#where shes way too interesting lol

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my favorite parts of phase 2 (and indeed one of the few moments I resonated with IDW Prowl) was when the neutrals were coming back to Cybertron and Prowl said that he refused to let Autobots be pushed aside and overruled after they were the ones who fought for freedom for 4 million years (the exact wording escapes me atm).

And I mean, that resentment still holds true even once the colonists come on bc like. As much as it's true that Cybertron's culture is fucked up, and as funny as it can be to paint Cybertronians as a bunch of weirdos who consider trying to kill someone as a common greeting not important enough to hold a grudge over.... The colonists POV kind of pissed me off a lot of times, as did the narrative tone/implications that Cybertronians are forever warlike and doomed to die by their own hands bc it just strikes me as an extremely judgemental and unsympathetic way to deal with a huge group of people with massive war PTSD and political/social tensions that were rampant even before the war?

Like, imagine living in a society rife with bigotry and discrimination where you get locked into certain occupations and social strata based on how you were born. The political tension is so bad there's a string of assassinations of politicians and leaders. The whole planet erupts into an outright war that leads (even unintentionally) to famine and chemical/biological warfare that destroys your planet. Both sides of the war are so entrenched in their pre-war sides and resentment for each other that this war lasts 4 million years and you don't even have a home planet any more. Then your home planet gets restored and a bunch of sheltered fucks come home and go "ewww why are you so violent?? You're a bunch of freaks just go live in the wilderness so that our home can belong to The Pure People Who Weren't Stupid And Evil Enough To Be Trapped In War" and then a bunch of colonists from places that know nothing about your history go "lol you people are so weird?? 🤣🤣 I don't get why y'all are fighting can't you just like, stop??? Oh okay you people are just fucked up and evil and stupid then" ((their planets are based on colonialism where their Primes wiped out the native populations btw whereas the Autobots and OP in particular fought to save organics. But that never gets brought up as a point in their favor)) as if the damage of a lifetime of war and a society that was broken even before the war can just magically go away now that the war is over.

Prowl fucking sucks but he was basically the only person that pointed out the injustice of that.

And then from then on out most of the characters from other colonies like Caminus and wherever else are going "i fucking hate you and your conflicts" w/ people like literal-nobody Slide and various Camiens getting to just sit there lecturing Optimus about how Cybertronians are too violent for their own good and how their conflicts are stupid, with only brief sympathetic moments where the Cybertronians get to be recognized as their own ppl who deserve sympathy before going right back to being lambasted.

Like I literally struggled to enjoy the story at multiple points because there was only so much I could take of the characters I knew and loved being raked over coals constantly while barely getting to defend themselves or be defended by the narrative so like. It was just fucking depressing and a little infuriating to read exRID/OP

#squiggposting #and like dont get me wrong barber wasnt trying to make cybertronians the bad guys or whatever #it's just a problem with his writing where like. he has A Message he wants to send #and so he uses the entire story literally just for The Message even if it involves bullshit plotlines #or familiar characters ppl were reading about for the past decade being shit on by OCs made up to fill a new roster #like barber's writing tends to lean way too much on a sort of lecturing tone #without giving proper care towards including moments where characters get to like. fucking express themselves and share their side #sort of like how barber couldnt be bothered to write pyra magna and optimus actually talking to each other during exrid #and instead during OP ongoing pyra is suddenly screaming about how OP is unteachable #even tho she never even tried to teach him bc she and OP never interacted bc i guess barber couldnt be bothered #he just needed someone to lecture OP so fuck making the story make sense or like letting OP get to say anything in defense #this is the infuriating part of barber's writing bc i think he has incredible IDEAS and was in charge of the lore i was most interested in #but most of the time his execution sucks and he's basically just mid with a few brilliant moments occasionally #or like he has a message about the cycle of violence he wants to convey #but his narrative choices trying to convey that theme made his story come off as super unsympathetic to the ppl who suffered #to the point where barber actively kneecapped some scenes that couldve been super fucking intense and emotional #in favor of the characters lecturing each other or some stupid plot to criticize OP #that time in unicron where windblade screamed about how this is their fault and then arcee replied that her planet is build on coloniation #shouldve happened more often than literally the last series of the ocntinuity. like goddamn stfu about your moral superiority #when your own sins are right fhere lol

[communistkenobi]

genuine q, may I ask what your concerns with contrapoints are? I feel like she has changed a lot of her views after criticism and unfortunately gets a lot of bad faith critiques that make it hard to see the good faith ones. I'm open to the good faith critiques though. thanks for your time!

