(literally how I named the image, couldn't think of something else)
Hi guys :') To my followers and tumblr friends, I'm really sorry if my sudden disappearance scared or upset you. It wasn't quite... planned. And today was a busy day and I needed some time to consider what I wanted to do.
Short version of the story:
My tumblr account got terminated for copyright infringement. A certain Mr. Green got me in unlucky trouble (ref 1, 2).
I won't get it back, or try to get it back. It's gone.
Needed a moment to consider 2 options: ask Mia to extend my dramatic farewell letter and stay gone, or make a new blog.
Not planning to post new writing here. I won't be using words like 'never' or 'forever' because I'm a known clown with things like this, but the intention is to no longer post fics. I will finish Tickletober on AO3 and then take a break from writing. So yes, I cancel the swiftscribbles event too, sorry!
When I opened my laptop, I could see my old blog in its final hour lmao (I found out about the loss on my phone). So that's what the snap is from on a fitting grave. It was fun while it lasted!
Long version of the story:
Losing my blog(s): My Tumblr account with main blog + sideblogs got terminated overnight, it was quite the surprise! I've either been reported or tracked by bots. The posts are a bunch of numbered URLs I can't open, but the message is clear: for including anime content, genshin impact or media from other sources (whether it's videos, screenshots, official art, gifs or even fanwork) you technically can get a strike. Upon googling the claimer I quickly found this first, and knew it was a lost cause. Although it feels shitty and unlucky, I am in no place to appeal. It's like when I used to make AMVs in the past, you never knew whether a song or even anime footage was going to give your YT account a copyright strike or even a ban, it was a gamble. I have lost YT accounts before, and now I lost the Tumblr one. With 7+ years of tickle trash content and a bunch of sideblogs. But oh well, moving on!
Starting a new blog: It was a serious consideration whether this was my ultimate chance to do what I've always said I wanted to do eventually - quit my blog. My first thought was to ask Mia to share my explanation and literal goodbye with you guys, and stick to my chaos of a Twitter account to indulge in fandom stuff. But then I thought of how happy Tumblr made me, even without the fic writing, but just.. reblogging things, getting random asks, shouting about life and of course, about tickles. I decided to make a new blog after all, but also decided the following:
The 7K+ milestone swiftscribbles event is cancelled, for which I apologize! The follower milestone, together with the motivation to write the fics, and even the asks with the requests I got, all died with my former blog.
I will see how long I can survive without posting a new fic or drabble. A loose headcanon or two might fly around sometime. And if necessary, a link to a new fic on AO3.
Tickletober? Hell yes I'll finish it, I would cringe in bed for 49 days at least if I would stop. I just won't post the fics here, but on AO3.
Reposting/reblogging my old works? Undecided at the moment but I'm tired and lazy. I don't feel too upset since most of my fics are still on AO3 at least and not completely gone.
Anyways, I'll see what happens and how long I can enjoy this nerfed version of blogging.
Surprisingly I'm not upset about losing my other blog, there were a lot of memories but it was also very cringe. I'm gonna be just as cringe here, but at least I feel cleansed.
For those who choose to follow me again, thank you, but please know that there won't be much original content coming from me, for now!:)
Was sitting today BTS songs just playing in the background while I'm working on my post. All this shit just happening around us, around JK and JM (yes, JM is part of it, he's also affected by it all), and The truth untold comes up.
This version:
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One of, if not their best performance imo. The emotion just pouring out of them.
This song. It kills me every single time. Brings me to tears every single time. JM turned away from JK singing "and I still want you" in every performance. Well, other than their last 3 in Seoul, changed by them, performed by them, ending facing each other JM singing "but I still want you". Defiant.
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All about the need to wear that mask to hide your true self for fear you might not be loved for who you truly are, that you might be seen as ugly, a monster. And the two of them, changing the staging, turning to each other, looking into each other's eyes, while changing the "and" to "but I still want you"... do people understand this? The enormity of this moment?
And then this song comes up, this performance:
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This was on day 2, while on day 3 we had this:
Omg, my YT logarithm is trying to kill me today.
And got me thinking about this moment we got on day 3 as well.
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This love, people, this chemistry, us not seeing it as often for the lack of BTS ot7 content doesn't mean is gone. It's very much still there. We just aren't as lucky to be able to see them in that one frame as often or even at all. But when we do, there is no denying it. Even if it's for the shortest of moments.
We saw it in 2020 (have people forgot memories 2020 for god sake?)
We saw it in 2021
So much more, so little image allowance... But you can find it all in my masterlist.
We saw it throughout 2022 in their Seoul and LV PTD concerts.
And in JITB even if briefly,
And in Busan and Run BTS episodes.
And we even got a little touch of it in 2023, when there was no way of keeping them out of the frame, like in Jhope's enlistment BTB, D-Day in Seoul and even when not being in one frame, in those lives we got to enjoy when the one joined the other in their comments and even without the other even making that kind of appearance.
Letter, goddamnit.
Oh and then we had JM literally flying across the world to be with JK for his Solo debut (if only GMA concert wasn't cancelled, damn it), and them dipping off for their 4 day private trip in CT.
It's sad how short people's memories are. Really. I am reading all sorts of fanfictions being put forward as "this is what happened with Jikook over the years", stating facts that are not facts, creating non existent drama, because people love the drama.
This is a loving couple in a long term relationship. You know, that boring kind. The stable, loving, filled with respect and no drama. The one where one supports their partner when they are struggling. One where just being with each other is fulfilling (cough JK coming to JM's room in LA just to be with him in the same room for hours cough).
Funny how people are talking about them breaking up 2020-21 during the pandemic when JK literally had a slip of the tongue spilling the beans they live together, they are one household, in Run BTS episode 142 they were each gifted a knife. JK all proud and piping up "we got 2"...
JM just sitting there all quiet, smirk on his face.
Stories about breakups. Stories about sexually experimenting but no actual emotional commitment. All while ignoring the constants. Those things that are just there, all the time, whenever we do get to see them:
That electrical chemistry between those two.
The way they look at each other constant over the years.
The way they talk to each other constant over the years.
The way they touch each other constant over the years.
The way they talk about each other.
The way their interactions are so different from the others or their own with the others.
The way the others are around them, their reaction to Jikook.
All still there!!!
*PS:
I wrote this post yesterday before JK's Radiohead appearance and his TikTok post-delete.
I guess now would be a good time to repeat what the wise @ourwinterspring (yes, I'm mentioning you again, lol) once said (well a couple of days ago, that is):
Some of the bloggers that I follow here talk about how important it is to watch original content. It seems to be an obvious thing to do, yet many never go quite that far. Especially some of the fringe people who are hyper-focused upon a single member or a particular relationship within Bangtan.
All I can say is that it does matter, whether one sees original content, or not. When a person relies only on compilations, videos that are created with a particular "focus" (relationship or idol), analysis videos, and content that has incorrect translations or interpretations, then the person is going to have a very distorted view of things.
I know as I've been there..... not realizing what I was viewing as a pre-baby ARMY. (I didn't even know what it meant to be "ARMY".) That YouTube algorythym that can take a person down rabbit holes that have never been explored, you know. Yeah. So I watched a ton of videos on all sorts of things related to BTS, before I was on this platform, and before I really had a grasp on what any of it meant.
Thankfully, one of those YT channels recommended Dalloga's blog here on Tumblr, as she is known for her translations and clarifications on Korean language and culture. I managed to find her blog, not having any clue what Tumblr was. lol It took me over a year get the nerve to create my account, and then another year before I started to follow people and post.
