#which means we have no benefits

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The musical episode.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #Remember jin guangyao: If you do any treachery you will face the wrath of five horses. #When are the horses going to come into play? You'll see. #s2.ep8 had beautiful music... I listened to it on loop while drawing! #Good music to chill out to before you fly into a rage. #This episode really cements how JGY's mind works - It is a matter of long-term outcomes at the sake of nearly everything else. #Morals do not matter to him if the outcome is more favourable. #and at the center of it all - he has learned that the only person he can truly trust is himself. #In turn - the only person his actions benefit are himself. #He will do anything and everything it takes to reach a position of power - not just for the power. But because it means safety. #Because it was something he was denied and the idea of not having control in his life again is unforgivable. #'Happiness' isn't a goal. We are looking at someone still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's hierarchy of needs. #Everything and everyone is a piece in a game. Bonds and friendships are assets. People are dispensable. #He wants to climb for the sake of climbing. He wants praise and recognition because he feels it is deserved. It's all so hollow. #We could go deeper into his psyche on this. #But these are also tags under a comic in which 'evil penis music' is the punchline.

[zeb-z]

“Red team was so selfish looking past the cursed team like that” listen man they were thinking about it often, and had evidence they were cursed too. They were convinced they were cursed too. Bad (with Pierre’s help I’ll be honest) singlehandedly destroyed any sort of civil relations and good faith between the two teams and this shot Blue in the foot when they tried to make the case about them being cursed last minute, about trying to rig it in the cursed teams favor.

There was never a cursed team in the first place, it was all a tactic to build paranoia and that feeling of betrayal and to get them to tear eachother a part. And it worked super well! At the end, neither would listen to the other about their evidence, not with an honest open ear, not with the willingness to think the other team could be cursed. It’s not a case of ‘Red just refused to listen because they wanted to win more than they cared’ they thought they were cursed too - if they were selfish, then so were Blue in the same way.

Every time Red had tried to talk first early on, it was met with extreme violence - and with Bad consistently proving he’ll play dirty to win, they didn’t trust Blue enough to listen to them in the later game. Maybe they should have listened then. Maybe Blue have listened earlier. The game worked as intended to set them against eachother.

#link is to another post I made back when they were debating about the cursed teams in purgatory and why red couldn’t trust blue and blue #couldn’t believe red. they were both stuck #and bless Tubbo he tried. he did try. but he was just as convinced he was right as Phil at the end. it was about convincing one another #more than it was about coming together and piecing together the evidence. yknow what I mean? they all cared about it but because of tension #and they also could not trust blue. which sucks because that’s hardly Tubbo’s fault but yknow #I dunno. it’s not simple like that. it’s not a case of red blowing it off being selfish not caring. they also thought they were cursed #AGAIN I’ll say it again bad burning bridges fucked a lot of them over for when diplomacy had to win because there could not be benefit of #the doubt or good faith or any sort of trust #it’s not just cut and dry red wanted to win more or blue wanted to win more. it was complicated and had way more factors #red thought they were cursed too!! they had solid evidence for this too!! #and like. again it’s a case of both parties kinda suck purgatory sucked it was always going to be like that because the game worked as #intended #idk. blue should have listened to red early on. red should have listened to blue later on. they were never going to do that on either side #idk from Tina’s pov it’s understandable why she said what she said. but knowing the others pov and what actually went down that’s not what #happened at all yknow? #they’re all gonna be feeling the effects of ‘we killed and betrayed eachother for two weeks’ for a while to come #mcyt #qsmp #qsmp purgatory #z speaks

[cardentist]

between jay marble hornets and jon magnus archives I think a lot of people really do just take offense to characters in horror movies being People and not action heroes

paranoia and fear are considered character flaws (stupidity or cowardice or a lack of humanity). they're supposed to strong enough to survive but anything they do for survival has to be Socially Acceptable.

you can't have a horror protagonist be Smart without also being paranoid, otherwise it's not good horror. asking a character to always make the right decisions and always know when they're in danger but Also holding them accountable when they're distrustful of the characters that You know are safe is silly.