She is not a radical person and her continual alignment with transmedicalism (even if it’s sometimes wishy washy or whatever) is particularly off-putting. This is not a mere difference of opinion but a fundamental disagreement about how we conceptualise trans people, what our political and social goals are, and who we align ourselves with. I don’t have much respect or time for people who frame our existence as a medical oddity and beg for ontological legitimacy from the medical establishment. Trans people are not science experiments who exist only by the grace of cis scientists claiming we can be empirically proven in a lab somewhere. Transmeds are not our allies!

I don’t keep up with all of her particular opinions because I don’t follow her closely any longer, but I find the company she keeps and the way she talks about trans people as a group unhelpful at the best of times

#asks #not super interested in debating this. if you disagree with me then whatever but like #she flirts with transmed shit way too much basically #I don’t remember her entire list of crimes I’m sure there’s more to complain about etc #also remembering that cringe video where she talks about how trans women being angry in public is like. bad for optics #respectability politics suck ass and it sucks ass more and more as trans genocide becomes official policy #also she has not changed her views in response to crit lol. have you seen her cancelled video #anyway this is very baity. not gonna bring her up again

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Month 10, day 30

I think I'm satisfied with this cloak :3

#the great artscapade of 2023 #art #my art #Forspoken #Forspoken fan art #Forspoken fan cloak #lol I missed a spot on the undercloak lining thingy oops #oh well #I should actually plan when/where/how my SI gets her cloaks #that way I can design them more coherently #like the Knell and Sus cloaks are great because I have a general idea of when/where/how she gets them #I def need to make Flick and Keen cloaks #but she needs cloaks between the birb people cloaks #those are end-game cloaks #max affinity cloaks in gameplay terms #Keen is gonna be interesting to design bc his jewelry form is basically a bead/chain cloak anyway lol #ooooooooh I should design their jewelry forms too! #I know what KIND of jewelry they are but the designs need to get ironed out #Knell is a hand chain/bracelet #Flick is an ear cuff (and is secretly jealous that Sus gets the nickname Cuff; they try so hard to trade but Frey won't let 'em XD) #and Keen is a cape necklace/collar #maybe I'll do that when I get sick of designing cloaks :P

[kaythefloppa]

It’s that time of year to ruin y’all’s childhoods [jk] by presenting my LK/LG Pride Headcanons!

#The lion guard #the lion king #Pride month #pride 2023 #pride headcanons #2023 #lgbtqia + #I cheated with Bunga and Anga since Bunga’s VA is bi and Anga’s is lesbian #But idgaf #Vitani’s a lesbian but I don’t see her getting a relationship or having kids for a while #Rafiki being genderfluid was based off of the Broadway musical where he was a girl. #Do I even need to say anything with Timon & Pumbaa? Lol #Baliyo x Beshte are bi4bi - I can and will elaborate why I’ll die on that hill #He and Askari are also trans idgaf #I know that the show implies that Fuli and Azaad get together but that motherfucker looks way too old for her and they leave it open-ended #So I have him as aroace and her as bi #Jasiri is also aromantic and doesn’t get with Janja [partly for that and bc she tried to fucking incinerate her and her children] #As for Janja he gets with Makucha - Spotted bfs for the win [that’s an edit btw so if you steal it then you fucking suck #Tiifu and Zuri are both lesbians who take 0 interest in Kion or Baliyo #Kion and Rani are of the same PRIDE [get it?] #Mohatu is ace and had Ahadi via surrogacy #Kovu is demiromantic and Kiara is an bi-ace queen #And the OG King and Queen are bi-cons #happy pride month #homophobes dni #transphobes dni #basically if you have an issue with the idea of TLK characters being anything but allocishet then scroll off #Also please no “But they’re different species” comments - Simba was raised by a warthog and a meerkat and these animals have human emotions #And they may not be able to have kids but they can adopt [or just choose not to have kids] #So fuck off with that “the can’t be shipped bc they’re diff species and can’t have kids” hogwash

