#where is my safe place

[white-fledermaus4]

Sag mir, wo geht man hin wenn man nirgends zuhause ist?

Wohin flieht man, wenn man sich nirgends mehr so geborgen oder frei fühlt?

Was tut man, wenn man nicht mehr kann und trotzdem muss?

Wenn man nur noch am verzweifeln ist?

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#verzweifelt #where is my safe place #take care of me #need a caregiver #einsam #angst #gedankenkotze #ich kann nicht mehr #hilfe #not of this world #wo ist mein zuhause

[s0fter-sin]

something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line

“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”

“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"

but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.

he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.

his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.

ghost doesn't let him.

"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."

soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.

he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."

the ice in soap's eyes fractures.

ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.

“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”

#in my head its bc graves abducts his sister and is using her as hostage to draw him out knowing ghost will always follow him #but the intensity and intimacy of saying ‘you cant trust your mind not to betray you so let me be in charge of your body until you can’ #after what happened to tommy he could never deny johnny his right to save his sister #but its bc of what happened to tommy that he knows he cant let him do it alone with only his rage to guide him #hes more likely to get himself killed and ghost wont live through that #so he has to balance it #and the only way he knows how is to completely shut down soap’s mind until hes no more than instinct and muscle memory #if he cant think practically then dont let him think at all #reduce him to a place where he can only follow orders #and when its finally over and his sister is safe and graves is dead #only then will he drag johnny back up to the surface #he’ll do it even if it means dragging him kicking and screaming back to humanity #instead of letting him sink in the depths where nothing hurts. theres no fear down there. no pain. only order #and thats the risk ghost took sending johnny to that place but he only did it bc he would stop at nothing to bring him back #and help him through the after #the breakdown. the rush of panic and rage and relief and anguish johnnys been supressing on his order #it was his word that turned johnny into a ghost #and its his touch that brings him back to the man #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghost x soap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod

[chrisbangs]

찬이의 "방" 🐺 200 Episode Special

200! 

I looked back at the message I wrote for you almost 2 years ago now, to see what I said. And honestly, I have to agree with past me. It doesn’t feel like that much time has passed since the first day you showed up on VLive and spoke to us so kind and warmly. 200 episodes later, and well now on YouTube, and you are still doing just that. Week after week, being there for us to cheer us up with your laughter and your jokes and your advice and your terrible pick up lines. I still have nothing in my heart but gratitude towards you, Channie. Thank you for continuing to be the most amazing person ever. 

Let’s meet each other again next week, okay?

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #skz #cb97net #createskz #*gifs #*m #long post #찬이의 “방” 🐺 #i dont even think this will do well but.. i made it with a migraine and did all the gifs in one day lol #i just wanted to do something special because fo how much he means to me #i dont even post or come on here anymore but #i love him so much #he's literally my safe place... my soulmate #and idk where id be without him.. #thank you chan... #thank you always

[clowndensation]

louis, lestat, and their single bed as a motif louis puts into his own story, but refuses to explore, is literally one of the sexiest parts of the show. it speaks volumes about a level of fulfillment and freedom that louis feels by being with lestat that he rarely explicitly comments on when he's relaying his story to daniel, which feels extremely relevant to his overall reluctance to examine the parts of his relationship with lestat that he really enjoyed.

because louis is a character who's hyper aware of how he presents himself. he's lived his entire life projecting a certain masculine, heteronormative image, and he's aware of how deviating from that presentation has implications that impact how people view him - from enjoying the opera, to the presentation of his nails. the fact that he moves in with lestat and neither of them ever put a second bed into any room in the house as a level of plausible deniability is so huge and oversight by so cautious a character, it can only be read as deliberate - especially when the conspicuous lack of a second bed is pointed out to them by both antoinette and a literal police officer. in an existence where you don't sleep in a bed, the bed becomes a symbolic object more so than a practical one. it's louis choosing to deliberately transgress against the societal expectations he lives out when he leaves his house, a bit of presentation that actually amplifies his truth as a gay man living with his partner, rather than masking or hiding himself, like he does for the outside world.

