#which is frankly a joy

[miodiodavinci]

i've been going through my twitter and working on cleaning out old irrelevant rants (like all the times i complained about my art or went on and on about how sick i was of ace discourse) and personal life details that no one really needs to know (dealing with the leech and fighting with siblings) and just

it really is so so clear that i have adhd and have difficulty regulating my emotions skdfhgls

#i am scrolling so so much and yelling 'SLOW DOWN!!! SLOW DOWN!!!! STOP POSTING!!!!!!!!!!' #literally every little thought and whim went onto that account and now everything pre-2020 is just an endless stream of meaningless thought #it's legitimately like chewing on styrofoam #more importantly you can Very Clearly See the ongoing issues with burn out and being ruled by a novelty-driven brain #by which i mean there is so much 'YEAYEAYEA YIPPEE' followed by #'my soul is dying. i feel my spine turn to sand and bitter cotton. there is no more joy and i am a hostage of my own making.' #and 'i want to work on these things. i want to work on those things. i do not want to work on this thing.' #followed at least 25% of the time with #'I SHIFTED THE COVER UP A KEY AND NOW IT'S BALLER YEAYEYAYEYAYEYA' #my brain really does function on novelty and impulse huh . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #hell on earth frankly w

[spookykingdomstarlight]

there will be no escaping the urge to listen to 《余年》 on repeat for the rest of the day

#xiao zhan #i haven't done my spotify wrapped yet and frankly i doubt i will #but last year this was the winner #and it could very well be the winner this year #but it would have stiff competition from 《廿》 #xz did not have to go that hard #this is why i'm not allowed to think about joy of life #all sorts of other things start happening #it took me a minute to decide which of the five hundred performances to link #but i'm a sucker for a black turtleneck so #tbh it's also my favorite #Spotify #Youtube

[soft-serve-soymilk]

The dichotomy between not wanting to fall into the adult trap of “available? never :)” and riding the momentum of motivation for as long as it takes me

#this vcd folio is my one joy as all my other subjects make me sad to varying degrees (except biology) #and I’m also reminded of the one time in 2023 #I thought I was in the clear as it was the last week of art folio soon and so I decided to be silly and slack off #the cramming afterward was BRUTAL #I woke up at 4am twice in succession and was soooo tired afterward #I’m convinced if I wasn’t finishing it off in the last hour it was due I would have gotten a natural 100 #so I’m scared in case I need to repeat that. which frankly I don’t wanna do :( #because the due date for the discover phase is looming for the vcd folio and I want my time to ✨ annotate ✨ #but it makes me feel guilty 😭😭 I’m doing a disservice to my wife and to me and to our relationship 😭😭😭 #just pav things

[theduchessofnaxos]

This paper is actually going quite well.

Too bad it's complete bullshit.

#I'm not lying #but I'm definitely not being brutally honest about the historiography here #look the first few works are technically all social histories but there's a qualitative difference from the later ones #and the politics is still important enough that I should get to call them political histories #Also frankly I don't care #I just need to finish the damn paper by midnight and then I will be free of this fucking course #I have never in my LIFE dreaded going to class before this course #And honestly? It's soul crushing! I have no will to succeed here! #My only motivation is that I liked the rest of the semester and I need to pass this class to continue the program! #the professor asked for an additional evaluation (still anonymous) and I'm torn about how brutal to be #because on the one hand it was an enlightening course and I am definitely better equipped as a historian than I was three months ago. #on the other hand every single one of my classmates had completely given up by the end because no matter what we did it wasn't good enough #and also the professor was just fucking mean a whole bunch. But in that subtle way where you feel crazy for noticing. #so the class was horrible but I don't want him to feel horrible but also maybe he deserves it??? I can't even tell if he's actually a dick #or just acts like one #which is perhaps not a meaningful distinction but if he doesn't mean to I'd feel bad being too harsh #though several incidents make me think he meant to #blegh. It'll all be over by midnight! #And then I can focus on studying for women's history and - joy of joys - writing a syllabus about Victorian fashion and politics #I fucking love historical fashion that's going to be absurdly fun