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[echojedis]

One day I’m going to write out my entire essay of tech/phee thoughts but I don’t want anything I say to be misunderstood 

#i answered an ask a while ago where i talked about how having the sunset moment on pabu come after she pushed his boundaries too far #might have made that scene feel less uncomfortable. showing her messing up but learning from it and making an effort to understand him #i have similar thoughts on them as i do on tech coming back tbh #i want and like it and i can see how the writers can make it work in a way that makes the season 2 finale feel worth it #but i can also see all the many ways they can mess it up #i don’t really see any way the writers could justify having phee so clearly push him too far if it isn’t to set up her learning #to understand him? why have him struggle to speak and make eye contact after they seemed to get along so well #why make those purposeful decisions for no reason? maybe i have too much faith in the writers lol they did completely drop #crosshair’s chip #it all depends what happens in season 3 and/or if there’s going to be a continuation or spinoff #but on the other hand phee is too good of a character to just be a love interest and it wouldn’t be great to see her whole arc being #about understanding a love interest. where is our phee spin off about her fun solo adventures! she’s space indiana jones #ugh idk if any of this is coming off like i want it to it’s late

[duvewing]

little pet peeve of mine is when a person’s only idea to make kyrie a ‘stronger character’ is to just give her a sword

#saint.txt #and before anyone misinterprets this i think that kyrie being given more agency by at least knowing how to physically defend herself #and her loved ones is good. there is no reason why she cannot be able to defend herself in some way #there is nothing wrong with making kyrie a fighter too #but also i am a bit ? when people seem to think that giving her a sword and making her be good at wielding said sword #is an inherent improvement over her current character #like yea it could at least give her more potential for agency but i just don’t think kyrie being a badass on the same level as the others #is my cup of tea. and i mean ‘badass’ in like the physical combat oriented way #bc i think part of the appeal of kyrie for me is the fact that she is ultimately the most ‘normal’ of the cast #i like her from a more grounded human perspective and how that interacts with the world and other characters around her #i am generally more interested in seeing kyrie’s pov abt this world and the everyday things she does to deal with it #and help others deal with it and playing her own role outside of the battlefield #and fighting only when necessary to defend herself #than i am in kyrie being made out to be the same combat focused badass that all the others are #like again before i get misinterpreted i think that ideas where kyrie is indeed a good fighter are nice #there is nothing wrong with them and i indulge in them from time to time too #it’s just this particular attitude about ‘kyrie must be a fighter to be a better character’ #that i take issue with #and also i’m just generally not a fan of ‘generic girlboss kyrie’ when it’s taken seriously lol #that being said i think giving kyrie a sword would be funny #once again i just think there’s other approaches to take when it comes to building on kyrie’s character #but of course i’d much rather have that than the people who think kyrie is completely useless and boring #and therefore she should get killed off. instead of like idk. actually wanting the series to develop her character more #or the people who claim she has no personality and try to twist the canon #to make that personality ‘abusive to nero’

[lunar-years]

keeley x rebecca thoughts… do you see the vision? and there’s so much potential for a better keeley storyline in season 3, one where she isn’t isolated from the rest of the main cast

the main reason I can't get fully behind Keeley/Rebecca is that Rebecca is SO straight to me. like if KEELEY - gorgeous smart talented charismatic electric KEELEY JONES - can basically beg to kiss you, compliment your tits and action figurery arms, never miss an opportunity to tell you how great you are AND suggest you invade France together while staring at you in loving awe and you don't fold AT ALL??? You don't even BEND?! I'm simply forced to remember straight people exist ig because WHOMST amongst us has that kind of resolve 😞

that said I think they'd be incredibly gorgeous and sexy together. They also have one of my very favorite relationships on the show (i just personally see it as a very devoted platonic one). The writers knew keeley/rebecca as a couple would be far too powerful ig idk

(i actually feel largely the same about Ted/Trent [well, minus the part about them being sexy together i refuse to examine ted in a sexual manner im sorry 🙅‍♀️]. I just think Ted is SO straight. That's a straight man to me. I'm sorry Trent :( )

as for Keeley's s3 storyline separating her from basically every other main cast member and character relationship we care about .............yikes!

