#while it could have been so beautiful

[chiricat]

acheswan 🔥

#cat’s art #penacony #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr fanart #acheron #black swan #acheswan #it's been a while... alas #i've either been super busy or having generally less than pleasant feelings about my art ... #enough about that though #MY PROTAG NUIS CAME!!!! THEY ARE SO CUTE AND LOVELY AND SOFT #and i'm almost finished with p3re! I'M SCARED... EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THAT THEY WERE BAWLING AT THE ENDING SCENES #also what is wrong with ryomina. RYOJI IS SO FUNNY LIKE BRO... BRO? ARE YOU G #will i be able to ryomina or will i get paralyzed by “they're too beautiful and i could never do them justice” ... find out next time

[icantdothistodaybruh]

yea sooooo I may have or may have not watched and instantly rewatched all kuro musicals in existence in a spawn of one week and now have roughly 40 screenshots to redraw from

I think I might be insane or something

#it's all sebaciel of course #god I wish I could erase my memory and rewatch the most beautiful death and tango on the campania #the latter I watched like 3 times but death I found a long long while ago so now it must've been my tenth or so rewatch #and I'm still so not normal about the final song and overall parallels between sebaciels and alan x eric i'm fijsdfdjfo #and sebastian is so dumb he is sO BLIIIINDDDD IT'S CRAZY #“me? going against my nature and principles over some tiny human? I could neve-” yeah bro mhm talk about it after the gwa and rciel reveal #also fellas is it gay to *pretend* to try to wake up your master just so you can have an excuse to carry him? #and then sing about how every night you fantasize about kissing him and holding him? #is it fellas?? #and the whole scene of alan's death when in his memories he and eric VERY PLATONICALY look at falling petals and he goes #“ah so beautiful it looks like snowfall :)” #and fucking moments later sebastian kills eric the souls are flying everywhere just so ciel could go #“ah so beautiful it looks like snowfall :|” #I'm going fucking insaine I hate it here every time is like the first #"some things are simply meant to be beautiful” proceeds to STARE AT CIEL FOR A GOD DAMN ETERNITY #I can't I literally can't I'm miserable #sebaciel #was so busy with my rant I even forgot to include the tag at first oh my god

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

[no-brain-just-akutagawa]

how I'll sleep knowing we may get Fyodor's backstory tomorrow

[ID: Sigma sleeping in bed. End ID]

#our sleeping beauty #bsd #bsd memes #bsd spoilers #bungou stray dogs #bsd sigma #bsd original #posts with ids #I didn't expect to post today haha #I hope it was an official preview not just a leak #it's been a while since I was actually hyped up for a new chapter #but still respecting the authors is more important #so please guys don't ever leak any parts of chapters before the official release #now that I saw the page I have every time we touch I get this feeling and every times we kiss I swear I could fly stuck in my head

[chiropteracupola]

our soft little guy whose full name is technically ....alyosha hobbitovich karamozov.

#hobbit the cat #miranda cytocutie asked about it and I felt like I had to explain. #it was a terrible incident of my father's recurring russian literature interest that happened to occur while we were filling out paperwork #about what the cat should be named... and now we have an incredibly beautiful cat with this ridiculous moniker #these phases come around every so often and he'll start doing things like calling the family over to listen to him doing a live reading #of 'the death of ivan ilyich' WHILE in the swimming pool. but hey well at least we didn't name the cat while he's been into kombucha #it could have been even worse

[eye-of-yelough]

Once again going insane about doing Legacy right between All That Remains and the last act 2 mission (forgor the name) and headcanon-ing that they all take place within a month

Like imagine. You are Hawke. Your mum just kicked it. You’re in mourning, haven’t left the house since, and you get RAIDED by Carta dwarf cultists. Then, in no particular order, you

- find out about some Really Weird Shit your dad did with Wardens, and that your (recently deceased) mother was almost killed by this guy you sort of trusted

- venture in to the deep roads and kill an Old Fucking God.

Oh and by the way during this, the love of your life, only person you have left, light in darkness is being driven insane by said Old God in front of you, and talking about how you would be better off without him. And then he attacks you.

So your mum just died and your mourning was interrupted by This Shit. You’re nearing the end of your fucking rope down here but by some miracle you survive and get back to Kirkwall to mourn in peace. And now add “process this traumatising insanity” to that list.

eeeexcept you can’t do that actually. You come home to a letter from the Viscount begging for your aid to help his son. Oh, of course, Seamus. He was such a nice boy you can’t let him die. So you go Do That.