[ronkeyroo]

all i want right now is to be hug sandwhiched by Vilkas and Farkas and never let them go 😔

#Vilkas #Farkas #Ronkey Talks #let all of the worries and stress burn under their warmth #can you imagine how wonderful it would feel like...their hugging ;_; #i can write an entire page about it #sigh anyways #sorry for being a tad slow today folks #kind of an up and down kind of day #ill comfort the gloom away with the little joys ive experienced which frankly are way cooler #and by daydreaming about bein hugged by my favorite people right now #Vilkas and farkas if youre out there

[wtfcl0ud]

one day i will actually disappear tho n then joke's on everyone idec how worried they are im gone bye

#literally my fantasy #idc #frankly i dont care abt myself or my safety #which is y i realized myb im still depressed lol #but also myn idc abt anyone else either #n idc tht idc #i just want out #LIVING IS SO HARD N FOR WHAT #it's not even enjoyable it's tortue #21 years of torture n how much more #i cannot #sincerely #grrrrrr #love how this is the perfect time to be getting into a bad mood again #bc uni is starting back soon #n i wld ve been in a bad mood anyways #literally all the joy is gone #yk the thing is like it makes me seem like such a bad person like oh i don't tell my mother where i am n i just do what i want #like i literally hv to call my mother every 2 mins she calls me every 25 secs n yet she fucking has to act like this #i need to kms screams #cloud nonsense #ignore me

[slimemoldcollective]

Hello gents and ladymen. Remeber this

Cringe is dead, make what you please, do as you please. Enjoying yourself is much more important than peoples opinions, much more important than perfection.

If you have a desire to create in your soul, do not deny yourself the catharsis of creation. Your stories are your own, even if you think they are cringe and silly. No one else can write them

Fill your world with unpolished and loved pure sincerity.

#goopin #if this by some miracle leaves the mutual circle i just KNOW some dumbass is gonna be like actually no cringe is important #fuck OFF #who are you to deny the world the beauty of pieces of art created from joy? #who are you to shame people out of the divine act of creation #to hold your pen in your hands like you hold the sun #have you ever experienced that? #no! #cause you are afraid of placing your unpolished self into the world!! #and that #frankly speaking is fair #which is why i aspire to place my creations into the world #too help others to be able to create with out shame #anyway kts 11:17 pm and i am feeling things gn

[witchoil]

i really really enjoyed like the first two thirds of she who became the sun but got scared and shamefully haven’t finished it bc i, like, have been SO so enjoying playing in the space of zhu as transmasc that i don’t want to give it up to when the book inevitably reverts to she/her woman zhu

#i’m honestly so ashamed of this lmao i feel like such a bad gay 😭 #but he/him zhu brings me such indescribable joy idk #i feel like i failed the assignment but when i saw the book described as Sapphic on twitter i saw the writing on the wall #and essentially made myself put it down #WHICH IS RIDICULOUS BECAUSE WOMEN WHO ARE MEN ARE MY FAVORITE THING EVER #BUT LIKE JUST THIS ONCE I WANTED THE MC TO BE A DUDE #and frankly it took me half the book to figure that out #i also LOVED the idea that zhu could be a man while still referring to himself in his private thoughts as a woman??? #so i don’t know #but like it’s a wonderful wonderful book

[nellycanwrite]

When you get this you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)❤️❤️❤️

omfg KASHDJHSKA WELP I'M NOW BACKED INTO A CORNER IG SAKKAJSHDKAS /lh

Things I like about myself...I'm not too sure T.T But I'll try my best to answer!

I'm an ambivert, but I lean more on the extroverted side. That's why I like how I can easily talk with people regardless of who they are! I also like how I can easily talk in front of a crowd without being worried too much! Part of this that I love is how children naturally open up to me whenever I mingle with them—I just love kids so much and I love showering them with all my love!

