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justmeinadaze · 1 year

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Good Neighbors Part 4 (Steddie X Reader)

A/N: This started one way and went another. Certain night time activities may have also been a factor but let's just say... fucking hell this got me🥵 .

Warning: Steddie relationship and all that that implies. (I regret nothing!) This one is a little rougher than the past ones but they are still cute as hell with her son and they still love our reader. She's definitely got a bit of brat thing going on.

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You glare into the void as you sit outside your apartment on the stairs smoking one of Eddie’s cigarette’s that you stole out of his jacket pocket. Today had been Dylan’s birthday party which he absolutely enjoyed. A few friends and family came over including your boys. You allowed Charlie to make an appearance and that’s when things started to fall downhill.

You expected him to show up alone after work but he brought her. The woman that he cheated on you with in YOUR house on YOUR bed. You understood that Charlie was going to keep dating. Hell, you were technically dating. But the fact that he brought her of all people just triggered all those negative emotions. You tried not to let it show but your grumpy attitude leaked through.

“Hey, do you need help with anything?” Steve comes into the kitchen, gently touching your back. You jerk to the side away from him.

“No, I got it.”

“Whew! These kids are exhausting.” Your sister throws herself into a chair next to you. You reply with a subtle “hm”. Eddie’s eyes glance over at you with concern.

“You son is looking for you.” You jump at the sound of Eddie’s voice.

“Jesus Christ, Eddie! Do you always have to scare me?! Wear a fucking bell.” You put out the cigarette on the concrete and rise to head back inside.

He reaches out with his arm blocking you from entering the apartment. “Whatever is wrong with you right now, you need to get it in check because it has nothing to do with that kid in there. Don’t spoil his good time with your shit attitude.”

You narrowed your eyes at him, swatting his arm out of the way. As soon as you walk in Dylan runs to your side. “Mommy! Can Patrick stay over tonight?”

“Um, I don’t see why not.” You feel eyes watching you. You turn to see who they belong to, finding Eddie and Steve murmuring to each other.

“Dil! Come give me a hug. We’re leaving, Kid.” Charlie yells from the door. You son runs over to his father and Charlies lifts him into the air giving him a big bear hug. “Say goodbye to Vivian.”

“Bye Vivi.” He leans over wrapping his arms around her neck as she kisses his cheek and you feel the anger rise into your throat. They leave without acknowledging your presence and you’re fine with that. You didn’t think you could even pretend to be nice to her.

The only people left were now your neighbors. “Dylan, say goodbye to Steve and Eddie.”

“Are we leaving?” Eddie asks, his head tilted to the side.

“Yes, you are.”

“Oh, mom. Can’t they stay for a little bit longer?” When you shook your head, he began to whine.

“Dylan! Not tonight, baby, okay?”

Steve who had his eyes glued to you with his arms folded now walked confidently in your direction. “Ok, that’s enough of that.” He mutters under his breath. “Hey, Little Man, we’ll be right back, ok?” He grabs your upper arm roughly and drags you out the front of your apartment into theirs. “What’s wrong?” Steve pulls you closer to his face as he stares down at you angrily.

You try to pull out of his grasp but he just grips you tighter. “Right now, Steve, you are what’s wrong. Let me go!”

“Did something happen with Charlie?”, he asks

“I’m betting it’s the girl he brought.” Eddie came up to his side. “Is that thee girl?”

“I said let go!” You manage to get out Steve’s grasp with one strong tug.

“That’s a yes.” Eddie chuckles as he crosses his arms.

“Don’t do that. Don’t laugh at me! I don’t have to explain myself to either of you.”

“You’re right. You don’t have to but you should want to. That’s what people in relationships do.”

“Is that what this is?”

“Ah ah ah.” Steve holds up his hand and walks towards you slowly backing you into the living room wall. “I would be very careful with what you say next. We know you’re upset and we understand that but that doesn’t give you a license to be mean.”

You stand up straighter, looking him dead in the eye. “Say what you really mean. ‘That doesn’t give you license to be a bitch.’”