#i'm also in far too deep on the ot3 to ship keeley with anyone else unfortunately. #but mostly i really do read Rebecca as straight lol #keeley definitely tells Jamie and Roy that she’d leave them both in an instant if Rebecca was at all interested. and she's only half joking #that said the fandoms for those ships are lovely and they create some of the most gorgeous beautiful fan art i've ever seen :) #so I'm into it in a very limited way where i enjoy seeing the content if it shows up on my dash i'm just not seeking it out #Keeley Jones #Ted Lasso #asks #ship post

[louismygf]

just recently watched this is us with my college friends

#tbqh i found it kinda boring 😭 #the louis clips were so not enough #ive watched some clips online prior to actually watching it (for the first time might i add) #one of my friends had a cousin who was crazyyy ab 1d so she dragged her out to the cinema to go watch it when it came out and in 3d lol 😭 #the 3d schtick is so funny 2 me lmao 😭 #my friend recalls freaking out in the movie theater bc she was a major niall fan at the time. she said 3d niall was so close 2 her face lol #anyway. ab how i watched some clips online prior #i was actually waiting for the louis n his sisters part or the one where he visits his school or smth #my friends.... they literally don't know a thing ab louis personality-wise so they didn't really get much from it #UGH i should download aotv and make them watch it that was way more interesting (but idk? smth about it feels like it's made for fans only? #but... i'll suggest it the next time we get together 🙏🏼 #anyw back to my review. #simon cowell's face was a jumpscare what can i say. it was so evil how nicole scherzinger was just. completely written off #im from the future i Know things #<- and like. about this. i felt kinda bad being cynical about the movie when i know my friend is Still an ot5 at heart #i think i broke her 13-year old heart a little 😭 #it's so weird how the movie keeps singling out zayn about him getting kicked out or him talking solo music etc kskdj. feels v pointed Lol #they really just documented the 1d-mania & madness they ensued huh.... i think 2 of my friends (bts fans) weren't as impressed LOL 😭 #they kinda flamed their performances and stage outfits which is. yeah i agree. kpop idols do WAY more than just.... that (1d) kskskd #i guess i'll make them watch the extra clips next time (o haven't seen all the clips yet i think) #OH and 😭 why was martin scorsese in the film that was hilarious #didn't have a lot of realness to it. is what i thought of the film. yeah. this is(N'T) us ✊🏽😔 #maybe... i am too much of a hater #i liked... the... um. it's hard to highlight things i liked ab the film when im Not a 1d fan 😭 like im a louie ONLY idgaf ab 1d 😔 #the part ab louis audition.... im sorry babie the editors did u dirty but it was so funny........😭 #<- though i imagine it solidified people's (wrong) opinions about him :/

[earl-grey-crow]

so. coyle.