#literally imagine the satisfaction and euphoria in having one place where you can purposely present yourself as gay #where you can look at your own personal space and go 'it looks like a gay man lives here' and feel safe and accepted in that #i feel similarly about the way lestat touches louis tbh #especially as viewed through claudia's diaries #there's an openness to the way louis and lestat behave around each other that their status (of being rich and being vampires) #grants them that louis hasn't really gotten the chance to explore before #and they still can't be blatant about their queerness obviously #but they get away with significantly more than louis has ever allowed himself in his human life #there is an incredible amount of relief and joy in having a partner who isn't ashamed to touch you #and you can see louis feel that #it's one of my favorite pieces of the narrative threaded through the entire story #rarely commented on but still blatant for how encompassing queer love can be #iwtv

[chloecherrysip]

We're going to save your brother.

#mario movie #mario movie spoilers #super mario bros #super mario bros movie #super mario bros movie spoilers #princess peach #mareach #cherrysip edits #I FEEL LIKE THIS MOMENT DID NOT GET THE ATTENTION AND APPRECIATION IT DESERVED ON HERE #man i could write you an essay about this #i do think that the 'i'm not afraid! i'll do anything for my brother' line actually ISN'T said during this scene - it's probably earlier #but that this line IS in the right place (peach's mouth movements match) #which means that scene is going to break me because it just seems like a very vulnerable sweet moment between them #where peach and mario get to talk about the situation they're in and their fears and how big the stakes are for both of them #peach fighting to protect her kingdom and her subjects - the immense pressure on her to stop bowser because of her role as a leader #and mario desperately trying to save his brother - not knowing if luigi is ok or not and not being able to keep him safe is so painful #i think that's why mario doesn't have his hat on - the adventure is starting to weigh on him and he opens up to peach for the first time #about him and luigi and their closeness and how he CAN'T lose his brother he CAN'T let him down when he needs him more than ever #and peach reassures him and it means the world. even in this quick clip there's something a little sad about his face #but also there's relief and gratefulness to her for saying that. they're the absolute sweetest :) :) :) #i could be off base but that really does seem like the vibe of this scene from what we've seen and i am ALL ABOUT IT

[brainworms-all-night-long]

Tails dies during a battle this Tails dies slowly due to radiation poisoning that(both amazing and soul-crushing ideas btw), I present to you; Tails dying in his workshop during a freak accident.

Tails working on something he knows is volatile and dangerous and he is careful, he took every safety precaution he could and yet it still ends up killing him. It explodes and either instantaneously kills him or he ends up trapped beneath the debris of his now destroyed workshop, unable to call for help or free himself.

He is bleeding, he is feeling drowsier and it's getting harder to breathe by the second. His communicator is broken, he can't even move his right hand, he can't call Sonic for help or anyone for that matter (the hedgehog doesn't even know what he was working on today, Tails hadn't told him, he knew Sonic wouldn't allow it. He now wishes he did).

He is far away from any city, which he now sees as a huge oversight on his part, any hospital is out of reach in time. He feared if something went array it might cause harm to others so the best bet was to work away from any dense populous.

Despite the burns on his chest and warm blood pooling beneath him, he starts to feel cold.

He tries to push the wooden beam off him with a shaky hand one last time before his vision goes dark.

He hopes Sonic won't be too mad.