He smiles at you then and turns to Eddie who grins back, shrugging his shoulders. They both turn their back to you and head out the front door. You grab one of the pillows off the couch and scream into it. After a few minutes, you regain your composure and head back into the fray.

Dylan and Patrick are still on the floor playing the new video game your sister bought him. Steve was in the kitchen washing dishes as Eddie scrambled around the apartment picking up trash and bringing dirty plates to the sink. Neither of them acknowledged you as you walked through the door. You casually walk into the living room and sit on the floor with your son. The game pauses as his friend declares he has to pee and runs towards the restroom.

You tap Dylan on the opposite shoulder from you and he turns his head giggling when he looks the wrong way. He climbs into your lap and you wrap your arms tightly around him, kissing the top of his head.

“Did you have a good birthday party?”

“Yeah! It was so much fun. Thank you!” The little boy kisses your cheek and you feel your wall begin to crack.

“Hey. I’m sorry I snapped at you. Mommy’s just…exhausted.” You place the back of your hand over your forehead and dramatically sigh. He smiles at your theatrics.

“It ok. I know you were just upset because Vivi showed up. Daddy asked me if it was ok. I told him no.”

You felt your anger start to rise again. “Honey, you didn’t have to do that.”

“I know but she makes you sad.”

The mama bear inside of you snapped. You were angry that your son asked your ex not to bring her and he did anyway but now you were even more upset not just with Charlie but yourself because you thought you hid that pain better. Dylan was already going through enough with the divorce. You didn’t want to add to it in any way.

Patrick barreled back into the living room, grabbing the controller and unpausing the game.

“Hey! Not fair! I wasn’t ready!”

You slowly get up from the floor and head towards your bedroom. You knew you left your phone plugged in on the bedside table but it was now gone.

“Looking for something?”

Steve leans against the wall with his hands in his pockets.

“Where is my phone, Steve?”

His eyes zero in on yours. “You can’t call him.”

“I’m sorry. Did you just tell me I can’t do something?”

“I’m trying to help, Y/N. If you call him now screaming at him when you’re like this, it’s just going to give him more ammunition. You already have enough on your plate. Both of you.”

“I don’t need your help! I know how to handle my ex and I can take care of my son. Believe it or not, I did it for a whole 6 years before you two came into my life.”

“Wow, I guess we see where Dylan gets his tantrums from.” Eddie leans into the doorframe with both hands on either side.

“Give me. My. Phone.”

They both turn on you again leaving you standing there by yourself fuming. You run after them but stop when you see Dylan in Eddie’s arms. “Ok, Kid. We’re heading out now. Next time I come over I’m teaching you some D & D, ok?”

Dylan wraps his arms around his neck and thanks Eddie for the small guitar he gave him. Steve reaches out and takes the boy from his arms.

“It’s boring. You’ll hate it.” Dylan giggles, shaking his head.

“Thank you for my skates!”

“Hey, no problem, dude. Anyway, we can find to rep house griffin, right?”

Without meaning to, a small laugh escapes your lips. All 3 heads turn to look at you.

“Gryffindor, Steve.”

His eyes roll to the back of his head. “Whatever. Here, take this weirdo before I actually retain any of that.”, he says jokingly as he passes Dylan to you.

You place him on his feet. “Ok, boys, go get ready for bed. I’ll be right back, ok?”

Eddie and Steve are already halfway into their apartment by the time you catch up to them.

“Steven! Give me my phone.”

“Or what?” He smiles down at you cheekily as he slams the door shut.

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A few hours later, you find yourself still awake, staring pensively at the ceiling. You know it’s not they’re fault. They did nothing to ensure your wrath but you couldn’t bring yourself back down from that ledge.

You were still running through the day’s events when a subtle bass beat grabs your attention. Opening your bedroom door, you hear it louder in the hall. You gently open Dylan’s bedroom but when you step inside you hear nothing. Closing his door, you follow the sound, finding yourself outside of Steve and Eddie’s apartment door.

Really? Ok, they want to play. I can play.

You bang on their door with your fist but no one answers. You pound on it louder and continuously until finally it swings open. Steve stands there in just his underwear, with a hazy look in his eyes.