I like how I'm a jack of all trades but a master of none. This means I'm versatile with any type of challenges thrown my way. Before, I always fall into a state of gloom when I know a lot of things but I can't master any of them, but now I accept that I can partake in any activity and have fun with it whenever I can! This really helped me in college as well since my skills in writing, public speaking, music, and arts have become one of my biggest strengths in and out of my field <3

I love how I can manage to become close to people in a short amount of time. I'm especially super honored when they share their problems with me. If I can help in any way I can, then I will jump straight into that opportunity!

I love how I can easily transition from carefree and joking to I-need-to-get-shit-done attitudes! This is especially useful in group activities when I don't know my team but make them warm up to each other! It might be something super minor, but I always liked the fact that I'm aware of how I can easily ease the tension in any situation and at the same time get into a business-like mentality at any given time!

I'm not sure if this qualifies under the ask, but I'm going to write it down anyway; I like how I choose my friends. They're the sweetest, most caring, most amazing people I've ever met. I know which people to avoid and which people I should interact with. I like how I can shower my friends with the love that they need. When there's a person who becomes toxic with me or outright messing with my mental health (which, from my knowledge, I am very slow to catch on if a person is being toxic with me), my friends are the first ones to step up and give me a slap to the face (lovingly).

Honorable mention: I like how I can easily change perspectives once someone gives me the facts! I would admit that there are things that I don't know about, so I'm super open to change and can adapt easily!

I HOPE THIS ANSWERS IT SOBS AKSHDKAJSJDHKA ALSO THANKIES @lunamadrigal FOR SENDING ME THE ASK <3 LOVE LOTS!

#nelly answered #nelly talks #a bit about me #quite frankly i'm not really sure which parts of myself that i really like #but i try #but at least i'm contented with myself for where i am??? sort of??? #i find joy in seeing everyone around me happy #especially those who are close to me #especially my partner #most definitely my partner

[paulic]

I always think about how other people perceive the Beatles because in my head it’s just a given that I know every little detail of their lives and I often fail to realise that to some people george is just the writer of here comes the sun and nothing more and that’s so weird to me

#I don’t want this to sound patronising but I pity the people who miss out on the joy of trying to get to know these four wonderful people #they broadened my world in a way I cannot begin to describe and to never have had that seems miserable to me #cannot imagine a world in which I don’t constantly think about John saying frankly I miss Paris or ringo role in the whole breakup #ringos*

[evilminji]

You think the Zone has its version of Comic Con?

Like? Think about it. You have literally all of time to work on it, your Magnum Opus, your life's work. That DREAM comic. All the supplies you could ever wish for. Endless paper. Endless ink. You can practice and practice for CENTURIES until it's JUST right.

Wouldn't you want to share it?

There are definitely Ghosts who have Obsessions that make them collect.

And two people meeting would lead to a group. Lead to a bigger group. Lead to a large group. A gathering. A crowd even. Eventually you need a Lair to meet IN. It becomes An Event.

People hear about it.

Want to bring other art mediums. Food stalls. Report on it. It grows. Shoot offs start happening. Niche meet ups.

But like?

Unlike comic con? It's all FREE. Sure, you might have fork over the ecto to make your copy. And yeah, weaker ghosts can only do that so many times. Will have to prioritize. But? They can come back after leaving for a nap. Ask a buddy to come with. There ARE work arounds.

Just? Imagine the unbelievable HIPE? Danny would feel? But be unable to TELL anyone about? Zone Con happens several times a year! Cause so many people wanna come. The Zone being infinite, after all.

Problem 1? They're using THEIR standard of a "year". Which is actual 5 earth years. So it's only happens every year and a half for him. And Problem 2? He can't even TALK about how excited he is about Z Con with anyone (outside his friends and family) because they haven't heard of it and might Ask Questions.