#that's the best I can do right now I can't think of anything clever #I'm just sorta. WHAT is going on. what is kat not telling alice. what did jacob do. what is anything. #and kat being so close to seeing jacob?? only for the british to take him away?? #I think that's why I'm just staring dumbly at my screen right now I can't believe it she was so close #chyler leigh you are amazing at communicating kat's emotions in the most devastating way #that last expression it looked like kat felt she could tear the british to pieces for taking her brother away #anyway. in other news #the way home hallmark #wouldn't be a hallmark series without a founder's day celebration #I'm a little wary of where they're taking del and what's his name? sam? if they're taking them anywhere #I hope they don't end up together partly because I don't like the idea of anyone replacing colton #partly because I don't really like him and partly because I don't think we need it #also have I missed something?? or have they not said that guy's name?? the one always at the coffee shop talking to alice #I still don't know if I like him or not he reminds me too much of brady (except for the fact he most definitely doesn't #have a five year plan) which is weird but he seems mildly interesting? #hmm parallels between the augustines and the town and the augustines and the time travelers? like always observing always something I don't #know I don't have coherent thoughts #elliot's father is. intense. to say the least. I have concerns #also not rita always trying to rip off tourists lol #and best for last: I like coyle tbh I'm so excited for the next episode because it looks like he'll be in a lot of it #I just really really hope they maintain his weird complexity and not be like oh you thought he was pond scum but he's not really it was jus #bad first impressions or whatever #I really hope they let him keep his paradox of sorta bad sorta good it's part of his charm #I was dying over that scene between him and kat like wow go off then #okay I think I've exhausted the tags enough #earl crow ramblings

[flanneryculp]

one thing thats interesting to me abt natasha's character is that as confident as she is, the one thing that leaves her apologetic or even shy is when flan compares herself negatively to her (esp about her body). i'm sure we all remember how natasha reacts when flan calls herself ugly but when natasha accidentally makes her feel bad she straight up does not know what to do

#okay spoilers in tags (hello mutuals who are currently reading it for the first time 👋) #// #i've always thought the way natasha and flan see each other was so interesting #flan idolizing natasha and natasha loves flan just as much but in a slightly different way #there's a lot of friendship (and attraction lol) on both sides but they both see natasha as the best version of themselves #(i.e. when she says ''we're better than them...at least i am'') #but on the other hand natasha is constantly focused on flan's life; what she wants; how to make things better for her; protecting her #shes fully devoted to her with the hopes of flan eventually getting to a point where shes so confident she won't need her anymore #essentially *becoming* natasha #but natasha has always been an impossible standard. both too flawless and too flawed to ever reach #and every time flan gets close to that point she ends up in a situation where she feels even worse; setting herself back #and *that* is the one thing natasha is afraid of #(also writing this out i don't necessarily believe all this ^^ i have like 80 different interpretations of them lol) #tb8 spoilers

[hirokiyuu]

olivace's mom is interesting bc he doesn't really talk abt her but also like. man. being left as a child fucks you up. being left by a parent who's supposed to care for you and help you Fucks You Up. esp if that parent has just left you with your abuser like......... man

#ive got a thought or two abt her but nothing too specific #'flexibility' or lex/lexi for short....... #au jam'd some stuff abt a helio/stratos swap out and in that we put her in command but im not sure where she'd go in canon #besides Away From Vace's Dad #i feel like she probably dies during the crash but i have to say #it would be interesting if she didnt lol #tho i dont think they ever reconcile regardless u kno #i dont think theres anything there to save. i dont think either of them would want to #i dont really even think there's any way for either of htem to necessarily get closure abt the other #IDK ITS INTERESTING it might be interesting to explore in the wake of post therapy vace #i think in some way his dads physical abuse is more 'acceptable' than his moms abandonment to him u kno #he doesnt really talk abt the second the same way he talks abt the first u kno #bc his dad is a physical pain and his mom would be emotional #idk im curious. it never comes up in his endcards but im curious if anything would ever come of it #guy who is thinking abt this bc shes reading dont fear the reaper rn LOL #teenexo shit #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #abuse talk #teenexo stuff

[gothamcityneedsme]

also. The start of the game forcing u into the genesis comic feels. Very silly. its a tonal jump from the death to like have sudden narration. It shouldve been framed differently idk. Or just. Not inserted into the story. Anyways.

Love the beginning of this game. Setup is so good. I love Jacob and Mirandas intros. Jacob as the one who tells you the truth, who has a moral compass vs Mirandas sole purpose and drive for two years being to bring you back to life regardless of her impression or opinion of you personally.