“Excuse me, ma’am. There are children trying to sleep. Can you keep the noise down?” He starts to close the door again but you block it with your bare foot as you stomp inside. Their dwelling smells incredibly strong like weed and cigarettes.

“Heeeeey!” You hear Eddie screech from somewhere in the living room. You walk over to find him lying on his back on the floor in his boxers, a cigarette dangling from his mouth. You narrow your eyes at him as you reach out towards the stereo and turn off the music.

He jumps to his feet, standing face to face with you. Grinning, he extended his arm, turning it back on. When you start to lift your arm again, he grabs your wrist and spins you in the opposite direction. Your body smacks chest first into Steve.

“We have the settings just right, you know.”

“Yeah, just right to annoy the hell out of me.”

They both laugh. “To be fair, Princess, you started it. Your bratty attitude annoyed the hell out of us today.”

“Technically yesterday being as its 2 am.” Steve cackles as he looks at his watch.

You roll your eyes, crossing your arms. “And I’m the one acting like a little kid.”

“Jesus, she still has that fucking tone.” Eddie whines as he smashes the cigarette he was smoking into the nearby ashtray.

“Oh, be careful, Eds. She’s getting that angry look again.” Steve circles around you like a vulture.

“Stop.”

“Stop what?”

“Stop talking about me like I’m not here.”

“Oh Sweetheart.” Eddie starts sauntering around you as well. “We’ve been acting like you aren’t here all night. Haven’t we, Stevie?”

Steve smiles a Cheshire like grin. “Oh yeah. Since supposedly this,” he gestures between the three of you, “isn’t a real relationship or anything. Isn’t that what you said?”

A wicked grin spreads across your face as you laugh at them. They both stop moving, Steve in front of you and Eddie behind you. “I’m sorry. Did I give off the impression that I’m some timid little PTA mom who bakes pies and shit?” You stalk towards Steve guiding him backwards. “You can’t intimidate me, Steve Harrington. Neither of you can!” You turn to look at Eddie who was still in the same place with his arms folded.

Steve’s smile returned but there was something behind it, something that made your knees weak and your stomach flip.

“Intimidation isn’t the name of the game, baby. It’s humiliation.” He leaned his back against the wall looking down his nose at you as Eddie chuckled. His tone dropped so low you could barely hear him. “How do you think we felt when you were mean to us today? When you said what you said. Frankly we’re kind of tired of it. There’s no reason this has to be so difficult.”

Eddie comes up behind you, poking you in the side. When you turn, he shoves your phone into your hands. You look down at as if you’ve never seen it before. You were so focused on being angry at them that you forgot they even had it.

They both move away and leave you standing there. You hear the music begin to play again and the sound of them moving around behind you. Smoke suddenly fills the air and when you finally turn around you find them on the floor, Steve leaning back on Eddie’s chest as they passed the joint back and forth.

You sat diagonally from them and once again they didn’t acknowledge your presence. It hurt you but instead of being angry about it, you now felt like you deserved it.

“You were right, Eddie. Vivian was THEE girl. I came home during my lunch break to pick up something I forgot and I found them together. I found out later that everyone knew, our friends and his family. No one told me a god damn thing.” You glanced in their direction. They still weren’t looking at you but you could tell they were listening. “I know he’s going to be with other women. I know that. I know that they are going to be around my son and I know it’s not fair for me to be upset about it since you two spend almost everyday around him but… why does it have to be her?”

You crawl over to them, placing your head on Eddie’s tummy. “I’m sorry I took my frustrations out on you guys. That wasn’t fair, to you both or to Dylan.”

You suddenly feel Eddie’s hand caress your hair as Steve reaches down to grab your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours.

“I forgive you.”

“Yeah, me to.” Steve brings your hand up, holding it against his chest.

“Can I ask you guys something?” They both mumble a hm. “Why the fuck are you both only in your underwear?”

Steve and Eddie howl with laughter causing you to laugh along with them.

“What did I tell you when you came in?” Eddie asks as he leans up on his elbows.

You think for a moment. “That you’ve been acting like I haven’t been here?” The boy nods his head. “I don’t get it.”