So yeah....As an English-speaking woman living in the States, I had a HUGE learning curve to navigate, and much of it had to do with understanding the culture around BTS. I had to learn what a "bias" was, what "shipping" meant, what the heck those combined names meant 😆 (Jikook, Taekook, Jinkook, etc., etc.), and none of it really made sense to me. Here in the US, we don't have anything quite like the culture around K-Pop. Even now, I don't get the total attachment to labels in the fandom.
So what is the point to these words?
I am finally making my way through some original content that I have never watched before. Yay for me! 🎉
Having watched BV season 1 last week, I just finished season 2 of Bon Voyage last night, and OMG. To watch from beginning to end, to see everthing as it was and not chopped up and edited to fit a storyline someone has created, has been so awesome. It's been even more eye-opening given where we currently are in the BTS timeline (everyone in the military).
And, I see dynamics and moments in their original context which helps to clarify my understanding of things. Yeah. Clarity and understanding... always a good thing.
I understand how some have mis-interpreted certain things.
I'm going to navigate away from making big statements here, that would lead down some rabbit holes that I'd rather not explore. There are plenty here on this platform who have done it already, and it's not my forte. I'll just say that it is always a good choice to look at original content, and just let it be what it is. The reminder here is that they never show everything. What we see is but a glimpse....
These months that we have on-hand are a prime time to take the deep dive into original content. Perhaps it is a re-visit for some folks.
I'm going to do my homework, and learn what I can, via tons of episodes of BV, RUN BTS, and anything else I can put my hands on. It's going to be a fun journey! 💜💜💜
Rambling in INFJese - Part 9: Dear Future Baby Jikooker and Some Jikookers as well…
Listening to album D-DAY - by Agust D ON REPEAT
[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]
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Dear Future Baby Jikooker,
Here is a letter from me to you, who have just stepped into this curious neck of the woods, but also for Jikookers, who presently might feel lost, in this neck of the woods. This is going to be a long-ass post, ops 😬. In my defence, it could have been even much longer than it is, but let’s be real, there is only so much you might be willing to read at this stage and, at the same time, only so much I can write before I stray well out of topic. BUT let’s start with a welcome, shall we? A very big welcome to those of you who have decided, for one reason or another and we will touch on that to be “Jikookers”. Welcome and congratulations: you’ve officially picked the most fear-inducing, hate-provoking, blasted-ass ship, perhaps, in history but that is just my perception, admittedly, Cleopatra and Mark Anthony might have been good contenders, by the fandom they belong to and most of all shippers within the fandom as well.
SO YES, welcome welcome welcome to the Tumblr side of Jikook things! Now, before we dive deeper into what awaits in my post, and most importantly, into Jikook-world, it’s best we get one thing straight, right off the bat:
Mmm … you might have already known this, in fact you are probably looking at me like “You ain’t gotta tell me that, bitch, like …” but truuuust me when I tell you that this is not as obvious or as known a fact as it ought to be … chiiiiiile 😩.
That being said, there are usually two main starting points for people who end up here, and by here, I don’t mean specifically Jikook-Tumblr, but Jikook-world in general:
You have been ARMY / BTS fans / JK and/or JM bias for a while and are thus familiar with all members in BTS at a level that is above avarage.
You have no clue about anything-BTS, but you heard that there is this “couple” in BTS, so the name of the other members is probably as much as you might know.
As you are ultimately here because of a possible romantic relationship between JK and JM, whether you are 1 or 2 doesn’t make you any better or worse than being 2 or 1. What it does however, is that it will 100% influence and condition the experience you might/will have. That, in addition with the answer to the following question which I highly suggest you ask yourself before you fully step in:
“Why am I here?”
… Perhaps “I believe Jikook is 100% real”, or “I wonder: is Jikook even real right now?”, or “I have reason to believe that Jikook might be, but actually …”, or “I’m not saying but I’m saying, Jikook?!”, or “IDGAF I just think they look good together”, etc etc etc. Trust me, there is a Jikook blog that aligns with any and all conscious and subconscious states of mind, beliefs and/or opinions. So as you proceed, you will or might not realise that some blogs simply want to find people who are like-minded, some blogs just want to rave, rant and talk about the boys to their heart's content, some blogs want to build a following/clout, and some blogs might be up to no good amongst these, some might not even realise that they are….
I, for one, got into the Jikook-world coming from type 1. BTS found me when I needed them the most and I just ended up loving all 7 of them, in different ways, but all 7 nonetheless AND as you might or might not know, I am indeed OT7. One day, as it happens to all of us, I stumbled on a shipping video on YT, it was a Taejin one: I clicked. To begin I was initially shocked that BTS would still have ships at the point in their career (this was around 2021) and I actually thought Taejin to be real … and then you see SOPE, Namjin, taekook, there were so many and all had their reasons etc. After a while I just found them all very cute and didn’t take them seriously at all.
Eventually, somehow, a Jikook video by Made in Busan appeared, I watched it and that was it: … I felt something. But even though I did feel something, I tried to ignore it because as a queer person pansexual I mostly walk around with my invisible hope on my sleeves ALL THE TIMES. So it felt that, once again, for the one millionth time, I would end up wanting them to be so real that the disappointment would crush me, making me feel that once again, people like me are undeserving of love, or at the very least, African and Asian countries are never going to accept this. At this very moment a great part of the USA, and certain parts of Europe, are the only places where famous people and not can live being who they are.
In many other places in this world, particularly African and Asian countries, it is still taboo, dangerous and even life threatening and I am in-between these two types of worlds. So I rejoice everytime a queer couple publically comes out, because even though I know I cannot be them the maximum I can do is go to pride in my pink, yellow and blue outfit it makes me happy to know that had I been born in a different continent, within a different culture, that perhaps, it could have been me. Basically, it feels that happiness for people like me is attainable, even if not for me, if others can safely make it, it would be enough for me for now.
I started from YT and WHAT A MESS IT TURNED OUT TO BE. I made the very big mistake of thinking that because jikook was so rare in the fandom, then people who believed in them were just like me trying to understand kindred spirits. I thought that we were in this to protect and potentially, if time ever would allow, to support what would have become a very influential gay couple. But as time passed, before I knew it, I found myself within the episode of the most toxic BL where, everyone heard voices, many betrayed each other for affection, all slept with each other to spite all, and some resorted to using fans in order to bully each other. The more accounts with this mentality started to appear, the more normal accounts started to disappear. It got to a point were I, a person whom in the meantime had forgotten was a OT7, started to believe that some members were indeed narcissist and any other non-self diagnosable trait. WHEN I REALISED I had to take a BIG-ASS breath, slap myself out of fiction and get-out-style-ran myself back into reality: LIKE … WHAT THE FUCK HAD JUST HAPPENED?!
I had completely forgotten about who BTS were, I got entirely lost in the wrong side of the woods for me, basically I completely forgot why I was even there in the first place! When I then myself in the only youtube channel I trusted at the time, who also suggested we should check a certain blog on Tumblr, when I did, I found a kindred spirit and never went back to YT (by that time wonsummernight had left, Made in Busan, like MizGator, were all gone). There was no forced narrative, the logical consideration of events, the unexplainable emotion of others, it was up the alley I had wanted to be. It brought it back to me just supporting real maybe-queer people like me, rather than fighting over fictional characters in a drama that had nothing to do with me at all.