And THEN. Aveline, the woman partially responsible for your mothers death like TWO WEEKS AGO shows up in your house with another mess for you to clean up. Also your best friend is there too saying she’s gonna die. And she leaves and you think she’s gonna be gone forever and. Ok this is getting really long.

Fast forward, Arishoks dead, you’re in mourning and every hightown noble feels entitled to your company all of a fucking sudden because you’re a “Champion” now. Hooray.

#basically. trauma. #it’s just so fucking. crunchy. #anyway Leo goes. genuinely a bit insane for a while I think. I mean how couldn’t you? #it’s just So Sad because in the pre All That Remains section of act 2 she’s doing pretty good mentally #she’s been working her ass off all her life and it finally pays off a little. she has a house and her mums happy #and that beautiful stubborn asshole finally caved and you have a really good thing going with him #and she doesn’t have to do grunt work for money anymore and she kinda calms down with the killing and the. everything #and then womp womp. aww you thought you could be happy? you fool #dragon age 2 #leo hawke #your daily dose of idiocy

[tortoiseguy]

The handler is very cool and epic actually

Capcom just refuses to hire writers for some reason and also has like 1 intern who isn't a misogynistic dick wad who wasn't in the day they wrote her dialogue

#the handler should have been a super autism coded charcater who cant be scared by anything #like shes just so fascinated by the beauty of the new world #that she doesnt notice the giant monster sneaking up on her #and is still like unharmed by some cosmic luck of the universe #like inspector gadget or domino #shes a looney tunes baby walking theough a construction site #anyone who tries to help her ends up on the receiving end of everything bad that could have happened while shes unscathed #the mh team just has this weird idea that any woman in the series HAD to either be sexualised to shit or super incompetent #no in between #no nuance #monster hunter seriously needs to address its misogyny problem and players need to stop brushing it under the rug #monster hunter #monster hunter lore

[bonefall]

I’d be REALLY wary of that idea. I know it’s not your intention but no matter how you slice it that creates a scenario where some cats are genetically superior and more civilised than others based on where they’re from, which I feel is bad even if they happen to be nice to kittypets. Really love your work but maybe consider how you’d handle that one !!

Yeah, that's exactly the reason why I tacked the big old "THIS IS NOT IN THE REWRITE" warning onto the front of it lmao.

It also creates a situation where the Clans have an actual, unfortunate REAL justification for cat eugenics, which would mix very, very badly even in situations where there is no Clan/Housecat conflict. Unless it was completely dominant and always passed on but... you see how it's already an uncomfortable idea I'd have to tack on a bunch of bandaids to.

Sometimes a thought remains just a thought exactly because you end up thinking through its implications, y'know?

#What I like about the idea that I haven't figured out how to do any other way is that it explains why cat culture is so rare #Like why weren't there cats living at that big beautiful lake as soon as the previous descendants cleared out? With a twolegplace so close? #Obviously for one of my rewrite stories the answer is that the lake was ecologically decimated for a time... but #It's been recovering for decades and cats could live in an early oak forest #Or the various twolegplaces. Why do they not have their own organized groups if cats have languages to speak? #So far I've just kinda ignored it or used the gods. Like Midnight is preventing people from living at the Lake #Or. Cats #I should say #If it's a quirk of Special Cats that also opens up talking about how Real Humans shouldn't let their cats outside #But like. This is ultimately just waffling because the cats in canon are not written as real cats. Warrior Cats isn't really a series about #cats at all. #It's about small four-legged humans #With a very bad xenophobia problem #And you all see how many fires I put out with my rewrite in the pursuit of snuffing out as much xenophobia as possible #So... it's like I have to sacrifice the real-world impact of the most invasive species on Earth to avoid it. Yknow? #Because I can't say BOTH 'some cats are ok to live in clans while others are not' AND 'Xenophobia Bad' #They're incompatible statements #And so I can't use the Clan Cat Subspecies in my rewrite. #Hope that's making sense

[the-2nd-random-kid]

So i heard that the orv movie is real

#im excited for the movie dont get me wrong but like #yeah these are just my thoughts on the matter #im happy that even more people will see it but like #yeah #god i literally took the screenshot so i didnt have to type about it all over again wHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF GKJFFJF #but yeahhhhh #its been a while since ive read it so its a p good time to catch up #orv #omniscient reader #omniscient reader viewpoint #theres also like-- this really good twitter posts that puts my thoughts into better words #thats basically just-- the movie has little to no chance of upholding expectations and that the story and meaning of the og work could get #muddled and misinterpreted like many failed movie adaptations #and ive also been out of the fandom so long that what i say and my own thoughts doesnt even really matter in the larger scale of things #but like #as a person who really deeply cares about this piece of work #or at least-- cares for it but had a much deeper love and appreciation for it a long time ago #im scared for the movie-- both for selfish reasons and 'righteous' reasons #righteous being 'please dear lord dont fuck it up- dont ruin this beautiful complicated story that apparently i never even got halfway thru #ill link the twitter post in an rb lmao

