#where id rather be

[levoiddreamer]

#dark academia #dark aesthetic #green moodboard #green #dark green #academia #romantic academia #green romance #soul board #soul color #books #books & libraries #gothic #goth aesthetic #goth #gothique #where id rather be #leather bound #leather #old books #dark vibes #vibes #green vibes

[thecrossroads]

Shusuitei Tea House, Kyoto

#where id rather be

[inkskinned]

she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let

and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment

and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.

and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment

and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?

to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.

and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.

you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.

#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now #writeblr #you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like #u don't HATE their partner explicitly #but ur like. what the fuck y'all #like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic #and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like #frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....'' #and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her. #all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it #or ... that it really IS good #and it's just odd to you #tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship #like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend #it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time #around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like #.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond. #so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think #but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something #but knowing you CANNOT #idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person #edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up #PS EDIT: btw i should have said: #the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every #type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''

[papanowo]

soooo these started out as me doodling to get used to my new tablet but 2 months later here we are

#if you look reeeeally closely you can see where i got obsessed w mirrorverse for a couple weeks ^_^ #my art #star trek #star trek tos #star trek aos #spock #james t kirk #jim kirk #bones mccoy #leonard mccoy #spirk #mirrorverse #mirror kirk #mirror spock #mirror bones #incubus 1966 #doom 2005 #theres also tng ds9 ent and the boys tv but id rather not clog those tags

[animentality]

sometimes i read stories about the creepy things astarion fangirls have subjected neil newbon to, despite him asking them like, outright to stop sexualizing him as a person just bc he voices astarion, and i shudder because some of y'all should have been raised catholic like i was.

then maybe you'd know some fucking shame.

edit: I must clarify this is a joke because no one should be raised Catholic. but some of y'all do need to be punished. biblically.

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #oh the comments in his streams and the questions hes had to answer and the cameos people have shoved at him and tim #guys id rather claw my eyes out than send anything like that to jason isaacs or even just anyone at all #where is good old fashioned christian guilt man #youre asking strangers about sex #maybe go home and pray

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much* #and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect #but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer #but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write #im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly #also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one #it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure #recovery #tips

[questionablealibi]

//TW//

Multiple eyes, eye contact

Can someone watch over my middle aged humanoid man while i go to school thank you

Please dont let them out of your sight

#Ill still be posting the comics and doodles (((AND A THING FOR AN ASK HRHRRH))) i have postponed eventually ^^; #Rather busy month we have here huh /lh #Had to mute my discords im sorry for thise who have been messaging! >< #Pinging is vv wlecomed but my phone has this thing where it doesnt send me notifs >:( #Despite having notifs on for the app itself #So im incredibly sorry if im not able to see your messages! #I hope you lot have been doing alright! #alibi! #tspud #tsp #the stanley parable #tsp narrator #tspud narrator #HEY a front profile!! #Didnt think id make one so soon /lh #Dont be intimidated he just looks like That

[narwhalandchill]

while i wouldnt necessarily disagree that childe seems to be on edge more so than usual (and he himself mentions being in a poor mood in act I) in the fontaine archon quest i do have to say i find it a little funny that theres people who think hes behaving, like, completely out of character in the court scene when he decides to go apeshit after being judged guilty by the justice.exe AI bot like.

did it somehow escape peoples memories that this man when presented with the idea that we as the traveler mightve tricked and gotten ahead of him with the geo gnosis just. entered a state of complete murderous rage leading to him activating foul legacy in the golden house. which actually ends up self-sabotaging his current objective more than anything bc unlike the clear way they struggled against childe before now the traveler just won by default by outlasting him

he mightve gotten over it fairly easily afterwards (in no small part bc traveler actually fought him which automatically translates to equal=respect=friend in his fucked up head) but childes been shown to be a highly dangerous individual with a massive ego prone to outburst in the heat of the moment when outplayed or his pride wounded before even when it isnt the smartest course of action like. this isnt new lmao.

getting accused of a crime he had never even heard of in a foreign nation he only recently arrived in and then sitting through all that court drama and being assured afterwards that he only needs to partake as a mere formality for declaring his innocence only to be somehow declared guilty by a machine is very much realistic grounds for childes patience to reach its breaking point if you ask me lol

#and if its about the like... civilians in the opera watching thing id like to remind ppl #that childes never raised any ethical issue or personal guilt relating to the endangering of innocents #childe dislikes involving the weak bc its something he considers as BENEATH himself as a warrior whod rather solve every problem w a 1v1 #him going 'the weak of this world are so insignificant that no honorable fighter would pull them into matters beyond their ability' #isnt.... a moral stance jkwdjkdjkwjkdjkdkdw #so like no him choosing to activate foul legacy in front of a crowd doesnt necessarily ring ooc to me #just that hes decided its a means to an end situation where he cannot abide by his preferences #the same way he chose to revive osial despite his personal distaste for such methods because at the moment its what he had to fall back on #genshin #genshin spoilers / #rambles #childeposting #childe

[cemeterything]

one of my worst personal habits is that whenever i get any kind of warning for horror/explicit content i always build it up in my mind as way more graphic than it actually is so when i finally check out the thing i was warned about for real i'm pretty much always like "wait that's it???"