I regained my rationality, and peacefully lurked, until I got curious about certain topics and decided to send in asks, or just wanted to send words of encouragement to other blogs I began to like and were constantly attacked. Eventually I realised my side of the woods was also thinning out, and because I felt like I had a lot to say as well I began this blog, to just talk, talk and talk. It was fun talking, revisiting Jikook moments with other people who thought alike or people who respectfully didn’t and still kept it at a healthy level. Speaking with other queer folk was also a perk. I literally had no expectations upon coming on Tumblr, I just wanted to keep up with Jikook, while keeping my sanity and rationality. Writing my thoughts about them also helped me lay out my opinions and, through educated speculation, maybe realise things about Jikook hadn’t before and so on and so forth. As things stand in this very moment, within my boundaries, I still believe there is something between them. Chapter 2 is what, surprising, turning out to be as I predicted it would be, to a T except for JK’s weverse, that I couldn’t predict not a single one, for shit it is all very interesting to be honest, and though I can know see things will only get harder from here on, it is okay.
Even though this place feels like it is about to become another, YT, twitter, etc. It is okay. I never had any expectations to begin with, but the fact that I know where I stand in my Jikook neck of the woods, makes my anger towards some bullshit very well directed towards said bullshit, and never towards jikook, BTS or any unrelated parties. I like that when I log off my life goes on. I love that even though I have times when I miss them a lot, it is just that and I am not going crazy over it. In the same way I love that there is a chance that within this global powerhouse of a band there might be somebody that loves like me. In the queer way I, and many others, do.
So my dear future Baby Jikooker, find out why you are here. Understand what it is you want. If it is being in delulu-land that is perfectly fine I also go there from time to time, I find it fun, and when things actually happen right from delulu-land it makes it even more fun! Just gotta trade carefully, that's all. If you wanna find friends, if you wanna talk, whatever it is, just be aware of your decisions, and possible consequences, and you will not be disappointed, hurt or disillusioned, in the long run. If you don’t like all the other members, at the very lease please respect them, because Jikook surely do love them.
If you find that this environment is becoming too much for you, protect yourself the best way you can, leave if you need to, you have the right to do so. As you keep exploring make sure to find the blog that is right for you, and if you feel like it is what you want, write your own. If something feels too good to be true, check sources, always, original content is always available. If you are okay for them to be too good to be true, then do you, it is your experience, just be mindful not to ruin it for others and I hope nobody ruins it for you.
So once again, WELCOME TO JIKOOK-WORLD. I hope you don’t get too lost and you find what you were looking for. I hope you come out of it alive, if at some point you decide to run away. And if you survive all the bullshit that might take place between now and their military service (MS), if you are still around, and Jikook just so happen to be who we think they might be; then I’ll see you on the other side, or if you want come holla.
Food for thought but here's an interesting video about the psychology of the trinity and I'm curious as to what your thoughts on this and how Gege might be applying this in JJK considering the concept of threes is arguably prevalent in the series.
https://youtu.be/LAR6FPBPbmA?si=61IoNkA2M7w8dPIb
ohoho anon. I even made a little diagram about it that I just absolutely have to share because the brainrot was so good.
This is the thing, maybe this amounts to something, maybe it doesn't, but these are the things my nerdy brain lives for in jjk. ESPECIALLY because they show Gege's level of metaphorical thinking.
I remember this one time this jjk anti told me "I am sure Gege does his research, but jjk is not that deep". Bro... this isn't research, this is deep understanding of the dynamics of the psyche.
Anyways, Analytical Psychology in jjk under the cut'o.
In fact... MBTI anon, this one might be for you... I'd be curious to read your thoughts.
God I missed using that meme.
First things first. Max Derrat! YES. I've only seen a few of his videos, but what I've seen has always been very, very interesting stuff. Guess how I found him?
Dun dun dun...
Jacob's Ladder.
I WILL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT THIS MOVIE.
So, anyone reading this, go watch the movie and the yt video shared by anon if interested. The movie is a mindfuck, my favorite kind.
About the video...
TLDW; Max basically talks about why the number 3 is considered a sacred number in numerology. For example, Max argues that we often see Gods that come in triads (i.e. Zeus and his brothers Neptune and Hades), but argues that 4 is actually a number of wholeness.
I had rambled about numerology and the significance of 3 and 4 before here. But here's the text again (context: mind = body = soul in jjk as representing the 3 major clans):
Thing is, we are ideally meant to think of it as if this holy trinity (3) makes up one whole together (4). This "whole" is called the Self in Jungian terms, and it is thought to be the entirety of our existence (mind (includes the shadow) + body + soul).
Also, from a numerology and esoteric standpoint, you also want to consider that four (the Self) symbolizes stability and order, where three (mind + body + soul) is harmonious but not balanced.
But I really like that Max brought up the Kabbalistic tree of life for his example of why 4 = wholeness. I'm not going to go into all that tho. Suffice it to say he brings up Jung's Answer to Job, which I have not finished reading, but I understand the book is basically Jung rambling about why God is basically an asshole.
Don't quote me on this.
Part of the conclusion that Jung came to is that if God (1) represents "good" then he is not omnipotent because there is an opposite energy to "good", and that is "evil", or Satan (2).
Now, Max talks about how the Holy Trinity (3) represents aspects of God (or something like that), but that Satan, who is on an equal level as God (because good vs evil are opposing energies), got pushed into the shadow (4).
Again, Max does a much better job at explaining how this works, but the whole thing totally reminded me of Jungian typology.
Excuse the chicken scratch.
In the diagram above, you can replace mind (spirit), body (the son), soul (the Father) and (?) with one of the functions from the MBTI.
Mind you, I haven't studied Jungian typology in depth, and I am totally not well-versed on MBTI typology. But the gist of it is that there's 4 functions thinking, feeling, sensation, and intuition. For one reason or another, one becomes dominant, two support the dominant one, and a 4th one is underdeveloped or pushed into the shadow.
You see the pattern?
This is where we come to jjk and the one who might "emerge from the darkness, blacker than darkness. [And] purify that which is impure."
Jujutsu Kaisen
Now. I don't have the most coherent thoughts on the topic tbh. Everything is kind of a bunch of ideas floating around that I'm having a hard time grounding.
But I think of particular interest is the idea of the bath's goal being "being near evil."
But in the original Japanese text, the kanji Ura Ume uses is the kanji for devil/demon, not evil. You know, the function that got pushed into the shadow.
魔
So there's defo something here pointing at the need for wholeness and for bringing the contents of the shadow into consciousness in order to achieve said wholeness.
And what is in the deepest depths of the shadow? The devil himself. Your own worst enemy.
If you haven't already, I recommend you read Ant's meta of Megumi's character (hi Ant). Of particular interest to this whole ramble, is the idea that at the core of individuation, Megumi is being tasked with merging with his shadow and how that has greater implications...
God I love Jujutsu Kaisen...
Anon. THANKS for this ask. I am spoiled with brainrot inducing asks and I am very grateful for it.
Thank you for not shying away from discussing Jikook like normal adults or deleting asks or being a coward. You don't hold back and for that you have earned my complete respect. A lot of Jikookers lately can't take the heat. You out here not giving a shit and speaking your mind. Jikook deserve 100% support, even when the hate roles in and the heat gets turned up and you still here. You the real MVP.
