#when you get cheated on with yourself

[capricornsicle]

"I'm going to tell you a story. Maybe it will sound familiar." Visionary x Insatiable x Status Asthmaticus x The Wolves of War

#this is really a show about coming of age in a vicious and unfamiliar world more than a show about werewolves #think about it. scott is sixteen and to him losing his first love is as incomprehensible and unfathomable as the supernatural. #and we're constantly reminded of how being sixteen and in love goes -- 'you're not in love you're sixteen and a child' etc. #these three characters make for such a good parallel to one another in how they werewolf + seeking guidance #especially + sudden change of worldview/stakes when confronted with sudden and unexpected loss and grieving #of course derek loses paige and becomes cold and jaded (see: literally becomes cold w/ blue eyes) #scott loses allison and commits harder to saving all of his friends even though one of them (or someone possessing him) killed her #liam is stopped from killing because of hayden's death #here are three werewolves who were sixteen and held their first love's dead body in their arms #and each of them took a different path. do you close yourself off? refuse to? do you change completely because of it? #and ofc it's teen wolf so everything always comes in threes #I have a lot of issues with the writing but the use of death (barring 6b) is not one of them. they really went hard on meaningful death. #also consider: lori holding brett's hand so he doesn't die alone and theo responding to tracy kissing him by killing her as she does #teen wolf writers went is anyone going to bastardize the original narrative to ponder new ideas about it and didn't wait for an answer #also women's deaths are always about love/for a man (thanks hollywood) but goddamn if they don't kill their women wisely #and the thing is they are all running. they're running from death and what does it get them? it gets them here. #derek wants to turn paige so she'll live forever. scott wants allison to live happily even with someone else. liam wants to save hayden. #none of them consider that cheating death will catch up to them until they run right into its arms #and all three die because of getting involved with the supernatural. all of them would presumably not have died otherwise. #coming of age into a world that takes and hurts and destroys and where you are now old enough for people around you to die. #this is not a show about werewolves. #teen wolf #twedit #teenwolfedit #my edit #derek hale #paige krasikeva #scott mccall #allison argent #liam dunbar

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

Not pro/anti ship but a secret third thing (side eyeing ppl with ships i dont like and block them/the tag if it makes me uncomfortable)

#shut up pandora #wtf is pro and anti SHIP anyway #you cant come up with a universal definition everyone will agree on #'no problematic ships' ok can you write a manifesto on every nuance of shipping in fiction to describe what exactly is problematic #and then can you get everyone who says 'no problematic ships' to agree with it #'no censorship/harassment' is noble and all but what do you mean by that? when ppl tell you they dislike your ship? #when i say i dislike the huntlow ship 80 shippers go for the throat and tell me either to either make sure it doesnt end up in the tags #or tell me not to say it at all. in a post that isnt even blind hate like i always talk about their characters and the story too #is that censorship? #and then 20 ppl trip over themselves to explain why THEY PERSONALLY like the ship even if i didnt ask #is that harrassment? #or is that just ppl online being obnoxious about their opinions and theres no need to moralize the concept of shipping #which has been around in its semi modern form since the 60s #you can be pro or anti SPECIFIC SHIP though i dont use that term bc of the associations with the words pro and anti #but moralizing an entire aspect of fandom culture generalizes too much #the truth is theres no cheat code to avoid drama in fandom you cant just slap a lable on yourself and expect everyone to know what you mean #you cant just say im anti ship and be absolved of liking 'problematic content' bc the definition of that is blurry as hell #you can just say im pro ship and universally supoort every person shipping weird shit you gotta draw the line somewhere #and while you shouldnt harass them the definition for that is blurry too #gotta curate your own online experience block ships and ppl you dont like etc #pro and anti is just a line in the sand that separates a whole spectrum of ppl

[milf-harrington]

ive had this thing about steves parents sitting in my notes for months and i still havent finished it but bc its been so long ive completely lost my stream of thought so im tempted to just post it as is