sometimes not being crazy murdered means doing a little stalking. wanting to live when you know For Sure that there's someone (or something) out there that is completely willing to kill you means choosing Survival over social convention

#marble hornets #slenderverse #tma #the magnus archives #the characters don't get the benefit of hindsight #they don't know which characters they're destined to have homoerotic survival with #horror characters are Allowed to be a little mean as a treat #because otherwise they are going to die #that's how the genre works #I love tim #I Love Tim #but the fact that We know that he was a good person from our knowledge as audience members #doesn't mean that the Characters are in the wrong for not knowing #it's the same in reverse ! #tim was exactly as in the right for being angry #I like that example because if I'm vague enough then it works for both mh and tma

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

#just something i've been pondering the last few days #kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories #the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel #and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity #but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose #or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own #queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so #and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself #and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid #but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking #especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad' #and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt #I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories #and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy #and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep #but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage #or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not #therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation #this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol #so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering

[your-royal-momoness]

#I know we have supportive sokka #but may I introduce #straighforward Sokka #hello my name is momo and I am PISSED #and also not surprised #which makes me even more pissed #I mean #I’m a rich white person in a blue state #I’ll be fine #but what about EVERYONE ELSE #Usually if things benefit people like me it means it’s hurting everyone else #I am upset I am rioting #if you don’t have the capacity to riot right now that’s ok too #you do what you need to do #trashbending #atla #pro choice #roe vs. wade #supreme court #sokka #avatar: the last airbender #avatar the last airbender #a:tla #avatar

[saintbanglesthegazelle]

I promise you if you give people the benefit of the doubt, if you assume ignorance or misunderstanding instead of malice, if you make the effort to give and recieve clarity, if you listen to people's thoughts and explanations, you will see the world as so much less cruel than you had before. So much more loving. It's not easy, but it's so so important to do, for yourself and others

#bangles' post #this is about my dad #who last week had invalidated my chosen name as a not-real name and sought my permission to use my deadname when talking to the older gen #and today sat down with me to talk about my chosen name and what it means to me. he really sought to understand why i chose it #and he then not only apologised for misunderstanding the value of my name and for invalidating it #but also explicitly reassured me that im allowed to tell him if hes wrong #which is huge for him. hes never invited correction on something lile this before - something that he feels is a matter of principle #ie chosing a name with importance and meaning and serious intent #hes not perfect. he still holds dated beliefs that he hasnt truly examined or even allowed himself to question. #hes never been particularly emotional available or even very present in my daily life #but he is trying. and he does want to be better #and if both of us had given eachother the benefit of the doubt we could have had a much better conversation about my name #but still. talking about now its clear that he does genuiningly want whats best for me. he just needs to know that #im taling myself seriously enough that the ways he tries to help will actually be helpful #im rambling. anyway #give people the benefit of the doubt. i promise its worth it

[catoscloves]

you know in my ap us history/ap government classes something that comes up in the videos they have us watch as homework assignments is how governments & especially fascist regimes will use children's education as a tool to mass-brainwash the impressionable youth into believing in their ideology while cutting off their access to outside information & resources that would contradict and completely disintegrate that line of thinking, and being the thg girlie that i am i immediately thought "hey that sounds familiar, pretty much what happened to the career tributes" and after that i was like "oh. that's literally suzanne's entire point!! right."