This is what I am sick to death of. I am tired of someone posting something Jikook related and so called JKK telling them to delete it because it sets JM up for hate. First of all, fuck you for being a coward. 2nd of all, that is exactly what TKK and Jimin antis and Jikook antis want. They want you not to post stuff related to them. For example, JK brother allowing the photo of Bam and Jikook on his tag. What happened? Cult got mad, started harassing the person, until she deleted the tag. Again, fuck you for being a coward & worrying about being cancelled, instead of proudly standing up for jikook. His brother allowed it. There should not have been any other discussion about it from Jikookers side. Encouraging her to delete it, because it brings hate on JM. Wake the fuck up. Jimin is gonna get hate regardless and so is JIkook. Maybe stand up for him for once and stand up to antis. Setting them up for hate? For what, discussing real moments? real translations? Eat my ass, I will talk about Jikook openly and proudly, because I know even if I don't, they're still gonna get hate and not doing it, gives haters power and I ain't about that life. Jikook doesn't need your fake ass support and coward and run away, the minute you get hate and can't take the heat. You either support them fully and don't back down or get to stepping, they don't need you and we don't either. Weak ass bitches. And no I do not mean posting private stuff and being asked to remove it and you do. That is different. I mean something simple, like take Polyc picture & Jikook on the phonecase. I keep seeing posts today, OMG, delete, delete, Jimin will get hate. You are out of your rabid ass mind if you think I'm gonna put a sticker of Jikook and show it off proudly and you guilt me into deleting. Slap yourself as hard as you can in the face for me, please. You don't fuck me, you don't pay my rent, you are not my mom or my dad. I will do what I want and loving and supporting Jikook unconditionally is what I do. If Jikook still jikook and are unbothered, then I am going to be too and if you are bothered, you are here for you and the clout you receive off supporting Jikook only, esp if you delete cause TKK come after you. Own who you ship or don't call yourself a supporter, its as simple as that. Being a Jikooker is not for the weak or faint of heart. This life isn't cut out for most of you and it shows.
Lack of balls is what makes the vermin run rampant all over twitter. I've noticed Tiktok Jikookers are not scared of them. I've seen a comment with like 50 replies coz a tkkr thought to insert themselves under a Jikook video. YouTube too, Jikookers on YT comments dont seem to be scared of them. Its people on twitter who are so so scared of these people. And now look where we are.
That being said, a Jimin report page recently had to to give up their account because all the Jimin hate was beginning to affect her mentally. So I understand not everyone is as strong. Not everyone can handle confrontation. I totally get that..
But I do feel like if we back eo up, people would feel more confident in not deleting their shit or running into hiding. But we don't fight these people back and so they have gotten over confident. Jikookers need to unite more. Defend more. Like anon, this is how I feel. Tkkrs basically control twitter fandom rn. The few REAL ot7 accounts left that are not undercover tkkrs are terrified of these people. Absolutely terrified. Some translation accounts won't even translate when JK says something about Jimin. That's how bad it is.
Silence is really not the solution here people. I'm afraid its really not.
I am happy though to see them going mental because V is being accused of FS to feed them. They have accused this of Jimin for years but now suddenly they can't take it when its happening to them???
I love it. Get a taste of your own medicine assholes!
Hey. I've seen some of your HB rewrites and their pretty cool. I even like some of the ideas you came up with (ex. Stolas & Stella being political enemies rather than a married couple, imps being intersex & following a binary gender system, etc).
I was wondering if you could give me some writing advice with rewrite stuff. See, I have this portfolio-like series called 'Let's Reimagine', where I revision (i.e. rewrite and/or redesign) a piece of media (be it a show, movie, webcomic, video game, etc), whether it be something I like, or something that while I'm not a fan of, believe that it could've been great (or at least decent) had it been handled better, while also integrating my OCs (including self-inserts) into my revisions as if they were canon characters in said media. This is one of my passion projects that I'd love to bring to life someday, as I wish to make YouTube videos about them when I create my YT channel (which doesn't exist at this point in time) in the future, so for now, I'm starting small by making posts talking about my revisions on Tumblr & Reddit as like a practice run of sorts (like for ex. creating a manga and then having that manga get an anime adaptation, or creating a comic (like a webcomic) and having that be adapted into an animation of some sort (ex. series, short(s), etc), or creating a book or novel and having said book or novel being adapted into a movie and/or series).
I'm also an aspiring writer who wishes to share their stories with everyone for them to enjoy, including 'Let's Reimagine' (where Helluva Boss is one of the shows I plan on reimagining, due to the many issues it's got, especially with the increase of them in Season 2; as much as I like & enjoy HB, I do have to agree that it's kind of a mess, and I get where fans are coming from with its criticisms, especially towards Season 2). However, there are some issues of mine that I feel could detriment my writing abilities & projects (including 'Let's Reimagine') in general (ex. not thinking about potential plot holes, inconsistencies, worldbuilding/lore issues, & questionable/weak/bad writing choices/ideas, rushing into things before thinking & planning stuff out, worrying about my stories not being good enough for anyone to enjoy, feeling inferior compared to other artists & writers, people hating what I make, and thinking the worst possible outcomes; apologizes if that got a little too personal and if I (potentially) made you worried; I suffer from anxiety and have a tendency to get anxious and worked up too quickly, especially when thinking negatively, and trying to be a perfectionist, worrying that if I or my content aren't perfect, then I come across as a failure; but I assure you that I am trying to work on these issues and getting past them for the better).
So, with all that said, do you have any advice in creating & doing rewrites/revisions (ex. planning stuff out, character arcs/development, worldbuilding/lore, plot points, fixing & covering plot holes & inconsistences, fulfilling wasted/missed potential & missed opportunities, avoiding questionable/weak/bad writing choices/ideas, integrating ocs/self-inserts into said rewrite/revision, etc) to any writers out there (including aspiring ones)?
Feel free to respond back to me whenever you get the chance. Thank you and have a wonderful day/afternoon/night. 🤗💕❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖💕🤗
This is very late, I'm so sorry it took me this long to answer your ask.
Things has changed sufficiently from when this ask was submitted. My HB rewrite is on currently on pause so I can focus on my Hazbin one instead.
I do like the concept of your Let's Reimagine series. It sounds like a fun passionate project in which you experiment with your writing and show tough love for the shows you're rewriting for. I hope soon you'll be able to release your first rewrite for the series.
I have some general writing advice and one specific advice for rewrites I personally use.
Create the world building first
If your rewrite takes place in a fantasy world, I suggest fleshing the world building first before the characters. This is a different world from our, so their rules and lore will affect these characters differently, and you should know why first to explain the certain elements of the both the characters and world. Fleshing the world building first can help create plot ideas and external conflict easier.
Have a Beta Reader
This one is standard. I suggest having a beta reader to review your rewrites and concepts. As writers, we think our stories make sense because we know the context, but to readers who don't know anything, our scripts realistically be confusing at first. Along the same vain, they can help you realize that an idea is underdeveloped or useless. Another good reason is they can offer new and improved concepts and ideas you didn’t or wouldn't think of before.
Be open to criticism
Criticism will help you grow as a writer. You don't have to like them all or listen to every piece, but still keep an open mind because they can and will help you. I heavily suggest being open to criticism specially when you’re writing a topic you have no experience in (Ex: mental illness, addiction, a specific identity). Again, not only will it help you improve, but also portray those topics better.
Rewrite
My only rewrite specific advice is to expand and flesh out ideas and characters, you felt the original show skimmed over. In both of my rewrites, I'm putting a greater focus on the world building, dark character concepts and how they intertwined with each other because the shows barely touches on them. It's your rewrite so do whatever you want with it, don’t feel limitless.
Whether I'm neuro divergent or neurotic is really none of your business. But feel free and diagnose me.
Do I have an irrational fear that someday the Fandom will be overran by one member's solo stans and hooligans- YES.
But there's more to this than fear I assure you. I'm not one to be driven by fear. if I did I wouldn't be blogging about B. T. S for God's sakes!