It's ALSO held in a part of the Zone that's like? Three days of flying away from the portal. And no amount of begging is gonna get any of his loved ones to camp in the Speeder for around six-ish days just to go to a Con.

So you can imagine his DELIGHT. His utter JOY and *Target Spotted* "!!!" Noise, when? In the crowd? He spots A HUMAN! Hi fellow human!!! Omg, wanna be Con Besties? *doesn't even wait for an answer*

So now? This sad, blonde, deeply lost and kinda alarmed, trench coat dude? Is Danny's new Z Con Going Bestie! You got a map yet, bestie? No? That's cool, he has one. By the way, he has human food in the Speeder if you nee-

YES!

Cause, see, here's the THING. John? Lost to the Realms Infinte. Or Infinte Realms. Translation was iffy... and on fire... like the rest of the building. It was him or the kids those psychos had kidnapped, for what fucked "ritual" the voices in their heads, that THEY thought were demons but frankly he's pretty sure was just feedback from-

Look, doesn't matter, he had to choose. He always knew someday he'd have too. That even twisting Luck and talking fast wouldn't quite be enough. And he had to decide, in that moment, which outcome mattered more to him. They get out safe, or he does.

Wasn't much of a question, was it?

So, there he is. Staring down oblivion and all those debts unpaid. 'Bout to see who's gonna come for him this time, and take what left of wretched soul. When? He bleeds on the FUCKIN two-bit crap circle they squiggled in God only knows what. Remembers that "oh YEAH, set dressings!" Sometimes when you focus too hard on insuring a Good Outcome?

You weird weird as shit byproducts happening on the side to balance it all out.

Or BAD ones.

He wakes up someone fucking green and crowded. For the life of him can't tell you which one it is. And THAT was of course, bout two days ago.

Biggest and most immediate problem? He... does NOT recognize what flavor of magical fuckery this is. Doesn't seem Fae. And doesn't smell like Hell. There are... there are honest to God BOOTH BABES hanging around. Hunks too. The view is LOVELY.

And nerdy.

Very, very nerdy.

But he isn't THAT out of touch. So he should recognize SOMETHING. Or at least the languages. But nope! It's like aliens and magic had a nerd baby and dipped it in GREEN. And the worst thing? Is there is food everywhere, but it all glows and John's not stupid enough to eat it.

Then? Sweet merciful fuck. Salvation! Some teeny bopper Barely No Longer Teen fresh faced INFANT of a Hero kid. With a SHIP. Who has FOOD and a clear idea of where they are. Hello~ John's new BEST FRIEND. Yes. Absolutely. Con Buddies, whatever.

Just feed me, kid.

Only? Once he inhales like 5 "Fenton rations"? He only gets half way through introducing himself before getting interrupted. Kid hears "magic" and "occult Detective" and just? Goes "oh! So you wanna check out the magic Ally with me? Sam wanted me to pick up some witchy stuff!"

..............how magic?

(In Which? Constantine becomes Danny's interdimensional Con buddy)

@the-witchhunter @hypewinter @hdgnj @mutable-manifestation @lolottes @nerdpoe

#dpxdc #dp x dc #dc x dp #dcxdp #dc x dp prompt #danny phantom

[catknives]

soulmate-esque au where steve is born with a psychic power where the first time he touches someone who will be important to him, he gets flashes of future moments between the two of them.

the first time he touches nancy he sees flashes of the two of them happy together, then an argument. the flashes clearly jump ahead a few years, as if they maybe stopped talking for a while, but they still look happy in that future. he thinks that maybe they get in a big fight, but clearly they’re still in each others lives for a long, long time.

when he ruffles dustin’s hair looking for dart, he gets flashes of laughter and jokes and a long life of brotherhood. he sees secret handshakes and little plastic dice and being invited to thanksgiving.

they’re not always positive. the first time he brushes past billy in the locker room, he’s filled with flashes of anger and dread and pain, and none of what he sees makes sense in the moment.