#even the US did this during wwi and literally took away their beloved constitutional freedom of speech when it didn't benefit the war effort #the constitution: yeah people should be say what they wish (within reason) because that is literally the founding principle of liberty #the US during a war when people disagreed with the draft: yeah how about no #i wouldn't goso far as to call it fascist that is not the correct word (i don't think I'd be able to publish this post online if the US was #but like ??? 'freedom of speech but not when it's inconvenient for us' 💀💀💀 #the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the career tributes #listen no matter how you feel about them as characters (even katniss saw them as jerks which they kind of were) #if you were raised from literal infancy/toddlerhood to think that murder was super cool and great #and had no reliable resources or education telling you otherwise #I mean. anybody in that situation would have turned out just as bad as cato was according to katniss #they weren't going to grow a moral conscience they deadass had no frame of reference to be like 'wait maybe the ideas we grew up believing #in our whole life are actually?? wrong and oppressive????? #cato hadley #clove kentwell #district 1 #district 2 #anna speaks

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

so much of a 21st century woman that i legitimately had to have a guy in my YA lit class explain to me how men's emotions work because i've only ever heard about it from idiotic women speaking for men or super macho guys who think any form of emotion is utter weakness for my entire life

#idk yall men are interesting #something about how they're way less nuanced than women #like girls expect the same level of emotional complexity with guys as is evident in us #which means like 45 different feelings all at the same time and playing into the stability of our psyches #meanwhile the guy might legit just be tired #such an interesting conversation and now i think i have to find music that accurately portrays what he told me about how men actually #like #feel emotions #this is so random i hate being a modern woman #like i love my right to vote and my ability to get high paying jobs and a stem degree if i had desired but like #women don't know how men work and it's a problem because we think they're like us and they're not and it's unfair for us to speak for them #but like we don't know what's real anymore either #blargh #thanks random guy in my upper level english class for your candor you answered a lot of my questions #there are many benefits to attending a catholic college

[friendofthecrows]

Happy season 17 everyone :))) i don't think this hellsite will ever escape

#cw supernatural #misha collins #yeah so what happened this time is #the cw pressured misha to come out as bisexual AGAIN #(yes this is separate than last time where he accidentally came out and then had to un-come out) #(i understand if it's confusing bc this time ALSO happened at a supernatural convention) #anyways it was to 'benefit the show' and everyone's debating if they mean like #the show that's been OVER FOR TWO YEARS (other than the Multimedia Experience TM) #or Gotham Knights which is a show he's currently in #it seems like it would be the latter except it was at a spn convention and misha did play the gay angel for 10 years #so like both sides have a case #funnily enough no one's really debating Misha's Schrodinger's bisexuality - who cares about that the sheer fact he erroneously came out and #then had to un-come out TWICE #THAT'S TWO SEPARATE TIMES #is just too funny #dr doofenshmirtz meme here #some folks are joking that it's bc people were mad at them for not letting Dean be bi #so now the network is like 'here we made this real human man bisexual instead :) no he did not have a say in the matter'

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 26

"Songs About Rain" by Gary Allan

#song of the day #you might think that this is the opposite of 'Groovy Little Summer Song' but nope! closer to same because (drumroll) #they are one of the very best categories of thing: Country Songs About Country Songs #I love them. I adore them #'Songs About Rain' is one of the strongest and best examples of type I have (also 'Cheatin Songs' by Midland. impeccable) #'and it sure ain't easin my pain / all these songs like / Rainy Night in Georgia / Kentucky Rain #Here Comes That Rainy Day Feelin Again / Blues Eyes Cryin in the Early Mornin Rain #they go on and on and there's no two the same / oh it would be easy to blame / all these songs about rain' #what a gift. what a delight. legitimately hard to sing this song in a mournful voice because it makes me so damn happy #anyway as you might glean from how this is posting at 3 pm my time: my sleep schedule is /fucked/ #I did have part of the bad conversation with my boss on Monday (immediately followed by garden times #which so overtook me that I spoke only about the garden and good spring feeling in my song post. what a blessing the garden is) #but mostly what happened is I said 'hey it is technically possible for me to make this but it will not help it will not do anything useful' #and my boss said 'but you can make it' and I said 'yes but we shouldn't. it will be a waste of time' and she said 'make it by Thursday' #and I said 'I absolutely cannot make it by Thursday. if I finish instead this better thing I've already been working on--' #and she said 'no we don't care about that thing. make part of the useless thing. by Thursday morning' #and I said 'if I bring you part of the useless thing and part of the good thing and I directly compare them in front of you--' #and she said 'we'll look at whatever you have Thursday morning but it's the useless thing we care about' #so the meeting is scheduled and I'm going to plead for the life of my better thing and probably the best I'll get is permission to do both #which is. I mean the useless thing is going to be a time-waster for sure but at least it won't be actively detrimental to anything? #it'll be fine I'll make it be fine. the inherent problems of when your boss doesn't actually know what you do for them I guess :/ #(also maybe. maybe if it comes down to it. maybe I'll just make the good thing for myself and use it to make my own life better #and someday maybe they'll ask for a project that works and then I'll be able to dramatically unveil it but either way I'll benefit from it #hmm maybe yeah)