And yes. I'm aware not all OT7 follow the members equally. There are Tae stans who follow all but Jimin. Jimin stans who follow just Jimin and Jungkook and some stans who don't follow any of them at all because they are on their personal accounts.
I took that into consideration too so power down.
And please I am not favoring Jikook because I ship them. I literally did the math there. If you assume that every member has a few bot accounts that reduces the gap between Jimin and Jungkook to almost zero!
While the gap remains significant compared to others.
The less gap between members, the more a sign that they have mutual followers. Did you fail in math?
The gap between JM and Namjoon is significant but not quite if indexed as a percentage of the total follower gap ratio between the members.
And yes. There's strength in numbers and I'd be a fool not to acknowledge how much leverage, social proof and power comes with a higher fanbase or following even on IG.
And yes I recognize IG is not the main or only proof of following for the Artists which is why I specifically said I was referencing IG or exclusively mentioned their accounts on IG.
Having such high numbers come with perks.
Tae stans were able to single handedly stall Hybe from trademarking borahae because Tae was the inventor of that.
That's power right there!
Imagine what else they can do if they put their minds to it!
PJMs couldn't even get Hybe to apologize to Jimin for not telling him about the whole Marvel Eternals Friends gig. Let me not mention the flight thing too. Or the voice training. Or the constant anxiety out of fear he could get fired from his job at anytime
And that was not from lack of trying.
So forgive me if I feel the need to 'compete' for those numbers- how else will I get Hybe to NOT TREAT JIMIN LIKE SHIT???
I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO BULLY HYBE SOMEDAY TOO YOU KNOW?🥺
TAE STANS ARE SO BADDASS😭😭😭😭😭
They bullied us all and got JM STANS to hate eachother. I know a lot of PJMs and Jikook stans that's fled the Fandom from bullying while tuktukkers stick together and regenerate like roaches as they eventually go solo cos no one hates Jungkook more than a scorned ex Tuktukker🥲
Jokers hate each other more than tuktukkers and are always pandering to them- well this is the results. Hope yall are happy now pick mes😊
Pick me. Choose me. Love me.
This is also not to say JM is entirely at the mercy of the company either. Or that he or any of the members are tanking. There's more nuance to it.
And no. This is not a comparison of who has a bigger social dick, this is a comparison of who has a bigger nuclear weapon for the WAR THAT'S COMING.
BTS are powerful as a group. Let me not remind you Hybe butt shook once when they thought BTS was finna sue them!
"After reading the reports, we proceeded to confirm with the BTS members and their parents. It was revealed that the parents visited a law firm located in Kangbuk two months ago to ask about some issues regarding the exclusive contract (video content business related information). Their visit did not proceed any further, and the law firm also did not formally give them legal advice."
Not only can BTS sue Hybe. Hybe cam sue BTS TOO!
And hybe is equally growing larger and more powerful and pushing resources into other artists who can equally rise to fame and power and compete. So don't make this an Army on Army crime thing.
I only made those comparisons because I noticed the Fandom is growing alot when I was on YT and so I went to see their accounts on IG to see if same was reflected. It reflects for Tae and not necessarily the others. Allow every member is growing gradually too.
BTS official account has 68M followers accumulated from years ago. If it's that deep you can simply compare each members following to this number and index it as percentages to give you a clearer picture.
They've crossed so many milestones that took others a decade to accomplish and they are doing all this in under a year. We need to be sucking their dicks not bash them.
Just saying, it's nice to have ammunition in your purse when you go out.
And frankly it's my page and I can do whatever I want
Someone said JM has the most engagement.
I don't know how engagement is measured when we can only like their posts. And most of these trackers compare Like, comment ratios. I've seen others try to use this to invalidate those results. But JM is brand reputation king for a reason and I don't know how people keep underestimating him for this.
If you could see the amount of shares and saves on his posts you'd marvel. High engagement for him could mean he gets the most shared posts, most saved posts, most shared to stories, shared to apps other than stories or IG and ofcourse- the most likes to follower ratio.
If I have 50 followers and all of them tend to like my posts at any given time that's a 100% engagement ratio.
If 45 people out of my 50 followers like my posts that's a 90% engagement ratio. If 35 people like my posts there will be a drop in my engagement ratio as well.
Thus, the more followers a person has the lower their engagement ratios tend to be. 47% engagement for JM will look somewhere around 30% engagement for someone with followers higher than his follower count- even though the same number of people could be engaging with them equally.
This is not a pissing contest.
They are all doing great.
But yea, I'm looking at the 68m 0T7 and where they all went. I expect each member to have this for base followers at least and not the gaps I'm seeing 😣
i was just watching a gameplay of bg3 on yt (because i'm the kind of person who doesn't play but enjoys watching lmao) and as soon as astarion made an appearance i was like "oh, summer's guy!!!" my nepo blorbo
!!!
for real though it makes me so happy that everyone just associates me this is vampire now. like i’m aware he’s become my whole personality on this site, but i guess that just goes to show how insane i am about this dumb video game guy!!
I remember you liking that one music video with a bl-esque story line (two guys on a vacation or something?), so I was wondering if you were aware of the k-pop group OnlyOneOf? Their song "libidO" has an mv that depicts (queer) sexual awakening, in my opinion quite beautifully and tastefully. They have also recently started a series of solo projects, the first one being YooJung's song "begin" where the mv depicts the beginnings of a romantic story between a diner worker (YooJung) and a business guy (played by another member of the band, KB). KB is releasing his own solo song "be free" next week, on the 26th, and that mv will be continuation to "begin". (Also, since you like a good suit, I'd recommend watching their video "suit dance (lyOn's Den ver.)" because, well... they're dancing in nice suits.)
Hi, oo thanks for the recs!!
Okay everyone, this is not a Kpop blog but...
KPOP BL CROSSOVER DISCUSSION INCOMING
That music video I talked about in the past is Park Won's Fuxxxxx Crazy and it stars the teacher from Light on Me opposite the cutie from Mr Heart in a long weekend get away date and it is SO CUTE (and a little hot). I think of it as the follow up to the tiny cliff hanger we got for that teacher character in LoM.
I have seen libidO from OnlyOneOf.
It made a buzz here on the Tumblrs when it came out. I enjoyed the video, although I'm not wild about the song. I don't love it when Kpop references the late 90s. Early 90s, sure, but once it gets clubby and trancey I kinda check out.
I watched begin on your rec. Your YooJung is ADORBS (reminds me of a femme Kai - NO BAD THING), now there is a boy who should do BL. It's a very cute MV. Everyone should check it out!
But again, I’m not wild about the song. My taste in Kpop is... very specifically odd and kind of eclectic.
Look, for me, while OnlyOneOf are actually decent singers without any autotune (thank you 8D Creative) they are really breathy in their execution, pulling on head voice overmuch. This makes them sound untrained, immature, and a little unsophisticated to my ear. (I come from BTOB so my standards are high for vocal idols.)
I talked about this once with regards GOT7 but my preference is ALSO for bolder brassy voices (like when Jay B does rock - you need a wet recording to hear this). And if they have to go falsetto, something more warm and honey like Jinyoung (GOT7) or super sophisticated with controlled depth like Changsub (BTOB).
I know the OnlyOneOf boys are young and with a handler new to Kpop, so hopefully they are getting the training they need.
Still, you’re right, I love this for them: a series of linked MVs with a BL plot line, and I am intersted in seeing where they go with it. I subbed one of my side YT accounts to follow the group, I’m intersted in the story.
Nevertheless, if you think about it, will you let me know when KB releases be free? I wanna know what happens next!
