#which is not great for my lungs

[dyingnights]

my mother invited me for dinner, i ended up choking on some noodles and spitting them into the sink which resulted in my mother yelling at me for 20 minutes

#my stepfather did defend me though. which was great because i proceeded to cough my lungs out and struggle to breathe for that whole time #she was then mad that he asked her why those 2 noodles in the sink were a bigger concern to her than her child literally choking

[silveredsticks]

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#i jist got back to wards after my surgery #all went well but quite a lot of pain! more than usual! #and not great lung function #this is what i blame for taking a screenshot of umich all in their fancy little tape room #and getting misty eyed about lucas phone background #also i needed it for my ask luca fic #which is not about luca at all andnia about gavin and Seamus and even though i know so ao little i started writing on sunday #as its fun #im so pain killer high right now its so odd

[poorlymadesockpuppet]

Watched my first AEW ever in style bc I was there live

#aew #all elite wrestling #we had so much fun it was awesome #great show #saw some local guys i recognized too which was cool. just in squash matches but still #and my dad yelled at the top of his lungs for bryan to kick jun in the balls and then he did #i don't like sammy guevara but i was screaming my head off for that match. that's my kind of wrestling #bodies going through tables

[replicasoul]

hate that breathing issues mean that taking a shower leaves me nearly passing out keep ending up in the loop of "ok, i dont feel good/im bored, i want to go out and do something today. maybe shop for groceries. lemme shower first" and then by the time im out of the shower i feel like im about to keel over and die

#i legit have never known whether its Asthma or just Extremely Bad Allergies #i know i have the latter but the former hasnt ever been confirmed directly #when i was a kid they put me in the like 'asthma training class' or w/e. where you learn how to use an inhaler and stuff #and i was told smth along the lines of 'you have asthma but it affects you differently' or something like that. idr at this point #either way i have had chronic breathing issues and it fucking sucks #apparently my lungs are also fucking Massive as a result. which i learned from an ultrasound i had to get #so thats. neat? i guess?? #idk why im typing all this in the first place also. i just woke up and wanted to go get groceries (have been wanting to for a while) #and the act of Taking A Shower completely removed my ability to do that anytime soon. which is frustrating as hell #also wasnt great for my arms. cause ive got issues with Those too!! of course!!!! but thats a whole other thing #idk i want to be able to Function god dammit. i need to do things

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

realised the reason my heart issues freak me out is partly because unlike any of my pain it’s harder to just deal with it or find ways around it and also it could be a lot more dangerous than most of my other day to day medical stuff and also it was one of my cancer symptoms

#we brought down my medication dose and im still having issues #we could bring it down again but my doctor wants it high to decrease any chance of recurrence which is slightly higher for me #i haven’t had any caffeine amounts other than a little bit of chocolate since 10 am this morning #maybe im just tired or overtired or whatever but if i stand up im immediately tachycardic #it’s. like ive never fainted or anything but im recording higher and higher heart rates in response to exertion that shouldn’t be producing #that at all. like i took it manually so maybe i was wrong but i went up a slight hill and some stairs that usually leave me around 120-125 #not great but whatever. and i also used to be a runner so i make sure to control my breathing so that doesn’t have a big effects #this week? went to class up that hill and those stairs. sat down. took my pulse. i recorded 148 bpm #i live in a single room and stuff and im a little nervous about this potentially getting worse #plus like. im usually chill abt my cancer bc all they had to do was whip my thyroid out and that’s been it and it hadn’t been an #easy process per se but it wasn’t as intense as it could have been and im very lucky #but there is a chance of recurrence and treatment decisions were less ‘what will make it less likely the cancer returns’ and more ‘which #cancer chances do i wanna take’ #it was between radiation induced bone or breast cancer vs recurrence of my cancer (comes back most often as bone or lung) #and i. would not like to have to deal with that el oh el #im mostly fine it’s just been an off day and simply standing and getting an average bpm of 108 (the thing i use averages it out) is weird #not to mention showering was hellish bc I could feel my heart pounding #vent tw #cancer tw

[altruistic-meme]

we're having a Bad Breathing Day but i just need to make it through this shift :(

#i keep doing the sighing thing and the yawning thing every like 3 minutes #which is very distracting and difficult to keep working through 🙃 #and my lungs are burning which is always a great time #hghrhggh #probably only one more hour ;;;; #possibly 2 but probably only 1 #i.... really need to get a doctor #so i can go 'hey here's the last decades worth of issues and what it Isn't can we please figure out what it IS now?' #shh ac

[bunnyb34r]

Tired of having to nap for 4 hours :/

#wish my body would just let me do things #i didn't even really wanna do anything today aside from christmas cards but we kinda only have 10 people we like enough #to send to so agdggdbdb idk #i think its long covid bc i get this pain in my chest like someone hit me with a bat #my dr said my lungs sounded great though which is good but like... #marquilla #edit: cards done

[dilfsisko]

In a love hate relationship with prednisone

#els.txt #like it makes me feel fucking great. takes away my pain opens up my lungs 10/10 #however the side effects are so bad it’s not worth it #so I rarely get access to it #which sucks bc it works so fucking well #damn you pancreas. damn you to hell.