#Shitpost #love how miranda responds once you have results too #i love how cold and calculating she is #and like she wouldnt work as well if she wasnt the lead on the project. Her leading it and basically being a huge part of why youre alive #just like. Immediately places her in a fascinating space #also shes basically your XO but also shes reporting back to TIM about you #side note but tbh still mad at how they handled TIM in 3. he just became a villain where hes WAY more interesting here #hes so middle ground nuanced and that sort of dies. A shame tbh #theres a lot i dislike about me3 lol. Not entirely but still #TIM and the ending. And the mechanics with the separate app #is that still up? I hope so. Im playing og mass effect lol #anyways also. Jacob is so interesting too #Hate that he got memed on and ignored by most of the fandom #tbh his loyalty quest is kinda iffy too iirc but his base here is so good #and his comments throughout the game too #Also. I think me could have been fixed if we learned who built the reapers and got into the shit #The theme of organic vs synthetic life couldve been expanded upon #ESPECIALLY since synthetic life literally cant exist without an organic creator #the cycle couldve been MORE is all im saying #the creators couldve built the reapers with that pov. Like a terrible cleansing pov #Organics so convinced organic life is corrupt that they wished to destroy it #and the reapers if shown that truth would realize the hypocrasy. The lie they were built on #Or something #mass effect is so good but the endings are all bad #Thematically they are a little interesting. Esp the ending where you leave it to the next cycle #BUT. like i hate synthesis and control. Those are hard to reconcile with the Themes imo #destroy works but tbh to me. Destroy shouldve ended with a scene of some scientist who believes life is corrupt. Building another AI #an AI to destroy life. #thats all. #Ok ill shut up now

[indexcard]

i so often think about people i used to know but it always comes with this weird sense that they don't think about me at all

#i've been thinking a lot about self image lately #because i'm dealing with a couple minor awkwardnesses #involving people really visibly trying to befriend me #in a way that reminds me of the high school experience and feels incongruous to adulthood #but man what do i know #anyway facing this because i always feel so pathetic and desperate whenever i want to get closer to someone #it's hard for me to imagine anyone liking me that much. actually wanting to be around me #and i know that one sided friendship interest is real because it's happening to me from the other end lol #i don't... know what to do with either of these feelings #the awkward politeness to people trying really hard #vs my own deep fear of trying hard because i think everyone i like feels that same awkward politeness towards me #there's got to be some kind of dialectic that can solve this #but it feels intractable from where i am right now #it feels like *wanting* is the death knell #that as soon as i want something it becomes too visible. too embarrassing #and that guarantees disappointment #oh well what i meant to say #is that i was thinking about an old friend the other day and today she messaged me #so it's not impossible that these threads are pulled from both ends #blah blah blah

[akari-hope]

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#i've decided that the new f*nal f*ntasy is a fine game. but it still doesn't quite feel like ff to me? #this is the first time i've felt this way about the series tbh so i'm not quite sure why i feel this way #it's not the gameplay and it's not the aesthetics and it's not anything else i can concretely pinpoint #but it doesn't have...idk. the heart? the soul? whatever that might be. #the human element ig? #my mind might be changed before the end but #idk i only really care about maybe 2 characters rn #j*ll is...a disappointment so far lol #she's boring...i'm so sorry women #every other woman is more interesting than her so far though like. where's your fatal flaw girl. #where's your...anything #cl*ve is also just kinda there imo but he's had some good scenes. hoping she gets at least one or two of those too.

[wiedzmacienia]

Would you rather give up your magic to live a normal life, or keep your magic and never hold any genuine human connections? (There's no anon option, so I guess I have to be called out lol.)

eyes narrow in the light of the campfire, wood crackling and heat meeting her skin that's made it crawl for centuries yet she can not move with the young boy who's head lays on her lap having fallen asleep (she imagined she'd have to carry him back to his tent at some point). maybe she shouldn't have come here, even if the knightley boys had asked her to when she'd been to see beth. they'd found a few soldiers they'd felt able to confide in about themselves, soldiers who seemed to accept them once one of them had used his powers to save the other, and it's from this that such a question has been brought forth. she knows it is not out of malice and yet, it still awakens something deep within her. a memory she's locked away for ages in the depths of her soul. maybe they think her standoffish because she is so much less open than the boys. but she can not afford to be like them when she must direct her forces by the day. these boys were young. too young and had yet to truly understand the world even if they were serving in an army now let alone understand magic or it's role in the world.