#its sort of an analysis sort of a headcanon sort of me taking my own experiences and seeing how it works with steve #its mainly about the struggle of having emotionally distant parents that you get along with most of the time #and then that struggle of hating them when theyre not there but then when they are there youre like 'wait its not even their fault' #and then youre mad at yourself for being unfair to them #but then theyre gone again and you realise all over again that you hate them and you dont understand why they cant just Be There #and like yeah i feel like that kind of relationship would be interesting for steve bc hes got the added stress of the upside down #and his parents being rich and dysfunctional #so he hates them when theyre gone but then he feels guilty bc if they WERE home what if they got dragged into everything to? #hed rather his mum be stopping his dad from cheating than getting eaten by some interdimensional monster #but then also hes just a kid and he has to look after himself and hes been through so many scary things #and his mum wasnt there #what ive actually written is more put together than this but this is the gist of it #steve harrington

[13eyond13]

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw: #i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced' #or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought' #or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too' #sort of way... #it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

[lukesunbornn]

not to have a superiority complex but my peers are so so so so so so so so stupid.

#in the incoming freshman discord for my college. #these kids are bragging about cheating on all their placement exams #FIRST OF ALL. there are literal employees of our university in this chat + 200 other students. u could get in so much trouble EASILY rn #SECOND. these are PLACEMENT exams. to see what you know so you are placed in the right class. being in a higher level does not help or #affect you in any way graduation-wise. why would you cheat to get into a class that’s too hard for you that you’ll fail in and damage your #gpa and make you miserable & confused. when you could take the appropriate class & get placed at your level & be confident in your learning #& get more out of the class & have a better more prepared understanding of the concepts when you graduate #like you are setting yourself up for failure for what. to be in the advanced class? that litrally nobody cares about or will care about ever #????? that’s so so so so so so so so stupid idk what to tell you. #i’ll be over here with a 4.0 in my ‘easy’ math class enjoying my learning and understanding the concepts. have fun failing & being sad tho

[4arconinoma]

Will never understand why people hate Skyler White as if she isn't the best fucking character in the entire show

#maybe only second to jesse or something but still #You literally just hate women And youre a Pussy Go fuck yourself #how is she unlikeable when she is the most reasonable person in this situation #ooooooouh she cheated IDGAF THAT SHE FUCKED ANOTHER GUY BECAUSE HER DEADBEAT HUSBAND REPEATEDLY LIED TO HER !!!!!!!! HE KILLED PEOPLE !!!!! #Next dudebro i see being a whiny bitch about her is getting bludgeoned to death with a rock !!! Honest to God !!!! #number 1 skyler defender I need you all to explode she's the most girlboss on Earth and she's right in nearly every situation LITERALLY #Anyways i need to continue watching brba. Miss it need to finish so bad #Gonna try to do that soon #brba #txt

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #gonna talk about Dodie's music and why I like the lyrics and themes #she sings about being queer in a very vague way besides “Rainbow”. It feels very much more about relationship type rather than sexuality #“In the Middle” “I Kissed Someone (It Wasn't You)”. songs about wanting a different kind of relationship. feeling out of place because of i #dreams about people being okay with you wanting a different kind of romance or sex experience. #it's not “oh no ooouuu I'm gay” but a more subtle relationship style misfit. the closeted bi vibes. the poly forced to be monogamous vibes. #a kind of queer that gets overlooked because so many people assume that gay/lesbian people are still monogamous romantic who want to marry #“okay you can be gay but only as long as you aren't anything else queer.” you still have to find “the one” and settle down and get married #and if you want anything else then we demonize you again. we decide that this one thing is okay but everything else is still social devianc #idk. the sad loneliness vibes she catches are really good because it's not just lonely. it's being invisible while still being seen #there's people around you but you're still shut out. you're in a relationship but you still don't feel loved. #you're visible and yet they still never see you. #and I forgot to mention! the traffic idea of cheating. like. being pulled away from a relationship because it isn't for you #and knowing that you what you're doing isn't great but being unable to sit still in a bad situation. #we do not always escape situations well. or without causing harm to others. but we hurt others in our attempt to protect ourselves #especially clear in “I Kissed Someone”. like. when you're not happy with a situation but you opt for small hurt instead of catastrophic hurt #the fear of breaking up a relationship so you seek small escapes instead of destroying the prison you've built around yourself

[shitbrainratface]