#🐉 #like i can still be scared or horrified or disturbed sometimes but its rarely as extreme as i expect it to be #like the scene in nope where they show you all the people getting eaten #yeah its unpleasant but i was expecting something far more gory and disgusting #and i feel like if id gone in completely blind i wouldve been more shocked and horrified rather than kinda relieved

[uncanny-tranny]

A big argument against asexuality and aromaticism is the idea that you can be too young to know. I remember people being so put out by the idea of somebody under eighteen identifying as aro or ace, and they made it known how they thought it was bad.

However... I really don't agree with that outlook. I knew something was up with me when my friends were developing a "normal" identity in the eyes of amatonormativity, and I was under eighteen. Mind you, I didn't have words to express how I felt, so I was in a perpetual state of feeling pressure to be "one of the normals." It made my life miserable because I was being dishonest to myself and cloaking who I was behind a layer of shame.

My point is that... when you know, you tend to know. Sure, your identity might change, but is that more important than making sure you are comfortable in yourself? Would you rather feel the way I did at my age hearing about my allo friends? Because it was unbearable, and I don't wish that on anybody.

#ace #asexual #aro #aromantic #lgbt #lgbtq #i guess i can see where people are coming from... but a lot of people who say this don't seem to be aro and/or ace #and it's like... okay you can ask how people can *know* they're aro and/or ace at a young age but it seems rather pointless to me #like... i feel the same way about being aroace as i did when i was in sixth grade having the same feelings so... #...i guess people are really under the impression that secretly *everybody* is allo and they just need to be proven they are #i'm here to say how wrong that is. allo is natural and so is aro/ace #anyway if somebody outgrows being aro and/or ace then: GOOD FOR THEM /gen /nm #i WANT people to understand their own sexuality and romantic feelings. i WANT people to be honest with themselves #and if that means they stop IDing as aro or ace or allo then so be it!!!!!

[dyketubbo]

i remember seeing someone call tubbo a fully grown adult at 19 (obvs before he turned 20) and i gotta say. i think maybe some people have a really skewed idea of what constitutes as "fully grown". and also what constitutes as properly mature. thinking that at 18/19 (or hell even at 20/21) people are now fully grown and mature is insane to me like yall thats how you get people thinking their life is over at like 23 and that 30 year olds are senior citizens 😭😭 be fr

#this is a problem no matter where you look but i think a lot of ppl in the mcyt fandom esp seem to think once youre- #-considered an adult at all that it automatically means youre fully grown and mature and thats just nooottt really true for most ppl #which i think can lead people down to sort of dangerous paths especially because 'adult' is often defined by age of consent #and theres also some slight cultural differences like even just between the us and the uk where due to 18yr olds being able to drink in- #-the uk (and other places) i think it genuinely causes some dissonance #where i see often in the us that when youre 18/19 youre still treated (id say rightfully) as being rather young and not Truly a grown adult #hence. yk. the term Young Adult #but i think in places where the drinking age is younger it starts causing people to see younger people as more mature #which is also why a lot of predators like to push for the age of consent to be at a younger age like 15 or 16 #and why many lolicons try to point at japans age of consent (which for the record is complicated and not as simple as just 'age of consent- #-is 13') as a defense for how they act #because these sorts of milestones (having sex and drinking) are seen as marks of a true adult. which gets into a whole lot of other #complicated things #and often dangerous things and ways of thinking #ANYWAYS . basically 18/19 isnt fully grown 20 is also hardly fully grown itself #and theres ways to combat people infantilizing tubbo and other creators his age without acting like hes actually #fully grown and mature lol. i promise you humans are not fully grown at 20 years old are you kidding me 😭😭😭😭 #if youre in your 20s you still have a lot of time and space to grow i promise. do not fall for the idea that your life is done by like 23 #idk. im only 18 myself but it just feels insane to me that if i were a creator people would be calling me a fully grown adult #not that im not an adult but i dont think im mature enough to be seen as fully grown and i guess itssss. sad? #to see other people my age think that turning 18 means youre fully grown. just really not true #theres a lot of 30 year olds who still see early 20yr olds as being practically babies we have Not made it to full maturity yet i prommy #mask mews

[big8cola]