[gifti3]

Im cursing [REDACTED] right NOW

#god i better never have contact with this guy again or i might flip out on him #im about to ramble about my past “dating" adventures (we were casual but sheesh cant even be friends with this guy tbh) #im realizing months later how much this guy i used to talk to sucked #like DUDE be a better or stay single FOREVER (ΘдΘ) #and by that i mean learn how to better handle approaching others feelings! #god the way he would just shutdown others ppls feelings and it was just an endless loop of “that doesnt make sense” or “thats dumb” #sure emotions can be irrational but if someone is desperately TRYING to explain why they feel a way (even if theyre struggling to be clear) #maybe dont be so dismissive #like literally one time i was annoyed cause talking to him was grating on my nerves #and i was like ik it doesnt make sense so let me step away cause im annoyed #and hes like trying to logic me out of my annoyance??? #like worstie im literally walking away so i can cool off #leave it be! #god looking back on all this.... #i hope to god whoever hes talking to (if hes talking to anyone) isnt dealing with similar things #ppl can change so ill just hope for that #or maybe he'll meet his match #someone who reflects the same energy he has! #tho im not sure if hed like that haha #the guy seemed to have a lot of relationship problems in general (romantic and platonic) and i wanted to have the benefit of the doubt #but now im thinking maybe his personality was also just clashing with everyone elses #which isnt necessarily a bad thing on its own #gotta get context for everything u know #but in this case....naur #like im a pretty anxious person so how ppl i care about will react to what im doing or saying is constantly at the back of my mind! #so ppl who just come off as flippant about my fee fees annoy me fr #im like “ahh what if i upset so and so” constantly #trying to make sure not to make things harder for them #and they cant even spare me a single thought before doing something and dismiss me when i get upset #but also they wanna come to me when theyre feeling sad about something???

[kareenvorbarra]

i would LIKE to have kids one day but the sick fucks in the republican-majority wi state legislature removed paid family leave from the budget! thanks for nothing assholes

#it was only 12 weeks of leave too like...cmon #i mean 12 weeks of paid leave is better than 12 weeks of unpaid leave which is all we have right now #and that's from the federal law #i'm sure i would in theory be able to use some of my vacation time and sick leave for maternity leave but i shouldn't HAVE to #and this is all still theoretical for me but there are tons of people who need these benefits NOW #personal #politics

[timegears-moved]

i'm anti-explorers remake i really do not want an explorers remake (<- guy who will still buy an explorers remake)

#bwark #i can't say no to pmd + eos is my favourite game and it means a lot to me #but like. we just need one!! #im worried that remake won't capture the same experience as the original because the ds sprites are just so charming #but also there's not enough to fix to warrant a remake #like the only thing i can think of is elaborating on darkrai but considering rtdx didn't fix anything with rt's weak story i doubt they'll #touch that. and that one thing that's exclusive to the end of the postgame doesn't make a remake worth it #like with rtdx the gameplay at least needed some heavy tweaking #and while i am letdown with the lack of story improvements those qol changes were very welcomed #but explorers doesn't have those issues the original rt did #the only other benefit i can see and this is only towards my team but i can make my sylveon thea/luxray aziel team real #can't do that in the originals but like. still #and that's if they remake sky and not time/darkness. which is the worst timeline #which would be a stupid but probable decision considering bdsp exists #idk im rambling. brand new pmd game with new story and characters pls no explorers remake #*we DONT need one #oops

[claire-starsword]

Breakdown of Deviantart’s new AI policies

if anyone still thinks the deviantart thing is just miscommunication, i took the time to read carefully all their infuriating word salad, and here’s the important thing about their new AI:

“While DreamUp is based on third-party technologies (like Stable Diffusion) which have trained their models with the open web, DeviantArt does NOT and WILL NOT add images submitted on DeviantArt to these training sets, on or off the platform.”