Srry i am very chatty today but i noticed the pipeline of

I want to die -> I want to be someone else -> I want to be me with a different life -> I want the plans I've made in my life to be easier to fulfill and that I could be more sure that I even can fulfill them

to be such a huge improvement and I'm proud

/ok to rb

#i find it funny when i talk about the state i am in and ppl seem so sad #like oh you cant drive oh you cant live on your own oh you need a caregiver... i wish you a good recovery #bitch i am recovered! just because my best point is worse than your lowest point doesnt mean i havent made huge steps #or like i talk about my insecurities #and theyre like well i hope you feel better about yourself #nonono its a good thing! because I get up and I look in the mirror and I feel negative emotion and thats it #i dont insult myself i dont feel dread or suicidal about it anymore #i just feel bad! and that bad feeling doesnt even last the rest of the day - I can forget about it easily now! #like ik ''i dislike how i look'' is sad for a lot of people but like... its such an improvement from ''if i look in a mirror i suddenly #develope delusions that my appearance is causing my girlfriend to cheat on me and that everyone wants me dead'' #its honestly like... i was talking with a trans woman who was thinking of coming out and transitioning #and she was like ''but im scared that i wont like the way i look #and everyone says i will but what if i dont'' #and i told her ''you have no idea how freeing it is to look in the mirror & dislike the way you look & still be happy and proud of your #physical changes'' #''imagine seeing yourself and instead of wanting to cry and scream and kill someone you go 'eh could be better' and then feel fine the rest #of the day'' #and the best part: I fully accept that there are other people who can find me attractive now #if i take a nude and i think it sucks then I send it anyways bc hey they see something in me that i cant and thats wonderful #and she said it really helped her bc that reality seemed so much more attainable than sudden radical self love #and maybe some day i will love myyself and love my appearance but even just where I am right now I think its pretty good #just.... i can not stress how freeing it is to be okay with yourself after a life time of thinking my appearance was the end of the world #im not going to lie - i am still incredibly jealous of hot ppl especially hot ppl who get a lot of compliments #but atleast being around hot people doesnt trigger me into a defensive scared mess anymore

[ziracona]

Iirc Griffin did something similar in Amnesty, when Aubrey succeeded on a roll that should've saved another character's life, but it didn't work and I don't think they ever explained why

Yeah!! And in Amnesty, Ned used a point of LUCK. To get a 12. That in MOTW is a guaranteed success. You do not take harm in Protect Someone if you use luck. Also, a fucking shotgun does not DO 7 points of harm anyway. It’s 3. And he fucking KILLED him. Never forgiving Griffin for that one >.>

#that’s not just cheap it’s /explicitly/ against the rules #I don’t ever like if a DM is giving ‘me vs you’ vibes to the players in any form but cheating and lying is the worst #ask #anonymous #like dgmw I love Griffin and most of the time quite enjoy his DMing but several times he has now made me /boiling/ mad #not super happy about the way he has handled Devo’s religious trauma either. like Travis is great #incredible character. he’s got some huge flaws but you also get why Devo is how he is and sometimes he’s super right. but Griffin has too #much been like ‘what if the church wasn’t so bad : )’ like Travis had to /push/ for the flashback trauma scene w Guidance to be something #upsetting and abusive. like let him have a history #taz amnesty spoilers #also not a fan of his new ‘no backstories’ thing #like yeah it can get too much or awkward but they can also be great??? you don’t want to live in them but you want them to give you a rich #basis for where the charcater in-story starts. ??? it causes no issues if you do that? #and it’s fun to occasionally have them be relevant even just for a goofy one off. I had a player be a changeling who had helped a coup in #another country and her co-revolutionary she was with and close to turned on her for racial reasons bc she was a changeling when he found ou #out and tried to kill her and they have a mutual ‘if I ever see you again’ and the experience dramatically influenced how she interacted w #other characters in the campaign bc baggage. but she never even /brought it up/ to a Pc or npc. it’s just rich character to work with #you gotta trust players and yourself a little not let having details overwhelm a story it’s not hard #and if it starts to happen it ain’t hard to correct

[amazinlei]

Lamb: Fitre, I’d do anything for you!  I’d kill for you if you asked.  Please let me kill for you.

Fitre: No!