Steve inhales the joint in his fingers and places it in the ashtray before looking at you with those beautiful brown eyes. “You want us to show you?” He grins seductively when you say yes.

He crawls over you and you scoot out of his way to sit by Eddie’s head. Eddie pulls your lips to his, kissing you softly. He moans against your lips, grabbing your jaw with his hand, and turning you to see what the other boy was doing.

Steve had Eddie’s cock in his mouth, moving his head up and down his length. A sigh escaped your lips as you crawled closer to watch him. You gently ran your fingers through Steve hair causing him to groan.

“Fucking hell.” Eddie licked his lips as he watched you two with lust blown eyes.

“He tastes good, doesn’t he?” You whispered into his ear. “He really likes it when you swirl your tongue around him.” Steve did what you suggested and Eddie’s eyes rolled as his head fell back on the floor. You felt his fingers reach for you.

“Come here, Princess.” You maneuvered to him as he tugged at your sleep shorts. You pulled them and your panties down your legs, throwing them to the side. Eddie grabbed you moving you forward till you were seated on his face. You moaned as he wasted no time wrapping his mouth around your clit. Steve’s mouth came off of his friend with a pop as he continued pumping him with his hand, watching as you lift your shirt over your head and toss it away.

You lean your hands on Eddie’s chest for support as you ride his face. Steve meets you in the middle pulling you roughly by the back of the neck for a sloppy kiss. You can taste Eddie on his tongue and it makes your pussy clench. You whimper as you watch Steve pull away and spit on Eddie’s cock as he takes the boy into his mouth again. The sound of him gagging is enough to drive you over the edge. Your body shakes and your thighs try to squeeze shut as you cum on Eddie’s tongue. His hands fly up and hold your legs open as he helps you through your climax.

Both boys, as if reading each other’s minds, get up and switch places. Eddie’s mouth is replaced with Steve’s as his head slides between your legs. You feel Eddie’s hand on your back gently pushing you towards Steve’s dick and he growls into your cunt as your tongue licks the precum of his tip.

You gasp when you feel Eddie’s cock rub between your folds. Steve’s mouth wraps around your nub, sucking and flicking, as Eddie pushes into your entrance bottoming out almost immediately. He sets a brutal pace making it hard for you to not gag down on Steve as your pushed forward into him. The sound of Steve sucking and moaning drives you crazy and Eddie grunts as you clench around him.

“Oh my god.” Tears start to fall down your cheeks. “Please. Don’t stop. It feels so good.”

Eddie falls against your back reaching around to hold your tits as he thrusts into your deeper.

“There you go, Sweetheart. Show me how Steve likes it.”

You dig your nails into his thigh as Steve starts pumping his hips pushing him farther into your mouth. You feel him moan into your clit as you keep your head still as he fucks your face. His movements sputter as his cum hits the back of your throat. You swallow him and Eddie turns your face to kiss your lips. He pulls up right against his chest and grips your waist as he slams into your pussy. Steve’s hands cling to your thighs as he aggressively flicks his tongue against you.

You cry out as your feel the coil snap in your belly and you cum hard shouting their names repeatedly to the heavens. You start to collapse forward but Eddie holds your tightly to him as he thrusts roughly into you, grunting in your ear before he you feel his seed filling you up.

You fall to the side lifting your knee so you don’t hit Steve in the face. Eddie comes down with you, his arms still wrapped your stomach and chest.

Steve’s palm rubs your leg. “Fuck, that was fucking amazing.”

“I’ll say.”, Eddie pants.

“Baby, are you ok?” The sound of your sniffles causes them both to sit up at attention.

“I’m fine. That was just really good.” You laugh as you wipe your tears and they chuckle with you.

Steve gets up and heads for his bathroom, bringing back a towel as he cleans between your legs. You reach out and caress his cheek. “Will you guys stay with me tonight?”

They share a glance. “Sure. Um, what are we going to tell Dylan?”

“Nothing. He’ll think I had a sleep over like he did. Just um, clothes please.”