[mourningroutine]

being fucking anxious is wild!! girl i went grocery shopping why do i feel like i'm being hunted for sport!

#if it get real bad i'll feel like i can't get enough air in my lungs #which is a great feeling!! #like my brain and body are truly fucking me up in this canned food aisle

[coffeekoe]

i find it funny that the day i was planning on cosplaying yut-lung i wake up with a horrible headache,, is it because he’s a headache to deal with whenever he’s on screen? HAH sorry

edit: i JUST FOUND THIS IN MY DRAFTS LMAO WHAT THIS IS SO FUNNY I CAME FOR HIM SO HARD

#i killed him #which is great cause btw hes one of my least fave bf characters #i find him insufferable LMAO #banana fish #sorry to yut-lung enjoyers

[c4tto626]

man after i stopped being covid positive at the end of november i was feeling fine i had no symptoms anymore not even a cough really and now i’ve been back to work for almost a week and i have a fucking cough again bc i sit for 8 hours in a large barely isolated warehouse that is almost constantly cold bc the large gate has to be opened again and again to transfer crates and boxes in or out and i hate it so fucking much jfc when i applied for what was advertised as an ‘office’ job this is not what i was thinking of

#the fucking cold all day #combined with the ever present faint paper dust in the air #from all the crates of paper files we're processing #is definitely irritating my lungs #which probably weren't in their best state already #following the covid infection #ugh i just want to be warm #also working heavily with your hands fucking sucks #when your hands are so cold all the time #i keep thinking i should just quit and find a new job #what's stopping me is the actual work? love it #i can just sit by myself and listen to music and work #no one to talk to unless i have to #it's great #and i'm anxious about not finding something i enjoy if i leave #agjhfgkfglfgf #okay rant over #i'm just mentally preparing myself for one more day of cold tomorrow #:(((

[raw-squid]

ya know what, the comfort "deus in absentia" is bringing me the last few days, while feeling like I'm loosing control over my life is kinda fucked up

"The world is on fire, and you are here to stay (and burn with me)"

#3 weeks sick! #like 70% lung volume and doctor got no clue why #caughing #but now no more pain which is great improvement #complicated personal friend/family stuff #:) #ghost band #comforting music is my go to

[celeste-fitzgerald]

HELP I DON'T KNOW WHO MY FAVORITE MEMBER OF ELO IS ANYMORE. IS IT HUGH OR KELLY?? WHO KNOWS?? NOT ME!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

#every time i listen to Kelly's songs i get the urge to shriek at the top of my lungs and run around in circles #which is super great right now while I'm currently at work 🙃 #gkrkfjfjffjfjFKDJDEJFLEODKXK

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Day 161 and we've got even more faces! Expressions. Whatever.

I'm really satisfied with shocked/surprised and triumph, they both turned out so good. Won't top tired and bereft, those remain my faves, but we'll see how the rest of the boxes turn out before we declare them the overall winners XD (No I don't know when this became a contest, just roll with it)

Something about Confused and WTF?! don't sit right with me but I'm not sure what it is. I mean, I know what it is, but I'm not sure how to fix it. Flirty is almost in the same category, and I kind of think I just can't draw Mizu from that side for some reason? But sad looks fine, so idk wtf is up with that.

Also, flirty doesn't look especially flirty because Mizu is really, really bad at flirting XD Like, deliberate flirting. Accidental flirting, she's a pro at. It's one of the few traits we share :P

#the great artscapade of 2022 #bobbi's being weird again #art #my art #kingdom hearts oc #kingdom hearts fanart #oc: mizu #expression sheet #thank god it's the weekend #which I wish would last forever #no I will not stop bitching about work any time soon work is what gave me Covid #I'm recovering though! #my lungs try to turn themselves inside out any time I talk but the fatigue is finally fading! #being allowed to work from home really helped I think #since I didn't try to force myself to walk to my bus stop before I was ready and wear myself out thus setting my recovery back #now I just need to get my bronchial nonsense to stop betraying me

[flamagenitus]

I have covid, I have an 8 am class, I have a video call interview, I have to be up in 5 HOURS. Kill me pls

#personal #i can't sleep #also i miss my bf so i went looking for pictures of him on my phone. which went great (i want a HUG from the Most Handsome Man Alive) #but i also found even more cat pictures. and i got distracted #anyway. i had better find a solid cure for insomnia sometime soon bc if i have to cope w this shit for another week i'll die #also ik i keep saying i have covid like it's so wild!!1! when it isn't rly. but i avoided getting covid at all until december 2023 #and i'm so aware of how it can fuck up people's lives! so i'm just sitting here like haha. uh oh :) my lungs hurt!!

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

health issues + freaking out about health = not fun times

#on one hand im a bit of a hypochondriac which isn’t helped by my body not working great #on the other hand the type of cancer they found doesn’t usually spread to lymph nodes and is more likely to spread to #the bones and lungs. so every time i feel short of breath (which can happen just bc i freak myself out) i further panic over it being either #covid or metastasis. the former freaks me out more tbh but I don’t want the latter either #vent tw #update im fine i was just laying in a bad position