#sonic the hedgehog #Sonic then arrives at the scene #and idk which would hurt more #Tails already cold and unmoving or just barely breathing #dying on the way to a hospital #or already a corpse in Sonic' arms #so many scenarios to think about :) #oh and btw I'm still working on that art thing don't forget #it's just a bit more of an undertaking that I first anticipated #might finish it on the next Wednesday probably #depends on if my motivation will work with me or against me #xoxo #miles tails prower #tails the fox #sonic and tails #unbreakable bond #theyre brothers your honor #brothers constantly dying on each.other your honor #noo I just think it would be so fuck up if sonic found tails dead in a place where he was supoused to be safe #just so so fucked up that he ran by cuz he meant to visit but instead he found the building in dissaray and his brother burried in it #i cant work this into a fic for the life of me cuz it would never see the light of day #but Id enjoy someone turning it into one *wink wink nudge nudge*

[morganmnemonic]

rewatching World Trigger. I forgot how gay it was. Osamu straight up says "hey Yuma. I know that we've only known you for like five days, but I can't help but notice that you aren't doing anything with your life right now. Mind if I borrow it for a bit?"

And then Yuma responds with "while its true that we've only know each other for like five days, your kind yet stubborn nature has compelled me. Sure. Why not? From this moment on my life is yours to do whatever you want with. One condition, though. You have to be my boss" and then throughout the story he occasionally makes these little remarks like "I'd do anything my captain (osamu) asked me to."

Like bro what? I really don't think that Osamu fully realizes the weight of the loyalty he somehow managed to earn from Yuma. I don't think he could realize it. From his perspective he cringefailed his way into b rank while Yuma did all the work. "And now Yuma would kill or die for me" is just not a conclusion that would ever occur to Osamu based on the avaliable evidence.

And like, what's going on here from Yuma's perspective? I get that he was a man on the brink when the story started, pursuing a sincerely suicidal plan, and then said plan failed and he was left with absolutely nothing, but I still feel like there has to be more going on here. He decided that he would follow Osamu through hell and back the very same minute that Osamu asked anything of him at all.

It's like, combat is all Yuma has ever known. He doesn't see any future for himself at all, but he especially can't imagine a peaceful one. But he's not a bad kid. He doesn't go out of his way to hurt people. Osamu has proven to be a pretty decent person, willing to sacrifice himself to save the lives of relative strangers. Maybe, the way Yuma sees it, yeah he's a weapon, but if he follows Osamu at least he'll be a weapon pointed in the right direction. He'll fight because it's all he knows how to do, but osamu would only ever ask him to fight for worthy causes. Y'know?

Anyway. The point is that Yuma accepted helping Osamu as his new purpose in life after knowing him for less than a week, and that's A Lot, no matter how you look at it.

#world trigger #yuma kuga #osamu mikumo #my rambles #so happy for them though #world trigger is weird about kids in a completely different way that anime tends to be #with this show its mostly “why is no one blinking at the idea of sending a 14 year old into an active war zone” #i get the defense missions being entirely safe because of bail out #but for the away missions where are their parents?? who is allowing this? bro you are an actual child #but border. where yuma can hone his skills in combat outside of life and death circumstances #and build a broad suppot network of folks that care for him and enjoy his company #is probably the best place he could have gone to start to heal from being a child soldier

[holybathtub]

Aziraphale “I will bear the loss of the world’s delights to prevent it from being destroyed so that crowley can live freely in it” VERSUS Crowley “I will carve out a place for aziraphale in this universe and defend it with my life so that he will be safe” FIGHT!!!

#they literally just want each other to be safe #that’s it #that’s why they do the things they do #when crowley talks about Us he means If We’re Together I Know You’re Safe #Aziraphale says Us and means There Are No Guarantees So I Will Protect The Place Where My Love Lives and Forsake All My Joy to Preserve His #their definitions of safe are different but their love is not #good omens #good omens 2 #crowley #aziraphale #azicrow

[amazing-captain-castiel]

*RUNS IN* HELLO HELLO HELLO I HAVE SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT TO SHARE -- POPTART AND STICKERS ARRIVED TODAY!!!! The whole package is incredible and I've been looking forward to it all week!! Ell even drew a Leo and added my name on the back 🥺 my insides are in a happy puddle of tears and I keep happily wiggling and flailing. Thank you so much to the incredible @intotheelliwoods!! Now it's picture time!!