They rise to their feet bringing you up with them carefully. Steve disappears as Eddie helps you get dressed. When his roommate comes back, he is now wearing flannel pjs and a Hawkins high athletics shirt. He throws Eddie his shorts and a t-shirt.

Steve lifts you into his arms as he carries you across the threshold and back to your apartment. He places you on the bed and curls in behind you. Eddie tiptoes in closing the door behind him.

“Kids are still passed out.”

“Good. Hopefully they sleep in.”, you murmur.

Eddie climbs in on your other side and without hesitation you fling your arm over his tummy. He smiles at your closed eyes as he takes your hand in his and kisses the back of it. You three pass out, limbs tangled together, and happy as can be.

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betterthanburrow · 1 year

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Hi! I don’t know if you’re taking request but can u do an insta au with @/bbyambi on insta if you are?

NFL WIFE DREAM - Instagram AU

(Bengals Quarterback! Joe Burrow x Social Media Influencer! OC)

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Bengals: It just got a whole lot colder in KC

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yourinstagram: it just got a lot hotter in my room 🥵

↳ yourolderbrother: i didn’t know that you are a fan of football now?!

↳ yourinstagram: i’m not a fan of football… but i am a fan of this fine man that just appeared on my instagram feed 😵‍💫

joeyb_9: 😮‍💨🔥

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yourinstagram: i have been dreaming of becoming a NFL wife since i was a little girl… do you want to help me make my dreams come true?! @.joeyb_9

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yourolderbrother: are you really flirting with a NFL football player through INSTAGRAM CAPTIONS?!

↳ yourinstagram: you miss 100% of the shots that you don’t take - Michael Scott

↳ yourolderbrother: first of all, Michael Scott from The Office didn’t create that quote… and second of all, you didn’t even know Joe Burrow’s football position until Google gave you the answer.

↳ yourinstagram: do you realize that if I become an NFL wife (to Joe Burrow) that means that you could get free NFL tickets?!

↳ yourolderbrother: oh wait… @.joeyb_9 i’ve always dreamed of being a brother in law to an NFL player!

joeyb_9: hmm… i guess that it would be very rude to not help make someone’s dreams come true.

↳ yourinstagram: hmm… you are right about that. (my dms are open 👀)

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joeyb_9: The Journey Continues…

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yourolderbrother: hey future brother in law!

tylerboyd: Big levels

NFLonprime: Can’t wait to see what’s next 👏

camjuice5: 💙

yourinstagram: i hope i’m included on this journey 😚

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Bengals: we will be back.

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yourolderbrother: i’m not a Bengals fan but i would’ve rathered the Bengals go to the Superbowl against The Eagles this year than for the Superbowl to bet between the Eagles against the Chiefs 🤢

yourinstagram: the NFL referees are going to hell after the shenanigans that happened… I WANTED TO SEE MY FUTURE BOYFRIEND AND RIHANNA IN THE SAME BUILDING IN TWO WEEKS?!

↳ yourolderbrother: you didn’t even know about what happened with the NFL referees until i told you about it because you were so upset that you wouldn��t have the chance to see Rihanna perform at the HalfTime Show.

↳ yourinstagram: don’t expose me for not watching my future boyfriend’s last football game of the season.

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yourinstagram: blue birthday flowers from @.joeyb_9

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yourolderbrother: happy birthday… @.joeyb_9 instead of flowers, for my birthday (which is in a few months) can i get NFL season tickets to all the Bengals games?!

↳ yourinstagram: 😐

joeyb_9: happy birthday princess 💙

↳ yourinstagram: thank you for the flowers… and who knew that a NFL Quarterback would know his way to a woman’s heart.

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CincyProblems: it looks like the recent lost to the Kanas Chiefs is not effecting NFL Bengals Quarterback Joe Burrow as he has posted a beautiful bouquet of blue flowers to his Instagram Story.

It was confirmed by Social Media Influencer @.yourinstagram that the flowers from Joe Burrow’s Instagram Story were gifted to her for her birthday.

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username1: i don’t know who this social media influencer is but, one thing that i do know is that she is definitely just using him for money…

↳ yourinstagram: if you’re mad that Joe Burrow didn’t respond to your instagram direct messages then just say that instead of being insecure.

username2: i just stalked @.yourinstagram’s instagram page… Joe Burrow is definitely a lucky man.

