#when im manic any thought that pops into my head is free real estate

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#oh my god im manic and about to do something ill regret #im terrified #i hate being manic because it feels like i cant control my thoughts feelings or actions #i feel helpless #last time i was manic i nearly called an ex #that doesnt sound bad but if you knew the circumstances of the breakup you would understand #and i nearly crashed my car a couple of times #here it is again #i'm terrified of what i might do #when im manic any thought that pops into my head is free real estate #crash my car? absolutely #stop talking to everyone i love/actively leave or break up with someone? of course! #buy everything i lay my eyes on promptly getting rid of half of my savings? why not! #im scared of the thoughts that might some into my head that i might not be able to stop myself from following through with #im just gonna drug myself for the night so that i cant do anything