#when he takes the family photo w shigeru & touko and then says ''wait can we take another one'' so sensei can be in it too 😭😭😭😭😭

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huh. perhaps surprisingly overdue but add natsuyuu to the list of anime that officially made me cry

#like it makes me very emotional all the time #but i just finished s4 when he goes to visit his original house before it gets torn down and hooooo boy #that fucking hit hard #the contrast of when he walks into the empty house and says ''tadaima'' and gets no answer #vs when he goes back home to shigeru and touko and theyre both there to greet him happily and warmly #bro i lost my mind i cant take that shit #ohhhhh my god this show is amazing #retag later #ny blogging #he walks in and im like ''if he cries i cry'' & then i fuckin beat him to it gjdjbdhfjg #when he takes the family photo w shigeru & touko and then says ''wait can we take another one'' so sensei can be in it too 😭😭😭😭😭 #fuck. FUCK. #i think what actually set me off was when he first walked up to the house and ran his fingers over the nameplate reading ''natsume'' #that was fucking devastating. a home with /his/ name on it. the place he originally belonged. /his/ home #god fuc im gonna cry again just thinking about it!!!!!!!!!! #seeing the childhood scribbles on the walls that were still left there because he was loved #that distinct feeling of something so happy hurting so much to reflect on #how natsume deliberately avoided thinking about these things because of how much they hurt #lying on the back porch and finally letting himself remember is what finally causes him to lose his composure #the message of acknowledging the things that hurt but are so so important #the message of allowing these things to have their place in your life and to then move forward with new happiness #what it means to redefine ''home'' and what's important in the here and now #the juxtaposition of not only the two homes but of the photos #to take the old photo of his parents that he isnt even in #and overwrite that heavy emotional baggage with his current family of which he is very much a part #he considers nyanko sensei an important piece of his current happiness........... #outside of all pretense of a relationship based strictly on madara being a bodyguard and nothing more #his presence in natsume's life is important to him and he thinks of him as part of his family #even though he'd planned to visit the old home alone before sensei tagged along he brings him inside with him #to a place so incredibly personal and emotional and vulnerable to him; it speaks volumes