on his first day at scoops, he shakes robin’s hands and gets his biggest vision yet. there’s so much love and happiness and joy there, including a montage in which they seem to work a frankly absurd variety of jobs. but he gets stuck on an image of himself in a tux, robin in a wedding dress, and thinks this must be my future wife.

it isn’t until much later, on a dirty bathroom floor, that he realizes he was standing behind robin in that vision of her in a wedding dress, and, oh, he’s her best man.

almost a year later, when eddie pushes him against a wall with a broken bottle to his neck, steve is almost convinced he’s passed out because of the sheer number of visions running through his head. some of the flashes are innocent happy moments—sharing a joint, laughing at a movie, making dinner—but there’s also flashes of pleasure and adoration and devotion on a level that steve’s never felt before.

he sees flashes of waking up next to eddie in bed, walking a dog around a lake hand in hand, watching eddie perform on stage, a soft kiss to a bare shoulder.

and suddenly steve yearns, thinks he’s never fully known the meaning of that word until now. he tries to play it cool, doesn’t want to freak eddie out, but he’s seen so many visions of them holding hands that his fingers itch with the need to interlace with eddie’s.

when eddie is attacked by demobats, everyone tries to get steve and dustin to leave eddie’s body behind, because clearly eddie is dead. and steve can’t explain to them why he knows that can’t be true, he just stubbornly insists and drags eddie to a hospital as he promises again and again to dustin that eddie is going to make it.

everyone but steve is shocked when the doctors find the barest hint of a pulse.

it’s touch and go at first, but they put eddie in a medically induced coma and he starts to improve. steve is there the whole time. he tells the unconscious eddie about all of the things they still have to do together, about how he knows eddie will live a long, happy life because he’s seen eddie with gray in his hair, laugh lines etched into his face, as they welcome their first grandchild to the world.

and eddie makes it, and when he was up eddie tells steve he heard everything. steve steels himself for denial or disbelief, but eddie tells him that it’s the first thing he’s heard in the past month that actually makes sense.

they share their first kiss right there in the hospital room, and even though steve has seen this moment before, it still takes his breath away.

as he grows older, steve notices more and more of the moments he’s seen in visions as they happen. he happily discovers that there’s so much the visions don’t show, and there’s still so much to see.

because yes, just like he saw all those years ago, he stands behind robin at her wedding, and it’s as moving and special as it always looked. but he also gives max away at her and lucas’s wedding, and he helps dustin propose to suzie, and he helps erica pick out her wedding dress. and, of course, robin stands behind steve at his own wedding.

steve lives a long happy life, with so many memories—seen and unseen—to look forward to.

#ficlet #steddie #eddie munson #steve harrington #stranger things #platonic soulmates stobin

[payidaresque]

my mutuals are so fucking cool???

#and it applies to all of my followers tbh #cause like #enduring your dash being flooded with stuff about a show that was cancelled 8 months ago bc i clearly can't shut the fuck up for a moment #and not make everything about it because i literally went crazy and STILL follow me.. i mean... that takes some fucking guts #i know this is my blog and i can do whatever i want with it but i'm also aware that from your pov it might also look like i'm stuck #and the thing is actually that..... i am stuck and i like being stuck cause it brings me joy #and i am sorry if u followed me for something completely different and don't see it as much as u see aziz related stuff on your dash #and honestly i feel pressure bc of that at times #you can always blacklist it (which i'm guessing some of you might already did and honestly good for you cause i'm all about safe spaces) #but i also want you to know that i will NEVER stop posting aziz and definitely not planning to be less frequent about it #and it's fine if in your head you refer to me as one-fandom-only blog #cause frankly... i am #but it doesn't exclude all of the other stuff i also really like #and once again — please read my about page BEFORE following me #it's in the blog description #and i love you all for whatever reason it is you started following me — thank u for picking me 💜 #dasha.txt

[bugtistic]

One thing I truly love about being an Entomology nerd, is nobody can ever get reasonably mad at me for not knowing what a bug is! There’s no way I can reasonably know every single bug in the world, that’s just not feasible!