Translation: of course we wouldn’t ever steal you art! We’ll just use the thing that has already stolen your art. The thing we said we disagree with. We doing it. Yeah.

Also, about that opt out form going around:

“Artists should be able to choose whether or not AI-images can be generated in your style. Artists who meet the criteria in our manual human review of applicants will be able to request an opt out of their username along with several desired pseudonyms linked to them be unavailable for use in DreamUp prompts.”

Translation: artists should be able to choose if their art style can be used by AI or not. But screw them, we’re choosing. Meet our criteria if you want to opt out. We’re not telling you what the criteria is. Except we kinda do, in the form, and it’s beautiful:

“Currently, we'll be approving this ability for free to artists who are most likely to have been sourced by Stable Diffusion. In this first version of the opt-out process, we will only be considering accounts that follow best practices, including but not limited to:

An up-to-date email (must be the same one associated with your DeviantArt profile)

Any social accounts linked in your DeviantArt profile’s about section”

Currently = this criteria may change at any time I guess! They will protect your art! They love artists! They’re just keeping their options open in case they wake up tomorrow loving them less. Reliable business model!

including but not limited to = they legit don’t wanna tell the whole criteria lmao. I know people are already filling out this form and I hate to say it, be ready for disappointment, because they clearly are paving the way to be able to deny it for literally any reason. This should be a case study of obfuscation via stupid vague legal wordy stuff.

The “for free” part is also terrifying as it implies they have considered and are still considering paywalling this. You’ve heard of $8 for blue checkmark, now get ready for $8 for basic art rights! Except for that part I covered early where your art is already stolen, of course.

The up-to-date email thing again means that people locked out of old accounts are being opted in against their will, and they know, and they��re deliberately enforcing it. Note that this form isn’t about your art being used in datasets though, it’s about your style being used as a prompt for the AI. Nevertheless both things should be opt out by default, as that how consent works.

I legit don’t know what to say about the social accounts linked in your profile. They are likely gonna say it’s to help verify the person’s identify, and it makes no sense at all as social media isn’t for that, as recent events have taught us more than ever. The email tied to your account should be all a service like this needs. As I said, they clearly wanna keep their options open to deny people through whatever criteria they pop out of a hat that day.

TL;DR everything DA says about avoiding art theft in their AI is word salad to confuse their users, their AI is based of one that has trained on stolen art anyway, and their opt out processes are way too convoluted to not be intentional.

#deviantart #ai art #art theft #artists on tumblr #art #sorry i don't know what to tag but people need to see this #worst part is: if we only could convince them to make the opt out default this would be great #it would be more protection than anything artists got on this matter #but i can't trust them at all when this is how they went about it. who knows if the protections are even real #it does feel odd that they'd allow third parties access to stuff by default while not using it #which is why i suspect they do benefit from third parties accessing it #but i don't know enough about ai dev to claim that #i don't know if being based on stable diffusion means they get to use future updates of it #if yes then it explains all this mess #if no then they'd be launching an ai that is bound to be worse than the existing ones by not having as much training #and i don't see the point of that #i doubt they've assembled in little time an epic dev team capable of making up for the lesser dataset #but also i don't care. what matters the most is that they are scum for how they treated their user base with this

[mantisgodsdomain]

We do HC Vi as having chronic pain but we don't often get into the specifics of it because in our experience fandom as a whole, even when it talks about chronic pain headcanons, will often have it more focused on, like... heat pads, or massaging out some aches, or ibuprofen, and yeah, that's totally fine, but we really don't see a lot of, like... major chronic pain talk.