If it's true Sam is now an EP of OL, all of the time off makes sense. He always begged for more time off. Fully now am certain S7 is the last and EP status is great cashout. Now, the rumor he is a producer and narrator for spinoff, looks more valid. OL, Tall Ships, Starz, Sony are giving him placce, income, so why hustle, look elsewhere when other projects have crashed and burned? As said by others, he will be nothing outside of anything far from OL, doesn't have what it takes.
It is true, it was announced in some of the articles along with the cast joining season 7 and S confirmed it thanking a fan who congratulated him and Caitriona on it.
I think it is not the first time that actors on a long time running tv show get involved, first as producers and then as exec producers. So nothing really surprising about. It wasn't announce in a huge way, just along the more prominent news of new and old cast members on the new season. So don't know why to make such a big deal about it and why to connect it to all kind of rumours about the prequel. Nothing really is known about it except that it will be about the parents of Jamie.
As already said above, I don't think it is abnormal or anything and can't blame anyone for perhaps negotiating (or shall we say earning) the role of EP.
I think the "everyone knows they are paid much more for doing nothing" is exaggerated much. Productions really don't get on your tv set while people get paid large sums of money doing nothing and others getting underpaid doing all the work. At least I don't believe so.
I did a little research what an exec producer is supposed to do, what the difference is between a producer and an exec producer and also found out there's a difference between an EP on a movie vs one on a TV show.
Google tells me:
A Producer will oversee all aspects of the project, including production, budgeting, personnel, and more. An Executive Producer usually oversees one or two specific areas such as casting or scriptwriting but may not be involved in other areas like location scouting or post-production.
This Organisational Chart shows how it all works too
And in another article I found this
I'm sure they get paid more than when they started out. No surprise, but I don't know where you got your numbers from, if you can verify it let me know. But I don't go with it for now, hope you don't mind.
I sometimes get Anons asking me how much money he has or what his businesses are worth etc. I've seen some crazy video's on YT about it, and a while back someone in my comments claimed he had 240M. Lol.... nope... these are all made up stories. I've seen some numbers created by his accountants of the yearly financial statements of his business in the UK (apart from GGC), and believe me, not even close.... (drop the 40). Together with the real estate he owns (around 2M), you can do the math.
Not that I encourage everyone to sponsor his life, I think people should decide for themselves what they want to do with their money. What I'm trying to say here is, despite my criticism about him from time to time, I do not like these kind of made up stories and don't support the idea that he's doing nothing... he does actually work!
Soooo much happened in my life in 2022 (well from end 2021 though 2022 really). I am so grateful for the friends both online and off who helped me get through it all 💜. I found myself focusing more on art and editing than writing - but I am really excited to share my Pinefest fic with you all in February!
The #1 creation I'm most proud of this year was my Haze Amv, but I am also blown away by how much my Me and My Broken Heart Amv took off - ending the year with almost 20k views - which is in-sane. Setting and sticking to a regular upload schedule has been motivating and rewarding - I'm excited to post January's video on Thursday too :).
Participating as an artist in a couple of bangs for the first time had me stepping out of my comfort zone and drawing the best human being I've ever drawn to-date.
Aside from making things, I also co-modded the new SPN Bang Bang with my friends @doctorprofessorsong and @you-cant-spell-subtext-without, which went wonderfully well; I"m excited for this year's round!
Last but not least, being an editor and guest for @endofthebookpod has been amazing so far, and I'm excited for the rest of The Winchesters season!
Without further ado, here's a recap of all of the SPN fanworks I made in 2022 (I'll also get my masterlist pages updated to include these):
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Fic (all G or T rated):
Did You Mean It? - PB Exchange - Cas realizes Dean's been flirting with him, so he confronts him - with some satisfying results. (reblog link)
The Theme is Dean - Dean birthday - Dean gets the themed party he's always wanted. (reblog link)
I'm the One He's Walking to - Valentine's Exchange - Is this a date? (reblog link)
Sleepy Stares - they are just so soft (reblog link)
You Never Let Me Say It Back - a poem by Dean (I am particularly proud of the wordplay in this one) (reblog link)
Regarding Bunnies - Easter; goofy Dean - Cas gets Dean a fluffy surprise, that yes they've discussed before. (reblog link)
Mon Pays Sera Toi - Dean really likes how protective Cas can be - it makes him feel safe, among other things. (reblog link)
Magic - Samwena drabble (tumblr only)
Rendevous - Drowley drabble (tumblr only)
What if Dean kissed Cas in The Trap? (tumblr only; in the tags)
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Amvs (I'm posting a new one every 5th now - YT channel):
Words Words Words - Dean Winchester - Comedy (YT link)
Squirrel all the Bad Guys Want - Dean Winchester, Drowley - Comedy (YT link)
When You Were Young - Dean Winchester, Destiel - Drama (YT link)
Haze - BAMF Cas, Destiel - Drama (YT link)
Dream Boy - Destiel - fun (YT link)
Me and My Broken Heart - Destiel - Drama (YT link)
The Shipped Gold Standard - Destiel - Drama (YT link)
Don't Let the Light go Out - Destiel - Drama - got (c) blocked on YT, so the Tumblr post has the original audio and the YT version has pitched concert audio that you can kind of hear me in 😳 (YT link)
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Gifs:
LGBTQIA+ SPN Characters
Aang and Cas entrance parallels
That pose from OTHOAP (which I like to think of as honk.jpg)
The totally-not-suggestive way that Cas eyes Dean in 5*02
500 Days of Winchesters - Spn Win / 500 Days of Summer Crossover - Suptober
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Art:
Dean/Cas/Benny drawing for Spn Bang Bang (Benny here is the best human being I've drawn to-date, and the reason I can no longer say that I can't draw people.)
Juliet the Hellhound drawings for Crowley Big Bang
I'll just wait here then Destiel and Merthur parallel (I could go with you is also one but yeah)
A silly little amongus/SPN crossover sketch I might come back to and draw for real.
Sarah Blake references from 8*22 Clip Show
Unusual reactions to 'I love you'
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Non-spn stuff:
Sure this is an SPN year in review, but I did make a handful of other things that I thought it'd be weird to leave out.
Soldier Boy Soulja Boy Amv - (YT link)
Dreamling Dream Amv - (YT link)
Merthur She's got Sorcery Amv - (YT link)
Puppet History Can't Touch This Amv - (YT link)
A Solid Foundation - original sapphic horror story (Reddit link)
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Last year's year in review post was more of a 'here's one fave; check out the pages I made that are a complete list.' But since blog subpages are hidden in the app, I figured I'd do a complete list in the post this year instead.
I plan on doing more writing in 2023 - Pinefest is only the beginning.
Happy new year everyone!
Since tumblr tags suck, I used this Tumblr OP finder to help me put this together.
I've been meaning to do a video on this, but ya know, can't make videos in or around the shelter at all.
So throughout my life I used to think that super skinny hot girls only get into whatever to snag the men. This could be scenes or specific sports, what have you. Scenes can mean music genres or things like hanging around tattoo shops. There is a bit of that need to be the queen bee and stick their nose in the air that they married a tattoo artist, a doctor, a pro dirt bike rider, whatever the fucking scene they choose to rule over. As a younger adult I was trying to figure out why every last guy who is into goth, punk, metal, etc. will ONLY be with a size 0 perfect 10 normal looking preppy queen bee. Like don't you want someone who shares your interests?! But at this age I've learned the answer is NO, cis het men are 1000% about LOOKS and looks alone.