And even better- that ALSO means I get to spend the REST OF MY LIFE learning about bugs! I get the joy of learning about new ones all the time, forever! It’s so awesome!! It also ALSO means I can easily divert my punk desire to better the world into insect conservation, which is super important for the earths continued existence!! And caring about little critters that most people find disgusting is frankly SUPER punk! I fucking love bugs!

#hi sorry I’m being autistic #Bugblr #punk #entomology #autism #actually autistic

[the-peak-tmnt]

Hey The Neon Void readers, quick update from the author's sister!

(art commission by @kaysdenofchaos)

Hi readers of The Neon Void fanfic. This is the author’s older sister. She’s been getting a lot of fan art and asks lately. She’s sent me screenshots of a few unanswered ones looking for advice on how to respond.

While all the love and support of TNV is genuinely appreciated, my sister @sugarpasteltmnt is not equipped to respond to a small handful of these asks/comments that are, quite frankly, inappropriate.

Sugarpastels is not a therapist, and she’s certainly not an internet stranger’s therapist.

She’s an adult with an extremely demanding and stressful job for a very large client. Some of you have already experienced and enjoyed her work IRL without knowing it. Her company is close to finishing another project that will bring a lot of joy to hundreds of thousands of people every year, but working on a project of that scale is extremely stressful.

She is writing this fanfic for fun. TNV is a way for her to decompress and put her creative energy towards something other than work.

What’s not fun is coming home to asks/comments from readers who are projecting their own struggles/mental health onto TNV, and even Sugarpastels herself, and demanding some sort of attention from her over it.

Let’s be real: it’s fun to watch our blorbos suffer! So much of fandom is just us putting our favorite characters in Situations because it’s fun. Simple as that. But I think another reason TNV has resonated so strongly with readers is because of the way Sugarpastels writes the internal struggles of these characters.

We are both aware that TNV deals with mental health topics. Since the early days of “modern” fandom, fanfiction has been a way for people to explore complicated, difficult and sometimes even taboo subjects. There’s no shortage of complex feelings being explored in TNV, which is why we’re all having so much fun reading it.

But that’s all it is; an exploration. Sugarpastels is not a mental health expert. I’ve read a handful of books on PTSD and mindfulness for research while writing my own fanfic, and I would never consider myself prepared to help someone else.

It’s okay if you relate to things from TNV. I know I do! Again, fanfic has always been a way to read about things rarely dealt with (or handled poorly) in published fiction/tv shows/movies. I will always argue one of the greatest things about fanfiction and other fanworks is being able to see ourselves and our own struggles through our favorite fictional characters.

But Sugarpastels is not a fictional character. She’s a real person. Most importantly (to me at least) she’s my little sister, and this big sister cannot handle watching some of her readers expect more of her than is appropriate.

So I’m asking you to please be mindful of what you ask/say to not just her, but literally everyone on the internet. Unless you’re chatting with someone regularly, they do not know you. Whether it’s friends, family, teachers, coaches, etc, there are people in your life who know you personally, and are therefore better equipped to help you than a stranger on the internet.

Sugarpastels is so full of empathy that it’s hard to not feel for you when you send things like this. But it just isn’t fair to put that kind of unnecessary pressure on someone who is, at the end of the day, just trying to have some fun writing about ninja turtles bein’ sad.

(That being said, PLEASE DON’T BE SCARED TO SEND HER ASKS AND FAN ART!!! They make her day every single time and are seriously so, so appreciated. She’s texting me about it constantly how much she loves all of TNV’s readers. This whole post is really directed at an extremely small percentage of her readers, but there have been enough I felt something needed to be said.)

#ok back to writing about sad turtles! #tmnt #the neon void #the neon void fic #the neon void tmnt #tmnt fanfiction #tmnt fanfic #tmnt fic