#inspired by when I was watching the simpsons earlier and this part was so cute aijdshdfsk #and yes I finally remembered the name of my spouse! #unlocked the summoning circle to turn your villagers into a power-up for going on crusades and in a disturbing way turning your partner #into a demonic power-up through to cheat the boss for one but also it's lowkey romantic if you imagine your spouse wants to come with you #but lamb just turns them into magic space #now fitre is getting into old age and I'm like D': #plus my relationship goals is ABSOLUTELY normie x monster couple who demon is incredibly protective of their mortal #but also the idea of the one who waits is like 'don't let yourself become a slave to your followers' #now the worshipped worships their spouse where they go and protect each other <3 #might draw this out since the idea is just so funny to me #Lei Plays Cult Of The Lamb #Cult Of The Lamb

[novococain]

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#having absolutely so many thoughts rn about maegor even outside of abo being his mother's son and this is objectively a terrible thing #bcs visenya is objectively terrible and she's hot while doing it what do you want me to do about that #but anyway. thoughts of maegor feeling violently cheated out of his birthright. not rhaena not the throne. aenys. #bcs visenya's birthright was not dragonstone it was rhaenys and aegon i and maybe not aegon i's dragonseed but he was her brother too #(orys) #and so she took that too #maegor who while aenys is heir and aenys sits the throne has CONSIDERABLY less issue with the succession and considerably MORE issue with. #aenys's marriage lol. he's like her?? a mere cousin??? not even a dragonrider?? not even a TARGARYEN?? unacceptable #he's LIVID when they wed him to ceryse instead to placate him. especially because at least rhaena would be his BLOOD jesus CHRIST #he doesn't let it stand for long tho!! either aegon i bends (he does) or he breaks (he won't) and when maegor comes to him DEMANDING #what he is owed. aegon i is like idk son. dragons aren't hounds. i can hardly tie them up and deliver them at your feet. #i.e. if your dragon refuses you not even i can help you. tame him yourself. #and that's wayyyy too much permission. maegor is VISENYA'S SON. so that's all he needs to be like bet. BET. #and boom this is how in a different world maegor did not usurp rhaena/aegon the uncrowned cause aegon is actually the fruit of his womb 🤣🤣 #black magic womb!! what's a little blood sacrifice and black magic to get the mount you want. what's a lit manipulation and babytrapping #and seduction. and child-brideing. and homewrecking. and also giving birth to severely fucked up kids. #tho not as fucked up as maegor himself because they're not black magic THEMSELVES the womb that carried them is. the body that bore them is #think reneesme and bella's pregnancy. yes that. except maegor can take it even while v young because he's not entirely NORMAL. #to put it simple he's more balerion than he is aegon. he's more like a dragon than a person. constitution wise. this is not a good thing. #mind u he and alyssa v have CRAZY beef. aenys named his firstborn daughter after his mother and maegor named his firstborn aegon to show off #be like 'see? i gave you a son. aren't i better?' gloating whore. nasty asshole. tsk. serves him right that alyssa v fucks him over #he wanted to name his next kid after visenya (hence the first viserys) but he and alyssa v were pregnant at the same time #and she gave birth first. and stole his whole ass name for viserys. maegor got so livid he went into premature labor AND had to be stopped #from murdering aenys for allowing that. by aegon i himself. man had to pull out all his dad cards. still a miracle tho #terribly nyra and visenya style labor after that. three days of agony. visenya and aegon i play lion parents. vhagar is being SO loud #gives birth to a daughter—severely premature but big enough to pass for a small full term baby. she's smaller than aegon was but she's fiery #bruised by the labor but has maegor's eyes (visenya's eyes) and aenys's curly hair which is more cold than silver—like rhaenys's was #and maegor decides that if alyssa v stole his thunder for her first son then he shall steal hers for his first daughter. names her lysarra. #after alarra massey aka alyssa's mother. and then he's like NOW I'm good. moving on!! look brother a daughter 🥰 a bride for your son 🥰🥰 #and meanwhile aenys is about to have a mental BREAK because maegor was only a little over halfway along and they were supposed to have TIME

[thenerdcommander]