Being 18 is so nothing like your technically an adult but no one sees u as an adult and most 18 year olds turn 18 in high school and you cant buy alcohol or nothing... Such a weird age to beeee. Just feels like a grey area between teenager and not teenager

#esp in canada where u can drink at 19. like id rather but be a legal adult at 19 ykwim like 18 is so nothing

[thecrossroads]

#where id rather be

[vse-kar-vem]

together in every universe. or something

#bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #joker out #im neglecting schoolwork to draw this but that seems like the norm at this point #hoping if i get it all out of my system now i'll be normal during exam szn (in like. a week 😨) #<<sorry if i keep talking about school btw (semi age reveal ahead) gcses are fucking killing me uuaghhgshhahhhaj #i actually quite like this since i started drawing on a whim this afternoon and its only ten now #i dont even mind the lineart (DONT LOOK AT BOJANS HAND OR ILL JUMP OUT A WINDOW) #only a one storey one tho 💗💗💗 can't die without seeing bokris irl <<pipe dream as im too embarrassed to go to a concert #NO because bumping into jo in london would be my worst fucking nightmare 😭😭😭 #what do i even fucking say 'hey are you jan from jo--' NO id combust on the spot #and what if im bothering them uknow 😭😭 idk but i used to live in an asian city where none of my idols from the west would ever visit #(except safiya love you safiya) so keeping the real life person and fictiinalized versions apart in my brain and/or at arms length was easy #but now that i live in the uk and the chances of seeing them irl are non-zero? and presented with the chance to #actively seek them out and you know go to a concert #im just too scared and awkward to do it #maybe i'll bully my friend into going with me #i feel safer revealing age more in the fucking depths of these tags but another thing that makes me feel awkward about going is age #like ik lots of jo fans are younger than me and there's no shame at all in bringing your parents i just feel so embarrassed?? to??? #like i'd rather go with my friends #but that would require at least us riding the train alone and i am a small east asian girl who never looks up from the floor ever #sooooo #not happening any time soon #maybe next yr?? but probably not #unless i suddenly get a lot more independant and cool #i doubt anyone's read this much of my tags but if you have 😭😭 hope you like the art i guess #at the time of me writing i want to draw more but i'll see #(you will know since it will have been posted) #a tag previously used to say 'queueing to post at school' this is false as i am now in fact nauseous at home #my art

[ghastbutlikegay]

by the way i just wanna make sure it's clear that i would 100% rather have my RSD triggered than have someone let me make them uncomfortable to protect my feelings. my disproportionate emotional response is not your responsibility. i dont want people to feel uncomfortable or upset because of me. me having ADHD and being sensitive is not an excuse for me to hurt you

#this isnt about anything in particular #i just remembered a post i saw recently where someone was talking about people using rsd as an excuse to make people let them do whatever #i wanna make sure it's clear that when i mention rsd #it's from a place of 'i would appreciate if you clarify that you dont hate me for doing something that annoyed you/upset you/made you mad' #and not 'never ever tell me to knock it off and never ever be visibly annoyed by me' #i can handle people being mad or annoyed at me #sometimes i just need to hear that like. i didnt ruin a friendship/it isnt forever/they dont hate me now #and id much rather be temporarily upset than lose a friend because they felt like they couldnt tell me i was doing something wrong #and then got fed up with me continuing to do the thing yknow

[kisaraslover]

at the risk of sounding like a Very Hurt Person ill be frank. Seto Kaiba being set up as a traumatized, mentally ill kid with PTSD, who had to cope alone and heal alone and bury his past and reinvent himself, proving to and deeply convincing himself that he can do anything in the process, resulting in this narcissistic double ended blade persona, which, narratively speaking, only gets stomped on, by the good guys, antagonized, by the good guys, and as the Merciful course of action the good guys: Force Him Back Into Accepting And Becoming His Past Self (literally cant imagine a worse fate for anyone who had to erase their past and remake themselves tbh) With Its Past Loves And Past Hurts:

this shit suck lol

#not art #seto kaiba #yugioh #ygo #i might hiss like a wounded animal when Atem is near Kaiba. but worry not. its only because im personally offended when he speaks to seto #i AM projecting before anyone accuses me of it. but the interpretation is solid sadly. this post is canon compliant! #do with that what you will #would literally rather die than to have a a gang of friends following me and forcing me to accept FURTHER BACK the past i escaped like #wdym??? ill kms?????? right now?? #and the secret past is one where he was your SERVANT???? this man with THIS ego???????YOUR LOYAL SERVANT? #AND HE LOST THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE THERE????? and he spent the rest of his life MOURNING after both yall??????? #no id rather kms than acknowledge im sorry #i get him #this is why im a kaiba kinnie and youre a kaiba shipper with atem or yugi or joey #LMAO came out swinging at the last sentence im unwell rn