there was one day, no, a mere few hours within her life that katarzyna had wished she could have shed her magic from her body and lived a so called normal life. that she could have been as human as the rest of her village. the moment men who had been smiling at the children just the day before entered their home with violence and tore her and her brother from their beds, binding them and dragging them outside. when she had screamed for her brother as wooden posts had been erected. there had been no trial or recourse. no amount of pleading for their lives had halted them from being beaten for speaking the foul words of creatures they'd said. it had been them who had brought the plague upon them they believed. yet was it not the twins whom only sought to save an elderly woman from the pain of such plague? fires had been lit and pain seared their bodies and in those moments she wished they could have been anything but what they were. for to have been born as such had been their death sentence.

but then they had been reborn from the ashes and her whole world view had been shaken. her parents had given of themselves to bring them back and she no longer saw her power as something to shy away from. her parents had believed in magic. had believed in the worth of her and her brother and what they could bring to the world. and she vowed to never seek to be anything but what she was again.

to never be weak and powerless again.

greenish-blue hues move over the fire and meet the human speaking to her. was she not making a human connection now? perhaps once she believed being what she was separated her from the human world. perhaps in the respect that she lived longer than humans it did. but this war and the people she had begun to meet made her begin to question such. maybe making connections with humans wasn't about how long you knew them or preventing one's self from becoming close because of the eventual loss but the value of the time spent with them. no, she did not think having magic equated to a lack of forming human connections, genuine ones. not if she didn't allow it to.

after all, while it had never been the intention, she cared for-- no, she could acknowledge it was more than that now as she ran her hand through the young boy's curls, she held a motherly love for auggie in a way she had never believed she could possess before-- and tended to the human child more often than not these days. sometimes the intensity of which she believed she would protect the boy scared even her for if there was a choice between him and someone else, she held no doubt of what she would choose even if it could mean burning the world in the process. but did her love toward the boy not equate to a genuine connection? and was her magic not the very thing which could allow her to protect him? was such love not a normal part of life?

"why can i not have both?" she questions, gaze drifting over the man's shoulder to see the major approaching. ah, perhaps she would not have to carry auggie back to his tent herself after all. still, she continues, looking back at the questioning soldier without care for the major hearing her words, for they were truth and she would not deny her connection to the boy at this point even if she has no idea what it would look like once this war was done.

"is there some book of rules which state i can not have magic and hold connections with humans who i love? that i can not still have something of a normal life with them?" and with that she looks down upon auggie and begins to shift him gently without waking him, picking him up so that his head falls to her shoulder. strangely, the heat of the campfire seems to affect her less, a different kind of warmth washing over her as she raises from their perch on the log and moves to meet tallmadge. "come to collect the little terror? i think him, cora, and furgus just about defeated half the soldiers in camp charging them while wearing your helmet today."

@honorhearted

#i'll answer it as an anon since you were gonna send it as an anon #BUT BEN IS STILL GETTING CALLED OUT AS ENDING UP THERE BECAUSE YOU SENT IT HAHA #and i guess it sorta turned into a drabble #it can remain a drabble or actually turn into a thread if you want either way is cool #apparently i can't just answer a meme without it turning into something long #but this seemed to just really flow well together with auggie being there and coloring her views on things #but it's also so interesting because this is how she views things at that time but in the future she will live up a part of her magic #to have a normal life with ben and their children but she doesn't give up all of her magic just what makes her immortal #her magic is so intrinsically a part of who she is that like she couldn't exist without it #idk that she could literally live without it because it's fundamentally a part of her soul and being and cells #but the question was about magic and not immortality so it's two different things #i think her view on immortality itself as a separate thing would be different or could be #but magic itself is not the same thing #though if you did want to turn this into a thread we could always let it lead into a deeper talk where she does tell him how old she is #but again it could just remain a little drabble too lol #i have way too many emotions about this thank you for coming to my te.d talk #meme answers; #answered asks; #honorhearted