#I LOVE IT SO MUCH ELL #I DASHED OUT TO THE MAILBOX AS SOON AS I GOT THE NOTIF IT ARRIVED AND IMMEDIATELY OPENED IT #AAAAAAAA IM SO HAPPY AND DON'T HAVE ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS MY JOY AND GRATITUDE #TYSM ELL I LOVE YOU MWAH/P #2al merch #2 arms left #hamato leonardo #leonardo #big leo #sprout #poptart #little leo #medium leo #big leo 2.0 #little leo 2.0 #lil leo #OH MAN WHERE AM I GONNA PLACE MY STICKERS THIS IS A BIG DECISION #i shall upload photos of the stickers when i know where they're going! #poptart is safely hanging out above my bed until my ita bag comes in #if he goes with my carabiner for my keys the other keychains will beat him up because they're so big. i won't allow it

[helsensm]

it's the following day, but I still want to finish the last few requests, so let's just call it a "lazy hangover sketches" okay aaffHhj

@junkanimate bro, sorry if you wanted the mk1 Liu Kang, I just love how cute and cool mk11 Liu looks in his stupid little leather vest 🥰

#don't you love it when you put The Thing in a Special Place for safekeeping #and when the time comes you have no idea where it is #I spent like 10 minutes looking for my apple pencil everywhere #apparently drunk me from yesterday decided that it will be safe in my jewelry pot #(yeah it's a flowerpot but that's not relevant) #((why am i yapping in my tags exactly?..)) #aaanyway #drunk sketches #my art #liu kang #mortal kombat #mortal kombat 11 #mk11 #helsensm art

[white-fledermaus4]

Du warst alles was ich hatte.

Du warst meine Welt.

Du warst meine Therapie.

Du warst mein Ort der Ruhe.

Du warst mein abenteuer.

Du warst mein sportpartner.

Du warst meine Verpflichtung.

Du warst mein Zuhörer.

Du warst mein Spiegel meiner Seele.

Du warst immer ehrlich

Du warst treu

Du warst direkt und klar

Du warst immer da

Du warst meine beste Freundin.

Du warst mein seelenpferd.

Du warst meine Herausforderung.

Du warst mein Physiotherapeut.

Du warst mein fitnessstudio.

Du warst mein rettungsboot in stürmischer See.

Du warst meine Zuflucht.

Du warst die die mich zum lachen bringt.

Du warst die die mich zur Ruhe bringt.

Du warst die die mich ermahnt hat wenn es nötig war.

Du warst die die einfach IMMER da war.

Du warst die die zugehört hat.

Du warst mein Leben.

Du warst alles was ich hatte.

Du warst so so so so so viel mehr als nur ein Pferd.

Kitana - seit du gingst, ist nichts mehr wie es mal war.

Und ich komm nicht klar, verdammt!

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#verzweifelt #where is my safe place #angst #take care of me #herzschmerz #need a caregiver #einsam #gedankenkotze #ich kann nicht mehr #pferdemädchen #pferde #rip #i need a new horse #in heaven #i need u #struggle #frisian #soulhorse #dressurpferd #dressage

[shaxxophone]

Hey, just a heads up that will be important to know if you frequent your local library (in the USA)!!!

If you hear about your local library hosting a book reading for ‘brave books’ or ‘kirk cameron’ on august 5th— know that there’s a 98% chance it is not a library sponsored event.

Basically, kirk cameron is one of those ‘i need to win the war on woke!’ people who writes children’s books for just that purpose. He, in an effort to spread information about his books in the past, tried to hold book talks in which he broke library policies in order to do so (boy didn’t even try to reserve a meeting room)

….and he is now declaring his ability to successfully reserve meeting rooms and follow policies as ‘winning over the libraries that had denied him’ 🙄

Now on august 5th, he’s calling on people all across the country to reserve rooms in libraries to have these book talks about these books.

He’s saying it’s just to share the books but basically given his history of comments its clearly him wanting to cause tension between the public, and public libraries. Like a whole ‘i dare you to turn us down, and i dare citizens to get mad at us’ type of thing.