[bookishjules]

i feel like the 'i could make/do that' mindset is so invaluable to have. i don't mean in the sense of like going to a modern art museum and insisting that you, a non-artist, could have made the art just as easily. no, that is condescending assholery. the mindset i'm talking about is one more of confidence, of optimism and.. i guess the willingness to put yourself out there, to ask the right questions, to try something new. and to fail, or rather for your vision not to come to fruition. maybe you don't have the tools yet, maybe you haven't acquired all the skills. but at least you could try. and you have confidence in the level of ability you do have to start. oftentimes actually sitting down and doing something is the best way to learn, and the only thing that could stop you from starting is telling yourself 'i could never make/do that'

#there's a few songs on my playlist that are from the pov of a girl but that have a masculine voice and while that's honestly fine #and i've been living with them on there for over a year. i've also always toyed with the idea of making covers. #like hey i have a feminine voice. it may not be stellar but it would fit better. so what's stopping me?? #the answer was a guitar lol #but recently my bil has been teaching my sister to play guitar... and she has a better voice than i do #and so i asked if they would be willing to record covers of these songs with me and put them on spotify just for my playlist #apparently our brother might have some layering software too #and i'm not saying like 'wow i said i could make this and now i am!' bc really it's mostly gonna be my sis and her husband #but i just had to ask #like ig what i'm saying is anything is possible. and keeping your mind and heart open can bring about beautiful things #and actually i'm realizing a better story might have been about the play i just wrapped last week. my first time acting in anything #that one was much more of a learning curve for me but it still had the same spark of 'i could do that' and the same result #something homemade and cobbled together but good. #i just happened to make this post while thinking of my sister putting music on spotify for me <3 #the sibs #important

[good-beans]

Went to a queer wedding today and damn... everything's gonna be okay huh

#both brides are good friends of me and my girlfriend #and theyre literally so perfect for each other #we could tell even before they made it official how deeply they cared about each other #and today they had the most beautiful small ceremony #it was so joyful #one of the brides wasnt sure if her mom would come because shes very traditional and made it seem like she wouldnt #but she did come and was very supportive #i was so happy for them #i cried through all their vows asfvvbn #(to be fair they were gorgeous and everyone was emotional) #and then i cried during the speeches #there was just so much love and support #and sitting there with my gf after months of stressing over little things in the future #i just knew we'd be okay #and though its definitely a ways off (as i have to keep reminding her lmao) i cant wait for us to do that some day #thats all im just sappy 😅 #been a while since ive seen so many queer people in one place and just So Much Joy #rose rambles

[thehardkandy]

I do think it's the winter getting to me but as soon as vacation ended I am digging myself further into a feeling of. Missing something important

#like i just need to go be creative and getting into the swings of passion #but I've been kinda drowning in SI more than is normal and while that's something i don't have an issue pushing through #it does make it especially difficult to create because i think about diving back into something #and it's just a big black hole where if i do it. so what. why does it matter and what is it for #and unfortunately giving into the black hole (shockingly) does not make the feeling any better #it just makes it bigger snd bigger and bigger #and everything feels so topsy turvy because more so than ever before my life looks like. more than i could have hoped for #working full time saving money eating well living independent #and it fucking sucks!!! i hate this shit!!!!! i dont wanna do this for 50 more years!!!!! #the things that bring me joy feel so secondary and insignificant cause everything i do #to give myself a good life that gives me space to ve creative and live and laugh...... doesnt do that #what do i do!!!! (rhetorical) #cause the answer is push through it. its to take my vitamin d and force myself to create #and soon enough ill be waxing poetic about how beautiful the life i have built for myself is #kinda silly how closely the feelings live together

[merriclo]

bro just beat totk. goddamn.