Then fast forward to recent times and before I got into the shelter I bought a pack of poster board to make signs to panhandle with. And I was trying to think of something kinda funny about like "goths can be homeless too", or something. But I couldn't think of anything. Then it dawned on me that there ARE NO other homeless goths today. Maybe when I was a teenager, but not now. And so maybe I've been asking the wrong questions all of my life! 😮
1. Why does every other goth have a good job and financially secure life?!?! How come everyone else can have crazy hair, be covered in tattoos, face tattoos, holes in their face and whatever else the fuck they want to do with themselves and STILL get to fucking work at Bank of America, Microsoft, a doctor's office, a regular retail store, or what have you??!? Why does everyone else get to do what they want and still get a job when I've been completely outcast for being a fat girl just in itself?!?!!! That has driven me nuts my whole life!!! It's always been expected of ME to ultra conform, be under 100 lbs, be 0% body fat, have long hair, and appease the cis het yt man's ideals in order to ever have hope of having a job or a man in my life ever! It's what they've all been trying to pound into my head since I was old enough to walk & talk!!! Why in the fuck does everyone else get to be exactly who they are but I've been condemned to a lifetime of unemployment & homelessness?!?! Why is every other goth financially secure and not in danger of homelessness?!?! Why does everyone else get to do as they please but I'm expected to finally conform and fit all of the boxes of under 100 lbs, 0% body fat, long blonde hair & pretty in order to get a job & be a part of society?!?! It's the endless cycle of WTF I've been stuck in my whole life!!! I'm autistic and I need answers!!!!!! It's fucking maddening!!!!!!
SO the conclusion that hit me was, I'm sort of asking the wrong questions... Maybe the bigger question is why don't other fat girls have any kind of personality?!? Why aren't there other obese people (specifically afab ones) that are hardcore into goth, punk, metal, etc.?!?!?!!? Maybe if there were representation and a wide variety of what obese people were into, maybe we could have normalized this in society by now that not all obese people desire to be ultra conformist?!?!!!?! So why is it all the obese people are all the God, guns, church & football 'merica conformists?!?! I'm just the ONLY fat ass afab anti-capitalist, anarchist, punk, goth, metalhead in existence?!?!!! No wonder it's been so rough!!! I'm the outcast of the outcasts! Yeah if I had no personality and watched football and only babbled about God, Jesus and the bible I probably would have been married and had some average life and not be homeless! But I've always been the rebellious, fuck this, fuck society, fuck12, goth little horror kid from the start and I always refused to conform! I just happen to be fat and afab too. And the unholy trinity of fat, afab & rebellious means I truly am cast out to this lifetime of unemployment, homelessness and loneliness.
Even if I finally figured out what has plagued me my whole life, I STILL flat out refuse to even try to conform. Fuck no. It's too exhausting. I have tried before. I really have tried. But the vampire freak who likes food is just who I am. I wish I didn't have to be homeless to be me. 😞
My plans for the following months (probably a couple of years):
A couple of years ago, people used to tell me "I'm busy" as an excuse to avoid me. And my reaction was "yeah me too, and probably more than you."
I don't even bother now cause I know it'll start a competition. Yes. I know you're busy but I also know you're avoiding me cause I just saw you on the mall with friends who were not me.
Most people in my life won't ever understand that I love them beyond me being busy. I count seconds. Each one is really important for me and I'm risking not to finish all my projects by being here and there with the people I love. But okay. Anyway...
I'm finally about to start the next phase of my projects.
Project #1: DDOE Collection
This is one of my favorites but at the same time it is the one that requires a lot of work and editing and... writing lol
Which consists in several steps:
I have to finish a huge reading list. And by huge you can already see how many books i'll have to read per genre.
48 books on battles, spying, strategies, fights, tactics
2 or 3 on anatomy
5 on History
3 on Etiquette
13 on Psychology
17 on Politics
150 on Myths
2 on Science and Technology
53 to learn how to write better
28 on Music
Plus finishing my 2024 reading list.
Basically all this it's helping me to develop this whole story: DDOE Collection.
Which is a difficult one. Because it's long:
There are at least two series (yes, series) per box. Sometimes more. Right now it's a total of 200 books more or less. Hopefully while I'm editing all that the quantity will also decrease ╥﹏╥
I'm also editing Vampiric Obsession (which is part of this collection) and translating it, all by myself ^^u at this point I probably need help but I can't afford it right now. Which is why I'm making and selling soaps (to hire and pay some day, to someone, to help me with all this... poor unfortunate soul lol doesn't know what's getting into) and also asking y'all for your donations >-< to support this project and the others here mentioned.
So I have to develop a good technique and be obsessive on it to keep control and
Phase # 1 - Tropes ✔️
Phase #2 - Boundaries ✔️
Phase # 2.5 - Reading List ✔️ (currently reading)
Phase #3 - Consequences (on it)
Phase #4 - Politics
Phase # 5 - Maps (on it)
Phase # 6 - Character Database & Background
Phase # 7 - Timeline
Phase # 8 - Write
If you guys want to reach me, you're welcome to do it. Any time. But I'm gonna be really busy this year, writing lol
Project #2: Fit or Die
I'm quite satisfied with how this is going. Obviously I have had to make some changes, but you can still revisit the first idea before I come around with this title. Uhhh I really hope you guys enjoy it.
Project #3: Other stories
I have at least 20 more stories that do not belong in any of the other two categories. They all are stand alone and will be finished as soon as I can figure them out. Not necessarily in a specific order. After that, I do not plan on writing anymore originals. Probably fanfics and petitions if someone wants to ask me for something. But nothing else.
Project #4: Fashion Design
See, this is where things start to get awkward for most people because they do not expect me to stop writing but lol after writing so much, I really doubt that anything I write after that will be interesting. So that's why I'll be doing my portfolio and stepping away from the ink.
Project #5: YT Channel
I'm currently busy but as soon as I am able to, I'll start uploading more and more videos on YT and who knows? maybe even a live or two? So wait for it! >-<
So if you feel like I'm away or anything, I'm probably, *really busy* but I definitely would never ignore you ^♡^ so keep sending messages and I'll reply whenever I can.
in the source link you can find #100 gifs of robert pattinson in various videos. these were made by me so please don’t repost or claim as your own. feel free to edit in any way but please give credit by @’ing me in the post if posting publicly! please like/reblog if using! enjoy!
trigger warnings: flashing lights, shaky camera, body image, kissing, food/eating
Chris Evans x Actress!Reader
Summary: You and Chris were lovers in a major motion picture. Beyond that you were great friends off screen. Except no one believed that. Everyone could see how whipped that meatball was for you, except you lol.
Word Count: 2k+
Warnings: A lot of pining, fluff, also i used Y/N n stuff ASHDHaL:SFHASLHF disgostin, actress au, crack fic lol, etc.
A/N: ayyy I kinda made a another one that kinda could be p2 but not really so if ur into reading it lol here it is
20+ minute YT video captioned: Chris Evans & Y/F/N Test To See How Compatible they are with each other.
It's an all white background and two chairs.
Chris is in a sweater and slacks, as am I.
"Hi, my name is Chris Evans," I say making Chris turn to me and knit his brows mutter, "so who am I?"
I turn to him and examine his soft expression. I place a hand on my jaw and hum in thought. I look at his sweater and I turn back to the camera, "-and today we're going to be seeing how-" Chris laughs softly in the background, "compatible we are."
I turn to the bearded man, "now Ronaldo, I know we're dressed like we're on the same team, but we aren't."
Chris pulls his head back and makes a face. He turns over his shoulder and whispers softly, "are you talking to me? This is awkward."