Public libraries are supposed to be 100% neutral. Just as we cannot and should not ban books, we cannot and should not ban anyone from our meeting rooms. The breakdown of neutrality will always lead to a bad path.

These events are not library sponsored however, we have not coordinated them, no effort on the library’s end has been put into them, and we are not advertising them.

A detail the people who reserved the room at my library are conveniently leaving out, despite being told they need to…

And now a counter protest is being planned for my library.

So please, if you hear or see anything about this happening at your local library, and you hear people getting upset about it, try to provide further context to them.

Often times, your local library IS a safe space. Librarians tend to be some super forward thinking folks, and many many library workers are upset about this, but we need to remain neutral to avoid legal issues.

The guy organizing this is just an asshole who knows that and is trying to make you think otherwise.

Here’s an article for more info if anyone wants it:

#library #libraries #kirk cameron #brave books #book bans #book banning #banned books #public libraries #please please please spread the word!!!!! #local libraries ARE a safe place #and this guy is ALREADY damaging that image in my local community #and chances are— even if you don’t know it yet— it’s happening somewhere in yours too #there’s a map on his website of where all these book talks will be happeninh that day if you are unsure

[cross-my-heartt]

I am so sorry for prattling on about this but I'm a million miles down the Crosshair rabbit hole and I WANT TO HUG THIS MAN SO BADLY.

I'm supposed to make this post about all the reasons Crosshair had for wanting to stay with the Empire in season one right? And I wanted to make it solely based on the information he has (from his limited pov) without involving morality or the role his personal biases play in his decision.

I decided to leave all that for another post. Look at just what he has to work with from a factual standpoint for now.

But then I was going through Aftermath and it's so interesting to hear what Crosshair has to say about the Republic and the Empire. I mean sure, he has his chip then but some of the things he says don't sound like chip talk and are all stuff he echoes when he's free of it.

And oh my god, the level of cynicism of this man. I am going to make a full post about it but there's just something heartbreaking when you think about how distrustful and paranoid and just pessimistic he is.

The reason the batch desert is because they believe the Empire is worse than the Republic. If Crosshair doesn't because he's naive that means he believes that's false, that the Empire is just as good as, if not better, than the Republic.

Except that Crosshair is the opposite of naive. He's not naive he's cynical because to him, the Republic was just as bad as the Empire.

To Crosshair the world is a sh*tty and merciless place. The Republic couldn't be trusted, the Empire can't be trusted, leaving either is a death sentence (and is he really wrong? just how many times do the batch have a close brush with death after they desert and survive for the sole reason that Crosshair is on the other side?), the rest of the galaxy is dangerous and the only way to survive is selling your skills for the basic right to live.

You're on your own (nobody wants to help you right? the regs rarely did. the Kaminoans saw you as an experiment. the Republic sent you on suicide missions) and the only thing you have is the handful of people you love and the usefulness you have to offer to those who hold power over you.

This is the nature Tech spoke about - that unyielding cynicism, that perpetual harsh distrust that paints the word in such a brutal light.

And all of this makes the rage he feels at the end of the Outpost so much more impactful. Because Crosshair played the game. He felt like he saw through every slimy institution that ever threatened to wipe him and his family out, he did what was necessary, he calculated the risks, he took all the facts into account and still, still, the universe crouched down, looked him dead in the eye and spat in his face.

And I honestly don't know how you even begin to recover from a blow like that.

#tbb #tbb crosshair #the bad batch #I will make a more coherent version of this #with all the quotes and stuff #if he ever gets to Pabu he'll probably short circuit #a safe place? where they're accepted and welcome? where failure doesn't mean something unbearably awful? how in the maker- #my meta

[covenofthearticulate]

Got a very special Vampire Wall Update for y'all!! I'm so excited to have @killer-laurent's brilliant art, based on my fic Out, Damned Spot

My heart is so full of love for all my fandom friends that made this happen— my fellow Louis stan @wicked-felina, who commissioned Laurent, and my love @monstersinthecosmos who gifted me this super shiny metal print that literally pops off the wall.