#spoilers incoming #!!!! #anyone who doesn’t want to be spoiled gone?? yall are gone? yeah?? ok good. don’t continue. spoilers. #ok so. the final battles were kind of super fucking easy 😭😭😭 #and ngl i’m a little disappointed that it didn’t include like. anything from the zonai. we could barely use the sages. #the arm was useless aside from bettering weapons #aside from that tho beautiful fight the animations and visuals were gorgeous #the story was sick as hell #while it definitely could’ve been more effective in some ways it was still great overall #tulin dropping in and being like ‘you don’t have to fight alone’ I LOVE YOU LITTLE GUY #don’t mind that the final battle was literally just Link and then Link using Zelda to get leverage on dragon ganon 🏃‍♂️💨 #still a wonderful game tho. wish the sky was involved more and that the depths were advertised more #bc. so much of the game is in the depths lmaoo #and the zonai research team felt underutilized 😭 for how often you ran into them they did very little #aside from the one quest with Paya and Tauro #idk. wish they had more. like they could’ve been the one investigating caves and such and that how you came across murals like the ones— #—under the castle which could’ve been the memories instead of the glyphs which were difficult to get in order #‘uh they told you how to get them in order—‘ not everyone immediately went to the forgotten temple 💀 #sonia dying was the second glyph i saw bc i went out and explored thinking ‘oh it’s a non linear game!! surly the memories will match that.’ #plus the grave glyph was very obvious #the memories and the sky are rlly my biggest gripes w the game i think. they’re good but idk they could’ve been a lot better #loved the depths tho i was all up in the depths #i couldn’t get enough. still can’t tbh #love that shit #it’s so cool #the shrines were super fun as well #loved the mario kart one #and the clothes were all super fun to find!! #why are lynels still harder to beat than ganon for me 💀 #uhhhh good game. rlly good. link is so fucking pretty and so is riju and i love tulin what a cutie pie

[spookyboywhump]

could he have given alexei away to another deity? sent him to some place of worship for "training?" made some kinda deal where alexei gets to leave but he has to come back for a week/month or something each year or nicholas will kill him with god powers?

I like those ideas but I have a feeling Nicholas would’ve wanted to keep Alexei. To himself. Even after he grew bored of him :)

#deity au #tbh I’m thinking he’s put him under a very #sleeping beauty/Snow White-esque sleep #Alexei has no knowledge of the time that’s passing. he’s the same as he was when Nicholas chose to. preserve him. #this was his favorite little human he doesn’t want to part with him #and now he doesn’t have to deal with his sad little face while he plays with his new humans #but he can hang on to him and know he’s still in his possession. essentially frozen in time. #Nicholas could undo that anytime he feels like it. Alexei wouldn’t know how much time had passed hed think #he’d just gone to sleep #he’s been isolated for so long he doesn’t know any better #there’s likely a part of the temple that’s off limits to the boys #they have a lot of freedom within it but this space is just for Nicholas to keep Alexei #they couldn’t wake him if they tried but he still doesn’t want them (mostly Eli) disturbing him #but that’s really just an idea just a thought just a consideration not like #set in stone #this whole au is very fun ideas to play with #anonymous

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it is truly so wild to go from feeling miserable and hopeless all the time for... lets look at my excel sheet #the last 23 days. then to suddenly rocket up to smiling to myself all day. the world is so fucking beautiful #for no rational reason aside from what i have to assume is a chemical shift in my body #like is this what happy ppl feel like all the time? its truely so crazy. have i always been like this? #did i not notice this was a thing? like ive definitely noticed it in the last year but like ??? #my suspicion is that it doesnt actually last long enough to b considered hypomania but like idk i should see a doctor probably lol #u would think being happy would make it easier to do things but i just keep forgetting to do them and just like spacing out lol bc rn i #feel chill. even tho i need to make a list of the shit i gotta do by Friday. bleh. but idk it makes being in thr lab so much nicer bc i #mean. i still dont give a fuck abt what im doing but im like fuck it this isnt gonna b my problem in like 2-3 months. even tho im sure ill #still have to write up everything. but idk. it also makes it easier to b like. ok so i kno what my problems r lets plan yo make things not #so horrible so u dont just live a miserable life and then like die having lived a life of fear. like its so crazy how much easier thst is #to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great #its like the fucking painting of hypnose. my focus is like a lighthouse wildly swinging its light around until it sometimes blasts me in #the face. like not helpful. i need to b able to do things. #i guess the weird thing rn is thst while i feel happy. i also have this like simmering fear of irrational things. like when i used to live #in my parents basement and i was terrified of the dark rooms down there at night. like that kind of childish baseless fear #but like im in i tiny tiny apartment lol like bro what r u scared of??? silly silly silly #idk hopefully it holds out the whole rest of the week and then i can travel and see my parents like !!! yo !!! happy vibes :-D #that would b kinda unhinged lmao. i doubt itll last thst long. its already slipped from this morning so we shall see #unrelated