↳ username3: BurrowHead may not be going to the Superbowl this football season, but he has a hot girl by his side… no one on the Kanas Chiefs team can relate.

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Bengals: Another unforgettable season. We can’t thank you enough for your support, Who Dey Nation.

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yourolderbrother: i can’t believe i’m a Bengals fan now because of my little sister…

joeyb_9: 🧡🔥

yourinstagram: i can’t wait for next football season!

↳ yourolderbrother: the only reason you’re excited for next football season is because you’ll get to live out gour NFL wide dreams…

↳ yourinstagram: yes… and i’m excited for more hot football content from my future boyfriend!

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yourinstagram: 100K Subscribers on Youtube!

picture credits: @.joeyb_9

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yourolderbrother: i can’t wait for the storytime about the time you slide into a NFL Quarterback’s dms and now you’re his girlfriend living your NFL wife dreams.

↳ yourinstagram: first of all, we’re not dating yet (we’re just having fun 😛) and second of all, the Bengals’ football season is over so i haven’t gotten to live out my NFL wife dream just yet!

joeyb_9: this was a really fun night of celebrations 🥂

↳ yourinstagram: it really was a fun night 😊

Author’s Note:

this Instagram AU request was sent to my inbox a few weeks ago and i really tried to get the Instagram AU published as quickly as i could… thank you to whoever sent in this Instagram AU request because this was a fun Instagram AU to write!

if you have any requests for Instagram AUs, send the requests to my Inbox and i’ll try to get the Requested Instagram AU published as fast as i can!

thank you all for the love and support! 🤍

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sad-b-lack-g-irl · 5 years

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Graduation, prom(s), etc

Wow, long time no see. I went to prom and I’ve graduated ( yeah whoop-dee-doo 🙄🎉) . I’m going to college and whatnot which is what I’m more excited about 😬. I’ll give a rundown in segments.

My Prom (April 2019) - Not bad

I went with my friends, no date considering circumstances that will be explained later on. We had a fucking BALL though. It was the four of us and we FUCKED prom up!!! Dancing, pictures, and an all night party, all of it was amazing. Interestingly, I danced with a good friend of mine, but not the guy at my school that I like 🤦🏾‍♀️. Although I was very close to dancing in the guy from my school that I like. I was a little drunk so I wasn’t fully aware of who was not in my direct line of sight and at different points I would turn around and see that I was closer to him than before. It was a bit of a rush not gonna lie. But yea it was great. 9/10 good time 👍🏾

Graduation (May 2019) - Not great, but not bad

Honestly it wasn’t fun. I didn’t get to decorate my cap because of the nature of the event being ‘formal’ and all the respect or whatever bullshit our principal told us. Plus I’ve been celebrating a lot of stuff or planning celebration, but I feel myself acting like I want to celebrate. As in I’m acting 24/7 to spare (mostly my mom’s) people’s feelings. I think it’s because I know (even if they don’t say it or if the say otherwise) that people in my family and adults who know me have great expectations and what to celebrate, however, it’s all bullshit to me so I’ve just been playing my role as the celebratory child 🤷🏾‍♀️. 4/10 Not the best

Prom send offs (May - June 2019) - THEY NEVER END!!!!

I have two other female cousins my age so that was fun I guess seeing them off to prom and whatnot. They looked amazing, of course, and they’re pretty cool so yeah ig. Now we get into th real tea: The Moon’s prom send off.

1. I met his dad and he’s really funny. At first he was intimidating and it seemed like he didn’t like me, but we were sitting in the Moon’s living room chitchatting. He’s honestly hilarious and I think he likes me as a person which is relieving.

2. The Moon went alone. Which his mom was pissed about but that’ll be #3. Anyways, he broke up with his girlfriend a while ago so he just went alone. He didn’t seem mad about it or anything but something was off. I’m positive he wanted to go with someone, which is interesting because he didn’t ask me. Although he had reason not to, my mom has grown to not trust him with me romantically which again makes sense. Idk I guess I kind of wanted the chance to go with him because 1. We’d look AMAZING together 2. We’d have so much fun and 3. His mom could chill tf out.