I feel so honored to have 3 different fan arts from 3 incredible artists on my wall, but this one especially makes me happy dance every time I look at it because I've never had anything made based on my writing so it just feels like such an act of love from all of my favorite people.

ahjsdgbksdahcf okay that's enough sap for now but anyway happy new year and thank you so so so so much to Kacy for this glorious addition to my Vampire Wall :)

#it's literally shinier than my fucking glass-paned portraits LOL do you have any idea how hard it was to get these pics #the gold is just so so gorgeous in person and ties in so well with the gold iwtv movie art #actually back to being a sap for one more minute: i was just thinking about how around this time last year #was when i first moved into this place #and before unpacking any of my boxes the first thing i did was hung up my art #and during a meeting with our bipoc affinity space (which is just a chill space at work) one of the ice breaker questions was like #what makes you feel safe? #and i lowkey teared up because i was like. curating my environment is what makes me safe like no matter where i am in the world #if i can look up and be reminded of the things that i love i don't feel so overwhelmed #having a wall with my favorite things gifted from my favorite people is so so so special i cannot overstate that enough #anyway i'm out here crying in the club thank you and goodnight #fan art #killer-laurent #fave #absolute fave

[piningprecussionist]

Oh! Fucking. Duh. Obvious Roxie post I can make today: here's an emote I made for the sp:te server! (With variants of different degrees of completion...)

I was gonna go back and shade the comic colors Roxie but. Just ended up going w the colors picked off the screenshot. This screenshot, specifically!

#mind the quality i ripped it from Somewhere but i dont remember where #i still havent gone and continued my Unhinged Screenshot Taking yet. but oh buddy when I do.... #spto #sp comic #spvtw #fanart #art #roxie richter #emotes #discord emotes #blue sparks one there was just testing where i wanted to put some before i decided Overkill was The Way #like w the other ones. please do reblog this if you decide to use them in a server somewhere! i would like to know if they end up other + #+places #ooc #spto fanart #scott pilgrim fanart #spvtw fanart #spto roxie #scott pilgrim roxie #spvtw roxie #roxanne richter #roxy richter #actually. best day for it really. if anyone has any roxie screenshots or panels they want emotes from I'd generally consider them to begin + #+with but For Sure today. (generally if anyone wants a given shot/panel as an emote im happy to at least Try. i just need specifics) #(so far kim ones are my only Successful emote attempts Without panel/shot basis. i do need to try a ramona that was requested again...) #uhhh just to be safe i guess #potential eyestrain #i did try a version w the sparks more like they are in the show but it Didn't Look Good #feel free to try your own hand at it if you want #this post is scheduled btw :3c im still trying to work on another roxie piece... panel redraw....

[bylertruther]

ngl. it was kinda crazy for el to say "i want today to be about me and you" as if will wasn't right there with them and supposed to spend the day with them, too. as if he's not mike's friend, too. as if she doesn't know that he's important to them both. as if she doesn't know that they're both excited to see him. as if he's just straight up fucking invisible or less than a stranger even, just totally erased from their memory it seems like.

how crushing it must be for will to see her do all of that—everything he's been denied, that he's allowed only in the dreams he can't ever talk about—in his clothes.

how fucking devastating it must be for will to watch mike tell her he loves her later, the thing he apparently couldn't say, all because he told him to; because he had to open his mouth and give her the only thing—the one fucking thing—he had left that was still his own.

wild.

#byler #bold as fuck is all i'm saying like 🫣🫣🫣 will baby on GOD i will get u outta there #and place u gently into a story where u are safe and loved and seen and respected and appreciated by all those u hold dear #literally not her fault i kno ok i KNOW but it's just. lmaoooooooo like. jesus fuck. #oh will......... my sweet little werther's original.... #mine