I snap two fingers at him, "focus, focus, Zhao. You have the attention of a two year old."
Chris begins to look around, "am... am I in the right room?"
"I'm here to prove to everyone that I am the superior Chris Evans because I actually listen to what you have to say--"
He sucks in a sharp breath and straightens his back. He raises his brows and a finger, "aLrIghT, first of all--"
"--quit mansplaining, Johan-- but also the entire film we're in heavily relies on the compatibility we have. Thus if we are found incompatible because of your incompetence, you are the sole reason why this film would have any bad ratings whatsoever."
Chris looks dumbfounded but he eventually sighs, "well, you know what, that seems soundly fair."
I nod, "as it is."
"But your sweater is still ugly," he randomly spurts, making me turn to my white top then to his white top. I stand from my chair and position my arms into a T, "excuse me, this is above my paygrade. My cultured feet will not be insulted by a mildly amusing piece of white bread, thanks."
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IM SCREAMING THE VIDEO HASNT EVEN STARTED AND THEYRE ALREADY AT EACH OTHERS THROATS I SWEAR THEIR BICKERING IS A WHOLE MOVIE ITSELF
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Chris: I-
Y/N: absolutely not
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"I think Y/N is an absolute great person. She's so passionate and kind. Everything she does she puts her heart out. I know how cheesy it is to say, but I have never met someone like her." -chris evans
"Imma be real witchu... I don't get it." -y/n freaking y/l/n
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It do really be like dat sometimes 😔
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MS Y/L/N COLLECT UR MAN OR GIVE HIM TO ME THX
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I love how Chris gets most of the questions right and still is wrong lmao 😂
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OKAY BUT NO ONES TALKING ABOUT HOW SHE GOT ONE ANSWER WRONG BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY STILL RIGHT
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Ya'll can't convince me they're not dating.
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SHe wAs so pressed about it toooo HELLLPPP
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I think they're talking about it now lol
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3 minute highlight clip from a solo interview captioned: Y/F/N On 'How Hard' It Was Working With Chris Evans
The scene is set in a red carpet event. Loud ambient noise in the background and infrequent camera flashes.
I'm wearing a one shoulder, sparkly, green tunic dress. I stand in front of an interviewer wearing something quite similar. She starts off with that, "Look at us, we're matching."
I smile back at her and match her enthusiastic tone, "Yeah! Look at us, in the trends. Had we been wearing the same color, someone would have gotten fired."
We share a laugh.
"So tell me how it was working with Chris Evans."
"Horrible," I say with no hesitation. I roll my eyes dramatically and huff, "the dude kept eating my muffins on set. Just because he had unlimited bread options as Captain America doesn't mean he can just steal my french toast too."
"Oh gosh, I had no idea."
"Yeah," sigh, "it's just not right." I look up and pretend to hold back tears. The dear interviewer plays along and pats my shoulder. I shake my head and raise a hand, "no, I'm fine. I just-- I want America to know that that man you love so much, is a glutton for gluten. It's kind of sad to see how much that bright star has faded."
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You just can't spell Y/F/N without dramatic.
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This woman is so extra and I AM HERE FOR IT. QUEEEEEN
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14 minutes of y/n hating chris & chris proving her otherwise (that's the video)
We're seated next to each other. The interviewer is in front of us and the movie poster behind.
"Do you ever look at someone and say, 'man, that dude is hecka ugly'? Well, folks, that's how I feel when I see him," I say turning to Chris who was already looking at me.
Chris says casually, "I think I'm pretty good looking."
"Well, that's what makes you ugly," I turn to the interviewer, "no one likes a self-aware hot guy."
Chris smiles, keeping his eyes fixed on me, "so you agree?"
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Same setting, different time and interviewer.
Said interviewer asks, "After working on a film for a year, what has been your favorite thing to do together."
There is a short pause.
Chris answers, "you know, I think I'd say something like having coffee. Like, we would go to cafes and just sit there, read a book, and chill."
"Clearly it was enjoyable because I didn't talk to him at all," I say with a firm nod.
"Says the girl who made me rush into the makeup studio just to tell me that stupid joke she had."
My eyes widen in defense, "Oh well sorry you have no humor. Literally everyone in the makeup department laughed at the joke."
"If I had said the joke you wouldn't have let me live that down."
"Yeah, but you wouldn't have said that joke because your a dry piece of-"
--CUT TO--
I'm sitting alone in a studio. The video is in black and white.
"If you could get one trait of Chris Evan's as your own, what would it be and why," I read the question off of a cue card and place it at the back of the deck. "Okay, first of all, I would not touch that man with a 20 foot pole. Okay. Get that on record."
I push the hair out of my face then think for a moment, "second of all, Chris, I think these days, has such a lovable image. You know like, I think before he got his shield, he was type cast as a bad boy, but he really is just a really big, lovable guy, you know. And, I feel like I would want to be someone who feels like that, you know."
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Y/N: Chris Evans 🤬👹 💩💢🔪
Also Y/N: Chris Evans 🥰💖🤰✨🌸
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5 minute clip: Chris Evans On Dating Rumors with Y/F/N
It's a red carpet event. Chris is in a suit and shades. "So," the interviewer asks Chris, "what do we think of Y/N?"
"Well, we think she's great. She's super talented, super hard working, super funny. She's great."
"Yeah, and we know how playful and wild your interviews can get."
Chris purses his lips in a soft smile and shakes his head, "she's a tough cookie, you know?"
"Do you like tough cookies?"
"I mean, a cookie's a cookie. I like cookies. I like them anyway I can get. You can always eat a harder cookie with milk, so."
"Would you say you're the milk to her cookie?"
Chris breaks into a left booby grab laugh. Once he settle down a bit, "I don't know where this is going but I don't wike it."
"I mean, you two are so comfortable with each other. Haven't you ever thought of dating?"
He sighs and shakes his head. He half-heartedly says, "Wow. I mean, what could I have ever thought about if not dating a tough cookie. Look, hey, let's ask her now."
I am about to pass by him, but I'm so rudely interrupted.
Chris borrows the mic from the interviewer, "have you thought of nothing else but dating me?"
I am, admittedly, taken aback. In a few seconds though, I turn to my shoulder and utter one word, "security."
10+ minute panel interview titled: Love Loop Stars Chris Evans and Y/F/N Interview In New York
"I'm really curious," the interviewer asks, "how did this all start? The bickering, the sarcasm, does it come naturally, or was there a tipping point between you two."
The two of us were laughing at the start of the question, knowing exactly where it was going from the get go.
"Well, I'm honestly a naturally sarcastic person. I think Chris and I have a similar sense of humor, but mostly I just like getting a rise out of him. He's such a confused old man sometimes and it's hilarious, which is why try my darndest to give the world the content they deserve. The PR team actually encourage me."
Chris's shoulders shakes in laughter. He shakes his head in disagreement.
"And how do you feel about her banter?"
"Well," he drags out, "not that I can stop her, but with every sarcastic comment she gives-- although... I do get a little nervous-"
"Wait what?" I turn to him with an incredulous look on my face.
"Well, you know you start thinking."
I roll my eyes, "oh my gosh, you just want me to sing praises on live TV and tell the world how much I love you."
Chris starts getting defensive and raises his hands. Red begins to rise up from his neck to his cheeks.
I continue on anyway, "Okay, ya'll better make sure the cameras are recording because I won't say this as often." I clear my throat, "I-" gag noises, "love Chris Evans."
The room cheers.
It's Chris's turn to stand and bring his arms together into a T, "time out." He disagrees, "this is wayyyy above my pay grade."