3. Speaking of his mom, she was going through something. A lot of emotions and many of them projecting on me and The Moon. One she kept telling me to get in pictures with him, but I dodged a few bullets considering he has a lot of family. Plus before we even got to their apartment my mom was saying how The Moon’s mom text her about wanting me to go to prom with him. It was an interesting exchange. Then just as my family was leaving, I gave her a hug and she (not so under her breath) goes, “We should’ve had you throw on your dress.” and sashayed away. Not only that but The Moon’s dad was right there staring at me, so I’m flustered telling her to keep things to herself. Then the Moon’s dad goes, “Oh, she got jokes, huh?” With (what I felt) was an implication that he’s fully aware of my relationship with his son and my current emotional state. it was all a lot for a span of 2 maybe 3 hours. But wait THERE’S more, at 11:34 that same night the Moon’s mom sent me a picture of me fixing his hair with a red heart under it. What that means, I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE!!! But it made me laugh because what the hell?

4. The Moon looked amazing, like fine as fuck 🥵 I. D.on.t know what it was, maybe my hormones (I just got off my period), or the fact that I LOVE well dressed men (and yes that day he looked like a man), or our history, but I could not stop staring. But like a speechless ‘The things I would do to you.’ Speechless. Then to make everything better he’s so funny. The night before we were texting about my fear of needles (long story), which carried over into that day and we were just talking. Every now and then he’d take a picture but then it’s back to me which was cute. ALSO, when we went downstairs for the car I saw another level of HOT DAMN that I personally couldn’t handle. I just had to sit back and let him do him because like I said HIT FUCKING DAMN. It was a nice as red Corvette Stingray with his all white suit, and ugh it was A LOT. But we had to leave early and this is what got me: he was sitting in the car getting pictures and he heard my mom saying bye, so I was making my way around hugging people and walked over to the car. NOW I SWEAR THIS ALL HAPPENED IN SLOW MOTION: he opens the car door, steps out, closes the door (mind you he’s watching walk to him eye contact is not broken), we hug, BUT I was wearing a tight shirt under a jacket to which he PURPOSEFULLY slides his hands in my jacket (rubbing my skin because it was a middriff shirt, guys I got goosebumps and chills ngl) and wraps his arms around the whole of my torso. At this point I’m trying to keep a hold of my underwear and not melt in his arms. BUT WE DON’T STOP THERE!!! I pull back and as his arms slide from out of my jacket he says and with the smuggest smirkiest look, ‘See ya later, baby girl.’ THEN he winks at me, my heart almost stopped but like a quick thinking smooth ass bitch I WINK BACK, we both smile and walk away. At what point do I fuck him? Because by now in the olden days we’d be married with kids 🤷🏾‍♀️. Now I understand Iam overly romanticizing and dramatizing the situation, but also I don’t think I am, it all literally went down like that and my tender ole heart couldn’t take it. Like at one point his dad was looking at me looking at him and I swear to God if I wasn’t black and wearing makeup mans would’ve caught me slipping. Whew. Well anyways 11.5/10 great time 💋

5. My brother was making a list of references to The Moon and I getting married and whatnot. Knowing it would fluster me. My mom FaceTimed my stepdad so he could see and my brother was doing a voiceover saying ‘son-in-law’ and how my parents and the Moon’s mom we’re proud parents-in-law. It was annoying only because he wasn’t as quiet as he thought. And I think he posted it on Snapchat so it was a lot.

Graduation Parties - DONT want to celebrate anymore

It’s getting annoying to go and plan these parties. I’m nervous no one will come to mine because another girls is the same day as my and mine is further from the general populous of my school. Plus this girl is really cool, and comparatively cooler than me soooooo the chances of people my age attending my open house is slim. I know two of my close friends will be there the third will be off either at a summer program or her family reunion. 4.75/10 not thrilled.

I believe that’s it for now so 🤷🏾‍♀️ I’m outie three thousie

—A ‘Worn Out’ Black Girl

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