sorry that happened it must have been really scary to turn you into Such An Asshole. I pity you like a dog :(' #Speaking of man everyone loves fucked up abused terrified dogs and wants to be the one who makes them open up #And shows them that people can be good and kind and that touch doesn't have to hurt #But everyone is scared of fucked up abused terrified people #Humans are capable of harm even more than dogs and fear is understandable but. #Can you please call me good boy and shush me and tell me nothing's going to hurt me and let me curl up on your lap #And not hit me if I get scared and start to growl and feed me good and take me on walks and play with me #Even though I'm not very fun to play with and I'm still learning what's fun and what's mean and what's a toy and what's a hand #Plleeeaaase don't be jealous of a dog that doesn't eat good don't say 'tch he's so thin what am I doing wrong' #I want to eat good and grow and gain fat and be warm and be comfortable I don't want this #Don't say 'if abused dogs don't eat good then I don't deserve to either' no no no no eat good so you can take care of us both #Please please please I learned so many tricks to make people happy and call me smart but I don't actually know how to do anything I'm #Literally like such a stupid dog it takes me like one day of no one paying attention to me for me to become un-housebroken #I make a lot of mistakes even though I know better or I really should know better #And sometimes do things wrong on purpose to get attention either yelling or showing me how to do it right #But most of the time I genuinely don't know how to do stuff because I was never taught or I was taught and #My previous owners said 'this is how it is. It is this way because it is and it is forever. The answer is Because.' #'now quit asking repetitive questions before I pop you' #If I do something Because and not know the reason why I'm doing it that's not learning that's acting #Especially habits taught specifically to hurt me and not being allowed to question it or know why I'm being hurt #Oh my god I acted out so much when I was younger and all my friends were so disgusted and hurt by me and yelled at me every day