Like, the kind of stuff that can get bad enough to inhibit your thoughts and make you struggle to get logical trains of thought through, the stuff that can make it actively difficult to make it out of bed because if you move the wrong way your brain starts sending out chemicals that make you feel like you're being set on fire, the kind of shit where bad days can paint over almost all of the space you have in your brain for thoughts just to store the fact that you're in pain. It's just... not there, and maybe it's because we're looking in the wrong place or whatever, or the natural side effects of Being In That Kind Of Pain Makes It Hard To Make People Aware You Exist resulting in a knowledge gap, but most of the time when we see "chronic pain" it means just, like. Milder forms. The sort of pain that's low-level present in the back of your mind like static in a radio channel rather than someone yelling at you that something's wrong.

The pain is chronic, sure, and you get used to it, but that doesn't mean that every guy with chronic pain can just Get Used To It, or that you can't get narrative value out of a character with Worse pain. It needs a bit of semantics, yeah, but that's what being a writer is for. Where is your guy getting their painkillers? How well do they work? What if they ran out, or they lost access to their usual supply? What if, like, a bodyswap plot or something similar happens, and another character has to handle it? There's so much fun stuff you can do. We are very much asking you to do it.

#we speak #any significant level of physical or emotional pain will make you remarkably stupid and we are begging for people to Play With That #we realize that handing characters any disability that requires Logistics to handle is Unappealing To Authors but. listen. #if we have to see chronic pain boiled down to just the milder flavors then we'll die and we DO want to see people handle this in fic #kabbu would benefit from better painkillers regardless but. we'll be honest. intense pain tends to make people WAY more snappish #and we cannot hc him as having chronic pain THAT intense ourself because you are NOT as calm as all that when unmedicated #and kabbus ass doesnt have access to painkillers that would mute or negate that because he is an adventurer out in the middle of nowhere #who doesnt have like. a consistent clinic. or a pharmacist. or regular doctors visits. or really anywhere to get those consistent pain meds #which means those hcs have to fall to Other People we hit with the pain stick

[sanchoyo]

guess who got a JOB 👈👈😎

#idk how itll actually be but it sounds good in theory!!! #they can do my hours + benefits!!! on part time!!! (GOOD benefits too!!!) PLS LET IT WORK OUT....PRAYER CIRCLE #i dont start until MAYBE next week (or later depending on the speed of the background check/drug test stuff) BUT....it SOUNDS good to me #ill be workin Alone for the most part...just Vibin in my Own Area...free food/drinks too!! #i rly would like for it to work . bc this was GREAT TIMING i lose my dads insurance v v soon like 1 month T_T was starting to sweat over it #AND ITS NOT FAST FOOD OR RETAIL (HUGE W IF I HAD TO GO BACK I WOULD START BAWLING) #+ the boss seemed v nice and chill (and had sick tats) (I DONT HAVE TO DYE MY HAIR A NORMIE COLOR EITHER!!! DOUBLE W) #sanchoyorambles #very very happy. and so nervous i will probably puke #there were no interview questions btw it was just us cracking jokes + paperwork i got hired on the spot B) #i mean /i/ had questions but like none of the usual bs like #'where do u see urself in 5 years. why is this ur ideal job' type shit which was GREAT bc i hate those qs SO MUCH #we all know im here for money. and benefits. we do not need 2 play these games #but actually dishwasher or janitor kinda IS my ideal job?? so??? lol actually #i LIKE chill jobs where im cleaning things im GOOD at it when i had a higher pressure job where my work actually like #could influence HOW WELL AMBULANCES WORKED. IF I MISREAD A BLUEPRINT OR DIDNT DO MINOR THINGS RIGHT. THATWAS SCARY AND TOO MUCH PRESSURE #i mean my real dream job is artist/writer/otherwise creative in nature but. yknow! not realistic rn so....we r doing what we gotta 😤 #i...will try very hard this time #i NEED that debt to be paid off fr