I love making problematic male characters

#he started out problematic bc he's a templar and oh BOY does it keep getting worse #man's cheating on his wife with a mage he had a crush on 7 years ago #and he treats said mage like garbage now #the end of that story is already plotted and don't worry he effectively goes to therapy gets a divorce and becomes a simp later but LORD #the DRAMA in this romance #sometimes you let the order make your crush tranquil so they don't kill him and then later when he's cured of said tranquility he blames you #and then you both hate eachother for a long time and then you bang and then you convince yourself it was blood magic and hate your ex crush #even more than before but your crush still digs you anyway so it all snowballs into a personal crisis bc Mother Giselle was right you don't #actually believe it was blood magic or you would've killed him so now you just have to sit with that and pick apart this whole narrative #you've built over the years to keep yourself from feeling all the things you didn't want to #and it eventually culminates into divorcing your wife that fed your unhealthy coping mechanisms (ie spinning a narrative in which you did #nothing wrong) admitting you were in the wrong going through the process of rebuilding trust with your crush and building a relationship you #never let yourself have with him before bc as a templar you're not supposed to get close to your charges and you took that very seriously #back in the day but the divine abolished the circles so you don't have to do that anymore and you can relax and let your feelings *exist* #and you adopt a dog together and go on adventures and the first time you ever admit you love him is in front of your extremely pious father #which is a hell of a move bc your boyfriend is A) a mage B) a man and C) an elf #and then you sort-of adopt your niece together bc she started developing magic and your brother is an asshole #and then you drag your boyfriend out into the Vimmark mountains where you get the best view and propose to him but you're awkward #so you tell him to forget it and then later you try again somewhere else #and then you honeymoon in Antiva #and you make sure he gets to see all the things he wouldn't have gotten to locked up in a tower

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

I'm begging every character on TV to stop hanging out with their exes when they're with someone else and not telling their s/o about it. Nothing good can come from it, idiot!! Watch a movie!!

#personally I never want to see my ex boyfriend again that'd be awkward as fuck. I'm definitely not gonna go get a cup of coffee or invite #him into my house wtf #and I broke up with him very gently like it was fine he still wanted to be friends afterwards. and still! zero interest in seeing him #I'm soooooooooo sick of the jealous s/o being like what were you doing with him and the other being like 'it was totally innocent!' and the #s/o (rightfully) is like 'then why didn't you tell me about it?' and it's a whole thing and it's like was it worth it dumbass? huh? fuck #em rambles #tropes #my parents would never cheat on each other but they also have a rule that my dad doesn't like go for coffee or a meal with a woman alone #the same with my mom but with a man alone to avoid putting themselves in a situation where something might happen #the other person getting the wrong idea or it looking like something illicit to someone else when it's not etc. #which I've always thought was a good rule especially after all the dumbass fuckery I've seen on tv and in movies. just don't even risk it #don't set yourself up for temptation. just don't do it

[simply-starryeyed]

incredibly sick of the "she's-a-bitch" narrative

i stand up for myself? i'm a bitch.

this is from the same person, that, fifteen minutes later, asked me to be friends again

pick a fucking side

#maybe you shouldn't have manipulated me to begin with #or misgender my girlfriend #or misgender me but only when there's other people around #your loss #i tried #this is on you #go fuck yourself #feminism #patriarchy #manipulation #gaslighting #you don't have the right #you don't get to ask for me back #pissed #i don't fucking needed checked up on #should've thought about that before you said you couldn't promise not to manipulate me again #maybe you shouldn't have cheated on me because #i quote #[they're] ace hence why i feel more ok talking like this to you #you don't get me now #you don't get to do this

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[chqnified]

The unnecessary digs from people on the daily lmao and it's almost always on what i wear. Like nobody asked, you look like you blindfolded chose your outfit from primark love.

#the new one is 'when are you never in some sort of designer shit' . #the other day was 'omg nooo it looks like it could be saying something inappropriate loll“ ... do you need new prescription glasses? #or don't you think that's too short? #you're not wearing it so i don't think it concerns you #i dress myself in a particular style. i get it. but at least it's something different lmfao. even if you don't like it yourself #idk. i call it main character behaviour. that's how i go about most things. #got cheated on? I'm main character #people bitching about me? main character core #had a comically shit day? main character things #i think I've only ever really gotten digs made about my clothes tbh. #that and the way i think / what i do. but in terms of #people HATED it when i just woke up and said it was time for a new job. #i was called a self entitled bitch for actually thinking i could just go get another job like that #but guess who did. got offers from every single application i made . and that made people madder #but what could they say. it wasn't the so called delusion they claimed it to be. #i'm sorry i know what i want lmfao #ket tag